#i have simultaneously nothign to lose and everything

[piplupod]

one more post while i am insane but i do think maybe Wanting to live should be ... enough to live. like can it just be all that is needed maybe. instead of [gestures vaguely at capitalistic society] all of that. a person should just Want to be alive and be allowed to live and given what they need to live. i dont want to have to beg and grovel for the ability to keep myself alive, i already did that (and continue to do that!) with my parents and now apparently i have to do that with the govmt and just... Everything.

[imaginesonurface]

GALACTICA - P5

Loki

Warning: hints of depression. swearing

This is set during the Dark World events and I plan on continuing till nowadays. Hope you enjoy it ;)

NEW YORK 

The worst part wasn’t the battle, Midge found herself trapped in interrogatories rooms for a while, followed by court in which she had to repeat over and over again how she believed in Loki’s words and as soon as she found out he was lying she did her best to stop him. Meanwhile, Thor developed an interest on her, due the fact that she seemed to be quite close to his brother. He was the only one that tried to understand her side of the story. 

“Midge Johnson, I understand that you don’t know the origins of your powers or even your own self.” he said once.

“Yes, apparently everyone who knows me have this little habit of lying to me” she answered bitterly.

“Well, as you might know, according to Midgardian court you’re free to go and Loki’s going to get judge in Asgard. I’d like to invite you to use our resources to help you find some information about your past and your powers. I know my mother would be pleased to help you.” 

“Ahn, yeah, right... That would be awesome.” after that exhausting year, finally some good news.

“We leave tomorrow, be prepared.” he said leaving your room.

Midge was temporarily staying at the Stark’s Towers. Next morning, she didn’t have to wake up because she hadn’t sleep, she got up and took a shower. She brushed her hair and noticed it was light brown now. She decided that the color of her hair wasn’t kinda important, so she ignored it and put it in a  high ponytail. She put on her pair of jeans and white shirt. No mood for suits. 

They went to Central Park and used the tesseract to go back to Asgard. As soon as you arrived you couldn’t hold your admiration or your smile. Loki was having fun staring at you with that look at your face. 

“Welcome to Asgard. Did you miss me?” he said.

That was bold. Midge was on the edge to freak out but she took a deep breath instead. That was like a dream. In fact, she was pretty sure she had dreamed about that place as a child. As she walked into the throne room she felt as small as a Smurf. Odin’s presence and his angry eyes on her made her fear him. He only spoke to her after his speech to Loki. 

“And you, Midgardian, should pay for your crimes too.” he said.

“I’m not Midgardian and I’m not here for that. Thor invited me...” 

“Thor is no king.” 

“Yeah, but...”

“You must pay for your crimes. Guards!” 

“I mean, what’s wrong with this guy? Can a girl talk?” she thought as she got arrested.

Midge didn’t react at all, she just followed the guards to her cell. It had the worst view she could ask for: Loki’s cell. 

“You look quite mad.” Loki said with his smirk annoying Midge.

“Maybe that’s because I’M!” she said losing her temper

“You know, I could help you...” he said walking like a tigger in his cell.

“Thank you, I think you’ve done enough.” she said turning around. Even hating on him she was turned on by him. “Fuck” she thought.

A pile of books appeared in front of her.

“The books Thor promised you. I’m sorry but his other resource won’t be avalaible.” 

“What is his other resource?”

“Our mother.” 

“And how do I know you didn’t put on some new info into this books just to mess up my mind?”

“Because it’s going to be useless to you. My mother could’ve answer any question but those books? I don’t think so.” 

Midge read every book Loki had given to her and he was right: just a bunch of crap and waste of time. Just like the time she spent there. She was wondering if someday she would get out of this place. That was when she heard it:  an absurd noise and screams everywhere. She set herself up and stared at Loki walking to the edge of his cell. The girl looked around and saw a... monster. He was letting the prisoners out. Walked till Loki’s cell but only stared him for a while leaving him behind right after without letting Loki go. But the god of Mischief couldn’t just shut up for once: she gave the monster the directions. The monster looked at Midge and broke her glass setting her free. 

She followed him upstairs and tried to help everyone. That was when she met her: Frigga. She knew there was no time for her to talk about her past but as soon as Frigga looked at her she froze with tears in her eyes.

“Jupiter.” she hugged Midge but was soon dragged into the whole battle as much as you did. She went to another room to help Thor. And that was the last time she saw Frigga. 

The next day she was put back on her cell. “Man, Odin must really hate me.” Midge thought. And she saw a devasted Loki. During the next few days she saw his pain and saw him breaking everything on his cell. She tried to feel good about it but she couldn’t: not because she felt like Frigga was someone close to her or that she could have the answers to all of her questions but because she knew how he felt a little too much.

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Eventually Thor showed up to pay his brother a visit. He proposed a deal to him while Midge watched everything.

“Ahn, Thor, aren’t you forgetting anything?” she called him off. 

“Midge, my father put you there and there’s nothign I can do to take you off.” 

“But I helped you. Besides, you’re already committing a treason so why not two?”

“The girl got a point.” Loki said.

“Oh shut up.” we both said simultaneously.

“Alright.” Thor said after a brief moment lost in his thoughts letting the girl out. 

Loki did his trick to change clothes as she waited for him to do the same to her.

“Hey, the least you could do for the past two years is that trick on me.” she said. 

The god rolled his eyes and put on the same outfit he had on her.

“I don’t wanna be dressed as Loki.” she said. 

“What do you wanna be dressed as, Galactica?” he said ironically.

“My suit.” she said thinking about it “With a few changes, like a strap would be nice and maybe a longer skirt ou at least a little bit looser one, maybe you could make it a little darker.” 

“Do I look like what to you?” he said doing exactly as the girl required.

“Do you really want me to say?”

Thor stopped the discussion between them as they walked inside the corridor. But Loki didn’t stop talking. He was teasing Thor with his magic so he would take of his cuffs. When they reached the end of it they met Jane Foster, Thor’s girlfriend and the reason they were free. She didn’t waste time to hit Loki on his face. Midge liked the girl and decided that she was helping her because of her and not because of any freedom. 

They got into a ship, Loki and Thor discussing how to fly it and the god of thunder was losing his temper so he punched the machine and it turned on. Every word Loki spoke was pissing off Midge so when Thor pushed him off the ship she laughed. Being pushed right after herself and landing on top of him.

“I bet you were laughing at me.” he said holding the girl on his arms while she hurried to get up. 

Loki guided them till the realm they needed to go to save Jane. When they arrived Loki did what he’s good at: tricked. He attacked Thor and tried to exchange Jane for power. Malekith took off the eter that was inside the girl and discarded her. Loki undid his illusion, Thor signed to Midge and together they attacked the elf while the god of mischief protect Jane. It was all in vain. 

They split up to fight. After eletrifying a few soldiers, Midge looked around to find somebody to help and saw Loki finishing his fight as well. She couldn’t look away. “Damn, you’re a woman now, Midge Johnson. You can’t act like a teenager in love with a bad guy. That’s so fucking stupid.”. She heard Thor’s fight in the back and turned around to help him but was too late: Loki was stabbing his opponent in the back. With the weapon on his body, the opponent craved it on Loki, killing him too. Thor screamed his lungs off but there was no time for that: Malekith ran away. 

Midge pushed the god and his girlfriend into the nearest cavern. They thought everything was lost, that there was no way to get out of that realm and Jane have had visions of Malekith’s plans. They were about to freak out when a phone started ringing. Jane noticed a lot of lost objects that she was familiar with and, following her, they crossed to Earth just in time to look for Foster’s friends to help them stop Malekith.

The plan was: while Thor fight him, Darcy and hers intern would spread some antennas so Jane and Erik could transfer the magnetic field while Midge protect them. Everything went well till the Convergence reached it’s maximum potential and Thor had to walk the eter zone alone. Everyone else was outside panicking, Midge wanted to go in too but didn’t know how she could do that. When the god walked off successfully, he was fainted on the floor due a lot of energy waste. Midge had a smile on her face till her glance met Jane’s. The other girl had panic all over her face. Galactica followed her stare to a space ship falling in Thor’s direction. Midge flew and held the space ship so it wouldn’t collapsed on Thor right before it disappeared. 

“DUDE, THAT WAS AWESOME!” she high-fived Darcy.