#i have trouble engaging with stuff emotionally when my brain is overtaken by apprenticeship

[dummerjan]

i keep starting shows and dropping them soon after. i don't know if they actually aren't for me or if i just don't have the capacities to enjoy them right now.

i dropped first note of love after five episodes and while that song did get on my nerves it wasn't enough to actually drop an entire series i was enjoying otherwise. but out of nowhere i thought nah let's not do this. i barely made it through the second episode of affair which might have something to do with being terribly critical and much more nitpicky with gl than i am with bl (and tbf the show is badly done in a lot of ways and visually just so boring and i had just watched love lies bleeding twice in a week and was just so blown away by that). but i really liked the premise of it and wanted to give it a chance but i just wasn't feeling it. i watched two episodes of kidnap bc it seemed like light enough entertainment for me even after a draining week of class and i really like ohm but then i once again went nah let's not do this during episode three and dropped it. i am intrigued by the on1y one but i hesitate to start lest i drop it bc i just don't have it in me to enjoy something i would otherwise adore. i could rewatch something or maybe i just need to take a break from bl. maybe i have overdosed…