#i hope you have a fantastic week anon!!!! always sending u love n health <3 pls be safe!!!

[inkykeiji]

CLARI I JUST READ SUGAR DADDY NATSUO AND IM DYINGGGGGG I’m not really a natsuo girl like I don’t actively seek out works about him but I always enjoy what u write for him of course but WOW. I am fucked up because I found him SO hot in this. And Touya too obviously I’m in love with every single Touya u write no matter how mean or manipulative he is aaksjdhdjdh. But omg I know I say it every time but ur just SO good at toxic love and like devotion and obsession I’m constantly blown away by it!! Aaahhhh I loved your characterizations of them and I also really enjoyed the reader’s characterization too. I always love your readers you make them like perfect for each relationship u write. Sorry to gush lmao in a little bit buzzed rn but I just had to tell u!! Hope u have a good dayyyy stay safe my dear!! 🕊🕊🕊

AAAH DOVEY!!!! <333

oh my gosh your ask had me giggling like an idiot hehehe <3 thank you so so so much!!!!!! i’m overjoyed to hear that you liked it!!!! it’s always such a huge compliment when someone says that a character isn’t rly for them but they read the work and enjoyed it anyway, so thank you for sharing that with me bb <33

AAAAAAAH TOUYA LIKE i could scream about this touya forever he’s so so scary n mean n fun to write hehe <3 but thank you!!! i’m also IN LOVE with the relationship dynamics in this piece and i can’t wait to explore them deeper in the future!!! they’re all such fun characters and there’s so much to UNPACK there hahahaha but eeeee i’m so so so happy to hear that you liked them <333

omg pls don’t apologize for gushing i absolutely LOVE this ask so so much like you don’t know how many times i read through it just giggling ehehe <333 thank you so much for taking the time to send in your feedback my sweet dove, i really appreciate it!!! <33 ily so much!!!!

[inkykeiji]

i think you are one of the kindest people i’ve ever come across like every response to a message just seems so genuinely nice like ??????? are you an angel ???????

ahahahaha aw anon!!!!! you’re so lovely!!! hehe this literally made me laugh out loud it’s so cute <3 no luv i am not an angel but thank you for such a compliment!!!

tw: self harm, clari rambling

my rationale is, being angry and mean and spreading negativity does nothing good for anyone (including yourself!); it just makes things worse, you know? not to mention how extremely emotionally taxing that is!! it’s such an awful feeling and at this point in my life i have trouble understanding why people act that way, but then i remember my teenage years and i try to reconsider the situation they may be in. angry and hateful people lash out because of what’s going on internally or in their environment etc.

so i choose to be kind and compassionate, to try and spread a little joy and positivity and love whenever i can, because it’s so much more productive and rewarding!!! i feel good doing it, i feel happy doing it. my blog is a safe space for myself just the way it is a safe space for others as well; my blog is my little virtual home, my little corner of the internet to escape to, and i want it to be a pleasant and warm place to be!! <3

i was a very bitter, angry teenager full of hatred, and it was terrible. it was exhausting, carrying all of that around, and it was downright miserable. i know now that it’s because of the life i’ve lived; i know now that teenage me didn’t know how else to deal with what had happened at home and what was continuing to happen at home, so i try my best to forgive her for her behaviour. but i am so, so, SO happy i am no longer that person.

i had been seeing a psychiatrist since i was 13 years old, but i used to lie to her and i was so uncooperative it’s embarrassing. when i was 17 i went through some pretty heavy self inflicted trauma and it actually severed as a huge wake-up call. i realized that i desperately did need help, and that while what happened to me as a kid/teen wasn’t my fault, my own happiness and mental health was still my responsibility, and that technically no one could improve it except for me. that’s the time i resolved to change into someone i love, into the person i was as a young child—someone who had so much love for everyone, who looked for the good in everything and was constantly filled with wonder—and began to become who i am today!!! i was so sick of hating myself and projecting it onto others—i was beginning to remind myself of my father, and that was also a startling slap of clarity to the face hahahaha. i’m very proud of myself and how far i’ve come from the teenager i was!!

tldr: i know what it’s like to be such an angry person, and i never want to go there again. it’s downright exhausting and it does nothing but make everything much worse. being genuinely kind makes me feel so much better, and it is so incredibly rewarding to spread a little love and positivity, especially in a world that thrives on other peoples misery. i don’t want to contribute to that <3