#i havent rlly spoken publicly abt whats been going on but this place is so disconnected from p much everywhere else i exist so | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

jarvis-cockhead · 1 year ago

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i dont rlly have a big following here at all but i do appreciate anyone who interacts with my stuff immensely and suddenly felt the need to say it. ive been going through some stuffTM and its been a whole ass time and im still reeling tbh. it has been a hell of a time but tumblr still feels like such a cozy comfy place .. i forever long to connect more with people here but never know how. anyway idk where this post is going but haii hi im still here forever just a little funny in the head rn :3

#i havent rlly spoken publicly abt whats been going on but this place is so disconnected from p much everywhere else i exist so #i realised my ex was emotionally abusive and actually SAed me once. we havent been together since the start of this year but were #still trying to be friends. but surprise surprise it never worked and i am entirely scared of them #so a few weeks ago i actually cut them off for good. and its been such a time just processing all of That #never thought this would happen to me.. knew in my heart during that it was bad but never realised it was That Bad #weird mix of everything feeling raw and fresh while also so far away because most of the rlly bad stuff happened before about feb this year #but yeah i have good support systems im doing okay but ig this is smth ill have to deal with and recover from for the foreseeable future #sucks immensely but it is what it is. everyones been very kind to me and i feel cared for #but it has made me withdraw a lot from my online circles ive realised which is sad bc i miss being sillay #but yeah erm. that happened 😺#realising about a year and a half of my life has been devoted to someone who has treated me so badly is nor fun #but anyways. i am really happy theyre gone from my life entirely #and i will heal. and i will be okay

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