#i havent gone into like deep dive on this but i did a bunch of research coming into the fandom cause i was curious

[ninjasmudge]

I mean the sheep that look like the Lamb are either from Britain or Germany

theres actually a lot of sheep breeds with black skin/faces and light wool outside of that, some examples being the grey troender (from norway), valais blacknose (switzerland), argali sheep (WE asia), (romanov sheep (from russia), and the dorper (from south africa) as well as the ones from the uk! many excellent sheep to choose from....

some of my absolute faves are the manx longhorn (they grow 4-6 horns), argali (biggest sheep in the world, big chunky boys) and racka sheep (look at their funky horns)

[dire-straits-fn8ic]

i feel like i was raised with the “you can do anything if you work hard enough” mindset but maybe to a bit of an unhealthy level, especially with my undiagnosed til college ADHD making a lot of baseline function a pretty bad struggle.

and so i’d kind of internalized it as that if i cant achieve something that i’m Bad and Lazy and that i Didnt Care About It Enough.

which obviously didnt go well in my crashing and burning and failing all my classes and dropping out era of college

and then i learned to accept the mentality of that there are many things that i’m bad at and that’s okay! i’m just one person with ADHD and failing at things sometimes is totally normal and my struggles don’t make me lazy and a bad person

and this was a huge boost to my mental health to free myself from that type of impossible expectation hanging over me. and adults in my life have definitely reacted negatively to this and thought that me saying that i’m bad at things is a sad mindset. but it’s not! it’s brought me a lot of happiness to be able to rebalance the scales of what success means to me.

i’m bad at things and it’s freeing to not feel like any struggle is a personal failing but just another part of life.

and this all came from the fallout of spending my whole life pushed along the path of “go to school, get into a good college, go to college, graduate, get a career in your field” and then crashing and burning and having a mental breakdown and dropping out and having to pick up the pieces of my identity from the rubble.

and the signs of my downfall are so obvious retroactively, like ever since elementary school struggling to keep any sort of organizational system to track my assignments and constantly forgetting homework. from middle school onwards always having many missing assignments that i’d frantically try to finish in the last couple days of the semester. i got diagnosed with ADHD after high school but didn’t attempt treatment til year like 2 or 3 of college, and then the medications i was put on werent any sort of miracle cure so i gave up after a month and continued to struggle to do college.

i was pushed to take a heavy course load so i could finish in a shorter amount of time. i wanted to dive deep into my major so i took a bunch of computer science classes and put off taking gen eds when i could. i started failing computer science classes. i was constantly missing assignments in everything as usual. i stopped being able to focus enough while at the computer to do any computer-based assignment, which would be a struggle in any major but an insurmountable obstacle for a programmer. in my last semester i was employed 10 hours a week at the start and quickly got past the point of where even without the job i would have struggled to pass all of my classes. so i quit the job and spent the next few months trying and failing to recover or even stay afloat on assignments. i couldn’t do my homework no matter how much i stared at the screen. one time i got drunk and did a homework assignment and figured that maybe that was repeatable so the next couple nights i tried drinking and doing homework and it didnt work and i was crying and trying to drink beer and trying to do an assignment and stared down what was clearly a dark depressed alcoholic path and finally knew i had to drop out like i had been wanting to do for years. i dropped out. my family spent years telling me that i need to go back but thankfully i havent, and now they only tell me that sometimes.

so yeah i’m often bad at things and that’s not a doomer mindset it’s actually a happy beautiful reclamation of my ability to try things and not feel bad if i fail. Because ive gone down a path of feeling like success is the only option, and it was a horrible one. and it didn’t even lead me to success but even if it worked it would be horrible.

[angstandhappiness]

Neat

I mean the sheep that look like the Lamb are either from Britain or Germany

theres actually a lot of sheep breeds with black skin/faces and light wool outside of that, some examples being the grey troender (from norway), valais blacknose (switzerland), argali sheep (WE asia), (romanov sheep (from russia), and the dorper (from south africa) as well as the ones from the uk! many excellent sheep to choose from....

some of my absolute faves are the manx longhorn (they grow 4-6 horns), argali (biggest sheep in the world, big chunky boys) and racka sheep (look at their funky horns)