#i haven't slept pls save me

[luv-unknwn]

Serene

daryl dixon x fem!reader

summary - ♡ you and daryl go on a run and things dont go entirely as planned....but in a good way

SMUT SMUT SMUT

a/n - ♡ ik this isnt that good i haven't slept and its almost 6 am so i aint editing it anywaysss, im watching the show for the first time rn and i just could NOT resist writing smth for daryl so enjoy!! 🤭

(changed the name cause i realized i forgot to change it so it didn't make sense pls)

"no- god damn it girl gon get us killed out here if you keep lookin round so much" daryl grabbed your wrist to pull you along the muddy trail, nearly falling on your ass from his fast pace. "keep up, quit draggin your feet"

"fuck off man its nice to get out of that damn prison sometimes and see the world even if it is filled with walkers and assholes like you" you snort, pushing forward so you're walking ahead of him. "besides, the slower i walk, the more time we spend together, and i know that you love hanging out with me so much, dont you, D?”

going on runs had become a favorite activity of yours, somehow even with daryl being such a grumpy gus, it was serene. walking through completely empty towns; the opposite of the now packed prison you were living in.

“oh come on, don’t pretend you don't love me” you giggle at daryl's annoyed look. you'd grown somewhat of a crush for daryl in the last months, as much as you wish you hadn't, it's been nice having something to focus on rather than the overwhelmingly loud but silent nights in the prison.

it was the simple head nods as you pass each other, and him asking specifically to take you on runs, always staying in front of you when something goes wrong. those were the things that really fueled this crush, which carol had pointed out to you. you'd honestly always thought there was something going on with those two but when she asked you about how close you and daryl had gotten she assured you they were only best friends.

“ain't got time for your wanderin today girl, lets go-” a twig snaps to your left. “get behind me”

the walker stumbles out from the trees grunting, growling, and drooling toward daryl before he shoots an arrow right into his left eye. not so aware of your surroundings a walker comes out of the trees behind you grabbing onto you, you fight against its hold. just as you get a hand free to reach for your knife, daryl shoots the walker and it falls loudly to the ground.

“-shit” you gasp in big breaths of air. you reach for daryl's arm grabbing hold for stability, “thanks, D.”

“‘course, won't let nothin’ bad happen to you” you practically melt at his words and the vulnerable look in his eyes when he says it, like he's telling you an important secret he's never told anyone else.

you're so close you can feel the heat coming off his body as your eyes move from his to his mouth. never wanting something so bad in your entire life.

he's pulling away before you can even think to move toward him.

“best keep goin ‘fore it gets dark” his words are dismissive, completely ignoring the clear sparks flying between the two of you just seconds ago.

“right, you're right” clearing your throat a bit awkwardly, you speed up so you're walking ahead of him, trying to focus as hard as you can just on the task at hand.

the first few houses you search were pretty much empty save for a can of beans. the next one however had an entire cabinet filled with things you could take back to the prison, but not before you and daryl have a few snacks to refuel for the trip back.

“maybe we should stay the night here? we can hit a few houses on the way back in the morning, it's getting late and i dont wanna be walkin’ back in the dark” you suggest to daryl from the living room of the house.

“‘kay, lets find some blankets n stuff we'll camp out in here” daryl's voice is right behind you when he speaks, startling you from looking at broken picture frames of the family who used to be here.

you managed a makeshift bed on the floor with the few blankets and pillows you found in the bedrooms. you and daryl now laying there staring quietly up at the ceiling.

“were-” daryl starts to say something but stops before he can even get the first word out.

“what is it, D?” you whisper, turning your body so you're laying on your side facing him.

“were you gonna kiss me earlier?” daryl's uncharacteristically hesitant voice whispers into the quiet room.

the air in the room is suddenly thicker than before and the closeness of you and daryl seems almost too close.

“was i- was i gonna kiss you? i mean i don't know you were so close and just you know it's not like i meant t-” you're cut off by daryl suddenly pressing his lips against yours gently, staying unmoving for a few seconds until your brain catches up with you enough for you to kiss back.

the kiss deepens when you reach your hands around his neck to pull him impossibly closer to you, his own hands sliding down from your cheeks to your shoulders to your hips.

“daryl i- i need you,” you whisper against his lips when you pull away a bit for air.

he pulls back farther to look into your eyes.

“you sure ‘bout this?” his voice is genuine, even as his hands are already under your shirt going farther up until he reaches your bra, stilling there while he waits for your answer.

“yes, please daryl” you'd be lying if you said you hadn't thought about this many times. daryle above you while you're begging for him.

the moment the words left your mouth he was sitting you up to pull your shirt over your head, quickly reconnecting your lips with a moan so low it could have been a growl.

daryl pulled away to reach around you and unhook your bra, letting it fall between you.

“fuck,” he sighed, letting his head fall to your shoulder at the sight of how perfectly your boobs fell naturally.

seconds later you were pushing his vest off and pulling his shirt over his head, throwing it across the room and leaning down to kiss over his muscular shoulders. daryl's hands fell to your boobs while you left reddish-purple spots all over his throat and shoulders.

“lemme get these off baby” he was already unbuttoning your jeans when you rose to your knees to help him pull them down off your ass, sitting back on the floor so he could pull them and your shoes completely off. he was feeling up and down your soft legs, the way he was squeezing your thighs making your core tighten around nothing. “so pretty f'me.”

daryl's hands trailed up your legs to the soft cotton of your panties, he groaned when his rough fingertips grazed the wet spot leaking through them.

“lift ya pretty legs honey” he grunts out, when you listen he pulls your panties down your legs. the cool air of the room hitting your wetness makes you whimper quietly. “s'even prettier than i imagined,”

daryl pushes your knees farther apart to get a better look at you before he bring a finger up to graze your wet entrance, sliding it up to press gentle circles against your clit, making you gasp from the stimulation.

“god that feels good, please don't stop” you're whining when he finally pushes two fingers into you, starting a steady pace while keeping his thumb on your clit moving quicker each second. you're an absolute moaning mess below him, your back arching against him.

“y'like that sweetheart? like how m'fingers feel inside you, yea? y’gonna cum f’me baby?” his words are only pushing you closer and closer to the edge, your legs shaking around his hand.

“fuck- shit you're g-” you cut yourself off with a louder moan when he quickens the pace of his fingers, “s’good at this”

“c'mon baby, cum f'me, all over my fingers. thats right, good girl.” his words are what push you over the edge, the filthy words mixed in with his gentle praise has you shaking as you ride the intense waves of your orgasm. “such a good girl f'me”

when your breathing starts to slow back to a normal pace you feel daryl pull his fingers out of you and being them up to his lips, sucking your juices off his own fingers.

“that was- wow” you saw still trying to catch your breath, legs not fully stopped shaking either. before daryl can say anything else you're reaching for his belt to undo it.

“no, s'alright. wanted to make you feel good, go to sleep” he says grabbing your t-shirt and pulling it over your head.

“but-”

“nah if ya really feelin’ up for it, in the mornin’ you can, but we gotta get some sleep tonight” daryl leans over and kisses your forehead and pulls you down to lay on his chest.

and that's exactly how you woke up in the morning, cuddled up on the floor, clothes thrown around the room, hickies everywhere.

[sejanusxcoriyo]

pls do some Sejanus angst

Bet, I gotchu.

Warnings: Angst, character death, arguments, he should have lived Suzanne Collins, crying

Synopsis: You get into an heated argument with Sejanus. You leave and go back to the covey with your friends, Lucy Grey comes get you for the public execution.

A/N: Yes, I did indeed cry while writing this, especially the ending. Enjoy because I didn't. My heart hurts now.

"Sej, I saw you in the crowd, but-"

I spot my friend Lucy Grey, being pushed behind Coriolanus, while he holds a gun up to Mayfair. I looked at Sejanus slowly making my way over to him.

"What the hell is going on?"

"I don't know, just stand behind me, and be quiet."

I quietly step behind him, shielded from what was happening. I watch as Mayfair walks off and Coriolanus shoots her. My hands clasp my mouth, shocked at what happened. Billy Toupe charges at Coriolanus, before getting shot by Spruce.

"Oh my god, Sejanus, what have you done?"

"I-I never meant for any of this to happen!"

Coriolanus grabs my arm, pulling me next to Lucy Grey.

"Both of you guys have to leave, go back to the stage and sing. Neither one of you were ever here!"

We look at each other, then turn and leave. We exchange awkward glances between each other, never saying anything. Lucy goes back on stage visibly shaking. She introduces the band, then invites us all on stage to help her sing. My eyes find Sejanus, worried about how this happened. He mouths 'I'm sorry,' before I look away. Lucy and I manage to slip away after we finish our last song.

"I need to find him."

"I'm going to head home, I'll see you later."

She sadly smiles at me, walking away. I needed to find him, he had to be okay. Sejanus and Coriolanus hadn't been in district 12 long but, they were making it hard to ever forget they were here. I sat down on the curb, waiting for him to walk outside. After what seems like forever, he walks out with his friends. I start walking toward him, before he stops me. He whispers something to Coriolanus and walks my direction. He takes my hand and pulls me into a empty alley.

I snatch my hand back from him, I push his chest as hard as I can. I look up and meet his pleading eyes.

"What did you do Sej?"

"I was trying to find us a way out. I don't want to kill people, I became a peacekeeper to help people. This wasn't my intentions, not to get more people killed. I just wanted to save you, us."

He wraps his arms around me. I cry softly into his chest, wondering were do we go from here.

"I can't lose you Sej, I love you."

"I know Rose, I'm not going anywhere. I love you too, but we can't stay here, not after today. I'll write my ma, telling her I'm ready to come home. I'm bringing you with me, we are going to the capital."

I smile, kissing him. I don't care where we go as long as I'm with him. I will say it, I'm in love with him. It wasn't supposed to happen, Lucy introduced us. He looked so sweet, so innocent. He asked me that day at the lake, Lucy Grey, Coriolanus, Sejanus and I, along with my friends. 'I like you, so much. I've been mesmerized since Lucy introduced you to me.' 'I like you too, I haven't been able to get you out my mind.' He kissed me, right there.

Lucy Grey looked so happy when we walked out hand in hand. Coriolanus got up and slapped him on his back. That night, we were together, passionately. We slept in the cabin by the river that night. He took me one more time before he kissed me and left. We had just confessed our love for each other a few days ago.

"Coryo is coming with us."

"No, he loves Lucy and she won't leave. He's going to stay."

"Well then, I have to convince her to go."

I pushed him from me, "I thought this was about us?"

"It is, but he has to come with me. He saved my life twice."

"No, he doesn't come with us."

"You don't get an opinion, this is our life we are going back to."

I storm off from him, not wanting to finish that conversation with him. I hear him call out for me to come back, and he's sorry. I keep walking, holding the chain he gave me. I walk all the way home where Lucy Grey is waiting for me.

"Well?"

"He wants to go back to the capital. He wants me to come with him, but he also wants Coriolanus, and you to come as well. I told him you won't leave the covey to go back to the capital. He told me I don't have an opinion, I don't know how I feel about this now."

"Just get some rest, I'll be back in the morning so we can talk about it."

I lay in my bed, not really soft, but enough for me to sleep. I pull my cover over myself, and drift off to sleep, dreaming about the life Sejanus and I could have in the capital. I don't think his family will like me, maybe his ma, but not his pa. Maybe we could have a quiet little wedding, have kids and retire to the country.

'Rose, Rose!' I hear faintly in my dream. I'm shaken awake by Lucy Grey. "Wake up!" I yawn, stretching out my limbs. "What's wrong?" "Nothing, we have a public execution to go to."

Oh god, not this again. I hop out of bed, change clothes and join the covey. We walk in silence as we reach the square. Lucy and I look back at the covey and they usher is to the front. I spot Coriolanus, but no Sejanus. Maybe he was sick and slept in, nothing to be worried about, right? The head peacekeeper keeps talking as I notice a third noose. I elbow Lucy, showing her what I saw.

The crowd shuffles to the side,as my worst nightmare came true. It's Sejanus, he is going to be killed for treason. I scream as he walks past me. He calls my name, fighting to get away.

"Coriolaus, please!"

He never moved, Lucy grabs me but I shake her away.

"WAIT, TAKE ME INSTEAD!"

The peacekeeper smiles, and shakes his head. Coriolanus grabs me but I slip out his grasp. I run to Sejanus, grabbing his face, kissing him one last time before I get pulled away, "I love you, so much." "I love you more, thanks for trying to save me." Lucy pleads with Coriolanus to save him. He sits me next to Lucy and walks back to his assigned spot. I look at him one last time. I'll never see him again. I cry out as I watch the life leave his body.

"NO!"

Lucy takes me back to my house, laying me down. She walked to the door getting ready to leave. I thought she was just going get food or maybe check on the covey.

"Don't leave me please."

She sits next to me as I cry myself to sleep. When I awaken from my slumber, she is gone. I walk to the covey house looking for her, but she is gone. I look for Coriolanus but he is gone as well. I drop to my knees and wail. I had no one, my lover dead, my friend gone, Coriolanus district 2.

The next day, I head to the local doctor, as I had been throwing up and not eating. I am with child, his child. I start crying harder, knowing my love will never get to meet his child, our child.

Our family life gone with his death. Rest in peace, my love, I'll never forget you, our child will know who you are.

[emetkoto]

I haven't played bg3 so I'd love to hear how astarion's views of koto change throughout the story pls <3 like is he immediately attracted or what. and what about koto's feelings and how they change. gimmie the deets.

Honestly, Astarion sums up his part pretty well in his confession dialogue!

and then hilariously another tidbit from his final romance scene literally right before he tells you he loves you and you have sex on his grave (ignore old k'oto i havent gotten there on new k'oto yet and also the different outfits these are from two different play sessions)

basically tldr. astarion didnt really care for k'oto at all at first, it was all just manipulation in order to get him to trust him so he would keep him around and protect him since he was terrified of his master finding him (he's a vampire spawn and the only reason he has his free will up until we kill his master is because of the mind flayer parasites all the characters have, he only got away when the mind flayers kidnapped him and has been paranoid about being found since, rightfully so since we come across a monster hunter sent after him early on) so it was all just. seduction and charming! he was really kinda annoyed by k'otos whole 'good guy' thing, like 'ohhhh wow youre a hero. what good are you. nobody ever helped me or saved me. where were you when i needed you.' (obviously completely unfair, k'oto is only 28 and he was turned 200 years ago) and kind of a little bit afraid of him? sure he's shorter than him but he's also way stronger physically and has fangs and claws and strange beastly habits that really just kinda put him off for a while bc yknow. fangs hurt him once. sure this guy seems harmless but he knows better than to trust!!!

except he doesnt. because k'oto was completely unexpected in every way. he's kind and funny and genuine in a way astarion had completely forgotten was possible. he loved him so completely and so honestly the whole time. even when he told him sweet lies and was just so obviously using him he just. kept loving him!!! (k'oto voice) its not real now but someday it might be, and ill still be here when it is. when hes ready to love me back. <--------shit like That!!! the icing on the cake was coming to realize that he and k'oto had. a LOT more in common than he wouldve ever thought. particularly when it came to matters of sex and how they had trouble viewing their bodies as their own due to their circumstances and how it all made it difficult for them to say 'no' to things out of fear/obligation…the very last thing he ever expected from this dumbass catboy was to see himself 100-something years younger in him…..he just. was exactly what astarion needed…uegh!!!

k'oto was pretty much head over heels from the beginning despite the red flags. he was far from home and work where nobody would even think to offer him money for his time and would just spend it with him because they genuinely wanted to for nothing more in exchange than just their own time and company so even if he was being blatantly manipulated it was still the realest shit he'd experienced in years from probably the most attractive guy he'd ever met upto that point so it was a recipe for some good ol fashion love at first sight…or i guess. love at first knifepoint.

maybe a bit of confusion at first bc he'd never been in love before so there was probs a brief period of 'am i in love or is this just lust' until after he slept with him the first time and it didn't go away and in fact only got stronger and he was like 'ok yeah im in love actually!!!!'

sorry this is completely incoherent i love them so fucking much it makes me sick to my stomach and also im so very tired

[theplanetplu20]

Date Night

pairing(s): Larissa Weems x ftm!reader

warnings: none this is just a bunch of fluff

word count: 2.5k

A/N: first of all i did not reread this or edit it so i’m sorry for any mistakes. i don’t really know what this is i’m just obsessed with Weems and there just wasn’t enough fluffy fics for her so here and ofc i had to make it ftm although I think you can prob read it as gender neutral but it briefly mentions binding and top surgery. i sorta based it off myself so your shorter than her and i’m still pretty feminine pls don’t fight me on my transness i’ll fight u anyways if u don’t like that uhhh i’m not sorry just don’t read this bdhd (this is from your point of view)

It’s early in the morning and I was lying in my apartment waiting for my girlfriend to come home from a school trip that had lasted a few days due to how far away the trip was. We’ve been dating for a few months now and since day one Larissa has been my person, she’s the only person who looks at me and really sees me. I’ve been trying to get some work done but all I can think about is if she’s home yet. I had gotten a text around 7am that they were on their way back, but I'm impatient and I haven't seen Larissa for a couple days, so I sat at the couch waiting. My eyes started to grow heavy as i waited since i haven’t been sleeping all that well, i always slept better with her next to me. I fought the sleep as best I could but I guess I fell asleep because a few minutes later I was awakened by the one person I wanted to see.

“honey,” She says softly, shaking me slightly. I love how gentle she is, it's adorable. I opened my eyes, still not ready to get up but wanting to see her. Oh was it worth it though so see her beautiful smile, the one that’s reserved only for me. I sit up, reaching up slightly to hug her.

“I missed you so much my love” I say finally feeling okay again with her in my arms.

“You haven’t been sleeping?” She knows me so well and I love how worried she gets.

“I have!” I protest “Just not as much as you would probably like….” I trail off. she sighs softly I know she’s not actually upset with me, just wishes there was some way to help.

“It’s okay I don’t sleep half as well without you either, why don’t we go to bed and take a quick nap, I still want to do something later though” She says pulling away slightly but not enough to leave my arms. I give her a confused look.

“What are we doing later?” I ask knowing she probably won’t tell me, she loves her surprises.

“wouldn’t you like to know? I guess you just have to wait” she smiles at me. I knew she was going to say that i was waiting for it, I immediately lean in to kiss her. I am so in love with this woman it’s crazy everything she does makes me fall more and more. I take her hand and start to walk to our room. Once we get in the room I kiss Larissa passionately trying to convey all that I feel for her and she kisses me back just as passionately. It feels like only a few seconds when Larissa pulls away but I know it’s been at least five minutes.

“weren’t we going to take a nap?” she says wanting to keep going but knowing if I don’t sleep a little longer now I will be tired for whatever she has planned later.

“Hey it isn’t my fault I have the most intoxicating girlfriend in the world that keeps me distracted” She laughs at this

“okay sweet talker go lay in bed I’m going to change really quick” She gives me a quick peck before pushing my towards the direction of our bed

“Remember to take your binder off and stretch honey don’t think I don’t know you and if you want to wear it later you’ll take it off now for a break” She looks glaring slightly with nothing behind it. I look at her sheepishly, she does know me so well but reluctantly I listen knowing she’ll be upset if i don’t. Listen I know it’s bad to wear it for more than 8 hours but you can’t blame a guy, I’ve been trying to save up enough money for top surgery without Larissa’s help but that shit is expensive. I get into bed and look at Larissa putting on my tshirt and smile just thinking about how i’m just the luckiest fucking guy in the world right now. She turns to face me seeing me already looking at her like she’s the only girl in the world and blushes slightly not used to being watched with such loving eyes which is crazy to me. She walks over and gets under the covers quickly setting our alarms then immediately cuddling into my side with her head tucked in my neck. Even though she’s slightly taller than me she loves to be the little spoon and she knows i will always hold her. I sigh lightly, loving the feel of her back in my arms again. I pull her impossibly closer.

“Sleep well my love” I whisper to her and give her a small kiss on her head.

“you too honey” she whispers back sleepily and we both fall asleep. I hear a very annoying noise that pulls me out from the best sleep I've had in the few days since Larissa has been gone. I reach my arm over and turn the alarm off. I look at the time and it’s 2pm. Then I glance down to see Larissa still tucked into my side. She looks so peaceful and absolutely gorgeous I can’t help but smother her in kisses. Her eyes flutter open and she giggles trying to push my face away with no real effort.

“How'd you sleep, beautiful?” I ask her pulling her impossibly close “good as always” she leans up to peck my lips but when she goes to pull away I chase her lips not letting her go just yet. She hums sweetly into my mouth and I give her one more quick kiss before pulling away to get up.

“Okay if we don’t get up now we’ll never leave this bed and i’m excited for what you have planned, so let’s go” She protests lightly to stay for five more minutes but she knows i’m right and she is clearly also excited for the day too. I give her another kiss and watch her get up and leave the bathroom. I could stay with Larissa in bed all day but I haven’t seen her in days. I wanna do something with her before she gets swept off to deal with evermore. I get up and put on my binder, a pair of beige khakis with a brown belt and a white undershirt with a brown crew neck sweater with a nice pattern on top. I put on a couple necklaces and two rings then walk into the bathroom where Larissa is in the shower. I had showered this morning so there was no need for me to shower. I quickly brush my hair and put a little bit of product in it to keep it looking slightly messy and then I put on some of the cologne Larissa got me. The water turns off and Larissa gets out and pulls her towel around her already cold from the slight chill due to the door being just opened. She looks at my outfit then back up to my face and I can already tell what she's gonna say.

“You look so handsome” I pull her into me by her waist not caring if some water gets on my clothes and she puts her hands onto the sides of my face “my beautiful boy” she pulls me into a searing kiss and I feel fucking euphoric. She was the first to pull away being cold just standing there in a towel. “Okay I'm gonna get ready, do you wanna sit with me and watch?”

it takes me a minute to respond still a little dazed from her kiss. “Um of course, you know i do” i say smiling bright. I find it so relaxing just sitting with her while she gets ready, music softly playing in the background. She starts with drying her hair, before getting dressed. She goes to her vanity to put on her makeup and jewelry so I take the opportunity to wrap my arms around her from behind. “You look so beautiful as always my love” I reach up slightly to put my head into her neck giving her soft kisses. I glance at her in the mirror from her neck to see her smiling at me. “Thank you” She turns in my arms after finishing putting on the last of her jewelry. She looks down into my eyes and I catch that sparkle of adoration in them. I give her a kiss before I take her hand walking to the elevator. “So where are we going?” I ask impatiently knowing she won’t tell me. She gives me a look that says you know what my answer is.

“You’ll see soon enough” I sigh

“Fineeee don’t tell me i’ll just die of curiosity” She laughs at my antics

“Well curiosity did kill the cat,” she says back. Just then the elevator doors open and I put my arm around her waist as we walk out and are greeted by the security guard who i know pretty well since i’ve been living here a long time.

“Have a good night you two!” Paul says as we get into Larissa’s car.

“Thank you, Paul, we will” i smile back at him. I put my hand over onto Larissa’s thigh as she drives to wherever we’re going. We’ve only been driving for about fifteen minutes before Larissa pulls the car into a bowling alley parking lot. I laugh lightly

“Really baby?” I look over at her smiling actually thinking it’s adorable. She smiles back at me knowing I’m just messing with her

“Yes really” She pulls the car into park and moves to get out before I put my arm out.

“Wait, wait” I say quickly before getting out and shuffling around the car to open the door for her. She laughs at me again.

“You’re such a gentleman” I close the door and give her a kiss.

“I know right who knew i was so romantic” I say jokingly and she giggled at my stupid joke. I put my arm around her waist and pull her close while we walk in. We get up there and Larissa apparently already made a lane reservation. I look over at her questioning because it’s not a busy night and we usually just assume there will be a lane open.

“I knew you would try to pay so I wanted to pay ahead of time” She explains. Of course she did, she knows that even when I try to save up I always pay for her for no reason. I kiss her quickly just because i can and we grab our shoes and move to the lane she reserved. We play for about an hour and a half enjoying being together and being slightly competitive, not actually caring for the outcome. By the end of our time she had ended up winning only because she was cheating though! she was very distracting so it’s not my fault.

“I wonnn!” she sings gloating. I pout at her not being serious. “awww did my big strong man lose?” she says sarcastically, pulling herself to me. I roll my eyes playing along “you can win me a stuffed animal at the claw machine. How about that?” I laugh loudly at that but agree knowing she probably does actually want the stuffed animal.

“Okay I’ll win u one which one do you want love?” She looks over them and then excitedly points to a small bee.

“That one please” she says sweetly wrapping her arms around me and resting her head on my shoulder. she gives me a kiss on the cheek for good luck. It actually takes me a couple tries but I do end up getting her the bee. She takes it with a big smile on her face and even though I just lost horribly to my girlfriend I won for seeing her smile. I take her hand and we walk out. “Okay now we have one last stop” she says, glancing over to me.

“Dinner?” I say smiling. she laughs a little knowing I’d be hungry.

“Yes but i’m not telling you what restaurant” I nod just happy for food. As soon as we get on the street I already know it’s my favorite restaurant. I smile happy she knows because my favorite things change constantly. I squeeze her thigh lightly to get her attention. She looks over smiling knowingly. “Do you want to take it to go or sit in the restaurant?” She asks knowing I get tired of all the people around me although I never get tired of her.

“takeout?” I smile, just wanting to be with her and not have the anxiety of thinking about if I pass or not or how if I'm acting manly enough. I never feel that way just around Larissa. I'm just me with her. I don't have to think about passing or acting a certain way just to be seen as valid.

“Of course honey” She is always so understanding since I always talk to her about my gender dysphoria and how draining it is. We quickly go in to grab the food and then make our way back home. We move in a comfortable silence up to our floor level. Once we make it to the kitchen we take our food out and eat at our table together smiling and talking about the stupid things that the kids did or details about the trip. I could never tire of being with her, everything we do, from going out to just sitting at our table. It's always my favorite.

“Y/nn” Larissa says clearly having tried to get my attention multiple times. I had been staring at her talk about something Wednesday did or didn’t do. I sorta of got lost in thought early on. I blush having been caught clearly not paying attention.

“I’m sorry love I didn’t mean to get distracted” I say sincerely. she smiles, not mad at all.

“whatcha thinking about?” she says genuinely curious.

“Just about how much I love you and spending time with you” Now she was the one blushing.

“Of course you were” she laughs jokingly “I love you too and I love every second we spend together” We lean across the table slightly to give the other a kiss.

“You’re adorable and I love you so much, but I’m also tired” I laugh

“do you wanna go to bed?” I smiled. If I didn’t know she was a shapeshifter, I would've thought she was a mind reader.

“Lead the way” I take her hand and we walk to our room changing into our pajamas. I crawl into bed waiting for Larissa to join me after taking her makeup off. She comes into the room, turns off the lights and gets into the bed with me going back to the spot she was this morning in my neck. She lightly kisses where she is before leaning up to actually kiss me. I deepen our kiss and put my hands onto her face pulling her closer before pulling away a few minutes later. I give her another small kiss, not able to get enough of her.

“Goodnight my love, sleep well” I say quietly

“Goodnight honey I love you” she says laying back down onto my chest.

“I love you too” I say and hug her close before drifting to sleep.

[jeanmoreausautismstickers]

Wonderland by Taylor Swift is so bartylus/darkstar/starkiller (what is the ship name pls) it's insane

"We found Wonderland

You and I got lost in it

And we pretended it could last forever" - them trying to ignore the notion that one day Regulus would have to marry a woman to uphold Walburga's wishes for him.

"Didn't they tell us don't rush into things?" - their friends being supportive but concerned bc they KNOW what is gonna happen to their relationship eventually

"Didn't you flash your green eyes at me" - their first meeting OR them seeing each other for the last time before Regulus' swimming lesson

"Haven't you heard what becomes of curious minds?" - what became of them after Regulus' death and the entire death eaters fiasco

"Ooh didn't it all seem new, and exciting" - Barty being filled with resentment but still being entirely and irrevocably in love with Regulus (to the point where he tried to get Harry killed bc he's the reason Voldemort happened and Voldemort was the one Regulus died betraying !!!)

"I should've slept with one eye open at night" - Barty being blindsided by Regulus' death !!!

"So we went on our way

Too in love to think straight" - them entirely ignoring all of the bad things that could/did happen because they were so in love with one another

"And life was never worse but never better" - them knowing they'd do it all the same way over and over just to continue loving each other

"But there were strangers watching

And whispers turned to talking

And talking turned to screams" - Regulus' mum finding out about their relationship

"Didn't you calm my fears with a Cheshire Cat smile?" - Barty convincing Regulus everything would be okay when they first began dating

"It's all fun and games, 'til somebody loses their mind" - BARTY LOSING HIS MIND AFTER REGULUS' DEATH !!!

"I reached for you, but you were gone" - Regulus reaching for Barty as he's drowning because Barty was the one who always saved him but he couldn't this time

"You searched the world for something else" - Regulus trying to become a better person and fix his mistakes

"I knew I had to go back home" - Barty being relieved when he dies, knowing he'll get to see Regulus again

[mebiselfandi]

An excuse to come into ur inbox 🤍

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8LdPvrD/

In all honesty, how are u? Are u feeling better? How is life treating u? Have u been taking care? Pls take care. U know I'm only a message away if u need/want to talk 🫂 ur the only star in my Universe that I stare at every night to admire 💖

I’M LOSING MY MIND CAUSE I LEGIT SAVED THAT TO SEND TO YOU OH MY GOSH! Our fyps really be like 👯‍♀️ TWINS! Kissing you all over😘🥰

Me? Great fine fantastic (not exactly but I’m no longer dying). COVID’s gone so yay :) the infection…complicated. Kidneys are killing me but oh well I can’t really do anything bout it but it’s coolio :) and don’t worry about me, I’m taking care as much as I can. And of course, imma come bother you very very soon🤭😌

Also pls that’s the cutest thing I’ve heard😭 c’mere so I can squash you🫂

1. Funny story, I started swiping when I was getting ready to send this to you yesterday but I saw the jade tub and the music and suddenly I just started writing tons and tons and I ended up forgetting to send. But yeah. The jade is very pretty and calming but I feel the way it's set up would make me a lil claustrophobic. The pinks a bit lout but I'd never leave

2. The pink is so pretty and I wanted to choose it but I felt like if I had to smell it irl it would be too floral and make my head hurt :( so I chose the green(also I'd picked so much pink in this)

3. It reminds me of a perfume I had before it was soooo pretty and smelled so good. Baby Rose Jeans

4. The waistline for the green would look weird on me but I know the pink would look so cute on me. Plus all my pajamas are pink anyways so it's only fitting

5. Pink robe is giving dramatics! Beauty! Elegance! 'Oh no my rich husband has been found murdered in the parlor whatever shall I do now with all this money left to me in the will' ! I love it sm

6. Lil frog is so cute but the pink is more something I would have in my cupboard

7. A BEE OH MY GOSH🥰

8. Mmm raspberries. I haven't had them since I was a child so gimme gimme gimme

9. The pink is a bit too much over the top in the wrong shade but the green is so beautiful. Me in my green room in my pink pajamas would be the perfect combo!

10. Fahrenheit 451 has been on my tbr list for the last half decade maybe more and one day I'll get there hopefully

11. Can you imagine the green room with the soft pink light shining pink roses onto the wall? Ugh I'm in love. It would be so so so pretty

12. Pink Teddy bear reminds me of the blue Teddy bear I have

13. Green looks like it might be scratchy against my skin. Also the pink looks so cozy and warm

This whole tiktok is so Cosmo and Wanda and I'm loving it sm! You're such an angel and now that I'm feeling better, I'm gonna get to your other asks which I've been staring at with heart eyes🥰🥰(especially the aquarium one. I think about it sm its so sweet)

Anyways, I'd missed doing these with you so this was so so much fun. And trust imma be back setting up camp in your ask box soon 😌

Ilysm and I'm with you always. Mwah mwah mwah keeping you wrapped tight in my heart and my arms

Also did this before I slept so I'm feeling so many sleepy vibes from you rn😴

[paleroze]

EXCUSE ME WHO TF ALLOWED THIS MAN TO NOT EXIST I JUST WANT TO TALK 🔪🔪

[iluskatastroof-blog]

1 and 4

1. do you prefer traditional drawing, or digital?

i really wish i could say that i enjoy and am good at traditional but like,, i suck Ass and ive also been doing digital ever since 2012 and ive just stuck with itits been p difficult for me to do traditional bc i always depend on the undo button n all that afxjkfnf

4. do you have a deviantart, personal website, or art blog?

i only have an art blog/accounts and thats it lmao. youre currently on my art blog and my v badly updated insta is also the same username, @/iluskatastroof

[ursie]

No fr they're so mean to Reid all of the time and for whatttt?? It's like if the writers didn't fit in a certain quota of the look™(u know that one JJ does with another character at least once an episode when Reid is literally just out here knowing stuff) they'd die

Like why treat him like an amusing pet that does a special trick one too many times when he's supposed to be a valued member of the team? When his knowledge has saved ur asses so many times yet it's still treated like something they gotta put up with? Engage the man in his philosophical mixed with scientific ramblings sometimes they're literally the most interesting part of the episode sometimes

Ooh not to mention the amount of times a higher up wants to critique the team and for Reid the go-to is "the man clearly has autism" and treat it like a quietly-known-truth no one talks abt because it's some sort of insult or pitfall?? Like we just breeze on past it? Like a) this happens multiple times that I remember b) it's not an insult stop bringing it up if ur not gonna make that clear c) shut upppp. I don't even want it confirmed because honestly don't need the screen writers touching that with a ten foot pole I don't trust them

I won't touch on the addiction stuff because tbh it's been too long since I've seen it but I remember being iffy on it I think

Anyways I love Reid and Garcia maybe they should unionize or smth idk(also can we pls cut The Look™ out?? It's sooo unnecessary and I hate it irl too like if u don't want me talking abt the history of housing market legislation just tell me🙄)

Sorry if this doesn't make consistent sense insomnia kicked in last night and I haven't slept for 30 hours. But I still have strong criminal minds opinions

NO NO GO OFF GO OFF like they’re a family yes but also they’re so randomly ableist to Reid sm it’s uncomfortable like Morgan inconsistently defends him it’s like?? Honestly it wasn’t until the newer (and worst) seasons that we actually got characters that weren’t seconds away from hatecriming him (Luke, that one doctor in like s9?) it’s just. Insane yes Reid is the most annoying character of all time yes his writing sucked but also no one by me understands him and I’m legally obligated to defend him under the oath of disabled solidarity

[ssa-thotchnerr]

A Certain Hopelessness

Aaron Hotchner x Daughter!reader

Warnings: angst, kidnapping, violence, swearing, sad!hotch

a/n: some sad Hotch stuff for your angst needs!! Also, there is a creepy unsub here, just a warning. This is set in around s7 and the reader is 15-16

word count: 2.1k

—

There was a feeling of hopelessness that had settled within the BAU over the past 2 days. A feeling of helplessness that was most felt by Aaron Hotchner, who'd been listening to his daughter screaming in pain, begging for him to come and save her. The whole team had the same thought in their head;

They couldn't come and save you because you'd been hidden so well.

But that didn't mean that they weren't going to try, they would try their hardest to find and save the little girl they'd watch grow up for years. But they also know that they couldn't save every single person, they just hoped that you wouldn't be that next person that they couldn't save. No one had even tried to get Hotch to move from his position at the round table, he'd told them that he wouldn't leave you, even though you had no way of knowing that he was there.

He would always be with you.

—

You'd pulled your knees up to your chest to try and obtain some body heat, since sitting on a cold, concrete floor of a basement where it was always constantly breezy didn't give you much of a high temperature. You wished that you hadn't left school early, maybe then you wouldn't be in your current situation.

"Good morning," You looked up at the door at the top of the stairs in fear, seeing the shadow of your kidnapper standing in the door. You winced as you pushed yourself into a corner, trying to make yourself as small as possible. He laughed as he stepped down the creaky stairs, and you saw the silver glint of a knife in his hands. "I hope you slept well, you got a long day ahead of ya'."

"Pl-please don-don't hurt me, I-I won't try to run again! I-I promise," You stuttered, fear filled eyes looking up at him. Through the little light in the basement, you could see the malicious grin on his face. "I'll-I'll do whatever you want, just-just please don't ki-kill me." You begged.

"Oh honey, I don't know if you got this, but I'm not gonna kill you, mainly because I wanna hurt your daddy," He said. "Make him feel like the awful person he is."

"This is about my dad?" You asked him, letting yourself relax a tiny bit. He nodded and crouched down in front of you, pulling you forward by the collar of your no bloodied hoodie.

"Damn right this is about your dad," He snarled, pushing you back into the corner roughly. "Don't you feel awful when he leaves you and that little brother of yours own your own? But then again, he worries about what you'll do to the only child he cares about, he couldn't give a shit about you." You blinked and couldn't help but furrow your eyebrows, feeling your heart sink. You shook your head as you looked up at him.

"Wh-what?" You asked quietly. He chuckled at your confusion and obvious hurt, his plan coming together. He was reversing everything you'd ever known, he knew that your dad loved you and Jack equally, but he could easily make you believe that your dad hated you with every single fibre of his being. He knew you were easily manipulated, and he knew exactly what to say to get you upset.

"Don't act like you don't know, darling. Your dad despises you, he hasn't even got that team looking after you," He said. Your eyes filled with tears as you thought about being left with this man a minute longer, but it hurt even more to think about that your dad didn't care about you enough to look for you. "They left on a case this morning, he told them you didn't matter."

"You-you're lying," You didn't know if you were telling him that he was, or you were trying to convince yourself that he was. "My-my dad wouldn't leave anyone." You said. He chuckled and came closer to you.

"Well, maybe you aren't anyone, you've never appeared to be to your dad," Tears leaked from your eyes as he'd finally, truly broken you down. "Why are you crying? I haven't even started hurting you yet."

—

Hotch couldn't bare to watch this man hurl abuse and untrue thoughts at you much longer, he couldn't watch you be broken down anymore. He shut his eyes as he heard you start screaming, presumably in pain. There was a knock on the door, Hotch spun around on the chair he was sitting on to see who was there.

"Sir, we think we've found a possible suspect on who has Y/N," Garcia told him. "Based on what he'd said in the video earlier, we found that he believes your a bad father to her and Jack, and that she'd be better off with him," She said. It didn't take a criminal profiler to see the hurt flash on the normally stoic Aaron Hotchner's face. "So, taking information with males that had lost a child, we found Craig Brock, he lost his daughter Leona in a car crash last year, And she shares a very, very striking resemblance to your daughter,” Garcia watched as Hotch took in what she was saying. “And with that, Reid determined tha5 he wants you to feel the same helplessness that he had felt when he lost his daughter.” She finished, sliding a picture of the girl across the table to her boss. Hotch took the picture and saw the resemblance, he sighed. He didn't want you to share the same fate as this girl, he didn't want to lose you.

"Do you have an address yet?" He asked.

"I'm working on it sir, but you should have her back by the end of the day," Garcia said, smiling at Hotch, who gave her a small sliver of a smile in return. "You should probably turn that off, or at least go home and see Jack, if anything happens with Y/N or  our Unsub, you'll be the first to know." Hotch sighed as he turned the TV off, turning the volume down and standing up.

“I never thought the day I’d be taking orders from you would come, Garcia,”

—

You grunted as you finally built up enough strength to rip the sleeve off of your hoodie so you could wrap it around your waist where you had been slashed. His words had echoed in your head since he’d even muttered them, did your dad even care about you? Were the team even looking for you? Hell, were they even in the country? You broke down into tears again, your blood coated hands coming up to cover your mouth. They fell back down to your sides when the door was yanked open, almost coming off of its hinges.

“Get up!” He snarled, huffing out in anger when you pushed yourself further into the corner, making yourself as small as possible. “I said, get up.” He practically growled. You sat still, crying out in fear when he grabbed the collar of your hoodie and pulled you up onto your feet roughly.

“Okay! Okay! I-I’m sorry,” You whimpered, holding your hands out in fear. He dragged you up the stairs, you crying all the way up as the pain from your wounds shot up.

“Looks like I was wrong about your dad not caring for you, he and his team are on their way here,” He said in your ear, his arm snaking around your neck and then his free hand holding a gun to your temple. You were shaking, your entire body trembling with fear. “He’s not gonna know what to do when he comes through that door, you’re cut up like a piece of paper.”

“He’ll probably fucking kill you,” You snarled. He was taken back by your sudden change in attitude, and righted his arm around your neck and pushed the barrel of the gun closer to your head.

“Anymore of that, and I’ll put a bullet through your skull,” He said in your ear.

That shut you up quickly.

It felt like hours before the door creaked open, and from the back room, you could see that Emily, Morgan and Reid were entering the house.

“Help! Help!” You screamed, only for a hand to be clamped over your mouth and to be thrown to the floor. His foot was on your neck, a gun pointed between your eyes. Emily, Morgan and Reid all cornered him, their eyes watching as you struggled to breathe, coughing and gasping as you tried to bring air into your lungs. You were beaten black and blue, and covered in blood, they almost didn’t recognise you.

“Craig Brock, let Y/N go,” Emily said calmly. “We know what happened to Leona, and we know that there was nothing you could do to help your daughter. Do you really wanna put another father through the pain of losing their child?” She asked him. In a moment of hesitancy, he removed his foot from your neck, allowing you to cough and then slide away from him. In what seemed as though a move of panic, he shot down at the floor, narrowly missing your head, but just clipping the side of your ear. A ringing noise deafened you, and you screamed.

—

Hotch felt his heart drop as he heard a gunshot and then a scream. Emily had ordered him to stay outside, she didn’t want him doing something that he would end up regretting. Minutes later, the front door opened again, only this time you were there, Spencer’s arm around your waist to support you and your arm around his shoulder. Walking out of there, you looked so small and scared. There was no way that Hotch couldn’t run towards you, gently taking you from Spencer.

“Da-daddy?” There was a small smile on your face as you saw the blurry figure of your dad. Hotch smiled in relief and nodded, arms going around you gently so’s not to disturb anymore of your cuts or slashes. “You-you came.” You stuttered.

“Of course I came, I wasn’t gonna leave you, honey,” He assured you. You couldn’t properly hear what your dad was saying, but you could make it out. “Alright, let’s get you to the hospital.”

“Can you carry me?” You asked, holding your arms out to him. Hotch nodded and lifted you gently, holding you close like if he let you go, he’d lose you once again.

-

“Can I see Y/N yet?” Jack asked his dad. Hotch smiled as he nodded at his youngest child, who was clearly eager to have his older sister back. Hotch was getting Jack from school while you were asleep at home, with every door and window locked to improve your safety.

“Yeah, she got home this morning after I dropped you off at school, she’s been missing you too,” Hotch told Jack. When they got home, Jack practically shot upstairs. “Jack, do not go into Y/N’s room.” Hotch called up to him. Jack sighed as he waited for his dad to come up the stairs.

“Can I go in yet?” Hotch laughed as he nodded, opening the door to your room and sighing at you when he saw you were now awake, Greys Anatomy playing on your TV. “Y/N!”

“Hey bubs!” You cheered, smiling at your brother as you pulled your brother up onto your bed. Hotch sat down on the end of your bed and took the TV remote turning it off. “Dad.” You whined.

“You’re supposed to be asleep, Y/N,” He reminded you. You sighed as you flopped back onto your bed.

“Can I stay here?” Jack asked, looking at your dad. Hotch shook his head.

“No, Jack, Y/N has to try and get some sleep,” He said. You pulled Jack to sit beside you and you both pouted up at your dad, who sighed as he shook his head. “Fine, fine.”

“We love you, dad.”

—

[bambisgirl]

CURRENTLY 3 AM BUT I WILL ADD YOU TOMORROW OMG AKWNWKWNWK

also pls?? I am so sorry you didn't get any of them 😭 I actually understand your pain 🤧 I started playing when albedo first came out! and then I saved wished for xiao but I lost the 50/50 and had to wait a whole year for his rerun 😭😭 somehow I had already lost my kazuha 50/50 also and I kept my guaranteed for xiao, but then I lost all the other cool characters too 🥺

BUT OMG HI FELLOW KEQING MAIN, chongyun is so cool (no pun intended I SWEAR ENENNSNWKWM) but I cANNOT go through the pain of leveling him up after zhongli and keqing. I am traumatized by cor lapis, I never wanna see it again in my ENTIRE LIFE 💔

did you complete the new tavern event?? I feel like it's so cute and relaxing after all that enkanomyia pain 😭

OMG IT WAS 3 AM FOR ME TOO 😭😭 i slept for 3h im literally a zombie rn <///3

ahhh adina you're too sweet 🥺🤍 it's actually my fault for not getting them like i was clueless (╥﹏╥) i didn't know until last month that you can level up talents like... 😀 i've been casually playing genshin for 8-9 months?? but i've only started being hardcore ab it in january?? & learned all of the stuff then JODDJKS PLS IM EMBARRASSED (im a pro player now tho 😎)

OOO I SEE I SEE!!! im keeping my guaranteed for ayato so i feel you 😭😭 i've literally wanted xiao since the first time i saw him but also kazuha??? PLSSS I LOVE THEM SM 😭😭 watch me start writing for genshin besides enha too </3

THE NON INTENDED CHONGYUN PUN NAUR KKGHKSJSKS??? i was so happy to see you mained keqing too, shes such a nice girl </3 AND PLEASE COR LAPIS IS LITERALLY MY BIGGEST FEAR 😩😩

AHHH im excited about the new tavern event!! it's really cute as i've seen so far 🥺 i haven't had any time to complete it yet but i'll def do it today or tmrw hehehe 🥰🥰 have you completed it yet?? AND I TOTALLY AGREE UGH i swear enkanomyia became my 2nd biggest fear after cor lapis ༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽

[king-of-knives]

Okayyyy I've been like sick for daysss not like every sick but like I don't have any capacity to do anything and I've slept hours and hours for like 5 days now but suddenly today I cannot sleep when I really really want to like GOD CAN SOMEONE COME AND BE LIKE "BITCH" and then stab me??? And now my stomach hurts outta nowhere like more than fuvkin cramps like wtffff and God either I'm too hot or too cold, either the ac is broken or I'm, it's most probably me who is broken, and I've got like a lot of math and graphics hw to catch up to cuz I was sick OMFG college sucks, all the high schoolers who hate it I completely get but fuck it just gets worse and I'm not scaring u its just more shit to do on ur own, I'm like so fuckin sleepy but I can't sleep cuz of these cramps like, God curse that faulty mattress my parents bought even after I told them it is shit, so the back pain wasn't enough and having dizziness all the freaking time cuz I'm sick isn't enough God decided it will great to give me stomach cramps cuz of meds like YESSS GODDD ILYSM no pls send someone to stab this bitch too, and idk if this my rant post or not but pls do not respond I'm completely okay as far as I think, let's question that it opens a pandoras box of shit, and now I can't even fuckin write like life is grt okay??? Like amazing this is all just silly crap but good lord save me I haven't been through silly crap in a long fuckin time I forgot how much devastating it is too?? Omg this is crazy I mean it's 4.30 and I'm ranting to no one, anyways have a grt day people I hope I get to go out today like I planned if not I'm stuck with graphics hw which I don't understand at all so yayyyyy.

[princepsomnum-blog]

‘ but shahirah is smashin ignis. ignis is a hoe. ’ ( im not sorry emmy. )

Lemme Smash Starters :: Accepting (most likely forever cause pls)

“ Oh don’t I know about it, kinda hard to ignore the racket… ”

[honeyboyfelix]

1-50 pls. is this illegal? Cx

you asked for it....so i deliver 

The meaning behind my url:~ so last year (2018) i woke up in a cold sweat with an idea (as all my good ideas come to me this way) for a url, which was honeyboyhwall (whos my the boyz bias brb still crying) and since then ive had a couple variations of the honeyboy url but i had been waiting on this one for a very long time because it was being saved by someone else and one day i just...decided to check if it was still saved and it wasnt and i was so happy

A picture of me:

How many tattoos i have and what they are: 0 :(

Last time i cried and why: uhhhhh i think i has an anxiety attack like last week?

Piercings i have: just the regular ear ones 

Favorite band: fall out boy

Biggest turn offs: being mean? idk how to describe it but like saying things to people with mean connotations? i usually pick people i like on pure gut feeling so idk how to say how that feels

Top 5 (insert subject): top 5 ice cream flavors: 1.green tea 2.peanut butter 3.cookie dough 4.cookies and cream 5.vanilla

Tattoos i want: i want a lot of watercolor space tattoos and a cat outline tattoo

Biggest turn ons: uhhh noticing habits of mine? idk i dont like telling people things i like them to notice o their own? which isnt very realisic.... 

Age: 19

Ideas of a perfect date: nap dates! warm blankets and cuddling in the middle of the day and waking up to eat snacks and going back to sleep

Life goal: eat ramen in japan

Piercings i want: a l l

Relationship status: single and sad

Favorite movie: the madoka magica movie

A fact about my life: when i was a kid i hated nickalodian and exclusivly watched discovery kids

Phobia: needles :(

Middle name: marie

Height: 5′6

Are you a virgin?~ ye

What’s your shoe size?~ 7.5 in womens

What’s your sexual orientation?~ asexual

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?~ nope im basically a straight edge

Someone you miss: my science school friends

What’s one thing you regret?~ not fucking considering an art career earlier

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: felix

Favorite ice cream?~ green tea

One insecurity: im scared people thing im stupid

What my last text message says: i sent my mom a link to a ramen resturant in miami that looked really good

Have you ever taken a picture naked?~ no lol

Have you ever painted your room?~ no

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?~ no :(

Have you ever slept naked?~ no

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?~ yes

Have you ever had a crush?~ asdfghj yea

Have you ever been dumped?~ ....yes...

Have you ever stole money from a friend?~ no?

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?~ yeah? i think? probably

Have you ever been in a fist fight?~ no

Have you ever snuck out of your house?~ nah never had to

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?~ uh yeah lmao

Have you ever been arrested?~ im the goodest bean on earth ive never even spoke to a cop in my life

Have you ever made out with a stranger?~ no

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?~? yeah are there people that haven't? like all my friends in hs were guys

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?~ yeah to walk me dog and play pokemon go but also,im 19 so

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?~ nah all my neighbors are old

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?~ with parent permission (my mom doesnt give a fuck about truancy apparently)

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?~ yes ive been to sleepovers

Have you ever seen someone die?~ no and i absolutely do not want to

[365-betterdays]

aug 24, 2022 | 7:32pm

hi guys! this is slowly becoming a weekly thing again (which is, kinda better than before where it was a daily thing kasi i had a lot of free time before eh) anyways, i'm feeling.. mid

i cried the other day, kasi i'm rlly scared to fail my math classes. i realized after the test, that it's not really much of a big deal. i mean, kaya nga ni rus mawalan ng pake. sana ako din. kung kaya niya, kaya ko din. i'm scared of failing kasi school is a big thing for me. kaya ayun.

next section: maybe i should work on knowing what to say. sometimes kase i blurt out words and just hope for the best, or hope i said the right things. which is ok, since wala na yung pressure sa sarili ko pero at the same time ang bobo ng mga sinasabi ko pls HAHAHA

sana i could practice more on that end, pero ofc, no pressure parin!!

let's not focus on negative things, but instead let me tell you about how great this week has been!!

i went to nuvali with my ate and nakita ko si angela, i'm not 100% sure if that's her name nga since it has been so long pero yun nga. a quick hello, hi, ingat lang and i feel good about it! kasi i didn't panic or anything. i wasn't v awkward so yeah.

i had face-to-face classes today. i talked to some of my classmates na hindi ko pa gaano nakakausap noon, and we're good. i feel like my social batter has been down a lot more often these days, so i'm recharging. which is healthy for me.

napupuyat ako alot from reviewing and waking up, fixing my stuff and all that, these days and ayun. kanina wala kaming pasok so i slept almost the whole GODDAMN day! which felt so great. ang sarap sa feeling omg ka. ayun. masaya. well rested ako hehe!!

i also found out that i had tigdas-hangin kase may rashes kami ni bela oh my fucking god pero ok lang. papasok parin ako kasi kailangan, i just hope hindi mapansin ng classmates ko. and if they do, siyempre sasabihin ko nalang na my allergies are acting out 'cause i ate sea food.

tomorrow, medyo excited ako kasi we have club! we have pre-cal din which i don't love pero go parin! hahahaha ok ok ok. let's gooo. i haven't bought juice for my pod nga pala. di ko pa alam when ako bibili pero yea. pagiisipan ko nalang, tutal naayos ko naman na budget ko. just not vvv specific like, kung paano ba expenses ko and etchetera. more on go with the flow kasi ako these days kaya nauubos e. HAHAHA. anyways! may exam pako next week. good luck sa'kin kasi simula palang 'to at umiiyak nako. sana kayanin ko pa kasi meron pakong ilang sem na iiyakan. bale, i'll stay hydrated nalang. kailangan ko ng kausap before i sleep, so maghahanap ako. bored yarn? sige. gooo katrina!! FIGHT!! HAHA.

before i leave, gusto ko magleave ng eensy-teensy tiny little note for myself. i realized lately, na i should follow through more often with the things i say i want to do. i know naman na i could do it more than i had done. gusto ko lang sanayin sarili ko patungo sa mga gusto kong magawa. think. say. do. then i'll get some kind of result, after. follow through. i could apply that to a lot of things, which is eating less. saving my money. sleeping GODDAMN EARLY. drinking more water. study. like study for real. not be too clingy. don't say too much than you should, be more appropriate. don't fuck this up c, do ur best! i'm proud of you and, i love you!

Good night, i had a nice week! here's to following through!!!!!

[yehetno]

HELLO sorry it's so late -- I am now in a new province starting my French Immersion sem and am waiting at the airport for the uni to pick me up (it was an overnight flight and I haven't slept pls save me) but yes it's alive is some quality content that should be seen by at least a majority of people with access to internet :'). Anyways, W O W MYUNGBIN AND JINCHA I AM ALIVE (myungjun's analogies are actually quality content, that water cycle perspective was refreshing) and that binu - (1/?) ❤❤❤

Drabble. I always have a soft spot for how you capture the emotions of a character’s thoughts! (Also I have a soft spot for tyrant vonseal :“)) As always, the textured realism of your drabbles makes it so easy for the audience to immerse themselves in the moment! Oh yeah, and please don’t worry about getting too passionate with learning methods and things, it’s fun and interesting for me to read too! Hope you’re having a good day! (2/2) - ❤❤❤

hi. 

you know i adore you, and i hope that your semester of immersing yourself en français goes great. (hopefully you’ve been getting some rest.  for as much i don’t take care of myself, i advocate for you to do as i say and not as i do, so take care of you and your body and needs.)

thanks for reading :)

(i am a pinch tired; & i promise i meant to respond sooner, but my attention span is teeny and my classes started back up and i just rest my tempo, which will be wrecked again starting monday.  i feel like normally i would say more, but i’m just out of words rn, so im sorry.)

i love you & hope your hydrated and healthy & as happy as you can be rn.