#i hope you're satisfied with this answer nonnie

[orviposition]

hello!!I’ve seen a few different takes on this and I would like to know your thoughts because I’m struggling to make sense of the side stories.

Do you consider LHH to be his own person, or a variant of KDJ? Also, do you see 4149 or 186549 as JD variants, or as YJH with an individual who isn’t KDJ in any way?

I’ve seen people bash 1865 YJH & HSY in the side stories, accusing them of forcing LHH to become KDJ, which prompted my question. 🥲

dear lord, just about anyone talks about the side story these days, without even knowing what goes on. not once have yjh and hsy "forced lhh to become kdj" although they address him by that name. (however, both of them know lhh's name)

in regards to how i see lhh, honestly it's a bit of both? what lhh is, is quite complicated because you can make the claim "oh well 49 has already reincarnated into lhh, lhh is a different person now" and it's true to some degree but imo to completely divorce lhh's character from his kdj identity would be to erase more than half of his struggles. lhh himself doesn't know what he was without kdj. although he had a happy family/life when his teacher asked him for his story (in middle school? high school? i forgot) he counted kdj's life word for word. even before he met yjh and became an orv author and before transmigration, lhh's subconscious knew about his past life.

when asked who and what are you the answers we get are "i'm a writer" (lhh) "you're the only kim dokja who can write." (dkos) "he's another version of me" (od in the 999th timeline, as well as sp)

so yeah, both claims are right to me. koreans do treat him as kdj though so sometimes im wondering if maybe im losing something in translation, or kr fans are just being delulu (lighthearted).

i guess the safest you can say is "he is his own person the same way od is his own person" both of them are A kdj but not The Kdj

(there's also the fact that lhh is being set up to literally be the host/shell which will restore kdj to 100% or else he'll die from the "Heir to the eternal name" fable that he possesses but anw)

and yes, i 100% do see joonghak/4149 and 186549 as jd variants. similarly for plotja, 999kdj, 1863kdj, 051, spod, 1863kdj, 4049 (this is joonghak with 40th turn yjh) so on and so forth

[navybrat817]

Just.... Bucky getting on his knees and begging "honey, open your legs please" like he's a man that's been starving for months, him breathing and tasting through the panties because he's that impatient.

I love this so much, nonnie.

Sweet Like Honey

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female Reader

Summary: Bucky begs to have a taste when he gets home.

Word Count: Over 1.2k

Warnings: Oral sex (f. receiving), implied sex, possessive behavior, established relationship, slight feels, Bucky Barnes (he's a warning, okay?).

A/N: This feels like Feral Bucky. Hope you lovelies enjoy. ❤️ Not beta read and written on my phone, so any and all mistakes are my own. Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog for new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!

You sat on the couch fifteen minutes ago. You closed your eyes five minutes ago. It amazed you that you hadn't fallen asleep with how tired you were from your long day, but Bucky would be home shortly and you wanted to curl up with him before you dozed off. He’d find it sweet, and so would you.

You should've known he’d have other ideas.

“Hey, Bucky,” you mumbled when you heard his deliberate footsteps. When he didn't answer you cracked an eye open. “Bucky?” you asked, watching him toss his jacket away and flex his hands. He had a familiar look in his blue eyes. Not quite feral, but close.

Oh, he was hungry.

He pushed the coffee table out of the way with his foot and bent down to kiss your lips. Soft, but desperate, so it didn't surprise you when he dropped to his knees in front of you. “Honey, open your legs,” he demanded in a dark, deep voice once he pushed your dress up. One that made you grip the cushions when he rested his hands on your knees. “Please.”

“Well, hello to you, too.” You rolled your eyes, but your smile was affectionate. What had him so wound up? “At least you said please.”

“I did, now please open your legs,” he demanded again, but it wasn't as forceful. You heard a hint of desperation, the same kind you tasted on his lips when he kissed you. “I’m already on my knees.”

“You are,” you agreed and you loved how badly he wanted you. “But why should I open my legs for you? I’m pretty tired.”

His mouth fell open. You never passed up an opportunity for him to pleasure you, and you’d let him eat as much as his heart desired. But you wanted to hear him beg a little for it for no reason at all.

“Because I'm horny and hungry and your pussy is the only thing that’ll satisfy me,” he answered, looking at where your legs were still together. “C’mon. Pussy’s so good. I need it. I crave it. Soft as silk, sweet like honey.”

You moaned. They were good reasons. “Tempting, tempting, but you just ate my pussy yesterday,” you reminded him, which earned you an offended look from the love of your life.

“Yesterday. An entire day ago. Your pussy needs me,” he snarled, his fingers sliding to your thighs and digging in. “Or should I say my pussy?”

“Easy, tiger. We both know it’s yours,” you teased, burying a hand in his hair and making him groan when you tugged on the strands. His words could turn you into molten lava, and you were wet the second he dropped to his knees. “But opening my legs doesn't address the fact that I'm tired. You understand that.”

He smirked when your legs opened an inch. “I’m sorry you're tired, but making you feel good is the perfect way to get you to sleep. I’ll get you off on my tongue and fingers… Make you pass out when I get my cock in you.” He sounded wrecked as your thighs parted more, your core . “And I’ll carry you to bed and wrap you in a warm blanket.”

“And you’ll cuddle with me, too? If you’re demanding that I open up, I demand some cuddles,” you said. He’d cuddle with you even if you didn't demand it.

“Cuddle, snuggle, curl up with you, spoon you, can even keep me cock warm while I hold you,” he rattled off, smirking when you bit your lip. “Just let me eat, please.”

You hummed. It was tempting. And how many people could say a super soldier begged for just a taste of them? To fuck them? “Just how hungry are you and for what reason?”

Bucky licked his lips when you completely opened your legs and showed him your clothed cunt. “Fucking hungry and for no reason at all except your existence,” he growled.

You made a small noise when he dove in and inhaled, your face nearly burning from how hot it felt when he licked and tugged impatiently at the wet fabric with his teeth. “Bucky!”

“Told you. ‘m fucking hungry.” He licked the fabric again with a growl and nudged your clit with his nose. “God, you’re so wet for me. Need it on my tongue. Need it on my cock.”

“Fuck…” you whimpered. He wanted your pussy so badly he couldn't even wait for a proper taste. “Okay, you can eat.” He had begged enough in your eyes.

“Fucking finally.”

You scoffed. “Finally? You just-”

He ripped your underwear off and left you bare, drawing another breathless sound from you at the first touch of his mouth on your damp folds. He brought his hands to your hips and pulled you closer so he could open you up with his tongue, his broad shoulders keeping your legs apart. You nearly lost it when he plunged it deep inside and licked around your walls, his throaty moan making you shudder. Every lick and caress made you feel like you’d melt into the couch. The sensations were overwhelming, especially since your senses went from dull to heightened.

“Beautiful,” he rumbled.

“We both are,” you smiled. He made you feel beautiful, and he sure as fuck looked beautiful between your thighs.

“And I’m so…” His thumb on your clit had you pulling his hair. “Fucking…” You tightened around the finger that slipped inside your tight channel. “Hungry.”

There was no getting between Bucky and his meal. No stopping him once he had a taste, his fingers and mouth tender even as he devoured you. It almost didn't seem fair some days. All you had to do was flash your tits or spread your legs and the ex-assassin was lost to the world. Even after a long day you got to lay back while he pleasured you simply because he wanted you. You reaped all the benefits, came every time.

You’d make sure he came, too, before the night was over.

“You… really are hungry,” you moaned, your back arching when another finger. Bucky wasn't just an enthusiastic lover. He was attentive. He knew what made you tick and how to make you let go. “Fuck! There! Please!”

“Music to my ears, and you really do taste like fucking honey.” He gazed up at you with a smirk on his wet lips as his fingers curled. You tasted yourself on his lips before and it tasted nothing like honey, but who were you to argue when he enjoyed it so much? “Melt for me and I’ll carry you to bed on my cock.”

It didn't take you long to reach your peak of pleasure once his mouth was back on you, your thighs shaking and his name leaving your lips in a cry. He hummed and groaned as he tasted your release like it was the most delicious treat he ever had. You were aware that he called you a good girl as your vision blurred, and he also said he loved you as you rode out your orgasm. He may have even apologized for the “lack of foreplay”.

But as he carried you to bed with a kiss to your forehead and his cock buried inside you as promised, you knew he’d more than make that up to you.

The man needs you, okay? Love and thanks for reading! ❤️

Masterlist ⚓ Bucky Barnes Masterlist ⚓ Ko-Fi

[rottenraccoons]

Hello Hello! Im here to ask a wee technical question bcs i love the game so much and it got me thinking. After playing most VNs i can see there's two types generally, those having linear plot disregarding LIs and choices (only minor changes) and those that has completely different plot lines for different LIs and/or choices.

I kinda see Obsucra doing the latter (And its really interesting, I love it!), but i want to ask how are you guys able to maintain a parallel storyline with roughly same weight and depth in each route? Its a really interesting writing technique that I would love to get insights on!

love you guys and your work so much! hope you have plenty of treats, rests, and fun!!

Oh, this is a fun question!

I think the simple answer is that Vesper's quest is the same regardless of route: they want lunar ichor to deal with their fractum anima. No matter what's happening on each route, Vesper has the same goal and stakes, which I think keeps the routes feeling relatively balanced. Doesn't matter if you're wooing sweet bean Francesco or re-enacting the "I'm in danger" meme with Cirrus, Vesper's ultimate goal the stakes of that remain the same.

Something else that might be helping that is that we don't have a "true" route or a required route order. Both of those traits can be used to great effect in games! The sensation of peeling back layers of a narrative is super satisfying, and route orders can be really helpful for diving into a complicated narrative or setting. But you are necessarily putting some routes farther from the "truth", which can make them feel a bit shallow in comparison to the ones "deeper" in.

And thank you for the lovely compliment, nonny! Hopefully we're still hitting the mark for you in Chapter Two ❤️

[tsukilunatic]

Panther hybrid Junghoon. Dark, quiet, much stronger than you expect. Will possibly pounce on you at random moments. Will ABSOLUTELY play the whole ✨predator instincts✨ thing up if you ask.

a/n: i GASPED when i saw this ohhhh my god ohohohoh nonnie i could kiss u rn im so glad there are other hybrid freak roadys out there i fr thought i was the only one. anyway, hope u like it! heh (also this is a lot longer than i originally intended for it to be but... i got excited okay? let a girl liveeeeeeeeee)

✦hybrid!junghoon thoughts...

panther hybrid!junghoon x reader! ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

w. sfw and nsfw content! he's a whore by the end of this. mention of reader's friend minjae and his puppy hybrid!junmin lmao. no gendered terms for reader. intentional lowercase. also this is messy and not at all proofread<3 // wc. 747 (my hand slipped)

thinking about panther!junghoon who is so quiet. and he uses it as a weapon too, as in, sneaking up behind you for cuddles and just. not letting you go until he's satisfied (he's so strong you literally have to wait until he lets you go coz... there's no way you're getting out of his hold by yourself...)

if you called him a good boy he'd try so hard to not look affected by it, but he's blushing so hard when he thinks you aren't looking.

he likes to act like he's not interested, but when he can't see you he's always listening out for you. just to make sure you're okay.

imagine adopting him as some sort of protection because you've just moved into a new place by yourself and it's not a great neighborhood, your neighbors are creepy, etc.

as protection, a panther hybrid makes sense, and junghoon does look pretty intimidating what with the constant -ㅅ- face and all.

but in reality... he's just a big cat. he likes lounging on the couch and doing nothing. a total sweetheart.

not to say he wouldn't scare your creepy neighbors away though! like he's really good at answering the front door with a scary face. but... he's really bad with people so he has a hard time actually acting scary.

unless he's jealous.

imagine going out with your friend minjae and his puppy hybrid junmin and taking panther!junghoon with you. junmin is sooooo friendly and adores your attention so he's always doing all he can to get head scratches and play with you.

and junghoon doesn't look at all fazed by his antics... until you and minjae leave the room.

i actually don't know how he'd do this, but by the time you and minjae get back, junghoon would have put the fear of GOD in junmin. like, my boy is pissing himself, he MIGHT cry.

and junghoon just brushes it off with a shrug like "oh, i guess he missed minjae" like........ bro.

he's a sweetheart though! and he LIVES for cuddles! i imagine he absolutely hates sleeping anywhere but your bed. even if it's just for a little nap, he's getting under the covers and nesting because he's got the "it's not yours, it's ours" kinda mindset.

semi-related, he's so obnoxious about scenting. like you may not notice it because he tries not to make a big deal out of it, but he's obsessed with you being absolutely drenched in his scent. like he wants every hybrid on the BLOCK to know you're his (and that he's yours!)

this also includes stuff like making your bed smell like him, or losing his mind when you wear his clothes, or insisting on showering with you just to make sure you don't scrub his scent off. (he's possessive idfk what to tell u)

because he's a panther hybrid though, he does have a hard time expressing how he feels (canon junghoon btw). something about being a big strong animal makes him feel like he's supposed to be the one protecting you and never the other way around.

and this goes for all his needs too. he's bad at telling you when he's feeling a little needy so he just settles for... showing you.

i love the idea of panther!junghoon just. dragging you away from whatever you're doing when he's needy.

or hugging you from behind and you think he's just scenting you and being a cuddlebug until you realize he's unbuttoned your shirt and pants and is shamelessly feeling you up.

and he's unpredictable like that. he's insanely quiet and he doesn't give you any warning, so don't be surprised when you're doing the dishes or something and he randomly drags you to your room to rail the life out of you just cause he was "feeling a little bored."

the manhandling too??? the second he realizes you're into his whole big strong predator thing he's using it against you.

i mean like specifically waiting in the dark for you to come home just so he can pick you up and carry your ass to the bedroom the second you step in the door.

or pinning you down and kissing and licking and biting and marking you all over. and then!! he has the audacity to pretend he doesn't realize how turned on you are and says some shit like

"why are you squirming? i haven't even touched you yet."

anyway. i'm totally normal about him. ummmmm

a/n: sorry for being feral! likes, reblogs, and comments are appreciated! my inbox is always open!

✦back to... nav page. mlist. ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

[szarina]

Okay. I have read all your writings and I need to to ask does geto love their darling or he just thinks of them as someone obedient he can use for himself? He really confuses me. Like sometimes he says that he almost worships her and other times he compares them to a trained pet?

it's complicated, nonnie.

since yanderes are complicated and so are their feelings. suguru sees reader as someone he owns and is possessive. he loves them, worship them. yes, spoiled in all levels but there are boundaries from how geto treats them. so the training comes in. you aren't that submissive and had to break rules and geto doesn't like you acting like a brat so he takes it in his own hands until you're the definition of perfect in his eyes.

control is what drives him to be like that. exerting dominance and possessiveness so that you wouldn't think of leaving him and follow what he wants. don't worry though, he cherishes reader and would go lengths for it.

hope you were satisfied with this answer.

[azaharinflames]

"Also, as for Tim, I think he has many flaws as a showrunner. But I think sometimes we go a bit too far. He has a plan. We might dislike it at times, but he does. And I understand being scared, and I share the sentiment, but I think we tend to villanise him a bit too much"

I agree!

I’ve felt this way for a long time now. Ever since the breakup, I had this gut feeling that there’s a plan for bucktommy, but I didn’t want to voice my opinion because the group mentality was — and sometimes still is — that we can’t trust anything Tim and the show do anymore. (I'm glad this is changing tho) I understand that people have doubts, I really do. I had them as well, especially immediately after the breakup because of those cursed interviews. But once 8x07 aired and they showed us that Tommy was bubbling Buck, and the baking, I felt like there was still hope — and I’ve been holding onto that since November.

It was really hard because of all the negativity that took over the fandom, and some days it felt like too much, so I had to step away for a bit to not let is get to me. But now, as we’re approaching the end of the season — especially after 8x11 — I’m not worried at all. I can understand that people still have doubts, but all the signs are pointing toward a reconciliation right now, we just don’t know how it will happen. I don’t think they’ll keep Tommy and Buck apart much longer.

All I’m saying is, if you (general) are bracing yourself for inevitable disappointment, you’ll never be satisfied with what the show gives you. And if you feel that way, maybe it would be wiser to part ways with the show and just enjoy the fandom from here on out.

Thank you for letting me rant in your inbox for a bit! ❤️

Thank you for sending the ask! I love seeing all the different opinions and theories.

As for your message - I have to agree, Nonnie. I remember thinking the same thing in November, though I stopped myself because I didn't want to hope for it too much, ngl.

And I think proof of this can be found in what you said. 807 was the episode right after the break-up, filmed way before they receive the backlash from 806. I don't know if Tommy was supposed to come back this fast, or if there was an initial and tentative idea of letting Buck be single for a while and explore his bisexuality, but the hints of his return were there, as well as the small signs that the show wanted us to remember him, and have in mind that he's different.

I do think group mentality can be dangerous sometimes. Especially with us, I think we were burned so badly that a good chunk of us went into self-preservation mode. Understandable, yes, and I am there too (partly, at least), but there are limits, and there are times where self-preservation does worse than it does good, you know? If we put ourselves into the worst situation to not be disappointed, it can work, but it can also lead us to a state of despair, and it can take away the fun of watching 911. Again, I see why so many people have done this. But I can also see how much it's stopping to work for a lot of us.

That being said, if you (general) feel like it's too much, stepping away, even if just momentarily, is a good option. Watching the show and being in the fandom should be fun - and, yes, we can all support each other and listen to each other. But one thing is that, and another one being so down about it that you're in a constant state of dispair.

I do not want to offend anyone with that, and please know that your feelings are valid. But if this show, and the fandom, is affecting you that much - breathe in, take a break, get distracted. I've had a few weeks where I stopped myself from answering asks at least one day of my weekend, and it's worked extremely well. If someone doesn't want to step back, but feels as if they need a bit of fresh air, you can start there.

Also, thank you for sending this ask, Nonnie. I wanted to touch on this topic but hadn't found the time to bring it up <3

[theredconversegirl]

Hii! I hope you're doing okay. I love your blog so much! Recently I found two good fics that deserve more recognition:

,,Red Tears" by dxkk1104

,,Close Encounters of the Neighbourly Kind" by ArfisraR

♥

Hii nonny,

Thank you so much! 💕

I loved reading your message, especially when I noticed it included recs too. ❤️ I’m doing okay, thanks! And I hope you’re doing well too. 😊

Let’s check these recs:

Red Tears by dxkk1104 Sakura felt a burning gaze on her, as if she was about to perform somewhere. Although, she could already be considered as an actress, playing from a script written by people who only required her to play the role of a wife and not show too much on stage. The whole setting and atmosphere resembled a theater, where the main attraction was two young people forced into marriage. How will they cope? What will come out of it? Is true love destined for them? The audience must wait until the end of the show to find out the answers. [Rated M, on going]

This is a non-massacre arranged marriage fic and this summary pulled at my heartstrings. I can anticipate the angst and pain and the satisfying comfort already haha. 😍

Close Encounters of the Neighbourly Kind by ArfisraR “Well, Pig. Tall, dark, and handsome is a given, obviously. I want him to be really tall, with jet black hair and dark eyes I can drown in. He has to be muscular, someone who works out regularly, and who is strong and tall enough to throw my five-foot-five frame over his back like I’m a rag doll.” “I really hope that you find your ideal man, Forehead, even if he sounds unreal and completely imaginary. In fact, I wish that he finds you and sweeps you off your feet, and he makes you so, so happy that you forget about everyone that came before him.” [Modern AU - Strangers to Lovers] [Rated M, on going]

Wow, check that summary and tags! I love a good Modern AU and it sounds like this one is a delight! 🥰 ~ Happy reading guys! 🍅🌸

Thank you again for the message and recs! I really appreciate them. 🤍 Hope you have a great weekend,

xoxo

[claramelooo]

I was literally drooling while I read that smut scene. It was sooo good?? And Reader showing Aggie how good she is with her fingers was way more satisfying than I ever thought it would be.

Anyway, seeing this side of Agatha written like this felt raw, almost. It was amazing. I like how she tried her best to open up to Reader, maybe because she felt that Reader had previously opened up about how she felt when she was first abandoned by her mother.

I'm just yapping away honestly, but I don't really know what to say. This chapter was amazing. It was comforting and open, and it hurt a little when they were both so vulnerable, but it was so satisfying to see them not linger so stiffly around each other. I mean, Agatha isn't the kind to be vulnerable like this unless she really trusts someone, and that made me ecstatic because she actually talked about Evanora's effect on her current person, but the fact that she directly told Reader that she adores her just sent me to the moon.

Anyway, long rant. I have a habit of doing that. Thank you sm for the food, mother 🙇‍♀️ It was delicious, as always. You get better each and every time. Have a good day/night 💜💚

HEY NONNY! I missed answer you guys. Hope you're kay!

Jesus, a versicle of the bible 🙏🏻 hahaha

I'm glad that you loved that! Actually, It's pretty hard to write Agatha. Maybe because I look a little more like her and it's hard to write about what makes her fragile. She doesn't like to accept that she has weaknesses.

But R is there all the time with her. watching, watching and watching very closely. Upon finding these flaws, R doesn't reject Aggie (as Evanora did) R welcomes, loves and fucks her.

And I think that's so fucking perfect!

Well, the things will going to be more wild now, so... Stay tuned hahaha 😂

Xoxo, honey!

Write me more. ✨

[yandere-yearnings]

Hello Dar! 🦢 nonnie is back and I hope you've been doing well! ^^

Something I've been thinking about for a while now is your style of writing. I feel like in your writing you frame even the smallest detail as if it's the most important thing in the world. It always feels very poetic/romantic even if that's not necessarily what the scene is about. So I was wondering where you got this writing style from? Since I've personally never read anything quite like yours before. Or just in general what inspires you to write?

-Yours truly, 🦢

hii swan nonnie🥺🩷 it's always, always a pleasure to have you back, i hope you've been well too🥰 lately my health hasn't been the greatest, but aside from that, i've been doing okay!! thank you for asking👉👈

bc my response got a bit long, i'll put it under a cut so i'm not clogging up anyone's dash🤧

first of all, i'm genuinely flattered you've even been thinking of my writing actually, that means so much to me😭💕 ig if i had to explain how my style came to be, it would have smth to do w/ writing more for myself rather than for others? when i was younger, i had this mentality that i had to follow all the rules in order to make a good piece, so i was constantly restricting my creativity by sticking to advice like 'show-don't-tell' or 'leave it up to the reader's imagination' and stuff along those lines. but somewhere along the way, i kinda realised that in doing so, i was starting to hate what i created.

after that, i just tried my hardest to write what i'd wanna read personally, in a style that was compelling to me. i mean, i still have my insecurities, sometimes i think wow, i really did not need to waffle that much, but at the end of the day, it still feels more fulfilling. even if something is considered 'wrong' by professional standards, my only long-term judge is myself at the end of the day. so i try to focus less on what's been done before, and more on what i would like to do (which is the reason why i still put spaces between my em dashes when ik that technically you're not supposed to haha)

as for the prose itself, i just write like that bc that's how my thought process works😭💔 like, i'm colourblind, so i have a habit of trying to understand the implications a colour can have rather than the actual colour itself, right? and that type of magnification can be applied to everything else when i put words down. looking at the smaller aspects that build the bigger picture, and then how much of an influence it can have on the scene i'm trying to portray, smth along those lines.

another thing is that, i believe throughout my time writing, most of my works have been angst and imo the smallest details really do feel like the most important thing in the world when viewed through a negative lens so maybe i picked it up from there and rolled w/ it for everything else🤧 the real cause is kinda hard to pin-point somehow

to answer your second question, if you asked me in the past what inspired me to write, i'd probably say smth like 'having a story to tell'. now though, the only thing keeping me doing this is that i genuinely really just like piecing words together in as many different ways as possible. it kinda feels like solving a puzzle so it's super satisfying🥰

ALSO THANK YOU FOR SAYING IT FEELS POETIC/ROMANTIC😭😭 i've always kinda worried that my writing feels too stiff, so hearing that makes me really happy, i really appreciate it swan nonnie😩💕 and you saying that you've not come across something similar before feels like a really sweet compliment too❗❗

[noemitenshi]

if you don't have any thoughts feel free to to ignore this but I've always been obsessed with Troy's face after madison hits him with the hammer the first time and he falls to his knees and I was wondering if you also had anything to say about it?

bc I'm like, it feels like he's just accepting what's happening and that makes me feel so sad but also maybe he's not feeling much of anything bc he's just been bashed in the head and is in shock or maybe he feels kinda betrayed that madison did that too him. idk idk I'm just obsessed with his expression in that moment

Hi, nonny,

and of course im not just gonna ignore your question (and what an interesting question it is)! Especially since I am honored that you're asking my opinion <3 Also, there's two things you need to know about me - 1) i love to discuss all things Troy and 2) in case I haven't yet thought thoroughly about a specific scene (which, at this point seems almost impossible - I have been obsessed with analyzing every little twitch of Mister Otto for over 2 years now) getting asked a question will make me do that. That's just how my brain is wired. (and incidentally, I honestly haven't thought about this scene a lot because well… I was working hard to ignore that this is canon hahahaahah so yeah)

Ok so without looking at that scene again, the way i recall it, i think he was surprised/dibelieving. Maybe there was betrayal there but… somehow i don't quite remember that. What I do remember though is that through that whole bit (starting from "Now look at us. One big blended family" up until she hit him) i was very much reminded of what Emilia Clarke, the actress of Daenerys from Game of Thrones said about her dying scene, namely that she played Daenerys almost childlike there (i may be misremembering her actual words. it was showing Daenerys' innocence and sweetness though in a way) and that's what Troy also read to me in this scene. Just very earnest and almost sweet (for, like, Troy you know) - yes even with him going "I'd do it all again". Even that part was.. naive. That's what he was, the poor guy.

Anyway, let's look at the scene. First in its entirety haha.

And now that I'm watching this I can't believe I haven't been obsessing over it, the way he looks does have something very very precious about it. Like maybe the wide-eyed expression (maybe the fact he's on his knees) maybe the way he almost looks at her like she's his savior (sadly she isn't)… top-notch expression, thank you for making me spend time with it!

Ok next let's split it up.

I think in the first half of him looking at her all the things I've said above are encompassed. He does look surprised and also disbelieving, almost begging, if you ask me. But thennn the second half happens

and.. I'm not quite sure what this expression is but you know, it could very well be him accepting his fate (especially that mouth movement there). Him accepting, ok he went too far in this, ok, apparently she doesn't like hearing this, ok apparently this is how he dies (yes i'm ignoring Troy coming back, just, let me have this).

I also do believe that Troy knew it was a dangerous thing to confess ("i'd do it all again, and you would, too, you know you would...") and that he did want absolution for it. He really hoped this time the people he chose as his family would be ok with him, the entirety of him. But apparently not. So maybe that last part is… defeat. Finally defeat because there's no way for him to keep fighting. He's dying. And maybe he's also relieved that he is. Just a little bit. Maybe it's not too bad that Madison did it. he died for her - probably differently than he'd have liked but still. He did. And that's a bit of alright.

(ok I went off on a tangent there haha, I can't stop myself from rambling if I tried. and to be honest, I didn't try)

I hope this is a satisfying answer to your question ^^ It was a lot of fun to think about it, so thank you very very much for it and have a great day💖

[devildevotee]

Hi! Hope you're okay! I was wondering if you could talk a bit about your experience with Anubis, Lucifer and Leviathan? I love them so much but I'm new and can't really start my journey bc of personal reasons so it's more like I love and admire them from a distance (if that makes sense?) Still they are always in my thoughts and I would like to know more about them. I also mistakenly used to read sc*rleta and m*lias posts so now I don't even know what was bullshit or real information about all the deities they talked about and I don't want to disrespect them. Thanks!

hey nonnie, i'm having a break from posting about demonolatry due to being involved in a long-term stressful instance to do with the community. i'm going to direct you to where i lightly touch on leviathan, but i implore you to check out the #leviathan and #lucifer tags on my blog.

as for anpu, my answer isn't going to be satisfying for him, either. i haven't been worshipping him very long, you see? so my notes surrounding him are very few as opposed to those i've been working with for years. if you want to learn about him, you're more than welcome to do research into kemetism through websites and books (resources can be found in my #kemetism tag). but i also REALLY have to push for thetwistedrope on wordpress. that is an absolute wealth of info that has helped me get comfortable with the netjeru.

all i can really say surrounding anpu, is that if you're curious about him, is to talk to him! he's serious to me, but he's also very calming and grounding. he's protective where needed, but not overly so (some people claim he's a jealous deity, i don't agree). i find him to be a very quiet deity, and he's very comforting to be around. we disagree on a lot of things surrounding me (*cough* and my self esteem/tendency to overreact *cough*), but he's helped me practice being healthy in my worship and my life, and above all, to not act harshly or impulsively. he's much like a guardian, taking his job seriously and keeping what he needs to keep in order, in order - but that doesn't mean he can't be warm, safe, compassionate. he's been incredibly welcoming to me, and has helped me transition into something new and wonderful. he was one of the first deities to show themselves to me, and i appreciate that he gave me a sense of both curiosity, and safety.

[love-bokumono-fics]

How do you deal with indecision for a fic? Just weigh the pros and cons of the paths you could take? Or just write for whichever path youre motivated for at the time? It sucks getting stuck on something like that!!

Hi Nonny,

Indecision is tough to deal with! getting stuck anywhere on a story sucks, but in particular when you have ideas but you just don't know which one to take. Fortunately (or maybe unfortunately if you're paralyzed by indecision) there are a number of ways to get past it.

I'm personally an "as the mood strikes" kind of writer, so I'll almost always take the idea path that seems more interesting or motivates me most. Or the one that seems most fun. Since I tend to write the stories I wanna read, I follow the ideas I find more fun.

But that being said, there's nothing wrong with taking a few steps back and looking at the story as a whole. Is there a decision that makes more sense based on the preceding events? Is one option more in character? Do you want this to be an in character moment? How will the different options cascade down through the rest of the story? Do you know where you want the story to end? Will one choice get you there in a more satisfying way?

But also, also. Do you really have to choose? If this is a fun project, and you're not writing on a deadline, there's nothing stopping you from exploring all of your choices. Write a little bit of each, see which one you feel more drawn to or which one ends up fitting better in the story. Or write all of them, and the one that doesn't make it into the story save for inspiration for a later story, or post is separate as a "Bonus Scene" or something. There's no rules about writing AUs of your own stories!

And if you're feeling equally motivated by the ideas that have caused your indecision, and you just CANNOT choose between one, flip a coin, or let a picker wheel choose for you. At the very least, it will give you a starting point to jump off from. Sometimes, though, when random chance gives you its answer you realize "nope, don't wanna do that one" and again, you have a starting point.

I hope this has been somewhat helpful, Nonny. And I'm sure there's others who follow this blog who had all kinds of tips and tricks that work for them. Hopefully you'll find something that works best for you. Creativity is a fickle beast, and what works best for you might not be what works best for others.

I wish you all the best of luck in your creative endeavors!

[dapperdeerstabbing]

Since its the new year, a.k.a Extermination day.. How about some headcanons for what the Overlords (Sir Pentious, Alastor and Vox?) do too prepare for and do during the Demon Purge with their s/o?

Overlords & S/O on Extermination Day

Sir Pentious:

♤ The snake boy has a stash of Heavenly weapons that he’s stolen from other demons or found on the ground over the years. He gets them out during this; if they’re going to bring a fight, it might as well be a fair one, yes?

♠︎ Sir Pentious forces a shit load of the Egg Bois to go out and be distractions or even sacrifices to the exterminators; this give him and his s/o a chance to escape if they haven’t already made it to some safe spot.

♤ He has a very outlandish and complicated hide-out. It’s underground, hidden beneath an “abandoned” building, and is pretty much the equivalent of a maze.

♠︎ Once hidden away within the maze, Sir Pentious just chills there with his s/o. If they’re upset, he’s there to comfort them. Otherwise, they just nestle up under some blankets, nothing special. After all, there’s nothing much to do underground in a metal maze bunker other than sleep, and hope they’re safe enough for the night.

Alastor:

♤ In the past, Alastor wouldn’t react to Extermination Day the same way that most demons do. Instead of hiding in fear or essentially committing suicide by exterminator, he goes out and starts trying to kill them.

♠︎ Things are different now, though; he has an s/o to protect. Showing off his ridiculous amounts of power can wait until after the purge. Alastor instead uses said power to get himself and his s/o to his safe place, one that can only be accessed by his sketchy ass eldritch abilities.

♤ There aren’t really any preparations; once they’re safe, Alastor simply goes about the night as though nothing is going on. He puts some records on, as there’s little to no radio signal during the purge.

♠︎  Alastor spends the night dancing around with his s/o and cooking special foods he reserves just for this night. Together, they plan what they’ll do for the turf wars (or as Alastor calls it, his “best day to broadcast mayhem”) the next day. 

Vox:

♤ Similarly to Alastor, Vox makes an attempt to fight back against the exterminators. The thing is, he doesn’t stop until his s/o notices he’s weakened and yanks him back from the conflict.

♠︎ He has little to no part in the preparations, as his s/o makes them last second. They drag him to the porn studio which, for some reason, the exterminators have yet to find a way to access.

♤ They spend a good chunk of the night patching Vox up who, by the time he’s taken to safety, is severely injured, if not close to (second) death. Once he’s no longer about to perish, they scold him for being so reckless.

♠︎ Vox spends the rest of the night with his s/o in a private room, comforting them speaking about conspiracy theories he has about the exterminators, Heaven, and reasons for the purge itself.

[oh-saints]

Can you write for Ben White? I know it's like a lot to ask since he's not that much of a popular demand around here but since you're an Arsenal fan and all..

of course, nonny! i hope this satisfies you!

safe

with ben’s consistent business trip, he just wants you to be safe while he’s away.

ben white x you

word count:

tw: mention of sarah everard’s case

note: happy valentine’s day, lovelies! <3 taking a little break from the plentiful of rúben’s request. but as usual, i happen to write at dawn so this is yet to be proof-read.

“have a safe trip, honey.”

and as soon as ben ties up his shoelace, he walks back to the woman he loves, the axis to his presence, the epicentrum to his life. he pecks you one last time before snuggling his way to your neck, burying himself in your smell once more before Qatar deprives him of you.

“please take care of yourself, too.”

ben’s laugh is muffled by his hoodie you always wear whenever he goes for away matches, and the combination of his hoodie and your shampoo dizzies ben in the head because he knows he misses you already, despite still having you in his arms.

“please take care of yourself, too, my love,” he mumbles, before his nose makes his way towards the side of your neck, the back of your ears, and he feels you trembling at his slightest touch. oh how much he’s going to miss that… “but i really need to go.”

you laugh at his words because wasn’t it him that comes back crawling to you just seconds ago?

“and i need you to promise me something.”

ben isn’t a stranger to the word promise, he’d promised you so many things as long as he’s capable of. but this time, his sentence startles you, for he asks you to do something for him. it’s nearly unheard of in your relationship with ben.

“what is it?”

“i want you to use my car everywhere you go.”

now you’re stunned. because it certainly is a big favour to ask, coming from him. because he knows you’re not into this whole concept of driving—you proclaim you’re the worst driver in London and that supposedly says a lot, for you can’t save your patience for the crazy cyclists and those cowboy drivers.

“why?”

“i want you to be safe.”

“but the tube’s sa—”

“no, not that. i’m actually not worried about you riding the tube or buses or else,” ben says, and while doing so he stares you down. he means business, you realise. he only shows that face twice; a) when he’s playing on the field and someone tries to bring him down, b) once when you were harassed in the club. “i’m more worried at the fact you have to walk from the station or bus stop to here. somebody could’ve done unimaginable things to you while walking and i’d be fucked if something happens to you just because i can’t prevent it from happening.”

the reality dawns on you at that moment.

days ago, when you and ben stumbles upon the news of a woman reported lost and found killed at the hands of the police who couldn’t take a no for life, ben couldn’t believe his eyes. he had to ask you the question of which the answer he dreaded for—“have you been in that position? where a man can’t take your no?” “what do you think i carry those pepper spray for?”—and now it seems like the news have been bugging his consciousness.

he just wants you to be safe when you go somewhere and when you come back home. no one in this world deserves that kind of feeling when you’re scared of what happens when you say yes but more frightened at the thought of what might happen if you say no.

“i can’t let anything happen to you,” ben shakes his head at his own intrusive thoughts. “and i won’t. not when i’m still breathing.”

ben white surely loves his cars but he definitely and absolutely loves you more.

[matan4il]

I guess for me the distance doesn't bother me for the moment for 2 reasons. While we generally agree they have never said they are straight, and most of us on here are the most carefully open minded people IRL.

I have zero doubts that In Canon 911 Buddie thinks the other is straight. If they ever tell me I'm wrong though trust me I won't care. I don't mind being wrong that it was some off the camera discussion and retconned.

But till that day they both think the other isn't a romantic option and probably not into them. They probably sadly just tuck those thoughts away and take them any way they can have them till one moves onto another girlfriend. Yes I gagged writing that!!

2. Even when one comes out, and the other confirms they aren't completely straight.... That doesn't mean they are just gonna jump in. These 2 are the most important people to each other, but also Chris is the most important to them. As Eddie said in 2 it's different dating when you have a kid. Well imagine the person is your kids gaurdian, his safe place to run. Imagine Bucks already huge abandonment issue's, fears of being left. I can still see them being awkward and dancing around it.

I guess I feel strongly I think we are talking something like the grocery store conflict that is what will push them out of the friend zone you know??

Hi lovely Nonnie!

I'm so sorry, this ask must have been in my inbox, but... last few times I was answering asks it wasn't, and now today it suddenly is, so this is probably Tumblr once again glitching. I apologize and am thankful for your understanding! *hugs*

And yes, I agree with you! Neither Buck nor Eddie had formally identified themselves (in fact, I think other than Hen, none of the team members have), but we all live in a society where the default is heterosexual until proven queer. And neither man has done something so far that explicitly identifies them as anything but straight. So yes, like you I believe Buddie currently assume that the other man (a) is straight and (b) has no romantic feelings for them. It's a part of their rom com plot, really.

And you're right, even if they find out the other is queer, that doesn't automatically open up the path to getting together. Beyond everything that you said which might make them hesitate on whether to risk their current r/s, there's also the fact that not every queer man is automatically into any other queer man. There has to be attraction. Even if Buck finds out Eddie is into men, he still won't know whether Eddie is into him. And that would be another satisfying obstacle for them to overcome if and when they go canon... God, they have so much potential to be one of the best love stories on TV ever if they're allowed to get together ('coz they kind of already are, even before they've gone canon), that it makes me wanna chew glass, I'm that feral over them!

I still don't know what's gonna push them over the line of obliviousness 'coz God knows, the most classic trope in that regard is "suddenly your life was in danger and I just couldn't stand my life without you and that's when I knew I was in love with you" and clearly that won't work with these two morons. So whatever happens, it has to be something different to what we've seen going down between them before. IDK what it is, but I'm so excited to find out if and when we do get canon Buddie...

Thank you, and again, so sorry for the delay. Hope you have a great day! As always, here's my ask tag. xoxox

[starglitterz]

Congrats on 300 followers!!<3<3 You deserve them and more! Can I request a chocolate confection (dainsleif) with marshmallows, please?🥺

WAHHH anon this is so sweet omg tysm <3!!!!

request: dainsleif fluff, only one bed

please reblog ! it helps a lot :)

dainsleif.

dainsleif, the bough keeper, has lived for hundreds, if not thousands of years, watching over teyvat and fighting against the abyss order. it's safe to say he's experienced and born witness to a lot of occurrences which made their marks on history, yet he thinks that perhaps being with you is the only significant event that will remain engrained in his memory, even though he claims it is all but faded.

the two of you were in liyue, pursuing some commissions related to the abyss order. you had paid him the 500 mora and answered his three questions, though whether or not he was satisfied with your replies is something you can't decipher. you were now spending the night in wangshu inn, as dainsleif had asserted it would be more effective to capture the mages in broad daylight, where it wouldn't be so easy for them to weasel away into concealed nooks and crannies and evade your capture.

"y/n," his deep voice sounds behind you, jolting you out of your thoughts, "it seems there is only one bed." your eyes travel upwards from the tiled wooden floor, only to rest on the rather large and comfy-looking bed. just the sight of it is enough to remind you of how much your sore muscles ache, and how you're running on barely any sleep. "ah, you're right, dain," you murmur, eyes beginning to slide shut as you wobble on your feet. archons, you were so sleepy - the coffee you chugged earlier only helped give you a short burst of energy that wouldn't last forever.

"i don't really need sleep," dainsleif states in reply, "i will stand guard instead." "no, no," you mumble, one hand reaching up to grip his shirt, clenching your fist around the dark material, "you need rest. just..." you yawn loudly, "share the bed with me." it is at this point where dainsleif realises that dealing with you is much more difficult than defying the abyss; after all, he's fought abyss heralds and triumphed, but those monsters have never been able to get his heart beating this quickly, nor have they ever been so adorable!

you flop onto the right side of the bed, quickly snuggling under the blanket and peeking out at the other man through half-lidded eyes, "dainnnn..." "alright, y/n," dainsleif's answers become even more curt than normal as he moves to the bed, but it's really just because his internal system is already malfunctioning at the thought of sharing a bed with you - isn't that an intimate action reserved solely for lovers?! tentatively clambering onto the bed, he slides under the blanket next to you with a hint of hesitation swirling in his sea-blue eyes.

however, the sigh of relief that you exhale as you feel his warmth sink into the mattress beside you alleviates all dainsleif's fears that you're uncomfortable, and helps ward away his nervousness. as you cuddle next to him, already fast asleep, dainsleif feels the first smile in centuries curve his lips, and he allows himself to be at peace for a fleeting night.

quill speaks !

my first time writing for dainsleif ! he's rlly cool and i hope i portrayed him well :]

is it mean if i tag @yanbub 😦 HAHAHA yan im so sorry but yes haha funny blonde man go brrr oh wait arent u a xiao simp why am i tagging u

anyways nonnie i hope u enjoyed this !

and i hope you enjoy your stay at quill’s dessert cafe, and do check out the menu if you'd like ! 🍭

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