#i heart rambling on tumblr shoutout to my one friend who likes all my posts on here no matter what

[canislupusangelus]

back on that bad kids movie grind....

every once in a while i remember the little vampire exists(im talking specifically about the 2017 3d animated version, i've heard great things about the live action and the books, i just havent gotten to watching/reading them). the movie is not good, its very much just a kids movie. but it has such gay potential. like just everything about it would work so well if they(tony and rudy) were a little older and gay(er. the movie is actually pretty queer coded imo but i am definitely projecting a little(a lot)). peak fanfic potential....

also im not a *huge* fan of the rudys hair design and tonys overall design in the animated movie(partly because im bad at drawing short hair, its a little boring in general too tho), but ive seen some stuff from the book and i might make designs combining the aspects i like of all three versions of the story.

[gentlebeardsbarngrill]

02/24/2024 Daily OFMD Recap

TLDR; Cast&CrewSightings; Samba BTS; David Jenkins; Rhys Darby; Damien Gerard; Guz Khan!; SaveOFMD Crew Billboard; AdoptOurCrew Saturday Sillies; Making A Difference; Articles; Love Notes; Daily Darby/Tonight's Taika;

Been a long Saturday yall. Hope you enjoyed the BTS and general clown/honking going around!

== Cast & Crew Sightings ==

= Samba Schutte Feat. David Jenkins! =

Samba's back with more BTS for us today!

This time the Crew Shoutout is for Chaos Dad himself: David Jenkins! So good to see Chaos dad having such a great time BTS. We love you David!

Videos on Tumblr:

Video 1

Video 2

Video 3

= Rhys Darby =

Rhys decided to take it up a notch today on his Tiktok/Instagram and tell... someone they've created a monster. Who might that be?

== Damien Gerard ==

Our crew-mate @patchworkpiratebear got a Cameo from our lovely Father-Teach, Damien Gerard! There's a bit of a story behind it, see below! Cameo link

== Guz Khan! ==

Hey! It's been a hot minute since we've seen our friend Guz Khan-- and now he's showed up on a cat! Good to see you sir!

== Save OFMD Crew ==

There have been questions raised about the billboard that the SaveOFMD Crew have been posting teasers for on their socials. The Crew had a meeting today wherein they discussed the concerns of the fandom, and have taken that feedback to heart. They are currently working on a clear information packet regarding the logistics of the current billboard efforts. They have kindly asked for your patience while they finish putting those last touches together!

== @adoptourcrew Saturday Sillies! ==

Our friends over at @adoptourcrew were kind enough to set up a new Saturday Sillies this week! This time they made custom OFMD Wordles! There were WAY too many images to include in the recap, so if you'd like to check them out, please visit the tumblr post below!

Wanna play? You can visit a tumblr post here

== Making a Difference! ==

Thank you to everyone who contributed to, or shared the fundraiser for Trans Pride Brighton! They've finally met their goal and can stay open another year! You made a serious difference in the lives of trans and non-binary folk in that community!

== Articles ==

Deze HBO-serie is gecanceld, maar had een 95% op Rotten Tomatoes

Schwule Romanze zwischen Piratenkapitänen

== Love Notes ==

Hey lovelies. I hope you had a fun Saturday/Sunday wherever you are. I know some of you are already closing out the weekend. We made it through another day-- and there's all sorts of action going on across all the platforms. I hope you got a chance to have fun, but also to rest. I know you know this, but even though I do too I often forget it. Rest is so very important. It's so easy to burn out, especially when we're constantly exposed to so much online. I think to myself "oh it's fine I'll just get a few more things done" and then it's suddenly 3 hours later and I've had only 4 hrs sleep in the last 30. Please please please give yourself self care today. Go brush your teeth, or take a shower. If you feel like you can do more, brush your hair, or make yourself a nice cup of tea. Do something for you that makes you relax and feel rested. On your last day of the weekend, make sure to take a few moments to yourself and just remember how awesome you are. You may not feel like it sometimes, but I can tell you now you truly are Awe-some. You bring so much life and love to this world and you deserve all beautiful things you want. Anyway, I'm very sleepy and I'm rambling again (what's new). Sleep well and enjoy your day lovelies, see you tomorrow.

== Daily Darby / Today's Taika ==

I'm being lazy tonight again yall. Just two goofy gifs that caught my eye, sorry I am running on fumes. Tomorrow I'll try to find some themed ones for ya <3

Rhys Gif: Courtesy of @fandomsmeantheworldtome

Taika Gif: ohnotheydidnt.livejournal

[tactician]

today is the FIVE YEAR ANNIVERSARY of the dnd campaign that i am a member of...!! so you know that a long rambling post is 100% in order.

five years ago, i played dnd for the very first time. (the date on that post says the 16th but that's because we played for like a billion hours and it went past midnight. because of course it did.) i remember being so, so nervous about it bc i seriously knew next to nothing about dnd. i had never watched any tabletop shows or anything and i was pretty much totally new to improv. i had no idea what a d20 was. i wish i was kidding. i truly just dived right in there. (fitting, i guess, since the character i play is a triton... LMFAO).

i'm so glad that decided to try it out regardless bc it has paid off in ways that i can't even begin to express fully... this campaign has accompanied me through so many life events - both the good and the bad - and i cherish each and every one of our Merry Band of Misfits' adventures. even when shit hit the fan and encounters got tense or chaotic in some form, it ended up making for some absolutely wonderful memories. i'm so glad that that reides - my lil blue fish lad!!! - is a member of the champions valoris.

reides is a character who is extremely near & dear to my heart and he has really awakened a creative side of me during these past five years. i always strive to be a player who can live up to him and do his character the justice that it deserves. even 'beyond' the campaign, i have so much fun writing stuff related to him, making crafts related to him, coming up with art ideas for him and getting comms of him... simply rotating him in my mind. you know how it is. really, i think it's impossible to sum up what reides means to me because he's just... REIDES!!! (also, peep the original token i had for him vs his current one... so cute. just so cute.) i seriously love all of the stuff that everyone else at the table makes for their own characters, too! playing pretend with your friends is fr one of the most healing experiences ever; we all gently feed off each other's creativity in such a lovely way. the passion we all have for our respective characters and the overall setting of the campaign is infectuous, and that passion - coupled with a whole lot of hard (yet fun!!!) work - has made for a story that is nothing short of legendary.

so i just wanted to take a moment to express my gratitude and say that i am honored to share a table with these incredibly creative individuals who have saved me in so many ways!!! big shoutouts to my fellow player, @mintflavoredwindows, who plays kilwin, the EXTREMELY blessed (teehee cleric joke) blond lad standing next to reides in that little chibi line-up of our characters (and who also takes the time to write AMAZING!!!!!! session synopses which all of us read time and time again; they are fr a lifesaver not to mention an immortalization of everything we've been through), our dungeon master of legend, @killdragons, who puts a TON of effort into the campaign setting as a whole and was the person who offered me a position in the campaign to begin with, @brewswain who has accompanied us on tons of different arcs with his absolutely incredible array of characters AND @sangre who has guest starred with his lovely miré (AND WHO HAS SUPPORTED THE CAMPAIGN SOOO MUCH IN GENERAL i love talking abt alethustria with you bree)!!! nathan (who plays jorah) and cj (who plays ashara and played slumberjack during the first season of the campaign) aren't on tumblr dot com so i can't give their urls a little shout-out in this post, but i'm still going to restate that being able to share in this adventure with them - both in-character and out-of-character - has been fucking incredible. the adventurers formerly known as the pog champions are eternal. viva la champions valoris. etc etc etc.

i also want to thank everyone who's supported reides / the campaign as a whole on the sidelines, bc you guys are absolutely amazing. and i can't possibly post this without showing off our lovely campaign wiki. bc it's iconic.

thanks everyone :') so excited for future adventures!!!

[robiinurheart33]

Thanks for the tag @sergeantwoods !! I went a little crazy on the questions lols,,,

1. how many works?

Honestly no idea lmao (if ur talking on ao3, I don’t have an account there, but I’ve been thinking about it.) (14 wips atm)

2. Total word count?

Again, no idea LOL! My actual works have been around 1K ish per post? So id say in total maybee 10k?

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Currently, COD. I wanna expand more soon though, so stay tuned in the far, far future

4. top 5 fics by kudos?

I’m gonna list down my fav fics of all time (multi fandom) if im reading this correctly

1. Anything by buzzcut_season really. Their writing is spectacular and made my heart clench on so many occasions. My personal GOD of writing fluff. And the person that got me through the hells of teenage puberty.(for the record, i am still in puberty lmfao) my firsts in the tag tooth-rotting fluff and the magics of slow burn. (Sk8 the Infinity)

2. Neon Void by sugarpastels. The creator is here on Tumblr with the same user so if you wanna check her out go ahead!! FANTASTIC writing, villain Leo au with heart pounding scenes that leave me dizzy. A fic has never made me breathless and needing to pace around my room more than this one (special shoutout to her sister as well who is writing a mutant mayhem fic that unfortunately didn’t get added to the list but is still super well written!!) (ROTTMNT)

3. Anytime You Need Me by thirteenbullets. I really don’t need to elaborate more. Character analysis + fluff + non sexual intimacy + long fics… it’s the perfect series for me. I felt like a stuck gold when i read this. (COD)

4. The Eldest Brother by dEBB987. Classic 2012 x 2018 crossover, but it doesn’t have ooc and is just such. A. Fun. Read. Made me giggle and kick my legs more than one occasion and good family feels all around. (TMNT)

5. Mutant Ninja Midlife Crisis by a_platypus. Old Leo comes back to the past after the events of the movie to readjust to new life. The right amount of drama with the perfect amount of slice of life. This fic actually gives the old turtle a break but also not letting go of the teenage angst and everything that comes with seeing your dead friends young and alive again. Would have been higher on the list but it’s not completed sadly. The author does write for COD as well though, and it’s worth to check it out! (ROTTMNT)

5. do you respond to comments?

Yes!!! I love love love it when people comment and try to interact if possible.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably the panic attack Ghost fic. Haven’t written much angst if im remembering correctly. I’m a major fluff person

7. fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oh god i really haven’t written a proper fic at all helps. I’m frantically swiping through my robs ramblings tag and just realising most of the ghoap stuff i write is about their undying dedication to each other. Jesus. Happiest ending is probably one of my blurbs cause every time i try to write actual fluff i overheat and explode.

8. do you get hate on fics?

Nope

9. do you write smut?

Nah. I don’t think ill ever write smut honestly not because im asexual its just that I don’t think I can write one accurately if that makes sense. Also im a minor I don’t think im allowed to do that

10. craziest crossover?

None yet

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Thankfully not, but if i have i would take it as a sign that I’ve made it as a writer. Unless it’s more popular than the actual post in that case burn it with fire.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

Unfortunately and fortunately no. I would LOVE to collaborate, don’t get me wrong. But i would get so anxious about not disappointing the other person or procrastinating and motivation and all the works and just. Yeah I don’t have the mental capacity for that rn.

14. all time favourite ship?

Ooooooh

ghoap, renga, ineffable husbands, solangelo (Off the top of my head rn)

15. what’s a wip that you want to finish but doubt you will?

THE SECOND PART TO DRUNK SOAP. OH MY GOD I NEED TO GET IT DONE ITS BEEN 2 MONTHS

16. what are your writing strengths?

I would say making everything just too dramatic and emotional

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Dialogue. I can barely talk irl how am i supposed to write witty banter

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

Love it. As a bilingual myself i love seeing diff languages it’s like a bonus secret for that language user

19. first fandom you wrote in?

Rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles. That was when i was in my “i think this is so cringy of me and i hold myself back because of it” because wow. I reread some of it recently and it’s horrible it will stay and rot in my notes app. Although i will say it’s so nice to see how far I’ve come in terms of writing and just posting publicly in general

20. favourite fic you’ve written?

The drunk soap one and the Ghoap one where they’re on stakeout together. I didn’t like the second one initially, but i think slaving over it worked. I love how I managed to balance the quietness and mutual respect and fondness of each other.

If you couldn’t tell, i had a lot of fun answering these questions haha

If you’ve made it this far, congratulations!! You know more about me than the average online follower 👏👏👏

[schibi12]

Heyyo!! So this post may get long and a bit personal if you are not interested by that you can keep on scrolling no problem.

Last year I did a post where I told how Tumblr was a huge support for me during the whole quarantine and how I met amazing people in it and strangely enough the same thing happened this year, so take this a YouTube rewind of sorts where I talk about all the great people I've met and befriended and how much I've grown as a person since last year, this is a Tumblr Reblog if you will.

My blog has changed a lot from 2020 to 2021, last year only did occasional reviews and memes for DuckTales and other Disney properties but this year oh boy, I've done a bunch of AUs, I've done art for my AUs and fanart in general,I created Ocs and sonas, I've rambled a lot this year about not only Disney properties but about Looney Tunes, Animaniacs, Marvel, Musicals and just so much more I feel like I have expressed more of who I am to you guys.

And the amazing people I've met in this quite literal hellsite lol, have been so kind and supportive to me that they I am gonna do a roll call/ shoutout to you incredible people and if I forgotten one of you i am so sorry but remember you are great too!!

@blue-main & @joyseer24 I am forever grateful for meeting you two you've been incredibly kind, supportive, helpful and just the greatest friends I've ever had and for being my first internet friends I am glad that it was you guys.

@tophthedaydreamer I am so intimidated to talk you sometimes I don't know why I feel like you are just so much cooler than me even though you are just as dorky as me but you are so talented and thanks to you I've seen the Beetlejuice musical also thanks to you I started doing AUs because I did a silly post about how Iron-Man and Captain America reminded me of Bugs Bunny and Mickey Mouse and you left a nice message in your tags about how this was big brain and how I should continue it and I didn't want to do it but your comment motivate me to do it and I've done a bunch of AUs because of that message in the tags so thanks and I hope to talk to you more in the future.

@lexi0507 thanks to you we have a Discord server and we met a bunch of cool people and you're so cool, unapologetically yourself and supportive and I love your art and ocs.

@wastelandchannel I know we haven't talked recently but thanks to you I think we wouldn't have the Toon Tykes so thank you and I hope you are doing and feeling better.

@ohmymabe you are so nice and I love your art and how creative you are, and you're also kind of a founder of The Toon Tykes with the many AUs and ocs you did of the children of Oswald and Julius y Eres una muy Buena Amiga!

@dizbunny Diz with the Gifs you are so sweet you always have something nice to say and I know you started your journey with art and it's not easy just have patience and don't be too hard on yourself.

@su-nioj We haven't talked that much but you have made amazing art I like to call you the ninja silent but talented and I hope to get to know you more in the future.

@dalia1784 we haven't interacted as much as I want to. It we do follow each other Tumblr and Twitter and we tagged each other on tag games and I hope to get to know you better, but you make amazing art and deserve so much attention and appreciation like literally go follow her she has amazing ocs designs and stories.

@you-big-palooka & @amelia-bedeliaa you keep posting about Disney ducks and Mickey and friends respectively your post always bring me joy or discover a good fic or follow someone who makes amazing fanart and keep on reblogging.

I think that's it if I missed one of my mutuals or you don't take it personally you are amazing and great it's just I listed more people in this post than last year so I might have forgotten a few.

And once again thank you from the bottom of my heart I am forever grateful that I have Tumblr in my life because without it I wouldn't have met all these amazing people and I wouldnt be drawing so thank you to all my followers, mutuals and friends and here's to another year!!

Muchas gracias los quiero mucho!!! 💛

[wide-eyed--wonderer]

2020 thank yous!

2020 has been a year hasn’t it?

I need to shoutout/ thank some amazing blogs who have become my friends this year and helping to keep me sane through the insanity that has been 2020.

Firstly, I wanna thank every person who has reblogged, liked or requested a fix from me this year. The instant bursts of seratonin when I see a reboot or a like or a request is simply unmatched. (Particularly @maliciousbubbl3s thank you for liking all my posts!)

@somedayonbroadway you introduced me to the Race and Jack as siblings idea and instantly fell in love and became the centre of most of my fics and writing this year. Thank you. 💜

@prettyinlimegreenboots my writing buddy and constant hype woman. Thank you for sending me most of my requests this year and generally just being an amazing mutual. You were my first mutual on here and you introduced me to such an amazing and wonderful tumblr community. I could not be more grateful that I sent you all those requests. Thank you.💜

@racetrackhigg Bee, your moodboards are so beautiful to look at and you always cast the newsies so perfectly. You are one of my most treasured mutuals and I love seeing your posts on my dash. Thank you. 💜

@livesincerely Ciara, you know I absolutely adore your fics. You have had so many galaxy brained ideas and I adore reading all your fics. Thank you. 💜

@agentsnickers Finn, I don’t think I can say enough how much your writing means to me. Truely. Your fics are always some of my go tos when I need a pick me up or inspiration. Yours fics truely helped get me through this year. Thank you for letting me ramble in comments and for giving me all the details my meta loving heart could desire. Thank you. 💜

@the-cowbi Mouse, rping with you has been an absolute dream. Your friendship is so invaluable and I love reading all your crazy (and usually kinda heartbreaking) ideas. Thank you for sharing my favourite bean Cora with me and letting me rp both with and as her. *hugs* love ya friend. Thank you. 💜

To the entire JATP 18+ server. I may have only been part of this server for a little over a month but you have all done so much for me. I love you all. I couldn’t possibly tag you all (kinda because I do not know all your usernames) because there is so many, but know I love and appreciate you all. 💜

@soemthingsparkly Jaz, thank you for sending me the invite to the server and generally being so welcoming and sweet. You are wonderful and amazing. Thank you. 💜

@sam-i-am612 Sam!! My blue Squad buddy!! Thank you for yelling at Lev with me and generally being as lost in that server as I am. Love you! Thank you. 💜

@reggiesjams Lev, my sister in law and general pain in my side. You have done some truly horrible things (usually when I’m around for some reason) in the role play server, but you are also an amazing writer and a wonderful friend, and my other Blue Squad buddy. Thank you.💜

@rhyming-fellowship Fel!! The Julie to my Flynn. You are always so kind and lovely. It is a joy and honour to role play with you. Thank you. 💜

@lukesorangebeanie Beanie!!! Flynn may give Luke shit constantly, but I think that you (and your writing are amazing!) I’m so glad I have gotten to know you. 💜

@lyra-pador Mama Lyra! Our server mum. Thank you so much for starting this server and giving us a place to get to all know each other. I owe you most of my happiness from the last month. Thank you. 💜

@bobbywilsonsupremacy Jon! I have told you countless times that I think you are the funniest person in the server. You own my heart. Thank you. 💜

@sonsetcurve Paige!! The Care - Bear to my Flynnie! Thank you for killing everyone in the server with Flarrie fluff with me. I adore role playing with you and your crazy stories. Thank you. 💜

And last but certainly not least

@bored-weather my big sister. Thank you for adopting me and taking me under your wing my first week in the server. Not only has your writing brought me so much happiness, but your love and care for me in and out of the server have made me feel so loved and special. Thank you. 💜

I know I am forgetting people. There are countless more people in the rp server and I could tag you all and make a whole post for all of you as well. Know that I have a whole folder saved on my computer full of stuff you have said to me/ about me or about Flynn that I read through for a pick me up. Even if I yell at you for angst (yes Ren, Jon, Assassin and Lev I am looking at you) know that I love you with my whole heart. 💜

I wish we could all meet in person so I could give you all a big hug and show you how grateful I am.

I love you all, and again. Thank you. 💜💜

[mylover]

hihi ლ(・ヮ・ლ)  thank you so much for 1k and for choosing to follow this mess of a blog! this blog has only been about 3 months old and i’m so so so thankful to how far i’ve come and to everyone who chooses to follow,to like and reblog my silly edits and to even talk or be friends with me!

to celebrate this milestone as well as to thank you all for following , i’d like to host a mini celebration~~

✧ rules✧

- must be following me + reblog this post, that’s it:)

✧  send me 1 or 2 of the following!  ✧

-  ✨ for a url edit

-   💘 for 3 things i love about your blog

-   💞 for a post spam! i’ll like,reblog and queue your posts such a thank you:) 

also, now that you’re here, do check out my sideblog :)

here’s a shoutout to the mutuals who’s been soso kind to me and also some of my all-time favourite blogs. thank you for appreciating my edits and for being so supportive of them(even when its bad),choosing to leave cute tags below or to even send asks about my day!they mean so much to me and really encourages me to become a better editor.i can never ask for better mutuals and i cant thank you enough.i am but a smol bean T.T you all make tumblr a platform that’s so fun to be on:”) 

sorry for limiting everyone to one category when some of you could be in all!

format inspired by the lovely @rapanzel ⊂(･ω･*⊂)

♡ mutuals who make the best graphics ♡  

 @seegoldendaylight  ~ @timcgraws ~ @alltoowsll ~ @hugallurfriends ~ @cellphonehippie ~ @highlikethemoon ~ @nweromantics @newrcmantlcs ~ @repwtation ~ @ybwme ~ @film-margot ~ @thydaisy ~ @ionlyspeakswift ~ @watersmelonsugar ~ @stolenxkissess ~ 

♡ mutuals who make the best gifs ♡  

@johnsaxbys ~ @melodramas  ~ @spendsmychange ~ @upgrinning ~ @recklesspath ~ @merldruck ~  @purpleswift ~ @tayloralison  @taylorswifh ~ @sunsinksdown ~ @bellesbooks ~ @ldlie~ @recklesspath ~ @supermanacoustic ~ @johnmulanev~ @aimlocked ~ @false-god ~ @calmvocals ~ @swiftrosegarden ~ @nowimhaunted ~ @altarsismyhips 

♡ mutuals who are the biggest sweethearts ♡ 

@spidey-swift ~ @tayllor ~ @sunwillcomeup ~ @redacoustic ~ @liabilityacoustic ~ @alanisinterludes ~ @rapanzel ~ @tragedynow ~ @alisonsmouth ~ @falsegxd ~ @spendforevers ~ @t-swft ~ @anarrowhead ~  @ashleysfrangipane ~ @starswerealigned ~ @alltoosam ~ @tayaesthetic ~ @singinginthecar ~ @missmericanas ~ @missegyptiana ~ @tayl0r1989 ~ @fearlessacoustic ~ @lanalovestay

♡ mutuals whose urls are my favs ♡  

@shouldvesaidno ~ @peeta ~ @lizzo ~ @wonderfck ~ @encanted ~ @greenlight ~ @futurenostalgic ~ @youbelongwithmes ~ @bestday ~ @corneliarights ~ @thatwasthenightthingschanged ~ @oldiaries ~ @armorfalls ~@combackbehere ~ @heartbreakprince ~ @krstnbells ~ @thewineforyou ~ @cruelsummers ~ @everythinghaschanged 

♡ lastly,mutuals whom i hold closest to my heart ♡

@tylorswift ~ @callitwhatyouwnt ~ @loverred~ @tonguetiedholland @thehandsoffate ~ @dwohandstied ~ @after-glow  ~ @screamingcolour ~ i cant thank you enough for being so sweet to me thank you for always helping the silly me and listen to me ramble about things ꒰˘̩̩̩⌣˘̩̩̩๑꒱♡

once again,thank you so much for 1k :) i am but a smol bean but some of you thought i’ve been here for ages lsjflsksjakej heheehehe

[writeraquamarinara]

as with everything else in life, I’m late to making this post. I tend to make one around Jan 1st every year, but it’s now a few days after that, and all i can say for myself is that time is non-consequential during a pandemic, right? right.

anywho, this is my usual “thank you for keeping me going this year” post, but with even more fervor. 2020 would not have been nearly as tolerable without you all in it. and when i say all i really do mean all. thank you to anyone who follows me here or has read and supported my work on AO3 or has sent me a message or an ask or even just likes my posts. you can never know how many people’s hearts you’ve touched, lives you’ve made better, but i’m telling you now: you made me smile and laugh and feel love in a year that could have easily stolen all that. thank you for sticking around.

a few more specific shoutouts are under the cut to keep from flooding your dashes. i hope you’re all having a wonderful start to the new year.

much love, mari

to @anniemurphys: ria, i cannot thank you enough, for so many things. you played such a vital role in turning this year around for me. your friendship, and the friendships you’ve helped me make through book club, kept me smiling from week to week. i never wanted to leave our meetings, no matter how long they’d already gone. I could listen to your literary analyses and life advice for days on end. you’re such a kind, patient, loving person, and I’m so lucky to have you in my life. here’s to another year of freaking out over taylor swift albums and the power inherent in voluntarily turning oneself into vegetation.

to @bigdsgirl: heidi, you’re one of the sweetest, most hard-working people i know. you amaze me, and you graciously humor my latest hyper fixations—somehow always knowing, always reblogging content related to what i’m obsessing over at the moment. you give such great advice and have such a calming presence that i love being in chats and on calls with you. i cannot wait for more zoom movie nights in 2021.

to @hellodinoflower: raptor, you’ve supported me for so many years now, and whenever i feel down about my writing i’ll go back through the comments on some of my old fics and yours always make me tear up. you’re so thoughtful and kind and excited about my work that i cannot help but be the same. i hope you enjoyed the little dino reference in pride & publishing—i tried my best, i really did—and i hope you’re doing well. sending you so much love.

to @soyforramen: soy, i promise i’ll get to your head canon asks some day. i promise i haven’t forgotten them; i’m just uncreative and uninspired, but what else is new. you, however, are brilliant and kind and thoughtful, and your guidance in making both life and fic-writing decisions has been so important to me this year. wishing you so much luck with school this year, and even more happiness.

to @ithoughtyoulikedmereckless: rach, where to even begin? you’re the person i talk to when i’m feeling happy or sad or annoyed or angry or pretty much anything, really. our FaceTime convos are my favourite, no matter what time of day we have them at (somehow, the ones at 10pm are just as crazy as the ones at 3am, and i don’t really understand how or why, but i love that for us). i’ve learned so much about myself through my conversations with you, and you keep me level headed when i start doubting myself too much. you understand me on such an amazing level and i’m so lucky that you reached out to me so many years ago. i’m so lucky that we just happened to find each other on here and just so happened to move near each other this year. i still cannot believe i get to see you in person and go on walks in the woods with you. you’re such a talented photographer, writer, painter, baker, and all around artist; an incredibly kind and funny person; and i aspire to be you. i’m rambling now, but just know that i love you.

to @catthecoder: lav, my light, my love. seeing your icon and username on my dash makes me smile so hard. you just give off the best vibes and chatting with you always leaves me feeling like i’ve been basking in the sunlight for the past few hours. we need to make a resolution to sprint with each other more often this year, even if 2021 is going to be as hectic as ever, as i find so much joy in reading your snippets as we go along. you’re such a wonderful writer, and i often read your gift to me from years ago for inspiration and comfort. i hope you’re doing well and am sending so much love.

to @stirringsofconsciousness: stirrings!! i know you’ve had a super busy year, but you still made time to chat with me and i’ll be forever grateful. i often think about the advice you’ve left for me and the thoughtful responses you’ve given to my personal posts and find so much inspiration in your own words and actions. i also still cannot get over the time when you sent me a post of artful vases because you thought of me when you saw them. mortifying ordeal of being known who? anyways lol, i just wanted to thank you for being in my life and wish you a happy 2021.

to @heavy-lies-the-crown: alex, i just wanted to thank you for putting your time and energy towards answering my incessant questions this year. you’ve been an inspiration to me as a writer ever since i first found your work, but you’re also an inspiration to me as a person, and i’m always thinking about the advice you’ve given me. i hope you had a wonderful end to 2020, and that 2021 brings you even more joy than seeing your posts on my dash brings me. much love.

to @stonerbughead: maria, you brought so much happiness to my 2020. your support for my work took my breath away every time, and I swear I nearly cried when I saw your latest comments on pride and publishing. you put so much time and energy into this fandom, and into supporting the people in it, and I hope you know that it doesn’t go unnoticed. we all love you, and we’re so lucky to have you; your fics are brilliant, your podcast highlights are a joy to read, and your disdain for ras is hilarious. thank you for being you. sending lots of love.

to @sullypants: sully, it’s been years and i still marvel at how lucky i am to know you. you’ve taught me so much, from how to be more thoughtful to how to navigate therapy and self-love to how to be a kinder person in the world. you introduced me to ask polly and you send me really nice asks and you’re one of like four people who interacts with my posts on a consistent basis, which makes me feel a little less alone in the world, if that makes any sense. i’m going to stop myself from rambling on or else i might cry, but i just wanted to thank you for—here comes the cliche—changing my life (doesn’t everyone we meet change our lives, in some way or another? but you’ve changed mine considerably, and for the better). sending you so much love (in the form of both yellow and blue heart emojis)

to @justcourbeau: mel, our paths cross less frequently now than they used to, but that doesn’t mean i don’t think about you and the conversations we’ve had, or smile when i come across your posts on my dash, or when i happen to open up instagram once in a blue moon and see you’ve posted on your story. please never stop sending me sparknotes memes—especially cask of amontillado ones. your words of advice from the night i called you, distraught, a few years ago live in my brain rent free, and i will continue to carry them into 2021 with me. i hope 2021 treats you well, and that you achieve all you want and more. sending you an immense amount of love.

to @protectorofthesmoll: your string of comments on pride and publishing made me cry multiple times, i swear. i still read them back every so often, when i’m trying to muster the courage to start up on the new chapter. your support means so much to me, and it amazes me how far back it goes: I’m pretty sure I have at least two asks of yours sitting in my inbox, from back in 2018 when I had barely any followers or supporters, both of them writing prompts that I never filled. i promise i’ll get to them one day. anywho, i just wanted to thank you for your support this year, and every year before that. wishing you so much love and happiness in 2021.

to @panalegs27: 2020 was the year of figuring out that we have so much in common: a hatred of dating apps, confusion over tumblr’s obsession with the raven cycle, and an attraction to logan lerman with gray hair. thank you for chatting about all of these things, and more, with me; seeing that you’ve sent me a post always makes me smile, and our conversations make me laugh. wishing you even more love and laughter in 2021.

to @indiebughead: maria, it’s been so lovely getting to know you more over the course of this year. i love listening to your stories and living vicariously through you, lol. (i want updates on new neighbor boy, asap!) thank you for listening to my petty rants and for encouraging me to make bad decisions and be salty on main when i want to be. i couldn’t have asked for a more supportive conspirer ;) sending lots of love.

to @redundantoxymorons: iz, you’re one of the smartest, most eloquent, most supportive people i know. i know 2021 will be both stressful and exciting in many ways, and i wish you all the best. i know you’re going to thrive wherever you end up, and i’ll cheer you on as you navigate this new world, just as you’ve done for me all these years. i’m so lucky to have you as a friend, supporter, and beta, and all of our conversations bring me so much joy. pls continue to gush about taylor swift and rec books and send uquizzes with results that make me feel Known in 2021. i love you very much <3

to @cracklr: leda, i’ve missed your passive aggressive smiley faces, but your gushing insta comment more than made up for that, i promise :) sending you so much love and happiness in this new year <3

to @dottie-wan-kenobi: dottie, the posts we send each other make me so upset, but in a good way—the “if i just had to see this nasty shit then so do you” kind of way—and i love that about our relationship. who else would understand how disgustingly hilarious something is other than my wife? no one, that’s who. i often think about how you were the first friend i made in fandom, and i’ll be forever grateful for that: i couldn’t have found a better person. i love you so much, and am sending you all my love.

this list of shoutouts is really much shorter than it should be, but my brain is currently friend and i cannot seem to think properly anymore. therefore, i’m going to call it a day and reiterate my above statements that I love you all, and I hope you have a fucking amazing 2021.

[giowritess]

straight to my head [henry cavill]

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Pairing: Henry Cavill x bestfriend!female!reader

Request:  “Hi! May you please write a Henry Cavill one where you’re hanging out with him and you have feelings for him but haven’t had the guts to tell him but that day your sister called you and you started speaking in Spanish to her about Henry but little did you know that he actually knew Spanish and he teased you about it. Happy ending please, thank you!”

Warnings: cursing, some angst, fluff

Word-count: 2,697

Author’s note: HEY GUYS! I can’t believe I’m finally posting my first writing piece here on Tumblr! It’s my first attempt at writing this kind of fanfiction (well, the second, actually), and I truly hope you like it, especially you, dear anon, who requested this. I did some changes, hope you don’t mind. This one was based on the song Straight to My Head, by You Me At Six, and I’d really like if you listened to it. A big thank you to my best friend, @naturiz​ for the Spanish part, and a big shoutout to my amazing beta/daughter/friend/love of my life @amirahiddleston​ <3333 I’d be lost without you!

gif credit goes to @b-n-a-o​

Straight to My Head

  You had never been the kind of person to enjoy dancing. 

   Yet, here you were, jumping, moving and swaying your hips to the beat of your favorite song in the middle of an empty dance floor. A little tequila-and-other-alcoholic-beverages-induced, yes — but you were happy, not even minding the glances you were getting. All the stress that had built up in the past few weeks had finally left your body, and you had your friends to thank for that. They were the ones who’d dragged you down here, to a cosy small pub. It had been way too long since the last time all of you had spent time together, and everyone seemed to benefit from a bit of fun and forgetting the real world. 

   Exactly as you were doing right now, completely oblivious to everything and everyone else. How good it felt to be trapped in your bubble, with nothing but your fuzzy mind and your favourite song.

   “Didn’t know you could dance, y/n,” Henry teased, not far from you. You could even hear the smirk in his deep voice.

   “Shut up, idiot,” you replied, snapping out of your bubble and walking closer to your friends.

   “Seriously, though,” he insisted, grinning like a kid, “those were amazing dance moves. You should teach me.”

   You just rolled your eyes, making him laugh, and tried to hide your smile. Your relationship with Henry had always been playful like this, ever since you met a couple of years ago. You two had been through a lot together — it was quite a fun and exciting journey to follow his success as an amazing actor that close, which meant celebrations, parties, even a few premieres.

   As the boys got ready to play some pool, you stood in the back with a beer in hand, watching him — always him and no one else. You sighed as you watched him move with the ease and gracefulness of a cat. A big, fluffy cat who seemed to be serious and almost dangerous on the outside, but was nothing more than a playful little kitten on the inside.

   The dim lighting in that corner of the room sent shadows over his godly features, the sight sending warmth up your core. He was always the most handsome man in the room. And in your head.

   That was where he was. He’d taken over your thoughts ever since you met, and there was nothing you could do to take him out; he was already at home and wasn’t going anywhere anytime soon. You tried as hard as you could, even dated other people, but it was pointless. You still fell hard for him anyway.

  But Henry was your best friend, and you were his. You talked about everything, helped each other with everything — even his own love life. It hurt you. Like hell, but there was nothing you could do about it but listen and be there for him when he needed, just like he did for you. His friendship is one of the most precious things on Earth to you, but that is all you were meant to be. He was yours, but not in the way you truly wanted.

   Which was why sometimes it got too hard for you. Sometimes you had to step back and pull yourself together when it was too much for your heart. Seeing him with other women, especially when you knew he was happy, was far more than you could take, a pain you couldn’t avoid. 

   You straightened yourself up and dropped the bottle on the table. You needed to sober up. Being drunk around Henry was always a dangerous idea — you were a complete mess. Crazy, unpredictable and suddenly brave. The possibility that you’d end up saying or making anything that could lead to regrets and ruining your friendship was a giant risk — one you couldn’t take. So, you always tried your best to be as sober as possible, but tonight you desperately needed the freedom and release that only alcohol could give you. And he happened to be around.

   “Be right back,” you muttered to no one in particular, making your way towards the ladies room. They were too entertained in their game to miss you, anyway. 

   Thankfully, the bathroom wasn’t crowded, just a few girls who seemed half your age, many who had probably got in with a fake ID. You went straight to the sink and splattered the cold water in your face one, two, three times. But it was the girls’ conversation that caught your attention.

   “Did you see Henry Cavill playing pool by the back? Jesus fucking Christ, that’s Heaven made of flesh,” one of them said. 

   “Can you believe our luck? Gotta be fate,” the one applying mascara in front of the mirror replied.

   They laughed together and started to make their way outside.

   “I think I’m gonna try my luck, who knows,” you heard one of them say as they left the bathroom, and you gripped the sink with both hands, taking a deep breath. 

   You had no right to be angry with their words. In fact, you understood a-hundred-per cent how they felt — you felt that way almost all the time, too. But fuck. There was no way in controlling the anger that was taking over you, as well as the few lonely tears that escaped the corner of your eyes. There was nothing you could do about it but simply accept it. That was your job as his best friend.

   After a few deep breaths, you pulled yourself together, and finally mustered the courage to leave the bathroom. Your anger alone, still tingling through your face, your arms, your fingers, had sobered you up some seventy-per cent by now. You stopped by the bar to buy some chocolate and was met with one of your friends.

   “Hey y/n, wanna play some pool? We need someone,” he asked.

   “Yeah, sure,” you replied, eating the chocolate before you walked back to the pool table.

   You grunted at the scene in front of you. The girls from the bathroom, one sitting in the back with her arms wrapped around one of your friends and the other one — the prettiest one, with long, dark hair and a beautiful black dress that hugged her body in the best way — tangled up with Henry, laughing and touching him whenever (and wherever) she could. Which meant all the time (and everywhere). 

   It wasn’t that this kind of thing didn’t happen often — it did, in fact; of course it would, when your group of friends had you as the only woman. And you didn’t care for your other friends, they could do whatever they wanted if it’d bring them a bit of happiness, even if momentary. But Henry was… Henry. He would never be like everyone else, and you couldn’t fool yourself or your heart to believe that.

   “Girls, this is y/n,” your friend said, and the girls smiled at you.

  You tried your best to look sympathetic.

   “Hey, I’m Devon,” the one in the back waved at you.

   “And this is Julia,” Henry told you and motioned at the girl beside him.

   With another deep breath, you smiled and hoped it looked real enough.

   You didn’t know what happened to you. You’d never been this jealous, you’d always been able to control your emotions and prevent them from rising to surface. But that night felt completely different. Probably because of all the alcohol, but there was no way you’d be able to look unaffected. 

   “Ready to kick some asses?” your pair asked, handing you the stick. 

   “Born ready, baby,” you replied, applying chalk to the end of the poolstick.

Julia was Henry’s partner, of course. He had to show her how to properly hold the stick and how to play, but you had your doubts if she truly didn’t know or was just pretending. Well, you’d pretend if you were in her shoes. 

   It was no surprise when you made the first ball — you had a natural talent for the pool. Especially when drunk. And angry.

   The chocolate in your mouth felt bitter because you kept hearing Julia’s giggles and saw the way Henry touched her. Every fucking time she was going to play, he had to be glued to her back, lingering touches on her hand, her arms. It began to piss you off way more than you imagined.

   You made a ball. And another, and another, and another. Four in a row, leaving only two of your balls on the table. 

   “Fuck, y/n,” your partner said, and laughed, clearly a bit shocked. “Where did that come from?”

   “What can I say,” you replied, “the effects of anger.” 

   The game soon came to an end, you made the victory hit. You started another, trying your best to focus on the game and nothing else. But it was hard. It was so fucking hard when Julia and Henry didn’t even pretend to play properly, due to their drunken stupor and lust for one another. When his lips went closer to her ear, you finally snapped. There was no way in fucking hell you were going to endure that. No. Enough.

   “I’m through,” you stated before dropping the stick on the table.

   You didn’t care about the stupid game. All you wanted was to leave the pub, to get away, and cry and scream and fill up your sister’s inbox with countless messages rambling about it. 

   That was exactly what you did the instant you crossed the door, drinking in the cold night air and fishing for your phone. After finding her contact, your fingers started to fly across the keyboard, but you realized that wasn’t enough for how angry you were.

   “No puedo creer lo enojada que estoy por eso [I can’t believe how mad I am],” you started. Of course, it’d be in Spanish, your mother tongue: it was the only way you truly could express your anger. 

   You weren’t even sure what you wanted to say, but you had to say something, to get it out. There was a pressure in your chest that’d only be alleviated after you opened your heart to someone, obviously your sister. 

   “Tú no creerías lo tan enojada que estoy. ¡Pero ugh! ¡Simplemente no puedo controlarlo y no mames eso me deja demasiada enojada! [You wouldn’t believe how mad I am. But ugh! I just can’t control it and that makes me so fucking angry!]”

   You sent that first audio message to her. You didn’t even have an internet connection, so she’d only receive it after you connected to wifi or something, but it didn’t matter. You just had to speak. Get it out of your system.

   “Dios, desearía que pudieras verlo con tus propios ojos todos los toques y coqueteos. Simplemente me mandaron por un tubo y no sé cómo enfrentarlo, sabes? No hay ninguna explicación más allá de la verdad, que él debe haber entendido, de todos modos. O no, apuesto que Julia lo mantiene demasiado ocupado para que yo ocupe su mente [God, I wish you could see for yourself! All those touches and flirting. It just pushed me off the edge and now I don’t even know how to face him, you know? There’s no explanation besides the truth. Which he must have already figured it out, anyway. Or not. I bet Julia is keeping him too busy for me to occupy his mind at all],” you said in a single breath. There. Now you felt as if the weight was off your chest.

   After pressing the “send” button, you took a much needed deep breath. The cold weather had a calm, soothing effect on you as you breathed in the night air; you could feel yourself getting calmer. Still angry, yes, but a bit calmer.

   So trapped in your own space, you almost jumped when you heard his voice.

   “No hay nada que nunca pueda sacarte de mi mente [There’s nothing that can ever keep you off my mind].” 

     Even in a perfect Spanish, his deep British accent was still present.

   Oh, my, god. There he was, behind you, and you wanted to bury yourself six feet under and never, ever come out.

   “Henry!” Your voice was a shriek. “I… I’m… I sh…” you stuttered, not knowing what to say. You could feel your heart pounding violently against your chest.

   What to say, what to do, how to act. You had no idea Henry even spoke Spanish, and you sure as hell hadn’t expected him to follow you outside. Díos mio. Had he heard every single word you just said? You were glad that it was dark, ‘cause your face must’ve definitely been on fire.

   “I’m sorry,” he said, making you look at him with a visible question mark on your face. “For making you feel like that. I did want to affect you, though, and I’m quite glad I did.”

   “What? Henr—”

   “See, y/n,” he interrupted you, “I had a theory, and you just proved it.”

   He came closer, his beautiful face stepping under the thin lightning which made his baby blue eyes to shine. He hovered above you, like a lion over his prey, but you weren’t intimidated at all. Though confused and with your head spinning as fuck.

   “My theory was that you and I feel the same way about each other,” he continued, getting closer and closer at each word that left his lips.

   Díos. Were your dreams coming true? Was this real? Were you dreaming, or even seeing properly? You could hear your speeding heart, and you wondered if he could hear it, too.

   “Henry, I… I’m… I’m lost in translation here,” you replied, your weak voice almost a whisper.

   He had to say it. You needed to hear the words coming out of his very own lips, otherwise, it wouldn’t be real. 

   A low chuckle came from him. He left very little space between your faces when he got even closer and cupped your face with both hands.

   “I’ve been falling in love with you ever since you entered my life, love,” he said. Your knees were weak, and you felt as if you were going to fall dead on the ground. “But you never gave me any signal that you felt the same. Until I started to notice the small details. Your face, your eyes, your hands. Your words, your expressions. The little things gave you away, y/n.”

   The warm touch of his big hands on your face, all the love and tenderness with which he spoke every single word made your heart swell. No one had ever spoken with that much affection towards you, no one had ever held you that gently as he did. Your best friend. Your soulmate. 

   “So? Am I right then? He asked playfully, chuckling because you hadn’t said anything yet.

   You felt as if a lightning bolt had just gone through you, your skin prickling. 

   “Yes!” You instantly said, feeling some tears on your eyes. “Yes, Henry, yes. You are. I don’t even know for how long I’ve loved you. I was… I was scared of ruining our friendship. I’m sorry, if I’d kno—”

   He shushed you with a gentle kiss, timidly placing one of his hands in the back of your neck. You placed your hands on his broad shoulders.

   “No regrets or apologies,” he murmured, touching your forehead with his. “Though I do regret the method I used to prove my point,” he said, chuckling. “I’m sorry. I was getting desperate and running out of options. I just couldn’t bear to spend another entire day being nothing more than friends with you,” he explained, his eyes locked with yours. One of his hands started tracing the line of your bottom lip. “Not being able to touch you, to kiss you… God knows how torture it was to be around you all this time.”

   It was your turn to laugh. He felt exactly like you did, then.

   “Henry?” You whispered. “Come home with me?”

   An affirmation, an invitation, an order? You didn’t know. But all that mattered was his answer.

   “Yes.”

A/N: I hope from the depths of my heart that you enjoyed it! For now I do not have a taglist, but if you’d like to be tagged in my future works, let me know <3 

xoxo, Gio

[yooleestruck]

in which lee rambles about how great writers are

I don’t really know what this is. I don’t know if now is the right time to do this, or a really bad time, or if it makes any sense, but I want to talk about it! I feel like a broken record saying ‘the writing matters most, the writing matters most’ but maybe I need to show what I mean by that? So, here is an attempt. 

I’m sorry not all of these are the same length and not everyone is here, because every time I see that someone is a writer I do try to follow but I don’t always know/remember! Also I am weird about this sort of thing and don’t want to tag people in a monster-long post, so I’m just going to link. I also don’t want to make this a producers vs writers thing, it’s not, it’s just, when I say I notice writer-stuff, an explanation of what, specifically, I mean. 

Writers have a style fingerprint. I’m sure someone with an actual creative writing or English background could describe it all academic-ly, but my ex-chemist ass is just going to call it a fingerprint. 

My first game in Lovestruck was Starship Promise - I love Firefly, I’m a bisexual disaster scientist by education, it fit. But I had been REALLY put off by GIL when it first came out (this was back when they released stories in parts? And the heroine, which I will get to) and though I’d glanced at AFK, I mistrusted it after GIL and Medusa, who was who I was interested in, wasn’t out yet. So I resisted a LONG time.  I finally picked up LS and SP and played it explicitly because a friend said, you need to give this another chance, for a list of specific reasons. 

And when Atlas’s route came out, I read it a stupid number of times. I must have re-read his season 1 & 2 at least eight times apiece (he is still my most read route, despite the fact I have not read his last season because I want to leave the story open-ended)  so when I read Neil Dresner’s route, I recognized the fingerprint. Not only that, when I was reading Jett and the episodes with the paint scene (YOU KNOW THE SCENE) came out, my breath caught with how lovely it was, a particular in-between moment and touch, and even though it wasn’t a phrase I had seen, the style of it, had me re-reading (because it was gorgeous) again and again from the log for like five minutes and I thought, “I bet Melissa wrote this” AND SHE DID. 

Physical touch! (& in-betweens)

Melissa-grey has a particular way of writing about physical touch in very emotional moments that is very real and grounded and ironically the effect is just magical. It creates these so skillful “in between” moments, those little things that aren’t dialogue and aren’t metaphor but SHOW you that this closed off person is cracking for their little ray of sunshine. They are SO subtle and so beautiful, like, the heroine noticing the scent of a pillow, or a softening of an aborted hand movement.  She sets up and executes these moments of physical touch as a conduit for emotional touch with characters who aren’t ready to admit he latter and it’s DELICIOUS. Those little in-betweens are what I live for in story - and it includes all the supporting cast moments, who swell up to make the world feel lived in, and balanced (I loathe love stories where no one else exists! That’s a recipe for disaster, people need networks) I noticed when she stopped writing, and because I missed it, I went and bought the entire Midnight Girl series, as well as Rated (I hope that is flattering and not creepy!) and that style of writing is so unique, that without KNOWING, I picked it up in four separate routes (noticed in Sev’s s1, too!) 

Pacing (& friggen heartache)

Another fingerprint! Ripping your heart out! Arthoure has had me in tears, MULTIPLE TIMES and I get very grouchy about it every time because I am the least sentimental and romantic person that I know (I once MOVED STATES to avoid an ‘I love you’ conversation. I once said ‘yikes’ in response to an ‘I love you’ and I once broke up with someone because I thought he was going to propose. I’m a bitch) but I think it’s because of pacing! I know that producers play a role in that, but that actually makes it more impressive, because making each bit of story feel like it fits precisely the amount of space it needs when you don’t really get a say in how much space that is has got to take a MASSIVE amount of effort. Every little hint, every emotional beat, every character tell, they drop at a consistent build so the emotional payoff is just brutal (in a good, cathartic way?) every time a route makes me cry I wait and see and YEAH ITS ALWAYS ARTHOURE. The sweep and sentiment of Remy’s season 2 is unparalleled. Across Time is gutwrenching, and I actually stopped reading Renzei at one point because I was so emotional over it I had to like, LEGIT TAKE A BREAK to recover. Pacing and heartache. I have to stop and wonder - is it because the routes themselves are so gut-punching? OR is it because she knows how to wring every last emotional drop out of whatever story framework is handed to her? Because, Ezekiel’s villain costume is a bit silly (there I said it, it is) I get the cobra helmet shape in theory but in practice, ooof, but POINT BEING despite being skeptical I’d be able to take his story seriously as a result, I was hiccuping from crying so much (and I am gosh darn adult, in my thirties, with three degrees and a high-stress job at pretty major company. I DON’T CRY EASY)

 Dialogue (& heroines!)

Xekstrin is the gosh damn master of dialogue. Clever, witty banter that doesn’t go where you expect it to, meandering but natural topic changes that are delightful to follow and feel real, and--special shoutout for this, okay--the navigation of viscerally important topics like consent, kink, self-worth, power in relationships, self-sacrifice, and apologies in a way that is not stilted or forced at all (listen, I know Viv & Lyris are the most recent and they are amazing but I remember this first hit me when I was reading Astraeus, and I spent half the route with my jaw on the floor going, oh shit,  oh shit. The communication! The navigation of the complexity of emotion going on, chef’s kiss! Casual isn’t the right word, but, natural, maybe?). I don’t actually take that many screenshots of the app--it’s usually single lines that get me--but when I do, they are almost always conversations from one of her routes, because they’re so damn good, and often so unexpected, and yet always make such perfect sense for the characters involved. Dialogue is SO HARD OKAY. Actually try and transcribe a conversation sometime, it’s nuts how people talk vs how most people write people talking. Xekstrin also writes some of my absolute favorite MCs, and going back to fingerprints, I was reading Lyris s1 and right there in the first tavern scene, as we were following along with the heroine’s thoughts I went, ah, yes, I know who you belong to and I am SO EXCITED. Being able to give the heroine unique thoughts and quirks, to make her genuinely relatable, without overriding the necessary template of the genre dictates, is a skill all of its own. But I love her MCs! There is a beautiful balance of compassion, competence, and dash of bratty, wild, fun mischief. I can actually cheer for them. I can actually get behind them. I WANT the love interest to flop at their feet for who they are, not just because the story says so. And that comes from how the heroine’s thoughts are written, from her phrasing in conversations, how she sees situations, not just a producer saying ‘she is a strong lead who is self conscious about her ears and she’s nervous in the council meeting’ or whatever. I AM REALLY STRUGGLING to articulate this if you can’t tell from how long I have been blathering. Maybe this - the heroine is the same across every route, presumably, yes? Everyone has the same base. I NEVER question, when xekstrin is writing, why the love interest falls in love with her. Side note - I had hard written off GIL after a bad experience with the standalone app. I only read Aurora BECAUSE I learned she wrote it, and I would have SO MISSED OUT otherwise.

A complete aside in which Lee grumbles about heroines and not writers!

(Complete side vent: Often, the heroine is, if not a blank slate, a sort of collection of assigned traits, and she often remains so unless the story demands she become otherwise. Which is fine! I don’t personally, but I know a lot of folks self-insert, and so erring towards that makes sense. Almost all the otome I’ve played were originally written for a Japanese audience. When I played original Voltage games, starting back in 2014, I always had to remind myself - different culture, different culture, different culture, and it was not possible for me to relate to most of the heroines. I still enjoyed the stories, but I rarely cheered for the heroine’s romance, especially in some of the slice of life stories. I understood her, but I rarely wanted her to get with the love interest, I wanted her success to come in other ways! Another game company, Cybird, tried to ‘Americanize’ their heroine to IMO disastrous effect - it was such a stereotype, and made no sense since they didn’t also Americanize the context, so she come across as, frankly, ridiculous. And frankly, Voltage’s GIL heroine REEKED OF THAT. When they first posted her on social media I was legitimately annoyed about it, like could you lean into this more? I think not. So when I talk about being able to relate to and cheer for the heroine, it’s a big deal, because my blatant mistrust of Voltage and their ability to craft a heroine I could tolerate was a BIG factor in how long it took me to give Lovestruck a try. I was willing to tolerate it in translated stories, I was so skeptical of -en only ones.) 

Metaphors (& balance)

literacouture writes beautiful metaphors for connection between humans! I’m really bad at keeping track of who writes what, but I purposefully kept an eye out on tumblr after reading Cal’s route, because there were some lines that were pure poetry, and I wanted to keep an eye out for more. It is HARD to spin metaphors prettily without delving into trite, painful, purple prose cringe territory, and it’s navigated beautifully in Cal’s route. There’s a balance between those spin-out moments and things that are tangible and anchoring and make it feel authentic and unique to the two characters involved, instead of just ‘I am trying to make this sound romantic and this is a romantic phrase so here it is’. That balance is really necessary. You NEED the mundane alongside the metaphor or it doesn’t feel authentic. Also. Trying really hard to write this without throwing any authors or producers under the bus, but...listen. I love Sin with Me. But the world logic (or LACK THEREOF) drives me up a wall. I don’t read Cal because of his character traits or sprite or (sigh) his story. I read him because literacouture writes a beautiful romance.

 So anyway...

There are more! When I am less tired and don’t have meetings, I will try and write them up (Please know there are so many routes I love, and so many things I do recognize across chapters! I don’t even HAVE words for what theivorytowercrumbles accomplished with Helena’s story not to mention how much I adore Cyprin,  SummerLightning’s handling of Onyx’s past relationship was so deftly done when it could have so quickly become ‘milk abuse for plot’ and joidecombat gave Sev a fresh, mischievous energy and navigated the dream/reality line with SUCH skill, and so on and so on.)

I’ve written a lot of reviews. And I try to give nods where I feel they’re due - sometimes, it really is obvious that the whole team’s work came together to makes something great, the world, the plot, the arc, the art, the words, and the music all fit into place in a  well-crafted tour de force. And sometimes one piece or another is lacking, and I’ll admit I’ve left some...less than kind reviews to that end (I try and soften it, because I know there are humans on the other side of everything, but I’ve been harsh more than once with my opinions).  I’ve read routes with plots that made me want to tear my hair out because I DO value consistency and logic to a degree, even if I’m going to accept at face value that, say, space travel is a thing or demons turn to sand when stabbed. 

In the end, these are romance stories. So I will let a lot slide when it comes to plot. What sells a story are the words - not the outline.

And if Voltage doesn’t believe that - just remember that Hamlet existed long, long before Shakespeare wrote it. His was the version that lasted, because the people liked it best. The plot, the world, the characters, they all existed a hundred times over. Even just look at fan translations of manga. Why do people keep translating, even if someone else has? Because the words someone else picked don’t do the story justice. 

I don’t know. I’m talking in circles because I don’t know my own thesis! 

Maybe it’s just - the worlds these stories in are nice. But when I say I’m a fan of something, the premise is like. 10%. The rest is the writing. 

[daphnefangirling]

Why I Started Shipping Bughead

This post is my contribution to Day 2 of @bugheadcentral‘s Bughead Appreciation Week. 

Now, here’s the thing: I quit the show when the article about the ‘storyline that shall not be named’ was leaked. I haven’t watched a single episode since and don’t plan on watching the remaining seasons. What comes below are my feelings about Bughead from episode 1.01 to 4.16 which serves as the de facto series finale where I’m concerned. This got completely out of hand so if you want to read my VERY LONG ramblings, keep reading after the cut.

--- It's almost like Bughead has always existed --- There's this quote from an interview with Roberto Aguirre-Sacasa where he says: "It's almost like Bughead has always existed, Bughead will always exist, it's bigger than any of us." That first part was not the case for me. I'll be honest: I only really started actively shipping Bughead when they kissed in episode 1x06. But, thanks to Netflix, I did go back and rewatch the first episodes to see that, really, the seeds for Bughead were planted right from the end of the 2nd episode when Jughead walks into Pops with Archie and Betty turns around from the booth where she's sitting with Veronica and Jughead is lighted when he smiles at her while Archie is left in the dark. And that's when I realized: it was Jughead that Betty needed to see in a new light while Archie needed to drop to the background (and live his own love story with Veronica). Why is that scene important? For many reasons, but the most important one for me is that it showcased right away the chemistry between the two characters with the playful banter Jughead exchanges with Betty about the two boys joining the girls only if they're paying. It hinted at a longstanding relationship that happened prior to the start of the show. In my headcanon, that's exactly what happened with Betty and Jughead: he was the friend that she always overlooked and once they started spending more time alone together (without Archie's overshadowing presence to fuel Betty's infatuation over the idea of them as a couple), that's when she realized that it was Jughead who was her perfect match, not Archie. As for Jughead, you can see as soon as the next episode how important Betty is to him when he accepts to join the Blue & Gold simply because she's the one to ask him. Again, the chemistry between the characters is palpable in that scene and hints at a playfulness that was completely endearing for me. Jughead's affection for Betty and the importance he gives her in his life is showcased again in the following episode when he decides that the last movie to be shown at the Twilight Drive-In will be Betty's suggestion of Rebel Without A Cause. So even before they actually start interacting regularly, there are clues as to how important this relationship is for the both of them. That, of course, is cemented once they really start investigating together in episode 1x05 (there was no going back after that, Bughead was full steam ahead and I never looked back either on my affection -obsession?- for them). 

I want to mention that since I started shipping Bughead, I have gone back to the comics from my childhood (and modern ones now too) and there's actually a lot of evidence of how "Bughead has always existed" which I was pleasantly surprised to find out! I'm so glad Roberto caught on to that and decided to transpose that spark of an idea from the comics into a fully fledged relationship on his show. I will never thank him enough for making Bughead canon and giving me this beautiful couple that has become the wonderful ship it is now, even if it also existed before Riverdale came along (shoutout to @bughead-in-the-comics btw who provides us with all the amazing Comics Bughead content).

--- Bughead will always exist --- Now, I myself am not part of the "young" portion of the audience that Riverdale is aimed at. I’m 37 and I often feel like a grandma in this fandom! But maybe it's because I'm older (and wiser?) that I can see the importance of having Bughead be the anchor couple of the show. To have that stability, that profound love that isn't torn apart at every opportunity, that relationship where both parties communicate openly with one another, where they respect and value their partner enough to trust them with their heart and even their life sometimes, that's the kind of love that's not portrayed enough on our screens. That's what Bughead brings to the picture, that's why they matter, why they're important, why we relate to them and want them to thrive together. And overcoming obstacles together is important obviously, but seeing the soft and tender moments between them is too. It's all about balance, that's what you have with Bughead: in a Riverdale world where there's crazy stuff happening in every episode, to have Bughead be the stable ship that steers the show for the audience to identify with or aspire to, it's essential. One of Bughead's most memorable scenes perfectly illustrated this: in episode 1x10, we were shown cute moments before the party, conflict during the party and resolution at Pops after the party. In what is certainly one of the most beautiful scenes to grace our screens, that diner exchange where they confess to their mutual darkness and are just so accepting of each other, so tender with one another, that is a perfect example of what makes Bughead so special and different from most ships on television (especially on shows aimed at younger demographics). That scene is a staple of what Bughead is at its core, they are different but they accept each other wholly and their bond is stronger than the obstacles they have to face. And the stakes are so much higher now: they've shared more intimacy than ever before (heck they’re practically married), they will always exist because this fandom will keep them alive long after the show is over (and after they’ve ruined it).

--- [Bughead] it's bigger than any of us --- There is a purity to Bughead’s love story that is so rare, they truly struck gold with those two. There's magic there, Riverdale has something very special in their hands and it should be treated with the respect it deserves. Because to "harm" Bughead is to cut straight through the heart of many of the fans. That's how strongly we feel about those two, that's how important they've become to us, that's why we write (and read) fanfiction, create fan art, manips, video edits, buy Bughead merchandise, etc. It's because we connect with them on such a deep level, they breathe life into us when watching the show. They keep us coming back when everything seems like it's falling apart, Bughead being together helps us navigate the stormy waters that Riverdale can be sometimes. I have been a fan of many other things in my life, but I don’t remember ever feeling this strongly about anything else. I don’t think I’ve ever devoted as much love to a fandom as I have for Bughead. I’ve been sad (and I feel like the whole fandom has been sad) ever since they messed that up. And so I come back to "why I started shipping Bughead." It’s because I realized very early on how special they were. How unique and beautiful that relationship was and I was invested from that point on. It gave me such pleasure, joy and satisfaction to watch one of the most romantic relationships unfold on my TV screen each week. Additionally, it has meant being part of this community, this family (on Tumblr, Instagram, Twitter and even Facebook), it has brought new friendships into my life, it made me start reading again (both Archie Comics and fanfiction), it made me come to peace with the fangirl in me by purchasing a ton of Bughead merch both official and unofficial, it made me discover talented artists and commission Bughead pieces for my Bughead room... It’s been quite a ride ever since March 2017!

[the-color-of-an-ordinary-day]

With love, from Berry (not OD, holidays related post)

As 2020 rapidly approaches within the next few hours, I would like to say thank you to all of you who've been with me this past year.

2019 was the whole year I spent with Tumblr, having only made my account mid to late last year.

Thank you to the six owls (by that I mean fans) of the Ordinary Days fandom, you know who you are, thank you for being there regardless of how inconsistent y'all pop up and create/interact with content XD love ya

Oh and also to the fandom huge sorry to the people who mostly follow me for content actually related to the musical but get 20% of the posts something like this XD I promise next year I will try to contain my ramblings better haha

This 2019, I also created my own personal blog, which also functions as my dump in a way. I know more people know me from there (I think?), and I'd like to say thank you to the people I've met through it. I consider a lot of my mutuals to be my "online friends", so if you've interacted with my stuff/vice versa enough, consider yourself one of them!!!

Special shoutout to the mutuals I have from more than one fandom (e.g. malloysicals XD) and biggest shoutout to those who are my mutuals on that blog AND this blog!! there's like two or three of you only so haha you're special <3

Of course, huge huge thank you to my offline/real life friends. @iwantsomesleep @shesusbyul whom I for some reason cannot tag @marshisatheatregeek and all others who might have tumblr but I dunno the URL of, you will still be the biggest friends of mine in my heart, and I can't wait to spend the new year with you guys by my side ^-^

Most importantly, thank you to my Heavenly Father, all glory from 2019 and all that is to come this 2020 may be Yours, and I will do everything for You. <3

Happy New Year's Eve loves!!!

-Berry

[mangosdoodles-moved]

Self-Insert Positivity Day 2019 #2

Hello!! I’m going to make several posts about this event today (shoutout to @robotarmjokes for hosting this lovely thing!! :D) So get ready for some low-key spam, lots of positivity, and lots of rambling.. and some feels. ;w;

((WARNING: MENTIONS OF CRINGE CULTURE))

What do you like to do when it comes to self ship/self insert? Are you a content creator, or do you enjoy taking part in things?

I’VE ALWAYS LOVED TO CREATE STUFF FOR MY SHIPS!! :D Middle school to freshman year in high school was my golden age when it came to self shipping. I made a lot of content back then!! Not only as drawings, but I made comics, daydream about scenarios, even use MMD to make animations about them! I still have two/three notebooks FULL of drawings! (Maybe I’ll make a post about it, because I’m still low-key proud of them??)

I also was very active on DeviantART. The moment I got a self ship idea, I would immedately make it, then post it! I was so confident, and it was so much fun. I was in a huge self ship Hetalia squad back then, and everything was just.. great! However, my-little-naïve-self was anything but ready for what was going to hit her.

It was 2015, I think. A friend of mine in the squad had opened up for MMD requests, and I was quick to request a picture of me and Germany. I didn’t care what we did, as long as it was just the two of us. She ended up making it, and when I got that notification, I started squealing!!! I was so happy, and we looked so cute!! I added it to my favorites, I commented lots of happy stuff on it, she replied back with happy stuff, it was just perfect!!

Like I said, it was 2015. A time when unfortunaly cringe-culture ruled the f ucking world. One of the first things I saw when I started using MMD, was the several hate blogs out there. Blogs ‘’’’’’’criticising’’’’’’’ every single flaw they could see in every picture people submitted to them. I eventually found a Hetalia focused MMD-hate blog. I was scrolling down to read their posts, and suddenly I notice some of my friend’s pics. I scroll down a bit further, and then.. I couldn’t believe what I just saw..

There it was. The GerMiyu pic I requested from my friend. The blog had found the pic. They shamed me. Writing stuff like “why would you make that?? stop making pics with him like that!! he’s not real!!” as if I had just committed a terrible crime. Even though it wasn’t a direct confrontation at me, it still.. hurt. So bad. I was so ashamed of myself. A couple of days later, I went on my DeviantART gallery.. and deleted every self ship content I made. Comics, drawings, hours and hours worth of time and effort, lost and deleted away, just so I could please people I had never even spoken a single word to. This. This is what cringe-culture does to it’s victims.

That interaction was my first, and the only interaction needed to break my spirit. I stopped posting. Once again, I decided to keep it to myself -- all in my head, for no one else to see. It even got so bad I stopped drawing. I started to hate everything that I posted. I hated my art-style. I hated to draw. I hated to be creative. I hated.. myself. While I’ve managed to escape from that hellish loop, I still struggle with myself when it comes to drawing -- all because of that one interaction. It took me 1-2 years before I finally dared to post about my ship again. Two. Long. Years. Joining Tumblr for good? Also two years. Making a self ship blog without shame? Three years.

Sorry about that long, sad answer, but that’s the unfortunate truth. To lift this mood, I’m now going to tag people who inspired me to be more open about my ships, and even inspired me to make this blog in the first place!

Thank you @pineapplespacefish for showing me that the Hetalia self ship community still had some hope left after the big cringe-culture wave that hit literally every single fandom. I also wanna thank you for noticing me when I took requests for Hetalia screenshots. To be honest, it felt like a fucking honor to make one for you ALJKGLSKJGLKJSG 

Thank you @heart-stealer-hope for showing me that it wasn’t dangerous to make a self ship blog here on Tumblr. After being so terrified to do it, myself, your posts made me realize that self ships truly doesn’t hurt aNYONE. I also wanna thank you for making that @selfshiplove blog before it went to shit, princess mod the best mod--

I also wanna thank ALL OF YOU, for showing me how loving and big this community is. Thank. You. ;w;

[catdemontraphouse]

Aweeee I love u frien!!!

Blessed are those who have been so kind to me in the internetz! Know that all of you who have been friendly to me have my love and I am so happy to know I’ve got folks who care about me.

I just wanted to give a shoutout to some of my best tumblr buddies. Some of the ramblings are longer than others, since I’ve known some of them for more extended periods of time, but I hope that I will get to know everyone listed better in the future and I’m so happy to have met all of you! You guys rock!

@blackberry-venom one of my longest interweb friendships, a great person with such a good heart and so much talent! Blackberry is a musician who records tracks with piano and voice, which I think is rly cool! They draw such lovely and precious art as well, and have an impressive and inspiring collection of original characters that make me smile like a doofus. Blackberry is just... the most thoughtful and honorable person omg. My friend is so kind and is always there for people and I admire that. I’m so very thankful for them and all the love and support they have given me, and wish them a world of happiness!!

@sweetsnteaa such a darling! the sweetest girl who does amazing art and is absolutely hilarious! So grateful to know her! Seriously, sweets makes me laugh my ass off omg. She’s a fantastic creator who writes really neat stories in addition to her absolutely beautiful drawings and she can even decorate cakes for stupid old fucks that need a cake. Like shit man I can’t even cook! I love talking to Sweets because she never fails to make me smile and she has a heart of gold. Bless this friend!! I’m a very lucky person to know her!

@thotleviathan This guy is so awesome! He’s really fun to talk to and has such a calming energy. I have mad respect for his love of animals especially alien cats. He is really good at finding posts that make you go “omg that is so me” Also an excellent artist with so many great ideas! He just makes you feel like “damn maybe I am a good person after all” cuz he just idk like, he’s just a good guy and he speaks from the heart and shit. I am really lucky to have him as a friend!!

@furb-and-friends They are so cute and kind! A wonderful furby parent who is so nice and will send me pictures of furbies they know I’d love just to make me smile! I really like talking to them and it’s great to have a buddy who loves furbies as much as I do. Furb is very talented and customized their own furbies, which you can see on their page! Go check it out, you’ll love their blog!! Thanks for being my friend and helping to introduce me into furblr

@eggbertcare another awesome person who’s a fellow furby enthusiast! They are super sweet and make me feel appreciated with all their support of my blogs! Like seriously I appreciate that a lot. This furby parent customized some absuolutely adorable little gremlins, you need to check out their page because they are so good at customs!! Thanks Eggberts parent for always being so nice to me and being my friend

@undertakers-pimply-dick omg this friend is so damn funny and I absolutely love the memes she makes! A great person who introduced me to lots of black butler fans and never fails to make me crack up. I really need to get back into the crack RP cuz that shit is amazing. I have made several troll blogs/memes with them and I am always a sucker for trolling stuff so yeah. They also support my blogs a lot and I think that’s so nice! Thanks so much for making me feel at home in the fandom. Keep thriving Molly, you’re cool and I appreciate you!

@claudescrustytoe oMG I can’t even with the hilarious shit they cook up especially when teaming up with Sweets! A true lord of the memes who makes me laugh like a hyena lmao. Showed me their cat when I was sad so that was like, really freakin cool. They’re really sweet and creative and I think they are awesome!

@saturnberry She’s super chill and has always been really nice to me. Gives off “cool older sibling” vibes lol. Saturn is an awesome member of the black butler fandom and I really like chatting with them! She is a great supporter of my blogs and I appreciate that very much! Thanks and stay awesome my friend!

@detavott omg Deta is so cool because they are a memelord like me and will troll with me, and I think that’s cool af. I’m so thankful for all their support of me and my blogs!! Deta has some real stellar Kuro shitposts and other great content so go check their blog out!

@dreamilydelicatesublime a fellow Sieglinde stan who is a lovely person with a great blog! I love their manga posts and I’d love to get to know them more! They are super sweet and have reached out to me in times when I was very sad, which was so kind and meant a lot to me to know that someone who I’ve just started to get to know thought of me and wanted to help. Stay amazing and feel free to chat me up anytime!

Reblog if you’ve made amazing friends online and are grateful for their existence

[jewel-s-blog]

about me + bias list

 hi there, I’m jewel :)

she/her/hers ・ 20 ・ kpop (writing) blog

Yes, Jewel is my real name although my parents admit I was supposed to be named elizabeth but changed their minds last minute after I was born how cute and I’m currently in university. I study political science and japanese for those wondering (because yes, I am japanese and it’s helpful when you live in hawaii to have that degree yk?). If any of this stuff is even mildly interesting and you have any curiosities, pls feel free to ask me!

I try to write some things when I can, so feel free to take a look at my masterlist. I also read A LOT of fics on this site, so also peep my recs if you feel like it. Warning: its mostly fluff and angst and almost always includes smut but there’s some really good stuff worth reading still! 

Feel free to talk to me :) i don’t have any kpop friends irl :( all my friends are locals smh 

I try my hardest to be active as much as possible but it’s taken me over a year to finally get used to tumblr lol marklee and i both struggle with complex technology i guess Of course, there are times when I get busy with college and will probably seem to drop off the face of the planet exam season kills but now that I’ve been in quarantine for a month, I figured now is the best time to start building an active tumblr routine. 

That’s all for now! Keep reading below for my bias list :)

xoxo, jewel <3

Bias List 

Before I begin, I will warn that this is basically a giant NCT shxtpost. With LOTS of hyperlinks for educational purposes and absolute crackhead-ery. I’ll eventually make a separate list for other groups I stan, but this blog is mainly NCT and this is already so long so I’ll leave it as this. Enjoy!

Biases are bolded in the beginning of each unit, so you can skip everything after if you don’t wanna see my ramblings following it.

A/N: After biasing nearly every member in NCT/WayV I’ve settled for now on my biases for each unit. This will most likely rotate fairly regularly as I literally fall in love with a different member every day cited here. solo stan? I don’t know her.

ULT

Jaehyun  *ahem excuse me i mean* 

Johnny Suh, it’s official. Don’t know how to explain, but I love everything about him. In the end, it’s always him. damn i sound like y/n thoughts but istg it’s true From SM Rookies to NCT Life to MV behinds, he’s the one. But I’ve also come to realize that I find myself most relatable to him as a person and I think that’s why no one else can trump him wow narcissist much jewel It’s kind of just my gut feeling. It also helps that hes the fluffiest tall, muscular tight booty hottie on the planet. See this black on black dance practice for further scientific explanation even in this jaehyun trying to wreck me so badddddd

Not gonna lie, I HAD IT BAD FOR MARK LEE still do and yet Johnny overcame that. If mark lee were my first love, johnny is my soulmate.

UPDATE! 

Lee Jeno has officially been added to the ult list. *See the entirety of my april activity on my sns accounts if you would like to see how this happened haha :)

NCT U  

im in love with him bc he literally reminds me of my boyfriend -- i like chill guys ok

Taeil is my little teddy bear who looks great in red hair and has a voice form heaven. Evidence? Here you go. He didn’t stand out to me much in the beginning because I was either deaf or blind but after Chain, the game was OVER. +moon taeil in shorts?? serve them thighs honey. Love you bebe tomato <3

BUT Doyoung is the #1 bias wrecker here because have you seen his cover of beautiful on masked singer?? have you?? if not, let me educate you. Also his collab with Sejeong?? Literally the cutest MV ever, perfect for Christmas, listened to it every year since it’s release.

Listen to Coming Home - NCT U for further scientific evidence that NCT has top vocals in the kpop industry.

NCT 127

THE Jung Jaehyun. For reasons that need no explanation. but ill give it anyway smh

After watching the performance of herin and jaehyun singing a whole new world I knew that was it for me. (I still watch it once a month for my jaehyun-related health and to honor SM’s biggest loss, seo herin and ji hansol but thats for another conversation) back to jaehyun His vocals are unique in NCT and bring a nice color to their songs, the man looks good in literally anything, and I’ll probably say this about every member, but I love his dance style--body rolls for days sis. Definitely my ideal type, which my boyfriend is 100% aware of; no secrets in my relationship ofc which explains the wreckage. Pretty sure 81% of the fandom gets wrecked by him daily, so I think I’ll stop here. 

NCT Dream 

Renjun.  why? i just think he’s neat but no really, it was this performance (ok actually this got me ALL SORTS OF WRECKED) and this fancam that had me falling in love with him but were gonna ignore the fact that I get bias wrecked DAILY by all the other members  GOd-tier vocals, personality for daysssssss, variety KING HUANG RENJUN. Safe to claim that I go into renjun feels about 3x a week. Check my twitter for proof. +dnyl renjun was a blessing and I sometimes cant believe that it actually happened. How do I explain?? He’s literally the best boy, but when he gets all worked up....let’s stop there before I have to go to confession again.

But for fun, lets list why I have biased every dream member at some point shall we? (in no particular order) Dream might just be my ult group, songs always bop, members at star quality 

mark- yes i am including mark bc he was the reason i even started stanning dream dreamies leader since mmc days, mentor, A1 rap skills, ad libs go crazy, unparalleled dancing style, hardest worker, cutest watermelon advocate ever, all around amazing person can you tell he used to be my ult? + he’s a good christian boy and my catholic *ss has to confess my sins for being a simp for him 24/7

chenle- vocal GOD, most steady live vocals in kpop, laugh to die for

jeno- i cannot resist his eye smile i wanna cuddle and onstage charisma-2:54 “let’s goooooo” and i alskfdfjlkdldkfa. 

jaemin- “other than my members, i don’t have any friends” and yet he’s literally the most caring and wonderful little puff in existence fight me pls dont im a pacifist 

heachan- idk why but donghyukie feels like he could be my best friend and also cant stop staring at him in their dance practices his body proportions are unreal and his vocal ad libs?? don’t even get me STARTED on heachans vocals

jisung- he is my son, but also my son’s vocals?? MWAH that voice got me second guessing if he’s really my son 

WayV 

Ten Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul another member where it kinda just....happened? In the end I was like “damn, when did you sneaky bugger get in my heart?” He’s got a similar vibe as Johnny AND DO NOT COME FOR MY THROAT FOR SAYING THAT THATS MY OPINION Like Johnny, I see myself in Ten. There are so many reasons why I love Ten, so I’ll make it simple and provide them to you. 

Reason 1 - Performance/dance  he just hit different, he’s THAT good. Reason 2 - vocals the amount his vocals has improved?? UNMATCHED. Reason 3 - INTELLECTUAL (still trying to find the clip of him talking about different kinds of love) Reason 4 - multi-lingual KING ok so this vid is him struggling in mandarin, but imagine, you speak thai and english and learn korean to debut and all of a sudden your agency says “ok learn chinese now.” MANDARIN IS ONE OF THE HARDEST LANGUAGES TO LEARN. Reason 5 - bad b*tch he just radiates bad bitxh energy in everything he does, and I appreciate a bad bitxh

BUT I love wayv’s chaotic energy and chemistry so much that I literally love them all dreamies watch out 

+special shoutout to xiaojuns vocals in Love Talk

+kun being a dimpled zaddy (jaehyun&kun type CONFIRMED)

+lucas holding binoculars like THAT @ 1:10

+yangx2 doing THIS (prepare to be blown away)

+hendery being a the best teacher 

+winwin BEING WINWIN THE DANCE GOD 

+winwin AGAIN and with Ten here i don’t even think i have to say that i tweeted about this everyday for a month and im still not over it. This specific dance really allowed winwin to shine even though ten is my bias. It really allowed others to see the fruit of his classical training even in modern dance which he never trained in. Not gonna be repetitive and SCREAM  say that he’s underrated, because we all know that already. Just show winwin some love, ok? thank you.

And so finally, we’ve reached the end. Phew, this took me almost 5 hours to put together because I definitely got carried away. For those who made it all the way to the end, thank you, I love you. It’s so messy and I don’t have the mental capacity to do anymore editing but I hope you got something from this massive post <3 Feel free to let me know what you think! xoxo, jewel

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Warning, prepare for a long rambly post 😬

So I’m a dynamite era army and Taehyung caught my eye first. I remember I text my little sister at almost 3 am (I have the screenshots to prove it 😂) and asked about the guy in the green suit and the one at the beginning drinking the milk honestly more bc I didn’t wanna seem shallow and Jungkook’s vocals stand out/he’s given a lot of lines as the lead vocalist. So for a bit there I was like oh I like them both but then she told me I had to pick one as a bias (just learned the term so I was like okay sure). I think it was like 2 weeks later I came back to her and was like yup V is it for me, that’s my boy. By that point I got to see some of their interviews and like compilation vids of Run/Bon Voyage and so I did know their personalities more. Since then I’ve really deep dived into their content...a product of being home and sort of stagnated because of the pandemic and just the sheer amount of content. Like I have 7 years to catch up on...It’s A LOT. But yeah my bias never really changed since then. In fact I joked/ still joke that Tae is both my bias and bias wrecker. That being said, as I continued to watch their stuff Yoongi did start standing out to me more and more. This was pretty early on, like within the first month or so and then more recently it’s Jin.

I guess i didn’t realize it was common to have like a trio??? But glad I’m not alone bc mine is definitely Tae, Jin and Yoongi. I really do love all the boys tho, I think they’re all super talented but more importantly I think theyre all spectacular human beings (honestly we should all take notes) but my heart just goes out to Yoongi and Jin a teeny tiny bit more (Tae is just the loml honestly it’s a problem). For Yoongi I think I’m just really attracted to how comfortable he seems with himself. Like he’s so open and honest about his struggles with mental health and as someone who also struggles with that (honestly who doesn’t at some point in their life) I just really admire that and it’s nice to see that it’s possible to accept that those emotions and feelings might never go away but at the same time they don’t have to have to power to immobilize you. So I’d say Yoongi is sort of more like who I’d want to be like? At the same time tho, specifically with his interactions with Tae, I also see part of myself in him already. Like how he makes a big show of being like ew gross at how affectionate Tae is but he lowkey LOVES it. I also just appreciate how he’s a cat in a humans body 😂 and how he gets these random bouts of being super energetic and outgoing. I also feel like besides Jin he is like the caretaker of the group? Like him and Jin (shoutout to Hobi too tho) are always the ones who cook and organize things for the rest of the boys. That’s definitely more me too, I’m 1000% a caretaker. My friends call me nana bc I’m like a grandma lol

Now with Jin I just really want to tell him how wonderful and talented and just how enough he is bc like he deserves to hear it 🥺. Unlike Yoongi I feel like Jin is less comfortable with himself, like he’s not shy about expressing his insecurities in his music so I’d say it’s safe to say his motto as far as confidence goes is “fake it til you make it” (and honestly he does a great job). His solo songs are probably some of my faves. Epiphany is obviously a classic but awake and abyss in particular get me. I think both of those songs speak volumes. I also just get the vibe that he’s one of those people who takes care of everyone else but struggles to take care of himself to the same extent. Something that really made me think recently is a Twitter thread about Jin that called him “the bravest introvert” and I think that’s so true. He has on multiple occasions said how much he hates being the center of attention and you know his ears go red when people stare at him and yet almost without fail he will draw attention to himself if it means making the rest of the members or others around him more comfortable. I think that kind of selflessness is admirable but at the same time I just can’t help but hope he has someone in his life that would do the same for him you know? Honestly I feel/get similar vibes about Hobi but this post is already wayyyyy too long ☠️

Okay lastly it feels so weird talking in depth about the members personality’s when like...I don’t even know them irl. But like I said in my first Tedtalk 😂🤦🏽‍♀️, I wouldn’t be shocked if about 90% of what you see is what you get with them.

Okay I’m done now for real. Thanks for reading my essay (if you get this far)

-Anon who really really needs to start sleeping more and rambling on tumblr late at night less 🐝🖤

This whole analysis was 👌🏼👌🏼

Beautiful. It’s so interesting to think about! Also, I love all of the dynamite era armies. They’re so sweet and excited and ready to rollll 😎

Ugh, you’re rundown on the boys is perfect. So true for all of them. They all tug on my heartstrings a bit.

Thank you for the Tedtalk, 10/10 enjoyed it. Beautiful! 🤩