#i havent touched photoshop seriously in a while but that quote... no one uses it anymore.... and it fits so well....

[zhuhongs]

fuck im thinking abt Weilan again.. just.. i wonder if it was heartwarming or heartbreaking or probably both for Shen Wei seeing how Zhao Yunlan likes him. Like even when ZYL hadnt even met shen wei, he said he felt like theyve meet. HOW must shen wei have felt to know that this is zhao yunlans first time meeting him in this life and still he feels so connection. like... thinking about it.. zyl rlly just had a premonition abt this guy and even though he didnt know him he just liked him and pursued him. and all this time Shen Wei knows what happened but cant say. but that must be kinda validating but also very bittersweet. to know that the person he cared about for so long actually returns his feelings. bittersweet bc hes been alone with those feelings for so long, hes probably at peace with that loneliness and then out of the blue, he meets the person he misses most and ofc he doesnt know him. but zyl has a feeling about him and just rlly likes Shen Wei and cant really explain it and that blows my mind. esp in the novel we get to see zyls thoughts and exactly how his feelings go from "hot professor 😏" to "i want to grow old with u and come home to u forever" and i just... i cant put it in words, i just woke up, but its insane!!! its insane... imagine after pining that long... you receive the love you've only ever dreamed off... thats.. wow. and that the person you love, loves you even without knowing all of what had happened and you havent done anything like what they have but they simply just love you, without and grand actions. amazing.. insane. ive thought abt guardian almost every single day since january 🤣🤣🤣