#i have wanted more non-still beard meshes for YEARS this is fantastic

[virtualpeople]

this new animated beard mesh my beloved

[bestillmybeefyheart]

Speaking of Satan #1... Let me tell you about #2

So, you heard about Satan #1. But she was followed by Satan #2. #2, she was a friend, one who was the gal all the guys liked because she was "one of the guys" but she dated and ****ed everyone but me. Me, she didnt even see as a guy or person. She was the reason we went out drinking more and more, and eventually why I became an alcoholic. I literally had to get wasted to deal with her she was so bad. Like #1, she abused me mentally and emotionally all the time, manipulating me as she wished. At first it was fun, we'd all go out, drink until no one could stand, then everyone drove home drunk like good Americans do every night. Then it became Thursday drinking, then all week drinking. And then one night she brought home some guy, who claimed he was stargazing, told us fantastic stories of his adventures but several of us felt something was off. His claims were, lets just say, not always factual, and some of us called BS. We were right to it turned out. His method of operations, meet a woman, convince her he has nowhere to live, move in immediately, steal from them to payfor his booze, goto his fake job, aka go drinking, then knock her up so she has to stay, until she gives birth. Then he tries to use the baby's SSN to get a loan or credit card, and vanishes. When he and she hooked up, this is exactly what happened. We found out later he had kids with at least 4-6 other women, all who fell for his BS. So S#2 gets pregnant, puts one weight, moves to the state her Mom she hates lives in, and goes into a misery spiral. Once she's "fat and unloved" (her words), suddenly she is into me, the only guy who still will even talk to her. And she suckers me into her life, and pretty soon we're dating and she's here, smoking every 5 minutes. That always drove me nuts, we couldn't watch anything without her taking 5-10 smoke breaks. It was literally pause, play, pause play over and over. She then proceeded to treat me lik #1 did, cheating, abusing, being awful to me, never apologizing for anything, and pushing my buttons non-stop. Ironic part, I was with both her and S#1 for 3.5 years each. My magic cursed number it seems. It got so bad that she'd do something awful, I'd expect some kind of apology or explain and she'd just not do a thing, like she was above apologizing for her actions. I started drinking more and more and it got where just to go over to her house I had to have a 6 pack in me. So I'd drive there, sit in the parking lot and drink until I had 6 in me. Then take another 6 pack to her place with me to tolerate her BS for the evening. Eventually, her place needed some major renovations, and since I was whipped and had an open schedule, I did 90% of the work on her place while she was at her day job. Guess who did all the work in her mind? Yep, her. She bragged to her friends about it, yet I had (and have) hundreds of photos I took of the progress during the day while she was at work. None of her friends liked me. Which didnt help. Most of which were also victims of the scumbag guy mentioned before, and only one was nice. It turned out the nice one wanted to sleep with me, but I dont cheat so she turned on me when I scorned her advances. She threw me a surprise party knowing I hate them with a passion and then yelled at me for not acting surprise. I acted pissed. I was put on the spot and embarrassed in front of my friends and family by her, because SHE wanted to do it, not because it would be fun for me. And the verbal and emotional abuse just continued and continued. I finally had enough and walked out. She had done something ****ty and wouldn't even acknowledge it. Typical behavior. And I was sick of this treatment. She didnt even bother to follow me or try to stop me. She then proceeded to call and leave hateful messages on my machine, and tell her friends lies about me. Took me 5-7 years to deal with that trauma. I saw her one day a few years ago while biking, I had a beard and was decked out in biking gear so I dont think she saw or recognized me. I wanted to stop and tell her to go **** herself but I am above that, I'll bitch years later on Tumblr. The moral here is, don't settle. Don't take abuse. And never let someone else's bullshit become yours. True love is not lke that. True love is a connection give and take, no cheating or abuse, just a mesh of two people. And these two ladies are why i don't date. I've tried since, but it always ends in failure either because they are immature or bwords, or because I see the ugly in them well before we get serious and I get the hell out. I'm better off alone. I can't get hurt if I am the only one here. And I learned lessons I can share so others can learn from them. Good news is, I eventually stopped drinking after I hit bottom and got my life back. And life's kicked me quite a few times but I get back up and I keep going. Now back to you Bob...