#i hope im thinking of the right song lol (the ajr one)

[g1ngerbeer]

how's it go again?

(palette from @inkstainedpalettes / @inkedmyths <3)

[mxrcayong-main]

- mutuals game

rules tag four mutuals, answer the question given by the one who tagged you, then ask one question.

tagged by @kopikokun i love ya <3 

question: what’s a song you want everybody in the world to know, and why? or, alternatively, what song would be your theme song if your life were to be a show?

honestly, this question was so difficult for me to even think of and the answer will be LONG. regarding song i want everyone to know, i don’t think i have one because everyone has different genre tastes and tbf, i go through genres frequently. for example, if you were to ask me a year ago this question - i’d say ‘thor’ by push baby but if you asked me two years ago, it’d be something by AJR. right now, i probably have to say something like  “say it over” by ruel but i don’t have much reasoning behind it, so here’s others where i have proper reasoning for; 

“will he” or ‘modus’ by joji, 

honestly anything by joji is amazing. but for me, something about the lines “i’m not strong enough for you” and “i just want to make sure you’re okay” lyrics really get to me. like i take it as a reminder for people that sometimes, you have to let go.

can i call you back? by shy martin

this song is purely because this is genuinely how i am. and although i make fun of my flakiness - it’s really not something i can control and a lot of people with mental health issues can control if they experience this too. so i just want everyone to know this to maybe better understand that im never ignoring you on purpose, it’s just...like... ugh i cant describe it

‘50 proof” by eaj

again, anything by Eaj is amazing in my opinion. my favorite k-pop band song wise has to be day6 because i love their lyrics and their melodies, even though nct and exo are my bias groups. but something about his songs just sound so raw? like the lyrics could be so simple but its pouring with emotion and so much meaning. 50 proof has to be my favorite from his though as i think it beautifully captures missing someone and losing someone. and not going to lie, i’ve lost a lot of people. and i know a lot of them probably have moved on or have forgotten about me, but i have a hard time forgetting people and i still hope that they’re doing okay and they’re happy. 

 ‘anaheim’  by NIKI, ‘

again, not any particular reason except that i think niki perfectly encapsulates young love, losing someone due to time despite still loving them, and being in a relationship with an ultimatum. particularly the lines of “i’d give anything to stop anytime to drive around anaheim at sundown and teach my mind to put you first”,  “cause i am lost and not in you”, “you can try to unearth my soul i swear you’d hate what you’d find” and “i have yet to know how to be mine” --> these lyrics are purely because as someone with major abandonment issues and still have no clue about who i am, i don’t want to risk being with someone while i don’t know myself and therefore give them a false promise of who i am. i guess i want everyone to know this song as a reminder its okay to be lost and it’s okay to reject relationships to find yourself. you don’t need a relationship to be someone, you don’t need to be ____’s person. idk...my whole life has been “when will you be in a relationship” and its something that now makes me sad haha 

worlds smallest violin by ajr

your problems may be not as big as others, but it still impacts you. and therefore, its okay to be sad. its okay to be hurt by this. it’s okay. your feelings are forever valid. 

day147′ by curtissmith

this song was just a really nice break during covid and it mentioned a lot of political things happening in the philippines, so it had nice and chill vibes WHILE commenting on politics and i appreciated it. 

regarding the song for my theme song, i’d say maybe...”great one” by jessi reyez? 

lol i had more songs tied but it just highlighted my abandonment issues 💀  

my question for you: who is your ultimate role model? and why? 

tagging (no pressure!!): @pastelsicheng @kopikokun (tagging you back haha) @urlocalnctstan @lucas-wongs 

[starrysamu]

I FULL ON FEEL LIKE IT'S FATE WHEN IT COMES TO ME SCROLLING THROUGH MY DASH AND COMING ACROSS THE ASK I SEND U LOL but i couldn't reply right away cus i was studying ); but okay!!! ill stop by when i can then uwu AHH i totally understand. i dont know if u have ff that you write just for yourself, like not showing it to anyone or just close friends but in know sometimes i like having something that's just for me ! ⭐️ (1/4)

+ so when i feel pressured on tumblr i just go back to something just for me! it's definitely hard though and i feel like the writings you (or really any writer) share are truly gifts to the world because it's like, you dont //have// to share anything but the fact that you did it's like 🥺🥺 thank u for doing so. but there's always people who are assholes in which i will fight all of them ):< ⭐️(2/4)

+ i really wish i had the update where i have unlimited character asks lol. anyway. ooooo so like in a different fandom i was in a lot of writers would host writing challenges for their milestones where there's a limited amount of spots for maybe writing prompts or AUs or tropes or whatever and people would claim a spot, write it by a certain deadline, and the host would link + reblog their work! it's sorta like a promo aspect for other writers but it's a lil less work than (3/4) ⭐️

+ doing a huge huge event that i've seen in haikyuu? where it's a whole lot more writing for the person doing the celebration. which isn't bad! It's jsut an option and up to you if u ever want to do it :3c i feel like one of these days im gonna accidentally not click anon and reveal myself tho so like LOL,,, embarrassing. also!! idk if you like indie music but I'm a big fan of AJR songs! i can't pick a favorite so you csn't go wrong with any of their songs. drink water and stay healthy! (4/4) ⭐️

I HOPE U SEE THIS ON UR DASH AGAIN THEN!!! i hope ur studying hard but also giving yourself a break too every now and then! don’t burn urself out and rmr to eat and hydrate well :)

and YEAH i do have a few things like that!! i was working on something a little personal but like honestly not even that personal i just thought it’d be fun to write but it’s still ... in progress bc i had to put it on pause grrrr. and tbh i don’t like to reread things i wrote like honestly once i think it’s “ready enough” for me to put out i just post it and hope for the best. there’s maybe only two things of mine that i like to reread and they’re both super short and kinda emo just a lil but .... i like to still read them anyways hehe 

I DON’T HAVE THE UPDATE YET. i need to update it i just like don’t have space on my phone for anything i need to clear out some space ughhhhfhfjhj

OH TEAAA REALLY? that sounds really interesting i feel like every milestone event i’ve seen here is like where people request things from the writer (NOT ME NOT FINISHING MY MILESTONE EVENT ...... WILL I EVER) but that’s a really cool idea and i’m all for reading more stuff too!!! i’m gonna have to think about it if i ever do another event tbh (man i think i’ve only successfully finished one out of three events i’ve hosted which is so so awful of me but we won’t ... talk about that) 

IT WON’T BE EMBARRASSING IF IT HELPS I’LL LET U KNOW THAT I LOOKED AWAY!!! and i like AJR too!!! basic but burn the house down is my favorite song by them i think :3 

stay rested and be sure to take care of yourself!! good luck w ur studies <3 

[clayfaced]

POSITIVE 20 QUESTIONS TAG GAME

ily @hopeisthewholepoint i was doing this a while ago and then the draft didn’t save so this is about 30 years late by now whopps. ily thanks for tagging me tho. ❤

1. Name 4 fictional characters who showcase your personality the best, with explanations if you want.

My girl Edrisa Tanaka from Prodigal Son bc we’re both socially awkward but at least she’s unapologetic about it. I want to say I have Sam Wilson’s humor and I too do what everyone else does just slower. Raymond Holt because I love fluffy bois and I’m down to fight anyone who says anything bad about my pets. Ben Wyatt because we’re both human disasters and I like making dumb stuff when I’m bored.  

2. Aesthetic

Playing pool terribly with friends, peanut butter and banana sandwiches, colorful rain jackets. Balloons, music playing from car radios, collecting movie ticket stubs. Painted nails, open windows, and fish stamps on postcards. The smell of fresh basil.

3. Favorite musical/play? (If you’ve never seen a musical or play, one you’d be interested in seeing?)

Come from Away. Hands down. Though I will say I saw recordings of the National Theater’s Frankensteins recently and both are very good but the Miller-as-the-creature version is especially good.

4. What is the best compliment you’ve ever received?

Okay this is a bit of an unfair question bc I die at any and all compliments. But one that I thought of today /a couple days ago/ a long time ago when i started writing this that made me happy again was when someone I'm in a club with let me borrow his camera to take pictures during a performance. I hadn't taken pictures in a while and I had so much fun and I don't really contribute to the club so I finally felt like I had purpose. It was hard to see how they came out on the camera but the next time I saw him he said they came out really well and someone else said that he's normally picky when it comes to photos but he liked mine so that made me feel even better and it was overall a very nice time. It wasn't even really the compliment (I mean, it still was but) it was also just the gesture to offer a camera when he heard I liked taking pictures. I didn't have my camera with me until after this and it really made me remember how much I liked it. Anyways he graduated and hasn't been in the club since last semester so I never see him but it made me v happy.

5. How many times have you been in love?

Miss me with that romantic love but I fall in love with friends and people and every little thing everyday.

6. Embarrassing story or fact about yourself that makes you laugh now?

Bold of you to assume I've recovered from anything embarrassing ever.

This is a bit of a cheat bc it was always funny but my middle school PE uniforms had words and definitions on the back of the shirts (no i don’t know why) and mine said “final: adj. last in place” or something like that and you know what? it was RIGHT.

7. Favorite Disney/Pixar movie?

Probably Up. Idk I don’t really have one.

8. Favorite flower or plant?

Probably triostar plants because they’re cute and pink.

9. What’s your favorite holiday?

Halloween 🎃! I love the idea that kids are going bonkers and getting candy and having a good time. And I love that it gives not-children people a chance to dress up and have fun and take themselves less seriously for a day.

EDIT: NO ONE TOLD ME I MISSED QUESTIONS 10-14. NO ONE LOOK AT THIS .LOOK AWAY. IM FIXING IT. HOW DID I MISS FIVE WHOLE ENTIRE QUESTIONS. SMH.

10. Name three things that made you laugh or smile this past week.

This meme dee just sent me a minute ago. I had a socially-distant dinner with a couple of my friends whomst I love a lot on Saturday and it was very nice to see their beautiful faces in person again and I love them a lot. Time isn’t real I don’t know what happened this week. I set up the Xbox again and I’ve played a little little bit of Assassins Creed (which Im very bad at) and Skyrim (which im only a little bad at) and that’s been fun. Bonus answer of dee, nina, and I have been watching 911: Lone Star together and it’s v v fun.

11. What song would you play to introduce yourself to someone?

That is way too hard of a question to definitively answer. My music taste varies so wildly and my favorite song is usually the one I've obsessively listened to the last. Using that logic: Bang! by AJR or Wake Me by Bleachers. Or Chris Martin’s cover of Shelter from the Storm by Bob Dylan. Yeah. The last one.

12. Name something that truly makes you feel peaceful even at your most stressed moments.

Being a passenger in a car with music playing though that doesn’t really happen when I’m stressed. I wouldn’t say peaceful because when I’m not good at that when I’m stressed and most of the time when I’m stressed I have too much stress inside of me so I would rather get it out than be peaceful. So I just put earbuds in and listen to music too loudly so I don’t have to hear anything around me and I can just sort of release all pent up energy with the music and calm down.

13. What do you, did you, or would you study at college?

I’m studying film! I’m technically undeclared but I’m hoping to declare soon. :-). Yes I’m going to be unemployed and leech off of dee for the rest of our lives thanks for asking.

14. This is kind of a weird one, but which outfit of yours makes you feel most like yourself?

Um. Definitely sneakers (by default my white ones because I only have one pair) because I like being able to Move. Same reason for my black pants bc they’re not restricting at all and comfy. And then probably my gray sweatshirt which dee will murder me for saying bc it means I have zero (0) colors in my outfit but it comfy. I like having colors but I feel more comfortable in more neutral colors.

15. What is a quote you live by?

Oof oof I don’t know. I think there are a lot of quotes I want to live by and then I forget about them so if I am living by a specific quote, it’s not consciously. I reblog a lot I like to my words tag or text tag, and this one:

 “‘Do you fall in love often?’ Yes often. With a view, with a book, with a dog, a cat, with numbers, with friends, with complete strangers, with nothing at all.” (Jeanette Winterson)

explains me very well. I don’t know that it’s something I live by because it’s just a state of my existence but it me.

16. Name the funniest playlist name you have.

I wish I had funnier playlist names. One of them is living room couch alone for a very specific mood when it's after 10 o'clock and everyone else is asleep and I'm in the living room alone on the couch and I'm not tired and time doesn't feel real. It's a good mood. I also have one called new york times which isn't funny I just like it.

17. Make a reference to an inside joke you have with someone you love with zero context.

“you know why we do this?" *snap with one hand* "because we can’t always get our arms free to do this” *dramatic arching snap with both hands* 

But that one’s not with dee ( @mrrmiracle ) so give me one sec to think of something else too. Ok here we go: 

"that Andrew Garfield movie"

18. What is a message you would give your younger self if given the chance?

Stop overthinking and start doing. You can’t sit at home sad your friends aren’t hanging out with you if you never ask them to hang out. Initiate things. Its not as scary as it seems. Also for the love of all things holy please form good habits now. Form all the good habits I have none and I’m tired.

19. Who is your favorite family member? (If you have no good blood family members, feel free to mention someone in your found family)

um my cats :// im just kidding it’s @mrrmiracle obviously.

20. What’s a secret dream of yours?

Um lol to not be alone. To be employed doing something I enjoy and make enough money to support myself. If I put lol will this sound less sad.

I’m tagging @mrrmiracle, @grayson-dick @valleydean and @daredeviil and if anyone else wants to do it just say i tagged you and i’ll edit it to include you 👀. i just get anxious tagging people bc i don’t want to annoy people and i never know who wants to be tagged or not.

[femstyles]

Do all the asks 💘🙌🏻

Hi anon you're the best ;)

Unusual Asks

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Pandroa I suppose. i do listen do Google Play Music the most though!

is your room messy or clean? Its... Well its cluttered but not messy. My side is more messy than Michael’s

what color are your eyes? Theyre green- my mom insists they are blue and on my first drivers licence it said blue because of her lol

do you like your name? why? Yes i do. I use to hate it when I was young but I like it now!

what is your relationship status? Im married! 

describe your personality in 3 words or less. Anxious, Optimistic, Nurturing 

what color hair do you have? Brown

what kind of car do you drive? color? I drive a grey ford escape

where do you shop? TBH Walmart 90% of the time, otherwise just random shops

how would you describe your style? Uhm.. in a transition phase between being a teen and a grown up? Kind of on the boring side 

favorite social media account. I love this one, its the only one VERY few people know about irl

what size bed do you have? King size!

any siblings? Yep i have a younger brother and younger sister

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? Hmm.. maybe Seattle area? I love the PNW

favorite snapchat filter? I dont know the different filters i dont usually use them. I have been playing the games though with @louistomlinsong lately

favorite makeup brand(s): I love ELF and my foundation from Tarte

how many times a week do you shower? Seven

favorite tv show? Right now? Brooklyn 99 but i watch The Office, Parks and Rec, The Good Place and Friends over and over

shoe size? 7ish

how tall are you? 5 foot 3 i think

sandals or sneakers? Sneakers i suppose

do you go to the gym? No but I should

describe your dream date: Walking through downtown with Christmas lights all around while it snows and then getting sushi 

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? 62 Cents plus my debit card

what color socks are you wearing? I am wearing black and grey slippers

how many pillows do you sleep with? I have one and my husband has one

do you have a job? what do you do? Yes I do. I rent apartments at a senior community 

how many friends do you have? Three or four close ones 

whats the worst thing you have ever done? Honestly I dont know.. I was an ass in high school but I never did anything terrible

whats your favorite candle scent? Lavender

3 favorite boy names: Flynn, Oliver, Jackson

3 favorite girl names: Elizabeth, Grace, Allison

favorite actor? Chris Pratt (yum)

favorite actress? Aubrey Plaza

who is your celebrity crush? i fucking love Ashton Irwin

favorite movie? Love Actually

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? I read a lot of fan-fiction but my favorite book would have to be Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

money or brains? Brains

do you have a nickname? what is it? Yeah my family calls me Ky and Michael calls me Kiki

how many times have you been to the hospital? For myself twice

top 10 favorite songs: WTF this is a hard one! Right now? Strip (Little Mix), Wasabi (Little Mix), Breathin (Ariana Grande), Like Me Better (Lauv), Youngblood (5sos), Theres nothin holdin me back (Shawn Mendes), Sober Up (AJR), High Hopes (Panic! At the disco), Thunder (Imagine Dragons), Good Years (ZAYN) Also these songs change constantly this is just my current ones off the top of my head

do you take any medications daily? Not any more 

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) Combination 

what is your biggest fear? Not saying goodbye to someone the way I want to and having it be the last time I see them 

how many kids do you want? 2 but maybe 3

whats your go to hair style? I let it air dry and thats it

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) I live in an apartment

who is your role model? Harry Styles

what was the last compliment you received? That I work hard for what i want

what was the last text you sent? To my best friend: “Ah interesting... still. I’m successful too and she shouldn't compare.”

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? Like 10 i think? I had younger siblings so i had to pretend after that

what is your dream car? black Dodge Charger 

opinion on smoking cigarettes? looks sexy, horrible smell and effects though! 

do you go to college? Nahhh Im a drop out lol

what is your dream job? I think Id have to say something with graphic design? 

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? Suburbs 

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? No that shits gross

do you have freckles? Yeah I do especially in the summer

do you smile for pictures? Yes but I always look like a goof

how many pictures do you have on your phone? hahaha 4763

have you ever peed in the woods? Yes its so weird and nice too

do you still watch cartoons? No i dont

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? Mcdonalds!

Favorite dipping sauce? BBQ

what do you wear to bed? A shirt and underwear and sometimes sweats

have you ever won a spelling bee? No but I did pretty good in one in middle school!

what are your hobbies? I play the sims and play with my cats

can you draw? Nope I am horrible. Once I was trying to draw Harry’s sparrow tattoos and it looked like a sloth ask Becca haha

do you play an instrument? I use to play lots of them since I was in Marching Band in school

what was the last concert you saw? I went and saw Ed Sheeran in August finally!

tea or coffee? Coffee but tea is amazing too!

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? Starbucks, ive never had dunkin donuts

do you want to get married? I am married so ill have to say yes. Also I would marry him again it was awesome

what is your crush’s first and last initial? MB

are you going to change your last name when you get married? I did yes

what color looks best on you? Black i think

do you miss anyone right now? Yeah I miss my grandpa a lot right this moment

do you sleep with your door open or closed? Open but Michael sleeps by it

do you believe in ghosts? Yes i 100% do

what is your biggest pet peeve? People who drive slow

last person you called` Michael

favorite ice cream flavor? Oreo but lately ive been eating chocolate brownie

regular oreos or golden oreos? Regular hands down

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? No sprinkles but i guess chocolate

what shirt are you wearing? A black tee shirt

what is your phone background? Lock screen: Me my best friend and my sister at my wedding, home screen: my husband at our wedding

are you outgoing or shy? I guess more toward shy i hate social shit

do you like it when people play with your hair? Yeah sometimes

do you like your neighbors? NO I just had new ones move in upstairs and they make me angry with their huge dog they play fetch with at 7 am....

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? I do wash it at night

have you ever been high? Haha yes I have may times

have you ever been drunk? Yes I have

last thing you ate? I just finished some nachos

favorite lyrics right now? The lyrics to Strip by little mix

summer or winter? Summer

day or night? Day

dark, milk, or white chocolate? Milk chocolate

favorite month? July I suppose

what is your zodiac sign? I am a cancer

who was the last person you cried in front of? Michael 20 minutes agoThanks anon I was very bored and I love doing these!