#i hope at least half of this makes sense bc i didn't use translate once and my brain doesn't really work so

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hey!!! how are you doing?

ohmygosh for the liloscar imagine liam having a seat in the alpha tauri and logan and oscar don't have a proper friendship anymore and liam and logan get super close since they were team mates in f2 (i think??? i dont follow them unfortunately but ill read anything you write all ur ideas are fantastic) and then oscar gets jealous like that should be me so he goes to logan and they get in an argument abt this and they both basically declare their love for each other and then logan gets all confused and shaken up because he thought he had a good thing with liam going on and now his feelings are all confused to he talks to liam about it and he says he likes logan too but they want to focus on their careers so they put a pin on it or smth and then later on oscar finds liam in a little breakdown because of his seat and the rumours if he's good enough to move up to rb or if he's gonna be replaced mid season and oscar knows how it feels like to never have ur seat confirmed to move up and basically being treated like shit bc of alpine so he goes and comforts him and liam's like huh ohmygosh how nice and he grows feelings for him too so they all like each other and bam: relationship

and then there could be little snippets of ppl on social media posting abt them because they keep their relationship public but private so they never say anything abt it and ppl just speculate and it's never confirmed

sorry for the ramble, have a lovely day 💕

Don't apologise for your rambling it was amazing to read!!!!

But i would probably go a bit different about it, maybe Logan got that second alpha tauri seat so now they can actually spend time together while his friendship with oscar went a bit still. It takes effort from both sides to keep up texting or meetups and getting into f1 made it harder for them. And then there was last year with Williams that hit Logan pretty hard so keeping in touch was hard. Oscar not really reaching out first, too wrapped in his own team did affect this too.

So now Logan is constantly in close proximity to liam and they are back to their f2 flirting and all that. Oscar mostly see that online in pr vids that they make or something like that and it annoys him because it wasn't like that even with Alex so he gets snappy in any interactions they have which is strange and highly unusual for oscar.

And one too many comments bring logan and oscar into some far away location, maybe even one evening when they stay in the same hotel or something. At first it's very still and tense conversation, but then oscar let something slip and it actually angers logan bc he wasn't there for Logan when everything was shit and liam did so there no reason for him to act like this. Then he admits his feelings not noticing the slip bc of how furious he is. Oscar answers also very heated that he in fact also have feelings for Logan and it all goes on.

They don't do anything about it because Logan needs some space to think but now they at least acknowledged attraction between them which is something

Logan talks to liam about all of this bc they both know that something is there but just never talked about it. And above all else liam is his friend so they literally just talk about it like "i know that i like you and that you like me too but here this thing with oscar and i have no fucking idea what to do" and in the end they decide to just wait till summer break when they can have some uninterrupted time together and see what will come from that

And then happens part with liam breaking down (maybe because he already with rb for so long but now that logan is also here they have practically same treatment and not really any prospects for rb seat bc yuki now have it?)and oscar and liam open their eyes toward eachother and then they all actually get to the relationship part during summer break hehe

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good god i'm such a mess. thesis defence is tomorrow. my thesis is shit. like, not all of it, the actual body of it is kinda ok i guess bc i actually did try. but everything else is absolute shit. i don't even know what's written in introduction and conclusion parts, source listing is like almost non-existent in the sense that, yeah, i did mark everything but. i'm not sure i used actual titles everywhere and nothing is named 'the one work that my groupmate translated for me' in the footnotes. formatting is shit. everything is hideous and i'm uhhh afraid to open the file bc i don't want to see how badly i'd fucked up.

i'm also afraid to look at the reviews. i only know the reviewer says the work is passable, which is miraculous, really. and my research adviser actually said that 'the work was submitted last-minute which is surprising seeing as the student had a full year to write the thesis' in the fucking review. like, really? you and i both fucking know it's not surprising in the slightest and neither of us actually cares about this fucking work. but does literally everyone need to know that?.. also, thank you for not once asking me how's it going during the last two years. and i only heard from someone else that you don't feel obligated to 'run after students'. i understand this thesis is my responsibility and all, but, like, you understand how it makes you look, no? thank you for showing how much you don't give a single fuck, i'm disappointed but not surprised i guess.

anyway, i didn't contact anyone and didn't ask for advice and submitted the half-baked thesis last moment and i'm not sure i'm going to graduate this year either lol. i have one day to make a power point and prepare the speech lol.

also, i've been feeling like super weird all this time, like i don't really understand what's going on, my sense of time is nonexistent, and i continue sleeping all day and night long. like, i wake up, read some good omens fanfiction (which i took liking to all of a sudden), drink my tea, eat my sugared bread or whatever, walk the dog, drink my tea, read some fanfiction, sleep, wake up, read fanfiction, drink my tea, walk the dog and then sleep until morning. occasionally make food for the dog. i used to at least like spending time in the shower, warm water, singing and all. well, i don't anymore, it became a chore. everything but drinking tea and sleeping and reading fanfiction feels like a chore, what the fuck is wrong with me. i hope it gets better after i'm done with the thesis (or after i fail and get this stupid work ready for the last attempt lol). ugh.

oh, and also that one friend who had to be taken to hospital is doing terrible. nobody but her and the hospital stuff actually know the diagnosis but it looks bad to me. she can barely speak and can't even hold her phone for like five minutes. she doesn't want to tell me what's up on the phone and nobody is allowed to see her. all we know is that she was taken to the surgery department. everyone thought it was tuberculosis but i guess not. probably something oncologic. which is not going to end well, i think. (i hope my thoughts don't affect the reality and any way...)

so yeah. huh. good luck with that thesis defence, stupid lil breadling, i guess.