#i honestly have trouble telling if my feelings around that kind of thing are Normal™️ or not

[clovesnz]

There is something about having the power to make someone feel okay, and someone having the power to make you feel okay.

Cupping someone’s face and kissing their forehead and watching the tension in them dissipate and the simple relief of being touched, and held, and cared for.

Crawling into someone’s arms and just feeling yourself melt. A caress of your face so tender it’s as if it smoothed all the sharp and painful feelings in you.

I’ve had someone drive across town to me at one in the morning just to sit with me while I cried.

And even though it was a night that I felt horrible, the memory of it is kept in the same place as my happy memories, because I remember feeling so warm, and so taken care of, it was like the rest could just melt away after that.

I’ve tended to someone while they were bedridden, cheered them up when they felt so shitty physically, spent every day with them, cooked all their meals, all so that they would be okay, and feel okay, and I would do it a hundred times over.