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[i-maybe-exist]

I posted 16,394 times in 2022

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I tagged 2,952 of my posts in 2022

#vi rambles - 79 posts

#haven smp - 56 posts

#ask - 41 posts

#answered - 41 posts

#oh my god - 36 posts

#dream smp spoilers - 33 posts

#yeah - 31 posts

#small streamer - 29 posts

#prev - 28 posts

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Longest Tag: 137 characters

#whenever i talk about november 5th i always quote that one post that says like ‘it feels like pure 2012 tumblr was ejected into my veins’

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

“maybe in some parallel reality it was meant to be”

See the full post

11 notes - Posted May 19, 2022

#4

building with the council!! :D - haven smp

16 notes - Posted June 13, 2022

#3

How would someone start watching Haven SMP?

great question! :D

unlike some servers, a majority of the content for it is archived by the ccs! this page on the haven smp website shows a spreadsheet that links to every stream posted in chronological order. feel free to look around the website too, as it also has character descriptions and links to cc’s socials :D

most of the content is full-length vods as opposed to edited videos. a few people have edited down their vods tho, particularly knife_moth and asterlsks (aka @420technoblazeit )! (im also hoping to edit my vods soon, but editing hard 😔😔😔)

we also have a wiki set up, but it’s not completely done yet. it’s best for if you want to find out whats already happened without watching full-length streams, but not every character has information written (a lot of characters do-off the top of my head navn and soleils pages are pretty complete!)

also feel free to talk to any of the ccs! a lot of us are on tumblr (if you say anything to me about camber i will scream and yell /pos), and you’re free to pop into any stream that someone’s doing :D

17 notes - Posted November 13, 2022

#2

i love how everyone is making discord servers and making pixelart plans for r/place while i’m here, making c!deepest sleep All By Myself,

21 notes - Posted April 3, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

hey mutuals!

im doing an art telephone! basically one person draws something, and then they show it to the next person for a short amount of time, and then the second person has to draw it from memory, and then it repeats

dm me if you’re interested and ill send you a discord invite :D

21 notes - Posted January 4, 2022

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[dorims]

last christmas (i gave you my heart).

gif creds @/fightingdragonswithwho

pairing. roman roy x reader

wc. 1.6k

genre. fluff

Spending every holiday under Logan Roy’s roof wasn’t necessarily a problem. But just like any other family gathering, the pot tended to be stirred until have a holly jolly Christmas sounded either like a call for help or the theme song from the Saw franchise. for a change, maybe spending christmas away from his family would do him good. you can only hope he agrees.

tags. NOT beta-ed(?), english isn't my first language // established relationship (fiancee/married, i havent decided yet lol), brief mention of alcohol, allusion to roy family dynamics, roman and reader are the only characters in this one

a/n. idc that its march and the fact im not big on christmas either, this one really fun to write! hope you enjoy

“So,” You test the waters, lathering the bristles of your toothbrush with the bubblegum toothpaste in the process. In tune with the routine you had wordlessly established, you locked eyes with him through the mirror. Not before letting your eyes roam over his relaxed figure of course. Surprisingly intimate, you would describe the way he liked to watch you while you finished your nightly routine. He would look so painfully comfortable, maybe even serene, as he let his body rest against the doorframe as his eyes lidded with perpetual fatigue, took in the mundanity of watching you lather your face with creams and face wash.“I’ve been thinking.”

He hummed in acknowledgement, though it sounded more like a stifled laugh. “That's new, how's that going for you?"

“Funny.” The foam in your mouth was of no help at conveying the faux annoyance, balancing out the deadpan you sported with a dose of conveniently muffled speech. Not intimidating at all, it only caused his grin to grow wider. And contagious as always, you leaned over the sink to spit the toothpaste in an attempt to hide a smile of your own, though the thick layer of adoration in your eyes gave it away. 

“I’m just saying,” he raised his hands in mock surrender, finally walking inside to lean against the marble counter right next to you. “I only wanna know how it feels to lose your, you know, thinking virginity after giving no signs of brain activity for how long? Like—“

“You can tell yourself how it feels when you lose it.”

“Oh you want to fuck my brain so bad—“

“I’ve been thinking,” You cut him off with an amused smile, taking him in once more. Big round eyes shone with mischief along a hint of sheepishness as he noticed you looking at him. Really looking at him under the vanity lights with messy hair from running his hands through the strands all day and finally wearing the matching pajamas set you had gotten for him in a pretty navy blue because wearing a matching set made you feel good and you wanted him to feel the same way. Always. 

“You've been thinking…” he rolled his eyes as if to hold back another quip now that you had restarted the conversation. The pinkish hue you were so familiar with made a small appearance as you let your fingers brush over his, gently coaxing him to intertwine his hands with yours. Not that he needed much convincing, though. 

“We should spend Christmas this year with my family.”

At the beginning of your relationship, you were sure he would’ve pulled his hand out of your grasp. You could see the way he had to swallow down the urge to do so from the pensive furrow of his brows while the side of his brain in charge of his critical thinking tried to convince him that your words weren’t an attack on his family. He was still working on it, the lousy therapy sessions here and there helped a little, but he still found himself opening his mouth to complain.

“I know what you’re gonna say but think about it, Romeo.” Thankfully, you took the steering wheel before he could start. “My family loves you and we haven’t spent Christmas with them in like, ever, actually.”

Which wasn’t his fault, and you made sure to tell him so, leaning closer until your knee touched his and giving him a quick peck on his lips before he could protest.

Spending every holiday under Logan Roy’s roof wasn’t necessarily a problem. It was nice to exist alongside the people that Roman loves, the people he grew up around. Watching him interact with his siblings could be endearing. So much so that sometimes you wished you could record their banter and laughter so he could listen back and for a moment picture that things between them were okay. But just like any other family gathering, the pot tended to be stirred until have a holly jolly Christmas sounded either like a call for help or the theme song from the Saw franchise.

“Every year we celebrate in a different place,” you toyed with the idea in front of his eyes like one would a cat’s toy, using your smile to build momentum to the grand reveal that at this point didn’t even sound grand to you. “last Christmas was Italy and this year we’re doing Greece.”

“Since when do you have a house in Greece?” He asked, toying with your fingers as his gaze locked itself on them. It was a good sign he was asking.

“We don’t,” the sound of your animated chuckle helped to loosen his shoulders. Though it didn’t dissipate his slight confusion, it always felt good to have you close like this. “It’s Kelly’s house— eh, her parents’ but sharing is caring or whatever…”

He let out a chuckle of his own. The sound made all sorts of warmth bloom in your chest, maybe even cute aggression if you felt like being dramatic. 

“And after we can spend New Year's just the two of us wherever you want.” He shrugged in a silent response, still pensive, and you couldn’t help but coo at him as if to coax him out of his shell. “It’s gonna be so much fun, they’ve been asking about us and the kids adore you, they’ve been obsessed with Uncle Roro ever since Lizzie’s birthday.”

“As they should be, my lower back never recovered from being used as a human jungle gym.” He rolled his eyes at the memory yet the love was evident from behind the thinly veiled sarcasm. He was a very particular individual but so were most of your siblings-in-law. And sure, the first time he met your family hadn’t gone as he expected, both in a good way and in a bad way, but your mother still asked him to join him for a glass of whiskey whenever they crossed paths with a welcoming smile and your father always hugged him in greeting like he did all his children. 

“You’re good with them,” You smiled against his lips as you leaned closer for a kiss, leaving a couple of pecks that eventually made him smile too. “you’ve always been good with kids.” 

“Yeah whatever, stop kissing me my breath stinks.” 

The way your brothers had instantly included him in their weird boys' night out, which was ruled by the obnoxiously corny motto ‘what happens in boys' night, stays in boy’s night’ that was used as a smoke screen for that one time they decided to go to the spa to never be taken seriously again once they swallowed their own stupidity, left you grinning for a week straight. And let's not start with the picture you had taken during a summer trip to Nice of all the daughters-in-law posing like they were celebrating their high school prom with Roman at the front of the line, it had been all laughter all throughout; the picture came out a little blurry. 

It’s all you could think about sometimes when you watched him doing nothing interesting in particular with a lovesick intensity only rivaled by his. How well he fits in your life, with the quips and interjections that kept you company and next to you on your shared bed. With both your slippers sitting neatly side by side and with the unmeasurable love pooling at the bottom of his chest that he had finally allowed himself to unabashedly share after who knows how long. 

“Can you pass me your headband? I need to wash my face.”

He insisted yours was better every time you told him he should buy one of his own. Even if he hadn’t tried any other than yours. You only let it pass because he looked cute with his hair pushed back. No other reason at all. 

“So,” you cut yourself by giving him a peck on the lips as he got closer to steal some face wash. He had his own on his side of the bathroom but the bottle was pretty much full and yours still ran out quicker than when it was just you. “Greece or no Greece?”

“I got chills, they’re multiplying.” He joked right before rinsing the soap from his face, chuckling at your lack of amusement. “What? You prefer right now there’s nowhere to hide since you pushed my love aside?”

“I prefer you answer my question.” 

The eyes of a kicked puppy on full display just put him out of his misery vibes, pleaded in silence as he dragged his feet across the floor until he was standing right in between your legs, his face hiding in the crook of your neck. He fit nicely against your body and instinctively you let your fingers brush along the strands of his hair. “It’s okay if you don’t want to go.” 

He groaned in response, his voice muffled against your skin. “It’s not that, I want to, I just— I already RSVP or whatever bullshit to my Dad.”

No one RSVP’ed to Logan Roy. Especially not his children. It wasn’t necessary when the table was already set for all parties involved regardless of conflicting schedules 

“That’s okay,” You kiss his hair, resting your cheek against his head and muffling your own voice. The vibrations made him hum. “I can talk to him.”

The disheveled strands tickled your skin as he shook his head. Now that his chin was resting on your chest you noticed how cartoonishly slow he was blinking, his lids heavy the weight of being awake for far too long. 

“I’ll talk to him.” He pressed a kiss against the side of your jaw, feeling the unmistakable excitement of your grin, before hiding the yawn that followed. “Tomorrow, I promise.

[jeejyboard]

old ppl!!!! 7, 25, 37!!! that's my mutual who wrote it btw ^_^

omg!! i should have used your referral code whoops

7. Any groceries you've been getting into lately?

god ok. so i definitely can't do coffee all day every day like i used to (even one cup gets me pinging if i'm not hydrated enough) but i still like the somatic ritual of The Very Large Hot Morning Wake Up Drink, so i... sigh. ive been looking into the lil tea strainers they have for loose oolong tea to fit my enormous fucking thermos. and i have a jar of loose oolong tea that i mooched off my partner but im already eyeing the other jars of loose tea that i encounter on those lonely nights. like the whore that i am

25. Favorite old person activity?

long pensive evening walks where i vividly hallucinate (solitary) and gossiping with my partner about strangers we encounter in passing (usually light-hearted but sometimes bitchy, i love setting her up for Bitch Entrapment and pretending that she started it while she's like 'nooooooo i'm not a bad person') I am the bad person!! >:)

37. Do you still listen to the same music you listened to in high school?

there was a period of time I was super embarrassed by my various linkedin parks and popov roaches but they make KILLER gym tracks actually. then again i was also still listening to tom waits and other cool weird shit that i still enjoy now, so maybe my tastes havent evolved at all actually lmao

ask me old people things

[sw33t-oubliette]

Musics... what songs you like... I need... recs..

YAY YAY YAY YAY OKAY THIS MAY BE LONG

Steam Powered Giraffe . they're a robot band with a ton of lore but you dont have to know any of it to enjoy the music !!! if you wanna get into the lore i suggest listening to the albums in release order , but if not just shuffling em is good !! even if you decide to get into the lore later you can still just shuffle for now , the songs dont really spoil anything , theyre mostly connected to the robot's feelings and not events . except Vice Quadrant . if you wanna get into the lore i suggest leaving The Vice Quadrant alone until you listen in album release order . all of the lore is on the website below in the lore and comic tabs ! ^_^

Kabaret Sybarit . theyre a danish dark cabaret band with two narrative universes . the first narrative is in The Poodle and The Grand Finale , huge trigger warning for rape and sexual topics in these two . the second narrative is Akt 1: Rum Nr. 13 , the whole thing is in danish but google translate works fine for the lyrics . Akt 1 was unfortunately only act one of a story that was supposed to be longer , but the band separated and they never finished it . what it is is still really good though ! heres the music video for the first song in The Poodle:

Paul Shapera ! he has a few narratives over all his albums , but the only one ive listened to personally is New Albion . the New Albion trilogy is: The Dolls of New Albion, New Albion Radio Hour, and The New Albion Guide to Analogue Consciousness. there's also The Room Beneath New Albion but its not as long and not necessary to understand the main story . theres also more New Albion past those four but i havent gotten into anything outside the 4 . content warning for incest in act 3 for Dolls of New Albion (its not really explicit ever but the main character of act 3 expresses romantic love for his grandfather) . bandcamp link for the first one in the trilogy !

Will Wood and The Tapeworms ! ive only listened to Everything Is Alot , but its really good ! some songs i really like from it are White Knuckle Jerk (Where Do You Get Off), 6up 5oh Cop-Out (Pro / Con), and Front Street !

Shayfer James !!! i recommend Counterfeit Arcade, it has definitely some of my favorite songs ever in it (like Weight of the World and Diggin Up Hatchets) ! and Room by Room !

Sarah And The Safe Word ! im more of a casual fan of them , but some of my favorite songs by them are Sick on Seventh Street, Formula 666, Old Lace, Bottom of a Bender, and Red Hot & Holy !

The Cog Is Dead ! theyre a steampunk band with some lore but its decently less than Steam Powered Giraffe . most of their songs are one off stories with no connect to a greater plot . you can go whatever order for them but i do suggest listening to the albums and not just shuffling them ! website:

Scene Queen ! i suggest just shuffling her it doesnt really matter how you listen to her music . warning majority of her music is very sexual though

Set It Off ! they have so many different styles of music across their albums , i suggest listening to the albums in full for the full experience but it doesnt really matter , they dont have a narrative . except for Elsewhere . for Elsewhere , i suggest exploring the website if you wanna figure out the lore ! its really cool and visually interesting .

The Mechanisms ! they have a ton of lore , most of which is in their albums . for them you kinda have to listen to the albums in full you cant really shuffle . unless you dont care about the lore then do whatever ! you can listen in whatever order , but i STRONGLY suggest leaving Death To The Mechanisms for last . i started with that and i basically fucked up my whole experience :pensive:

[luvuwite]

Hi! I found your channel a few days ago, and although I tried to understand what was going on, I failed miserably, so I was wondering if maybe I could have a little vague summary of how the story more or less goes, if it's not too much to ask 😔

OH MY GOD HELLLOOOO ANON!!!!!

I HAVENT BEEN ASKED A QUESTION IN A FAT MINUTE.. AND THE FACT IT’S A LORE QUESTION MEANS SO MUCH TO ME;;;;; so dont worry! id be more than happy to explain at least a summary of whats going on! :D (though really thank you for asking because i LOVEEE LORE QUEESTISONSNNS)

so i’ll tell you right now, most of my videos take place in the past of my story, The Dove and The Crows, that’s most likely why you don’t understand some of them :( BUT! i’ll explain what the past is compared to the present

so in the past, there were 4 queens that represent the cards, Spade, Diamond, Clover, and Heart, back then, Regina was the only one who didn’t have a symbol on her cheek, this is shown through the video “Plastic” i made last halloween, while they’re growing up, an angel that fell to Connie’s kingdom became almost a blessing to the 4 regions, bringing great hope and more respect towards the queens, however the longer the angel, who’s name is not revealed and refers to herself as “Her”, stays in the earth, the most thigns seem to fuck-around a bit and get concerning

now something happens (that i still need to reveal and animate to show) that causes all the queens to change in hues and attitude, August the queen of hearts becomes more aggressive and rude, Connie the queen of clovers becomes more emotional and pensive, Rani the queen of diamonds becomes more egotistical and stuck-up, and Regina the queen of spades becomes more silent and power-hungry

overtime, wars starts breaking out between queens, August’s best friend, Boston, has to physically move between each kingdom due to being a personal servant and guard to all of them, Rani’s and Regina’s relationship falls out completely, and it is hinted that Connie’s and Her’s relationship is eeriely unhealthy, however no one speaks out about it other than August, it is assumed that Connie ends up getting extremely stressed out by the change of her friends and the violent situations happening that she hangs herself in her bedroom, and in “Plastic” August is the first one to find her and bring her down

after Connie dies, things get much more hectic as Regina claims over Connie’s kingdom, August’s kingdom is attacked by Rani’s, and ends up having to abandon her palace in order to survive while Rani takes over August’s kingdom, she ends up almost bleeding to death in the forest until found by Tony and Elena, and the three of them stay in Elena’s treehouse for a couple months before going out on an adventure all together, August’s goal is to find out what happened to her best friend and bring down the queens :-)

i hope this helps out! i know my story is sorta messy and maybe even difficult to keep track of, but i just hope people enjoy the content i create! thank you so much for asking, this was fun to lay out :]

[kittytual]

-crashes thru the wall 6 hours late- 📖 kurapika

lucky for u i actually have at least two aus abt them??? but i’ll just post abt the one i’m thinking abt rn. it involves another charatcer too so uhh yea

just gonna copy past jt here lol

OKAY so basically its a pairo survives au??? but with a twist???? like it Does change a lotta things abt the story, specifically kurapikas arc. pairo survives the massacre (or he joins kurapika and gets separated along the way) and dedicates himself to finding kurapika and reclaiming the eyes after finding out abt the massacre. kurapika on the other hand chases down the pt, no strings attached, with nobody to stop them besides melody which doesnt work very well bc Obviously. theyre a lot more ruthless without a support system but not to the point where they condone murder, just to the point they dont give themself a break which still aligns w/ canon.

wait this isnt abt kurapika uhh older pairo wears glasses bc he can still kinda see?? but not enough since,, hes still disabled. he uses a cane to move around and hey!! he can function while still being disabled what a surprise !!! /s (listen i dont rlly like the idea that he HAD to be cured of his disabilities like its some kinda hindrance if that makes sense?? bc disabled ppl ARE able to be respected and function despite their disablity so wouldnt it make sense if pairo could too. and disabled rep is swag even if the only rep we have in hxh r two characters who end up dying in the end

anyway pairo enters the hunter exam, meets the other three (and he esp gets along w/ leorio like,,, hes like a brother to him), everything is the same basically except for when we get to yorknew. him + killugon and leorio hear abt the chain user killing a pt member and killugon gets kidnapped and questioned on whether they know the chain user and ofc they dont know bc they havent met kurapika. pairo gets questioned as well??? i think during the second time they get themselves kidnapped in canon???? and ofc nothing bc pairo doesnt know current pika :pensive: idk i kinda need to revise this bc A LOT goes on in yorknew and theres so much i hafta change for things to make sense

fast forward to election + succession arc. pairo does the thing kurapika DOESNT do :rage: and visits gon and yanno all the shit in election happens. he gets the rest of the eyes yadda yadda yadda. OH WAIT did i forget to say that hes in the mafia??? and hes a boss like kurapika???? yea he wears a suit but its white instead of black bc GET IT THEYRE OPPOSITES HE WEARS READ WHILE THEY WEAR BLUE !!!! anyway during a mission he ends up finding kurapika bleeding on the floor and takes them in. i think there Would be scenes where they bump into each other in the streets but pairo is in denial bc theres no fucking way he found his best friend in the middle of a sidewalk after seven years right. anyway kurapika wakes up in pairos apt and is like "whoaaa wtf where am i" and starts freaking out and pairo explains to them and theyre like "oh right i almost died lol!" he doesnt recognize pairo until like. a While later bc i hc kurapika to have trouble recognizing faces esp those he hasnt seen in a while. they end up catching up and pairos goal is basically acheived besides finding the last of the eyes. kurapika eventually tells him what theyve been up to and reveals themself as the chain user from yorknew. pairo doesnt approve that kurapiaks been murdering ppl in the name of revenge even if theyve only killed one (pakus still alive i think??? idk) person and havent since bc the pt is liek. EVERYWHERE and its a wild goose chase. detective vs thief kinda thing. kurapika offers pairo to join them in killing the troupe. brains and brawn yadda yadda yadda. ofc pairo refuses and asks kurapika to open up and find some way to heal bc they havent had a proper support system in so long???? ofc kurapika refuses and OH. guys this is where we get to pairos nen. so its basicallly like. hes either a manipulator or specialist idk. i dont think hed benefit from having an ability used to fight since hes a clever kid so basically he coerces statements from ppl. think jonathan sims from the magnus archives. he asks a question and the person ends up being forced to answer no matter what. this helps him retrieve the eyes and help kurapika open up. nen basically says a lot abt personality bc like i said!! pairos a clever person. its his own form of justice just like how kurapikas form of jsutice is killing the spiders, esp in this au bc they feel its all they have (theyre wrong <3). maybe they end up finding the last of the eyes together idk

thats all i rlly have but there IS a good ending!! both pairo and krpk gain closure + krpk gets therapy at his besties suggestion and they end up meeting the other three + alluka and kalluto. bc killua saves kalluto too in this au. maybe succession happens idk??? i cant rlly imagine it since that arcs all abt kurapika finding connections and seeing themself as human again and that can happen in so many ways i think. but yea theres a happy ending for everyone, krpk and pairo reunite and learn to move on from their past while healthily grieving their fallen brethren. kurapika and leorio get together and marry in another few years bc i cant imagine kurapika doing Any kinda relationship stuff at 19 lmao

so ur prolly wondering “why dont u make an au where the massacre never happens and pairo survives and takes the exam w/ kurapika” and while i ADORE those kinda aus bc they deserve to be happy, those aus r like everywhere??? like everyone and their grandma has done it and i wanna make an au nobody has rlly done so,,, plus everyones happy in the end as it should be <3 except for chrollo/hisoka/illumi/palm/tserriednich. they die or smth

[merrywaanderer]

we go together like wop baba doo wop sha wop bam boo (?) i realised u havent been asked this before ahhh but... mutuals as måneskin songs?

hi dor. okay so these are not that deep, but vibes. vibes. i’m going for vibes. to be quite honest, the things that are the most genuine are terribly difficult to be said with words, so per favore, forgive me if my remarks are short, and if i’ve neglected to include you. i’m afraid i don’t speak so often to you all these days. that being said, feel free to hmu if you ever want to chat or need anything. i just suck at starting conversations, but i will never mind if you do <3

close to the top — @whitenightlullaby

cal does not take shit from anyone. genuinely i wish i had as much “who gives a fuck” energy as my best friend. also this song just has the best dance-around-your-room energy, and if anything, i associate cal with music. good music, no less.

coraline — @mistiermistshazierdays

ah yes, a classic. coraline feels like living an entire character arc within the space of five minutes, and phoebe 100% has main character energy. also i feel like phoebe could be a muse? she’s got such a lovely personality and i can just imagine her as coraline.

l’altra dimension — @aprilaady

marlena, marlena. dor knows better than anyone my occupation with the identity of marlena. the way damiano sings marlena in this song makes me think of adventure? go figure. anyway, dor has a wonderful spiritedness about her; you never expect what she’ll say, and life is all the better for it. idealistic and good-hearted: dor is l’altra dimension.

la paura del buio — @hazypoppy

again, with the vibes. the guitar on this is simply stunning, and the rhythm feels electric. this song is accessible in that its message is a thing i find we all understand; an uncertainty within life and oneself. still, there is beauty even in the unknown, and people like pati are that beauty.

le parole lontane — @drivenbybri

the very melodious ballad, le parole lontane, very much reminds me of sofie. this beautiful song has, slightly melancholy, pensive quality to it, and sofie is nothing if not so beautifully thoughtful. 

morirò da re — @rocknrolldream

anna just radiates this air of regality, so of course it had to be morirò da re. she also has a very defined aesthetic and a heart of gold and of courage. whoever said that the king couldn’t also be the lionheart? because that’s anna.

lividi sui gomiti —  @imcompletelylost

listen, i know i say this all the time, but in my mind, libby is the queen of bass. could and should hang out with the likes of john deacon, suzi quatro, and vic de angelis (although she shouldn’t spend too much time with miss vic because then i bet you all that i have that vic would reject my marriage proposal and go after libby instead… ah-hem). one of the things i notice most about this song is the subtle but strong baseline, so of course it reminds me of libby. also, again, vibes in general. bad-arsery = libby.

[corvidares]

c!ranboo, zoe murphy?

send me a character aaand..

c!ranboo -

favorite thing about them

oh gosh hmm... i think.. its his capacity for love. his caring. he's not close to many, but those he truly loves he would do anything for - from the smallest gestures (an allium, for you) to the grandest (i would protect you with my life)

and he doesnt care what anyone else thinks about those he cares about.

least favorite thing about them

his willingness to keep his head in the sand. theres so many things that happened in the server before he arrived, or things he's forgotten, and its a bit hard to watch him just.. be okay with that, especially when its relevant to him. like the fact that he only JUST recently found out about what happened to tubbo during the pogtopia war.. damn, dude. maybe pick up a history book or smth?

favorite line

“Although I’m forgetful, although I’m an idiot sometimes, I can’t forget people.”

(there might be other ones but its so hard to dig up quotes for this damn fandom)

brOTP

HIM AND TOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! their friendship, as rocky as it is, means EVERYTHING to me. tommy was one of the first people to show kindness to him. hes patient with his memory issues. and ranboo doesnt let tommys anger and playing insults get to him. he knows tommy has a huge heart. he doesnt give up on him, even when everyone else does. ranboo yelled at sam on tommy's behalf when.. tragedy befell him.

OTP

him and tubbo!! i just adore their relationship. you can tell they were drawn to each other, that they're growing together. they both hide so much from each other, both have so much trauma, but they would die for each other. they started a family together!! they have their own commune! tubbo is patient with ranboo and ranboo spoils the heck out of tubbo, just as he deserves.

nOTP

shrugs?? in terms of Any kind of relationship, keep dream the FUCK away from him

random headcanon

ranboo really loves hugs and similar types of physical affection :] he wraps his tail around tubbo a lot, and tommy if theyre hanging out close enough.

also he's nonbinary and uses he/they

unpopular opinion

fanon needs to realize that ranboo DOES in fact have a backbone and CAN stand up for himself and others

song i associate with them

okay this is embarrassing but i dont think i have any [pensive]

favorite picture of them

AUGUHGHG YOU CANT MAKE ME CHOOSE

this one jk haha no but uuuuh oh man. maybe one of the frames from shatter? this is cute too

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zoe murphy -

favorite thing about them

ohhhh. i think... it's how much she grows, how strong she is in the wake of so much pain. those things didnt make her stronger. but damn does she know how to keep moving forward, to truly step into her own light.

least favorite thing about them

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm tough. maybe her callousness towards connor? i mean idk, i get where shes coming from, but.. it does suck a little bit.

favorite line

"'Cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep | No one lights a candle to remember"

yes im cheating with a song lyric

brOTP

IS IT CHEATING TO SAY HER AND CONNOR?!

OTP

no one? tbh. alana and her can be a cute pairing tho sometimes

nOTP

i. really dont like her with evan, at least romantically.

random headcanon

-slams fists on table- zOE HAS ADHD-

uuh but for something you maybe Havent heard, how bout... she loves spring! a cool breeze on a warm day! and sunsets

unpopular opinion

uuuuuuuuh zoe was not popular in school

also she doesnt hate connor

song i associate with them

motion sickness by phoebe bridgers ,,

favorite picture of them

AGH

this is one of my favorites!

[sleevesareforlosers]

hi jordan ily i hope your flight is safe and not too boring basically u know why im thinking abt this probably but im thinking about what the most likely forms of music are in the Zones? like what’s been preserved? records are probably pretty rare because they’re so scratchable but CDs are also pretty scratchable and arguably more breakable than records. does that mean that cassettes would be the most likely form of music to be preserved? the trans am is a 1979 (? right? god im gonna be embarrassed if I got that wrong but numbers r hard) model so........cassette player? does that mean that other forms of music DONT exist or are just harder to find? how big do you think the four’s music collection is? (and like, what kind of music?) how big is Dr. D’s?? anyways ik this is a lot while also being kind of boring so sorry abt that but anyways ily and have a good flight

and here’s pretzel!

[Image ID. A small, golden, curly-haired dog. He is lying on a tile floor with one paw outstretched, looking up and just to the left of the camera. End ID.]

Hello pretzel!!! give him lots of kisses and pets for me!!!!

also hi pi ily my first flight was ok!!! i slept a bit and just knocked out on the floor for like three or hours so! things could be much worse!

ANYWAY music questions are REALLY interesting bc i dont know my full canon timeline yet and that can rlly affect things if the wars were in like. 1940 vs 2010. as it stands i know that the 80′s happened generally the same as they did in the real-world, despite BLI already existing. but the four were born between 1990 and 1996 so things started getting fucked up pretty soon after that (but ig zone culture was already kind of heading that way given how i hc the convoy/motorbabies so. hm. whatever). so the forms of music available then would have been like, cassette, eight-track, vinyl, uhh maybe another one but im not doing research atm. and then i think BLI has like. audio chips that need specialized hardware to run.

so as far as music in the zones go its mostly vinyl bc cassettes dont um. always have a great lifespan (my old truck had cassettes and when those things start unspooling it rlly is the end of the fucking world). I havent thought about how new things get recorded tho so... :pensive: the trans am would either have 8-track or casette idk the specifics but those are both magentic-tape-based altho i think the four mostly just tune in to the radio bc thats where ur gonna get the most variety and also ur news.

the collection AT the diner is pretty small its mostly just cherri’s collection which is like. maybe 20 vinyls but it fluctuates bc i think dj’s share their music so that they arent all playing the exact same stuff all the time. largest collection is obv at Dr D’s bc i think it is REALLY common for people to find new stores of music, drop them off at the radioshack, and then have him kind of spread that out to the various dj’s/crews he thinks would like them

sone band sounds tend to be more punk and industrial, electric if they get their hands on droid parts. like take 80s music, take away everything high-production about it, and then deeply traumatise all the artists by putting them through like. a corporate-sponsored apocalypse

i dont rlly have solid hc’s for what kind of music people like but i think that cherri is rlly into 80′s alternative (like, tears for fears, duran duran, joy division, basically everything my mom likes skdjfshk) and spread that to kobra, they all like mad gear (sounds like the ep does), and pois hates aka loretta (which in my mind is more electronic/kind of industrial) but has a soft spot for classical (if its late enough and hes in a quiet mood). if it had gotten to exist ghoul would have LOVED like. 90′s/2000s pop queens (like, beyonce and gwen stefani). ofc in android au they have a larger music collection bc pois and kobra have audio chips

um <3 i hope any of that is what u were looking for!! ty for letting me talk abt this its fun even if literally NOTHING i have for this is solid other than cherri :handshake: my mom’s taste in 80s music

[artificialac1d]

ahhh view monster very epic album. it has a few miss songs, but skipping those aren’t a bother 

lets go!!!!  kaleidoskull (hhhnfghjdbf instrum ents) this is a cute little instrumental piece to start off the album!! it sounds really nice and calming sorta. cool!! amnesia was her name (guitar B]) uhh this one is fine. i dont listen to this one a lot, i usually skip it, but it isnt awful!! it has a nice little instrumental. the man in stripes and glasses (ehh) the song isnt bad its just preventing me from listening to mARKETLAND. the chorus also is not the greatest. the rest is fine. marketland (dododododododooododododoododooooooooo) the guitar(?) part at the beginning and that persists through the song is cool!! i never realized how much i love the instrumentals to lemon demon songs until i wrote these damb. MOMMA ZOOMA money is VERY fun to sing i love it yes thank you. tried playing it uke once, failed miserably B] gadzooks (this album starts off with a lot of misses h) this song is alright. same opinions with this one with amnesia :/ knife fight (FIGHT FOR YOUR LIIIIIIFE) oh yeah??? the instrumental is just!! very cool!!!! the second voice a little obnoxious, and the end part makes me embarrased, btu otherwise, this song is a 13,000/10 would jam to again the only house thats not on fire yet (ahh!!!!! yes!!!!!) oh my GOD this song makes me feel nostalgia i dont even have. its just really peaceful and nice and just dbhhgfjdsrgbhj!! gahhh singing it is a blast!! i really love this song, if you cant tell. the ocean (ballroom dance 😳) another one of my moms favorites!! i dont know why i keep including my mom into these,,, be quiet. very upbeat!! nice little uhh synth(?) bits!!! i dont know what to call these little computer noises hngjhfbjdh. this song is really memorable for me! v fun to sing. the afternoon (exploding house i think) see the footprints in the cave??? this song is a lot like the only house thats not of fire yet in the nostalgia part. very good time!! very much vibes!! love it spring heeled jack (murderer but bouncy) instrumental!!! 20/10!!! i use a lot of !! sorry 😳 uhh the lyrics!! fun! cool to sing along to, very nice song!! thank you kneel sliceofpizza!  being a rock star (the music industry sucks) sticks instrumental?? hell yeah!! again, VERY fun to sing if im home alone or soemthing. the chorus,,,, 10/10 love that. very vibes ask for nothing (balloon flew away :pensive:) this song is cute!!! the instrumental is very soft, and so is the singing/lyrics!! this is a very nice like, calming song!! very nice satirists love song (w hoa) i havent lsitened to this one in a while so i am listening to it while writing. whoa!! the instrumental is GREAT (like always) the singing is nice!! the little chorus bits are cool! hell yeah. the machine (anticipation to bill watterson😳) do i need to keep saying the instrumental is good? the instrumental is good. THIS is one of the songs you can just, relax to and chill out. very very nice experience!! listen to this after a long day. bill watterson (og fuckm oh shit stalker neil) instrumental...... really cool very jamming i literally cannot express how FUN this song is to sing this song i literally cannot its GREAT 1,000,000/10 would commit arson to again. something glowing (literally almost spelled it something clowning im so tired) this is nice! very relaxing and theraputic. its a nice relaxing song compared to the obsessiveness of bill waterson. nice contrast!! 320x200 (64,000) this instrumental is nice to listen to!! ear candy. ben bernanke (h???? dgfhjdhbfjhkd???) i dont like this song. it sounds good but i dont.. like it. you can like it but. it freaks me out. idk maybe i just hate the visual of ahem EVERYTHING.  drinky-bird (instrumental part 3!! electric dance partee!!) another nice instrumental to listen to!! i dont usually listen to the instrumentals a bunch, but thats only because i want to get to the songs with lyrics lol modify (cut off your fucking arms) whoa... the instrumental is BANGING. i planned to do a seriesof drawings for this song including each person who mangled themselves but gave up lol. the lyrics!! fun!!! upbeat gore B] nightmare fuel (clown head with legs) spoomky ??? well it is spooky month so. yes. the song is pretty nice!! i dont listen toit much so i dont have a lot to say. sundial (JAMMIN) i remember this being the BOP when i first found it. ngl listened to it on repeat for like a day. its very cool!!! very nice to listen to. also who fucked up his sundial who am i fighting. the wiggles hate eachother in real life (never watched it) uhh the instrumental is nice! not my favorite, but its a very interesting sendoff!! oh no one of the wiggles is drunk :[ thanks for reading this bullshit im tired might draw something or pass out idk.

[mingi-bubu]

Watch “Love O2O” with Me!

Episode 8

we’re baaacccck

i have to talk myself out of finishing the red bean mochi i just bought today *pensive emoji*

but anyway

i need more water, my phone isnt, plugged in, the show is pulled up

as mark anderson would say, lezgeddit

so we start off with wei2 and xiaoyang wrapping up the tutoring sesh

and boy hasnt anyone told you its not polite to go thru other people’s belongigns???

sir

stop that

the fact that she doesnt even notice until he asks aldskjfaslk

he saw her drawing of naihe thooo

a;ldksfjads youre such EYES SPARKLED WHEN I MENTIONED XIAO NAI AND THEY DO WHEN I MENTION YIXIAO NAIHE

WHO IS HE TO YOU MA’AM

yaoyao is glaring at september

I PRAY THEY ENCOUNTER NAI AND WEI2 THE FIRST ROUND I LOVE ONE (1) MAN

they have a remote control helicoptrelalkjfa;lke

i know the announcer guy is an npc but i love him

damn naihe is cruel

ah wait

wei2 is tooo

THE SLIGHT SMIRHK HE HAD FUCKIGN

akldjfalskd damn they really did just skedeet

incredible

they won without fighting adklfjaskd

STOP THE FUCKING FLIRTING ON MY GOOD CHRISTIAN SERVER

ooh ok round 2

ooohhhhh wowowow

diemeng’s outfit??? slaps so fuckign hard

its so pretty

i love her hair piece

ugh this guy again

oooh the swords are lit up thats so fun

wow ok that game was short

oh diemeng and weiwei are gonna go and chat

oh diemeng’s irl person is wearing such a cute sweater

what is going on with wei2′s sweatshirt

why does the zipper go down one side to her elbow??

anyways diemeng is apologizing for how the clan had treated wei2

she can’t wreck the relationship between diemeng and the clan leader??

ma’am i regret to inform you...

wow that got sad quick?

nevermind comedic relief with xiaoling and weiwei

alkdfjalskd the yakult bribe is sending

also i love that theyre going out for hotpot

i want some :(

diemeng and the other guy havent shown up yet

omg

they broke up O.O

that means by default naihe and wei2 have won the battle

wei2 is going to ask nini what happened

so diemeng was going to kick the one trouble maker girl out of the clan but then her bf disagreed and they broke up and diemeng is on decline all for private messaging

and then montage of weihe owning everyones ass

he looks different in this lighting

almost like park hyungsik

shut the fuck up with the smile im sick

alkdsjfasadksfj @ how naihe’s character just stares at nothing when nai’s away

not @ how the #Squad are enamoured with nai and wei2 chatting privately in frong of them

ewwwwww

ive had enough of this guy

*points at yiran’s greasy cousin*

ive had enough of her too

*points at the girl who is 100% with YR’s cousin bc he has money*

awww wei2 talking to her parents

not to be all thats the mood and i definitely would say the same thing but..

erxi got hired for the internship!

sisi, xiaoling, and weiwei didnt tho

xiaoling is my girlfriend sorry i dont make the rules

sisi dragging erxi for filth about her outfit

al;kdfsl she needs to go shopping for new clothes

sisi looks so cute!!!

NOT at how weiwei is dragging her roommates for filth too

damn wei2 got voted most likely to cheat :(

not at how wei2 was threatened to go aldkfjalskdjfa

BC SHE CAN BARGIN IM SICCCCK

and shes carrying their bags

ugh iconic

why not just move the clothes into one bag?

it’d be easier

oh she has been noticing that naihe has been bossy

XIAO NAI SPOTTED IN THE WILDERNESS

IN A MOTHERFUCKING

SUIT

UGH

DAMN HE REALLY DO DID LOOK AND SMILE AT THEM IM SICK

ME TOO

please tell me xiao nai takes them to dinner

oh tea about xiao nai’s company trouble

it looks late is weiwei going to miss her date??

gaming date

september is not looking at the road

look at the road

i love him and his braincell

lOOK AT THE ROAD NOT AT HIM IM SICK

alkdjf;alkjefaoiwe SEPTEMBER IM DYING

WELL FUCKING ALRIGHT THEN

NOT AT HOW MY HEART DROPPED

OH NO HES GONNA NOT MAKE IT

BABY SWEETHEART SUGAR BEAN

everyone is cheering for them

hospital scene

SEPTEMBER WAS OKAY BUT NAI WASNT

a head wound shouldnt be bleeding that lightly unless something is very wrong or it’s extremely superficial

im feel so bad for september

hes definitely going to feel so guilty for a long time

swetie no odont hit yourself

also why didnt he get examined too???

oh god this is sad to watch

ok no way in hell is a hospital ever that empty

again he shouldve gotten checked out

i want to give him a hug

if he cries its over lads

the other half of the #Squad

RESUSCITAETE

I

IT IS CRYING HOURS LADS

SEPTEMBER

SWEETIE

I AM CRYING A LIL BIT

mirror fish is cryign tho

so fuck alright then

weiwei is disappointed bc she dont know whats going on

she didnt get dumped you people are just mean

y’all really have that much beef with a video game character

*side eyes*

doctors are coming out

we know they cant kill him so im guessing coma

kodak

baby...

mirror fish and september are cryign

i HATE IT HERE

water is a limited resource plesase stop running it if you arent using it

she really be thinknig all men are liars

her sad outfit is really cute

im gonna be real

i care infinitely more about nai right now than i do weiwei

oh damn her hair is loose for the first time in like ever

montage of her sadly going thru her days

of her filling up a mug with water

of her walking by the basketball court and seeing naihe playing

talk about a hard to do layup lmaooo

she and the #Squade are running

this extra in the backround is running with jeans

do they have like an academically mandated run time?

y’all just gonna up and leaver her like that??

nai nai nai nai nai nai

i was right, hes in a coma

and hes awake

his parents are there too!!!  along with the #Squad

oh shit

NOT AT HOW IM GOING TO START CRYING AGAIN WITH HOW THE XIAOS WERE LIKE SEPTEMBER ITS FINE DONT WORRY YOU CANT PREDICT THIS SHTI

alkdfjasld;kfj kodak knowing that nai is fucking with him im sick

they really didnt tell mrs nai

oh my god he was just unconscious for a night???

ugh i need a clearer timeline

but anyways

he is awake again even tho i kinda wish they wouldve pushed it to the next episode for ~drama~

oooh maybe the next episode is when they meet

i hope so

also i have so many issues for how the hospital stuff was done but thats my own problem so its fine

anyways

thank you for reading along!!!

stay safe and stay healthy <333

[gayspock]

is the mechanisms a podcast or an album of songs? i'd really like to listen to it, it sounds cool!

!! :3 the mechanisms are a band!!  i gotta put this under a read more bc. its a Lot for me to explain  &im not good at that always so POFFJSFDPIGVDF

SO, each album exists as, like, an independent story?  and there are four of these albums, structured in this manner (and 2 more, but i’ll mention them later). meaning u have to listen to the songs, within them, chronologically and they connected as one big narrative. OTHERWISE, the albums can be listened to in whatever order  (although once upon a time in space is where most people start, bc yeah its the first one, and it introduces you to the mechanisms themselves)

the stories themselves are basically retellings of fairytale, myth, folklore and legend, with a sci fi twist + other stuff added for FLAVOUR.(also . gay& trans characters everywhere). for example: my favourite album is high noon over camelot, which is arthurian legend set as a western on a dying spacestation. (arthur, guinevere  and lancelot are all dating and call each other “my love” which... frankly, soothes the soul).

but then u also have, like.  first album, once upon a time (in space) which is basically. old fairy tale, like snow white, cinderella, the three little pigs, etc. all in one big space war.  there’s an absolute BANGER of a song called “our boy jack” which is basically: a rebel wartime song, about jack (from jack and the giant) defeating big powerful fucking mechs (the giants)  which. yeah that FUCKS.

meanwhole like. the mechanismt hemselves are also characters? theyre basically: a band of immortal space pirates. and they, for the most part, are ther ones telling these stories (and sometimes get involved in the... like this isnt a spoiler, but in the bifrost incident: they’re literally just prisoners, chilling in that one).  hence why its usually best to listen to the first album first, even f the other order doesnt matter, as Jonny D’ville (... also known as jonny sims, who, if ur familiar with tma, you might recognise that name) introduces himself and the mechs briefly in that one 

hthe OTHER two albums are called: Tales to be Told. (Vol 1 and Vol 2). which have like a COLLECTION of unrelated songs in them? which usually come under either: one song-length stories, of the sae nature as the albums. OR they have indibvidual mechanisms character’s origin stories . tbh im not THAT good when it coems to like. the deeper lore concerning the mechs themselves, as i favour the album- long  stories & havent dived into all the fiction available on their site :pensive:

ANYWAYS. I HOPE THAT KINDA. GIVES U SOME IDEA. U SHOULD BE ABLE TO FIND THEM ON... SPOTIFY (at least in the UK?) , BANDCAMP OR EVEN JUST. YOUTUBE! IF YOU SEARCH THEM UP :3

[y01te-moved]

🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻

i almost cant even count how many this is but im doing every single one anyways and you cant stop me despite the fact that this obviously took me ages to actually answer

1: if ur reading this ur legally obligated to follow max (sender of this ask) Right Now. Just Do It.

2: i think more ppl with my sense of humor should watch Spider Riders bc listen..  if somewhere along the line that show suddenly gained more popularity again in this fine year of 2019 id be both actually funny for once but also revolutionary. by all technicalities some of my hcs are fucking great but i dont think i could say a lot of them and even be comprehensible outside of orientation based ones that are just rlly controversial. granted im not even sure i could or would actually recommend the show to people cause its kinda dumb a lot of the time and also fairly long at least to my standards so its harder to finish unless ur like really invested in it :pensive:

3: also on that note the next time a horny person even THINKS about Corona im Going to break into their home and then break their knees. i hate that she has so much fanart thats basically just fetish art or otherwise managing to be nsfw in some way shes like 15 at best fuck off!! its rlly only a problem on like. deviantart but it still makes me die inside.

4: character development is hard i never actually keep my ideas and what i have written down on like.  my actual bios for everyone on the same pace so its a confusing mess and i wish i was better at combating that

5: anon and kanon r such good loids i wish people used them more but i think a part of the problem is that i dont always look That hard for things that use them ahdbsadgashdj

6: alex is the best sdv bachelor and im not accepting criticism on that notion. 2nd best would probably be like..  sam except i havent tried hard enough to be friends with him yet which i feel bad abt bc he seems nice

7: i miss the cracking open a cold one with the boys meme that was still one of my favorites

8: (goes BACK to thinking about SR shdfjds) the anime had no right having like so many characters base their ideals off of how brade used to be in the past and all those good takes on like not necessarily Having to resort to violence as the ultimate solution and all that good stuff just to be like, “surprise!! he actually IS still around! but also he’s going to be minimally helpful at all until the last few episodes and otherwise we’re going to make a ton of gags about him trying to hit on the like 2 girls in the team who are also like 15 while he ignores practically everyone else because thats funny!” im still so mad about it. he is the absolute worst and he has no rights. there was also so much potential they seemed like they could have used and were trying to hint at using in terms of further developing more important details about the history of the inner world or at least some of the things that had been going on well before hunter ever showed up and then they didn’t do anything but hint at the idea of brade having known hunter’s grandfather. but even that wasn’t 100% confirmed bc they dodged around it the one time they had hunter ask. its a mess.

9: my taste is so fucking weird and i hate it bc its mostly just, “oh yeah i heard abt this thing and it seems cool im hoping to start getting into it soon!” for most things that are actually cool or popular or all that and never actually get into it, but then i see smth dumb as shit that i know would probably make me look like an absolute fool for liking and im like, “oh yeah yknow what i can do this one” and then i do like it but i cant say much about it either cause i dont wanna look like.   a fool.

10: these have been depressing as fuck so im gonna lighten the mood and say that himbo is a fucking hilarious word and i love it

11: also axel (kh) is a himbo. why? he just is.

12: im also bad at character design i think bc i always worry that my characters look too similar in terms of hair style like all the time and idk if its rlly that bad or not jfhgkf.  that and like. so many of my characters just wear jeans and boots in terms of the lower half of their body its so unoriginal but it always works so well…

13: still disappointed in myself for having never 100%’d even 1 tlodw game. lunatic mode.. Difficult

14: i dont keep up with ace attorney fans but i hope everyone out there agrees that miles has peak vampire energies based on the way he dresses alone

15: re:zero fans have no rights only bc i only ever see ppl talking abt rem and ram like. wh..   was no one ever going to tell me about reinhard or was i just supposed to watch him get introduced in the first few eps and then fall in love w/him immediately before even finding out hes supposed to be a knight which makes him 20x better

16: leon and/or leonhart is like genuinely a good name idk why it just sounds rlly nice

17: ive had like so many technical difficulties with this site since trying to answer this i hate tumblr

18: im pretty sure im like. genuinely just gonna go mute or some shit one day cause honestly ive mostly only ever gotten worse and worse about not actually being able to say things even when i know exactly what thought im trying to say, both physically and like. online. its so weird i feel like i just cant say things. it may just be being self conscious but i restrict myself soo heavily and its WEIRD….  its like being trapped in ur thoughts and it sucks.  probably doesnt even actually mean all that much but it still makes it hard for me to accomplish anything ever which i hate.

19: despite all the titles like ssbu and all that existing for the switch i think id only want one to play the new(er) inside system games i havent had the chance to yet like the spinoff card game and rudymical and also brave dungeon but w/neville and klinsy and whoever else was dlc on that game cause obviously i own the 3ds port but also neville..  good…  i wanna see how she plays..

20: i miss when i could be passionate abt cave story it just makes me feel tired seeing it sometimes at this point but it also still holds a great significance to me so its just confusing and im not sure how i feel abt it

21: the SR novels were cowards only on account of not giving us any official design for petra but also for writing igneous like.  That.  novelverse igneous is just too bitter in general and like i get it but they couldve done a lot more with him even though he is still somewhat respectable in the end, granted its hard cause like holy shit hes so fucking mean to hunter literally who asked for that. im just glad the anime let him be somewhat more idk..  i guess sociable while still keeping a lot of the inherently essential aspects his personality had like his almost over the top loyalty to the prince and taking things like training/combat in general very seriously. its just good and animeverse igneous is so good id die for him thanks for coming to my tedtalk

[wlwtsubomi]

TELL US ABOUT NEBULA!!!!!!!!!!

TEAR I WOULD DIEF OR U

ok o k ok so!!! nebula is the character whos had the most versions thruout all of my versions (second only to my persona, who is shameless inserted into everything so that says A Lot)

in the work hes in (i dont actually have a name for it?? i dont even have a placeholder name for it??? i just remember it by the characters whos in it aldjagalf) basically the four main characters (this isnt about the other four whos from alexs group) are all housemates???

and nebula is a very ‘in the moment’ kind of guy and any teases he does is more lighthearted compared to burumus more deadpan snarker??? if u catch my drift??? and despite dressing Kinda Emo hes actually p excitable and upbeat?? hes just pessimistic and Melodramatic. hes an author!! (one of the two author characters i have :pensive:) and he writes horror/thriller/sci-fi stories!! think alien

so one of the things about the work hes currently featuring in is that everyone has powers?? (not like laylaylb or the heroes work where some people have powers / some people dont bc Everyone Has Them) and their eyes reflect what their powers are??? like ivys eyes are green and her powers are plant growth/manipulation????

so ur probably like

‘eclipse what the fuck does fuchsia mean then’ his power is actually like,, psychic manifestations?? kinda??? as weapons????? idk how to explain it but Its A Thing!!!

as a child he thought it was super cool and would reenact scenes from movies but now he kinda just uses it to cut bread and maybe stab and grab a piece of cheese that fell off onto the floor

(some history below,,, if yall wanna read abt that,,, (but beware,,, Old Art,,,,))

gil u probs kno abt all this but as i mentioned before, nebula has the most variations and versions thruout my works?? it may be bc past me wasnt that good at comin up with characters so i reused a lot of them (well, i still do)

he was actually from,, 2014?? hes about 4 years old??? and guess what he used to be

he was a pokemon oc!!!!!! he was a kirlia from pmd-u but Dont Go Looking For Him Those Were Dark Days I Was Bad At Writing And Drawing (well i still am but now i can cover it up better)

but he was in a group w/ someone elses character?? so once we stopped talking to each other he kinda fell thru the cracks BUT i was in a group with someone else!! and i kept nebula alive bc they were nice enough to let me have nebula interact with them!!!!!

and thats kinda how he stayed until i started working on this other work, and started importing a lot of characters (with ivy, reynold, molly, and landry being the only original characters to that work) into there!!! and that forced me to come up w/ a human version of nebula

but as i slowly forgot about the work (which i was working on around,, 2016???) i actually ended up bringing up him again in

drumrolls

osas!!

since i couldnt have his fuschia eyes or his trademark blue streak in osas, i ended up giving him blue eyes!!!

and idk if u remember that one post i made on q about how he had a laylaylb counterpart too?? here he is babes!!

if ur wondering who that half finished character down at the bottom right in the first photo is its actually a 1b student from laylaylb who i havent introduced yet :pensive::fist: 

but yeah!! in laylaylb hes a pro hero!!! his quirk is his power from my work, and he basically is a throw away character who siryoku would shadow under!! i wont spoil siryokus hero name but its a space related thing?? and i pulled a hawks bnha before hawks bnha existed bc the whole reason why nebula sends in a form is bc ‘SAME SPACE THEME’

and then i finally got back to working on the power works so!!! hes back babes!!!!!!!

OH SPEAKING OF POWERS

if ur wondering how exactly i chose nebulas powers its bc psychic weapons was actually a thing he had as a kirlia?? i decided to portray his psychic as weapons

and obviously its changed from red to fuchsia but the thoughts still there

[cow5secondchance]

Episode 8 - I Cannot Be Humble - Jarod

Format: Daisy Chain

Eliminated: Captain (3-1)

XAVIER

Always done in by a twist. I have no idea what happened. If any consolation to me, I want to think majority of people voted for Captain, but since Jarod saved him, I was second out. Anyway, thanks for having me, and even if I wished I went further, that's how things play out! Good luck F6!

CAPTAIN

hi i havent updated yall for so long. i think i was gonna tell yall it rained in thailand like 3 days ago i'm not sure if i have done that but there.

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let me not talk about the past rounds that i havent updated yall cause its passed. right. anyways i'm in a freaking final 6 now... like WOW. i really don't think i would make it this far cause like this season is a fucking all stars season and i've been feeling so burned out from orgs so making the final 6 is so amazing. it actually reignites the fire within me after i kinda got burned out in the second greenhouse round, teehee! and daisy said that i'm playing the best game apart from jarod and i'm like WOAH. i mean i'd never think of myself as a good player but they said i'm a good player so maybe i need to start believing in myself now. losing xavier is rough. i love xavier so much like he is my asian cool dad :pensive: trent is my american troll dad but we're not gonna tell trent that. and xavier and i actually had a final 2 so that was very rough but tbh that bottom 3 was rough for me. all greenhouse people in the bottom? no maam. now, i'm trusting jarod and autumn the most. i want to trust nyx too after watching their video dare saying that they would want to ally with me and vote for me in the end. even though jarod said that they pushed for me to lindsay in 2ckas. but it's understandable for me i think cause its either us or lindsay. and nyx wouldn't outright tell lindsay they would vote her out sobs. daisy is cool. she told me i'm the best player which i respect. i think the bond that i have made with her is prob what keeps me in the game (apart from jarod used the idol me yes). lindsay.. we've talked a lot and she's so cool but we don't actually talk game much? but like i can trust her to some extent... so yea from now on, it's gonna be hard. every vote is gonna be suck but i love these people and i'm just hoping for the best and that i am the winner of the season. so fingers crossed besties. 

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ok i'm in the right DR cause i also bookmarked greenhouse DR submission link too even though i used that one much giggles

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i really don't know what lanie and xavier were thinking. i thought they loved me </3 maybe i was wrong and no one loved me. maybe they wanted to be quirky and just picked daisy to start a daisy chain round.

JAROD

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NYX

I'm just... so annoyed this round cause. lindsay is following jarod like a puppy dog and i'm stuck trying to just get one more vote to stay besides daisy. I just, need one more vote. just one. It's taken me so fucking long to get this far again and to get voted out because of one dumb move would be devastating. I'm just trying to think one more round. that's all I keep telling myself. One more fucking round. If I get voted out at the final 6 after all i've had to go through in game and irl fuck that wound is gonna cut deeper than anything i've done to my arms. All I can do is hope now whilst my game slowly slips away.

[shattered-catalyst]

Three times.

I wanted to try something a little different here. I wanted to try writing first person perspective!! Wow I havent done this in YEARS.

Summary: Taking place between the meeting Rictor thread and the camping thread. Addressing some development that took place behind the scenes as it were. Rictor AU so not same Rictor but a Rictor because the ideas were cute. Like come on gimmie some happy Rictor any day I will fight for happy Rictor.

Excerpt:

I tried to tell him they were not actually apples. Apples come whole and not in bags with water in them and demonic boxes with eyes. I explain it must be a contraption of Lord Mojo’s doing. Rictor’s face turns sour. I may have ruined the food for him.

I was most certainly not prepared for this at all. My telling Rictor about the diner was my way of showing I was somewhat receptive to him entering my world. But now here he was, walking towards my usual booth in that ridiculous brown jacket. His motorbike (which i want) is parked outside, glinting in the sun. Doing a small greeting he sits down a crossed from me like this is no big deal. Nothing different from his regular Tuesday.

“Coffee. Thats all thanks.” Rictor orders with the kind of casual attitude I wonder if I could ever replicate. Where ever this man goes he looks completely natural. It is irritating. It is like NOTHING touches him. Like he IS the very earth itself.Always connected. “Crossword?”

I nod, turning it so he can see it right side up. “Yes.”

He seems slightly,off by the shortness of my comment.  Ive heard I need to start elaborating more when I talk. 

“You uh do those a lot?”

“Yes”

“Ah.” Thank goodness Stacey is back with the coffee, she and Rictor make small talk about the weather before she rushes off to chat with a regular. We sit in silence, Rictor stirring his coffee. Looking much too curious about the types of sugar on the table. I glance up only once to see if he is still there; he is.

“Rosewell crash victim,supposedly. Five letters.” Im chewing my pencil again and I do not care.

He looks confused for a few seconds, before looking down at the crossword. “Alien.”

“Spell it.”

“A-l-i-e-n.” He takes a sip of coffee. Silence passes and I nod to him. It fits.

I take a sip from mine, holding the pencil to paper. “Done by itself. Machine. Starts with M-E-C.”

“Mechanical. M-e-c-h-a-n-i-c-a-l.”

“When you receive money: four letters ends with D.”

“My favorite. “He takes a sip and then gives me a funny look when I express my confusion that that wouldn’t fit the spaces provided. “Try paid. P-a-i-d.”

 We spend a good hour like that. I am surprise he stayed, once the puzzle is finished I fold it. Placing it in my pocket to copy the words down later. 

I stand, he looks at me but I do not make eye contact. Do not want him to see my eyes as I leave. “8 am.”

“What?” Hes halfway after me out the door, holding it open. 

“I come at 8 am. Everyday.”

As I turn to leave I see him smile.

“Rictor, I have eaten two of these happy meals and I do not feel any happier. I believe you have been mislead.” I am concerned now. He is trying very hard for something I am uncertain of. This is the second time I have seen him. His brown wavy hair still new to me. Still fluffy and soft enough that I make sure to have some odd excuse to touch it. I hope he doesnt mind.

Now we are sitting in a fast food place, complete with garish colors and screaming children. It is very, new. He was uncertain.

“Yeah, well the drive thru is packed.” Taking a sip of soda he pokes at the bag of what should be apple slices, but I somehow doubt they are. “Eat.”

I tried to tell him they were not actually apples. Apples come whole and not in bags with water in them and demonic boxes with eyes. I explain it must be a contraption of Lord Mojo’s doing. Rictor’s face turns sour. I may have ruined the food for him.

We come to a bargain he will eat half the not-actually-apples if I eat the other half.

Rictor has taken me to a movie, said it would be good for learning. I insist we sit in the very back so we cannot be ambushed. He seems to find this amusing. The theater was fascinating and the action sequences done quite well, for earthlings. I enjoyed how immersive the experience was and barely touched my popped corn. Rictor did not seem to mind as he ate my cup as well as his own. He seemed quite pleased.

“I only feel the death of the main warrior was a waste of his potential.”

He glances at me as we leave, stopping before we get out of the theater’s gloomy corridor. “You know, they didn’t actually die right? In the movie they died but in real life that dudes still around.”

The explanation baffles me slightly. “Of course, this has been explained to me already. Although the concept is new, I sort of enjoy it. Seeing the same person try on different roles is quite applicable.” At least to his current situation it was. Before he would think it was cowardly to not know your role. Now he questioned everything.

“Just checking.” Rictor seems relieved and puts his sun glasses on, pushing open the heavy doors. Light consumes us. For a moment my breath catches, pupils contracting sharply. I am no longer with Rictor in New York. I am not where I should be. Instantly my chest is heaving and I am stepping backwards. Earth shaking beneath my feet.

 Somehow I end up a few feet from the door, catching my breath in an alcove with fountains for water. I realize after a few heartbeats Rictor has been calling me. But his voice is so far away, I barely hear him over the roar of the crowd. I am not certain what is happening, but I am more than certain that the arena is on the other side of those doors. The long narrow hallway had been unsettling before but now it was sinister and familiar.

The earth is speaking to me in whispers, pointing me where to go. But before I can follow he is there. Rictor reaches to touch me and I feel myself freeze. But he does not strike me, he leans against the wall beside me, his eyes look hurt. I have hurt him.

I dont know how long we stood there, but the earth was still again and I allowed myself to step out to stand by his side. Swallowing a hard lump in my throat I gently joustle his shoulder with my own. Leaving it there to show I was alright with contact now. He seems relieved, but I still feel ashamed of hurting his feelings. It clouds my uemeur.

His gaze goes from me and back to the door. “C’mon.” Wrapping an arm around my shoulder he begins walking us to the door. I resist, stopping him just short of the exit.

“Rictor, I.” I pause unsure how to explain what I need to. The hand on my shoulder tightens and he squeezes me closer. I feel connected again. Solidly grounded to the Earth.

Sighing he looks at the door and then at a group of people watching us. “What the fuck are you looking at buddy? Yeah thats what I thought mind your own damn business!” He turns back to me nose still wrinkled “listen, I dont know whats going on between you and this door.” Unspoken words were: tell me whats wrong.

I look away feeling ashamed, but he wants me to try so I do my best. I will always do my best for him. “The light. It is like entering the arena.” His lips tighten a bit, I am unsure if I hurt him again. But I hope I haven’t.

He holds me a bit closer and pumps his fist. “Then we will enter the arena together. I bet we can knock down some walls. Squish Mojo flat. What do you say?” He sounds so genuine, so positive, so....Odd. I am fairly certain he is forcing peppy bravado. It is, slightly endearing.

Raising a brow at him I frown. “Rictor what is wrong with you.”

“Hahah what ISNT wrong with me.” He rubs my shoulder, other hand firmly on the push bar. “Just close your eyes, and Ill tell you when you can open them.”

I feel that it may be needed to explain to Rictor that I am not an idiot. Although the mere fact I have to do so is irritating. He is standing in front of the diner with me, leaning against his truck. Some beat up thing, I suppose it is in good enough shape that it is reliable. The back is over flowing with things pinned down by a tarp. It makes me uneasy. But Rictor’s neutral smile and relaxed appearance settled the suspicion. 

Abruptly he opens the driver door and clicks a button. “Right, look in my car, this bag broke.” He holds up a bag of starbursts. Economy sized. Tropical fruit variety. I feel my eyes grow wider. 

“I think some went under the seats, y’know? My hands are too big to get under there.”

“Very well.” I get in and began collecting them for him, obviously he did not want them melting in his car. It was very warm out and I noticed that they melted into sticky pools at a certain temperature. 

Rictor gets in, starts the car and stares at me a moment. Fingers tapping the wheel hes looking a bit, thoughtful. Maybe even pensive. Thats a word right? “Make sure you get them all.” He shuts the door and the car pulls out.

 I am totally aware he is distracting me. But there are many candies here and they are going to ruin his carpet. Then he would be disappointed. Why I care I have no idea. But I do. Somehow. I think I will try and accept this feeling and work with it.

“Keep looking.” His voice is lighter, I glance up and see he is staring at the road in front of us. The smile isn’t on his face, but its in his voice I can hear it. I wish I could see his eyes to know for sure....