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This Should've Been an Email
His mouth moved without it telling it to, then closed like whoever was possessing him didnât know what to say either. There was something going on, something Etho could feel but didnât understand. They were standing on the edge of the world, and Etho didnât know how to tell Bdubs he was out of time. Was he out of time? Maybe he was just going insane again. Maybe-
âEtho, thereâs a lot of void energy going on right now, can you focus-â
You canât outsmart a god. You can only run.
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[ READ HERE ] Latest addition to the Should've Could've Would've series and sequel to the YCAOverse byyyy incredible great @goingdownorup cinemaaaa is HERE and we are BACK IN THE BUILDING!!!
[rambling undercut]
you've fallen for my trap card, ramblings not about the actual fic yet sorry - I'm going to talk about art technicalities at you now :]
Ver without the text:
I drew this up on a whim immediately after finishing the first chapter. Other than it being fanart, this year I want to think smarter when making elaborate pieces - this being the one of the first experiments on it.
sketches have always been my starting foundation I usually go through a few iterations gradually building off the rough thumbnail all the way to lineart. Here I'm establishing perspective and rhythm (movement), using background and props to better frame the emphasis (focal) rather than overwhelm the eye with unnecessary detail.
Shirahama's Witch Hat Atelier manga panels were an inspiration for the lineart (reoccuring character. WHA changed my life)
I even started actually putting base colours instead of skipping to shading... BASE COLOURS. BASE COLOURS WITHOUT SHADING? Crazy world we live in. Above were me testing which colours worked best for the background and purpose. Ethubs look a little out of place atm - this changes in solid filters
Shading itself was a lot of back and forth in constant fumbles to maintain the rhythm instructed in the lineart, adding emphasis how values needed to carry the visual communication of this piece especially with a line heavy background because of the wheatfields. Everything uses either cel shading, filters, or gradients - I wanted to find a way to add complexity to my regular rendering style without needing to manually blend/paint (takes too long)
During this stage, Heikala's watercolour art was the study in crowd control (backgrounds with organic repetition)
Smaller misc details that couldn't fit anywhere in the previous pages. Overall while there are some things I still would change/redo, overall very pleased as a first (second) attempt ^_^
#stufffsart#character concept stufff#stufff rambles#ycao au#<- Going to be my catch all tag for everything of that tl#This Shouldve Been an Email#ethoslab#etho#bdoubleo100#bdoubleo#bdubs#ethubs#(theres a third person if you can spot them)#hermitcraft#hermitblr#mcytblr#theres still other things from the sequel i wanna draw (jizzie designs - gem and cleo etc) thatll have to wait#this cover and my other fancover are so stylistically different whwhwh
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MAKE HER TAPOUT. paige bueckers
description. your competitiveness with paige runs deeper than basketball, and tonight, itâs about who gives in firstâor if either of you will at all.
includes. SMUT, 18+. a lot of everything, dude.. i got carried away. just read and find out.
a/n. dedicated to everybody that asked for it! lenaâs anon, @kmoneymartini request and all of the comments on that post! saw an edit that had successfully inspired one of my freaky delusions again. also combined that fic i was talking about a few days ago into this, so itâs long but worth it, trust. will probably thoroughly proof read in the morning :)
It wasnât the first time youâd found yourself like thisâpressed up against the cushions of your couch, Paigeâs hands roaming like she was trying to memorize every inch of you. Her lips grazed along your neck, her breath hot against your skin, and all you could think about was how youâd barely managed to get the door shut before sheâd pinned you there.
Gampel Pavilion had ran a great deal tonight. UConn showed up big timeâpacked to capacity, ranked matchup, the whole ordealâand Paige had been absolutely ridiculous. Twenty-five points, nine assists, boards in clutch⌠She was everywhere. It shouldnât have been your problem how good she looked doing it, either⌠yet somehow, it always was.
But tonight, youâd edged her out. You showed up and showed out by one point. And one assist. A fact she hadnât let go of since the final buzzer.
âMm.. Paige,â you tried.
And now it was time to show up in a different wayâone that didnât require a ball in your hands.
âHad to one up me tonight, didnât you?â Paige murmured, lost in the messiness of your lips as she rambled about how sexy it was. You smiled despite yourself, trying to keep up. âPaige,â you tried again.
âHmm?â she finally responded, her tone as innocent as a baby. She laid you on your back, moving your panties to the side, letting the wetness between your folds instantly coat the pads of her middle and index finger as she circled at your clit. It was always fast, quick-paced. The way you both liked it.
You rubbed your feet together in attempt to ground yourself. âMmph, you bailed on the team. I.. bailed on the team. Do you know how suspicious that looks?â you mumbled against her lips, though your voice was breathless, caught between tantalizing and surrender. Your post game plans were clearâhead to Tedâs with the team despite that gruesome early practice the next morning everyone would be dreading with a hangover, ride out the the high of the win, yadda, yadda, yadda⌠and pretend you werenât constantly aware of the girl now pressed against you. It was easy to fake indifference in a room full of people.
That was until you realized you werenât feeling completely up for it tonight. The booze, loud music, sticky floors of the bar. Paige was in tow, of course, taking it as an opportunity. Alone time was hard enough to get as it is, and the two of you were getting increasingly bad at keeping this quiet. You were close to shooing her off, but she did indeed deserve something after that performance. So did you.
You almost thought sheâd stop, but youâd be a fool. âEh..â Paige murmured, her hand gripping your hip tighter as she pressed you deeper into the cushions, teasing your entrance with her other, like she was trying to erase the words from your memory. It was kind of working. Her lips brushed against yours as she added, âSuspicious of what? That Iâd rather be here fucking you to celebrate our win?â
Your hands shot up instinctively, shoving at her shoulders.
âBrâwha.. Ow!â Paige exclaimed, holding herself up over you, a dramatic pout pulling at her lips. She looked downright fine, chain dangling in your face, arm flexing dangerously close to it too. âRelax. Nobodyâs checkinâ for us like that,â she reminds.
âSure, and the sky is yellow.â You squinted, not bothering to go into detail about how far from the truth she was. Instead, you changed the subject, partly because you couldnât stand the way her chain kept brushing against your neck, and partly because her presence was messing with your ability to think straight. âFigured youâd be out cold by now. Youâre usually asleep within an hour after games,â you huffed.
Paige tilted her head at you, her pout morphing into a grin. âMe? Thatâs disrespectful.â She faked her hurt, and you rolled your eyes.
âItâs not disrespectful, itâs true.â
âDonât even play with me like that,â she challenged. âYou know I donât quit easy.â
It was your turn to grin. Uncontrollably, really. âOh? You wanna test that theory?â
Paige was seemingly amused, running her tongue over the swell of her bottom lip. Your eyes darted there against your will, and she noticed. She always noticed. âYouâre the one always tappinâ out on me.â
Your mouth fell open in disbelief. âExcuse me!?â
Her laugh was low, her breath fanning across your face. âYou heard me,â she teased, her hand sliding a little lower on your hip, her grip tightening. âLast week, remember? Couldnât handle it.â
Wow. Wooow.
Your eyes narrowed, your mind flashing back to last weekâa quickie that happened to turn into multiple rounds. Jana and Allieâs grocery store trip had taken longer than the two of you inclined, and Paige used every minute. Fucked you right into oblivion, skills that had you begging for a break that she hadnât been willing to give right away. You hated that she was right.
Paige smirked, and you wanted to drag it off of her face. âJust sayinâ⌠if anybodyâs tappinâ out, it ainât me.â
Instead of scolding her some more, maybe even punishing her by not letting her have it tonight just to prove a point, you pulled her back in, hand gripping the side of her face that quickly begun tonguing you down, eyebrows furrowed in the midst of trying to keep up with you.
She adjusted her body lower, leaned into it some more. She thought you were done with the bickering.
âWeâll take turns.â
Paige blinked, clearly not following, breathing an airy, âHuh?â into your mouth.
Without slowing your pace, you grabbed her wrist and guided her hand back between your legs, her fingers grazing over your wetness for the second time. âTake turns,â you repeated. Paige pulled back a couple inches, tugging a swollen lip between her teeth as her eyes scanned your face, taking in the slight flush of your cheeks, and of course, your implication. The wheels turned, and her face softened. âAh,â she muttered.
âYou first,â you dared. And with that, you forced one of her fingers into you, scooting up on the couch. Paige froze for a split second, her lips parting as if she wasnât sure sheâd heard you right. Felt you right. Then her expression shifted, and her lips found yours again like a missing puzzle piece, dragging down your chin and over your jaw.
It would be a long nightâtruly.
âWhat you want?â she asked you. âTwo. Up.â
The blonde immediately obliged, prying your leg open wider to fall against the back of the couch as she eased another finger in, twisting them over before pumping in and out a few times. âYesâfuck, yes.â Your eyes flutter shut, head falling back against the arm rest in pure bliss. You rut your hips up, the same motion as her curling digits.
You shouldâve known better than to challenge Paige to anything, but your own pride couldnât fucking help it. Her competitive streak ran deeper than basketball, woven into every fiber of her being. It was one of the many things you had in common. Paige loved to push your limits, to tease you until you couldnât take it, only to yank you back and dare you to do the same to her. It wasnât just about pleasureâit was about control, about who could outlast the other, who could take more, give more, until out came a winner.
Itâs also what made the sex so good.
You dissolve completely into the feeling, Paigeâs long, slender fingers fitting as perfect as always. Her head is still dipped, kisses going around your neck, sloppy and full of her love for you, trying for light nips around your skin. A hand of yours falls to her shoulder, gripping at the muscle as your mouth plummets open wider, nearly like a yawn.
You can feel her smirk against your neck, the way her teeth catch on the sensitive spot below your ear. âGod,â you manage to whisper, barely audible over the sound of your ragged breathing, words tumbling out in an incoherent mess, close enough to the one you make on the cushions. She was the only one that could get you absolutely soaked.
âI know, baby. Feels real good, donât it?â Paige pushes a third finger into you easily, making you moan out from the stretch. She picks up on how your walls clench around her, gushes of your arousal coating her fingers, forming a white ring around the base.
You nod frantically, words stuck in your throat.
Paige quirks her head to the side. âThatâs all I get? A nod?â she mocks, something sheâs gotten increasingly good at since fucking you. âCâmon, use that pretty mouth. Tell me how good Iâm making you feel.â
Your mind begins to leave you piece by piece, your determination to stay balanced pulling you back in every time. Your grinding motions become harder against her hand, moans becoming deeper by the minute, more pleasure-filled. Your stomach begun to tighten, almost like a hand slowly balling into a fist with a need to just combust and release.
âPaige,â you choke out, voice trembling. âItâsâitâs so good. Youâre soâfuck.â You canât finish the sentence, your nails digging into her shoulder.
She yanks you down, your body sinking further into her, your back forming into more of an arch. Shes giving it her all, and youâre starting to regret letting her go first. âWhat? Say it,â Paige coaxes as her fingers curl just right. âTell me how good I am, baby.â
âYouâre so good,â you shake your head as Paige slaps the pad of her hand against your clit, the sound entirely too pornographic for your ears. If anything, it spurred Paige on. âYou know you are.â
You chew down on your bottom lip, trying your best not to scream at how good the feeling is. âSound sâsweet praisinâ me like that. Yâgonna come all down my fingers, baby?â She moves them faster, the squelching enough to erase any noâs from your vocabulary. Her hand moves in a back and forward motion, and the more you think about it, the more the desperate need to let go becomes more evident.
âYes,â you respond in a rush, followed by a few more of the approving word. âRight there, P,â you breathe, arm hooking around her neck to pull her closer, painted nails dragging against her cheek. Youâre about to have what you think might be the best release of your life until itâs completely stripped away from you.
Shit, shit, shit.
âNo.. no, no, no,â you whine, an antonym of your previous pleads as you dart your eyes open. Paige releases you from her grip, swinging a leg off the couch. You search for any hint of remorse in those eyes thatâve seemed to darken since you last looked, but there isnât one. Bitch. She stares down at you with a bit of a mocking expression. âPleaseââ you start.
Youâre interrupted with the shoving of Paigeâs fingers down your throat. Your eyelashes flutter back against your skin, lips wrapped tightly around the digits as you inadvertently lick your arousal clean off. With that, she pulls them back with a soft pop, admiring the glisten with a cockiness that has you weak.
âStart witâ that.â
âOh, my GodâŚâ Paige trailed off, whispering more to herself as she crooks her head to look down at you. New location: your bedroom. New motivation: the look on Paigeâs face when she left you without an orgasm. You could play dirty, too.
You meet eyes as Paige pulls your hair away from your face, your hands resting on her thighs. Her basketball shorts were pooled at her legs underneath her boxers, and somewhere along the hurried way down the hall, sheâd pulled her shirt off, the tension in her toned stomach revealed under the dim light of your table lamp.
Your tongue slowly moves between her lips, licking and lapping up her wetness just to hum at the taste. Paige is losing itâfingers threading through your hair, the pads of her fingertips pressing deeper into your scalp at every stroke. She swears the sight of your head between her thighs is enough to bring her to release.
âFuuuuck. Keep it like that,â she orders. You complyâlet her think sheâs got it under controlâand she does. For a moment. Her grip tightens, guiding your head against her own clit to let you know just how she wants it. âLike this?â you tease, creating a suction. You bat your eyelashes, doe eyes catching her blue hues before theyâre thrown up toward the ceiling.
âGonnaâshit.. yeah, yes. Keep goinâ⌠donât stop, baby.â You flatten out your tongue when she begins to move your head up and down, gruff, pleasured noises leaving her mouth in curses. She spreads her legs open even further, and the more she praises you, the deeper she pushes, the faster you move.
Youâre very aware of how sensitive Paige gets after an orgasm. the number of times sheâs begged you to slow down, to let her breathe for just a second, only for her to claw at you moments later, dragging you back like she canât stand the idea of stopping. Itâs a delicious contradiction, one youâve learned to take full advantage of. Itâs intoxicating, too⌠knowing youâre the only one who can reduce her to nothing more than trembling limbs.
âSo close,â Paige mutters, her voice breaking into a groan. Her control slips with every passing second, though you arenât sure how much of it she had in the first place. âJuuuuuust like that. Eatinâ me out so good. Always do.â She lets go with a continuous nod of her head, physically biting back a series of moans that would be too loud for the walls. You continue your onslaught, licking up what you can before pulling back. Her hips lift slightly off the bed, chasing the pressure, her legs tightening around you for a moment before falling slack again.
Right now, sheâs no differentâstill trembling, chest heaving, the faintest sheen of sweat glistening on her skin as she tries to recover. Her hand is pressed to her forehead, covering her eyes like sheâs embarrassed to let you see just how undone she isâher chest rising and falling rapidly, lips parted all pink and plump.
Thereâs a slight tremor in her breath when you shift closer. You trail your hand down her side slowly, eyes flickering up in search for any reaction. When you fingertips brush over her cuntâtoo lightly, reallyâPaige groans, her head lolling to the side as her fingers immediately go to grip weakly at your wrist. âChillâŚâ she trails off.
âChill?â you repeat, raising an eyebrow as you press a soft kiss to her thigh. âI thought you didnât quit easy? You bailing already?â
She lets out a breathless laugh, prepping for a quick comeback that turns into a shaky moan when your lips move lower, attaching to her clit. Lower and lower⌠plunging straight into her pussy. Paige jerks, her body arching involuntarily as a sharp gasp tears from her lips. âShitâwaitââ she stammers. âYou gotta let me⌠Let me breathe, maââ
âMhm-mm,â you deny, pushing her hand away and dipping your own to replace your mouth. You drill into her all slow, curling just the tips of your fingers in the same way you know drives her insane.
Her head falls back against the pillow, exposing the elegant line of her throat as she swallows. âGod, youâre such a⌠fuckinâ problem,â she breathes, her voice breaking halfway through as you glance up at her. You love it when she goes all dumb on you. âDonât play fair,â you think you heard.
Her legs are shaking in an attempt to take what you give her, hands searching for something to grip in a last-ditch effort to ground herself. Your thumb brushes against her clit every so often, making her squirm even further away from you. âOne more for me, PB,â you coo.
âCanâtâcanâtâŚâ She drips onto the bed more and more with every pump. Youâre practically milking her out, splitting her open, and just like that, her release is coming quicker this time.
âYou canât what?â you egg on, hoping thisâll do it for her. You wonder how long youâll drag your bragging out this time.
The lewd sounds of her arousal hit your ears, and you sigh in content, Paigeâs body and mind becoming total mush under your service. Thereâs no fight left in herâthe entirety of her being is begging without saying it. You know she hates that she canât keep it togetherâhates that youâre in controlâbut itâs the thrill of it, the way her walls clench like a plead, that makes it all worth it.
Her breath hitches, and for a moment, you almost think sheâs going to hold out. But then, as if that last shred of pride snaps, she does what you knew she would. Paige comes, her cunt pulsating against your fingers as she yelps, twitching every few seconds. You continue to talk her through it, working her over until her voice is as hoarse as a sore throat, raspy and wrecked.
Afterward, you move up slowly, pressing gentle, teasing kisses all over her face as your hand rests comfortably on the warmth of her stomach. âTapping out already?â you whisper playfully, brushing a finger down the curve of her neck. âItâs okay. I get it.â
Her eyes flicker open, half-lidded and heavy. But just as quickly, the storm in her eyes shifts. Before you can get another word in, Paigeâs hand moves up to stroke your cheek gently, almostâŚlovingly? Itâs enough to throw you off, make you forget about those bragging rights. She holds your face for a moment, eyes flushed with intent. Then, without warning, she pushes you back, her brows furrowing in concentration as she pushes herself up, trodding toward your closet. With what strength?
âStrip.â
And that was exactly how you ended up here. Cowgirl, legs straddled on each side of Paige as she watched you fuck yourself on her, mumbling out a million and one different terms of endearment to kept you going. There was a receiving end, one she hadnât thought about let alone touched, and you wondered how long sheâd let you go before getting herself off too.
Second round, so close to coming, and you didnât plan on giving Paige the satisfaction of knowing you couldnât take it anymore.
She hadnât took her eyes off you since you started. You avoided her gaze, hands gripping her ankles as you put on her favorite show. âLook at this pussy, baby. Fuckinâ perfect, you know that?â she praised, wetting her thumb before pressing it to your clit, hard enough to make you squirm. Your hips drove against her harder, causing them to collide in a sticky smack, the tip of her strap bullying the deepest part of you.
âSo tightâshit.â Naturally, Paigeâs other hand found your breasts, kneading the left before rubbing the nipple between her fingers. You winced, throwing your head back as your chest pushed further out. âJust squeezinâ around that shit,â she emphasized, voice so low it almost went unheard. She tilted her head to the side, hands roaming around to the small of your waist as your rhythmic movements escalated into frenzied bouncing, the length molding perfectly to your slick walls, stretching you to the limit.
Sheâd went quiet for a moment, a safe space for your moans and whimpers, pondering. âGet up,â sheâd decided.
You paused, mouth agape as your chest rose and fell in gasps. âPaigeââ you tried, having had enough of this little not letting you come thing. Still, sheâd tightened her hands around your hips just to throw you off her, and you quickly realized what she wanted. She didnât have to say it. Bend over.
You perch your ass in the air as Paige settles behind you knees pressed on either side. You look just over your shoulder as she rubs the tip of her strap between your folds, head down and focused. You attempt to buck your hips back, desperately waiting to be filled up.
Paigeâs eyes shoot up, and you pout playfully. âPlease?â
She began to gently slide the tip into your leaking hole all at once, bottoming out. âGreedy,â she mutters, pushing down against your upper back to get you to arch more. Deep, deep, and deeper. She doesnât start slow, rocking her hips toward your ass relentlessly, almost without any contrition.
Your hands gripped the bed frame, knuckles white, trying to ground yourself, but the tight pull in your core, the way she stretched youânothing could keep you steady. Every thrust felt like a reminder, and as much as you wanted to give up, your ego was too damn big. This was all your idea, after all.
How the hell do you always end up here with her?
The thought crossed your mind for only a second, but it was quickly drowned out by the next wave of pleasure that hit, making you whimper. It was impossible to think straight. Her hands on your hips pushing you deeper into the mattress, your body now moving in sync with hers as though it were second nature. Sheâs addicting in all the right ways.
Paigeâs movements stilled for a brief moment, and before you could register what was happening, she pulled you up against her chest, wrapping one hand up under your chin firmly. You locked eyes as her thumb stroked your bottom lip, prying your mouth open. She then prepared just the right amount of saliva in her mouth before spitting precisely into yours. âMhm.â
Her thumb snuck its way in next, spreading it all over your tongue. Her brows crinkled in attentiveness. âYou good?â She was genuinely concerned despite not giving you a chance to respond before she started moving again, slower this time, sensual. The intimacy was driving you fucking crazy, you needed a seatbelt.
You responded with a thorough swallow, sticking your tongue out to show her how good you were. Paige smiledâbig and unattainable before pushing you back against the mattress. âSlut,â she degraded, making you giggle.
Another deep push, another moan you couldnât hide, and you were already on the edge. Shit, not again. The thought tried to make its way through your foggy mind while your body pushing back into hers instinctively, now fully aware of how badly you wanted to come. With every movement, Paige made sure you couldnât escape, that you wouldnât want to. She was keeping you close, keeping you tangled in the heat of it all.
This wasnât about winning or losing anymore. It was about feeling every inch of her, letting her pull you apart until you couldnât even tell where you ended and she began.
Paige tugged her lip between her teeth, ramming into you like she knew she had a point to prove. âFucking you so dumb. Makinâ such a mess⌠You almost there?â You nodded, followed up with a constant of yesâs that made the tight knot in your stomach even worse, even better.
The sounds of her skin slapping against yours and your loud cries of pleasure filled the bedroom. You gripped the bedsheets in preparation, the squelching of Paige driving into your soaked pussy like music. She looked down at where your bodies connected, enjoying the little squeaks you let out every time she bumped against your cervix.Â
âI canât, I canât, I canât.â
âYou can.â
Paige took one hand from one of your thighs, using it to reach down and press her thumb against your clit, rubbing tight circles. Your back arched, a loud cry leaving your lips at the sensitivity that had been built over the course of the night. âAghâPaigeâŚâ Thaaaatâs it, baby. Câmon. Come for me." And that's all it took for your orgasm to rip through you, your body shaking and Paigeâs name leaving your lips like a mantra.
She pulled out, all five of her fingers speeding up and continuing their assault just to push you right over. You werenât sure if she planned on stopping. Your body was squirming in different directions, begging and gasping for a break until your hand flattened against the comforter, tapping repeatedly in a form of complete and utter yield.
And just like that, your game was over.
Paige pried her hands off of you, letting your body collapse forward onto the mattress with no ounce of grace left. Your legs felt like jelly, and your breathing came in quick, shallow bursts as your chest heaved against the sheets. You couldnât even lift your head to glare at her, too far gone to summon any shred of defiance.
Behind you, Paige shifted, catching her breath, but her voice was annoyingly steady when she spoke, dripping with smugness. âHa,â she breathed out. âYou tapped out. Like, literally.â
Your fingers curled into the sheets as you turned your face to the side, just enough to shoot a half-hearted glare over your shoulder. âShut it,â you muttered.
But Paige wasnât done. She scooted closer, her hand trailing lazily up your spine as her lips brushed your shoulder blade, voice teasing. âNah, that was cute. You were all like, âPaige, I canâtâŚââ She mimickedâall exaggerated and mocking, before breaking into another quiet laugh.
You groaned, burying your face in the mattress, unable to hide the way the corner of your lips twitched upward despite yourself. âYouâre so aggy.â
âAnd youâre lucky I love it when you quit.â Paige leaned down, planting a kiss to your damp skin before pulling back with a smirk you didnât need to see to know was there. âIâmma let you have it next time, okay?â
âŚNext time?
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ILY = ? áŻâ
bakugou katsuki x f ! reader. fluff / established relationship
katsuki never explicitly says âi love youâ the first few months. he always has his own way to vocalize his affectionâand i stress, in his own way.
where he gets annoyed and says âi want your heart to beat only because of me until you canât feel it when iâm not there.â or when you guys make love and he says âevery time you lay on our bed,â (your house, he came over) ���youâd have no choice but to get reminded of me.â something like that. (itâs more extreme than those two examples) and youâd tease him because he says a lot of shit even though the meaning is very simple (though deeply felt).
sometimes those three words are manifested into simple actions. tucking your hair behind your ear while he looks at you calmly. helping you with your necklaces and leaving a kiss at the back of your neck after he connects the hooks. driving you to work even when itâs out of the way.
when he notices youâre feeling anxious and your hands start to twitch, immediately taking them in his own and peppering kisses until you calm down.
even remembering the tiniest details about yourself that you almost forgot until he reminds you himself.
then one day it just falls out of his lips so smoothly. in the middle of a tickle fight and when you both catch your breath you stop to look at one another for a brief moment.
âi love you.â he says with a smile while his chests continued to rise and fall.
that you kept asking him to repeat it over and over while the tips of his ears get redder by the second. (you trapped him against the headboard too)
still, his actions always proved more than those three words. you never thought you could feel something thatâs even beyond love, beyond devotion.
it was entirely all possible because of your katsuki.
do not copy, plagiarize, translate, or repost my works
note : not proofread obviously sorry for the mistakes i wrote this bc idk it just fell out of me ><
#bnha fluff#mha fluff#bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugou x reader#bakugou katsuki x reader#katsuki x reader#katsuki bakugou fluff#katsuki bakugo fluff#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugo x reader#bakugou fluff#bakugou katsuki fluff#bakugo fluff#my hero academia fluff#ጞִâ â¤ď¸ by cola
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hello! may u please take my request? :) âĄ
rafe cameron and reader are at a party and she starts acting bratty and telling him to go away and shoving him off and then he leans down and whispers in her ear to tell her to meet him in the bathroom for a spanking as punishment but she tells him no and that they should just do jt at home and then he smirks and leans down again saying that if they do it at home he'll make it 10x rougher, then he leaves, giving reader no choice as he watches her from afar with a smirk as she nervously chips on her nail and bouncing her leg. also can u write the smut punishment (edging)
brat.
pairing â rafe cameron x fem!reader
word count â 2.4k
warnings â smut minors dni â raw sex (wrap it up yâall), rafe edges the fuck out of reader, crying due to edging, p in v, oral (f rec), creampie đŤŁ, uhhh, dirty talk, little bit of after care.
synopsis â at a party on figure 8, you begin testing rafeâs patience with your attitude. heâs not the type to let shit slide, and youâre in for a long night.
notes â HOT HOT HOT woah now i ate with this i think⌠thanks for the request anon! sorry it took so long i hope this makes up for it tho đ
the first time, rafe had to admit, it was cute. but by the third and fourth, he knew you were doing it on purpose. consistently teasing him by letting your ass glide against the thin fabric of his shorts as you passed in front of him, or the winks you shot his way over the rim of your cup. he wasnât mad, per se, just frustrated.
rafe knew you were riling him up, and he knew that it was working. however, he wasnât ready to leave, the two of you had only been at the party for a total of an hour.
rafe also knew that the more alcohol went into your system, the more you would tease him. and he was right, the longer it took for you to get your way with him, the more horny you felt and the more you pushed.
you finally found a moment where he was away from his friends, using that as your opportunity to whisper into his ear, âbaby, when are we leaving?â
ânot now,â he cuts a semi-menacing glare at you, âiâm not ready yet.â
you groan, making a face at him, âbut babe!â
âno,â he affirms again, ânot leaving now. youâre just gonna have to keep it in your pants for a little longer sweetheart.â
now you were frustrated, brows furrowed and eyes squinted at him. âseriously?â
âyeah,â he huffs back at you, ânow stop teasing me.â
âor what? what are you gonna do about it?â
rafe looks at you like his next meal, âoh no, no, iâm not playing this game with you right now.â
âugh, youâre no fun,â you roll your eyes.
you knew you were getting to him, but you also were fully aware that rafe would never let you be in control, especially not when you were acting like such a brat.
he leans down to give you a kiss, face hardening when you weave away from it at the last second, a mischievous grin plastered across your face. he takes a deep breath and tries again; this time grabbing your face as he does so. you wrench your chin from his grasp, dodging his kiss yet again.
âyou being forreal right now?â heâs not hurt, that much is obvious, but you can see the mild anger building behind his gaze. âgive me a kiss.â
âyou can get a kiss when we leave,â you cross your arms childishly, turning your face away from him as you begin to walk away.
he grasps your bicep firmly, pulling you back and into his chest, âmeet me in the bathroom.â
ânope, iâll wait till we get home,â you raise a brow at him, almost as if you were challenging him.
âoh, baby, you wonât like it if you wait till we get home, itâll be a hell of a lot worse.â
he grips your chin again, this time using his grasp to place a sweet kiss on your forehead before he leans down to the crook of your neck, his breath hot against your skin, lighting up each and every nerve in the area.
âmeet me in the bathroom. now.â
you watch, wetness pooling in your panties as you watch him flash a grin over his shoulder while he makes his way up the stairs. you debate internally whether or not you should follow him, but youâve dealt with rafeâs punishments before, and the last time was fairly recently, you werenât sure if you could handle another severe one again just yet.
you quickly scurried up the stairs and down the hallway, eyes scanning back and forth until you find the bathroom.
you take a deep breath, ruffle your hair, and pull your hand from your mouth; a nervous tick youâd picked up as a child, constantly watching your dad mimic the same motion when he was nervous. you knew it was bad, that biting at your cuticles and nails was a big no-no at your age, especially being in a relationship with the king of the kooks. but you couldnât help it, it was one of those seemingly unbreakable habits that was instilled in you at such an early age. and you figured there could be worse habits to have, so you didnât do much to quit.
you let your knuckles rap against the hollow core door two sharp times, a signal to rafe to open the door, which he does almost immediately.
he beckons you in wordlessly, watching you squirm in place as you lean up against the bathroom counter. âhiya, rafey,â you huff out in a nervous laugh.
âhiya, baby,â he shoots a wolfish grin at you as he moves toward you, removing his rings and watch, setting the gold items inside of his hat atop the counter. âtake your panties off and flip, angel.â
you follow the instructions, lip pinched between your teeth as you do so. you watch him in the mirror, his tight shirt making his muscles pop in the dim lighting. he looks down the neckline of your low-cut dress, his cock growing hard at the sight of your tits dangling against the soft fabric.
rafe drags his hands up the insides of your thighs as he uses his foot to spread them, a quiet gasp flying from your lips at the sudden movement.
âgotta stay quiet, baby, can you do that for me?â
you nod at him quickly, your pussy clenching and dripping just at the sound of his voice, much less everything else he was doing at the moment.
he flips the bottom of your dress up onto your back, leaving your mostly-bare ass out in the open for him to admire. rafe drags his hands across it slowly, fingers tracing the roundness of your cheeks. âyouâre so pretty, sweetheart, every part of you is just fuckinâ gorgeous.â
you canât help but blush at his words, dropping your head for a moment before picking it back up to watch him in the mirror.
âi hope you wore your good mascara tonight,â he laughs lowly, watching as you gulp at the implication.
rafe pulls your panties down and out from around your ankles, placing them along with his jewelry inside of his hat. he uses one hand to pull you a couple steps backward, your legs still spread as he angles you just how he wants you; pussy on full view for him to do whatever he wants.
he begins by slowly trailing his fingertips through your wetness, letting them glide through your folds and around your clit ever so lightly. the gentle sensation already has you breathing heavily, your hands clasped in front of you, gripping each other tightly.
rafe continues that motion for a few more moments before really focusing in on your clit, rubbing it in the way he knows you love the most. he builds up your climax, almost to the point of bursting, and then pulls away quickly, watching the realization flow over your face.
he was going to edge you to the point of tears, that was your punishment for acting like a brat all night, you finally understood, part of you kicking yourself with anticipated frustration while the other part of you felt nothing but excitement.
he flips you over, allowing you to sit atop the counter while he kneels between your open legs, your knees hooked over his shoulders. he starts by kissing long, slow kisses beginning at your knees and eventually trailing their way up to your sensitive area, his lips pressing up against everything except for where you want them the most. where you need them the most.
you were already horny before you even entered the bathroom, hence all the teasing and games youâd been playing all night, but now you were on a whole other level of horniness.
rafe waits until you're far past the point of squirming in your seat before giving your pussy a quick lick, letting his tongue swirl around your clit for a moment before pulling away, his eyes watching the look on your face fall back into a deep level of frustration.
ârafe,â you whine softly, brows furrowed desperately. âplease, baby.â
âplease, what? you get to tease me for over an hour and i donât even get five minutes? thatâs pathetic, baby.â
you groan at his words, knowing heâs nowhere near giving into your needs.
âyou did this to yourself, just keep that in mind, angel.â
you huff softly, the sound caught in your throat when he latches back onto your sopping wet cunt, practically making out with it as you throw your head back in relief. he grips your thighs, letting the tips of his fingers dig into the flesh as he alternates between open mouthed kisses and intricate licks, waiting for the signs of an incoming climax.
you wonder if heâs going to let you cum, or if you can let one slip past him before he notices, but he knows your body better than you do, pulling away as soon as he knows youâre mere seconds away from hitting that point.
he repeats that process a few more times, bringing you to the brink of cumming four more times before standing between your legs, his lips coated in your juices as he grips the back of your hair, gripping it while he pulls you in for a kiss. âyou taste yourself, baby? taste so fucking sweet, i just canât get enough.â heâs almost breathless now, his eyes glossy with lust and his hair unkempt from your hands gripping and tugging on the golden strands.
he notices the tears that have welled up on your waterline, your chest heaving and your expression full of pure desperation.
rafe unzips and unbuttons his shorts, letting them fall around his ankles as he pulls you a little closer to the edge of the counter. he releases his cock from his boxers. heâs big, his dick full of veins and his tip leaking precum. he lets the tip glide through your folds gently, lets it swirl around your clit while he kisses you, his cock throbbing in his hand at the desperate sounds you breathe into his mouth.
your hips jolt forward when you feel his tip barely breach your hole, hoping that the movement would be enough to feel him inside of you, a whine falling from your lips when rafe pulls back, giving you a look. âyou want me to keep going?â
a tear glides down your cheeks at his words, âno, no, please, rafey, i need it.â
âwhat? what do you need, baby?â
âi need you, i need you inside me,â you whimper, praying it's enough for him.
âwhat, like this?â he sticks two fingers inside of you, pumping them in and out quickly, curling them at the ends so his finger tips brush against your g-spot. your eyelids flutter at the feeling, a frown washing over your lips when he pulls them away. he sucks the juices off of his pointer finger before putting his other finger in your mouth. âspeak up, sweetheart, tell me what you need.â
âi need to feel you, feel you fuck me,â youâre truly on the verge of real tears here, âplease, rafe, please fuck me, i canât take it anymore.â
he flashes that tell-tale grin at you, one hand gripping your hip roughly as the other guides his cock back into your hole, âwhatever you want, baby.â
you gasp when he finally bottoms out inside of you, the tip of his dick brushing up against the deepest part inside of you. one hand grips the edge of the counter, the other one grasps the back of his neck as you pull him closer. the hand he used to guide himself into you moves to hold one of your legs up to his hip, the other gripping your ass tightly. he thrusts in and out harshly, breathing heavily as he feels you clench tightly around him.
âfeels so fucking good inside this pussy, baby,â he groans softly into your ear, âthis is my fucking pussy.â
âyea,â you moan quietly, âit's all yours baby, just for you.â
he continues thrusting, knowing that your climax will come crashing down at any moment after all the edging he put you through, and he canât wait for it. he moves the hand that was gripping your ass to your clit, letting his fingers drag over the sensitive nub gently but quickly.
you grip the back of his neck even tighter, pulling him as close as possible. you can feel a scream building in the back of your throat at the upcoming climax, knowing that you canât let it escape. so the only logical thing you can think of at that moment, your brain practically fried from the mixture of his endless edging from earlier and now amazingly good sex, is that the only way to keep quiet is to sink your teeth into his shoulder. heâs wearing a black shirt, so you know it wonât show, but even if it would you didnât really have another backup plan.
rafe fucks you like a wild animal until you cum, his fingers still gliding over your clit as your body tenses, teeth digging into his shoulder. he throws his head back at the combination of your pussy practically swallowing him whole, clenching around him so tightly heâs sure his poor dick has suffocated inside of you, and the harsh feeling of your teeth. the cluster of feelings sends him spiralling into his own climax, hips stuttering as he fills you up, cum spurting deep into you.
the two of you rest for a moment, holding each other as you both breathe heavily. he plants a gentle kiss to your forehead before pulling out and grabbing a handful of toilet paper to wipe up the mixture of cum that begins leaking from your hole almost immediately. he gives you your panties back and pulls his own boxers and shorts back up, adjusting his appearance in the mirror next to you. âi love you, baby,â he whispers softly as he watches you go through similar motions, taking a different piece of toilet paper, wetting it as you wipe at your face, c;eaning up the places your mascara ran from the tears.
âi love you,â you smile at him, turning to plant a sweet kiss against his cheek, âthat was fun.â
âyea, it was,â he laughs quietly, âyou feel better now?â
âoh yea,â you nod, heart fluttering as he wraps his arms around you, pulling you in for a tight hug.
he holds you for a moment, hand rubbing your back softly before leaning back to look at you once more. ânow, letâs get back to that party and get fucked up, what do you say?â
âiâm so down, babe,â you smile, fingers interlocked with his as he leads you out of the bathroom after checking to make sure the coast is clear in the hallway.
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Arcane Characters Hand Headcanons
Pairing: Jinx, Vi, Caitlyn, Maddie, Ekko, Vander, Silco, Sevika, Viktor, Jayce, Mel x Reader
Tags: fluff, size difference, hand-holding, scars, bruises, hand comparison, cuddles
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A/N: I remember there was a post where an artist drew the hands and made some headcanons in their drawings but I don't remember who the artist was. But that was my inspiration for this.
JINX
Long and skinny fingers
Lots of calluses from tinkering with her weapons
A strong grip because of the Shimmer
If looking at her hands in the dark you can see Shimmer running through her veins
Has to constantly be told to be careful when working because she has no concept of safety and has come close to losing more fingers
VI
Her hands are really rough all over
bruises on her knuckles that never seem to heal because she's always fighting
A few bones have been broken over the years and healed haphazardly
Gets he biggest puppy-dog eyes if you take her hands and kiss each finger paying special attention to the bruises
You're the only one she trusts to help her wrap and unwrap her hands every day
CAITLYN
A lot of calluses on her hands, especially her fingers
She's been shooting with a riffle since she was young so the pads of her fingers are tougher than the rest of her hand
The skin on the pads if her fingers is hardened
Likes to wear gloves, which you will say is a shame
Knows you like her hands a lot, but she has a better grip on her guns with the gloves on
MADDIE
Her hands are dusted with little freckles
A bit small, perfect for hand-holding actually
Can crack her knuckles and she doesn't even realize she does it most of the time
Many faded scars from her time growing up and training in Noxus
Refuses to elaborate when you notice how scared her hands are, but if she gets to know you well enough and trusts you she might share a story or two
EKKO
Because he's always working his hands are really rough and even have a few burn marks
There are more than a few broken bones in his hands
Never healed well because he refuses to take Shimmer and it's a bit difficult to find good doctors in Zaun
Habit of tapping his fingers against surfaces, even your arm or back while you cuddle
To keep your relationship on the down-low he often holds your pinkie finger with his
VANDER
His hands are huge compared to yours, you have to use both to hold one of his
The strength he has could crush a man if he tried
Definitely a working man's hands, you can tell he's never skipped a work day in his life
Long faded scratches on his arms and wrists
Still enjoys punching things and has a big punching bag in his room, but he often forgets to wrap his hands, which makes them a bit bloody after
SILCO
For someone in Zaun he takes pretty good care of his hands
Cold compared to yours, like his body temperature isn't quite where it needs to be
Skinny, long fingers but he will paint his nails if you or Jinx ask him to
Takes care of himself so he never has dry hands despite how they look
Always places his hand over yours, it's a protective and possessive habit
SEVIKA
She only has one human hand left but she's reckless with that one too
Always fights so you always help her patch up the bruises and clean the blood
Marks from tearing off scabs or making them bleed again
Usually has a hard grip but softens it for you
Has a few ash burns from her cigarette, she doesn't always move it away in time
VIKTOR
He grew up in Zaun and then threw himself in lab work so he's not the best at taking care of his hands
Skinny, almost boney hands
Has a habit of biting his nails when he's thinking about something
Broke his fingers and wrists more than a few times
You always tell him to wear gloves but he never does, not because he doesn't think he shouldn't but because he doesn't remember
JAYCE
Big, meaty, rough hands, very strong
He always wears gloves when he works, be it the lab or the forge
And yet he still gets that slightly rougher skin, not fully though because he's really careful
Uses hand lotion when he finishes working, it's what makes his skin extra soft
Won't admit that he does it but when you hold hands he's doing math in his head and comparing the hand sizes
MEL
If she didn't tell you then you would have never guessed she grew up in Noxus because her hands are so smooth
Her hands are delicate, with really well manicured nails
Only when you look really close can you see just a few, very tiny cut marks but they're almost completely faded away
Enjoys getting hand massages from you and you complimenting her hands
Tickles you when she runs her nails across your skin
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lost and found - toji x reader x sukuna
chapter 7: sukunas roommate
summary: sukuna brings you to his apartment so things donât escalate with gojo and geto, there you meet his roommate.
* ooc, toji is shameless, crack, MDNI (a bit suggestive), NOT proof read đ, lowkey i just am making the plot as i go sorry if it doesnât make sense anymore i like adding random plot twists đ
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âum. if you donât mind me asking⌠why is your roommates contact image frankie from shark tales?â you said between breathless giggles. you were too giggly to worry if the text you sent from sukunas phone sounded like sukuna or not. from the way he texted you, you assumed dry and cold. you hoped you pulled it off.
you were a giggling mess. this was so stupid. this huge, scary guy gave you his phone- willingly- to text his roommate youâd be coming over, and his profile picture is frankie from shark tales??? is sukuna secretly really funny?
your giggles seemed to be contagious, as sukuna couldnât help but chuckle too. only chuckle, never actually laugh. you didnât know why.
âhe kinda looks like him. itâs a joke my friend uraume and i have.â
uraume? youâve heard that name before. was it from the argument between shoko and geto? you think so.
that would make sense, actually.. you began to realize, your five brain cells working together to piece that shoko wasnât the one to get sukuna to beat up gojo- but uraume.
you just giggled in response, looking down at the phone with curiosity by how much this man- toji, was blowing up his phone.
âshould i-â you were about to ask if you should respond to him, but sukuna was quick to shake his dead. âdonât.â
you nodded, biting your lip once more. you didnât know how to respond to him, unsure if he was mad at you.
you took once glance at his stoic face, a flash of something mean in his eyes. for the millionth time this night, you curled into yourself, self conscious it was your doing to make him so mad.
sukuna is always sensing your discomfort. it made you feel bad for being so sensitive, and when he turned to give you a small, reassuring smile, your worry drowned away.
you were curious to what toji was saying, the phone was still buzzing with notifications from his number⌠was toji mad that sukuna was bringing you home on such short notice? or- oh no- what if he thought you two were hooking up?!
you mustâve been blushing furiously, because sukuna asked you if you were hot. you lied, telling him you were as an excuse, and without second thought he turned the ac on full blast.
you sat in silence for the rest of the ride, comfortable silence. you were fiddling with your phone, anxiously waiting for a text from gojo or geto, but it never came, much to your satisfaction.
when you arrived, sukuna stepped out of the car. âstay in here for a moment, i just have to call my roommate.â you nodded, noticing the way he locked his car after departing to call toji. did he seriously trust you to not steal his car right now? not that you were going to, but wow, he held a lot of faith in you!
sukuna groaned as he texted toji, a stressed hand running down his face. no way this douche just asked if she was single. he grumbled to himself as he hit tojiâs contact and called him.
âyo,â toji spoke, his speech muffled around whatever food he was chewing.
âdonât be weird,â sukuna immediately said, voice cold. âiâm bringing her up now.â
before toji could retort, sukuna hung up. he didnât want you to think he was taking too long.
moving to the passenger side door, sukuna unlocked his car and took your hand gently, âyou okay?â he asked, voice gruff, as if he wasnât sure how to sound friendly.
âmhm.â you nodded, âthank you for letting me stay tonight,â you smiled sheepishly, taking his hand with an appreciative smile and stepping out.
sukuna had to look away to hide his creeping blush.
âmy roommates name is toji.â he began a conversation as he lead you up the complexâs multitude of stairs. âheâs fucking stupid, just ignore him.â
you just giggled in response, nervous yet oddly excited to meet this toji.
when you reached his door, sukuna opened the door for you. you didnât expect him to be such a gentleman, considering his appearance. maybe it was wrong to judge a book by its cover.
âhey,â a surprisingly deeper voice called out, though it held more emotion than sukunas did.
âhi,â you waved shyly when you caught a glimpse of his roommate. you remember him from your psychology class. sukuna was right, he does kinda look like frankie from shark tales. you stifled a giggle.
toji immediately cracked a smirk at your shy behavior. it felt somewhat predatory⌠you didnât know if you should be scared or turned on.
sukunas arm snaked around your waist, pulling you in the moment tojiâs eyes wandered over your figure. he shot toji a warning glare, as if to silently say, sheâs off limits.
but toji didnât play fair, sukuna knew that.
âyou brought home a pretty lil thing,â toji spoke mischievously, clearly trying to egg sukuna on. you blushed furiously at the comment, unsure if you should say thank you or stay silent.
âi told you toji, itâs not like that.â sukuna sighed, his grip around your waist tightening.
âlooks like it,â toji whistled, glancing between your waist and his hand.
you shook your head, stammering slightly as you spoke, âno, no. heâs just⌠helping me out, tonight. i wonât be here again, iâm sorry.â
sukuna was about to scold you for apologizing, telling you thereâs no need to and he invited you, but toji beat him to it.
âdonât apologize. iâd like to see you here again, under different circumstances.â he shot you a wink that had your knees weak.
you didnât want to question what those âdifferent circumstancesâ were, but you were sure he was flirting.
sukuna growled, again. that same noise that had you both terrified and aroused.
âdonât say that shit,â he groaned, hitting tojiâs shoulder. sukuna took your hand, practically yanking you along with him.
âlike i said, ignore him.â he spoke, you could practically hear the way he gritted his teeth. he looked⌠jealous.
you just nodded, still bright red as you hummed along. âmhm.â
âdo you need to take a shower?â sukuna asked, leading you to the bathroom. you smiled appreciatively, âthat would be nice.â
though, walking into the menâs shared bathroom, you realized it would in fact not be nice. six in one? was this even legal? this couldnât be fda approved.
you desperately wished you had your strawberry tree hut body scrub, your precious shampoo and conditioner, and at least a bar of soap! youâd also like some exfoliator and moisturizer, but they werenât needs.
you have sukuna a âreally?â look, and, for the first time that night, he actually laughed.
âokay, order whatever you need.â he said, tossing you his phone as if it belonged to you.
âhuh?â you blinked, eyes wide as you stared at him incredulously.
âmy cards linked, just get what you need.â he spoke casually, as if this was normal.
you were about to reject his offer, tell him you could pay, but toji (of course) came in to ruin the moment.
âoh doll? you still showering? can i join?â he spoke, his voice low and flirtatious as he didnât wait for a response, simply waltzing in. you didnât know what made you blush more, the nickname or his obvious intentions of wanting to fuck.
sukuna looked like he was going to kill a man. that man being toji.
âohhh i see, youâre already showering with sukuna. iâm sure you can make room for three.â
you choked on a laugh. even if you were interested (which, maybe you were. a little). the thought of both of these men in the same dinky shower together was hilarious. no way would there be room with even just the two of them, nevermind you.
âwhatâs so funny, dollface?â
âtoji.â
sukunas voice had an edge to it you only heard once. when you told him about gojo and getos plans to intercept them in the car.
toji looked a bit taken aback, a scowl on his face now, mirroring sukunas.
âyouâre no fun.â toji said after sizing his roommate up, leaving the bathroom, not without slamming the door. how petty.
you bit your lower lip, glancing between sukuna and the door that was just slammed in their faces.
âsorry about him.â sukuna spoke up, sighing. âbuy whatever you want. donât worry about how much it is.â
you frowned, âiâm going to send you the money back either way. besides, i use a lot of products, so itâll hurt your wallet if i didnât pay you back.â you laughed, trying to lighten the mood after whatever the fuck just happened.
âiâd rather it hurt my wallet than yours. just get whatever you usually use, i donât care.â
and with that, sukuna left the bathroom. now you were all alone in two strangers apartment, stuck in the bathroom with one of their phones.
you didnât know how someone could be so nice yet so cold at the same time. it was like he was a walking contradiction. was he upset with toji?
you could tell him you didnât care, because truthfully you didnât. yea, it definitely flustered you a bit (a lot), but itâs not like it made you feel unsafe.
you looked for your typical items, soap, body wash, shampoo, and conditioner. sure, youâd love to have a body scrub, exfoliator, and moisturizer too, but you didnât want to kill this poor guys wallet.
you opted for cheaper options, though still finding things with your signature strawberry scent.
you felt a bit guilty as you checked out for delivery. you should probably pay back sukuna some how- for giving you a ride, a place to stay for the night, and free shower products.
when you exited the bathroom to return sukunas phone, he was nowhere to be seen. neither was roommate, toji.
this was even more awkward than hiding in their bathroom, you thought.
was it rude to sit on their couch uninvited? you wondered, plopping yourself down regardless. you noticed netflix was still open, whoever was watching was halfway through the first season of squid games.
you fiddled with sukunas phone, impatiently waiting for either of the two boys to come back so you didnât feel so awkward. though a notification from your phone made you jump, quickly settling down sukunas phone to check yours.
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âTIGERâ - (joe burrow x reader)
description: while taking a bath with joe, you made an important discovery. he has stretch marks! (i wrote this after discovering that joe has stretch marks 𼚠heâs so lovely)
word count: 708
warnings: fluff, sharing a bath, joe is kind of touched deprived.
it had been a busy day for both you and joe. you had some work you had to get done, and joe had practice. there really wasnât anything the both of you wanted more than to enjoy a relaxing bath and chat about your day together.
the both of you liked to call it your ânightly debriefingâ. joe would talk about how practice went and any funny moments, while you shared some gossip and what your day was like at work.
joe started the water, running his hands beneath the rapid stream to check itâs temperature for the both of you. one the temperature was what you both desired, he put in the stopper, letting you add the body soap. you opted for a warm vanilla scent, compared to lavender.
the both of you stepped into the tub once the water finished filling it up, sinking into the warm, soapy water. joe looked at you fondly, shuffling over to you a bit.
ây/n, babe,â he asks, looking at you with a slight pleading look, âcould you massage my back, please?â
âof course, joey.â you answered, nodding and beckoning joe to come closer and turn around.
when he does, your delicate hands run over his frame, kneading and working out any knots. a soft grin formed onto your lips as you heard him relax; he was always one of the most hardest working people youâve ever known, and he deserved to have time to be calm and not feel stressed.
as you continue massaging him, you stop, a faint gasp escaping your lips.
joe had stretch marks. the most beautiful ones youâd ever seen, really. all of the lines on his back and shoulders stood out against his skin, soft and uneven, like ripples in sand after a wave. you figured they were from him working out a lot and bulking up quickly.
âwhatâŚ?â joe questioned, noticing your gasp and the pause in your movement.
âyouâŚyou have stretch marksâŚâ you murmured fondly.
joe chuckled, the sound rumbling his body a bit underneath your hands. âyeah, i do. itâs no biggie,â he shrugs, relaxing as you begin massaging him again, âwhen you gain muscle really quickly, that kind of thing tends to happen.â
you smiled, nodding as a soft hum came from you. your hands drew gentle circles around the scars as you stared at them lovingly. theyâre so beautiful. heâs beautiful. you loved every single inch of joe, and the fact that he had stretch marks made him imperfectly perfect.
âtheyâre cute,â you cooed softly, leaning down and pressing a soft kiss onto his shoulder where the marks were, âtheyâre likeâŚtiger stripes,â you giggled as you traced over the marks with your finger softly.
âtiger stripes, huh?â joe laughed, partially due to the ticklish sensation of your finger, and your words, âwhat, so iâm a tiger now?â
âmhm,â you agreed, continuing to pepper his shoulders and back in kisses. you pulled back for a moment, taking a warm look at his skin and making it your mission to commit it to memory, âyouâre big, strong, kind of intimidating, and beautiful.â
joe shook his head at your words, sighing as you continued massaging his body. you always praised joe, both for his skills and physical traits. he found it sweet; he could have the most mundane mole or scar, and you treated it like a piece of art.
he leaned into your touch, his eyes fluttering shut for a small moment in relaxation. with a smile, leans back, putting a decent bit of weight on you, but not too much; he didnât want to crush you.
you could tell he was feeling a bit touch deprived, but you didnât mind. it was easy for you to tell that he was having a moment where he just wanted to be held. so, you leaned back against the tub, wrapping your arms around him with a smile.
ây/n?â joe asked, opening his eyes as he felt you rest your head onto his shoulder.
you perk up a little, âmhm?â you ask, looking at him warmly.
âi love you.â he sighed.
with a softened gaze, you run a thumb against his scarred skin with admiration and profound care.
âi love you too, tiger.â
#joe burrow#joe burrow fic#bengals#cincinnati bengals#joe brrr#joe burrow x oc#joey b#joey burrow#nfl#joe burrow blurb#blurb
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Hi, can I hijack this post to rant about Loki?
Yes? Good.
Ok so hereâs the thing, yk how some age-math places Loki as the human equivalent of 16, but in cannon heâs very much treated as an adult character? Now, tangent time: the implication here is obviously that Aesir development canât be so simple mapped onto human ages via simple division, and how an Asgardian character looks/acts/is treated is a much better marker of their âhuman ageâ than any math, not that Loki was secretly a teenage the whole time. THAT BEING SAID I have read quite a few fics where Loki is actually a teenager in the canon events and how that influences how other characters treat him after the fact- usually coupled with Odinâs A+ parenting and Loki become friends with Shuri and Peter- which is very adorable and I fucking LOVE these fics, and I think it makes a lot of sense, and makes for some of the funniest shit Iâve ever read.
I am also a Frostiron shipper.
Frostiron works because on one side thereâs a huge developmental age gap, and on the other thereâs a huge literal age gap. Because Loki is a thousand year old twenty something, him falling in love with a forty/fifty year old mortal is much more palatable than- for example- vampire fiction where a teenage girl falls in love with a hundred year old vampire who looks like a teenage boy, because instead of a teenage girl, itâs an older middle aged billionaire superhero. On the flip side, itâs not like Loki is one of those thousand year old dragon princess middle schoolers that anime loves so much- major ick btw. Even tho heâs young, for Loki this just means that he still has a lot of life ahead of him, not that heâs in any way naive or lacking in competence. In fact, itâs the opposite, Loki is extremely worldly, and key concept here, adult.
If you take away Lokiâs worldliness, his experience and otherworldly air of maturity, you create an entirely different picture of Loki. Teenage!Loki and Frostiron!Loki are two vastly different interpretations of him- almost two different characters depending on how immature the author in question chooses to write the former.
Anyway, idk where I was really going my with this, but I guess the moral of the story is that you donât gotta commit to one version of a character to enjoy. Rejoice in Steve and Buckyâs platonic, brotherly bond and then go read a fic where theyâre deeply and hopelessly in love, why the fuck not? And hell, be a multishipper! Or not! Who cares?
People donât understand the concept of liking two charactersâ relationship in multiple contexts. They can be lovers in one setting and just friends in another, their dynamic doesnât have to be consistent in every piece of art I make.
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You can run but you can't hide
Author: bvidzsoo
Pairing: vampire hunter!Jeong Yunho x vampire!female reader
đŹ Warning: rather suggestive, gore, blood, violence, death, murder, lot's of blood drinking, manhandling, toxic relationship, lots of hate ngl, maybe some medical inaccuracies, slight power dynamic? đŹ Word count: 25.8k đŹ Rating: mature đŹ Genre: vampire x vampire hunter romance, enemies to lovers, they've known each other for centuries, modern time setting, doctor!reader, cop!Yunho, smut, angst đŹ Summary: You thought your life ended with your sister's, but then you realised there was nothing sweeter than revenge. Finding the vampire hunter who had killed your sister proved to be easier than you had first anticipated, but you changed your plans last minute. Walking away after turning him into a vampire wasn't your smartest move, and you'd learn to profusely regret it.
A/N: Oh my, oh my, lovelies I'm back! Starting off the new year with this monster of a oneshot? Yup, this took me like two weeks to write, and I hope it's good and that you'll love it! ^^ I'm working on a Mingi mini-series, so look out for that! Let me know if I didn't tag something, and let me know what you thought of this piece! I appreciate your feedback lots. <3 I hope y'all had a lovely weekend, and honestly, huge shootout to @spiralala because if they didn't send in that ask, this oneshot wouldn't exist lmao, so if you read this, I hope you enjoy it! Man, my gallery is a shrine of Yunho performing that Oz thingy, istg I have a problem but he looked so hot that day ugh...see y'all again soon! ^^ divider
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           There was nothing more pleasant than hearing the writhing manâs moans on the floor, his eyes rolled to the back of his head as he clutched his forearm. His face was bruised from the blows he had taken prior, blood dripping from the corner of his mouth as his smooth light blue velvet suit was all muddy and torn. The violin in the distance created a haunting ambivalence with the rattling wind, chilling you down to the boneâŚif you could feel it. I circled the man, his left hand still tightly clutching his silver stake, and a malicious chuckle tumbled past my lips. He looked pathetic laying in his own pool of blood, his pride not letting him beg for his lifeâŚyet. I could make any man beg; he wasnât different. Once the venom started spreading through his bloodstream, heâd be screaming for me to put him out of his misery. If he begged nicely, I might make his demise quicker than planned.
âLook at you,â I snarled, lips curling into a disgusted smile as he blindly whacked his hand out, trying to aim for me uselessly, âSo pathetic, so frail, soâŚhuman. Werenât those serums supposed to make you strong?â
The man heaved a sharp breath, his eyes snapping open. They were hazy and painted with pain, but the fire was still rampant in them, furious, and so ready to wreak havocâŚif only he could, âIâm-Iâm going toâughâI will kill you, monster.â
âYeah? You will?â I chuckled, giving his torso a good kick, making the man cry out in pain. He tried to pull his legs to his chest, still gripping his silver stake, sweat beading his bruised face. He breathed through his mouth, his right hand convulsing as his jaw clenched, âWhen? Are you sure you can do that right now, darling?â
âDonâtââ But he couldnât speak as a yell tore through his lips, his whole face going beat red as he trashed around on the cold forest floor. The leaves had long died, and snow was supposed to fall anytime. I watched as the man tried to regain some sanity, but his veins started blackening. The venom was spreading, once it reached his heart, he was a gone man.
âDonât what?â I hissed, grabbing the layers of my skirt and bunching them up so that I could crouch down next to him. He tried stabbing at me pathetically, barely able to lift his arm anymore, so I kicked the stake out of his hand, sending it flying into the tree closest to us. It stuck into it, my jaw clenched as I watched it, wondering just how many of my fellow vampiresâ lives it had taken. The man at my mercy was a vicious hunter, the best in their coven, and he had taken my sisterâs life. He deserved no mercy nor forgiveness, and none would be given to him tonight. He had messed with the wrong vampire, I shall not stop until my sister is avenged, âIâve dreamed of this moment, hunter. Want to know why?â
He spluttered words intangibly, and I gripped his thick black hair to yank his head back. His eyes flew open and he tried to trash away from me, but the venom had his body mobilized, âYou think I donât know?â
His words were barely a whisper, his throat no doubt on fire. His sheer willpower was impressive, others wouldâve already succumbed to the excruciating pain. My eyebrows furrowed slightly, curious as much as confused. How could a mere mortal hold on for so long? I wouldâve found it impressive if it was anyone else.
âYeri.â The utterance of my sisterâs name brought a painful stab to my frozen heart as if I was the one stabbed to death by the vampire hunter at my mercy. Her name leaving his lips felt like a sin, it made bile rise in my throat as my hands started shaking, paralyzing anger streaming through my bloodstream. He had no right saying her name, his smug smile despite the painful wince burned into the back of my mind. I moved fast without thinking, gripping his jaw into a crushing hold as the hunterâs eyes widened. He didnât look confident anymore, a shuddering breath left his lips as his body started trembling. My sharp nails dug into his skin to draw more blood, and I relished in the fire that burned through my body, leaving me even more hungry for revenge, for justice.
âYou know what?â I whispered through gritted teeth as our eyes bled into each otherâs, our faces mere inches away as I yanked him up effortlessly. He moaned in pain and clutched at his bleeding bite wound, his eyes slowly becoming bloodshot. Soon, he wouldnât be able to see, âI was going to kill you, to end your pathetic existence for once and for all.â
He gulped nervously, but he showed no fear on his face, making me even angrier that he was still holding out, acting like this was nothing. I wanted him to scream in pain, to beg for his life, and promise heâd do anything for me if I kept him aliveâŚbut the vampire hunter remained true to the tales told about him around campfires. He was unafraid, dedicated, focused, fierce, and unapologetic. To think he couldâve lived for another day if he hadnât fallen for my trap was almost satisfying enough. The ball was beautiful, people inside the castle were drunk, causing mayhem to their liking. The hunter had been part of the celebrating people before I managed to lure him away, far away from any prying eyes. He was strong and had managed to cut me here and there in our tousle, but it was nothing compared to the cuts I had given him. Cuts that would stay with him for eternity. I smirked, watching as life slowly drained from his once handsome face.
âBut you made me realise something, hunter,â I paused, making sure he could still hear me as his heartbeat started vanning, âLetting you die is no punishment to someone like you, itâs an honour. And I cannot let you have it after what youâve done to my sister, YunhoâŚno, I will turn you into the monster youâve hated your whole life. Iâll create something you were taught to hate, to hunt. And Iâll enjoy every single moment of it, hunter.â
Nothing but Yunhoâs widening eyes with fear and desperation couldâve given me this immense satisfaction I felt as my words dawned on him, words sputtering past his lips, intangible and breathy as he tried to grasp for his psyche. But he was far too gone to try and save himself now, and I closed my eyes to drink in the broken pleas falling off his lips, the begging and panic that coursed through his body, so delicious, so thrilling to take it all in. I bit my bottom lip as I felt my fangs shift, poking past my lip as Yunho shook his head furiously, his eyes filled with tears. Their redness blurred with his tears was almost beautiful.
âNo, donât do itâplease,Y/N, you canâtââ
âI canât?â
His screams fell to deaf ears as my fangs pierced the pale smooth skin of his neck, drinking his rich and warm bloodâŚat least what was left of it. Feeling his lax body in my arms reminded me of my sisterâs numb body, and I ignored the burning of my chest as I sucked the blood out of his system, only to replace it with a piece of mine, forever part of me for I was his creator and him my genesis.
Current time
           It had always amused me that despite all the monsters lurking in the shadows, humans never learned from their mistakes. Nighttime in a big city made no difference to the daytime, the wicked still prowled, catching the innocent in their web of lies and tricks. And due to that, the hospital never slept at night. The electronicsâ low buzz was like a constant ringing in my ears, I could hear it even when I was far away from the hectic environment. My forehead creased as I read through another file, wondering where Yeosang had gone when we still had so many patients whose data wasnât placed into our database. On a night like tonight, busier than usual, we were short on staff, so I had no choice but to help out with the administrative work if I wasnât needed in the ER. My office was far away from the hustle and bustle of the emergency room, but still close enough that I was easily reachable in case of an emergency. The clock on the wall kept ticking, and my head had started aching at some point in the night. I still haven't gotten used to the fluorescent lights and the strong smell of sanitiser even after sixty years of being in the field. I was, however, thankful that I managed to get over my bloodthirst.
I cannot say there hadnât been incidents when I had just started working as a doctor, but it was easily explainable if you knew how to cover your tracks. Besides, my coven was influential enough to get me out of trouble if I managed to mess up even after all these years of practice. I sighed and reached for my thermos, taking a sip of the salty fresh blood I had borrowed just at the beginning of my shift. Nobody would notice, there were enough blood donors daily, allowing me to take a few blood bags for myself and my coven. With the changing of times, we also had to change and accommodate to the modern world. Life was a lot easier now, and if you kept a low profile and knew the right people, staying under the radar wasnât too difficult. If there was anything I missed from the eighteen hundreds, however, it was the possibility of coming and going without anyone keeping tabs on you. Social media was a fun thing that I couldnât fully enjoy, not unless I wanted the leader of our coven breathing down my neck and locking me away for a century or two. So, empty and blank accounts were the only way to go by if I wanted to watch those stupid, but hilarious, reels that my coworkers sent to each other. Nobody was supposed to know, but I had one follower, and that was Yeosang, easily the first human I had actually grown to somehow care for.
He was adorable yet fierce, very loyal, and the hardest-working person I had come across in the few years I had been alive. But speaking of Yeosang, I glanced at the clock again and wondered if he had decided to take his much-needed break. It was close to midnight, he would usually join me at this hour and eat his meal in silence while I typed away on my computer. I pushed the glasses higher up on the bridge of my nose and focused back on my task, knowing it was best if I got this over with before the next influx of patients came. I wasnât in the mood to work afterhours tonight, our leader had come up with a new tradition solely for her own enjoyment, and I needed every wink of sleep I could get if I wanted to sit through a night of nostalgic vampires conversing about the rottenness of our current worldâŚas if we werenât part of what made it worse. The clock to my left beeped and I jumped as the door of my office suddenly slammed open, Yeosangâs frantic eyes falling on me.
âDoctor!â For such an angelic face, it would surprise everyone when they first heard his deep voice, âWe need you down, there was a shootout close by and several police officers were injured. You are needed to take care of the less serious ones.â
Well, duty calls then. I pressed the power off button of the screen and took my glasses off, closing the buttons of my white gown as I followed after Yeosang. His heart was beating fast as he dodged the few people in the hallway, hurriedly leading the way as I kept up with his pace. There was no reason for us to take the elevator, so we quickly ran down the stairs and headed for the ER, which was once again filled with patients in need.
âDoctor Bae!â The head doctor yelled once he noticed me, Yeosang and I headed over, âRoom three is yours, we will send the patient in as soon as weâve got his information noted down.â
I nodded and headed for the private rooms just past the doctor, eyes set on the third room. Yeosang ran ahead and pulled the door to the side for me, and I thanked him quietly as I rushed in to wash my hands and quickly wear clean glows. The screen on the wall beeped and I looked up at it, reading the extent of the copâs injury. He was grazed by one bullet while he needed another one taken out, stitches no doubt necessary. I nodded to myself and was about to mentally map out my actions when the door was pulled to the side and Yeosangâs comforting voice flooded the room.
âRight here, Doctor Bae will now take care of you.â The manâs back was to me, and Yeosang was already at the door, âIâll be back to assist you, Doctor, but Iâm needed at the front desk still.â
I ushered him out with a flick of my wrist, knowing that I was capable of taking care of the patient on my own. This wasnât my first time stitching up bullet wounds, besides, if the man was able to walk inside on his own, he was doing better than I had first expected. The examination room wasnât too big, so it took me barely three steps to cross over and come to a standstill in front of the patient. Mouth opening to ask for the place of the injury, I froze when my eyes finally fell on his face. The silence was eery in the room as the manâs head raised, one reddish eye staring back at me widely. His heartbeat stuttered, and his blood smelt fresh andâalive. He wasnât supposed to have a heartbeat. My mouth dropped open as my eyes ran over his face, trying to make sense of the situation. He looked the same as all those years ago. Youthful and handsome, slopping nose and pouty lips, cheeks flushed and jawline prominent. One eye, however, was hidden behind a black eye patch, his dark blue hair framing it so people wouldnât stare at him. And yet, the sight of the vampire hunter wouldnât have been so shocking if he didnât feel soâŚhuman.
Without thinking, I grabbed his chin and tilted his head back, eyes tracking his smooth neck. The bitemark was gone since it wasnât the first one on his body, long healed, yet the paleness and coldness of his skin felt familiar under my fingertips. His jaw had clenched as he yanked his head out of my grip, his expression transparent for once. He was seething, it was easy to see the hatred in his one eyeâŚanother telltale that he was a vampire, which left me confused as to why his heart was still beating.
âLook at you,â My voice was quiet, almost disbelieving as I let my eyes roam over his sturdy body, âI thought you wouldâve killed yourself once you awakened as a vampire, but no, youâre living like all those monsters you hunted.â
His jaw clenched as I smirked, something heavy settling over my chest. Was it satisfaction? Then why did I not feel any pride gazing upon him? Wasnât I supposed to feel smug and fulfilled that my creation was right in front of me? A successful transition was rare, sometimes the venom destroyed the human if they were too weak physically or mentally. I hadnât even stuck around to make sure Yunho would indeed transform into a vampire, I wasnât interested enough to see it to the end. The thought of knowing that I had made him suffer as much as I had suffered upon the loss of my sister was enoughâŚit was everything I needed. So, seeing him now, the same body and soul I had drained the life from, why wasnât I over the moon to know he had made it? That he was punished and living the nightmare I had trapped him inside of.
The shouting voices outside the room snapped me into action, I was a doctor first and foremost here, and he was my patient. I wouldâve loved watching his blood dry out of his body as I made his bullet wound worse, but I would have lost everything I had built so far. Besides, he was a vampire, that wouldnât kill him. I grabbed the hem of his leather jacket, intending to yank it off him, but suddenly long fingers were wrapped around my wrist.
âWhat are you doing?â Yunho hissed, his one eye narrowing suspiciously. I paused and raised an eyebrow.
âPatching you up, since Iâm a DoctorâŚâ I trailed off, letting it hang in the air as Yunho scoffed, his grip tightening around my wrist. It didnât hurt, but it wouldâve crushed my bone if I was a human, âWhy are you bleeding? Vampires donât bleed like this.â
But Yunho didnât answer, he just pushed off the bed, towering over me. Any vampire hunter coven wouldâve scrambled to have Yunho with them, he was practically designed to be one. Intimidatingly tall with a strong build, able to hunt and good at combat. He was fierce and fast, he was so quiet even the vampires failed to hear him coming. The serum his coven had forced him to drink only enhanced his skills, making him stronger and quicker than a human was supposed to be. He bled like any other one but his wounds healed faster, his grip was of iron, able to snap anyoneâs neck in two. I wasnât scared of him, not now, not back then. I had taken care of him once and showed him that he wasnât untouchable nor undestroyable like he was made to believe. The pure rage I had felt back then was nothing but a simmer now, but it only needed a little timber to set it off once again, destroying anything in its path.
âIâm like this because of you.â Yunho was breathing hard as he grabbed my arm with his other hand, gripping it a bit too forcefully. I didnât flinch as I stared up at him, trying to keep my satisfied smirk at bay. Provoking an irate vampire was never smart, especially not a stronger and bigger one, âIâve been looking for you, Y/N, and Iâm going to destroy you now that Iâve found you. You and your coven too.â
I chuckled cynically, grabbing his wrist to squeeze it until his hand turned blue from the loss of circulation, âOh, really, now? Is that all youâve got? An empty little threat? Iâm soââ
But I never got to finish my taunting as I was flung into the nearest wall, the breath knocked from my lungs as I collided with the strong surface. I caught myself quickly, though, and looked at Yunho unimpressed. Was this the best he got? He had done more damage as a human compared to this.
âThatâs not how you treat your doctor, Yunho, should I sedate you?â The brush of wind touched my cheek as Yunho stood in front of me once again, perhaps impressively fast. I smiled at him, crossing my arms in front of my chest, âWhy donât you sit down andââ
I gasped as my airways were constricted by a choking grip, the back of my head colliding with the wall as Yunho threw me up against it again, his fingers locked around my throat in a vice-like grip. My jaw clenched as I hissed at him, kneeling him in the groin. If this is how he wanted to play, I was going to give it to him. I kicked him in the stomach, sending him stumbling back as his eye narrowed again, darkness settling over it. I chuckled and ran towards him, throwing a punch that he easily dodged, but not so much the knee in his gut that had him groaning and hunching over. I chuckled and grabbed his hair, yanking his head back as he glared at me, âWhen will you learn that you canât defeat me?â
Instead of an answer, an elbow came up and knocked my head back by the chin, making me bite my tongue painfully so. I hissed as my fangs poked past my bottom lips, letting Yunho know that I was triggered. Before I could get it back under control together with the fire in the pit of my stomach, he grabbed me by the hair and dragged me over to the medical table, grabbing the first thing he couldâŚwhich was a scalpel that he held dangerously close to my eye.
âWhen will you stop underestimating me?â Yunho growled, and I tried to yank my head away, hands gripping the edge of the table, as one wrong move would have the scalpel in my eyeball, âIâm not a human anymore, Y/N.â
Before I could answer, the rattling of the door caught both of our attention. I sucked in a deep breath as the door started opening, Yeosangâs heartbeat pattern already familiar, âDoctor, Iâmââ
But thankfully someone called his name out before he could pull the door open, âGosh, okayâIâll be with you in a second, Doctor Bae!â
âWhoâs that little weasel?â Yunho leaned down, his hot breath hitting the side of my cheek, âYour little blood bag?â
âWatch your mouth.â I hissed and braced myself on the table as I forcefully yanked myself away and out of Yunhoâs grip, kicking the back of his knees, and making him buckle forward. He was still holding the scalpel, so I yanked it out of his hand and held it to his neck as I yanked on his hair, âHeâs a nurse, leave him alone.â
Yunho chuckled, grabbing my wrist and twisting it until I yelped, having to release him. He wasnât even phased by the sharp knife cutting into his neck, fresh blood dribbling down his neck. His scent was sweet, almost intoxicating as my mouth started salivating. But I had no time to waste as Yunho twisted around, rising to his full height, grabbing me, only to fling me into the wall on the other side of the room. The door rattled as my body collided against it and a sharp pain shot up my spine, leaving me breathless as I lay on the floor, holding myself up by my arms.
âDid the modern age make you weak, Y/N?â Yunho taunted, his lips pulled into a vile sneer as he stalked towards me. I chuckled, brushing the hair out of my eyes as I looked up at him. Before I could answer, however, the door started opening again.
âDoctor, Iââ I was up in a second, pushing the door closed and keeping it shut despite Yeosangâs struggle to open it.
âGet me gauze!â I called out, watching Yunho as he hadnât stopped advancing towards me, âFrom my office!â
âBut thatâs tooââ
âNow, Yeosang!â I shouted as Yunho snickered, grabbing me by my skull and squeezing. It wasnât enough to crush it, but I winced as I tried to kneel him in the groin again, but he was smarter this time and knocked my leg almost out from underneath me with his. Then, very predictably, I was once again flung across the room, crashing into the machines and utility metal desk, a pained groan leaving my mouth as my side started throbbing.
âDoctor Bae?â Yeosang sounded alarmed as I heard his footsteps come closer once again, âIs everythingââ
âYes! Get me that gauze, now!â I shouted again, standing up and throwing Yunho a glare. Iâve had enough. I gritted my teeth as he chuckled, stalking towards me, no doubt wanting to throw me against another wall again. The room already looked like a mess, I couldnât let him break even more expensive equipment. So, when he was close enough, I moved behind him before he could catch me, grabbing him by the hair and yanking as hard as I could as I veered him towards the examination table. I pressed his head against the cold metal and leaned forward, eyes set on the silver cutter I kept there for emergencies like this one. Yunho was trashing around like a wild animal in my hold, and I had to strain my muscles and use all the strength I had to keep him put with my body, but he thankfully went lax when the silver touched his cheek.
âYou are done, do you hear me?â I hissed close to his ear, anger seeping into my voice, âI will not let you walk into my workplace and act like an animal. If you wish to kill me, fine, you can have your way outside the hospital.â
âA vampire having a conscience?â Yunho huffed, relaxing in my hold as I pressed the silver cutter deeper into his cheek to make a point.
âTimes have changed, Yunho, but donât think I have forgotten what you did.â I hissed and he shouldered me, making me step back, my grip falling from his hair. As he whirled around to face me, his face was red, his chest rising and falling rapidly. I didnât drop the silver cutter even though it had started burning my skin too. It seems like Yunho didnât take his time to train himself with silver, the cutter had left an angry red mark on his cheek.
âOh, Iâm glad you havenât forgotten, Y/N.â He smirked, my stomach dropping, hatred blinding my mind, âI just regret not making it more painful for her, I wonder how much torture she couldâve taken beforeââ
The slap echoed in the trashed room as my chest fell and rose rapidly, my hands trembling as I tried to push the vision of Yeriâs numb body out of my mind. If I lost control in the hospital, everything would be compromised. We wouldnât be able to just leave. I couldnât let Yunhoâs presence and words shake me up so hard, I was his creator and heâd never be able to dominate meâŚitâs not how things worked. Yunho slowly turned his head, glaring at me fiercely as he suddenly grabbed his side, wincing in pain. The black fabric was soft in my hand, and as I looked back up at his face, I realised I had yanked the eye patch off his face, now two round, but sharp eyes staring back at me. The eye that he had concealed looked normal, without any faults, until I looked closer. I still remember what Yunhoâs human eyes looked like. They were a rich brown almost like dark chocolate, warm and deep, it was easy to get lost in them. And the concealed eye had remained the same as if his humanity had refused to let go of him. My eyebrows furrowed as I tried to recall having come across something like this before, but I came up empty-handed. Was he a vampire? Or was he a human?
âWhat are you?â I whispered, eyebrows furrowing as fresh blood oozed out of Yunhoâs bullet wound.
âThe monster you had created.â He hissed, his fangs suddenly flashing as he opened his mouth, his reddish eye bright under the white fluorescent light. But his heart continued to beat and his blood continued to flow, his brown eye odd against all the anomalies of his being. Before I could patch him up, however, he whirled around and stumbled towards the door, having me race after him.
âWhat are you doing?â
âI donât need your help, I can heal just like you.â
And then the door was pulled open forcefully, rattling under Yunhoâs strength. Yeosang was in the doorway, hand outstretched, and his eyes widened as he looked up at Yunho, then at me, confusion slowly overtaking his expression as he looked past us, and inside the examination room. The gauze I had asked for was in his hands, but he seemed lost for words.
âWhatâwhat happened?â He asked quietly, coming to Yunhoâs aid when he stumbled forward, trying to leave the room. Before he could speak up and say anything, I chuckled and walked back inside the room, trying to tidy up the mess we had created.
âHeâs a bit dizzy so he stumbled and fell.â Yeosang looked more confused as he held Yunho up, who was becoming paler by the second, âDonât worry, heâs okay.â
âHe doesnât look okay, though,â Yeosang muttered and veered Yunho back inside the examination room.
âJust bring me water.â Yunho croaked out as he finally lay on the table, wincing as he tried to get rid of his leather jacket. Yeosang nodded and hurried towards the bottle of water, grabbing a clean cup for Yunho.
âNow stay silent and let me fix you.â I hissed under my breath as I tore his tee apart, eyebrows furrowing at the many scars littered across his abdomen. The first bullet had grazed his ribs and the other one was ledged in an otherwise life-threatening spot, but Yunho would be fine once I had extracted it. I made sure Yeosang didnât see the second bullet as he handed Yunho his water, eyes sweeping over the room.
âIâll try and fix up this place,â He muttered under his breath, giving me a questioning gaze. I nodded before I looked back at Yunho, who had started sweating. So much for playing the tough guy, he couldnât even fix his problem without my help. But I didnât forget what he had done to Yeri, and he wasnât safe from the coven. They would hear about this, and Iâd find out what caused him to turn into this half-looking human and vampire.
           The end of my shift came with the orange sun brimming the horizon. The hospital was relatively calm once the police department left, and because we had to keep up the appearances, Yunho was advised to return in a few days to get his stitches checked. I hadnât actually stitched him up since his body was already healing by the time the bullet was out, but nobody had to know that. One look from him told me I wouldnât return to my coven if any human found out about his true nature. It was ironic, wasnât it? Having to hide amongst the creatures you once used to be, used to love and cherish. Now, there was no resemblance to the human he had once been, just the pure darkness of the creature he had succumbed to. I recognised the look in his eyes, I had stared at it many times in the mirror in the past, but for someone so desperate to preserve their humanity, it was disarming to see none of it left in him.
The sounds of the busy road became white noise as I got off the highway, the dirt road leading me far away from the lively city and deeper into the forest. A typical location for a vampire covenâs mansion, but itâs what worked best for us. Nobody bothered us here, and we didnât bother others eitherâŚwell, except for the few neighbours who shared our wish for solitude. But the houses were far paced out, we rarely saw each other. If the elderly couple had already died, I wouldnât be able to tellâŚexcept that the light was on outside their porch, and the man was having his first cup of coffee for the day ahead of him. He raised the mug in a greeting and I made sure to wave at him, wondering when was the last time I did a wellness check on them. They had no family to take care of them, so, out of generosity, I would visit them every few months to make sure they were as healthy as possible.
The mansion came in sight as I drove towards the driveway, four garage doors hiding our other luxury vehicles. I was never one to show off our unlimited wealth, but our leader had an eye for collectable pieces and wasnât shy to parade around the city with them. I parked just to the side and took a deep breath, closing my eyes as the carâs engine was killed, utter silence wrapping around me. I smelled like the sanitiser from the hospital, and my white boots were dirty from Yeosang accidentally stepping on them in his rush to help other officers once Yunho was taken care of. My wrists ached from having typed on the computer numerous patients data, but my skin was cold and smooth. I didnât have to worry about growing bloodthirsty, not for another week. The fridge inside the mansion was stuffed with blood bags, so making up another lie as to why Iâd have to check on the blood donors again wasnât necessary for a good month. I had a feeling Yeosang was growing suspicious of me, heâs been by my side for four years, and without undermining his intelligence, I doubted heâd ever figure out I was a vampire. There were few clues he could catch onto, and heâs seen me in the daylight, so he couldnât actually blame it on the fact that I only took night shiftsâŚif it came down to that and I didnât know better, I could also say he was a vampire too since he only took night shifts as well.
I flinched when I felt warmth on my face, and I blinked my eyes open, staring into the blinding rays of the rising sun. Another day had come, a new beginning for humans, and the moment to retreat for the monsters. I wondered if Yunho was capable of walking in the sun without feeling fatigued or nauseous, I wondered if he fed on blood or food like humans, and I wonderedâŚwhy he was back just now. Was it sheer coincidence we had run into each other once again? Or was it the bond that connected us, somehow always leading us to each other in the end? I sighed and grabbed my purse and keys, getting out of the car and shivering at the cool breeze of the morning. Summer was a few months away, half of my coven might leave for the time being and retreat to colder places, but I couldnât. I had a job and a life outside of being a vampire, I knew Yeosang would ask questions if I just up and left. In fact, I was more than sure heâd try to follow me. We had gone to a team dinner a long time ago, and in his drunken stupor, he had confessed that heâd follow me to the ends of the Earth because he trusted my judgment and expertise. Perhaps it was that moment which made me adore the frail human, wanting to make sure he was safe from other creatures like myself.
I locked the car and headed for the front entrance, listening to the gravel crunch underneath my boots. I could use my vampire speed, but there was something in me that wanted to enjoy the mundane things today. Itâs not like I could shut off my powers and heightened senses, but I had control over them, and it came in handy quite often. If not because I had to appear human around the humans, then for all the things that went down inside the mansion. Fifteen people werenât little nor much, but they each had needs and cravings that I honestly found no joy in overhearing anymore. Over two hundred years of housing together did that to you. For once, the mansion was silent as I entered it, locking the door after me since I knew nobody would leave the house until twilight. The property we lived on was huge, the mansion was probably capable of housing up to thirty people. I had no idea how our leader had found it, nor how she managed to convince the realtor to let us have it, but it was luxurious and somehow comfy still, I liked it. It looked a lot like those Pinterest vision boards I did for myself about a hypothetical small apartment in the heart of the city. I could leave the mansion, and step out of the motherly arms of the coven, but it wasnât that easy.
They depended on me and I needed them. All my life, the vampire one at least, they were the closest thing to a family, they were the only constant in my life. I grew and learned with them and from them, they forgave my mistakes and rarely punished me, but maybe that was because they didnât know what I had done all those years ago, in 1822. Nobody knew about Yunho anymore, the feared vampire hunter had just disappeared one day and his own coven had gone to war with ours, only to massively lose against us. Our coven had been bigger back then, some perished and others decided it was time to move on, but those who had a deep sense of loyalty and craved to belong somewhere were still here. I headed for the marble stairs, the interior just a tad bit colder than outside, my footsteps loud as I followed the stairs to the third floor, where most of our rooms were. We had maids and a few butlers, but that was only because our leader preferred blood fresh from the source, and to be honest, we were too lazy to keep the whole mansion clean, so we needed a little bit of help. The closer I got to my room, the more my stomach twisted with nerves and uncertainty. I couldnât keep Yunho a secret anymore, not when he was so close to us and a very potent threat. I could tell he still hated our kind, and I knew just because he was one of us now didnât stop him from wanting to kill us. And because he was a cop now, he could easily get rid of the coven without anyone raising any suspicions. I wished this was only about our safety, but his existence could be my sisterâs salvation.
Knowing that the wisest thing to do now was let our leader know about Jeong Yunho, I stopped in front of her door and took a deep breath, telling myself that facing punishment was good if it meant Yeri could see another break of dawn. I raised my hand and knocked against Joohyunâs door, three times in the pattern that told her I was calling for a meeting, then hurried to my room to get rid of my things. I had left my gown at the hospital, but as I walked inside my en-suite bathroom, the stench of the disinfectant was sickening, so I quickly splashed water over my face and scrubbed my hands until they were raw. I pulled my hair in a low ponytail and changed out of my tight black blouse in exchange for a comfortable sweater that felt like a shield around my body once Joohyunâs sharp eyes were to stare me down. I knew I had to do this, it was for my sister. So, I left my room and hurried towards the meeting room, one floor below, not bothering to knock since I knew everyone who needed to be inside was already there. The heavy door opened easily under my hands, giving way to the dimly lit room with a long table in the middle. The floors and walls were covered in pure marble, glimmering in the yellowy light as I eyed the vampires sitting scarcely around the table.
Sooyoung, who was our financial advisor, looked like she had just been awakened, and I knew Iâd get an earful for not letting her have her beauty sleep. Seungwan, who looked bored as her sharp nails clicked against the wooden table was busy sketching in her notebook, her hair a mess, and I wondered when was the last time she had gone to sleep. She was a renowned artist, and speculations were going around the internet that she was the reincarnation of a princess living in the 17th hundreds, her current photos compared to the paintings made of the princess. It didnât take two to guess whether she was a reincarnation or not, those inside the coven knew the truth. Then Seulgi, who was glaring at me annoyed, didnât even bother sitting down, her arms crossed over her chest. I wondered if she had ever come across Jeong Yunho without knowing his identity, she was the head chief of the police. She was probably supposed to head in right now and I was keeping her back, maybe thatâs why she was so annoyed. Lastly, our leader, Joohyun, sat at the head of the table, expression gentle as her arms rested on the massive chairâs armrest. She looked tiny in that big chair, but then again, she had always been tiny.
âWill you explain why youâve evoked us here?â Seulgi snapped, her annoyance spilling into her tone as I gulped, advancing further inside the room. Behind Joohyun, a thinly veiled curtain served as a divider. What was beyond it wouldâve made my heart race in nervousness, the lump in my throat choking if I allowed myself to miss my sister too much.
âSit down, Seulgi,â Joohyun muttered, still only looking at me, âYou will give me a headache if you keep pacing around, your job isnât more important than a council meeting.â
That seemed to get Seulgi to tense up, but she couldnât say anything against Joohyun, so she took her seat close to hers, crossing a leg over the other as well as her arms across her chest. I gulped and stood at the other end of the table, gaining Seungwanâs attention as well as she stopped doodling. Sooyoung was more awake now, easily able to notice my hesitance since she had always been a good observer.
âYou did something, didnât you?â Sooyoung asked, narrowing her eyes in disdain. Joohyun raised her hand to silence everyone, looking around the room before she leaned forward, her long black hair silky and straight as it fell to her hips.
âLet her speak,â She snapped, raising an eyebrow, âWhy did you invoke the council, Y/N?â
It was now or never; I couldnât back out anymore. I licked my lips and pictured myself speaking to my boss, who was an old man, borderline insane but still an exceptional doctor. If I imagined I was speaking to him, who rivalled Joohyunâs sharp features, the words came a bit easier to speak. I lowered my eyes to the table and decided to tell them where it all started, âAfter Yeri was killed, I was on a rampage to find the hunter who had done that to her. It took me three years, but I found him, he was a Jeong, from the Jung hunter coven, and he was their most prised soldier. His name is Jeong Yunho, and heâŚheâs still alive. After I found him, I planned on killing him, but he said things that angered me and I didnât go through with it, I bit him a second time andâŚleft.â
âYou left?â It was Seungwan asking, her eyebrows furrowed, her tone alarmed.
âIs this why that fucking vampire-hunting coven attacked us?â Sooyoung snapped, her sharp eyes burning into the side of my head as she stood up revolted.
âEnough, let her continue!â Joohyun snapped, and everyone settled back down as I pursed my lips, reluctantly looking up at Joohyun. Her expression gave nothing away, but she had one hand fisted and it was enough to tell me I was in trouble, big time.
âYes, I left him there, and yes, thatâs why the coven attacked us,â I admitted shamefully, even after all the time that had passed, I havenât stopped feeling guilty for the loss I caused, but it was only fair. He had taken Yeri from us, I took him from the Jungâs.
âIâm just impressed you managed to take Jeong down,â Seulgi muttered, ignoring Joohyunâs sharp glare for interrupting me, âBut I suppose something happened, otherwise you wouldnât have admitted to trying to kill him.â
And she was right, I nodded a bit embarrassed, âYeah, heâsâŚalive. And a vampire, but not really, Iâitâs difficult to explain. When I bit him a second time, I knew heâd become a vampire but I didnât stay there until the transformation went fully through, I felt the bond between us spark to life and ran off. Humans were also coming inside the forest for some reason, I couldnât let them see me. But heâs back, and heâs not fully a vampire. He came in tonight with a bullet shot, heâs a cop, and his heart is still beating. He bleeds like humans and he doesnât heal as fast as vampires, but heâs inhumanely strong and fast, and his eyesâŚone is crimson and the other brown. But heâs still youthful, he looks the same as back then, and he hasnât aged one bit. He is a vampire, but heâs somehow also a human, and IâŚI donât know. I made a mistake, and I have to fix it before it gets bad.â
âYeah, you better.â Sooyoung snapped, her face red from anger, âIf I knew youâd be this daft, I wouldâve never transformed you.â
âI didnât ask to be transformed!â I snapped, turning sharply to glare at Sooyoung, who deflated in her seat and looked away, âNone of us did, Sooyoung, Yunho is the only one I transformed besides Yeri.â
A deafening silence settled over the room, however, it didnât last long as Seulgi was swiping on her phone rapidly, her eyebrows more and more furrowed as seconds passed by, âYou donât mean this Jeong Yunho, do you?â
I gulped as she turned her phone, showing me his profile, his information written in small letters right underneath his picture, âThatâs him.â
âHeâs in my division, way too small to come in contact with me.â Seulgi muttered, turning her phone to look at it as Joohyun motioned to be handed the phone too, âHeâs been an officer for six years, always gets the most brutal crime scenes, and does some private investigation from time to time. Heâs also great undercover and refuses to work with partners, heâs quite promising, I cannot lie. A few other officers have been fighting over him to get him in their team, but he refuses them and says he wants to stay in my division. Do you think he knows who I am?â
âI doubt it,â I shook my head, pulling out the chair to sit down, âUnless heâs kept in contact with the Jungâs, who know our faces.â
âHe hasnât,â Joohyun spoke up, still staring at the photo, âThe coven wouldâve long killed him, itâs impossible heâs still in contact with them. But if heâs operating on his own, heâs a greater danger than the coven itself, heâs a rogue and they are dangerous. Itâs good you told us, Y/N, even if heâs the fruit of your mistake, getting rid of him now is better than never.â
âWe canât get rid of him.â I whispered, but they all heard me as my eyes went past Joohyun, falling on the divider, âNot yet.â
âWhy?â Seungwan asked confused, looking towards the divider as well, her eyes solemn as she stared longingly at it. Yeri was beyond the veil, I hoped she could hear us, hear me that I hadnât given up on her, not now and not ever. If this didnât work, Iâd find another way to bring her back from her eternal slumber. I was a doctor, medicine was evolving in ways one could only dream about back in our days, Iâd find a miracle and make her live again if I had to.
âThereâs an ancient tale,â I gulped nervously, Joohyunâs eyes narrowed as the other three girls watched me closely, âThat says if a vampire is placed in eternal slumber, their essence isnât lost yet. We can save Yeri if we find her hunter and feed her their bloodâŚthe hunter who had tried to kill her was Yunho, and heâs here.â
âBut heâs a vampire,â Joohyun spoke, finality to her tone as if she thought I was insane for bringing this tale up, âAnd the hunter needs to be human in order to bring the fallen vampire back, the blood needs to be fresh and untainted, which you had made sure isnât anymore.â
âHe is human, Joohyun!â I exclaimed, feeling desperation crawl up my chest, âHalf human, but itâs still there. He could be useful, we could try at least. The tale doesnât say anything will happen to the vampire if the ritual fails, no?â
Joohyun pursed her lips, glancing at Seulgi who looked uncertain, âGiving away our location and identities is very risky, Y/N. Even if nothing happens to Yeri if the ritual fails, we will suffer. Sure, he isnât in contact with his coven anymore, but if you say his strength can rival ours, heâs a threat. I cannot risk exposing my whole coven to something like that, itâs enough that he knows you still exist. Heâs too close to us, get rid of him before I interfere.â
I opened my mouth, ready to plead, but surprisingly, Sooyoung beat me to it, âItâs about Yeri, donât you miss her too? I want to hear her joyful laughter again and look into her soulful eyes, our coven has been so cold ever since she diedâŚand if we have such a high chance of bringing her back, why should we waste it, Joohyun? We could kill Yunho anytime, I can do it if nobody else wants to, Iâve taken men down twice his size and strength, Iâm not afraid.â
âThis isnât about whoâs afraid and whoâs got more ego, Sooyoung!â Joohyun snapped, slamming her palm on the table. Seungwan jumped and looked down, chewing on her bottom lip.
âEveryone wants something, Joohyun,â She spoke up quietly, playing with her fingers, âHe must want something too, maybe heâs looking for someone, maybe he wants to kill someone, if we find out what he wants, we could blackmail him into helping us. Think about itâŚâ
âSheâs not wrong,â Seulgi muttered under her breath, swiping left a call that seemed important by her exasperated sigh. Silence settled over our group as everyone looked at Joohyun, awaiting her final decision. She didnât look pleased or trusting of our ideas, but I knew she missed Yeri just as much as the rest of us. She was my sister, but she was everyone elseâs sister too. She was young when I had turned her in order to save her from sickness, she never really had the chance to grow up and become a woman, she was everyoneâs little sister.
âSeulgi, find out everything about Jeong Yunho and bring the information to me in two days,â Joohyunâs tone was final, her jaw clenched. I tried to keep the smile off my face, but I was beyond ecstatic. Finally, we had a real chance of awakening Yeri, âMake sure the others donât know much about this, especially not that heâs from the Jung coven and Y/Nâheâs your responsibility. Keep an eye on him, find out more about his peculiar condition, and bring him to me when I say so. Everyone is dismissed.â
We stood at once, but I didnât leave the room like the others, my feet carried me towards the thin veil. I pulled the curtain to the side and proceeded further inside, eyes falling on the altar that allowed Yeriâs body to rest upon. Her body was placed on silky cushions, a thin blanket pulled over her body to keep her warm despite her not needing it. I took a deep breath and neared her, staring down at her frail skin, with no wrinkles or blemishes on her face as her eyes remained closed. Her chest fell and rose, a dark splinter still in her, close to her heart, from where Yunho had attacked her. Her wavy blonde hair was faded and her lips were a light pink, making her look closer to a corpse than a living being. She was sicklier than even a vampire. I gulped and gingerly traced my fingers over her eyes, wishing to see the flutter and open, their familiar crimson just a distant memory.
âWeâll meet soon, Yeri, I promise,â I whispered and leaned down to press a kiss to her forehead, hoping she could feel it and hear my words too. She was beautiful, her white dress spilling off the altar as I committed her serene face to memory once again, then turned, my mind set to find Jeong Yunho and make him pay one last time.
           In all my six years of working at the hospital, I hadnât bothered taking any days off . There was no reason for me to go on a vacation, I had already seen most of the world. Besides, I didnât tire like humans, so really, there was no need for me to take days off. Besides, I felt it was my duty to be at the disposal of those humans that needed me. So, when I called in and told my boss that I would like to take the night off since a family emergency had come up, he was rather surprised but mostly happy. He even added that I should take off another day or two and have a quick relaxing trip while I was at that. If I thought more of it, I might take him up on his offer, but not to go on a relaxing tripâŚbut to bring back my fallen sister. Yeosang, however, was less enthusiastic about my sudden absence.
âWait, what do you mean something came up?â I could hear the confusion through the phone as I walked down the dimly lit streets, water splashing against my boots since it had rained not long ago. I hated the muddy smell of the earth after the rain, and especially all the worms that sought refuge above ground.
âWell, exactly that, Yeosang.â I answered amused, glaring at a drunken couple that was ready to fuck by the wall of a building on a rather busy street, even at this ungodly hour, âOne of my family memberâs dog died andâŚI need to attend the funeral.â
I hoped I didnât jinx it, Sooyoung would have my head if anything happened to her lovely Bishon Maltez, Haetnimie. Yeosang paused, releasing a long sigh, then hummed, probably feeling bored all alone in my office. It was past midnight, so he mustâve already had his meal for the night, âIâm sorry to hear that, my condolences.â
âYup, I will let her know,â I muttered half-heartedly, eyebrows furrowing when my eyes zeroed in on the neon sign above the door Yunho was just about to enter. Two days ago, Seulgi placed a heavy folder in front of Joohyun with all the necessary information about Jeong Yunho, and now, I was tasked with following him and finding out more about his âmundaneâ life since there were very few records about it. He was rather good at keeping low-key, it was annoying. Not even the trace of a money transfer, I wondered how he did it. Thankfully to Seulgi, we still managed to get a basic background check on him, hence I knew his location now. His apartment was in a rather high-end part of the city, which was surprising since I thought heâd want to stay away from humans. He often bought beer after being finished with his shift and conversed with the old lady at the laundry mat, who lived in the less fancy apartment complex next to his. He also liked petting stray kittens, even if they hissed at him at first. I thought animals sensed evil, but then againâŚSooyoung did own a dog too, and she was an angel, liked everyone but Baekhyun who would bark back at her.
âHey, Iâll talk to you later, Yeosang,â I said as the bouncer let Yunho inside the nightclub, spiking my curiosity. Was he really here to admire some pretty ladies? Is this how he fed? A bit perverted and sadistic, but I couldnât judge him too hard, âHave an easy shift.â
âThank you,â Yeosang muttered, and I figured he was pouting since our conversation was short cut, âDonât stay up too late.â
âOld habits die hard.â I chuckled before hanging up, then cut the line and smiled at the bouncer charmingly. He eyed me up and down, not budging. Great, of course, heâd let Yunho in without a blink, but not a fine lady wanting to enjoy some other fine ladies.
âAre only men allowed inside?â I raised an eyebrow, rolling my shoulders back. I wasnât too muscular or too small, but I looked far from threatening still. Unless I showed my fangs, of course, âThought the pretty ladies were for everyone to enjoy.â
I flashed him a hefty bill from my pocket, and the bouncer coughed and looked towards the line, pursing his lips. He glanced at the bill before he nodded, knocking on the door. It opened swiftly and I flashed the bouncer a charming smile before I slipped inside, making sure the bill landed in his opened palm without anyone seeing. And just like that, my eardrums were overwhelmed with loud thudding music. I squeezed my eyes shut for a second, willing myself to acclimate to the sudden change. The blinding lights made my eyes water and my head ached from the much too loud noise, the sweaty bodies making my skin itchy, but I willed my mind to focus on finding Jeong Yunho again. I knew he was in here somewhere, but I needed to find him to observe him more, learn his patterns to know how to lure him into my trap. I had done it once, I could do it twice. I didnât need Sooyoung to interfere like she so much wished to do, I was grateful Joohyun knew that and told her to prepare herself for the ritual, instead.
The club wasnât exactly like I had expected it to be, the dance floor was filled to the brim with raunchy dressed people, drunk or high out of their minds. The pretty ladies performing were there too, trapped in glass cages, their makeup sparkly and their dresses skimpy as they danced provocatively, prompting even more lustful eyes to watch them. A few bills were caught in their bras or the string of their visible thongs, and men were desperately throwing even more at them. Turning my head away from the sight, I looked towards the bar, hoping to find Yunho there, but it was almost as if he had vanished. Finding a tall and hunky man like him shouldnât have been so hard, not with his dark blue hair and the distinctive long leather coat he was wearing tonight. Not giving up just yet, I ventured further inside the club, scooping out the place, trying to locate the restroomsâŚmaybe he had gone there. I felt someone slap my ass and my irritancy instantly flared as I whirled around, crimson eyes burning into hazed ones. The man wasnât ugly, but he was too drunk to know where he was, and he had touched me without consent. He tried staggering towards me, but I stopped him before he could, hissing at him, my fangs showing. Even a drunk man knew to stay away, and after he raised his hands in surrender he stumbled away, already finding his next victim.
I scoffed under my breath and walked away from the overcrowded dance floor, eyes narrowing when I realised there was a narrow corridor right by the restrooms. And just like that, Yunho was back in my sight as he appeared out of nowhere, rounding the corner and hurrying down the hallway. I followed after him, hastening my pace to keep up with his long strides, and felt a little hesitant when I saw two big-looking bodyguards blocking the middle of the hallway. They didnât stop Yunho, though, so I hoped they wouldnât stop me either. I clenched my jaw and held my head high, making sure to not look them in the eyes as I neared them. If they were to stop me, I would just knock them out. I knew I was too close to Yunho, that he mightâve already noticed my presence, but there were no signs he had, so I continued with my pursuit once the bodyguards didnât even as much as glanced down at me. The walls were blood red, and Yunho had long rounded the corner to the right, disappearing to somewhere else. The music from the rowdy club was just a dull sound now, and something lower and much slower flooded the corridor as I came closer and closer to the corner. Then, as if I had been teleported to another dimension, this room was bigger and less filled with people.
The lights were dim and burgundy, coating everything and everyone in a reddish haze. The people in here were also fancily dressed, sitting around huge tables, bottle girls in their laps or walking up to their tables with fresh champagne. The sight was jarring, but I played it off as I looked for Yunho again, who was at the bar now. He was leaning over it and speaking to the barman, who was smirking at him while checking Yunho out repeatedly. Yeah, anyone with a good pair of eyes would appreciate his looks, especially his innocent face when his eyes were filled with darkness and danger. I gulped and walked to the very end of the bar, where a man was already sitting and could cover me from Yunhoâs eyes with his large body. I wasnât here to get anything, but I suppose I wouldâve looked suspicious, so I flagged down another barman and asked for a Hugo. The man I decided to sit next to glanced at me a few times from the corner of his eyes, but I kept looking straight ahead so he wouldnât try and speak to me.
The Hugo was delicious as I sipped on it, turning around in my seat to further observe the room. The women dancing in here mostly lacked their bras, and a few guys who were placed in glass cages wore nothing but jockstraps. Yunho, who had migrated from the bar, was now speaking to someone sitting by a large table, surrounded by men in suits and women in tight body dresses. Yunho didnât sit down, his eyebrows were furrowed as he stared down at the man smirking at him, pointing towards a young-looking guy in the glass cage. I looked at the boy and wondered how old he was, his ankles were wobbly as he danced in his heels, his chest red and eyes mostly cast down. I wondered if he needed a way out and if I could provide it to him. My thoughts, however, quickly returned to Yunho as his body tensed, eyes turning into slits as the man he was talking to laughed loudly. I took a sip of my drink and watched as Yunhoâs hand balled up into a fist, his arms shaking. Would a massacre occur now? Or was he strong enough to withhold his anger? I watched with excitement licking up my stomach, suddenly realising that I was watching my creation.
And he was a fine piece at that, visually, it would be even more satisfying if he was a strong-willed vampire as well. My suspicions were confirmed when Yunho took a step back, nodding his head stiffly and stalking off. I finished my drink when I realised there were multiple corridors leading to who knows where, and Yunho was headed down a brighter one. The light was distracting as it flashed over my head, my footsteps louder than I wouldâve liked them despite the music playing in the main room. Yunho was ahead one second, and then the next second my back was digging into the hard wall, my airways restricted as Yunhoâs large hand wrapped around my neck, squeezing mercilessly.
âWhat the fuck are you doing here?â He hissed under his breath, jaw clenching even more. I could practically hear his teeth gritting together, it was a jarring sound. I couldnât speak with how strongly he was squeezing my neck, so I opened my lips and grabbed his wrist, trying to make a sound to no avail. His grip loosened just enough to let me speak as he towered over me with his menacing height.
âWhat?â I chuckled, my throat a bit scrappy despite the drink I had just minutes ago, âCanât a woman enjoy a place like this one? The girls are rather prettyââ
âBullshit.â Yunho hissed, suddenly pulling himself away from me as he glared at me. I smiled, adjusting the collar of my black shirt, pretending that I was then dusting off the corset I decided to wear tonight. Yunho didnât say anything else, but suddenly, he took off back towards the main room, me hotly following after him. Well, since I had been already discovered, there was no reason for me to pretend I wasnât here. Maybe if I talked to him, I could get more information out of him.
âWhere are you going?â I called after him as Yunho hurried back down the corridor, walking too fast but not that it looked unnatural to the human eye. He didnât answer, obviously, so I just followed after him. I felt eyes on us as we stormed through the main room, and Yunho came to an abrupt halt when the man he had been speaking to suddenly raised an arm, his head tilted as he was looking me up and down curiously.
âBrought a snack for me?â My eyebrows furrowed as I turned to look at the man, ready to lash out or even bare my fangs at him, but I realised he was human. What an odd thing to say, then. Too focused on the man, I didnât notice Yunho stepping closer to me, nor did I realise he grabbed me until he was squeezing my bicep so hard I almost whimpered. I know we were vampires and our pain tolerance was higher, but he could be a bit gentler with me.
âFound her for myself, actually.â Yunhoâs tone had completely changed from how he had spoken to me. It was velvety, dripping with cynicism yet honey at the same time. One glance down at me and his eyes narrowed slightly, âMind if I donât share her with you tonight?â
What was going on? Who were these people and why was Yunho hounding me like his life depended on it? Taking a deep breath, I realised his cologne was oozing off of him, dark and somehow sweet, nauseating for my sensitive nostrils.
âYouâre quite quick, Jeong.â The man huffed, clearly displeased by Yunhoâs words, but he chuckled and flicked his hand, turning his attention away from us. I looked up at Yunho questioningly, but he started pulling me after himself, his jaw clenched tight still. I had to sprint to keep up with him, and my arm was turning white from how hard he was squeezing me. But he didnât slow down until we left the weird room as he pushed me towards the corridor that led us here. I stumbled before catching my footing and whirled around annoyed, glaring up at him as he stormed up to my face.
âStop pushing and pulling me around, fucker.â I hissed, craning my neck back to glare into his eyes. Yunho huffed, an unamused grin settling on his lips as he tilted his head.
âWhat are you doing here, Y/N?â He asked, tone gravely as I smiled, trying to tone down my sudden anger.
âClubbing, what else am I supposed to do here?â I raised an eyebrow, but Yunho didnât seem to buy my explanation. I wouldnât stand around here and let him manhandle me more, so, I turned to leave but as I rounded the corner, I was being held back by my nape, Yunhoâs hot breath hitting my ear from behind.
âI know youâre lying to me,â He hissed, his grip tightening around my nape when I tried to brush his touch off, âWhy were you following me all night long?â
I chuckled, staring at the backs of the bodyguards who seemed like mannequins since they werenât moving at all, âWhat are you doing in a dodgy place like this one? At first, I figured you were just a pervert coming here to feed, but clearly, I donât know enough about you. You are my second creation, and you turn out to be pitifulââ
I gasped as my back collided with the wall loudly, a sharp ache shooting up my shoulder blade. I glared at Yunho, pushing at his chest when he came towards me, but he didnât budge too much. I didnât try too hard either, so maybe thatâs why.
âShut your mouth,â Yunho growled, his face contorted in pure anger. I laughed, letting my head fall back against the wall as I watched Yunho, âYou donât know nothing.â
âYeah?â I hummed, chewing on my bottom lip as I let my eyes take him in again, âI pride myself on having a good eye for beauty, but reallyâŚthat broody personality of yours ruins it all, Yunho. A master would usually want to be proud of their offspring, but you are making me question my judgment all those years ago. I should have let you die, shouldnât I?â
That seemed to hit a nerve as Yunho huffed through his nose, his neck flushing red. I smirked, raising my eyebrows to provoke him even more, but he was still practising self-restraint, so it wasnât fun anymore. Deciding that I wanted to know more about this place, I continued, âWhy are you here, Yunho? And whatâs this club?â
He seemed to consider his answer for a second as he glanced towards the motionless bodyguards, I wondered why they werenât reacting to our little fight. Maybe they just didnât care, maybe couples fought all the time in these narrow corridors.
âIâm undercover.â Yunho barely but whispered, knowing that I would hear him, âSo get the fuck out before you ruin the whole operation!â
I pursed my lips, looking left and right, slowly nodding my head, âRight, youâre a cop. Interesting choice for a career, you miss hunting, donât you? Makes sense, I supposeââ
I was cut off as noise filled the corridor, coming from the red-light room. It was two men, conversing with each other, saying something about Yunho andâŚme. Yunhoâs jaw clenched as he heard them too, pressing his tongue to the inside of his cheek, shaking his head. He looked annoyed as he looked back at me. I blew his cover, the men were coming to get him. I suppose the man he had been talking to was the one he was after, and now I had probably ruined Yunhoâs credibility to him. Not wanting to be captured for no reason, or for a bloodbath judging based on Yunhoâs rapid heartbeat, I did what I thought was best for a distraction. Just as the two buff men rounded the corner, I slapped Yunho hard across the cheek, the sound echoing in the hallway. Even the two bodyguards glanced back before minding their own business again. Yunhoâs eyes widened as he held his red cheek, slowly turning his head to look at me bewildered.
âI hate you!â I screamed shrilly and grabbed the collar of Yunhoâs leather coat to yank him into myself, making him knock me back against into the wall since he lost his balance. His eyebrows furrowed for a second, but then I slammed my lips against his, our eyes stayed open as Yunho stiffened. The press of our lips was painful and Yunho had started pulling away, but my grip tightened on his leather coat as I pulled him even closer, my eyebrows furrowing as I subtly moved my eyes towards the frozen men sent to take care of us. It seemed like Yunho finally understood what I had in mind because his body relaxed a bit, large hands coming up to cup my cheeks strongly. His eyes slowly fluttered shut and so did mine as I pressed up on my tiptoes to kiss him better, letting him tilt my head back just a little bit. His lips were warm and slightly chapped, the opposite of my cold and smooth lips. The kiss was aggressive and lacked any warmth or pleasure as our lips smacked together painfully, but at least the two men sent to take care of us were slowly backing away.
My lips parted in a silent gasp when Yunho pressed me back up against the wall, licking into my mouth with little care as I grabbed the back of his head, fingers tangling into his smooth dyed hair. I yanked on the short strands as he sucked on my tongue, starting a burning fire in the pit of my stomach as I tried to keep the sounds threatening to leave my mouth down, eyebrows furrowing as a pleasurable feeling bloomed in my chest. Iâve kissed many before, but neither had felt so right and so fitting. Maybe it was because he was my creation, but the longer our mouths stayed glued together, the more clouded my mind became with his scent and beating warm heart. I could smell his blood pumping through his body, the veins on his hands bulging and a rich blue, his fingertips digging into my cheeks painfully. My fangs ached as he pressed his body against mine, keeping me caged between himself and the wall, my nerves on fire. If my heart wouldâve been able to still beat, it wouldâve been racing and flooding my cheeks with warmth, instead, it was my ears ringing and my stomach churning in unexpected want. Unable to hold back as Yunhoâs tongue slid against mine, I grabbed his neck to keep him locked in place and swiftly sunk my fangs into his bottom lip. He let out a loud whine as fresh, rich-flavoured blood flooded my tastebuds, making my eyebrows furrow as I moaned.
The taste lingered on my tongue as Yunho pulled back with a loud gasp, his bottom lip slightly bloody as my jaw ached even more, my fangs yearning to sink into his smooth veins. I was breathing hard as Yunho kept me immobilised against the wall with his own body, his eyes shaking with anger. The men who had come to take care of Yunho had backed down, probably to report back to their boss.
âYouâre human,â I whispered as I licked the remnant of Yunhoâs blood off my lip, hands balling up into fists as I struggled to hold back from biting him again. He hadnât been this sweet as a human when I had transformed himâŚor maybe I just hadnât had blood from a living source in too long? That could affect how I reacted to fresh blood.
âIâm a monster.â Yunho looked disgusted as he forced the words out, his jaw clenched and face still close, âYou did this to me.â
âYeah, I did, but youâre not fully a vampire, are you?â I whispered, looking into his eyes once again, observing the crimson of one and the brownness of the other.
âItâs your fault.â Yunho hissed and I hummed, reaching forward to touch his chin, but he knocked my hand to the side with hatred written all over his face, âI will rip you to shreds if you cross my path ever again.â
I chuckled, âNo, you wonât, because you canât, Yunho.â
He licked his lips, tilting his head as he slowly leaned back close, lips ghosting over mine as I gulped, feeling something in me tremble at the proximity. I wanted his lips on mine again, my fangs in his skin and his blood on my tongue.
âIf I canât kill you, Iâll stake you like I staked Yeri.â My blood froze as I looked at Yunho with tense shoulders. His smile grew, looking smug and taunting, âWill you scream like she did? Beg for mercy and call for help? For your sisters like she had? Oh, what I would do just to see the light drain from your soulless eyes like hers had, slowly, teary, and shakingly, with your name dying on her lips.â
I prided myself on having great self-control, on knowing when to stay level-headed, and on not losing my head when provoked. But not even Yunho had expected the speed nor force I threw him against the wall with, both hands wrapped around his neck and squeezing until I could feel his muscles caving in underneath my skin. His eyes were bulging as he tried to claw at my hands, push me away and free himself, but my whole body was rooted in anger, wanting to take, to destroy, to avenge. I felt sick to my stomach as bile rose in my throat, my body shaking as Yunho tried to gasp for air, his eyes glossy, and I wanted to hear the snap of his bone, I wanted his head to roll to the side boneless, I needed his breath to freeze in his throat, his lungs never to function ever again. And I wanted to rip his still-beating heart out too, just for good measure. But wouldnât that make me the monster he thought we were? The monster he had become? There was no light left in Yunhoâs eyes, in his soul and heart, his body remained the same while he had lost his psyche. I felt tears stream down my cheeks, hot and burning, as I ripped myself away from Yunho, who started wheezing for air and fell to the floor in a ball, coughing and holding his neck. The bodyguards glanced back but didnât do anything when I looked at them.
âIf I canât kill you, then Yeri will.â I gritted through my teeth, and with one last glance at him, I didnât even care who saw me, I left the club in the blink of an eye, chest heaving as my head thumped, bile rising higher into my throat until I was forced to find a trashbin and double over it. Acid burned my throat as much as the tears in my eyes, but I willed myself to take a deep breath and relax my muscles. Yunho was still human, his blood and heart at least, so he would bring Yeri back. He would pay for what he did, and Iâll be there to watch his downfall.
           We knew whatâno, whoâYunho was after. The universe had mysterious ways of working. Perhaps it was his punishment for taking so many innocent lives, perhaps it was the curse I wished to put upon him when I found Yeriâs motionless body lying on the cold floor of Seungwanâs castle, right in the middle of a ball where she was supposed to find a suitor for herself. I sighed as my eyebrows furrowed, eyes staring down at the paperwork without seeing the words. The ER had been busy all night long, Yeosang and I had just caught a break, Kai and Jennie telling us theyâd cover for us while weâd take a breather. I didnât think I needed it until the brisk night air filled my lungs, Yeosangâs steady heartbeat a nice reminder that I was alive. He was silent until he excused himself to grab some much-needed coffee, asking if Iâd like a cup too, much like always. The answer was always the same, no, thank you. Coffee was too bitter and didnât help me stay alert, so I preferred not to drink it for appearance's sake. My phone pinged with a new message, and I was finally able to release a sigh of ease. Yunho was supposed to come in to check on his non-existent stitches, I had begged the head doctor all night long for him to appoint Yunho to me again, making up all sorts of far-fetched explanations.
âWhatâs got you thinking so deeply?â I flinched hearing Yeosangâs deep voice next to me, having failed to notice his approach. Yeah, I was too in my head if I couldnât notice an approaching human.
âLife, I guessâŚâ I muttered as I leaned over the railing, looking down at the ground. It wouldnât be a high enough jump, not to me. Yeosang just hummed and mirrored me, taking slow sips of his warm coffee. It was very bitter based on its scent, I wondered how he could stomach it.
âTime flies by fast, doesnât it?â Yeosang spoke quietly, his cup of coffee hanging over the railing, âOne second youâre just a child, and then the next youâre supposed to make money and look out for yourself in a world that mostly isnât fair.â
Humans had different issues than us, I glanced at Yeosang and saw his eyebrows furrowed deeply. I wondered if life hadnât been kind to him. It wouldnât be fair if anything happened to Yeosang, he was too good, too kind. I hummed, watching him take another sip of his coffee before he hung his head low.
âMy best friend is sick,â He whispered, voice gravely, and something stiffened in my chest. Perhaps it would have been my heart breaking for him if it were still functioning, âVery sick. Iâm a nurse, I know so much about medicine and how to help people, I know the best doctors and yetâI canât do anything to help him. Heâs going to die, Y/N, and I canât stop it.â
I had never heard Yeosang so broken before, so small and helpless. My eyebrows furrowed and I sighed, figuring he looked like he needed a hug right now. So, I turned towards him and grabbed his bicep, making him look at me defeated. I offered him a small smile and pulled him towards me, confusion visible on his face as he let himself be manoeuvred around. My arms wrapped around him in a friendly hug, hoping it would be comforting too. He remained stiff for a few more seconds, but then his arms wrapped around my torso and he placed his chin on my shoulder, squeezing me for a second.
âThank you.â Yeosang whispered with a smile in his voice, âI didnât think Iâd find a friend at my workplace, especially not a doctor, but youâve treated me with respect since the beginning. Even when I still felt nauseous taking blood.â
We both chuckled at that as I remembered Yeosangâs rocky start at the hospital. He needed a good year until he got completely in shape and accustomed to the life he had chosen, and that was understandable. What he did wasnât easy, yet he managed better than most people I knew. Before the hug could become uncomfortable, we pulled away and Yeosang took a sip of his coffee to hide his small smile. Turning humans into vampires wasnât like what it used to be. Mistakes happened, of course, but my coven believed in giving a choice to the human that wished to turn into one of us. We didnât just take it greedily, we asked and told them what this life came with. We didnât just stop existing one day, even when the earth threatened to stop spinning, weâd be here, living and breathing. We werenât invincible, no, but we were durable and stronger than those around us. Joohyun had always believed even vampires could be forgiven for their sins, and bringing another person into our coven without a deep reason meant expulsion from it. I gulped and took a second to reconsider my words, but I hated seeing Yeosang in pain.
âAnd ifâŚthere was a cure for your best friend, would you want him to have it?â Asking without explaining first was greedy, but maybe I didnât want to lose Yeosang and his kindness in this unfair world. Surely if his best friend became a vampire heâd wish to follow, no? That was greedy of me and wishful thinking, but I had long stopped asking for forgiveness for my sins. If I truly wasnât greedy, I wouldâve never transformed Yeri, I wouldâve let everything progress by its natural rhythm.
âThere would be a price to pay, I supposeâŚâ Yeosang was smart, he knew there were things he couldnât explain, I smiled as I nodded, âYes, I would want him to have it as long as he does too.â
I hummed, deciding that bringing this up to Joohyun once the whole Yeri thing was over would be worth it. Our coven was tight-knit and strong, filled with talented people, offering a home to Yeosangâs friend would be nothing. Heâd learn from the best and become even better. Perhaps it would be Joohyun or Seulgi turning him, after all, it was inevitable for the offspring not to take attributes from its creator once the transformation was through, it was smartest if the bite came from the best of the best vampires.
âWell, thenââ Before I could tell Yeosang that I might be able to help him, my phone beeped, signalling that Yeosang and I were needed down, âJeong Yunho just came in, Iâm needed, but you can stay and finish your coffee.â
Yeosangâs eyebrows furrowed as he grabbed my wrist before I could hurry away, âIs this that man? The cop who was shot at twice? The one who fell over and destroyed the whole room?â
There was a tinge of scepticism and amusement in Yeosangâs tone as I hummed, averting my eyes because I hated lying to him, âYeah, so I better go before he falls over again.â
Yeosang snorted as he released my wrist, raising his eyebrows, âI wonât have to fix up that room again, right?â
âNope, I promise.â I blinked at him innocently and he shook his head, leaning back against the railing as I headed for the door, âIâll call you when I need you, donât come down until then!â
Yeosang nodded and I turned to race back to the ER, using my vampire speed since nobody was around, besides, I knew nobody was interested enough to watch or rewatch the security cameras. I fixed the collar of my white gown and nodded at the receptionist, showing her a thumbs up when she pointed towards private room number three. The head doctor spotted me and gave me a curt nod before he was whisked away by a nurse, who rushed him down towards the cardiovascular section. The door to the room was already open and Yunho was sitting on the table, his hands intertwined and placed in his lap as he stared at the floor. I pulled the door closed behind me, shutting us in, silence enveloping around us. I knew he didnât need to get checked, but it would be too suspicious if I came in and he left right away. Besides, this was my chance to get him. I had told Joohyun that Yunho was partly human, so his blood was useful to us. This was the best time to knock him out and kidnap him. Heâd do the same if he was in our spot, Iâm sure of it.
âGood evening, Mr Jeong,â I spoke up as Yunho raised his head, rolling his eyes.
âWhatever, why did I have to come to the ER again?â He sounded stoic and unimpressed, âYou know I didnât even get stitches.â
âYes, I do, but the rest of the staff doesnât.â I snapped, trying to keep my vexation at bay, but after our last encounter I couldnât help but look at him with spite, bile rising in my throat as his words echoed in my head, he was insufferable, âSo unless you want to be discovered, you sit on your ass and shut the fuck up.â
Yunho smirked as I walked closer to him, tilting his head, âCareful, your true colours are showing, Dr Bae, whereâs the tempered and kindred-hearted Samaritan wannabe?â
I released a long huff, an unamused smile settling on my lips, âI suppose someone like you doesnât deserve that treatment from me, so thereâs no need to act differently around you. Besides, are you sure that itâs just an act? Iâve lived for over two hundred years, people change.â
âPeople, yes, not vampires.â His eyes narrowed as I came to stand in front of him, my hands in my pockets, fingers playing with the syringe hidden there.
âYouâre wrong about that, Yunho, but youâre too rooted in your hatred to notice it.â Yunhoâs rosy cheeks twitched, his eyebrows furrowing some more, âIf you wouldnât have been so blinded by your stupid covenâs preachings, you would have seen that the coven youâve been hunting for centuries werenât your enemy.â
âYeah, right.â Yunho snapped, his jaw clenching, âEvery bad thing thatâs happened to me was because of you and your leader. I wonât let you walk away anymore, not now that Iâve found you again.â
I smiled, gripping the syringe as I could tell Yunho was getting more and more aggravated. His heart was picking up its rhythm and his eyes were slowly darkening, the crimson swirling deep in his pupil.
âDid you never try to find out more about the bond between the creator and its creation?â I quirked an eyebrow, and based on Yunhoâs clenching jaw, it confirmed that he knew about it, but not enough, âYou knowâŚI made a mistake after I turned you into a vampire. I left you to fend for yourself, I left you alone and unprotected from the hunters. I can admit my mistake, sure, but Iâm also conscious taming you mightâve never worked like with other hunters.â
Yunho released a long huff, sneering at me, âI wouldâve ripped you to shreds.â
âYes, I know.â I chuckled, tilting my head with mock concern, âI heard the carnage you caused once you awakened. As much as I find that hot and appalling at the same time, you ostracised yourself from every coven by doing that. Thatâs why youâre alone now.â
âNo,â Yunho smirked, slowly standing up to tower over me. I gulped as I tilted my head back, unafraid, âIâm alone because I choose to be. I donât need anyone telling me what to do or breathing down my neck like your stupid coven leader does. Even as a human and a vampire hunter, I never operated on my covenâs terms, thatâs why I managed to kill so many vampires.â
I tried to smile, but my blood was boiling in anger as he leaned closer, licking his lips slowly as he took in my expression. Something made my fangs ache the longer we stared into each otherâs eyes, my stomach coiling as his sweet blood called out to me.
âThatâs why I still manage to kill so many vampires.â Yunhoâs deep voice was nothing but a whisper, taunting and full of himself. My hands started trembling as I itched to bash his head in and scream at him, a sinking feeling settling in my gut this time, âRemember Seonghwa? Oh, poor little, gentle, SeonghwaâŚâ
I couldnât breathe, and my vision blurred as Yunho snorted, raising his hand to cup my cheek, fingers tracing my cold skin, âHe begged, a lot, he even promised to stop drinking blood altogether. He almost had me convinced, I canât lie, his eyes were just so innocent, and he was really loyal to you, did you know that? He actually loved you, fascinating, isnât it?â
I wished for Yunho to drop dead, for the ground to open up and swallow him alive, for the earth to roll into his lungs and choke him to death. I bit my bottom lip to stop myself from whimpering when he grabbed the side of my neck, caressing my skin so lovingly that he couldâve fooled anyone. There were faint bruises around his neck, my fingerprints ebbed into his skin in an ugly black and green, perhaps he was too human for simple bruises to heal fast, âWould you like to join him?â
Hate was something I had grown familiar with a long time ago. It was an emotion that wrapped around my dead heart and cocooned it in a safety net, protecting it from the coldness of the world, the unfairness and tragedy that followed everywhere I went. In this second, I knew that it was no accident Seonghwa just perished one day, disappearing without a trace and a word. My bottom lip threatened to tremble as I gripped the syringe firmly in my hand, fingers wrapping around it tightly. Then, before Yunho could strike again, I moved swiftly and plunged it into his neck, injecting the sedative into his body. Yunhoâs eyes widened as he wrapped his hand around my wrist, yanking the syringe out, but it was already too late. I knew heâd fall to the ground, so I grabbed his arms and pushed him down on the table as he gasped for air, his eyes becoming hazy as he tried to stand, but his muscles were too relaxed, his mind slowly slipping away from his grasp.
âIâll see you in hell, Jeong Yunho.â I hissed before his eyes fluttered closed, his body going lax on the table. With shaky hands, I fished my phone out of my pocket and texted Joohyun that I had Yunho, and that they had to come to the hospital now. She replied that they were on their way, equipped to take Yunho back to the mansion. Without allowing myself to think about the fact that Yunho was the cause I lost two people I loved mostâYeri, my sister, and Seonghwa, my loverâI dialled Yeosangâs number while I walked to the door and locked it.
âIs the room still in one piece?â Yeosang asked jokingly and I tried to smile, but I felt hollow.
âThe room, yes,â But I wasnât anymore, before Yeosang could realise something was wrong, I continued, âCan you get me a gurney without anyone asking questions?â
âIâwhat?â Yeosang sounded confused and surprised, but he was up on his feet and moving based on the click of the door on the other side of the phone, âIf the head doctor is busy, I might get away with it.â
âGood, Iâm in room three, be swift, yeah?â
âOkay, Iâll be there in five.â
And just like that, Jeong Yunho would never see the daylight ever again.
           I was exhausted by the end of my shift. The sun was high up in the sky with a few clouds obscuring it as the morning traffic was rambunctious, with angry and impatient drivers honking every few minutes. The ride home felt like it would never end, the highway was blocked off at one point and I had to wait for twenty minutes until we could get going again. Yeosang, my light and saviour, had proposed staying on a call with me after he saw my state by the end of our shift. He rambled on about cooking a delicious breakfast before putting on his favourite show, rolling into bed, and falling asleep to it. He hadnât asked questions when I had let him inside the small room with the gurney, eyes falling on Yunho, a flash of recognition crossing Yeosangâs features. I expected him to ask questions and demand answers I couldnât give him, but he just chuckled and told me he was glad the room had stayed intact this time. He, once more, didnât ask questions when Joohyun arrived with her two bodyguards, two buff men who were more than excited to haul Yunho on the gurney and out of the hospital, placing a white sheet over his body so nobody would grow suspicious.
âCome straight home once youâre done with your shift,â Joohyun had muttered, her eyes falling on Yeosang, who was busy sanitising the table Yunho had been laying on moments ago, âMake sure he doesnât say a word.â
There was a threat in Joohyunâs words that didnât sit well with me, so before she could leave, I grabbed her arm and glared at her, âYeosang isnât a threat, donât make Mark follow him.â
Joohyun considered it for a second as her eyes fell on my co-worker again, a contemplating look crossing her features, âYunho was your first mistake, so Iâll let you off the hook this time, but make sure itâs not repeated with this Yeosang guy.â
And I knew she meant it, I wouldnât mess up anything with Yeosang. He didnât know the truth, but he knew something wasnât right. As long as he didnât ask too many questions and didnât try to find out for himself, I could help his best friend, and perhaps even offer him eternal life. But all these thoughts were pushed to the back of my mind as I pulled up to the mansion, the sunrays were just a bit hotter today as they rosied my cheeks. I could hear a commotion inside as I walked closer, the door opening before I could even grab the doorknob. Seulgi stood in the foyer with her arms crossed, expression displeased.
âYour little hunter killed a maid, screamed to be let out for hours on end, and finally stopped when Seungwan went inside to give him another sedative. Heâs been silent since, but heâs tried to break free at least three times.â I sighed, closing my eyes as I leaned against the wall, my feet aching from having stood on them so much all night long, âNow, thanks to him, everyone in the mansion knows of our plan, and there have been upheavals. Joohyunâs been holding a meeting since five oâclock, welcome home, Y/N.â
My jaw clenched as my head pulsated, muscles begging for a long hot bath. I suppose I wouldnât get that, not yet at least, âWhat do you want me to say? That Iâm sorry?â
âNo,â Seulgi scoffed, walking closer as she grabbed the tray of food off the table in the middle of the room, âHeâs your creation, so go tame him. I donât care what you do with him, but if heâs not well-behaved, I will kill him before we can awaken Yeri. This is your mess, so fix it.â
My jaw clenched as she pushed the tray of food against my abdomen, forcing me to take hold of it, âHeâs been refusing to drink any blood, so go feed him. He canât be malnourished when we need his blood.â
âCanât I take a bath first?â I asked defeated as I let my bag fall to the ground, hopeful that our maid would notice it and take it up to my room for me. I donât think Iâd have the power to come downstairs once more today before I get to sleep. Seulgiâs face, however, was a clear answer that I wouldnât get a breather before Iâd have to face Yunho, so, I sighed and headed for the wide staircase, trying to steel my nerves and push through just for a little bit more. My phone dinged, and I grabbed it before I could head down the hallway to check Yeosangâs message. It was a selfie of him and his favourite plushie, a cute expression on his face as he winked at the camera. I chuckled and snapped a shot of the meal on the tray, telling him my breakfast was ready tooâŚeven if it was a lie. After covering for me today, I felt like he deserved to believe my being was normal, even if not true. Yeosang didnât deserve to lay awake at nightâor day, in our caseâwondering why I was so strange and whether he was safe or not by my side.
I came to a stop in front of the room Yunho was held hostage in and looked down at my black heels, ankles a bit wobbly. I stepped out of the heels before pushing them to the side, instant relief flooding my calves and toes, a quiet groan leaving my lips. If Yunhoâs hearing wasnât already focused on every little sound, now he certainly was alerted of my presence outside his door. I didnât knock even though it felt wrong, just unlocked the door and hurried inside to make sure he didnât try to leave. I expected him to be all up in my face, expression maddened and chest heaving, his face red from anger and his muscles shaking from straining, but I was met with a Yunho sprawled out on the queen-sized bed, his feet dangling off the edge. The lock clicked into place behind me as I walked further inside, taking in the brightness of the room. The blackout curtains were completely undrawn, a harsh stream of light flooding the room. So, Yunho wasnât as bothered by sunlight as the rest of us. I kept my eyes on his unmoving body as I proceeded further into the room, placing the tray on the desk. There was a bottle of water, half emptied, next to some painkillers that looked untouched. Right, I had used a higher dose of the sedative since I didnât know how his body would take it, some side effects like a headache and nausea would be expected for a humanâŚbut Yunho wasnât fully human, so we had no idea how his body would take it.
The silver tray clinked as it slipped from my hands slightly, fingers shaky from exhaustion as I took a deep breath, telling myself that I would be soon done here and in the safety of my room. The sound, however, elicited the skip of Yunhoâs heartbeat as his head raised, eyes narrowed when he realised it was me in his room. Perhaps he was still under the influence of the sedative, thatâs why he looked slightly dazed. He stood, slowly pushing himself up as I released the tray and set it aside, ready to leave, but suddenly he was all up in my personal space, crowding me against the side of the desk. I flinched, taken aback by his actions, and gripped the edge of the desk for stability. There was exhaustion in Yunhoâs eyes as he stared down at me, then looked past me at the tray. There was no reason for me to feel nervous all of a sudden, especially not when my anger was far from being gone, but the sudden closeness allowed for me to inhale Yunhoâs scent greedily, gums itchy as my fangs wanted to grow just a bit longer to sink into his warm skin.
âIs that for me?â Yunhoâs voice was raspy as he nodded towards the food on the tray, and I glanced back to look at the copious food.
âYesââ My answer was cut short when a hand wrapped around my neck, slamming me against the wall. I groaned in exasperation and grabbed Yunhoâs wrist, my nails sinking into his skin as I scowled at him, annoyance flaring up my insides, âYou have to stop throwing me around, itâs getting old, Yunho.â
He didnât say anything as his fingers started squeezing harder, making it difficult for me to breathe. But I wouldnât give in, not when we were so close to having Yeri back, so I kicked at his legs until he had to step back, his crimson eye gleaming under the natural light.
âYou took me as your hostage,â Yunho spat, his heart slowly starting to race, âAnd youâre planning on using me to awaken your sister, wasnât she dead?â
âI see theyâve explained everything to you.â I smirked and patted down the front of my blouse, an expression of satisfaction crossing my features as I raised an eyebrow at Yunho, âHow does it feel to know you didnât actually kill my sister? Even betterâŚyou are going to bring her back to lifeââ
But truly to Yunho, his anger got the better of him as he slammed me back into the wall, squeezing my cheeks together so it was difficult to speak. I mustâve looked silly with my lips jutting out, the pressure on my cheekbones wasnât light, but I couldnât help but feel satisfied by his reaction.
âShe wonât come back, Iâll make sure of that.â Yunho hissed, his eyes searching my face, âYouâve led me to your lovely hideout, too, Iâm going to hunt down every single one of you, Y/N. And Iâll leave you for last so that you can watch everyone perish right in front of your eyes.â
I slapped his hand away as I sneered at him, resisting the urge to punch him, âYour threats, too, are getting old, Yunho. If you think you can just waltz in here and take down a whole coven, you are wrong. Nothing is the same anymore, weâve changed too. What makes you think youâd get away with it?â
âIâm part of the police.â
âAnd so are we.â A beat of silence passed as Yunho processed the information, eyebrows furrowing for a second in confusion, âNow eat your goddamn food and behave, Yunho, donât make it harder than it has to be. You shouldnât have killed that maid, she did nothing to wrong you.â
âA human willingly subjecting themselves to vampires are just as vile as the creatures we are, I should put each one of them out of their misery.â Yunho hissed, his jaw clenching as I huffed, pushing him back by his chest to free myself. I barely took a few steps, however, when Yunhoâs iron grip around my bicep stopped me, âTake that disgusting thing away from me, I donât eat human food.â
I paused, eyebrows furrowing. I thought Yunho was more human than a vampire, so how come he didnât eat normal food? Maybe he was just trying to play with us. I took a deep breath and turned my head to look over my shoulder at him, âDonât think you can toy with me, Yunho, the less difficult you are, the faster weâll be done with everything.â
âIâm a goddamn vampire, how do you expect me to stomach regular food?!â Yunho snapped, his patience running thin once again as he whirled me around, dragging me back towards the desk. I stumbled over my feet due to the force but caught myself on the edge of the desk. I threw him a heated glare, narrowing my eyes at him in annoyance. Getting manhandled by him was turning old rather fast.
âYou taste and smell human, your heart is still pumping blood, why do you think I assumed you ate food like any other human?â I scoffed, grabbing the tray to take it away with me. If he didnât want to eat normal food, fine, I didnât care. He could starve himself, at least heâd die faster once we were done with the ritual.
âStop saying Iâm human!â Yunho screamed, his voice wavering, âIâm a fucking monster, Iâm just like you! That thing they gave meâmy covenâthat serum made me like this! I didnât die nor become completely a vampire because I was already digesting vampire blood, to begin with, unbeknownst to me. My system was used to it and couldnât break the particles down accordingly, Iâm an abomination.â
So thatâs why he was like this, then. I knew the hunters were taking something back then, something that enhanced their strength and speed, but I wouldâve never thought they willingly drained the blood of vampires just to harvest it for terrible experiments. I sighed, looking down at the tray in my hands. I didnât understand why Yunho hated being a vampire so much, after all those years, I assumed his prejudice would lessen, but no, he was still rooted in his hatred for us, indoctrinated to take us out no matter whatâŚno matter if he was one of us, now.
âCan youâŚâ I sounded tired as my jaw clenched, my exhaustion catching up with me all of a sudden, âStop calling us monsters? Calling yourself an abomination? Itâs notâweâre not the devils you were made to believe we are, Yunho, we were once, yes, I canât deny that. But not anymore, weâve evolved with the rest of the world, weâve changed our ways, itâsâŚwe donât kill for the fun of it anymore, canât you see that? Canât you try and understand?â
Yunho shook his head, expression filled with disgust, âMaybe you think so, but I see it first hand, day after day what vampires are capable of, the many lives they still take, the families they rip apart for entertainment, the people they drive mad because they canâso donât come here and try to lecture me about my beliefs when you donât know shit!â
I jumped when Yunhoâs curled fist came down on the tray I was holding, sending the contents to the ground as the porcelain shattered and the delicious-looking food splashed all over the floor. I stared at it, dumbfounded, until I felt something warm trickle down my palm, between my fingers. I hissed as I registered the sting of the cut left by the sharp edge of the tray, turning around my hand to bring it closer to my face. The wound wasnât too big, located in the centre of my palm, but it oozed more blood than it was supposed to. Perhaps the cut went deeper than I expected, that would explain the dull sting of pain travelling through my nerves. Nothing a little sanitiser couldnât help, though I doubt the wound would stay open until I reached my room to clean it up, it was already slowly closing up. There was a strained inhale, however, and I realised Yunhoâs heart was racing as I slowly lifted my head. His face had paled and his lips were parted, saliva gathering in the corner of his mouth as he gulped down the excess, his eyes shaking. Yunhoâs scent was suddenly overbearing as he stepped over the mess on the floor, his eyes fixed on the blood that had pooled in my palm. I felt something deep in my gut coil, my skin feeling peculiarly hot as Yunho gripped my hand harshly, raising it to his face.
I stopped breathing as I watched his eyes flutter closed, nose almost buried into my palm as he inhaled long, his lips parting even further as a small groan slipped through. My eyes widened, and before I could pull back and make sense of his sudden actions, fingers cradling through my hair at the back of my head immobilised me, the grip firm and strong as I felt cold and sharp teeth sink into my neck. I tried to recoil from Yunhoâs fangs sinking deeper into my skin, but he was suddenly much stronger than ever before, flushing me against his body in an iron grip as his fangs hit my artery, making me groan in pain. I could feel every single muscle in my body tense up at the intrusion, my brain commanding me to fight back as bile raised in my throat, my fingers curling into Yunhoâs form-fitting black blouse. It stung as he greedily gulped down my rich blood, the gurgling noises were loud as I was moved backwards until my back hit the wall. I was too exhausted to fight back with my whole being, but the more I tugged at Yunhoâs hair in hopes heâd release me, the harder he sucked, moans slipping past his lips. I was getting lightheaded as my legs became sore, unable to feel my toes I gasped, something snapping deep in my gut.
A scorching hot flame travelled through my body, making me gasp loudly as my head fell back against the wall, lips parted in a whine as I leaned more towards Yunho, baring my neck for him so heâd have more access to it. The light-headedness turned into a daze one only experienced when drinking from their partner during sex, and suddenly I was aching all over, my fangs pushing past my bottom lip as my gums ached, âYunho, wait, stopââ
But he didnât listen as he slotted a thigh between my legs, pressing it against my suddenly aching core, and I moaned, relieved by the pressure, but it wasnât good enough. If he continued drinking my blood, heâd leave me too drained. I couldnât let him do that, but I couldnât make him budge as he clung to me, whimpers slipping past his lips as if he hadnât fed in over a month. I had never experienced anything like this with anyone before, drinking blood without having sex wasnât pleasurable, it was painful and appalling, but right now all I could think about was Yunhoâs strong thigh pressing against where I needed him most, my hips slowly starting to move as I ground against him. Yunhoâs large hand curled around my jaw as I felt his fangs finally retract from my neck, the bite leaving a dull pulsating in my neck. I felt breathless, my body on fire as Yunho raised his head, both eyes bloodshot. I wouldâve gasped at the sight if it wasnât for the lips that pressed hungrily against mine, tasting my own blood on Yunhoâs lips felt foreign but not as disgusting as one would expect.
There was something about his warmth and his racing heart that made my brain feel intoxicated, making me realise this wasnât enough, that I needed more and that I needed it now. I groaned as our lips tried to find a rhythm, but Yunho wouldnât surrender as he nipped at my bottom lip, trying to lick into my mouth as I resisted giving in fully to him. He was so warm it felt as if his body was burning up, much like the sun, melting away the coldness that clung to mine all the time. It felt like when I had awakened, aware of everything surrounding me and so overly sensitive. He gripped my hip with one hand as the other still cradled my jaw, and suddenly started guiding my hip in a dangerously slow rhythm, making me groan against his lips. I couldnât fight back, though, it felt too good to ask him to stop, and yet it wasnât enough, so I finally parted my lips and allowed him to explore my mouth with his eager tongue, suckling on my tongue like it would satiate his hunger. Yunho moaned as I felt his hand on my hip start to trace up my torso, gripping at my skin through my clothes, cupping my breast as he squeezed it, not stalling as it travelled up to rest at the base of my neck.
âWhy is your blood so sweet?â Yunho rasped out as our mouths finally detached, my lungs felt on fire despite us not having kissed for too long. I needed a second to realise Yunho had asked me a question, mind fogged up with desire as I could finally grind against him however I wished. Yunho looked down between us and groaned, his grip tightening just a bit around my neck, âAnswer me, Y/N.â
âI donât know,â I whispered, eyebrows furrowing when Yunho grabbed me again, stilling my movements, âFuck, Iâm not lying, I genuinely donât know. Your blood is sweet too, too sweet, and I couldnât stop thinking about it. Anytime your scent hit me harder, all I could think about was sinking my teeth into your skin, your warm and rich blood, the aching of my fangs.â
âYeah?â Yunho groaned, his eyebrows furrowed as he leaned closer, his lips ghosting over my neck and I shuddered, fingers tangling into his dark blue hair.
âYeah.â I keened as he pressed a gentle kiss against my neck, tongue lapping at the teeth marks that hadnât faded yet. Feeling his tongue against my skin made me tremble as my body felt ignited by sparks of desire, and I massaged Yunhoâs scalp as he continued peppering kisses against my neck, sometimes nipping at the skin without biting into it.
âI could suck you dry,â Yunho mumbled, biting at my jaw just a bit harder, making me yelp. He raised his head so we were looking into each otherâs eyes, both burning with want in them, âI could rip your heart out even, or I could tie you down and escape, kill your whole coven and come back to finish you off later.â
I chuckled, one hand sneaking down his torso, grabbing at the obvious bulge in his jeans. Yunhoâs jaw suddenly clenched, his eyes shifting downwards before he looked back at me, âReally? Could you do that when your dick is straining like that against your pants?â
âShut up.â Yunho hissed, disgust crossing his features before he slammed his lips against mine for a second time, making me laugh as I tried to dodge his insistent kiss. My amusement didnât last for long, however, because I was suddenly hoisted up, legs around Yunhoâs hips as I clung to his larger body, confusion written all over my face. Yunho didnât look at me as he took us to the bed, sitting down with me in his lap as he leaned closer, burying his nose in my neck as he inhaled deeply, long fingers digging into my back as he felt me up. I closed my eyes and shifted forward just slightly, back arching when Yunhoâs hands settled on my hip, realising I was seated right over his dick, his bulge pressing up into my clenching core. With an experimental roll, I tilted Yunhoâs head back and leaned down, lips hovering above his as he breathed through his mouth, eyebrows furrowed and eyes ablaze as he stared up at me.
âIâm your creator, donât think you can harm me as easily as youâd like.â Before he could say anything, our lips met again, moving hungrily as I pushed my tongue past his teeth, tasting him again with hunger, hips picking up a steady rhythm as Yunhoâs hands helped for an easier glide. He tasted like mint and candy, not as sweet as his blood, but almost just as satiating. It was a constant push and pull between us, and I knew I didnât want to be in his arms like this, but something just felt right about letting him kiss me, touch me, feel me up, and even feed from me. I suppressed a moan as he ground up just a bit harsher, his fingers to leave faint bruises if he squeezed any harder, mouth warm against mine. He tipped his head back as my hands cradled his cheeks, fingers buried in his warm skin as our tongues continued to tangle together. A particularly slower roll of my hips, however, had Yunhoâs eyebrows furrowing as he turned his head, breathing loudly as his chest heaved. I smirked and kissed his cheek before dipping my head, exploring his soft skin and appetizing neck, his bulging veins practically begging for my fangs to sink into them.
âIs thereâfuck,â I teased his skin by biting into it without leaving a trace, licking the faint teeth mark with my tongue before it could disappear, âThereâs a deeper connection between us, isnât it?â
I hummed, pulling back to look down at Yunho, my hips finding a slower rhythm just to antagonise him more, âYeah, I made you, so in some ways we are connected. It manifests differently in each vampire, though.â
Yunhoâs eyebrows furrowed and suddenly he stopped me, leaning forward so that his lips hovered over mine, âYou think I canât kill you?â
âI know youâd like to try,â I chuckled, pressing a mocking kiss against the corner of his mouth. Being with Yunho felt right, something about our bodies being so close to each other felt calming despite the hatred we carried for each other. I couldnât trust him, but something told me he wouldnât rip out my heart right now, âBut when I turned you, I only wanted you to suffer and not actually lose your life. When one turns into a vampire, it takes attributes from their creator and the purpose theyâve been turned with matters for how theyâll look at their creator. I know youâll eventually find a way to kill me, but until then, youâre physically unable to do so, Yunho.â
Yunhoâs jaw clenched as he stopped my ministrations, hatred and disgust swirling in his irises. He didnât say anything for a second, but the hand around my throat was a good warning that he thought about choking me again. At this point, he made me think he had a kink for seeing me fight for a single breath, and it wasnât as hot as one would think. But behind all those strong emotions, there was fear hiding behind Yunhoâs brown eye, his bottom lip quivering when he spoke.
âI hate what I am, and I will make sure all of us eventually die, I wonât let humanity become enslaved to vampires.â He whispered, gripping my neck just a bit tighter, âYou can keep me here all you want, Y/N, I will never help you. Yeri will remain in her slumber because I refuse to give you my blood, and you canât take it if I wonât let it.â
I smiled, patting Yunhoâs cheek almost affectionately, âI canât, but Sooyoung and anyone else can.â
I pressed a chaste kiss against his lips before detaching myself, oddly feeling cold and guilty. I didnât want Yunho to hate me so ardently, but the feeling was mutual despite me having pushed it to the darkest corners of my mind. He had killed Seonghwa, the man I wished to live with for an eternity. There was no scenario in which I could forgive Yunho for his sins, and I trusted heâd be punished for everything heâs done one day. Yunho remained motionless as I stood, patting down my hair and readjusting my blouse, my swollen lips tingling as Yunho licked his. My desire wasnât the most important thing, I wasnât here to sleep with Yunho, no matter how much my body yearned for it.
âI will slaughter you if you touch meââ
âEveryone has a price, Yunho.â
âI donât, Y/N.â
I chuckled, walking past the mess on the floor as I grabbed the key out of my pocket. Yunho couldâve taken it this whole time, yet he didnât. He knew where it was, his eyes now fixed on it, but he made no moves to stand from the bed. His cheeks were flushed and his pouty lips even plumper, his blouse askew, and the bulge less visible in his jeans.
âYes, you do, Yunho.â I twisted the lock and turned to give his defeated body one last look, âSong Mingi.â
And I left the room as Yunho gasped, springing up from the bed and banging on the door to be let out. Everyone had a price, even Jeong Yunho. A life for a life.
           The full moon was high in the sky, its gentle light radiating through the open windows. The breeze was cool but nobody could feel it in the dimly lit room, red candles burning away as the strong scent of blue sage filled our nostrils. The vampires around me wore dark burgundy capes, the hoods draped over their eyes as their hands remained buried in their sleeves. My fingers gently traced Yeriâs soft hair, her skin pale and sickly as she remained unmoving. The conference room had been transformed for the ritual, Yeriâs body now aligned in the middle on an altar decorated with white flowers and a silky tablecloth. Her dress was pristine, the small gems embroidered into it sparkling if the light fell on it just right. My dark gown touched the floor as I remained standing next to Yeriâs body, murmuring reassuring things to her in hopes she could hear me. The low murmur of the other vampires suddenly stopped as the double doors opened, Mingyu and Chanyeol carrying a tied-down Yunho inside the room. The silver around his body dug into his skin, and judging by the prominent vein on his forehead and his straining jaw, it was more painful than he could handle. Our eyes met as he was dragged towards the altar, Mingyu muttering a low warning in his ear before Yunho could even think of escaping.
Joohyun, wearing her white dress followed inside, a flower crown prettily decorating her head. She looked innocent, dainty, like an unassuming maiden as she took slow but powerful steps towards the altar, a book in her hands. The long sleeves of her dress hid her hands, and I flinched when I felt a hand grab my shoulder. Sooyoung motioned to the side, gently pulling me away from my sisterâs body as my gut coiled nervously, eyes falling on her before watching Yunho again, scared that heâd try to kill her once more. Flashes of Yeriâs bloodied body made me close my eyes, my hands shaky as Sooyoung offered her hand silently, a support she knew I needed right now. I released a shaky breath and watched as Joohyun went to the head of the altar, standing behind Yeri. She looked down at my sister and smiled softly as she traced her eyes for a second, then looked up with a hardened expression. Yunho was dragged next to her by the two bodyguards, trying to trash around in their grips, but the silver only made his skin burn more, so he succumbed to the pain and stopped moving around. His chest was heaving and everyone could hear his racing heart, our eyes found each other once again and I could see just how much he wished to kill every single one of us in the room. I donât think I have ever felt someoneâs hatred as intensely as Yunhoâs right now. My jaw clenched as I looked away, focusing on Yeri instead as Joohyun opened her arms, her eyes fluttering closed.
âEveryone, please join hands.â Her soothing voice rang out in the quiet room as everyone followed Joohyunâs instructions. We all stepped closer to the altar, our hands joining together as Yunho looked around frantically, probably looking for a route to escape, âWe are here, Yerim, we will set you free. Your suffering ends today.â
I gulped, feeling a tightness in my throat as I looked at my sister, everyone elseâs head bowed down in respect to the coven leader. Joohyun met my eyes as she opened the book she had brought with her, an ancient artefact that carried all of our secrets. Perhaps Yunho knew that too because his eyes widened as they fell on it, trying to mutter something, but the rag tied around his mouth made it sound intangible. A slow hum left Joohyunâs throat as she grabbed the silver knife placed on the altar, the book placed by Yeriâs head was flipped open to a page I had never seen before. The gathered vampires followed Joohyunâs lead, and soon I found myself humming lowly in my throat, feeling like I was being electroshocked each time Joohyunâs intonation changed. She was humming a lullaby I hadnât heard before, but the rest of us kept the initial hum going, concentrating on keeping it uniform. Joohyun raised her hand, muttering a quiet prayer before she cut her finger, drawing a bloody cross on Yeriâs forehead. Yunhoâs face morphed into disgust as he tried to speak, yanking on his restraints to no avail as I watched him with furrowed eyebrows, coming to a sudden realisation. Joohyun would kill Yunho once the ritual was over, he wasnât allowed to live another day.
That wasnât the realisation, however, but the voice that whispered to me to save him, to take him away before the light faded from his eyes. It was always hard for the creator to watch its offspring perish, but there was something deeper about this that I couldnât fully understand. Yunhoâs eyes shook as we looked at each other again and his jaw clenched when he was hauled forward by Mingyu, Joohyunâs arms extended as she continued to mutter under her breath an incantation in an ancient language Iâd never heard before. I didnât want Yunho to die once Yeri awakened, I had promised a life for a life, and suddenly I realised the voice I heard in my head wasnât mine, it was Yunhoâs low timbre pleading with me to find a way out. He was looking for Song Mingi, whoever that was, he couldnât die until he found him alive and breathing. My eyes widened as Joohyun raised the silver knife high, her eyes completely white as she hissed. I tried to move towards her, suddenly afraid sheâd kill Yunho right now, but Sooyoungâs grip on my hand tightened, yanking me back to my spot. She shot me a warning look, enough to tell me that if I broke the circle, the ritual would not work out. So, with bile in my throat, I was forced to listen to Yunhoâs racing heart as Joohyun cut a small gash on his neck, grabbing the back of his head and forcing it down.
His blood trickled slowly as he forced his eyes shut, arms trying to rip his silver chains apart, but I could smell his burnt skin mixing with his bloodâs intoxicating scent. I could feel my fangs poking against my bottom lip, but this wasnât the time or place to yearn for Yunhoâs sweet blood. My eyes zeroed in on the first blood droplet as it splashed against Yeriâs closed mouth, then another, and another, until it was enough to trickle inside her mouth. Joohyun continued chanting, her voice rising in volume as did the hum of the vampires, and I realised I was doing it involuntarily as if I was entranced by our leader. Joohyunâs head snapped back with a sickening crack as her mouth opened, all sounds halting as Yunho was trembling, fear, anger, and disgust swirling in his irises as more blood trickled down his neck, wetting Yeriâs lips. Then, as the silence stretched on and Chanyeol had to catch Joohyunâs limp body when it fell backwards, there was a loud gasp as if someone had been suffocating but managed to break through the surface. The vampires froze as my eyes widened, watching as Yeriâs bloodshot eyes snapped open, disoriented and full of fear until they fell on the hovering hunter above her.
I felt my knees wobble as I watched my once again living little sister grab the back of Yunhoâs head and yank him down, sinking her fangs into his neck. A pained sound left Yunhoâs body as Mingyu stepped back, a satisfied smirk on his face as he let Yeri have her way with Yunho. The vampires looked astonished as our circle broke apart, some taking steps back while the others remained frozen. I could hear Seungwan crying behind me, her sobs loud as Seulgi hurried to Joohyunâs aid, snapping orders at Chanyeol as to what to do with her. Sooyoung remained on my side, her grip bruising on my bicep as we watched Yeri breathlessly, my eyes filled with burning tears as Yunho struggled to break free from my sisterâs attack. She looked famished, her eyes were gleaming red and she was greedily gulping down Yunhoâs blood, long nails piercing his skin as her eyes snapped around the room alarmed until they fell on me. Yunho had stopped trashing around, his breathing becoming shallow, and I realised that his heartbeat was alarmingly slowing down. Feeling an unexplainable pull, I jumped forward and pushed Yeri off him, her fangs dripping with his hot blood as Yunho slumped against the altar, struggling to breathe. Sooyoung was by my side, cradling Yeri to her chest as I rushed around the altar, holding Yunho up and yanking the rag off his mouth.
âWater.â He heaved out, struggling to breathe, âI canâtâbreathe.â
I felt myself panic as I looked around, but nobody seemed to want to help the hunter. My jaw clenched as I heard my sisterâs timid voice asking what had happened and why everything felt so weird, but upon my eyes meeting with Sooyoungâs, I understood that sheâd take care of my sister while I tended to the hunter.
âCome on,â I whispered and hauled Yunhoâs large form into my arms, his weight pressing but nothing I couldnât handle. I felt judgmental stares follow after me, some murmured even, as I hurried back to the room Yunho was held inside, wondering if my heart would be racing in fright if it was still beating. Yunho was mumbling intangible things, but I didnât focus on them as I barged inside the bedroom and hurriedly placed him on the bed, my skin burning when I touched the silver chains. They were enchanted so that Yunho couldnât break them, but they came undone easily under my grip. His arms unravelled from around his body as he groaned, trying to turn onto his side as he squeezed his eyes shut. I hurried to the desk, grabbed the bottle of water he hadnât touched since yesterday, and uncapped it as I held his head up, knees sinking into the soft mattress of the bed. When Yunho realised I was helping him drink, he gripped my hand greedily and downed the bottle, breathing hard as his head fell back to the mattress, eyes half opened as he tiredly looked at me.
I gulped and stood back, putting distance between us when I realised his heart had a steady rhythm once again, âYou didnât let her kill me.â
I huffed, an unimpressed smile pulling at my lips, âItâs not just you who canât kill me, Yunho, I canât kill you eitherâŚfor now.â
âFor now.â Yunho echoed, his voice gruff as he curled up in a ball, his teeth chattering, âI will escapeâand there will be no trace left of the Bae Coven.â
And I knew he meant it, so I hummed and pulled a blanket over his shivering body, knowing that he needed the rest. I left the room with a sinking feeling in my stomach and locked the door twice, pocketing the key to make sure nobody would be able to enter it. I couldnât risk them doing anything to Yunho. But until he recovered, my sister was the most important thing.
           The mansion felt more alive than ever before. Itâs been barely three days since Yeri awakened, yet joy and laughter filled every hallway of the otherwise sombre house. It felt like a rock had been lifted off my chest, like I could breathe easier as I could finally smile and enjoy another sunrise. Yeri, despite her brightness, hid a darkness she thought we couldnât see. She was trying to come to terms with the fact that sheâd been dead for over two hundred years and that the world she once knew wasnât the same. It was hard, I could see it in her forced smiles and her jumpy body whenever someone crept too close to her as if she was expecting to be staked again. I couldnât understand her pain, but I could be there for her to help her out. My bed no longer was empty, sheâd be waiting for me after my shifts, her pyjamas pink and her hair now short. She looked gorgeous as the sun beamed inside, surprisingly she craved the summer warmth more than any of us. I smiled as I entered my room, a phone she still struggled to understand in her hands, her eyebrows furrowed as she kept pressing the screen.
âWhat are you doing?â I asked with a chuckle, walking closer to my bed. Nobody had seen Yunho in the past three days, and nobody but me was allowed to enter his room. The coven was undecided about his fate, and it was all thanks to Seungwanâs kindred spirit and my insistence that keeping him alive would benefit us. The others didnât have to know that somehow a selfish part of me had grown dependent on the vampire hunter, the thought of losing him now sounded terrible. He was a bad man worthy of punishment, but the song of his blood was stronger than all the bottled-up feelings Iâd felt for him for so long.
âSeulgi downloaded some game for me, apparently,â Yeri answered as I kneeled on the bed next to her, my room now decorated in pink trinkets. Yeriâs always loved pink, she even wanted to dye her hair the colour once she found out it was now possible, âBut this stupid thing wonât work!â
Her accent was heavy and of different times, it brought a sense of nostalgia over me as I grabbed her phone out of her hands and placed it aside. Yeri just pouted as she looked at me, her calmness managing to settle my nerves. Our bond was special, after I had turned her into a vampire, something connected us like nobody else. I could feel her emotions and she could tell where I was all the time, whether I was safe or in danger. Knowing that she finally wasnât in distress managed to make me feel less bad about the fact that I couldnât be by her side all the time due to my job.
âWhat did you do today?â I asked as I brushed a strand of short hair out of her eyes.
âSooyoung showed me theâgarage and we went for a ride?â Yeriâs lips pursed as she grabbed my hand to hold it, âBut she said the horses and carriages were replaced a long time agoâŚI really wanted to go on horseback, though.â
I chuckled, taking in my sisterâs less pale complex and her reddish irises. She wasnât warm, but her voice filled my chest with adoration, âWeâll buy you some horses, Iâll talk to Joohyun.â
âIs it true you wonât let anyone see the hunter?â Yeriâs voice was just a whisper as I looked down, chewing the inside of my mouth.
âYes, I have to sort out some issues first, Iâm sorry.â Yeri just hummed, and then I felt her hand cupping my cheek.
âIâm not mad at you,â She was smiling softly, her eyes sad, âYou can do whatever to him, heâs yours. If you wouldnât have turned him, I wouldâve never returned. Seungwan told me all the things you did for me, the research, the places you visited to find out more, thank you. I knew you were a great sister, yet you surprised me once again. I love you, Y/N.â
I leaned forward to hug her tightly, sniffing a bit as I felt the tears burn my eyes, âI love you too, Yeri, Iâm glad you are back.â
âMe too,â Yeri giggled, but then her excitement died down, âThis world is scary, though, I donât think I like it here.â
âYouâll get used to it, a lot has changed and a lot has improved, living now is a bit more comfortable.â Yeri nodded as I slowly got off the bed, looking towards the bag I had discarded at the door.
âYouâll go see him, right?â She pointed towards my bag, âThatâs why you brought home blood.â
I hummed as I grabbed the two blood bags out of my bag, gripping the doorknob, âI have to, if I didnât hear his heartbeat, Iâd think he was already dead.â
Yeri chuckled as she fell back into the pillows, clutching one to her chest, âDonât take too long, I still have so many questions before you fall asleep.â
I laughed and nodded before closing the door, then headed for Yunhoâs room which was one floor underneath us. I could feel my hands sweat for no reason, something in my gut twisting. I fidgeted with the key as I stopped in front of his door, debating whether I should knock first or not. Most of the coven was asleep now or out doing their daytime jobs, but a few remained in the mansion to hide out. I unlocked the door and slowly pushed it open, looking first at the bed, but Yunho wasnât there. My eyebrows furrowed as I realised I could smell his scent inside the room, but it was faint. His heartbeat, however, was strong and telling me that he was inside the room. The door clicked shut behind me as I realised the windowâs lock was broken, now wide open as the breeze billowed through the curtains. My eyebrows furrowed as I whirled around, looking for Yunho. Was he inside the bathroom? The water wasnât running, but maybe he was in there. But if the window was open, why hadnât he escaped yet? In my confusion, I failed to notice him creeping up on me, one large hand wrapping around my throat from behind. I froze, hands holding the blood bags tighter.
âYou finally came,â Yunho muttered into my ear and goosebumps erupted on my skin, his lips warm as they brushed against the shell of my ear, âThought youâd never visit your favourite vampire hunter.â
âYouâre a bit bold, donât you think?â I questioned, making Yunho chuckle, âDid you regain your power?â
âMostly,â Yunho hummed walking us closer to the window, âBut Iâm famished.â
âThatâs why I brought you blood.â I raised one blood bag, but Yunho tsked, âWhat? Is it not good enough for you?â
âI have my ways of hunting, and right nowâŚâ My jaw clenched as he lightly nipped at my jaw, âIâm craving something fresh, something warm, young, and something thatâs inside this mansion.â
My eyebrows furrowed as Yunhoâs hand tightened around my neck, the two of us standing in front of the window. He chuckled, and before I could ask what he meant, he kissed the corner of my mouth tauntingly before his lips brushed against my ear once again, âYou didnât lock the door.â
The glass cracked as my head collided with it, making me let out a pained yelp as I fell against the windows, blood bags falling from my hands. My head thumped painfully as I hissed, trying to regain my bearings as my vision swam for a second, turning around to face YunhoâŚexcept that he wasnât inside the room anymore, the door wide open. My eyes widened as I felt a chill run down my spine, with feet tangling together, I dashed towards the door, mind whirling where he couldâve gone. And then, the thought struck me like lightning, and I screamed Yeriâs name as I dashed up towards our shared room, my hands shaking as I barged inside. The window was still open, a pink shawl on the floor as she lay on it, her eyes closed andâI stopped breathing as I kneeled next to her, unable to tell if she was dead or not. But gripping her cheeks painfully, she stirred and blinked her eyes open, confused and alarmed.
âY/N?â
âLock the door and the windows, do not go out until I say so,â I commanded as I rose to my feet, body now shaking from anger as I realised Yunho had tricked me on purpose so he could flee. I slammed the door behind myself and fled the mansion as well, sweating under the scorching hot sun as I turned around in one spot, trying to clear my mind to find Yunho. He was close, without drinking blood, he wasnât as fast as usual, and the sun would also hurt him now, so I wondered where he was hiding. Taking a car wouldâve been too obvious and loud, so that meansâŚmy eyes fell on the forest, and before I could blink my feet were already moving towards it, branches snapping under my weight as I ran fast, trying to track his scent down. The sounds of the forest felt disorienting with all the flowery scents making me feel nauseous, the birds chirping over my head feeling as if they were taunting me since I couldnât hear Yunhoâs heart anymore. I stopped to catch my breath and closed my eyes, hearing the creak not far from here. Would he go there to try and refresh himself before he continued trekking back to the city? And just like that, faint sweetness made my throat go dry. He was here, close by, and I would catch him.
I took off running again, pushing myself just a bit further despite the strong sun making my muscles ache, and I almost missed him as I wheezed past a deer. He was using it to mask himself, I smirked as I stopped behind a tree, watching the two move as one. The deer seemed almost unaware of Yunhoâs presence right next to it, but Yunhoâs narrowed eyes told me that he was trying to find me as he felt the place out. Without giving him the chance to find me, I pounced towards him, scaring the deer off as Yunho hissed when my body collided with his, pushing him down to the ground. The scenery felt eerily similar, except that it was daytime now and Yunho was as much of a vampire as me. The last I got to straddle him in a forest was the night I turned him into one of us after having played around with him for a bit. Yunhoâs chest fell and rose rapidly, his eyes burning as he gripped my hips and tried to flip us over, but my thighs squeezed his torso firmly.
âDid you think you could outrun me?â I chuckled, raising my eyebrows at him, âYou havenât had any blood in three days after you were nearly drained, I thought you were smarter than that, Yunho.â
âHowâs your sister doing, by the way?â The question paired with his insufferable smirk felt like a punch to my gut, and before I could stop myself, I landed a harsh slap across his cheek. Yunhoâs head whipped to the side, but instead of the anger I was expecting, he started laughing, his shoulders shaking as he suddenly went lax underneath me. I glared at him as I gripped his jaw and forced him to face me, his cheeks and neck were red, his pointy lips chapped, and his dark blue hair messy.
âYouâre fucking lucky I created you, Yunho.â I hissed, grip tightening on his jaw. He hummed, staring up at the clear sky.
âI almost thought you had forgotten about me,â It seemed like he wasnât done taunting me as he pushed his lips out, looking up at me with his big eyes, âShouldnât you look out for me? See? You abandoned me again, and then youâre surprised I canât trust youâŚâ
âQuit the bullshit, Yunho.â I snapped, fed up with his attitude as he laughed, one hand sneaking to my lower back as I tensed, âYou canât leave until the coven hasnât decided your fate. Joohyun wonât let you leave now, most likely, and itâs your fault.â
âEverything is always my fault,â Yunho groaned as he rolled his eyes, his other hand sneaking up on my thigh. My eyebrows furrowed as I looked down at his hand, feeling that warm flicker deep in my stomach. It was back, that feeling of belonging and lust as I stared at Yunho, confused by his words and actions, âIf you would have just killed me, I would be out of your hair right now. Admit it, Y/N, you wanted someone to play with and thatâs why you walked away in the end.â
âI did not want anything to do with the man that tried to kill my sisterââ My words died in my throat when I was suddenly flipped over, my back hitting the cold ground. I froze as Yunho now kneeled between my legs, his hands trailing up my thighs as I frowned at him. This wasnât like the Yunho I knew, heâd be threatening me and trying to kill me by now. What was his plan?
âAnd yet here you are, with him between your legs and his fangs sunken deep into your neck.â He smirked as he lowered himself, biting my jaw mockingly as I tried to slap his head away, but his fingers intertwined with mine, hands immobilised on both sides of my head.
âYunhoââ My warning fell on deaf ears as his teeth sunk into my neck, a moan falling past my lips as the initial pain didnât even come this time, just soaring hotness that travelled through every limb, alighting the dormant fire underneath my skin. My head fell back as my fingers tightened against Yunhoâs, his heavier body pressing mine firmly down into the ground. He grunted as he took more blood, his hips grinding down almost teasingly as my eyebrows furrowed, stomach clenching in yearning, âI thought you didnât feed from living people.â
Yunho chuckled as he pulled back, licking my neck and kissing up to my ear, where he nibbled on my lobe, âYou are not alive, though, and I think I found a new way to feed. Arenât you just so pliant, Y/N?â
My jaw clenched and I turned my head swiftly, aiming to headbutt him, but he was faster. Yunho laughed, thrusting once as my thighs tightened around his hips, my eyes bleeding into his with anger, âYou donât seem to hate it as much as you make it seem.â
âGet off, Yunho!â I snapped, ripping my hands out of his as he slightly leaned back, tilting his head in amusement, âWhatâs gotten into you all of a sudden?â
He grinned and braced his weight on his hands, but he didnât sit back. I glared at him, but he didnât seem to care as he pretended to think, âYou said I have a price, and youâre right. Your little sister is well and alive once again, how about we make a little deal?â
That sounded horrible, âWhat deal?â
He leaned down to press a chaste kiss to my lips, and I shouldâve been embarrassed that I chased after his lips when he pulled back. Yunho was amused by it, one hand coming to cradle my cheek as he hummed, âI saved your little sister, you help me find someoneâŚâ
âYou saved her?â My laugh was humourless, âAfter you killed her, rightâŚâ
âSong Mingi.â Yunho snapped suddenly, his features darkening. So, he was done playing around, huh?
âWhat about him?â
âYou said I have a price, and that it comes with him, well you were right. That Seungwan girlâŚshe seems to know him.â Right, Seungwan could find anyone in a matter of hours, âYeri is alive, so help me find him.â
âWhy?â I raised an eyebrow, tilting my head, âWhoâs he to you?â
Yunho looked reluctant to speak, but he gave in when I raised both eyebrows, âSomeone whose life I ruined a long time ago. I was foolish and I went back to my coven thinking theyâd help me, instead, they locked me up and started experimenting with my blood when they realised I was half human. MingiâŚheâs a victim of that experiment, heâsâŚheâs like me just moreâŚviolent.â
Understanding washed over me as Yunhoâs eyes lowered, âYou created him, didnât you?â
He looked at me without answering, and I just knew, âYou love him.â
Yunhoâs jaw clenched and I scoffed, something like regret, anger, and disgust swirling in my stomach, âYou want me to find your lover for you after you killed mine?â
âYou can do whatever you want with me once I know Mingi is well and alive, just help me out this once.â He didnât look into my eyes, but he looked so small as he lowered his head. I scoffed, wanting to refuse him, to rip his head off, but I couldnât. The pain, the uncertainty and the yearning of not knowing what happened to your lover hit me like a truck, and I felt pity for Yunho because I knew what that felt like.
âOnce you find Mingi, youâll never cross my path, do you understand?â My eyes were hard and my voice cold as he looked at me, face impassive, âAnd if I see either one of you, I wonât hesitate to kill you.â
âDeal.â Yunho didnât even miss a beat as he sat back, extending one hand.
âMake it a blood promise,â I smirked as Yunhoâs jaw clenched, but he bit into his palm and so did I, our blood smearing together once we shook hands.
âIâll leave your coven alone, then, but if I see you or Yeri, youâll be dead.â I chuckled and nodded, sitting up as Yunho got off me, surprisingly even helping me up. He remained gripping my arm as he pulled me close into himself, his eyes soft for the first time Iâve known him.
âThank you.â He whispered, his eyes fluttering closed as he leaned down, our lips meeting in a soft kiss. I gripped his nape and pushed up on my tiptoes, our lips locking together as Yunho hummed, pressing more kisses against my lips as we pulled apart.
âThank you too, although Iâll never forgive you.â Yunho smiled, stepping back.
âThatâs alright, Iâll never forgive you either.â I nodded, watching him step into the sun, making me wonder how one man could be as beautiful as Yunho. Before he departed, however, he seemed to linger for a second, his eyebrows furrowed.
âThere was a belief in my covenâŚthat a soul that is suddenly ripped away from this realm will wander back to claim whatâs theirs.â I didnât understand what he meant by that, but before I could question it, he continued, âHow long has it been since I killed Seonghwa?â
I froze, breath stuttering in my throat, âAre you sayingââ
âHeâs around, you just have to find him.â A small smile settled over Yunhoâs lips as I felt tears brimming my eyes, hands shaking. He turned his back to me with a chuckle, waving his fingers as he took off, walking further into the trees.
âIâll stop by to get my refill later this week!â Yunhoâs voice called as I listened to his even heartbeat, feeling weak all of a sudden as I had to lean against a tree for support. I had Yeri back, and now all I had to do was find Seonghwa once again. A shuddered breath left my lips as I smiled, flipping Yunho off before I started walking back to the mansion, keeping to the shade since I was already feeling lightheaded.
Maybe keeping him alive was the best decision I couldâve made, after all.
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Some ideas for Manager are them accidentally getting hit with an off course ball, learning how to play football so they can help out a bit or perhaps, for old manager (but ig young manager could work too), them having used to play football before and having the world five/the coaches help them brush up on their rusty skills so they can help the boys with overtime practice, perhaps?
Sorry, I can't say I have any more ideas beyond this
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Notes: This req is lowkey so cute! I chose young manager instead if youre fine with it hehehe, but I will try to make another one to answer the other two req because I lowkey like them.
"Hmm, next on my to-do list is to check up on each stratum. Hmm, since the closest to where I am is the German Stratum, I'll head there first!"
You found yourself skipping away to where the training field was, where you know the players were currently training. It was a not-so regular day in the Blue Lock Facility due to the fact that the continuation of the Neo-Egoist League matches will be held in 3 days time.
Hence, all players, masters and even staff were busy, slaving away in their training or jobs. You decided to just give a small peek to each stratum, wanting to ask anyone if all are alright and well-taken cared off.
As the manager, you always found yourself feeling unsatisfied if even one of the players are not very comfortable with whatever it is that is under the guise of your job. Their cleats are a bit too uncomfortable? Your bad, you didn't pick the right cleats for them! Was the bedsheets a bit itchy? Oops, you did not di your job well to make it clean and spotless.
Sure, it was a lot of pressure, but you liked it. It made you feel useful, made you feel motivated, made you smile. Were you a masochist? Maybe, but if its for the betterment of the players, you were ready to do it. After all, the Blue Lockers, Ego and Anri were not the only ones dreaming for Japan to win the World Cup.
Putting your hair in a comfortable hairstyle, you entered the training field where you can see the Bastard Munchen players were running around the field, doing simulations and other strategical work that you could not help but be impressed with.
'Wow...the places where the players are are so fitting for their playstyles! That's Bastard Munchen for you! Very logical!'
A smile was on your face as your eyes followed where the ball was passed from player to player. Watching matches, practice or not, is always entertaining for you. The cogs in your mind spinning and turning, trying to connect and make sense with all the details and information your eyes can take in.
It always feels entertaining and freeing to do this. To spectate, to watch each player. Like you were the audience of an orchestra or a mastermind behind the pieces of a chessboard. Everything and everyone felt like they were within arm's reach, like you were a puppeteer choosing not to move the strings and instead, let your dolls move themselves.
But, you know that if you so much as wish to affect the game, you can.
"Do you see anything, Y/n?"
Almost jumping due to the shock, you turned to face the French master, Noel Noa, who looked at you curiously. You have been quite close with the master strikers in the facility, especially Noel Noa, who seemed to be quite fond of you, too, finding your nature and aura quite adorable. Maybe it was because you were quite young and still naive, or maybe it was because you were always so happy and excited to learn more about the sport, he did not know.
But, what he does know is you were a very precious kid he would like to take under his wing.
"Um, its just the usual I see, Noa-san. Nothing too big! Maybe its because its just practice..?"
You tilted your head, looking down on your notebook that had many doodles and notes you made throughout the week. There were doodles of the players and what they need to improve on. And well, you were more than happy to add more to the things you already totted down.
However, due to this, you did not really see the missed shot Kaiser did, while he trained his infamous Kaiser Impact again and again. Nor did you hear the shouts of some of the players about the incoming ball, or hell, even the shwip sound of the ball as it rushed through the air and went to where your head was.
So, to your surprise, when you find yourself blacking out for a second due to a hard force impacting on your forehead, that it made you sit on the floor. It hurt, yes, and you can feel the blood dripping from your nose, but the most dominant reaction you can feel is shock.
Meanwhile, the rest of the players, were not as calm as you were.
"Oi, Kaiser, you bastard! I'm gonna punt you!" Isagi shouted from the other side of the field as he stood up, ready to fight the German striker.
"Y/n-chan!! Are you okay?!" Hiori and Ness were the first ones to run to where you are, worried about your dazed expression.
"Kaiser. Laps around the field." Noa's eyes were slanted like a hawk, as he kneeled beside you, patting your head softly to comfort you a bit.
Kaiser, on the other hand, was the most petrified of all. He knows how much force his kick had, from experience and, of course, his own knowledge of his strength. And he was very much worried and shocked, blinking his blue eyes like he saw something very traumatising.
He didn't mean to. He knows he did nof. But that did not make him feel less bad. Especially since he hurt you of all people. The only person who was not rude to him, but also did not patronise him like a certain someone (ahem, Ness), even if he acted like a douche to you in the beginning of the Neo-Egoist League.
And also the fact that you weren't like him and the other players, who were used to receiving any loose ball that had hard and forceful impacts. But even then, he couldn't move fast enough to be the first one to make sure you were okay.
"Y/n-chan, where are you right now? What team and stratum are you in?" Yukimiya also was beside you, asking questions to make sure you didn't have a concussion or any brain damage. Thankfully, you answered all his questions quite well, and you didn't seem to be hurt at all. Just shocked and a bit sore from the impact, but nothing major.
"I'm fine, everyone. I wasn't just paying attention. Sorry, everyone. Sorry, Kaiser-"
"Why the fuck are you the one apologising? You were the one hurt!" Kaiser said out of nowhere, holding your shoulder as you blinked at the mini outburst he had. The blonde-haired man was panting, although not too heavily, it was still noticeable that he was heaving due to the rise and fall of his chest and shoulders.
At first, you thought it was because of the practice, but the worried look beneath the usual nonchalance in his eyes told you otherwise.
"U-uh...sorry- um no wait- I meant, its just because you got blamed for all of it when it was an accident and now you're in trouble."
"I don't give a crap about that. Just...just go to the damn clinic...make sure...you're not having a concussion or whatever."
Like a drunkard being poured cold water, Kaiser realized that you two were not the only people in the field, and that many eyes were watching. So, he retracted his arms and turned around, trying his best to hide the confusing mixture of worry and self-disappointment as he walked back to the field.
"Are you sure you're okay, Y/n-chan?" Isagi asked as he sat beside you, Kurona sitting on your other side ontop of the clinic bed as some of the Bastard Munchen players stood infront of you, also wanting to make sure you were okay.
"Yeah, I'm fine. This is nothing."
"If you say so, but if you feel dizzy or just if anything is wrong, tell us immediately." Yukimiya said he held the ice pack to where the ball hit, while you wiped the excess blood from your nose.
"Yeah, yeah! Its bad to hold back what you're feeling." Kurona added, while Hiori was just quiet as he gave you your stuff, placing it on the desk beside the bed.
Meanwhile, Kaiser and Ness also stood beside you, Ness, along the worried ones as he patted your head softly, hopeful that it might help in some way, shape or form. Meanwhile, Kaiser and Isagi were already starting to argue, Isagi telling Kaiser to becareful next time and Kaiser being on the defensive as the two threw roast upon roast against each other.
"Your blindass is so rich, you can't even buy sports glasses? Even Yukimiya is responsible enough to do that!"
"Oh, please. I'm blind? You're fucking senseless."
The rest of players, well except for Ness who was fully supporting and backing up Kaiser, just watched with done and dotted eyes.
"Jesus, they never shut up, huh?" Hiori rolled his eyes.
"Yeah. Theyre too, too intense sometimes." Kurona added as finally, Yukimiya sighed and gave his polite smile.
"I think thats enough for today, you two. Y/n-chan needs her peace and quiet to recover."
ADDITIONAL TIME!
BARCHA
"Bachira!! We can't!!" Kitsunezato said as he tried to stop the said striker from walking out.
"Yeah, you know that Lavinho-san won't like it." Hayate added, but Bachira was far from listening.
"NO! I need to see if Y/n-chan's okay!! I'll beat that German up the next time I see him!!"
"Please, don't- C'mon Otoya! Help us out here!" But, unfortunately for them, Otoya was somewhat agreeing to what the brown and blonde haired striker was saying and Kitsunezato sensing this, immediately prayed to whatever god there was, and even better plead to Otoya, himself.
"Oh god, please don't! We have enough with Bachira here! It was an accident!"
"But there is no accident when it comes to Y/n-chan being hurt!!" Bachira fought back.
"I agree-"
"Shut the hell up, Otoya!"
MANSHINE CITY
"WHAT?! Is she okay?!" Reo panicked when he heard the news.
"I swear, its always those from Bastard. What the hell is even happening in that stratum?" Chigiri said with annoyance and worry. Why does chaos always happen in that stratum he wondered.
"Y/n-chan...is she better now?" Nagi, commented from his bed, eyes abnormally wide, like a cat roused from its sleep by a predator.
"Yeah, I heard she's fine. She didn't have any serious concussion anything, which is lucky for all of us! She just needs to rest earlier today, but she will still be able to do her duties tomorrow!" The red-haired said, repeating what he heard from Isagi.
"Good. I kind of feel bad but happy at the same time. I want her to rest, but at the same time I want her to keep working so we can see her again tomorrow." Reo admitted, his back plopping on his bed, purple eyes looking up at the ceiling lights.
"I don't want Y/n-chan to be replaced as our manager, ever..."
"I don't think anyone in here wants that to happen at all, Nagi."
UBERS
"I should've kicked a ball straight to that Kaiser's face when I had the chance."
"That is a red card, Barou, but I don't even think I would stop you. Go wild." Niko sighed. The Ubers players just heard of the news and most of them were not happu with what they heard.
"Poor Y/n-chan, that has to hurt. I remember the first time I got hit on the face, and I'm a defender so I'm used to that! But she isn't even a player." Oliver said, cringing at the thought of being hit by a ball, much less from someone of Kaiser's calibre.
"Damn straight! And those useless peasants couldn't even protect her from those guys. Those damn donkeys." Barou said, his mind towards a specific raven-haired striker that he knew was not only his main rival, but also the main rival of Kaiser and hence why, he believed he was the most responsible for you not managing to avoid the ball in time.
PXG
"Charles! We're training that new move we're planning to make it better and make it hurt for our match with those Germans!" Shidou said, clearly pissed off at the news. The French midfielder only nodded his head, cheering along with the pink-haired striker.
"Fucking lukewarms, you should do it secretly not infront of the many cameras around this damned facility." Rin rolled his eyes, even he wasn't impressed when he heard that you got injured, much less bleeding!
"For the first time, you didn't say anything dumb, Rin-rin. You heard him Charles! We're going to meet up with that German bastard!"
"Yay! Yay! We're gonna avenge Y/n!"
But unfortunately for them, and fortunately for everyone else, Karasu was there to stop the two, holding the scruff of their uniforms immediately.
"Now, now. As much as I also want to square up on that guy, we can't go monster against his ass or do you wanna be electrocuted again, Shidou?"
The blonde and pink haired striker blinked at that and finally shrugged.
"We'll just have to beat them in the upcoming games. So, ya'll better train hard." Karasu said with finality as he headed to his room with the other Blue Lock players, and that idea did not sound bad at all in Rin, Shidou and even Charles' ears.
I hope you guys liked this one! This was supposed to be fun but it turned into some sort of twisted Kaiser angst piece lolol
Blue Lock is WRITTEN by Kaneshiro Muneyuki and ILLUSTRATED by Nomura Yusuke. All credits to the both of them.
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Ya know what? I'm actually not done talking about Johnny being in love with his childhood best friend who now suddenly has a boyfriend.
Imagine your new "boyfriend" (Johnny hates to use that word) is actually taller than him, not just that but he's just bigger than him too. The twat looks like he hits the gym once a day and it pisses Johnny off. He's not used to many people being taller than him, most aren't (if your exclude his mates in the service). So imagine his horror when this new git you've been on about, someone he's sure he can out match, is bigger than him. Of course he's no where near as skilled and all that bulk is just that, bulk with no strength to back it up, but it doesn't matter. Johnny still hates him, he's hated everyone you've dated, they haven't been good enough for you. No one would ever be good enough for you besides him, but he's convinced himself he would be able to let you go if it was to someone worthy of you (but thats never going to happen).
He bites his lip when he has to listen to your female friends gush over your new man. "Oh he's so tall!" "He looks like he could pick you up!" "He's funny too!". Johnny doesn't get it, he could do all that and more, so much more. He picks you up and twirls your around every time you come and pick him up on the tarmac when he gets off deployment. He uses your head as an arm rest all the time, which yes, you do complain about but he sees that playful sparkle in your eye, you really do love it. Not to mention he can work you into a laughing fit that has you unable to breath. He has no clue what your friends are on about, the man they really should be encouraging you to date is him.
He still remembers when he would convince you to skip 3rd and 4th period with him, ditch school and go driving in the country side. Going to pick up take away and eating it in the parking lot, he treasures those memories. Those times when he was your entire world, when you'd look at him from the passenger seat with the sun behind your head like a halo, you always look perfect to him, even when you didn't see it. Nowadays, you were barley looking at him twice, all your attention on that new bastard who wasn't even looking at you. But when he did meet your gaze, that same spark was still there. That mischievous twinkle he recognized, the look in your eyes reserved only for him. But when the bloke would inevitably drag you to some upstairs room, he would have to leave to keep himself from dragging the disrespectful twat off of you.
And it goes without saying that the 141 has heard all about his troubles over a pint.
" 's jus' not fair!" Johnny would whine, going on and on about how upset he was for what felt like hours. " 've know 'er longer and I know 'er better'!" He would groan, slumping down dramatically to lay his face on the bar table.
Kyle would laugh at his friends sorry state, "You know wha's happened to ya mate?"
"Wha?" Johnny looked up pathetically from his position on the table.
"He's pinched yer bird"
Another dramatic groan from the Scott, followed by his friends laughter.
"An' he'd probably kick yer head in." Ghost would finally add, not helping the situation in the slightest.
Price would give the old man advice of just confessing. What's the worst that could happen? But Johnny couldn't bare to loose you as a friend too.
Now imagine his elation when you come crying to him in the middle of the night, at the door of his flat (of course he woke up from a dead sleep for you). Sobbing about how the prick had cheated on you, a blubbering mess in his arms. Johnny would let your cry and bad mouth him all night, finally getting to share with you how he truly felt now that you both were on the same page. He'll let you fall asleep in his arms after you ate every tub of ice cream in the flat. He'd have to beat the shit out of the idiotic bastard for having the gall to cheat on you but that could come later. Right now, he finally had you all to himself, protected from the world in his strong arms.
Maybe theres hope for the hopeless romantics after all.
A/n: Yes theres a happy ending because I'm incapable of writing pure angst. Also heavily inspired by "bigger boys and stolen sweethearts" by the Arctic Monkeys bc they are great.
#He's decided he's yours now#have I mentioned how much I need this man?#johhny soap mactavish#soap x y/n#johnny soap mactavish#soap x you#soap x reader#soap smut#john soap mactavish#soap#soap mw2#john soap mctavish fluff#john soap mctavish x reader#soap call of duty#soap cod#johnny mactavish x reader#johnny mactavish#johnny x reader#johhny#tf141 x reader#tf 141 headcanons#tf 141 x reader#tf 141#cod mw2#cod x reader#cod headcanons#simon ghost riley x reader#kyle garrick x reader#captain john price#ghost x reader
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#legit always been confused about this having never worked stock and rarely ever worked tills#is it just that yall donât care? like thereâs obvi stock in that back room heâs showing#is he doing this intentionally against the customer in some way cause he just can?#cause he dgaf if the shop makes the sale?#cause i truly miss the days when i used to ask and they would come back with the item . idk when or why this practice ever changed#cause ik itâs a video but he headed straight back and just chilled and didnât even imply trying to look for the item#was i just going to shops that were too bougie or was it that the shop im remembering is a co-op?#looking for genuine and sincere responses here pls
Having worked stock I can answer this question for you: Because whatever the customer is looking for is not there and he knows it's not there, but customers often need a visual reassurance that you're not trying to lie to them for some reason.
Used to be that product was bought in intervals by someone going through and logging what was low, and then ordering a lot of something they knew was high-demand just to have on hand. Now a lot of stores these days have automatic restock on most merchandise that triggers if it gets low/runs out in the system, and then we'd see it the next Wednesday shipment (or whenever the "big" weekly shipment happens for the store). Often there's also only enough to fill the shelf space for that week to avoid pile-ups in backrooms, and special seasonal stuff shows up in batches before the season even starts and never again after that, giving limited merchandise to sell that just sits in the backroom for 3 months.
Sometimes something gets stolen/broken/etc that makes everyone think it's out of stock and yet there really is something in the backâmuch to our surpriseâbut unless the backroom is in good order (and usually it's not, due to not having enough workers), it's gonna take 45 minutes to 3 hours to find exactly what we're looking for, since there's a bunch of other stock and also seasonal products that we have to shift through. And since there's often not enough workers, then whoever is sent back doesn't actually have enough time to actually look and can only pretend to look before they gotta get back to the floor to get back to their tasks on hand.
#it's just not there and people don't believe you when you say âsorry it's not thereâ lol#worst is when something *has* been stolen/destroyed/lost but nobody caught it and it ends up sold out with stock sitting at +1 or +2#then customer is usually confused why it would still be in-stock online/in-app/on our inventory scanners and we can't help them#the best we can do is check to see if other stores nearby have it and only the ones in our systems#depending on the store they may be able specially order something to be shipped to the store for the customer to pick up in 2-3 days#but usually that's only at stores that offer big/pricey items
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temptation | lee heeseung pt 2
âś summary: having just completed your graduate work in psychotherapy, youâre eager to begin a career as a marriage counselor. you land a job as a counselor at a matchmaking firm for millionaires and meet heeseung, a charismatic client who makes no effort to hide his attraction to you. the only catch is...heâs engaged.
ËËËpairing: billionaire!heeseung x f!reader â genre: marriage counselor au â word count: 19.0k â staring: chisa (22)- xg, yunho(23)- ateez, jaehyun(22)- bnd, heeseung (23) + jake (22) + jay (22) + sunghoon (22)- enhypen, sakura (24)- le sserafim, karina (24)- aespa, danielle (20)- new jeans. âś warnings:mentions of anxiety and depression, therapy speak, lots of swearing, cheating, soft dom!hee, sub!reader, oral (f + m receiving), p in v intercourse, protected sex, dirty talk, praise, brief breast play, fingering, vanillaish sex, slight body worship, talk about childhood trauma, consumption of alcohol, mentions of abortion (not reader), invasion of privacy, inappropriate relationship dynamics, talk of assisted living, mention of a suicide attempt, allusions of starving yourself, mentions of anti- depressants, vague talk of ptsd, mentions of verbal abuse, heeseung doesnât have good parents, physical altercation, online bullying (knets have a field day with u), heeseung is v insecure and has some emotional trauma. please let me know if iâve missed anything!
âŕ: the full version, uninterrupted can be found on my ao3 here. thank you so much for reading this monster of a fic! i love and appreciate every single one of you!
SATURDAY FEBRUARY 22ND, 2025
Itâs been a week since the kiss. A week since everything spiraled out of control.
Youâve been rotting away in your bed, hidden beneath blankets like a child hiding from monsters only this time, the monster isnât under your bedâitâs in your chest, clawing at your heart every time you think about him.
The first thing you did the morning after was log into your work account and cash in some of your sick days. You needed a way to avoid the office, a way to avoid him. Dani emailed you a few small assignments, things you could complete from home so it was easy to play the role of someone mildly under the weather. A few sniffles over the phone and vague mentions of a stomach bug and Miss Min didnât even question it.
Sakura still being in Japan has worked to your advantage. With her busy filming schedule, the usual meetings and updates have been sparse. Miss Min has been surprisingly lenient, perhaps assuming that youâre taking this time to recover before things pick up again.
But youâre not recovering. If anything, youâre unraveling.
You havenât stepped out of your apartment in days, let alone made an attempt to eat properly or take care of yourself. The bare minimumâreplying to work emails and completing small tasksâis the only thing tethering you to reality.
You know youâre running out of time. Eventually, Miss Min will expect you back in the office and when that day comes, youâll have no choice but to face the truth. Youâll have to tell her to reassign Heeseung and Sakuraâs case to someone else.
The thought of it paralyzes you. Once you remove yourself, thatâs it. Youâll have no reason to see him anymore. No excuse to hear his voice or watch the way he absentmindedly taps his pen against the desk during meetings. No more pretending that youâre just doing your job when deep down, you know youâve already failed at keeping your feelings in check.
Heeseung hasnât reached out. Not once. No calls, no texts, no emails. Nothing.
It shouldnât hurt this much. Youâre the one who left his home without a word, too embarrassed to face what youâd done. Youâre the one whoâs been avoiding him like the plague hoping that the distance will make it easier to let go. But his silence feels like a confirmation of your worst fearâthat he regrets everything.
The memory of that night replays in your mind on a loop. The way his lips felt against yours, the way he held you, the way he took care of you.
Itâs torture, and youâve trapped yourself in it.
Your friends have noticed, of course. How could they not?
It started with Yunho.
He texted a few days ago, saying heâd made a big batch of jjajangmyeon and that you should come over for dinner. Normally, youâd jump at the chance to eat anything Yunho cookedâhe has a talent for cooking. But you declined claiming you werenât feeling well.
His reply was immediate.Â
5:25pm | yuyuđŤ: u never turn down foodâŚare you sure ur okay?
You typed out a response. Deleted it. Typed out another. Deleted that one too. Finally, you settled on:
5:36 pm | you: iâm fine. just tired. thanks for the offer.
Then there was Jaehyun.
He called the following evening, his tone light and casual. âHey, want to grab drinks after my shift? Itâs been a while since we caught up.â
Normally, youâd agree in a heartbeat. Jaehyunâs presence was easy and comforting, and nights out with him always left you feeling lighter but the thought of facing anyone, even someone as laid-back as Jaehyun, felt impossible.
âIâm not in the mood,â you said, your voice quieter than usual.
âNot in the mood for drinks?â he repeated, his tone disbelieving. âSince when?â
You forced a weak laugh. âRain check?â
He didnât press, but the concern in his voice lingered long after the call ended.
Finally, there was Chisa.
She didnât bother with subtlety. One afternoon, she stormed into your room, keys in hand. âGet dressed,â she said firmly. âWeâre going to the mall.â
You blinked at her from your cocoon of blankets, confused and slightly annoyed. âIâm good,â you muttered, burrowing deeper into your bed.
âIâll buy you makeup,â she added, a note of bribery in her voice. âWhatever you want.â
Normally, youâd jump at the offer. You loved makeup, and free makeup was even better. But the idea of standing under bright store lights, pretending to be okay, was unbearable.
âI already have more than enough makeup,â you said, turning away.
Chisa didnât argue. She just stood there for a moment, watching you with an expression that made your chest ache, before leaving the room without another word.
That was two days ago. Itâs now past midday and youâre still in bed. The room is dark, save for the faint light filtering through the curtains. Your stomach growls but you donât have the energy to cook let alone eat.
Youâre about to close your eyes again when the door to your room bursts open.
âWhat theâ?â You sit up abruptly, squinting against the sudden intrusion.
Your friends stand in the doorway, each of them wearing expressions ranging from concern to frustration.
âWhat are you doing?â you ask, your voice hoarse from disuse.
Jaehyun strides forward without answering, grabbing the edge of your blanket.
âJaehyun!â you protest, clutching the fabric tightly. âWhat are you doing?â
âTaking care of you since you clearly canât do it yourself,â he snaps, his voice sharper than youâre used to.
âStop it!â You tug back on the blanket, growing annoyed but Jaehyun doesnât let go.
âHey, hey,â Yunho interjects, stepping between the two of you. âLetâs all calm down.â He turns to you, his voice softer. âWeâre just worried about you. You havenât seemed like yourself lately.â
You sigh, wrapping your arms around yourself. âIâm fine, justââ
âSick,â Chisa interrupts, crossing her arms. âYeah, we know. Thatâs what you want us to believe.â
Jaehyun scoffs. âYou rarely missed a day of class in college, even if you were sick so excuse me if weâre not buying that excuse this time.â
You stare at them blankly unsure of how to respond.
Chisa steps closer, kneeling in front of you. Her voice is gentle as she says, âWeâre just worried about you, ____. This isnât⌠normal. Please, just tell us whatâs going on so we can help.â
Tears sting your eyes, but you blink them away. âI just needed a week off. Iâll be okay.â
Yunho sits beside you on the bed, his presence warm. âWe canât force you to talk about something youâre clearly not ready to share,â he says. âBut at least let us help you.â
Jaehyun sighs, his frustration melting as he sees the tears threatening to fall. âWe donât have to talk about it. We can just order takeout and binge-watch early 2000s shows⌠just stop icing us out. Please. We love you and want to help you.â
The dam breaks.
You start crying, the sound raw and unrestrained. Your friends donât say anythingâthey just surround you, pulling you into a group hug.
Yunho is the first to pull away, sniffling quietly as he stands. âIâll order the food,â he says, his voice thick with emotion.
Jaehyun follows, mumbling something about not wanting to cry in front of you.
Chisa stays, holding you until your sobs subside. She rubs your back soothingly and says, âWhatever it is, know that youâll overcome it.â
You nod weakly, more out of instinct than belief. Deep down, you donât think youâll overcome thisânot when âthisâ is Lee Heeseung. How could you possibly move on from him?
You donât think youâve ever felt this way about anyone before. Itâs not just the heartbreakâitâs the way he made you feel so seen. Youâve spent so much of your life hiding parts of yourself, keeping your scars neatly tucked away but Heeseung made it feel safe to let them show.
Most people donât know why you became a marriage counselor. Youâve always lied whenever the question came up, saying you âjust love love,â but the truth is messier and darker. Your fatherâs infidelity, your motherâs quiet suffering and your own helplessness in the face of it all shaped you. You wanted to help people in ways you couldnât help her. But itâs not something you ever talk aboutânot until Heeseung.
He was the first person outside of your friends whom you willingly opened up to. The first person you wanted to open up to. And when you did, his response wasnât pity or judgment. It was understanding. He didnât tell you to move on or let it go. He simply listened, offering quiet reassurances. His words didnât just soothe your present selfâŚthey reached that fractured little girl you used to be, the one who just wanted someone to tell her it wasnât her fault.
And Heeseung⌠he understood because heâd been there too. Despite living in the aftermath of his brotherâs attempted suicide, enduring his fatherâs suffocating demands and his motherâs overbearing love, he hadnât become some cold-hearted monster. He had every reason to, but he didnât.
Sure, he has his flaws. Heâs scared of vulnerability, keeps people at armâs length and hides behind a playboy persona. But you see through itâitâs all armor. He doesnât want people to see the cracks, to know he has weaknesses they could exploit. And yet with you, he tore all those walls down. He let you see the version of himself that never got to exist when he was younger.
The version he even hides now.
Youâd give anything to make sure heâs never hurt again. To ensure he never has to hide or water himself down. To guarantee he can just be himselfâhappy, unburdened and free. But you canât.
Because youâre not from his world. Youâre not the person heâs supposed to choose. And even if you were, some part of you thinks this loveâthis all-consuming loveâmight be too much. Too much for Heeseung.
But not because he doesnât deserve it. No, Heeseung deserves the kind of love that heals, that lets him breathe, that doesnât ask for anything he canât give. But itâs the weight of it, the enormity of what it would mean to truly care for someone like him that gives you pause.
You havenât forgotten about him forcing his ex-girlfriend to get an abortion, itâs stuck with you since you overheard it. You never brought it up, never asked Heeseung to clarify but it lingers. It colors how you see him, even if you donât want it to. You donât believe Heeseung is the kind of man who would demand something so cruel, so selfish but the seed of doubt is there. And it terrifies you.
Because if youâre wrong, if he really did that, what does that say about him? About you for wanting to believe in him so badly?
But even without knowing the truth, you can feel how carefully Heeseung treads around the idea of vulnerability. Itâs in the way he deflects, the way he keeps people at a distance, the way his sharp words mask the pain he doesnât think anyone notices. Loving someone like that would require patienceâŚendless patience and youâre not sure if even that would be enough.
Heeseung doesnât halfass anything, he said so himself. He doesnât know how to. If he let himself fall for you, it would be all-encompassing. Consuming. He would give you everything he has, every vulnerable piece of himself heâs spent years hiding away. And thatâs what scares you. Not that he wouldnât love you enough, but that heâd love you too much.
That kind of love comes with expectations, with vulnerabilities Heeseung might not be ready to face. Itâs one thing for him to care for someone in theory, to keep his emotions safely compartmentalized, but to truly open himself up? To risk that kind of pain again? Youâre not sure he can.
And then thereâs the other part, the part you donât want to admit even to yourself: what if itâs not enough? What if youâre not enough? What if he gives you everything and you still canât reach him? What if the walls heâs built are so strong that even love canât break them down?
So you hesitate. Not because you donât want him, but because you do. Because the thought of not being enough for him is unbearable.
You lean into Chisaâs embrace, letting the tears spill over again silent now but no less heavy. The weight of it all, the longing, the guilt, the hopelessnessâfeels unbearable.
You donât think youâll ever overcome Lee Heeseung.
Chisa helps you out of bed and into the living room, where Yunho pats the spot next to him on the couch. You sit between him and Chisa, feeling their warmth on either side.
Chisa boots up the TV, scrolling through the options. âHow far away is the food?â she asks.
âAnother twenty minutes,â Yunho replies, checking his phone.
Jaehyun comes into the living room, handing you a bottle of water. You smile softly and thank him. He nods, taking a seat beside Yunho.
Chisa selects Thatâs So Raven and hits play. As the theme song fills the room, you glance around at your friends, your heart swelling with gratitude.
You donât deserve them.
But as you sit there, surrounded by their love and support, you realize you canât keep this from them forever. Youâll tell them about Heeseungâonce youâve removed yourself from the case.
For now, you let yourself enjoy the moment knowing it might be the last bit of peace you have before everything falls apart again.
THAT SAME DAY ON THE OTHER SIDE OF TOWN
The ball bounces high off the court, cutting cleanly through the crisp afternoon air. Jay slams it back toward Jake and Heeseungâs side with enough force to make Jake grunt, barely managing to return it. It ricochets toward Heeseungâhis racket is raised and ready, but his reaction time is too slow. The ball whizzes past him, landing well within the lines.
Jay pumps his fist triumphantly. âAnother point for us!â
Jake groans, marching toward Heeseung with his racket pointed accusingly. âYah! Whatâs wrong with you? Weâre losing!â His aussie accent is stronger than ever, laced with the kind of playful exasperation only a best friend can get away with.
Jay and Sunghoon dissolve into laughter at Jakeâs fiery outburst. Itâs Sunghoonâs first time joining their tennis matchesâJake had invited him earlier that week, saying, âHe fits the vibe, trust me.â And so far, Sunghoon had been keeping up, much to Jayâs delight and Jakeâs annoyance.
âSorry,â Heeseung mutters, rubbing the back of his neck. âMy headâs⌠everywhere today.â
âYeah well get it together!â Jake huffs, gesturing dramatically with his racket. âWeâre not losing to these two.â
âHey!â Jay protests, offended. âThese two are crushing you.â
Sunghoon smirks as he twirls his racket. âNot my fault Heeseungâs got his head in the clouds.â
Jake groans, pushing Heeseung toward his side of the court. âCome on man! Get out of your head and play!â
Heeseung exhales heavily, adjusting his stance to serve. He tosses the ball into the air, his focus sharpening as he swings his racket. The ball zips across the net, hitting the opposite side perfectly.
As the game resumes, Heeseung speaks, his voice low but clear: âI made out with my therapist.â
Jay misses his swing completely, the ball bouncing away. Sunghoon whistles in surprise. Jake freezes, staring at Heeseung like heâs grown a second head.
âYou what?â Jake finally blurts out.
Heeseung shrugs, keeping his expression neutral even as a knot tightens in his chest. âYou heard me.â
Sunghoon fiddles with his racket, clearly intrigued. âWell, this just got interesting.â
Jake recovers first, shaking his head. âWait, wait. Back up. How did that happen?â
Heeseung exhales, running a hand through his hair. âItâs a long story.â
âWeâve got time,â Jay says, walking over to grab the ball.
Heeseung hesitates, but when he sees the curiosityâand concernâin their faces, he decides to tell them everything. âOkay, so you know how my parents forced me to go to that matchmaking firm?â
Jay snorts. âForced is putting it lightly.â
âExactly,â Heeseung mutters. âThey were tired of the tabloids making me look like a⌠well, you know.â
âA whore,â Jake supplies helpfully.
âThank you, Jake,â Heeseung says dryly before continuing. âAnyway, I wasnât taking it seriously at first. But then I met herâ____. Sheâs one of their counselors. The minute I walked into that consultation room and saw herâŚâ He pauses, the memory of that moment flickering in his mind. âShe wasnât like anyone Iâd ever met. She was professional but kind. She didnât look at me like I was some project to fix. Didnât associate me with what the news was sayingâŚ.she just⌠listened.â
Jay raises an eyebrow. âListened?â
âYeah.â Heeseung nods. âLike, really listened. I donât think anyoneâs ever done that before. Not the way she did.â
The game pauses as the four of them linger on Heeseungâs words. Jake twists his racket, visibly intrigued. âSo, what happened?â
Heeseung shifts uncomfortably. âWe had dinner last weekâŚdonât askâŚShe didnât judge me. Didnât push. We talked about everythingâwork, family, life⌠even stuff I donât usually talk aboutâŚlike Heejoon.â
Sunghoon frowns. âWhoâs Heejoon?â
Heeseung hesitates before explaining, âMy brother. He lives in an assisted living facility.â His voice is quieter now, tinged with a sadness he doesnât often show.
Jake and Jay exchange a look. Theyâve known about Heejoon for years but they also know how rarely Heeseung brings him up.
âShe didnât pry,â Heeseung continues. âShe just⌠let me talk. And when I didnât want to talk, she let me sit in silence. Do you know how rare that is?â
Jake whistles softly. âSounds like she really gets you.â
âYeah,â Heeseung says, almost to himself. âShe does.â
Jay watches him closely, his expression thoughtful. âIt sounds like you like her.â
Heeseungâs grip tightens on the racket, his jaw clenching. The idea strikes a nerve, one heâs not ready to confront. He tried to ignore his feelings when they first started surfacingâduring that one-on-one meeting at the hotel bar.
He brushed it off as professional interest, convinced himself it was just admiration for your work. But then you started slipping into his thoughts more often than he liked to admit.
And now, standing with his friends on this tennis court, the reality of it feels inescapable.
He doesnât want to like you. The idea terrifies him. Liking you would mean opening himself up and heâs learned the hard way what happens when he lets someone in. Vulnerability is a risk heâs not sure heâs willing to take again. Itâs safer to keep things on the surface, where emotions canât dig too deep, where people canât get close enough to hurt him.
But this⌠this feels different.
The way you listen to him without judgment, the way you genuinely seem to careâitâs unlike anything heâs experienced in years. You donât expect him to be the perfect son, the unshakable CEO, or the carefree charmer everyone else sees. You let him be Heeseungâmessy, flawed, and real. And somehow, thatâs scarier than anything else.
"I donât like her," Heeseung replies, his tone sharper than he intended. "Itâs not like that."
Jay shrugs, setting up another serve. "Hate the message, not the messenger."
The ball flies across the net, but the tension remains. Jake eventually breaks the silence. "Okay, but Jayâs right. This is the most attention weâve seen you willingly give someone since... well, you know." He stops abruptly, glancing at Jay as the ball falls flat in front of Sunghoon.
Jay glares. âDonât.â
âWhat?â Jake says innocently. âI didnât say her name.â
Sunghoon frowns, looking between them. âWho are we talking about?â
Heeseung exhales heavily, his shoulders sagging. "You can say her name. Itâs not the end of the world."
Jake takes it upon himself to explain, filling Sunghoon in as they continue their game. "Heeseung dated this girl, Karina, back in college. She was the first person who got through to him during his...experimental phase." He dodges a stray ball from Heeseung before continuing. "He actually wanted to be monogamous with her."
Sunghoon raises an eyebrow, surprised. Jay adds, "Shocking, I know."
Sunghoon serves, the ball whizzing over the net. "So, what happened?"
Heeseung remains silent, his jaw tightening. Jake picks up where he left off. "Heeseung was still... figuring things out and Karina got self-conscious about all the attention their relationship got."
Jay continues, his tone more measured. âIt wasnât just the attention. Karina wasâŚinsecure. Heseung was the only person she had ever been with, but she wasnât his first anything. All those other girls heâd been with? It got in her head. She started wondering if she was good enough.â
Sunghoon nods slowly. âSo what, she wanted a break?â
âYeah,â Jay says. âShe said she needed to figure out what she really wanted. Heeseung knew what that meant but he didnât think sheâd actually sleep with someone else.â
Jake takes over, his tone blunt. âShe got pregnant by another guy.â
Sunghoonâs jaw drops. âSeriously?â
Jay snickers. âAnd lover boy over there,â he tilts his head in Heeseungs direction as he prepares to serve, âdidnât care, he offered to help her raise the baby.â
Jake bursts out laughing, striking the ball back. âThe dad that stepped up!â
Heeseung rolls his eyes. âVery funny.â
Sunghoon studies him quietly. âSo⌠what happened?â
âShe said it wouldnât be fair to me,â Heeseung says quietly. âThat I deserved more than being tied down to someone elseâs mistake. So we ended things.â
Jake adds, âBut her friends didnât see it that way. They told everyone Heeseung dumped her because she wouldnât get an abortion. People thought the baby was his. Karina transferred schools to get away from the mess.â
Sunghoon whistles, shaking his head. âThatâs⌠a lot.â
âYeah,â Jake says. âWe had to pick up the mess she left behind. Heeseung was a wreck.â
Jay nods. "It was a mess. Heeseung didnât bother correcting the narrative. He figured it was better to let people hate him if it meant theyâd leave Karina alone."
Heeseung fixes his gaze on Jayâs new serve but his mind is far away. Jakeâs words echo in his head dredging up memories heâs tried to bury.
It all started so innocently. Karina had crashed into him in the hallway outside their dorm rooms, her lab manual and papers went flying across the floor. She was in such a rush, barely looking at him as she muttered a quick âsorryâ and darted off after Heeseung helped pick up her notes. Heâd laughed it off at the time, figuring she was just another busy college student.
But then he started noticing her more. She was his next-door neighbor after all. He saw her leaving for early classes, hair in a messy ponytail, coffee cup in hand. He caught glimpses of her in the common areas, always with her head buried in a textbook or her laptop.
The first real conversation they had was late one night when he came back from a party. She was in the dorm lounge, slumped over her laptop, tears streaming down her face. He didnât even know why heâd stoppedânormally, he wouldâve just kept walking. But something about the way she looked so defeated and alone made him pause.
He found out she was locked out of her room, freezing, starving, and overwhelmed by a cell bio lab report she had no idea how to write. Heeseung hadnât planned to stay. He told himself he was just being nice when he ordered Mexican food for them and offered up his room for her to work in. But as the hours passed, as he stayed up helping her find sources and cracking jokes to make her laugh, something shifted.
That night, he realized he wanted to see her again. And he didâagain and again. Their friendship grew and somewhere along the way he fell for her. Hard.
He didnât even notice at first. It wasnât one big moment, but a series of small ones: the way sheâd scrunch her nose when she was concentrating, how her laughter lit up a room, the way she listened when he talked, like he was the most interesting person in the world. Heeseung started skipping parties, hanging out with her instead. For the first time in a long time, he didnât feel the need to impress anyone or put on a front. He could just be himself.
When they started dating, it felt like a dream. But dreams donât last.
Karina wasnât like himâshe wasnât used to the attention, the whispers, the gossip. His past flings made it worse, their snarky comments and passive-aggressive stares feeding her insecurities. He tried to reassure her, to show her she was the only one who mattered, but it wasnât enough.
When she asked for a break Heeseung gave her space even though it tore him apart. He told himself sheâd come back, that theyâd work things out. Heeseung still remembers the night she told him. Sheâd shown up at his door, tears in her eyes, her hands shaking. He thought she was there to reconcile, to tell him she was ready to try again. Instead, she told him about the baby.
He couldâve walked away. A part of him wanted to. But the love he felt for her, the kind that makes you want to stay even when it hurtsâkept him rooted in place.
Heeseung argued and pleaded but she wouldnât budge. She told him she loved him too much to let him sacrifice his future for her mistakes.
When the rumors startedâthat the baby was his and heâd dumped her because she wouldnât get an abortionâHeeseung didnât correct them. What was the point?
She transferred schools soon after, and that was the end of it. The end of them.
Heeseung exhales sharply, his chest stinging at the memory. Heâs not in love with Karina anymore, he knows that. But what they had, how it ended, left scars heâs still dealing with.
She was his first love, the first person he let himself be vulnerable with and she left.
Now, the idea of letting someone in like that again terrifies him. What if they leave too? What if heâs not enough?
Sunghoon glances at Heeseung, who is unusually quiet. The tabloids had painted a picture of him as a careless playboy, but this version of Heeseungâreserved, contemplativeâdidnât fit that image. As Heeseung serves again, Sunghoonâs perspective shifts. Heeseung isnât aloof; heâs guarded, carrying the weight of past scars and unspoken emotions.
âPoint is,â Jay finally says, breaking the silence, âyou deserve to be happy, Heeseung. And it sounds like this girlâ____, makes you happy. Maybe itâs worth giving it a shot.â
Heeseungâs grip on his racket tightens, his gaze distant. âI know. But thatâs what scares me.â
Jay frowns. âWhy?â
Heeseung hesitates, then sighs. âBecause people like her donât exist in my world. Genuine, kind⌠Itâs easier to push her away than risk losing her.â
The silence stretches between them as the weight of his words settles.
Jake tilts his head, his voice uncharacteristically serious. âWhatâs worse? Losing her because you didnât try, or losing her after you gave it your all?â
Jay nods, his expression softening. âWhatever makes you happy, man. Youâve spent years doing what everyone else wants. Maybe itâs time to focus on what you want. You deserve to be happy.â
Heeseung looks at Jay, his jaw clenching as he processes his friendâs words. He knows theyâre right. They always are. But admitting what he wantsâadmitting that he wants youâis the hardest part.
Sunghoon, who has been quietly observing, finally speaks. âYou should go for it, man. Youâre right, there arenât a lot of genuine people in our world but it sounds like youâve found someone who cares about you...why pass that up?â
Jake grins, the humor creeping back into his tone. âPlus, sheâs a therapist. Iâm sure she can help you sort through those deep-seated mommy and daddy issues.â
Heeseung snorts, shaking his head. âFuck off.â
As they pack up their equipment, Heeseung lingers, his mind replaying the events of the past week. The kiss, the way youâd looked at him, the vulnerability in your eyesâit had all felt so real. But the morning after, you were gone. No explanation, no goodbye. Just... gone.
He remembers waking up, hoping to talk things out, to figure out what the kiss meant for both of you. Heâd wanted to kiss you again, to tell you that he didnât regret it. But your absence had said it all. You regretted it. You didnât want him.
Thatâs why he hadnât reached out. Heâd convinced himself that you needed space, that pushing you would only make things worse. But now, after hearing his friends, heâs starting to question that logic. Maybe heâs been using your disappearance as an excuse to protect himself. Maybe itâs time to take a risk.
As the sun sets, Heeseung sits in his car, gripping the steering wheel tightly. The echoes of Jayâs words ring in his ears: "You deserve to be happy."
For the first time in days, he pulls out his phone, his fingers hovering over your contact. His heart pounds as he considers what to say, what to do. He doesnât callânot yetâbut the decision is made. Heâs going to reach out. Heâs going to try.
Because Jay is right: he deserves to be happy, and maybe youâre the person who can help him find that happiness.
MONDAY FEBRUARY 24TH, 2025
Youâre standing in front of the glass doors to your office building clutching your bag with both hands as if it might slip away and drag you with it. The week you took off feels like a fever dream nowâblurry and surreal but undeniably real in the toll itâs taken on your body and mind. Youâve barely slept, barely eaten, and every fiber of your being wants to turn around and leave. But you canât.
You exhale shakily, willing your feet to move. The lobby is bustling as usualâfaces you donât recognize weaving in and out, some rushing to catch elevators, others lingering by the cafĂŠ for their first caffeine hit of the day.
For a moment, you imagine Jaehyun here, waiting in the corner like he offered. He had insisted on accompanying you today, his day off but you turned him down. âIâll be fine,â youâd said, more to convince yourself than him. The truth is, you donât feel fine. Not even close.
Your resolve wavers as you step into the elevator, but you clutch your bag tighter and remind yourself of your plan. Drop off your things, go straight to Miss Min and request to be removed from the case. Thatâs it. Thatâs all you have to do. You donât have any sessions today so youâre free to do paperwork in the comfort of your office alone.
The elevator dings, the doors sliding open to reveal the familiar hallway. Your heart pounds harder with each step, dread clawing at your chest.
The firm feels unfamiliar after just a week away. You round the corner to your office but stop dead in your tracks.
Sakura is standing there, waiting for you. The sight of her sends your heart plummeting into your stomach.
Her outfit is immaculate as always, a Dior top tucked into high-waisted jeans, a fluffy tote bag slung over one shoulder. She looks stunning, almost as if she just stepped out of a magazine spread.
What is she doing here?
You donât have a scheduled meeting with her today and the possibilities racing through your mind only make the anxiety worse. Did Heeseung tell her about the kiss? Is she here to confront you?
You swallow hard and force a polite smile, hoping it doesnât look as strained as it feels. âSakura, hi. What brings you here?â
Her smile is warm and genuine, completely disarming. âI finally found an opening in my schedule,â she says. âI know itâs last minute and Iâm sorry but I really wanted to have that one-on-one time with you.â
Your heart sinks further.
Oh.
Sheâs not here to accuse you of anything. Sheâs here because she thinks youâre someone she can trust.
Staring into her kind eyes feels unbearable knowing what youâve done.
âOh, umâŚâ You hesitate, glancing at the door to your office. âActually, I donât⌠I canât today. Iâm sorry. I donât have time.â
You try to sidestep her, desperate to escape into the relative safety of your office but Sakura gently places a hand on your arm, stopping you.
âIâm sorry,â she says softly, her tone almost pleading. âI really donât mean to impose, but this is my only free day off. Please?â
Thereâs something so sincere in her voice, something that twists the knife of guilt even deeper. You have no right to deny her this. Itâs quite literally the least you could do.
You nod reluctantly, forcing a small smile. âOkay. What did you have in mind?â
Sakuraâs face lights up as she lifts her tote bag slightly. âCrocheting! I brought some of my materials.â
You smile softly remembering her mentioning it was a hobby of hers. âCrocheting?â
âYeah!â she says, her excitement palpable. âI thought it might be a fun way for us to spend time together.â
âSure,â you say quietly, nodding toward your office. âWe can work in here. Weâll have it to ourselves.â
You lead her inside, offering her the seat across from your desk. She immediately starts unpacking her suppliesârolls of yarn in soft pastels, a variety of hooks, and a pattern book.
âHave you ever crocheted before?â she asks, glancing up at you with a smile.
You shake your head. âNo, never.â
Sakura grins. âPerfect. Iâll teach you the basics.â
Sheâs patient as she explains each step, showing you how to hold the hook and yarn, how to make a simple chain. Her enthusiasm is infectious and for a brief moment you almost forget the fact that you kissed her fiancĂŠe.
When she hands you a pattern sheâs already startedâa small flower, you thank her and begin carefully following her instructions. Meanwhile, she starts on a new project.
âWhat are you making?â you ask after a while, glancing at the soft gray yarn in her hands.
âA scarf,â she says, her voice light. âItâs getting colder, and I want Heeseung to stay warm.â
Your hands falter, the hook slipping from your fingers. You force yourself to recover quickly, pretending to focus on the flower in your lap.
âDo youâŚâ You hesitate, your voice barely above a whisper. âDo you have feelings for him?â
Sakura blushes, her fingers pausing for a moment before resuming their work. âI know it probably sounds stupid because, well, why would the âperfect princessâ want the messed-up playboy?â
She sighs, her voice soft and contemplative. âI donât know. I canât help but like him.â
You nod slowly, understanding all too well how easy it is to fall for Heeseung, especially when he lets his guard down.
âYou donât have to rationalize why you like him,â you say quietly.
Sakura smiles faintly, her gaze focused on her work. âI see myself in him, you know? Spending your whole life in the spotlightâŚit forces you to become someone else. I see that with Heeseung. He hides so much of himself but I know thereâs more to him than what he lets people see.â
You nod again, unsure of what to say. The conversation feels like walking a tightrope.
Sakura continues, her voice softer now. âI think heâs very guarded. He keeps me at a distance but I believe if we keep working with you, heâll learn to open up. He can be a good husband, I know he can.â
Her words hit you like a punch to the gut. You have no doubt either that Heeseung would make an amazing husband. You swallow the lump in your throat and force a small smile. âYouâreâŚgood at seeing the best in people.â
She looks up at you, her expression thoughtful. âDo you think thatâs a bad thing?â
âNo,â you say quickly looking back at the flower. âButâŚdo you think you like him for who he is now, or for who you think he could be?â
Sakura tilts her head, considering your question. âCanât it be both? Canât I like him and also want to help him become the best version of himself?â
You hesitate, your fingers tightening around the yarn in your lap. âMaybe. But sometimes, when we try to âfixâ someone, we end up falling for the version of them weâve created in our heads, not the person they really are.â
You donât know why youâre saying thisâor maybe you do. Maybe itâs because youâve seen the real Heeseung. Thereâs no need for you to imagine who he is or who he could become because you know. You know his flaws, his frustrations, the way his voice sharpens when heâs annoyed, and how his smile softens when he talks about the things that matter to him. And despite all of itâno, because of all of itâŚ.you still like him.
Heeseung doesnât need fixing. He deserves to be loved unconditionally, not molded into someone elseâs ideal.
You glance at Sakura. She doesnât seem like the type to love with limits. Sheâs earnest, kind, and patient in a way youâve never been. If Heeseung allowed himself to get to know her, you could see them being happy together. She would lay her life down to ensure his happiness.
But you?
Youâd let the world burn if it meant keeping him safe. Youâd tear the universe apart just to put him back together.
Itâs an unbearable truth, one you wish you could erase from yourself because no matter how much you care for him, you know that itâs unfair to Sakura.
Sakura nods slowly, her gaze distant. âI guess thatâs something Iâll have to figure out. ButâŚI care about him. And I want to see him happy, whether thatâs with me or not.â
âDo you mean it?â you ask hesitantly.
Sakura looks up, confused. âMean what?â
âWhen you say you wouldnât mind if Heeseung chose someone else,â you clarify. âDo you really mean that?â
Her fingers pause mid-stitch, and she looks thoughtful. âIt would hurt,â she admits. âIâve come to care about him but I think we both deserve to be with someone who loves us completely. Donât you?â
You nod slowly.
âI believe he could be that person for me,â Sakura continues, her voice soft. âBut if he isnât, I wonât force it. Iâve spent too much of my life trying to fit into roles that werenât meant for me. I deserve someone who loves me for who I am and so does he.â
âThank you,â you say softly, your voice barely audible.
âFor what?â
âFor trusting me with this.â You respond.
Sakura smiles warmly. âYouâre easy to talk to. I can see why Heeseung respects you so much.â
You lower your gaze, unable to meet her eyes. âIâm just doing my job.â
The conversation drifts back to lighter topics as you continue crocheting, but the weight of your guilt never leaves. When the hour is up, you see Sakura out and close the door behind her and lean against it, exhaling shakily. You need to remove yourself.
Crossing the room, you settle into your chair and reach for the files neatly stacked on your desk. Your fingers tremble as you sift through the documents; session notes, progress reports, everything youâve meticulously prepared over the past month for Heeseung and Sakura.
This was supposed to be just another assignment, your first major case as part of the matchmaking firmâs elite team. You were supposed to help them establish trust, lay the groundwork for a successful marriage and ensure the media viewed them as the perfect couple. But somewhere along the way, it became personal.
You canât do this anymore. Not when youâve crossed lines you swore you wouldnât. Not when youâve let yourself feel things you shouldnât.
Gathering the files into a tidy stack, you take a deep breath and stand. Youâll bring these to Miss Min and request to be removed from the case. Itâs the only way to salvage whatâs left of your integrity and maybe even your sanity.But before you can take a step, thereâs a knock at your door.
âCome in.â
The door opens to reveal Dani with a bright smile plastered across her face. She steps inside, holding a clipboard in one hand and a tablet in the other.
âHey, just the person I was looking for!â she says cheerfully.
You blink, setting the files back down on your desk. âWhatâs up?â
âMiss Min wanted me to stop by and let you know something,â Dani says, her tone chipper. âShe saw Sakura in your office earlier and said youâve been doing a great job with this case. And since there hasnât been any bad press with Heeseung lately, she thinks tomorrowâs the perfect day to announce their engagement!â
The words hit you like a freight train. Tomorrow.
You knew this day was comingâitâs what youâve been working toward. But now that itâs here, the reality of it is suffocating. You force yourself to nod. âThatâsâŚgreat news.â
Daniâs smile widens. âI know, right? This was your first major case and you killed it! Miss Min is definitely going to put you in charge of more high-profile clients after this.â
âYeah,â you say quietly, the word feeling hollow. âIâm happy.â
Dani doesnât seem to notice the strain in your voice. She beams at you one last time before turning to leave but then she pauses and looks back over her shoulder.
âOh, and Miss Min said youâve earned a day off tomorrow. Just be on standby in case Heeseung or Sakura need anything.â
You nod again, managing a faint smile. âThanks for letting me know.â
âNo problem! Enjoy your night!â Dani chirps before disappearing out the door.
The moment sheâs gone, you sink back into your chair, the files still sitting in front of you. Tomorrow. It feels like a death sentence.
Youâre supposed to be proud of yourself, supposed to feel accomplished for guiding Heeseung and Sakura to this point. But all you feel is empty.
Your gaze drifts to your phone on the desk and as if on cue, the screen lights up with a text notification.
9:12 am | heeseung: hey, can we talk?9:14 am | heeseung: please come over tonight.
Your heart pounds as you stare at the messages. You know what you should do. You should say no, maintain the little professional boundaries left and keep your distance. You should focus on preparing yourself for tomorrow, for the inevitable. But you canât.
Youâve always been selfish when it comes to Heeseung, unable to deny him anything. So you type out a reply before you can think better of it.
9:22 am | you: iâll stop by after work.
Setting the phone down, you try to convince yourself that this will be the last time. Youâll go over there, tell him the kiss was a mistake and tell him about the engagement announcement. Youâll encourage him to give Sakura a real chance.
Yeah, youâll do the right thing.
You spend the rest of the afternoon finishing up paperwork, your mind elsewhere the entire time. By the time the clock hits 7 p.m, youâve packed up your things and are preparing to leave when your phone buzzes with an incoming FaceTime call.
Itâs Yunho.
You sigh softly before answering, his smiling face filling the screen.
âYo,â he greets. âYou up for game night at mine? Chisaâs already on her way.â
You hesitate, âI canât tonight. My first day back was a bit overwhelming. I just need some sleep.â
Yunho frowns, clearly not convinced. âYou sure? I donât want you falling back into a slump.â
âIâm fine. I promise. Just tired. Iâll stop by tomorrowâIâm off, so Iâll spend the whole day with you.â
He studies you for a moment before nodding reluctantly. âAlright. But you better not flake on me.â
âI wonât,â you say softly. âThanks, Yunho.â
âAnytime,â he says before ending the call.
You exhale slowly, setting your phone aside. You gather your things and head to your car. The drive to Heeseungâs home feels excruciatingly long, your thoughts racing the entire way. By the time you pull up to his home your nerves are frayed but you force yourself to get out of the car and head inside.
This is it. One last time.
You make your way up the familiar stone steps to Heeseungâs front door. Your hand hovers for a moment before you knock, three soft taps against the wood.
A beat passes. Then another. Then another. For a moment, you wonder if he changed his mind about wanting to see you, but then you hear the faint shuffle of footsteps on the other side. The door opens, revealing Heeseung. His expression is unreadable.
âHey,â he says softly, his voice a little raspy.
âHey,â you reply.
He steps aside to let you in and you hesitantly cross the threshold, the warmth of his home doing little to soothe the chill in your bones. The atmosphere is tense and awkward in a way that neither of you seems to know how to address.
The last time it felt like this was the first time you met him, when you were still trying to figure him out and he was sizing you up in return. That day, you were both strangers, carefully tiptoeing around each other. And nowâŚnow, things couldnât be more complicated.
Heeseung leads you into the living room and gestures for you to sit and you do, choosing the far end of the couch. The space you put between you feels significant, like a boundary youâre desperately trying to maintain.
Heeseung watches you for a moment before sitting down as well, leaning back slightly but keeping his eyes fixed on you. You clutch the strap of your bag, running your fingers along the leather in an attempt to calm yourself. The silence is thick, and you donât know how to start.
You break first. âMiss Min is announcing the engagement tomorrow.â
The words hang in the air. You glance at him but his expression doesnât betray much. Heeseungâs gaze shifts away for a moment then back to you. His jaw tightens and he exhales deeply.
âIâm calling it off,â he says suddenly, his voice steady and sure.
Your heart stops. You stare at him, certain you misheard. âW-what?â
âIâm calling it off,â he repeats, turning to face you fully. His eyes are locked onto yours, and the intensity in them makes it impossible to look away. âIâm done prioritizing everyone elseâs happiness over my own. I canât keep pretending to be okay with this.â
You blink at him stunned. Your mind races, trying to make sense of his words. âHeeseungâŚyou canât justââ
âI donât want Sakura,â he interrupts. He leans forward slightly, closing some of the distance between you. âI want you.â
The confession feels like a punch to the gut. You shake your head, your hands gripping the strap of your bag even tighter. âNo. Heeseung, you donât mean that.â
âI do,â he says without hesitation. âIâve tried to deny it, to push it down but I canât anymore. I canât lie to myselfâor to you.â
âHeeseungââ
âI know this isnât how things were supposed to happen. I know the way this started was unconventional but none of that changes the way I feel about you.â
Youâre frozen, unable to respond.
âI like you. Iâve spent the past month trying to ignore it, trying to convince myself that it was justâŚa passing thing. But itâs not. I canât stop thinking about you. About the way you challenge me, the way you see through all the bullshit, the way you care.â He says, his voice trembling just slightly.Â
His words are a direct hit to your heart. You swallow hard, your throat tight as tears prick at the corners of your eyes. âI want you too,â you admit, your voice barely audible. âBut we canât.â
âWhy not? Who says we canât?â He asks, his tone almost desperate now. He scoots closer to you on the couch, his knees brushing against yours.
You shake your head, trying to find the right words. âBecauseâŚbecause itâs messy and wrong, Heeseung. Youâre engaged to someone else. Someone kind and sweet who doesnât deserve to be hurt.â
Heeseung reaches out, his hands cupping your face gently forcing you to look at him. His touch is warm. âI donât want her. I want you.â
âHeeseungâŚâ you choke out.
âI donât care how messy it is. I donât care what anyone else thinks. All I care about is you and I need to know if you feel the same.â
You hesitate, your heart conflicting with your mind. Every rational part of you is screaming that this is a mistake, that youâre walking into dangerous territory. But your heartâŚyour heart is begging you to take the leap.
âIâŚâ Your voice falters, and you look into his eyes, the sincerity in them making it impossible to lie. âI do. I feel the same.â
His lips part slightly, relief washing over his face. âThen thatâs all that matters.â
You shake your head again, tears slipping down your cheeks. âBut itâs not that simple.â
âIt is,â he insists, his hands still cradling your face. âIt is if you want it to be. Just say yes.â
âHeeseungâŚâ
âPlease,â he whispers, his voice breaking slightly. âJust say yes.â
Your heart feels like itâs going to explode. You know you shouldnât, you know this is dangerous, but you canât bring yourself to deny him. Youâve never been able to deny him and you donât think you could now, not when heâs looking at you like this, like youâre the only thing that matters in the world.
âOkay,â you whisper, barely able to get the word out. âYes.â
Heeseung exhales sharply, like heâs been holding his breath this entire time. And then before you can second-guess yourself, his lips are on yours. The kiss is soft at first, almost hesitant, but it quickly deepens, his hands sliding to the back of your neck to pull you closer.
You melt into him, every doubt, every fear fading away as his warmth envelops you. In this moment, nothing else matters. Just him. Just this.
You part your lips slightly, letting him deepen the kiss. His tongue brushes against yours and a quiet whimper escapes your throat, the sound swallowed by his kiss. Heeseungâs grip tightens, one hand sliding down to your waist as he pulls you impossibly closer.
You barely register the moment when he tugs you into his lap, your knees straddling him as his hands settle on your hips. You instinctively brace your hands on his shoulders. His warmth radiates through the fabric of his shirt, his broad chest firm beneath your palms. You can feel his heart pounding just as wildly as your own.
It feels right; this moment, his touch, the way he holds you. For a fleeting second, you remember all the things you need to address. All the unanswered questions about how this will work, what it will mean for both of you. But right now, none of that seems important. Right now, you focus on the way his lips move against yours, the way his hands hold you as if he never wants to let go.
Your breath hitches when you feel him harden beneath you, the unmistakable evidence of his desire making heat pool low in your belly. The realization sends a flush of warmth spreading across your cheeks, but Heeseung doesnât give you a moment to linger on it. His grip on your hips tightens slightly as he kisses you deeper.
Without breaking the kiss, he stands, his hands sliding under your thighs to lift you effortlessly. A gasp escapes you, muffled against his mouth as your arms wrap instinctively around his neck. He carries you through the house, navigating the short distance to his bedroom with ease.
When he sets you down on the bed his movements are slow and deliberate. His lips leave yours for a brief moment, and youâre left catching your breath as he pulls back just enough to look at you. The way he gazes down at you makes your chest tighten and pussy clench. Thereâs so much emotion in his eyes, all mixed together in a way that makes you feel both shy and hot under his gaze.
You look away for a moment, heat rising to your cheeks but Heeseung gently tilts your chin back to face him. âDo you want this?â he asks. His hands fall down to your hips, pushing up your blouse to feel the softness of your stomach beneath his palms.
You look at him through your lashes and stare at his face for a minute trying to decipher what heâs thinking. Heâs always been a person who wears their emotions on their face, and now, as you look up into his eyes searching for any hesitationâ you find none. You find nothing but pure want and admiration.
âYes,â you whisper. âI want this. I want you.â
The corners of his lips lift in a small relieved smile and then heâs leaning down again, capturing your mouth in another kiss.
Heeseung pulls back just slightly, his hands still resting on your hips as his eyes search yours. His fingers trail lightly along the hem of your blouse and he murmurs, âRaise your arms for me.â You do as he asks, lifting your arms above your head and Heeseung takes his time peeling your shirt off, his knuckles brushing your skin as he tugs it free. The fabric falls to the floor and he pauses for a moment to take you in. His gaze sweeps over you with such hunger that you lose your breath.
Heeseung pulls his own shirt off in one smooth motion and you canât help but stare. His chest rises and falls steadily, his toned muscles illuminated in the dim light of the room. He catches your gaze and offers you a small reassuring smile as he leans closer again.
You bite your bottom lip suddenly feeling self-conscious under his intense gaze but Heeseung seems to notice. He cups your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly over your skin. âDonât be nervous,â he whispers, his voice gentle, soothing. âIâll be gentle.â
You nod slightly, your lips parting as he leans down to press another kiss to your lips. His hands trail down to the clasp of your bra and he pauses for just a moment, giving you time to stop him if you want to. When you donât, he deftly unhooks it and slides it off your shoulders.
Your breath hitches as the cool air grazes your skin and Heeseung takes a moment to admire you, his eyes softening as if committing every inch of you to memory. His tenderness feels almost overwhelming, and your heart beats wildly as he gently lays you back down on the bed.
He leans in again, placing a soft peck on your lips before his mouth begins a slow descent. His lips trail kisses down your collarbone, lingering for a moment before continuing down the center of your chest.
When his lips reach your navel he pauses, his warm breath fanning over your skin. âCan I taste you baby?â
You shyly nod at the question and use of pet name not used to it. Heeseung shakes his head though, âno baby. I need to hear you say yes. Câmon, let me hear that beautiful voice.â
You lift your hips off his bed not able to voice your wants. He smirks and kisses your naval again. âCâmon baby, tell me what you want.â
You huff frustrated. âHeeseung pleaseâŚI need you.â
âThere we go.â
He helps you unbutton your slacks and slides them down your legs and tosses them onto the growing pile on the floor. Heeseung grips onto the band of your panties and slides them down. Once youâre completely naked, he dips his fingers into your sticky dripping pussy.Â
He hisses at the feeling of your warm cunt wrapped around his fingers âMmm, youâre so wet, baby,â he says, a pathetic whimper escapes you in response.Â
Heesueng dives his head in between your thighs and kisses your clit just once before pulling his head back again. Thereâs a few seconds of silence, of anticipating what heâs going to do next.
You gasp as you watch him lock eyes with you before spitting directly onto your clit. You bite your lip to keep in the moan that wants to escape at the feeling of his spit dripping from your clit down your pussy, making a mess of you and his sheets beneath you.
Heeseung leans back down and latches onto your clit, sucking harshly. Pleasure shoots through your veins and your stomach clenches. Heeseung groans, the vibration making you shake underneath him. His eyes flutter closed, savoring the feeling of your legs thrown over his shoulders and the taste of you.
His tongue laps up your juices, heâs slurping loudly enjoying every drop of your sweet arousal on his tongue. He licks fast up and down your pussy, parting your folds with the tip of his hot tongue. Your legs are shaking, your right hand tangles in his hair to make sure he stays down. "H-heeseung," you hiccup, starting to grind your hips for added pleasure.Â
Heeseung moans, flicking his tongue on your clit quickly. You feel his fingers at your entrance again, playing with your slick, stroking up and down your folds. Your breath quickens more, you can hear your heartbeat in your ears.
âFuck,â you whimper, wincing at the slight burn as he inserts two fingers into you slowly. You havenât had anything inside of you for so long, you welcome the pain that comes with it.
âGonna stretch you out nice and good,â Heeseung growls against your sopping cunt. âMake sure youâre ready to take my fat cock, isnât that right baby?âÂ
You nod dumbly at his words, grinding your hips onto his fingers as the tightening feeling in your lower stomach keeps building.
"Oh, f-fuck, baby, Iâm gonna cum." Youâre starting to babble, moans becoming increasingly higher in pitch. You try pushing yourself higher up on the bed trying to escape his grasp, itâs all too much. Your thighs start shaking and Heeseung takes it upon himself to grip a little tighter to keep you in place.
He practically buries his face in your pussy, stimulating you with his tongue and the tip of his nose whilst still fucking you with his fingers. He grunts, sucking on your pussy whilst flicking his tongue over your swollen clit, his fingers curling deep inside of you.Â
âCum for me doll,â Heeseung begs, desperate to pull an orgasm from you just to lick it all up. âBe a good girl and cum on my face.â
"Oh fuck," you choke out, your hips bucking.Â
Your legs close up on him, nearly crushing his head. Your fingers pull on his hair but Heeseung keeps on licking and sucking the whole time. With the pressure on your clit and the fullness of his fingers scissoring deep in your core you canât help it, the budding tightness unraveling as you come onto his tongue. Your body shakes lightly, trembling in his grip as you let out loud needy moans.
âFuck, youâre so beautiful,â He confesses as he watches you ride out your orgasm.
Heeseung pulls back and exhales shakily, his thumb tracing gentle circles on your hip as he leans down to press a soft, lingering kiss to your lips. âIâll be right back,â he murmurs, his voice tender.
You nod still, catching your breath, watching as he pushes himself up from the bed. He moves to his bathroom and disappears behind the partially open door. You hear the faint rustle of a cabinet being opened, and your heart races when you catch sight of him returning with a small box in his hand.
Heeseung sets the box down on the nightstand and pulls out a single foil packet. His movements are deliberate but unhurried, as if giving you all the time in the world to change your mind.
When he settles back beside you he cups your face with one hand and kisses you softly, his lips conveying reassurance and care. âWe donât have to go any further,â he says, his forehead resting against yours. âWe can stop here if you want.â
His sincerity makes your heart flutter and for a moment all you can do is stare into his eyes. But then you lean in, your lips brushing his as you whisper, âI donât want to stop.â
You donât let the kiss last long, pulling away to look Heeseung in his eyes as you slowly sink to your knees in front of him. He gulps as he watches you with hooded eyes, lifting his hips so you can remove his sweats and boxers. The moment his cock springs out, your jaw nearly drops to the floor. Not only is he long, but heâs also thick and veiny. Your mouth waters at the sight of it, he twitches in the air, red and angry waiting for attention.
You flick your eyes up to meet Heeseungâs impatient gaze before wrapping your dominant hand around the base and slowly tugging. Heeseung groans at the feeling and spreads his legs a bit more to give you better access. You kiss the tip of his erect cock, slowly opening your mouth to suck at the tip of his dick. You wrap your lips around his head, slowly sucking the tip into your mouth as precum drips out and coats your tongue.
Heeseung lets out a breathy moan, thrusting into your mouth slightly as he urges you to take him deeper into your mouth. You willingly swallow more of him, tongue swirling around his head, groaning at the taste of his precum.
You begin bobbing your head, taking more and more of his hard length into your mouth. Heeseung grips on to your hair and slides you further down his length. âThatâs it, princess. Take this big dick down your throat.â He begins thrusting his hips gradually, forcing more and more of his cock into your mouth until you take in his whole shaft, your face pressed against his lower abdomen.
Heeseung thrusts harder into your mouth, losing himself in the feel of your lips wrapped tightly around him, letting out a small groan whenever you flick your tongue against his slit, licking the precum.
âF-fuck just like that.â Youâre slowly coating his cock in your saliva, the mixture of your spit and his precum turning him into a sticky mess.
Wet sounds of gagging resound through the air, mingling with the sounds of Heeseung thrusting into your mouth. You feel his cock twitch inside you before he says. âGonna swallow all my cum like a good girl? Hm?â
You hum around him, eager to bring him over the edge. âOh, oh fuck, Iâm cumming.â Heeseung groans, gritting his teeth. He thrusts his hip one last time before cumming. You feel his cum shoot down the back of your throat and you make sure to swallow the warm liquid, not wasting a single drop.
âFuck. Youâre amazingâ Heeseung mutters, pulling you off of his dick before kissing you, tasting himself. You kiss him back fervently, your fingers burying into his red locks.
âI need you Hee,â You whimper.
Heeseung nods and picks you up to lay you flat on your back. âAnything for you princess.â He leans over to grab the condom from earlier and opens the foil. He tosses the wrapping and slowly slides the condom down his shaft. Once heâs sure itâs secure he hovers over your body just taking you in.
You blush but whine, spreading your legs a bit more. âHeeseungâŚ.please.â
He smirks at the desperation in your voice before leaning down to close his lips over your right nipple. You whimper at the feeling of his tongue on your nipple, sucking it into his mouth before pulling back and blowing cold air on it.
You lay still, anticipating his next move. His eyes flick down. âYour pussy looks so fucking good.â Heeseung says, letting the pink tip of his dick rub against your wet folds. You both moan at the sensation.
With one more rub of his head, he lines himself against your entrance and slowly pushes his hips forward. You think you could come instantly.
Heeseung shifts above you, moving so his hands cage you between both his arms. You moan as he slowly enters you, his girth stretching your pussy out. He buries his face into the crook of your neck and places a kiss at the juncture of your jaw and neck at the feeling of your walls clamping around him. Finally, when heâs completely in your pussy, his head grazing cervix, he stills and shifts his head to meet your eyes. You look up at him through hazy, half lidded eyes, completely lost in the way he opens you up. Heeseung stills for a couple moments, allowing you to get used to his size before pulling out and thrusting in once again, this time in one smooth glide. You let out a choked-out moan, your legs instinctively wrapping around his waist.
The intimacy is overwhelming, a closeness that feels as though itâs unraveling you and putting you back together all at once. He holds you like youâre something precious, something fragile, as if heâs afraid you might slip away if he isnât careful.
His gaze never leaves yours. The way his eyes search your face, looking for any sign of discomfort fills you with a warmth youâve never known. Thereâs no urgency in him, no impatience, just a steady gentle rhythm.
âRight t-thereâ You mewl, slowly losing yourself in all the pleasure. Heeseung tucks his head under yours and grins against your skin, biting your collarbone gently before sucking a hickey on your skin. He trails kisses down to the valley of your breasts, pressing a kiss against your sternum before taking a nipple into his mouth, suckling gingerly. âP-please Hee, canâtâŚgonna cumâ You babble, unable to form a coherent sentence.
You faintly acknowledge Heeseung grinning against your chest, his right hand slowly inches towards your own before entwining it with your own. Holding your hand over his sheets. You can feel him pour out all his emotions into each and every action as he thrusts into you over and over again.
âYouâre so beautiful.â Heeseung whispers.
All of a sudden you cum without warning, the pressure too much. Heeseung pushes your hips down into the bed, pounding relentlessly into you, chasing his own high. He hammers into you one last time before letting out a loud groan as he empties himself into the condom, spurt after spurt of his cum pouring into you.
The world feels quiet now, the only sound in the room your mingled breaths as you both come down from the high. Heeseungâs forehead rests against yours, his hand still clasping yours tightly as if letting go would somehow make the moment less real. His thumb strokes over your knuckles.
âYou okay?â he asks softly, his voice hoarse and laced with concern.
You nod, barely able to gather the words to respond. âIâm okay,â you whisper.
A small, relieved smile touches his lips before he leans down, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead. Heeseung shifts slightly, careful not to crush you as he pulls out. You wince at the sensitivity and he quickly apologizes.
âStay here,â he murmurs, reluctantly letting go of your hand. He slips out of bed, the mattress dipping slightly under his movement.
You watch as he crosses the room, disposing of the condom in the bathroom and cleaning himself off before grabbing a warm damp cloth. When he returns, he kneels beside the bed, his touch impossibly gentle as he cleans you up murmuring soft reassurances. âYou did so well,â he says quietly, his voice full of affection. âThank you⌠for trusting me with you.â
Your cheeks warm, but you manage a soft smile and nod.
Heeseungâs gaze softens even further, and he presses a kiss to your knee before standing to place the cloth aside. He joins you back in bed, pulling the sheets up over your bodies before tugging you into his arms. You rest your head on his chest, your legs tangling with his as his hand strokes your back in soothing circles.
âYouâre amazing,â he murmurs, his fingers drawing lazy patterns on your back. âI hope you know that.â
You huff a small laugh, finally finding your voice. âYou donât have to flatter me, you already got what you wanted.â
Heeseung chuckles, the sound vibrating through his chest. âMaybe I just like telling you how I feel.â He tilts his head to look at you, his expression soft and unguarded. âCan I?â
You glance up at him, confused. âCan you what?â
âTell you more about meâŚThe messy parts. The things I donât usually share.â
Your breath catches slightly at the vulnerability in his voice but you nod. âIâd like that.â
His grip on you tightens just a little, as if you're his own personal stress ball. He doesnât start talking right away, his thumb brushing along your shoulder as if heâs organizing his thoughts. You donât rush him content to lie there in his embrace waiting for him to open up.
Finally, he speaks. âWhen I was fifteen, my brother Heejoon was seventeen,â he begins, his voice quiet but steady. âHe was⌠everything youâd expect from an eldest son in our familyâsmart, responsible, always trying to do the right thing. But he struggled a lot too. Heejoon always had anxiety. It wasnât obvious at first; heâd just get nervous about things other people didnât think twice about. But as we got older⌠it got worse.â
You shift slightly in his arms looking up at him with concern. Heeseungâs gaze is fixed on the ceiling, his jaw tight as he continues.
âOur dadâŚheâs a no-nonsense kind of man. Everything is about discipline, results, and maintaining the familyâs reputation. That summer, he was preparing Heejoon to start interning at the company. Heejoon was terrified but he didnât tell anyone. He didnât want to disappoint our dad. So he just⌠pushed himself harder. He started focusing on the business, trying to prepare, but his grades started slipping. He was so afraid of letting Dad down that heâŚhe cheated on a final exam.âÂ
Heeseung clears his throat. âHe got caught and Dad had to bribe the teacher to keep it off his record and let him retake the exam. He was livid, but he didnât hit him or anything. Heâs never laid a hand on us. But his wordsâŚâ Heeseungâs voice falters, and he looks away.
Your heart aches for him, for Heejoon. You reach up, cupping his cheek and gently guiding his gaze back to you. âWhat happened?â you whisper.
Heeseung closes his eyes for a moment, like heâs reliving the memory. âHeejoon couldnât take it anymore. The pressure to be perfect, to be something he wasnâtâŚthat night, after Dad tore into him, he tried to kill himself.â
Your heart drops at the confirmation of what you knew all along.
âI was the one who found him,â Heeseung continues, his voice barely audible now. âWe got him to the hospital in time, but⌠he was never the same after that. His will to live was just⌠gone.â
You sit up slightly, your eyes searching his face. âHeeseungâŚâ
He meets your gaze, his own eyes glassy but resolute. âHeejoonâs alive. But heâs not⌠Heâs not the same person he used to be.â
You gently take his hand in both of yours, your fingers wrapping around his as if to anchor him. âIâm so sorry you had to go through that,â you say softly, your voice steady but full of empathy. âAnd Iâm so glad heâs still here. Heeseung⌠Youâve been through so much and youâre still here too. Youâre still fighting. That means something.â
Heeseung shakes his head slowly, his grip on your body tightening. âI blamed myself for years,â he murmurs, his voice strained. âI saw how much he was struggling and I didnât do anything. I was his little brotherâI was supposed to have his back and I didnât. I just stood there, thinking heâd be fine because he was Heejoon. He was always the strong one.â
His voice cracks and you reach up brushing your fingers lightly along his jaw, grounding him. He leans into your touch almost unconsciously, his eyes fluttering closed for a moment.
âWhen I see him nowâŚâ He pauses, exhaling shakily. âI canât stop thinking about how different his life couldâve been if Iâd just said something. If Iâd told someone how scared he was, how much pressure he was under. Maybe⌠maybe he wouldnât have felt like he had no other choice.â His gaze drops to yours, his eyes shimmering with unshed tears. âI failed him.â
Your chest tightens at the rawness in his voice, the weight heâs been carrying alone for so long. âHeeseung,â you say softly, âyou didnât fail him. You were a kid too, trying to survive in the same house under the same pressure. You did the best you could with what you knew then. That matters.â
His lips twitch faintly, but the guilt in his eyes doesnât fade. âSome days, it doesnât feel like enough,â he admits quietly.
âIt is,â you insist, leaning closer your hand still resting against his cheek. âEvery time you show up for Heejoon, every time you keep going, youâre proving how much you care. Youâre making him proud, Heeseung. I know it.â
Heeseung looks at you for a long moment, his gaze filled with something you canât quite place. Finally, he nods, his grip on you tightening slightly. âThank you,â he says, his voice thick with emotion.
âWhereâs Heejoon now?â you ask gently.
âHeâs in an assisted living facility,â Heeseung replies. âAfter the incident, Dad couldnât⌠He couldnât live with him anymore. The guilt ate at him so he sent him away to get professional help. Heejoonâs been there ever since. Heâs getting better, slowly. His doctors think he might be able to come home soon.â
You smile softly. âThatâs good. Iâm glad heâs getting the help he needs.â
Heeseung nods, his expression thoughtful. âI visit him every weekend,â he says.
Your brows furrow slightly. âEvery weekend?â
Heeseung glances at you, his brows raising in question.
You hesitate before continuing. âThe tabloids⌠They say you sneak off to Jeju every weekend to sleep with a new model,â you say carefully.
Heeseung scoffs, the sound almost bitter. âHeejoonâs care facility is in Jeju,â he explains. âMy parents didnât want anyone knowing what happened so they sent him there to keep it quiet.â
Your heart aches at the weight he mustâve been carrying alone. âSo⌠those rumors?â
âBullshit,â Heeseung says firmly. âYouâre the first person Iâve slept with in years.â
You blink surprised. âReally?â
He nods. âI wonât lie and say Iâve never slept around. I did, but that was during my undergrad days⌠before I met Karina.â
The name sends a jolt through you, his ex who he allegedly forced to get an abortion. âWhoâs Karina?â you ask carefully, playing oblivious to know the truth.
Heeseungâs expression shifts, the room is quiet save for the hum of the heater and the faint rustle of the sheets as he shifts closer. His hand trails absently along your arm, his touch warm âShe was⌠the first person I ever loved,â he admits.
You listen intently as he begins to tell you about her. He shares how their relationship came to be, how she made him feel seen in a way no one else ever had but he also tells you about the heartbreak that followed when she left. About her carrying another man's baby and leaving because it wasnât fair to Heeseung despite how badly he wanted her to stay.
Heeseung exhales, his voice trembling just slightly. âI shouldâve fought harder. I shouldâve convinced her to stay. Instead, I let her go. I told myself it was what she wanted but deep down, I think I was scared. Scared of everything that came with loving her, scared Iâd mess it all up anyway.â
He pauses, his fingers grazing your back, his gaze distant. âItâs a pattern, you know? People leave me but maybe⌠maybe itâs because I push them away first. Like I did with her.â
His words hang heavy in the air. You sit up slightly, leaning on your elbow to face him. âHeeseung, listen to me,â you say softly, your right hand resting gently on his chest. âWhat happened with Karina wasnât your fault. You need to stop carrying this like it was all on you, like you had the power to change everything. Thereâs nothing wrong with you, and youâre more than deserving of loveâthen and now.â
His lips part slightly as if to protest but no words come out. His eyes search yours, filled with doubt and pain, as though heâs grappling with the possibility of believing you.
âShe didnât leave because you werenât enough,â you continue. âYou were both young, and Karina⌠she was stuck in an impossible situation. That doesnât mean you failed her, Heeseung. It doesnât mean you were to blame. Her insecurities, her choicesâthey werenât your burden to carry or fix. Just because you had a past, just because you were more experienced, doesnât mean you pushed her away. Those were her fears, not a reflection of your worth.â
His grip on your waist tightens slightly, his breathing uneven. His eyes glisten with unshed tears as his brows draw together, struggling with the truth in your words.
âYou have to let go of this idea that youâre the reason things fell apart,â you whisper, brushing your thumb tenderly along his jawline. âSometimes people leave not because of anything you did but because they donât know how to stay. Itâs not about you being enoughâit never was. And it doesnât mean youâre not enough now.â
Heeseung swallows hard, his head dipping as his forehead presses lightly against yours. âI donât know if I can believe that yet,â he murmurs, his voice barely audible.
âThatâs okay,â you reply, your voice soft but resolute. âIâll remind you as many times as it takes.â
For a moment the room falls into stillness, the only sound is the mingling of your breaths. You feel his arm wrap tighter around your midsection pulling you closer, the tension in his shoulders easing ever so slightly.
Then, in the quiet you speak, your voice barely above a whisper. âHeeseung⌠I already knew about Karinaâ
His head pulls back slightly, his brows furrowing in confusion as his gaze locks onto yours. âWhat do you mean?â He asks, his tone cautious, tinged with uncertainty.
You take in a breath gathering the courage to continue. âI knew about her. About what people said. Before you told me.â
His confusion deepens, flickers of uncertainty and hurt shadowing his expression. âHow?â he asks softly, his voice low and guarded, his walls creeping back up.
You hesitate, your fingers fidgeting with the edge of the blanket draped over you both but you push through the fear because this is Heeseung and he deserves honesty.
âRemember how I told you Chisa is a journalist?â you begin carefully.
Heeseung nods slowly but you can already see itâthe way his shoulders tense, the way his eyes darken. His defenses are rising, and it crushes you to watch the vulnerability youâd shared moments ago slip away.
âChisa is writing an exposĂŠ. About your college days. She has a sourceâsomeone who knows about Karina, about the rumors that youâŚthat you asked her to get an abortion.â
Heeseung goes still, his body tensing beneath your touch. Heâs silent for a moment, his gaze fixed behind you. Then finally he speaks his voice sharp and clipped. âHow long have you known?â
You swallow the lump forming in your throat, knowing thereâs no point in lying. âChisa got put on the article the day we first met but I didnât find out about the rumors until⌠the day you asked me to dinner.â
Heeseungâs jaw tightens and he slowly pulls away from you, the space between you growing wider as your heart drops. He sits up slightly, running a hand through his hair. His expression is a mix of hurt and disbelief.
You instinctively grab the blanket to cover your bare body, not out of modesty but because the emotional distance feels unbearable. âHeeseungâŚâ you begin softly, but he cuts you off.
âYou knew all this time,â he says, his voice low and tinged with disbelief. âAnd you didnât say anything?â
âI didnât know how,â you say quickly, your voice trembling. âHeeseung, you have to understandâChisa is my best friend. This article is everything to her.â
He lets out a bitter laugh, shaking his head as he runs a hand through his hair. âAnd what about me?â he asks, his voice rising slightly. âDid you even think about what that could do to me? About how Iâd feel if you believed those rumors?â
âI didnât believe them. I didnât, Heeseung but I didnât know you then. I didnât know how to bring it up or if I even should! You have to understandâif I said anything to you or Miss Min, it wouldâve meant the end of my friendship with Chisa. I didnât know what to do.â
Heeseungâs gaze is piercing, his silence more cutting than any words he couldâve said. You feel the weight of his disappointment, his hurt and it tears at you.Â
You feel tears threaten to spill over now but you donât bother wiping them away. Instead, you reach for his hand, grabbing onto it tightly even as he stiffens under your touch. The blanket slips from your body leaving you exposed but you donât care. You need him to understand.
âThis wasnât an easy decision to make. Iâve been stuck between my best friend and her career and the guy Iââ You catch yourself, your breath hitching. âThe guy I care about. Iâm sorry I didnât say something sooner. Iâm sorry I hurt you but I donât want you to be blindsided by this Heeseung. I donât want you to be hurt anymore. Thatâs why Iâm telling you now.â
Heeseung stares at you, his expression softening slightly as your words sink in. He exhales deeply, the anger in his gaze giving way to understanding. âOkay,â he says softly after a long moment, his tone laced with exhaustion. âOkay.â
Before you can say anything else, he pulls you into his arms, his hand cradling the back of your head as you bury your face in his shoulder. âDonât cry,â he murmurs, his voice gentle again. âPlease donât cry. Iâm not mad at you.â
âAre you sure?â you whisper, your voice muffled against his skin.
He nods, pressing a kiss to your forehead. âI could never stay mad at you.â
The two of you settle back under the covers, his arms holding you close again not leaving any space between the two of you. After a beat of silence, Heeseung speaks again. âI have to pull the plug on the article⌠you know that, right?â
You nod against his chest, your heart sinking at the thought of what this will mean for Chisa and your friendship. âCan you at least let me tell her before you make any phone calls?â
Heeseung hesitates, his fingers massaging your shoulder as he considers your request. âAre you sure youâll be able to do that? To look her in the eyes and tell her youâre the reason her dreams wonât come true?â
You flinch at the harshness of his words, but you understand where theyâre coming from. âI have to,â you say quietly. âI owe her that much.â
Heeseung exhales, nodding reluctantly. âOkay.â
He holds you closer, his chin resting on the top of your head as the two of you sit in silence. Despite everything, thereâs a strange sense of comfort in knowing you donât have to carry this secret anymore. As the minutes stretch on, the tension slowly fades, replaced by the steady rhythm of your breaths syncing together. And eventually, the two of you drift off to sleep, tangled in each otherâs arms.
THE NEXT MORNING
You wake up slowly, sunlight streaming through the curtains and warming the room. For a moment, you forget where you are, your body pressed against soft sheets and someone warm and firm beside you. Blinking, the events of last night come flooding back and a soft smile tugs at your lips. You hadnât planned to stay the night but waking up here wrapped in Heeseungâs arms, doesnât feel like a mistake. It feels⌠right.
Shifting slightly, you glance over at him. Heâs still asleep, his features relaxed and peaceful in the early morning light. His hair is slightly mussed, his lips parted as he breathes deeply. He looks younger like this, the weight he often carries nowhere in sight.
You try to move carefully not wanting to wake him up but the slight shift of your body stirs him. His arms tighten instinctively around your waist, pulling you closer as his eyes flutter open.
âMorning,â he murmurs, his voice husky with sleep and a small smile curving his lips.
âMorning,â you reply softly, your own smile growing.
Heeseung leans in and presses a lingering kiss to your lips, his hand coming up to cup your cheek. When he pulls back, his eyes are filled with a warmth that makes your heart race. âI could get used to waking up like this,â he says, his voice still low.
You laugh softly, brushing a strand of hair from his face, the silky red strands slipping through your fingers. âAs nice as this is, I really should get going. Chisaâs probably worried about me.â
Before you can move, Heeseung tightens his hold on you, burying his face in your neck with a dramatic sigh. When he pulls back just enough to meet your gaze, his lower lip juts out in a pout so exaggerated it almost makes you laugh out loud.
âStay,â he whines, his voice soft and petulant. âJust for a little longer. Please?â
You blink, momentarily stunned. This side of him is so unlike the composed and confident Heeseung youâve grown accustomed to. The playful pout on his lips, the slight scrunch of his nose, and the sparkle of mischief in his eyes are all soâŚunexpected.
And yet, you think to yourself, youâd like to see this version of him more often, this carefree boyish Heeseung who doesnât seem burdened.
You shake your head, laughing. âHeeseung, as much as Iâd love to stay in bed all day, I promised Yunho Iâd spend the day with him. And knowing my friends, Jaehyun and Chisa are probably going to tag along.â
At the mention of your plans, Heeseung lets out a resigned sigh, finally releasing his hold on you. âFine,â he mutters, feigning annoyance. âBut only because Iâm trying to be supportive of your friendships.â
You sit up, the blanket slipping from your shoulders as you begin gathering your clothes. As you pull your shirt over your head, you glance over at Heeseung. âWhat about you? What are your plans for the day?â
He clears his throat, his gaze flickering briefly away before returning to you as you move around the room. âI called Miss Min last night,â he begins quietly. âPostponed announcing the engagement.â
Your hands still for a moment, your chest tightening as you think of Sakura and what this means for her. âWhat are you going to do?â you ask, your voice barely above a whisper.
Heeseung sighs, his fingers raking through his hair. âI need to talk to Sakura today. In person, itâs the least I can do,â he says softly.
Your heart sinks a little further, your thoughts drifting to Sakuraâs feelings for him and how this will affect her. âLet me know how it goes,â you say gently, folding your arms across your chest. âIâd like to apologize to her too.â
Heeseung hesitates, his brows knitting together. âYou donât have to do that,â he says, his voice firm but gentle. âI donât mind taking the blame for this. You donât need to get involved any more than you already are.â
You shake your head firmly. âNo, Heeseung. Iâm just as complicit in all of this. You shouldnât have to shoulder all the blameânot after everything youâve already been through. I need to own my part in it too.â
His gaze softens as he looks at you, and he takes a step closer, his hands brushing gently against your waist. He studies you for a moment before nodding, a small smile tugging at his lips. âYouâre something else, you know that?â
You roll your eyes, trying to mask the flutter of your heart. âDonât try to distract me with compliments,â you tease lightly, though the smile on your lips betrays your feigned irritation.
Heeseung chuckles softly, pulling you closer for a brief moment before letting his hands fall away. âI mean it,â he murmurs.
Once youâre dressed, you grab your phone from the nightstand, only to find it completely dead. Letting out a sigh, you glance over at Heeseung, who is now standing by the bed in just his boxers.
âYou should probably put some clothes on,â you tease, unable to stop the smile that forms as he approaches you.
Heeseung smirks, his hands finding their way to your waist as he pulls you close. âWhy? Planning on staying a little longer?â
You roll your eyes but your heart flutters as he leans down to kiss you. Itâs slow and unhurried, filled with a tenderness that makes you momentarily forget why you need to leave.
When he finally pulls back, you sigh. âAs tempting as that is, I really need to go. I have to tell Chisa about the article.â
âStay for breakfast, at least?â he asks, his tone hopeful.
You hesitate, but the look in his eyes makes it impossible to say no. âFine,â you relent, laughing softly. âOne day, Iâll learn how to tell you no.â
Heeseung grins, taking your hand and leading you to the kitchen. âGood luck with that,â he teases.
You hop onto the countertop as he pulls out a pan and begins preparing the ingredients for pancakes. Watching him move around the kitchen, you find yourself thinking about how natural this feelsâhow easy it is to picture mornings like this being a regular thing.
As he pours the batter onto the pan, he slides between your legs, resting his hands on your thighs. âGimme a kiss.â
âThe pancakes will burn,â you say, laughing softly.
âThey will if you donât hurry up and kiss me,â he counters, his lips quirking into a playful smirk.
You roll your eyes but lean in, intending to give him a quick peck. Heeseung has other plans, deepening the kiss until youâre breathless. When he finally pulls back, heâs grinning smugly.
âYouâre impossible,â you mutter but the warmth in your chest betrays your words.
âImpossible to resist,â he quips, turning back to the stove just in time to flip the pancake, which, to your surprise, isnât burnt.
Once the pancakes are done, you help him with the eggs while he cuts up some fresh fruit he had laying around. The two of you work together, the easy banter making the morning feel light and carefree.
When everything is ready, you sit together at the kitchen island, plates filled with food. For a while, thereâs nothing but the sound of utensils and quiet conversation.
Heeseung breaks the silence, his tone thoughtful. âI could get used to this.â
You glance at him, your cheeks warming. âMe too,â you admit softly.
He doesnât respond immediately, just stares at you in a way that makes your heart race.
âYour foodâs going to get cold,â you say, laughing nervously under his gaze.
Heeseung shrugs, a playful smile tugging at his lips. âWorth it.â
You shove his shoulder lightly, trying to hide your flustered state. âEat,â you scold, and he chuckles before finally picking up his fork.
As you finish your plate, you take a sip of the orange juice he poured for you, noting how he remembered your preference for sweet drinks. You donât comment on it but the gesture doesnât go unnoticed.
When Heeseung finishes eating, he stands and helps clear the dishes, his movements unhurried. You grab your bag and dead phone ready to head out.
Heeseung walks you to the door, his hand resting lightly on your waist. As you step outside, he makes no move to let go.
âYouâre just in your boxers,â you point out, raising an eyebrow.
âSo?â he replies, a teasing grin on his lips.
You swat his arm, laughing softly. âGo back inside before your neighbors get an eyeful.â
Heeseung laughs, pulling you into one last kiss before letting you go. âDrive safe,â he murmurs, his voice soft.
You nod, smiling as you climb into your car. The drive home is quiet, the events of the morning replaying in your mind.
When you arrive, you park your car and head up to your apartment building but when you step into the space, the atmosphere shifts. âChisa?â you call out, your voice tentative as you set your bag down by the door.
The apartment is eerily silent, save for the faint hum of the refrigerator in the kitchen. You step further inside rounding the corner and your breath catches in your throat.
Chisa is sitting cross-legged in the middle of the living room, her back rigid and her gaze fixed on the wall in front of her. Her hands rest limply in her lap but thereâs a tension radiating from her body that makes your stomach twist.
âChisa?â you try again softer this time, taking a cautious step forward.
She doesnât respond, doesnât even blink. The silence stretches heavy and suffocating as you kneel in front of her, your hand hesitantly reaching for her shoulder.
âHey,â you whisper, your voice barely audible.
This time, her eyes shift, locking onto yours with a sharpness that sends a shiver down your spine. Her gaze is cold, unyielding, and when she finally speaks, her voice is low and chilling.
âDid you tell Heeseung about my article?â
You freeze. The words knock the air out of your lungs, leaving you grasping for a response. How does she know? Heeseung promised to give you time to talk to her yourself.
âIâwhat?â you stammer, the sudden intensity of her glare making your heart race.
Chisaâs jaw clenches as she rises to her feet, looming over you. âI got a phone call from his lawyers in the middle of the night. They said I canât publish my exposĂŠ. Did you tell him?â
Your chest tightens as realization dawns. Heeseung must have made the call while you were sleeping. A flicker of anger sparks within youâwhy hadnât he let you handle this? You push it down, trying to focus on Chisa who looks like sheâs seconds away from exploding.
âYes.â
Chisa scoffs, her expression twisting into one of disbelief and fury. She takes a step back, shaking her head. âUnbelievable,â she mutters before spinning around and storming toward the hallway.
âChisa, wait!â you call, scrambling to your feet and following her. âPlease, just listenââ
She whirls around so suddenly that you almost stumble. Her hands shoot out, shoving you backward with a force that knocks the breath out of you.
You stumble, catching yourself. The shock of it leaves you frozen for a moment, your mind struggling to catch up with what just happened. Chisa has never done anything like this before. Youâve argued in the past, of course you have, but even in your worst moments, she never laid a hand on you. Not once.
Sheâs seething. Her chest rises and falls rapidly, her fists clenched so tightly at her sides that her knuckles turn white. Her eyes, usually warm and filled with love or mischief, are blazing with an intensity that makes your stomach churn.
âListen to what?â she spits, her voice rising. âTo you defending that manwhore? To you justifying why you chose him over me?â
âI didnât choose him over you!â
âYes, you did! You sacrificed my career for him! For what? Did he fuck you too?â
The words hit you like a slap and your mouth opens but no sound comes out. Chisaâs eyes widen as she takes in your reaction, her expression shifting from anger to disgust.
âNo way,â she whispers, a bitter laugh escaping her lips. âYou sold me out for some dick? Were you that fucking desperate?â
Your chest tightens with indignation. âItâs not like that!â you snap, your voice rising to match hers. âMy relationship with Heeseung has nothing to do with why I told him.â
Chisa stares at you as if youâve grown another head, her voice dripping with disdain. âRelationship?â She lets out a humorless laugh. âFor someone with a masterâs degree in psychology, youâre one dumb bitch. Heâs not capable of loving anyone. Not his ex, not Sakura, and definitely not you.â
You flinch at the mention of Sakura, your mind racing. âSakura? Whatââ
Chisa cuts you off, turning on her heel and storming back into the living room. She grabs the remote and flicks on the TV, jabbing the buttons with trembling hands.
The screen flickers to life, and your stomach drops like a stone when the news anchorâs voice fills the room. Their tone is bright and celebratory.
âBreaking news! A fairytale ending for Lee Heeseung and Miyawaki Sakura.â
A photo of the two smiling together flashes on the screen, and your knees feel like they might give out.
Chisa crosses her arms, her glare burning into you as the broadcast loops back to commentary. âThe announcement was made official two hours ago,â she says coldly, her voice cutting through the air.
Two hours ago.
You were sitting in Heeseungâs kitchen, eating pancakes while he talked about getting used to seeing you in his home. He had said heâd told Miss Min to postpone the announcement. Heâd promised. Your mind spins, struggling to reconcile the timeline. Did Heeseung lie? Or did something else happen, something out of his control?
âHeâs scum. All he cares about is sex. And for you to think he could be happy with youââ She shakes her head.
âThatâs not true! Your source lied, Chisa. He didnât force Karina to have an abortion! Heâs not sneaking off to Jeju every weekend to sleep with someone new! Itâs all rumors, and the press has it twisted. Theyâre making his life hell! I couldnât let you publish that article. It would have ruined him.â
Chisaâs expression shifts, her glare turning into something almost unrecognizable. Hurt mingles with her anger, and her voice trembles as she fires back, âSo what? It was better to ruin me?â
You snap.
âNot everything is about you, Chisa! Heâs a person too, with real feelings! Heâs been through so much and he doesnât deserve this!â You take a shaky breath, your voice still trembling with emotion. âThere will always be another article to write, another person to exploit but Heeseung doesnât deserve it. Get over yourself.â
Chisaâs face falls, her eyes wide with disbelief but you donât give her a chance to respond. You turn on your heel and storm to your room, slamming the door shut behind you.
Your chest heaves as you lean against the door, your mind racing. This is not how things were supposed to go. You werenât supposed to fight with Chisaânot like this.
You take a shaky breath and push off the door, fumbling to plug your phone into the charger. Impatience gnaws at you and you grab your laptop instead flipping it open and opening your messaging app.
Messages flood the screen. Texts from Chisa, Dani, even Miss Min.
7:25 pm | chizđ§¸: where are you? game night started!!! 7:50 pm | chizđ§¸: nvm yunho told me you canât make it 10:49 pm | chizđ§¸: im back home now where r u loser 12:15 am | chizđ§¸: ?Â
You close the tab, your chest tightening as guilt seeps in.
4:32 am | danielle: do you know why heeseung called the office to postpone the announcement???
You let out a sigh of relief. Heeseung hadnât changed his mind. He tried to stop it. You make a mental note to respond to Dani later, opting to read Miss Minâs messages.
4:55 am | Boss: You need to meet with Heeseung and Sakura. Get them aligned again. 10:37 am | Boss: The announcement is moving forward. Itâs what his parents want.
So thatâs what happened. A new message pings on your screen, itâs from Heeseung.
12:08 pm | heeseung: just saw the news. iâm so sorry 12:08 pm | heeseung: i donât know what happened but iâll fix it. 12:08 pm | heeseung: iâm on my way to meet with sakura now.
You donât respond, instead you fall against your bed frame overwhelmed. Tears threaten to spill but you blink them back, refusing to let them fall. This can be fixed you try to reason, yeah. This can be fixed. Instead of wallowing in tears, you strip off your clothes and head into the bathroom. A hot showerâŚthatâll make everything better.
The water warms your skin, soothing your tense muscles as you try to wash away the sweat and grime from the night before. But your mind wonât stop racing. You think about Heeseung. About boundaries youâll need to set with him. About Chisaâher hurt, her anger, the way she shoved you. The memory stings as do her words. You wonder if youâll ever be okay again.
Steam fills the room, but it doesnât clear the haze in your mind. All you can do is stand there, letting the water wash over you, hoping itâll drown out your sadness. You spend over an hour in there, letting the water wash over you and your thoughts consume you.
When you exit the shower, the bathroom is silent save for the steady drip of water from the showerhead as you step out, your skin flushed from the heat. You grab a towel and wrap it around yourself, your hands moving on autopilot as you dry off. The warmth of the shower clings to your skin providing some comfort.
You pull on a pair of soft sweatpants and an oversized hoodie before padding back into your bedroom, you glance at your phone charging on the nightstand. Its screen lights up repeatedly, vibrating with an almost frantic urgency.
Frowning, you unplug it. The moment itâs in your hand, it buzzes again, a steady stream of notifications flooding the screen. Text after text appears, the sheer volume of them making your stomach churn.
Your sisterâs name catches your eye, her message buried among others from Dani, Heeseung, and even Jaehyun.
Your breath hitches. Your sister hasnât spoken to you in months. She claims to be too busy with her husband and kids but truthfully you think she just canât stomach being around you knowing each conversation youâll bring up your mother.
Why is she reaching out now?
Before you can open her messages, another text pops up at the top of the screen from Jaehyun.
12:12 pm | hyunieđś: are you okay?
Your chest tightens. A gnawing sense of dread climbs up your spine as you respond
12:13 pm | you: ??? 12:13 pm | hyunieđś: you havenât seen? 12:14 pm | you: seen what?
The three dots indicating heâs typing appear and you hold your breath, dread pooling in your stomach. When the link comes through, you click it without thinking.
Your heart plummets as you read the headline: Heeseungâs Secret Romance: Scandal Behind the Engagement.
The article is a brutal exposĂŠ, detailing Heeseungâs past controversies, his relationship with Karina, the lies about the abortion then him trying to rebrand by leeching off of Sakura through an engagement and finally, the revelation of an affair. Chisa posted it anyway. She posted the exposĂŠ.
Your breath comes in short, shallow gasps as you skim the article. Chisaâs words are scathing, painting you as a homewrecker and Heeseung as a manipulative womanizer. She leaves you nameless but the implications are clear, this is her firing back at you.
Your phone buzzes again and you almost drop it. Jaehyun is calling.
You answer, your voice barely above a whisper. âHello?â
âIs it true?âÂ
â...Yes.â
âShit. Okay. Look, stay off your phone. Donât read any more of it, okay? Yunho and I are coming over.â
You nod instinctively forgetting he canât see you. âOkay.â
âJust⌠donât spiral. Weâll be there soon.â
The call ends but you donât put your phone down. You canât. The panic bubbling inside you demands an outlet and ignoring it feels impossible. Against Jaehyunâs advice, you open Twitter.
Your name is trending. So are Heeseung's and Sakuraâs.
You click on the hashtag, your heart pounding as you scroll through the tweets. Each tweet feels like a slap to the face, but you canât stop. You keep scrolling, the comments getting worse and worse.
A new post catches your eye, a link to a Naver article. The thumbnail is a picture of you and Heeseung walking out of the hotel bar after your one-on-one meeting. The title is even worse than Chisaâs: Lee Heeseungâs Mistress Revealed: The Marriage Counselor Who Betrayed the Nationâs Princess
The article is a gallery of photos and commentary, each image scrutinizing your every move. This one names you outright, detailing how you entered Heeseungâs life as a marriage counselor assigned to help him and Sakura navigate their engagement.
Instead of counseling the couple, sources claim ____ became romantically involved with Heeseung, undermining Sakura, a beloved actress and national icon. Photographic evidence further suggests a relationship that goes beyond professionalism.
Photographs accompany the text.
Him picking you up for dinner, his hand resting casually on the small of your back.
You walking into the restaurant on valentines holding the bouquet he gave you.
You entering his home late at night.
You leaving this morning, followed by a quick shot of him kissing you goodbye.
The captions are unsavory.
âCaught in the act: ____ leaving Lee Heeseungâs home after a cozy night in.â, âA romantic dinner for twoâhow long has this been going on?â
You scroll down to the comments, your vision blurring as you read them.
⤠sheâs disgusting. how dare she betray sakura like this? +1,102 ⤠heeseungâs trash but sheâs worse. sheâs supposed to be a counselor? what a joke đ +874 ⤠poor sakura. she deserves so much better (âĽďšâĽ) +2,347 ⤠omo sheâs so brazen đ +366
Your chest tightens painfully and your hands begin to shake. The more you scroll, the worse it gets.
⤠she knew exactly what she was doing. sheâs a homewrecker. +613 ⤠imagine being this desperate. sheâs ruined her career for what? a fling? ă
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+1,209 ⤠sakura is the nationâs princess. this woman is a nobody. she doesnât deserve him. +4,102
Your breath comes in shallow gasps as the room seems to shrink around you. Your phone trembles in your hands, and the screen darkens for a moment, forcing you to see your own reflectionâtear-streaked and unrecognizable.
You sink to the floor, your back pressed against your bed, the phone slipping from your grasp. A loud creak breaks through the haze.
The door to your room opens slowly and you look up to see Chisa standing there, her expression is unreadable, somewhere between anger and exhaustion.
For a moment, neither of you speaks.
Your lips part to say somethingâanythingâbut the words catch in your throat.
Chisa steps farther into the room, her gaze sharp and accusing. âYouâve turned into him, you know.â
You blink, confused. âWhat?â
Her lips curl into a bitter smile but thereâs no humor in it. âYour dad. Youâve turned into your father.â
âIâŚâ
âYou always hated him for what he did to your mom,â Chisa continues, her voice rising with every word. âEvery time he cheated, every time he lied, every time your mom sat crying in the kitchen, you hated him. You swore youâd never be like him. Thatâs why you became a marriage counselor, isnât it? To stop people like him from ruining their families.â
Your heart pounds as memories flood backâyour motherâs tear-streaked face, Chisaâs arms wrapped around you as she whispered, Itâs going to be okay, I've got you. But nowâŚ
Chisaâs voice drops, the anger giving way to something softer, sadder. âAnd yet, here you are. Sleeping with someone elseâs fiancĂŠe. How do you think that makes me feel? Watching you become the very thing you hate most?â
You open your mouth to defend yourself but the truth lodges itself in your throat. The excuses youâve told yourselfâHeeseung and Sakura arenât really in love, their relationship isnât real, this is differentâfeel hollow without him here to hold you, to remind you that you arenât a monster because even if the engagement wasnât real, Sakuraâs feelings for Heeseung are and you knew that, you knew and still went for it.
The thought grips you, your stomach twisting as guilt crashes over you like a tidal wave. Youâre no better than your father.
âChisaâŚâ Your voice is barely above a whisper. âI didnât meanââ
âDidnât mean what? To hurt people? To betray the one person you were supposed to help? You think that makes it better?â
Tears blur your vision but you donât bother wiping them away.
âIâm sorry,â you croak, the words tasting bitter on your tongue.
Chisa shakes her head. âSorry doesnât fix this. Sorry doesnât undo what youâve done. It doesnât change the fact that youâre exactly like him.â
For a moment, you think sheâs going to leave but she lingers in the doorway, her gaze softening just enough to twist the knife.
âHeâs not a good person,â she says finally, her voice quiet but firm. âAnd neither are you, if you keep letting him drag you down.â
The door clicks shut behind her, leaving you alone in the suffocating silence. The room feels colder after Chisa leaves. Her words play on a loop in your head, relentless and unforgiving.
âYouâve turned into him.â
âYouâre exactly like him.â
You press your palms to your eyes, trying to block out the memory but itâs no use. It claws at you.
Chisa had been there for all of itâevery fight, every slammed door, every tear your mother cried. Sheâd been the one who stayed up with you in your room, distracting you with dumb jokes and snack runs when the shouting downstairs became too much. She was the one who held you when you sobbed after catching your fatherâs texts to another woman, promising you that youâd never have to deal with anything like that when you were older.
Not your sister.
She had her own way of dealing with it. When things got bad, sheâd leave, disappearing for days at a time. Spending nights at friendsâ houses, coming back only when she couldnât avoid it anymore. Then she left altogetherâfirst for college, then for her own life, far away from the wreckage of your family.
Chisa stayed.
She was more of a sister to you than your actual sister ever was. She sat through the storm with you soaked in the same despair and somehow managed to hold you together when you thought you might break apart.
And now, after everything, youâve betrayed her.
The irony tastes bitter, twisting in your gut like a knife. You didnât just become the thing you despised; you became the thing that broke your family.
Your phone buzzes again from where it lies abandoned on the floor. You glance at it, reluctant to pick it up but the notifications donât stop. They come in rapid succession, each one a reminder of how far this has spiraled out of control.
Your hands shake as you reach for it, curiosity overriding the gnawing dread. The screen lights up, showing messages from people you havenât spoken to in yearsâcollege acquaintances, coworkers, even distant family.
You clutch the phone tighter, staring at the screen without seeing it. itâs all too much. Finally, you set the phone aside and pull your knees to your chest.
You donât cry.
Instead, you sit there in silence, replaying everything in your mind. The choice to be with Heeseung, your night spent tangled in his arms, the way he looked at you like you were the only person in the world. You donât regret any of itânot the moments you shared, not the feelings that grew despite everything stacked against you. What you feel for him is real and thatâs something no headline or scandal can take away.
But you also canât ignore the fallout. Your career lies in ruins, Chisa, your best friendâyour sister in every sense of the word wants nothing to do with you and the trust youâd spent years building with her is gone. Youâve lost her and the weight of that is unbearable.
The word temptation floats to the surface of your mind. Itâs what started all of this, isnât it? The pull of something you canât have, the magnetic force of wanting someone you werenât meant to want.Â
You donât regret Heeseung but you do regret everything itâs cost you. Temptation led you here. Desire kept you here.
And for the first time, youâre not sure how to fix it.
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SNOW ON THE GLASS âĄ
pairing: dilf!leon kennedy x fem!reader x milf!ada wong
summary: you love your job as the kennedys nanny. it's fairly easy and pays great. plus you may have a tiny crush on your bosses. but as it turns out, they may reciprocate that feeling more than you know.
cw: nsfw (18+), smut, mild dubcon, p in v, oral sex (f receiving), daddy kink, mommy kink, intoxication/intox kink, breeding kink, praise kink, age gap (late 30s, early 20s)
a/n: birthday gift for my wonderful bestie @explorevenus!! i love you so so much <3 also also also, imagine them both at their re6 ages, i just couldn't find any pics of re6 ada i liked sue me đ
Little white flakes of snow landed one after another on the clear pane of glass in front of your face. You chewed your bottom lip while watching the flurries compile on the window, and in-turn, your car parked in the driveway.
Behind you, a pair of sharp heels clacked against the tile floor as the owner of said driveway returned to the room. Ada stepped through the archway and down the half-step to approach you by the front door. Laying a gentle hand on your shoulder, she smiled when you turned to look at her.
âHereâs your check, sweetheart,â she said, bringing a small rectangular paper to brush against your fingertips.
âThank you,â you replied as you took it from her. Your eyes immediately made their way back to the storm outside that grew worse by the second.
She followed your gaze, her palm staying in place on your shoulder. Unlike you, Adaâs face remained composed. She wasnât worried in the slightest. Sheâd known this storm was coming. It was an integral part of her plan for tonight.
But despite her internal calmness, she furrowed her dark brows and injected some worry into her tone.
âItâs getting bad out there. That snow is just piling up,â she proclaimed, âThereâs no way you should be driving in weather like that.â
Reluctantly, you nodded. Your thoughts had been reaching the same conclusion. You were just hesitant to voice them because after a long day of work, you yearned for the comfort of your apartment. It was finally the weekend, and your plush bed and soft sheets called to you. Youâd been dreaming of the quiet between those walls all day. The privacy to do whatever you wanted that you didnât have when you were here for most hours of the week.Â
Make no mistake, you loved your job as the Kennedys full-time nanny, but regardless of your enjoyment, it was still work that required a lot of attention and labor. Their daughter was the sweetest child youâd ever met; however, carting her to and from dance class and kindergarten along with making her food, playing with her, and putting her down for naps piled up on you.
âMaybe if I leave now, I can make itâŚâ you thought aloud.
âOh please. Honey, you live across town. Youâd have to take the highway, and people drive crazy as is. I should know, my husband is one of them,â she joked.
Your brows raised at the mention of Leon. You hadnât even thought about how your other employer would get home tonight. You looked over your shoulder at her again. âDo you think heâll be ok? Itâs coming down really hard out there,â you said.
âOh heâll be fine,â she waved off, âHis friend is giving him a ride home tonight. Iâm sure theyâll make it in one piece.â
Releasing a small breath of relief, you nodded again.
âItâs really no problem if you stay,â she continued, âWe have the guest room all set up. It has a bathroom attached, so youâd have total privacy. And I wouldnât make you watch Christina or anything if thatâs what youâre worried about.â
âOh no,â you reassured, âItâs not that, donât worry. I just donât want to be a burden on you and Mr. Kennedy.â
âYouâre never a burden on us. With all you do for Christina, youâre practically part of the family. I wouldnât want you driving off and getting into an accident just because you didnât want to impose. Iâm sure you know that we have more than enough space in this house,â she said and ran her hand over your bicep down to your wrist. Her manicured nails scraped over your skin, eliciting a trail of goosebumps in their wake.
You felt a simmer of heat in your chest upon hearing those kind words coming from her painted lips. That combined with the teasing touch had your heart pumping a little faster in your chest. It was something you rarely thought about, but maybe, just maybe, a tiny part of why you enjoyed this job so much was because both of your employers looked like reoccuring stars in peopleâs wet dreams all over the world.
âThank you. I would really appreciate it,â you answered, your prior trepidation dissolving under the heat of her gaze. You slid your check into your purse and then placed the bag back down on the end table by the door.
She smirked, though she tried to make it appear as an earnest smile. Of course, Ada sensed the little crush you had on her and her husband. It wasnât hard to tell given the way you preened in the face of the slightest of compliments or gave them the look a puppy would give its owner whenever they praised you for your hard work.
âGreat,â she said, âCome with me. Iâll put on some dinner. Weâll get you fed and then Iâll show you to your room and be out of your hair for the night.â
Her slender fingers clasped around your hand, guiding you back through that archway and towards the kitchen. The two of you passed by a few family portraits and expensive paintings before reaching your destination - the luxurious kitchen that probably held a value higher than all the money youâd made in your life.
You could fit about six of your kitchens in this one. That would be another nice thing about staying here for the night, getting to use the high end items they had stocked rather than the odds and ends you owned.
She led you across the gray marble floors over to the spacious island, all but sitting you down on one of the stools.
âYou just relax for a few minutes, and Iâll work on the food,â she said.
You took your seat, not willing to protest her hospitality further. Your eyes scanned around the kitchen youâd become so familiar with over the last year. She walked into the pantry for a couple seconds, returning with a box and some small containers before setting them on the counter.
âYou like pasta?â she asked.
âWho doesnât?â you responded.
She let out a small laugh at that. âNo wonder Leon likes you so much. A girl after his own heart.â
Your heart fluttered at the idea that Mr. Kennedy liked you. Before hearing that, you didnât suspect he had any problems with you. In fact, he let you know all the time that he was pleased with your performance and couldnât ask for anyone better to take care of Christina. But appreciating you and liking you were two separate things, the latter of which gave you that warm feeling in your stomach.
In the corner of the counters, Ada bent down to grab a pot. Your eyes went with her, dragging along her figure to where her form-fitting black slacks covered the swell of her ass. As soon as you realized you were staring, you averted your gaze. You pushed out any further thoughts about how her red blouse was probably unbuttoned at the top, allowing a clear view of her breasts down the front of the shirt.
She stood back up with the pot in hand and filled it with some water. Tapping the electric stove to life, she put it on to boil. You watched as she poured some oil in the water and then grabbed a pan to put on for what you assumed would be the sauce.
With both pieces heating up, she moved to the cabinets up above. She reached for the one next to the section that held all of Christinaâs dishes, her sippy cups and princess plates. The cupboard you took from most of the time you were here.
Instead of grabbing a Little Mermaid themed piece of tupperware, her hand retrieved two wine glasses. She spun around to face you and brought the fragile items over to the island. After placing them in front of you, she stepped into a nearby alcove, the place you knew they kept all the liquor.
She came back with a nice bottle, something more rich than youâd ever drink on your own. Popping it open, she went to pour, but you interrupted.
âI donât really need any,â you said with a timid smile.
While you werenât a prude about drinking under other circumstances, Ada was still your boss. Being under any kind of influence around her held a risk you didnât find worth taking.
She just smirked at you though, not making any effort to conceal it this time.
âCâmon, loosen up a bit,â she coaxed, âYouâre not on the clock. Youâve been working all week, even later today since I was late. Take it as my apology.â
âYou donât have to apologize. You paid me for the overtime,â you replied.
âStill. Keeping you longer than expected on short notice is inconsiderate,â she said.Â
She rounded the counter with the bottle and your glass in hand. Upon reaching you, she set the glass down directly in front of you with the bottle beside it. The proximity left no room for hesitation. One of her hands came up, brushing across the back of your neck to rest on your shoulder like it had earlier.
âYouâre not saying no because you think this is some sort of test, do you? Because I wouldnât bother with something like that, sweetheart. I was young once too,â she told you. You swore she was leaning in closer as her voice became more of a purr next to your ear, but you didnât dare look. âI know how good a drink can feel after a long week. Youâre human. My husband and I donât expect you to be a child-friendly saint even when youâre not working,â she continued.
Her fingers rubbed miniscule circles on the cloth of your top. You still didnât think it was the best idea to drink around your boss, but Ada had never given you a reason not to trust her. It was quite the opposite. Most days, the Kennedys seemed too good to be true.
You knew they were human. Occasionally while speaking to you, theyâd slip in a jab about the other or allude to some sort of marital problem that sprouted up after years of being together. Theyâd make mistakes like coming home late or forgetting to tell you that Christinaâs dance lesson had been canceled until you were already on the way there.
But when it came to their relationships with you, they were absolute dreams. They gave you expensive gifts for your birthday and Christmas. Paid you above what was the standard for nannies in this area. Talked to you like someone they were interested in rather than a person they were forced to interact with. And hell, now they were offering up their home to you when you needed it.
âAlright. If itâs ok with you,â you agreed.
âThatâs what I like to hear,â she said and tilted the bottle towards your glass.
Deep red liquid spilled into the curved dish. She wasnât shy with how much she gave you, that was for sure. You could already smell that heady aroma swirling around the air.
âYou can have as much as youâd like. Iâm sure I donât have to tell you, we want you to feel at home here with us,â she said.
Before she walked away, her hand swept down your back, stroking it with a domineering, almost maternal sort of affection. It sent another round of chills through your body. You reached for the wine glass and gripped the stem hard. It was probably for the best that she and her husband werenât actually around for most of your work here if this was how you reacted to a simple touch.
You brought the glass to your lips and sipped some of the liquid as she poured her own. After taking down some of the drink to numb your responsive nerves, you set it down again. You didnât want to over-indulge.
âI really do feel at home here. I wasnât saying no because Iâm not comfortable with you. I just really care about what you and Mr. Kennedy think of me. I wouldnât want you thinking you hired someone irresponsible to watch over your daughter,â you explained. What was left unspoken was that you didnât want either of them thinking you were trashy in your own right either.
She nodded and stirred the bubbling sauce on the stove. She had to stop herself from saying I know. âThatâs good. But you donât need to worry so much. Both me and my husband think very highly of you,â she said instead.
A rush coursed through you upon hearing that. You smiled and raised your glass again, ingesting some more of the intoxicating liquid.
She watched out of the corner of her eye. It was a struggle to keep quiet and not fawn over how adorable you looked when you got all giddy. She kept her attention on dinner though, adding the noodles when the water reached a boil and spicing the sauce.
There was nothing she needed to say right now. Sheâd just be quiet and let you nurse that drink. It wasnât that she needed the alcohol for what she wanted to do tonight. She could probably seduce you right now without much effort if she so desired. But tonight had been well-planned out, and for all the effort she put into it, she was gonna get everything she wanted out of it.
Ada had wanted you since the day they hired you. She could still remember the cute little outfit you wore on that Sunday you showed up for your interview. A nice plaid skirt with a dark sweater up top. Objectively modest but still attractive enough to garner attention. Youâd been so polite, sitting with your ankles crossed and perfect posture. She could tell you were fighting off nerves with each answer you gave her and Leon. You were only the second candidate theyâd met with, but Ada dismissed any other option before youâd even said your goodbyes.
That craving for you only became more intense over the last month or so. Sheâd had enough of coming home to you passed out on the couch, all sprawled out and vulnerable but not being able to take advantage. She was sick of only feeling grazes of the silken nature of your skin as she caught you before and after your shift.
That was why she calculated everything for tonight down to the minute. It would go off without a hitch. This wasnât one of Leonâs missions that stumbled along and almost collapsed at multiple points before barely reaching the correct target. No, sheâd thought this through.
By the end of the night, she would have you in the palms of her and Leonâs hands. Sheâd known this snow storm was coming, and sheâd intentionally stayed a little later at work so that sheâd be home by the time it was already raging outside and youâd put Christina to bed. Sheâd have the guest room for you, but you wouldnât have any of your own belongings, which meant sheâd have chances to lure you into her territory. Sheâd get you all peaceful and pliant by giving you a nice dinner and a fair amount of drinks. Everything would play out just like she intended it to.
She longed to see you at a baser state without any of your usual modesty impeding on your desires. She wanted you all giggling and cute, falling into her arms and spreading your legs without even being asked. You would love it. She just had to show you that.
She hummed to herself at a low volume while finishing up the food. Combining the curled pasta with the creamy sauce, she scooped two helpings onto each plate and made her way over to you with the dishes.
The two of you sat at the island, eating and drinking and talking. The conversation started on Christina but moved around to your personal life and her job among other subjects. She made sure to top off your wine whenever it got close to being empty.
âI know this job must keep you pretty busy, but do you do anything outside of it?â she eventually asked, âMaybe school or some other interests taking up your time?â
âUm⌠well,â you answered, âI tried out school for a while, and it wasnât really the best fit for me⌠I messed around with some other things, and you know how that goes.â
A little laugh slipped from your lips. Your words were definitely more free-flowing than usual.
âWell thereâs nothing wrong with taking things day by day,â she replied with a warm smile. She took a sip of her own drink before continuing her point. âYouâre still young. You could stumble on something you donât even know about right now.â
âExactly!â you responded, all too excited to have someone agree with you, âThatâs exactly how I feel. Like you know, this job. I feel like I won the lottery with you guys most days Iâm here.â
âThat makes me so happy to hear,â she said.
âItâs the truth. Ugh, the kids I babysat in high school were nightmares. And their parents barely paid me anything. I wasnât even allowed to eat the food at the house. It was horrible. But you guys, youâre perfect I swear. Christina is so sweet and funny and smart. And this house is great. And you and Mr. Kennedy, you two⌠youâre like dreams,â you rambled.
âReally?â she asked with mild amusement. She set her drink down and leaned forward on her forearms.
The way your eyes widened and your lips parted, you looked like a little fish upon realizing how your last statement sounded. âI just mean you guys are like so great to work for. My favorite job Iâve ever had for sure,â you added.
She reached out, laying her smooth hand on your wrist. âThatâs so sweet of you, honey. Youâre great to have around too. Much better than our last nanny,â she said, âShe always had some complaint about something, and her hours never ended up being consistent. Plus, she wasnât as cute as you.â
The statement struck you like a bolt of lightning. You were sure your eyes widened to the size of gold medals. Heat oozed up from your chest into your face. This honestly felt like a dream. In reality, you were supposed to think your boss was hot. You were supposed to thirst after them, pine for moments of reciprocation that would never actually happen. But one just did.
âOh, thank you,â you shrugged, an involuntary smile pulling at your mouth.
A low, knowing laugh echoed from her without her lips ever breaking that calculated smile. Adaâs rich eyes stayed on yours, not letting you get a reprieve from eye contact that lasted longer than a handful of seconds. Her fingertips massaged little circles onto your wrist as you spoke. The light touches felt like the tips of sparklers against your skin. Each one sent tingling warmth up your arm down to your belly.
âOh come on, donât look so nervous,â she said, âYou must get compliments like that all the time. Youâre a very pretty girl.â
Again, you shrugged. âI guess,â you answered. The weight of her attention pressed on you, causing your gaze to lower to your lap.
She didnât let you get away though. One of her hands ventured up to cup your jaw and pull your face upright. Her fingers lingered there as she stared at you. The curled, the flat backs of her knuckles smoothing across your cheek.
âDo you have a boyfriend? Or a girlfriend?â she asked.
Your pulse thundered in your ears. You shook your head no.
She hummed in response. Her fingers continued exploring the expanse of your cheek before dropping to lie on your shoulder.
âThatâs good. No need to tie yourself to one person at your age. Though you do deserve someone to take care of you,â she said.
That dull heat in your stomach had long outgrown something so mild. It festered into full arousal by this point, a need hot and pulsating between your thighs. You bit your lip. It was all you could do to keep yourself from squirming in an attempt to grind on the stool.
âI can take care of myself,â you said, though the tone of your voice alone called the truth of that claim into question.
She laughed softly, the sound light and condescending. Her hand glided back and forth along your shoulder in short strokes.
âIâm sure you can, sweet girl. But you shouldnât have to. You spend all week caring for someone else. You deserve to relax in your free time and have someone take over,â she said.
A visible shiver ran through you. Your teeth dug into the inside of your lip harder as you looked at her now.
âThat does sound kind of nice,â you agreed.
She nodded along and brought her hand back to your face. One set of her nails lightly scraped along the frame of it, trailing down after to stroke your jaw. The sensation was enough to make your eyes flutter and send another small burst of desire through you.
âOf course it does,â she said, âYou work so hard. You shouldnât have to go home and cook or do dishes or laundry. Youâre probably so tired by the time you get there.â
A hazy sigh puffed out from your mouth. âYeah sometimes,â you confirmed.
âMhm. Poor baby,â she cooed, âSomeone should be there, letting you rest, doting on you like the precious thing you are.â
Now you felt as though you were glowing. Your breaths came in deep, lifting your chest up and down with each breath. A lazy, blissful smile sat on your features as your dreamy gaze fixated on her. Everything really was starting to feel like a dream. If you werenât so captivated, you might have tried pinching yourself.
She chuckled at the expression before standing up. Her palms swept down to your shoulders again.
âYou look tired, honey. We should probably get you some clothes to sleep in and then send you off to bed,â she said.
âSounds good to me,â you said and started to rise from the stool yourself.
âPerfect. Just finish this off for me, sweetheart,â she said and lifted your glass to your hand again. It was nearly empty, but it couldnât hurt having you drink a few drops more.
Denying her didnât even occur to you in this condition. You brought the drink to your lips and swallowed the remainder while she cleared the counter of other dishes.Â
In the blink of an eye, she was back at your side. One of her arms slipped around your waist while the other held your shoulder.
âGood girl,â she praised, âCome with me.â
Again, you followed the order without a trace of resistance. You walked alongside her down the path you had come. This time around you leaned into her for support. Your head felt cloudy. A sense of dizziness pervaded every movement you made. She watched with pure satisfaction as she led you to the hall.
âThere you go. Weâre almost there,â she cooed as if you didnât know the layout of the house.
You passed the front door and turned into the area that held the doors to one of the bathrooms and the office space. At the end of the small corridor, she opened up the double doors that led into her and Leonâs room. Despite being here five days a week, you rarely ever went in here. You could use one hand to count the number of occasions in which you ever needed to cross this threshold.
The decor was much darker than the rest of the house. Shades of gray morphed into dark black in here. Obsidian drapes framed the window, separated at the moment to let the moon shine through. All the furniture was crafted in deep tones of wood. The rug sprawled across the floor was nearly pitch black, spare the thin red designs sewn throughout.
You took it all in as if it was brand new to you. She paid your curiosity no mind and sat you down on the edge of her bed.
âStay here for me. Iâll go find you something that fits you,â she said, running her hand over your head as if you were a prized pet.
You obeyed like one, not moving as she stepped away and into the walk in closet in the corner of the room. Your palms spread out on the bedding. The plush comforter tickled your fingers. It had to be one of the softest things youâd ever felt. Much different than the ratty old throw blankets you had on your bed back home.
A sigh seeped from your lips, and you found yourself laying back against the luxurious surface. You spread your arms out as though you were making angel wings in the snow outside. What would it be like to come home to this every night? To work hard all day and then be able to really relax in a place like this? To unwind with each one of your bosses at your side tending to you?
As these thoughts danced through your mind, you felt a hand grasp your thigh. You popped your head up to find Ada before you again, a couple pieces of clothing draped over her arm.
âDonât fall asleep on me yet,â she teased.
âI wasnât. Sorry. Your bed is just like really comfy,â you said with a small giggle as you sat up.
âIsnât it? We just got this one last year. Leon loved our old one, but I just find this one so much easier to sink into,â she agreed.
âMhm. For sure,â you said, nodding your head up and down with too much enthusiasm for the subject.
That didnât matter though. Ada didnât think she could find one thing wrong with you right now if she tried. Beside you, she laid out the few things sheâd taken from the closet.
âI wasnât really sure what type of clothes you liked to sleep in or what you would fit so I brought a few for you to choose from,â she said.
With a gentle hand, she directed your attention to the outfits on the mattress. There were two, and they looked like night and day. Two opposites with no neutral middle.Â
The one on the left consisted of a small black camisole, one that had to belong to Ada. A pair of silky, navy blue shorts sat with them, another find from her side of the wardrobe. Next to those two was a large gray sweatshirt and some flannel pajama pants, probably her husbandâs if you had to guess.
Your eyes lingered on each. It appeared as though you were taking your time to decide, but really you just couldnât stop trying to picture the clothing on their ownersâ bodies. You imagined Adaâs soft curves covered by the thin cloth, her smooth thighs emerging from the shiny fabric of the shorts. Images of Leon flickered in your head too, the sleeves of that shirt rolled up to his elbows and leaving his forearms exposed. The plaid pajama pants hanging low on his hips and giving you a nice view of his v-line.
While you stared at your options, she angled herself behind you, lifting one knee onto the bed. Her hands landed upon your shoulders to gently massage.
âPick whatever you want. Itâs totally up to you. You can take one or the other or combine the two. Maybe layer a bit since itâs so cold,â she whispered. She had leaned in right next to your ear. Her lips brushed your skin with every word.
It took everything you had not to whimper for more from her. Under normal circumstances, you would be squirming out of your skin, stuttering and awkwardly trying to justify her affection for you. But right now, you leaned back into it, letting the warmth flow through you.
She smiled and snaked her arms around your body, holding you tight against her. âIâll have to buy you some clothes to keep here in case this ever happens again. Weâll keep a cute little wardrobe for you in the guest room, so you can stay whenever you like,â she added.
That pulled another giggle out of you along with growing the lazy smile on your face. âIâll take both of these,â you finally decided and pulled the two tops toward yourself. You messily bundled both pieces into your lap.
âGreat. But you still need some pants, sweetheart,â she teased.
âBut I donât like sleeping in pants,â you said and looked up at her with earnest eyes.
She reveled in your thoughtless confession but played it cool. âAre you sure? The bed upstairs has a lot of blankets and the heat should be on, but I wouldnât want you getting cold,â she offered.
You shook your head. âIâll be ok, but thank you,â you answered.
Standing up, you swayed on your feet a little. She rose from the bed herself and moved the rejected pairs of pants to the dresser nearby. When she turned to you and caught the wobbly nature of your stance, she moved in like a viper through tall grass and grabbed you by the elbow.
âWhy donât you just change in here? You know that way if you donât like anything you wonât have to stumble up and down the stairs. Plus you can just leave your clothes here, and Iâll put them in the wash in the morning,â she said, making the offer as if it was based on a genuine desire to help you.
You blinked at her. âLike⌠change in here? In the bedroom?â you checked.
She nodded, her fingers gliding up your arm. âMhm. Weâre both girls, honey. No need to be shy. Iâll even turn around if you want me to,â she said in a way that somehow soothed you and set your whole body on fire.
You felt like a fireworks show was going off in your stomach. The adrenaline rushing through your veins made you light-headed, and the wine probably didnât help. You couldnât think of a reason to say no.
âAlright,â you agreed with a heavy breath.
âGood girl,â she praised with a squeeze to your shoulder.
You felt your clit throb between your legs. At this point, you knew youâd probably have to rub one out as soon as you reached the privacy of the guest room.
Turning around, you dropped the two shirts back on the bed. Without much hesitation, you started to undress. Your shirt was first to go. You tucked your fingers beneath the hem and peeled it off.
Adaâs gaze focused completely on you as she saw the soft skin of your back completely exposed. This was the most important part of the night. If she messed up here, all of it would have been for nothing. She hadnât planned out every minute movement she would make, but she could think on her feet. This would work.
She headed over near the closet entrance again but didnât venture inside. She stood right outside in front of the full length mirror, a seemingly reasonable position where she was sure youâd be able to see her if you turned around.
Bending down, she unbuckled her heels and then kicked them to the side. She undid her slacks next and shimmied them off to pool around her ankles.
You heard the rustling of the fabric and the clicks of unfastening. It didnât register in your mind what they would be coming from until you glanced over your shoulder and spotted her. Your jaw fell open while your eyes bulged from their sockets. You were pretty sure you stopped breathing in the middle of removing your bra.
She stood there as if nothing about this was odd. Her fingers worked on undoing the buttons on her blouse, parting the two sides and revealing a sliver of her skin. Her legs were already out in the open, all for your eyes to see.
In the reflection of the mirror in front of her, she caught your wide-eyed stare. She spun around to face you head on. She unhooked the last button. Her shirt fell open, allowing you to see her flesh from her navel to her collar bone. Underneath the blouse, she still had on a lacy bra and matching panties.
Not missing a beat, she just chuckled and walked closer. âDid you get stuck, honey? Need some help?â she asked.
She approached your frozen form and brought her hands to your shoulders where your bra straps sat. Using her nimble fingers, she guided the thin pieces down your arms. The entire garment fell away and dropped to the floor in front of you.
âThere you go. Let mommy help you,â she whispered.
This time you actually couldnât tell if the words were real or imagined. Theyâd been so hushed, so faint, but you would swear on anything that you felt them fan over your neck.
She moved to your jeans next, flicking the button open and tugging the zipper loose. The denim crumpled under the force of her hands shoving them down. You stepped out of each pant leg before she kicked them aside along with your bra.
Her hands came to rest on your hips for a moment before gliding up your sides. They smoothed over your curves like streams of warm water. You felt the gentle pressure move from your sides around to your tummy. She was only teasing you right now. Her touches felt good, but they didnât explore anywhere that would give you true pleasure.
âYou have such soft skin,â she cooed.
âThank you,â you hummed, preening under her touch.
âSo tender and pretty. Perfectly smooth,â she whispered.
You were already melting under her hands, but she knew she could go further. She ducked in and kissed your neck. You moaned at the feeling, at her hot mouth latching onto your skin. She laid a few more there after to follow.
âMmm, so sweet too,â she hummed.
You whimpered and let your head fall back onto her shoulder, leaving more of your neck accessible to her lips. She took advantage. Leaning in, she licked a stripe over your pulse and followed the trail of saliva with a series of kisses. Her teeth scraped across the sensitive flesh.
âA-adaâŚâ you sighed.
âIâm right here, sweet baby,â she purred, âDoes that feel good?â
âMhm,â you whimpered.
âI bet it does. Youâre so sensitive, arenât you? Jumping under every touch. I was like that at your age too,â she teased.
Her hands broke the little patterns theyâd been tracing into your stomach to float upward. One by one they each landed on your breasts. Her palms cupped the mounds and gave them a gentle squeeze.
âYou have such a gorgeous body,â she said as she nuzzled the space behind your ear, âYouâre so shy. So precious. Running around my house like a skittish little puppy.â
No words of protest or denial made their way out of you. It felt good to bask in her attention, to know that she saw you as something so delicate.
âI think Iâm starting to understand why though,â she teased.
Her fingers went to your pebbled nipples, pulling and tweaking the sensitive nubs. You mewled and squirmed in her grasp.
âMommy,â you whined, not caring if she had actually been the one to say it first.
âMhm. Look at you, already calling me mommy. You were thinking about this, werenât you baby? Youâve been wanting mommy to take care of you?â
âYeah,â you admitted, not being coy about it.
She grinned against your neck before turning you around. Once you could see her, she displayed a much more seductive expression. âLet mommy take care of you then,â she said.
With caring hands, she guided you onto the bed and laid you against a mountain of the pillows near the headboard. She crawled above you, looking down at you like a panther that had just caught its next meal.
âLet me have a taste of those lips. See if they're as soft as the rest of you,â she murmured before lowering herself.
She connected her mouth to yours. Her lips engulfed your own in a kiss, her tongue teasing you. You reciprocated. Your lips parted as you moaned, granting her access. She didnât waste any time. Her breaths came out heavier as she focused herself entirely on you.
As her mouth worked on you above, her hands continued roaming your body below. She groped your hips and explored your thighs. You gasped softly at the mix of sensations, rolling your hips up against nothing.
âSo impatient, baby,â she breathed as she pulled back, âYou act like such a good girl all the time, but I bet that leaves you so desperate, huh?â
âMhm,â you whimpered.
She nodded and moved down to your neck again. Her mouth trailed over the skin with little pecks and soft sucks. The idea of leaving marks tempted her, but that could come later. She didnât intend on this being her only time with you.
You felt her kisses migrate across your throat to your collarbone and down to the valley between your breasts. Her tongue played there for a moment, drawing out the moments before she would give you your first real taste of relief.
âMommy, please,â you tried, eyes fluttering.
âSo demanding,â she cooed. She moved her mouth to the right though and wrapped her lips around your nipple.
You arched your back off the bed and breathed out a whiny sigh. The tip of her tongue swirled around the bud. She laved at it, applying the perfect amount of pressure to get you squirming. Her hands massaged your waist in the meantime. She would make sure you felt good all over.
Your legs shifted around at the tingling building between your thighs. You craved some friction so badly, but she was still fixated on your chest. Her mouth released your nipple and planted one more kiss on it before she moved to the other and gave it the same treatment.
It got the same pleasured reaction out of you that only increased when one of her hands came up to toy with the sensitive peak that already experienced her mouth. You mewled without shame, digging her heels into the mattress.
She finally let it go as she had the other one, with a wet pop. Her eyes flitted up to you, taking in your breathless expression. After a couple seconds, she started kissing down your belly. She scooted herself down between your legs.
âYouâre so needy,â she cooed, âNo oneâs taken care of you in so long. Itâs left you aching.â
Her fingers ghosted over your thin panties, the ribbed fabric nowhere near as luxurious as hers. You watched her eyes follow her hands. The dark irises locked on your center. Her thumb traced the length of your cunt, grazing over your clit down to your leaking entrance. A nice wet patch began forming on the seat of your panties.
âThatâs ok though. No one else could take care of you like mommy can. Youâd be wasting your time.â
Your eyelids felt heavy as you watched her tug your panties off, drooping with the weight of your lust. You felt the cool air hit the glistening folds between your legs as soon as your lower half was free of the thin covering.
âSo wet for me already,â she said, âThatâs my good girl. Always so eager to please.â
She didnât waste time teasing. Why would she? After months of coveting, she finally had you within her grasp, ready for the taking. She gripped your thighs and dove in, flattening her tongue against your soaked core. With a broad stroke, her tongue dragged over the slick flesh.
You mewled in response. A soft gasp accompanied the sound. She spotted your fingers gripping the bedding. So responsive from the simplest of touches. You were going to be fun.
She attacked your clit next. First, she treated it with little flicks of her tongue. Quick and repetitive, it stroked the tiny bud until you let out a pretty whine. She then latched her lips on, sucking on your pulsing bundle of nerves.
All the thoughts in your head melted away. The only thing you could do at this point was babble out a small collection of words including âmommyâ and âplease more.â
She got into it. All her focus trained on you. This was what she had been dreaming of for a year after all. Ever since she saw you in that little plaid skirt. Sheâd have to have you wear it again one of these days so she could eat you out under it.
Your thighs squeezed around her head as she lapped at your entrance. It felt good, a more dull kind of bliss than what sheâd brought you before, but still good. She didnât mind the pressure from your legs. Her nails dug into your tender flesh and kept you right in place to continue on with her task.
You trembled and twitched with the ecstasy coursing through you. Your eyes rolled back, your vision going out for a second. It felt as though your head was engulfed by drowsy clouds straight from the heavens. The few people you had been with before never made you feel like this.
Your head had lolled back for a moment in the throes of carnal pleasure. When your vision started to return, you brought it back up to look at her again. Only she didnât catch your attention this time.
Instead your pupils landed on the shadowy figure at the double doors you had entered through.
You practically jumped out of your skin before you realized who it was. She felt you startle and briefly looked over her shoulder before returning her attention to your pussy. The person stepped forward, allowing moonlight to cast over their figure and show their face.
Leon.
âIt sounds like you broke her already,â he said as he approached the bed. Making his way to your pair, he ended up standing beside you. His eyes scanned over your nude body, drinking in every inch of your figure.
âI told you Iâd have her nice and warmed up by the time you came home,â she replied, shooting him a smile from the crux of your thighs.
Their words flew over your head. You couldnât really hear them with how fast your heart was beating. God, how could you have been so stupid? You totally forgot about Leon until this very moment. Apparently, a few drinks was all it took to let your pussy take control. All you had been thinking about for the last half hour was how badly you wanted Ada, how beautiful she looked laying in front of you, devouring you whole. The fact that she was married with a husband completely slipped your mind.
âMr. Kennedy, Iâm so sorry. I- um- We just-â you stammered, incapable of coming up with any sort of defense for your actions.
But he didnât look mad. He sat down beside your shoulder, gazing down at you with some sort of affection in his eyes.
âI think Iâve told you before that I prefer when you call me Leon, sweetheart,â he told you, petting your head.
Biting your lip, you leaned into the touch. Your eyes looked so sweet gazing up at him as you did. He felt his blood beginning to flow South in response. His hand continued stroking over your scalp before moving to your shoulder, feeling your soft skin beneath his fingers.
âSheâs been such a good girl for mommy,â Ada praised from below before rubbing your clit rapidly with her middle and index finger. The quick motion drew a whiny moan from you, only adding to Leonâs arousal.
His eyes flicked between you and his wife. âYou didnât give her too much to drink, did you?â he asked.
She scoffed and rolled her eyes. âShe only had a few. What do you take me for?â
âWell she looks a little out of it. I just thought Iâd check. My mistake,â he said, rubbing your cheek with his thumb absentmindedly.
She laughed softly at that. âYou know Iâm good with my mouth, darling. I donât need any help getting her to look like that.â
You whimpered as she reattached her mouth to your cunt. Turning your head, you squished your face against his thigh. Your hips bucked. You could feel your release building up, the urge to let go flourishing inside you. Your noises became more high pitched, more needy. He looked down at you with something resembling curiosity with a trace of adoration.
âThat feel good, baby? Not too much for you?â he asked.
âN- no, feels- mmph! Feels good,â you choked out between labored breaths. The hand closer to him flew up to grab at his thigh. Your digits dug into the material of his pants as another whine erupted from you.
He swapped his leg for his hand, letting you squeeze his palm as hard as you wanted.
âThatâs it. Good girl. Hold daddyâs hand. Iâve got you,â he hummed.
Ada let her hand take over again and brought her head up to watch the two of you.
âAre you close, honey?â she asked.
âMhm,â you responded instantly.
âGood. I want you to cum for me, ok? Cum for mommy and daddy. Weâre gonna get you all nice and wet before you take daddyâs cock,â she said with the sweetest smile on her face in contrast to her dirty words.
You jolted at the prospect. A sharp breath tore through you right before your orgasm did. Your body shook and convulsed, arching and rolling as if you were possessed. Vaguely, you could hear both of their voices. You couldnât make out the exact words, but the tones were that of praise.
The world around you faded away as you came on her fingers. Your chest puffed up and down with heavy breaths, and your head went limp against Leonâs leg.
Moments later as you began to come down, you felt him shift your weight onto the pillows. His presence receded and more hushed words filled the room. You heard fabric crinkling and a belt hitting the floor.
The mattress dipped as he climbed back on. Your eyes cracked open in time to see him kneeling between your legs. His hands rested on your bent knees, fingers caressing your skin.Â
Your eyes swept over one of the bodies youâd been imagining in recent months. You could see the few veins that marked his forearms and biceps. He was still muscular despite getting older, but he had begun to fill out a little with some softer flesh. Brown hair dusted the skin from his navel down to a thicker patch of it at the base of his cock.
Meanwhile, Ada landed by your side. You took a breath, and her scent overwhelmed you in place of Leonâs. Her curves pressed up against you. Your head rested against the cushion of her breasts while you could feel the smoothness of her belly against your arm.
She kissed the crown of your head, nestling her nose against your hair. âYou ready for daddy, baby? I know heâs ready for you,â she whispered.
You nodded, watching Leon as he gave his cock a few tugs. His eyes remained soft even in the midst of his desire.
While Leon wasnât the one whoâd hatched this plan to get you here, that didnât mean he was oblivious to your beauty. There was a reason heâd agreed to this in the first place. Heâd become just as enamored with you in the same time his wife did. He couldnât help it. Even though he knew it was such a cliche at his age, he couldnât stop himself from lusting after the babysitter.
He was only human. It was only natural for his eyes to linger on your waist when you squatted down to say goodbye to his daughter. The flutter in his stomach when you hugged him from the side a few times was just a matter of instinct. It wasnât his fault the sound of your laughter nearly had him drooling or that the sight of you carrying his child to the car made him weak in the knees.
At least thatâs what he told himself. That it was just a harmless crush. Something heâd never act on or get to experience anywhere other than the little scenarios that played in his head while he jerked off in the shower.
But then he found out his wife had an interest in you too. Your name came up during an intimate moment of their own. Between kisses, Ada asked him what he thought of you. He had pulled back, confused by the sudden question (and slightly nervous that heâd have to discuss you while already half-hard).
âUh⌠sheâs good. Christina likes her. Sheâs sweet, responsible, hardworking. Little shy, but Iâm sure thatâs just when weâre around,â heâd shrugged.
âNot like that,â sheâd rolled her eyes and leaned back in to kiss his neck, âWhat do you think of her? Sheâs young, pretty, looks at you like you hung the stars. Donât tell me youâve never had a little babysitter fantasy before, darling.â
At first heâd thought it was a test. He denied it, proclaiming that was wrong. He only had interest in his wife, and you were just trying to do your job. The fact that you were easy on the eyes meant nothing to him. He didnât care about your sparkling eyes or soft lips or nice curves. He didnât notice the sweet sound of your voice or any of your cute little mannerisms. Pffft. No way.
âThatâs a shame. Because I think sheâs beautiful. Sheâs just so sweet and cute, and she doesnât even know. The only place she could look any better is lying between us. And you know sheâd be so sensitive to every little touch. Sheâd whimper like a little puppy,â she whispered against his skin.
In that moment, all his guilt had zapped away. He groaned at her words, accepting them without hesitation. There was no jealousy on his end, absolutely no discomfort at the idea of his wife lusting for someone else. Not when that someone else was you.
Because it meant that he got to have you like he did right now, spread out before him all blissed out and pretty. He guided his length to your entrance and dragged the tip over your folds. It glided through your wetness, nudging your clit before falling back down.
âYou sure youâre ready, princess?â he asked.
âMhm. Pretty please,â you affirmed, natural puppy dog eyes on display.
âLook at you. So polite,â he mumbled.
He prodded the head at your entrance, popping it inside. For a few moments, that was all that entered you. He let you adjust to the intrusion and let himself get used to the vise-like clamp of your velvety walls. The few seconds were necessary if he didnât want to humiliate himself by blowing his load in less than a minute.
After that time though, he began easing it inside of you inch by inch. You whined at the light stretch. Ada stroked your arm with one hand and caressed the swell of your breasts with the other.
âThatâs right, honey. Youâre taking him so well,â she crooned.
âFuck, sheâs tight,â Leon grunted.
Ada grinned at that before looking at you again. âAre you squeezing daddy nice and tight? Showing him where to go?â she teased.
You moaned and nodded while Leon groaned and shut his eyes. Ada kissed your cheek as her husband bottomed out. Her hand fell to your stomach, rubbing over it. He leaned forward. His palm pressed down next to you on the mattress to keep his balance. He hovered above you, blue eyes looking down with lidded awe.
Pulling his hips back, he rocked them forward again right after. He dragged his pelvis away and then brought it right back, flush against your core. You whimpered with each movement. The satisfying slide sent warmth through you each time.
âAtta girl. Taking it so well, just like mommy said,â he mumbled.
Now he pumped his hips with more dedication. He increased his speed. Exploratory moves became deliberate strokes. Leon settled into a rhythm. He swiveled his hips and angled the way he pistoned them based on the little noises youâd make and the expressions that took over your face. He paid close attention to it all, wanting to learn what you liked, what made you feel good.
Ada continued moving her hands along your form. One moment she played with your nipples, the next she held your hips, after that she pulled your knees up further. It was dizzying trying to keep up.
âOur sweet girl,â she cooed in your ear, âPrecious baby. Maybe this should be your new job. Youâre good at your other one, but I think weâd like having you all to ourselves.â
Leon groaned again, his head hanging forward. Although the words had been directed at you, they had just as much of an effect on him.
âYouâd like that wouldnât you, baby?â he asked, âSitting around and looking pretty. Letting us spoil you like you deserveâ
âYou know she would. Do you even have to ask?â Ada said, âSheâd love it. Spending the day kneeling between your legs while you work, using that mouth of hers whenever you want.â
âShe could spend some with you too. Sit on your lap and let you play with her with one hand while typing with the other,â he offered in return.
âAnd then one day, if sheâs really good, maybe daddy will breed that cute little pussy and fuck a baby into her,â she whispered.
Leonâs hips snapped against you hard as you turned to eye her. The words broke you out of the spell his cock had you under before.
âWhat?â you asked.
She chuckled and cupped your jaw, giving you a patronizing kiss.
âWhat, sweetheart? Youâd like that wouldnât you? Itâd make mommy and daddy so happy, you giving us another baby,â she said.
Your head spun at the idea. You blinked and sputtered. In your right, rational mind, youâd put a pause to this. But with a few drinks in you and one orgasm already under your belt, the idea didnât sound all too bad. Itâs not like you were gonna sign a contract or something. They werenât even asking you to agree to anything right now. But just imagining itâŚ
âYouâd look so pretty, babydoll. Your hips all rounded out, all those curves nice and full, that cute stomach swollen with our baby,â Leon sighed.
Imagining it was in fact fun you decided. Your pussy clenched around him again before relaxing. You heard Ada moan softly beside you. Glancing over, you could see her fingers moving beneath her panties, working herself to the edge alongside you.
âYouâd love it, honey. Youâre made for it. And weâd take such good care of you, make sure you had everything you could want,â he added.
âMmmm⌠daddy,â you babbled, unable to voice the full extent of your enthusiasm.
âUh huh. Daddyâs right here. Iâm gonna fill you up. Youâre first little taste, yeah? Iâll get you nice and full so you know how it feels,â he moaned.
His bicep flexed as he continued to pound into you. Over and over, he slammed into your cunt. Ada continued moaning beside your ear. Her own noises were growing more desperate. You could feel her hips rocking up to meet her own touch.
âDaddy gonna- gonna- ah- gonna cum,â you whimpered.
âGo ahead, pumpkin,â he grunted, âCum for daddy. Let me see my pretty girl let go.â
You didnât need to be told twice.
You let release wash over you in a smooth wave. Your body writhed and twitched below his. You squirmed atop the blankets, letting your muscles melt into the plush comfort of them.
Next to you, Ada reached the high too. Watching you fall apart was the final straw in her own resolve. She bucked her hips and nuzzled into your throat while crumbling under the bliss of release.
Leon was the last one to join the club. He fucked you through your euphoria while approaching his own. When he finally hit it, a strangled moan burst from him. He fell forward against you, burying his face in the side of your neck not occupied by his wife. His hands gripped your hips and held them in place as he rolled his pelvis against your ass like a dog in heat. He fucked rope after rope of hot cum into you.
By the time he pulled out, you were nice and full just like he said you would be.
You were also undeniably sleepy. Your eyes were all but shut, and your body was curling up as though you were ready for a nap.
He stretched his arm out and pulled you against his side to rest. His other hand rubbed down your body, tenderly coasting over your soft skin.
âSuch a good girl for us. You were so good,â he murmured, âOur sweet baby.â
Ada scooted near your back, her hand joining Leonâs in soothing you.
âDonât keep her all to yourself,â she teased.
He rolled his eyes. âYou had her to yourself hours before I got here,â he dismissed.
She smirked and pecked his lips before looking down at you. Leaning in, she nuzzled your ear. âSleep now, baby. You need the rest. Daddy will carry you to bed in a little bit,â she whispered.
Like before, you didnât need any convincing. Your muscles relaxed as they got comfortable and pulled the blankets into place. You let yourself drift off between their two bodies while the storm raged on outside. Your mind slipped into dreamland, letting reality melt away for a little while.
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The Little Things Mean A Lot
Pairing: Quinn Hughes x Fem!Reader
Warnings: Reader is a little emotional but this is just fluffy and super soppy.
Summary: Sometimes it's the small things that make you fall in love all over again, like your favourite Singapore chowmein from your favourite Chinese takeaway after a long day of teaching and parent's evening.
Notes: I have 2 parents evenings this half-term and a late open evening thing and I really hate the late evenings, and they're always on a middle of the week day where you have to get up and teach the next day while exhausted đ´
Totally happy to take requests/ideas/prompts at the moment in my ask box :)
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Teaching has always been a love-hate profession for you. You enjoy it, of course you do, but it's a lot of work and stress on the best of days and it's only made harder whenever you have a late evening like tonight. 'Parent consultation evening' also known as parent-teacher conference, parent's evening or the night that teacher's dread because they can't leave school until 8pm and just want to go home after teaching all day.
They're not terrible, you have to admit as you finish your last appointment at 8.01 pm. Parents are general complimentary to you and a lot of the issues you have with kids get sorted out simply by talking to their parents and getting the chance to show them their work or lack of. It helps that since Covid your appointments are online, so parents can't go over their time slot. But, you'd been out of the apartment since 6am and taught a full day of lessons, plus teaching your club and then you spent the last 3 hours talking non-stop to parents. So, yes, they weren't terrible, but you were exhausted and really ready to go home and fall into bed. You were ready to see Quinn or at least curl up next to him under the duvet.
Even collecting all your things together and putting on your coat felt like a chore. You tried to do it quickly, your work laptop shoved into your backpack without care, your water bottle, now empty, collected and your lanyard thrown into the bottom of your bag where you'd likely complain that you couldn't find it tomorrow.
The corridor is empty, dark as you make your way to the front doors of the school, passing a few other classrooms still with their lights on as the last remaining teachers finish their evening off. You wave at a few of your colleagues who catch your eye through their doors, but don't stop, determined to get away as quickly as possible. It's always a little eerie leaving school when it's dark out and barely anyone is around, like something out of a horror movie.
You slip your phone out of your pocket dialling Quinn on instinct, it barely rings before he answers.
"Hey, baby." His voice not even a little bit groggy, telling you that he's stayed up for you again and hasn't had a nap. No matter how many times you tell him he can go to sleep if he wants, he always stays up until you're home and have eaten. Even if he's had a long day.
"Hey..." You practically sigh out, tiredness infecting your tone, "I'm just walking to my car now, should be back at the apartment in 20 minutes if the traffic isn't too bad." The car park is practically pitch black and you're thankful for Quinn's voice on the other end of the line and the fact your car isn't too far from the doors.
"Okay, baby, drive safe, yeah? It's been icy, so don't rush." Quinn would know, he'd woken up way too early that morning, before even you, to scrape the ice off your car and make sure you didn't have to do it yourself. It had been a little thing that morning that had made your day easier but also made you love him just a little more. He knew how much you hated being even 10 minutes later to work than you normally were, your routine being put off would mess your day up, so he didn't mind keeping it on track for you. Even if it changed his routine in the process.
Your car is freezing when you get in, rushing to turn it on and get the heating going, practically shaking in your big coat and scarf, "I know, I promise I won't rush. I love you." You put your seatbelt on, turning the headlights on as you think about how glad you're going to be when you open the apartment door to Quinn.
"I love you too. See you soon." His voice is soft and it's hard to do but you say your goodbyes and hang up the call, setting your music to play and making sure you have everything with you before you set off.
The drive is uneventful thankfully, no real traffic and no real issues other than the hungry rumbling of your stomach and the tired blinking of your eyes. You've never been more thankful for the lack of traffic than when you pull into the apartment parking lot and into your designated space.
There's a moment, after you put your car in park, where you simply turn your car off and close your eyes. Needing a moment to decompress and get your bearings even as you can feel yourself starting to nod off. This moment is interrupted by a startling knock on the window of your car door that has you jumping out of your skin, hand clasping your chest. You look, only to see Quinn, bundled up in a hoodie outside your door, hands in his pockets, looking sheepish at having scared you.
You shake your head at him through the window, but let him open your car door for you. You don't protest when he walks around to the passenger side and grabs your work bag for you and you say very little, just melt into his side when he wraps his arm around you to usher you to the door of your apartment building.
You let him practically support your body weight on the way up to the apartment, feeling for the first time that you can relax. It's silly really, how easy it is to shut off around Quinn, barely looking where you're going because you know he'll steer you in the right direction, knowing he won't let you walk face first into a wall.
When Quinn finishes unlocking the front door, the first thing you notice is how warm the apartment is like he's put the heating on especially for you. You were always cold while he always claimed he was fine.
You toe your shoes off at the door, turning to watch as Quinn is much more careful with your work bag than you would be, placing it down by the front door and kicking off his shoes. His hair is at that gorgeous length where when he turns to look at you it practically flips like Prince Charming.
"Go take a shower, baby, I've already made your lunch for tomorrow and I'll sort dinner while you get comfy." It shouldn't make you feel like crying or get emotional but it does because he knows how much you hate making your lunch for work when it's late and he knows how tired you are after a parent's evening. He knows that if it's not made it'll put off your whole morning routine and he knows that that'll ruin your entire Friday. It just reminds you how much he does for you without fussing about it or expecting praise. How well he knows you.
You can't help but wrap your arms around his hoodie swamped frame, pressing your face into his chest for a few moments as you squeeze him as tight as you can, breathing in his cologne, and just enjoying being close to him for the first time in hours.
When you finally look up at him, you rest your chin on his chest, eyes soft as they meet his green ones, "I love you, what would I do without you?"
"You'd be fine, you know it." Yeah, you would. You'd make your own lunch and find your own dinner and scrape ice off your car by yourself, but you'd just be fine...you wouldn't be happy, you wouldn't be thriving. You squeeze him a little tighter around the waist, Quinn's own arms wrapping around you snuggly.
"Then why do it for me?" You ask the question even though you know the answer, because you want to hear him say it, because you love to hear him say it.
"Just because you can do this stuff doesn't mean you have to, I love you...so I want to make your life easier..."
You practically grin up at him, his answer the usual one, one you've heard time and time again but that you love every single time. "I love you too, baby." You reach up to press a kiss to his chin, lips moving across to his cheek, any available skin coming under assault.
He laughs loud, head reeling back to escape you, "Okay, okay! That's enough, you need to go shower! Go!" Quinn pulls out of your arms, struggling to free himself and when he finally does he sends a playful slap to your arse that has you laughing as you leave him, even tired, you can't help but feel slightly rejuvenated in Quinn's presence, like he gives you an energy boost.
You try not to take too long, cutting your shower short out of exhaustion and hunger before throwing on your most comfortable t-shirt and short combo. Your hair is wet, still dripping when you come back out to the kitchen area, the smell of Chinese food hitting you and forcing a grumbling gurgle from your stomach.
"Hungry?" Quinn laughs, looking up from where he's plating up the food. Quinn used to be the sort of guy who ordered one dish from the Chinese takeaway and had the entire thing, but you came from a household of purchasing many items and putting a bit of each on your plate. Mix and match. He'd adapted well to it and become the expert plate maker. Secretly, or not so secretly, he enjoyed making your plate for you, providing you with food even if it was just Chinese takeout.
"Starving! You got my favourite?" You take a seat at the kitchen table, eyes eagerly watching the food in a way that has Quinn chuckling to himself even as he gives you an extra spring roll. One thing he loves about you is how normal you are about food, you don't hide how hungry you are or try to avoid food, even when he can't eat something because of his training and his career, you don't let that effect you or your appetite.
"Mmhmm, and I've given you most of the chowmein, since it's your favourite." He places the plate in front of you, a large pile of Singapore chowmein on your plate, significantly larger than the share on his own plate. Your entire plate dwarfs Quinn's, his desire to feed you seemingly impossible to quash. Maybe you should feel guilty, instead all you feel is such overwhelming love and affection for him to the point of tears welling in your eyes. Maybe its because you're tired, a long day teaching plus parent's evening finally taking its toll or maybe it's just how sweet Quinn is, how determined he is to make your life easier, to look after you, but either way you're especially emotional tonight over a Chinese takeaway.
"Thank you..."
Quinn stops before he even sits in his seat, leaving his plate across from yours at the emotion in your voice. Instead, he comes to stand next to your sitting form, letting you wrap your arms around his hips, your cheek pressing into his side while he runs a hand through your wet hair.
Quinn would say that you were naturally more emotional than him, not a cry baby per say, but with him? In the place you felt most comfortable? Then you were prone to tears, especially when he did something nice for you. It was an interesting thing about you, that you could deal with teenagers yelling at you, throwing things, swearing and being all around rude or parents harassing you, and not shed a single tear. But, the moment Quinn did something thoughtful you got choked up...although not usually over Chinese food. This was a new one.
"You're emotional tonight...you okay, baby?" You sniffle a little at his question, unsure why you're so emotional today of all days, other than possibly how tired you. Maybe your period is on the way? Or maybe it was just that time of year? Still, you can't help but lean into him deeper, clingy in your need to be close to him even as you try to sneak a bite of a spring roll, stomach still growling.
"I'm just tired and...and I love you so much....you're so good to me and you gave me almost all the chowmein." Quinn stifles a laugh at the way you say, all while sneaking food into your mouth, you're gripping him so tight he considers eating stood upright so you don't have to let go. He might not ever admit it, but he loves how clingy you are, how you always reach for him. He loves that he never doubts how much you want him.
"Oh, baby...you really need food and bed, huh?" His fingers run through your hair one last time, landing on the nape of your neck and resting there.
You nod your head and reluctantly let go of him so you can focus on your food. He watches you while the two of you eat, the slow blinks, the way your head lolls every now as if you might fall asleep at the table. He's happy though, happy you're eating, happy you're enjoying it, the way you gobble up your favourite bits and eat more than is probably comfortable. He's happy he can provide for you, look after you, especially given how much you give to your job.
Once you've both finish eating, you go to reach for his plate as if you're going to clean it for him, he pulls it away from you without hesitation, "Baby, I'll do it in the morning...you're too tired, let's just go to bed, yeah?"
You don't even put up a fight when he takes your plate from you or when he grips you by the shoulders, steering you towards the bedroom. There are no protests when he pulls back the covers and helps you ease into bed, the only protest you let out is when he tries to leave to lock up and turn all the lights off. But, you're placated by his soft voice telling you he'd be right back.
You're asleep by the time he's turned all the lights off and put the plates by the sink. Quinn can't really help it, the way he stops just off to the side to stare at you. The soft rise and fall of your breathing, the way you nuzzle deeper into your favourite pillow.
When he was younger Quinn was sure that he didn't want to be responsible for another person that wasn't his brothers, that he didn't want to look after someone else. The idea of loving someone seriously, of caring for them was too much. He'd been dead wrong, you weren't his responsibility and sure, you could look after yourself, but God, did he love doing it for you. He loved seeing you happy, content, well looked after. He loved knowing that even when you were exhausted from work, even when life threw you a curveball, he was there to make it easier, lighten the load. You made him feel needed, useful, in a way that was ten times more rewarding than being captain of the Canucks.
He loved that for all the things he did for you, you did just as much for him. The way you always put a towel in the dryer to warm when you knew he was coming back from practice. The fact you made sure to have his favourite cheat meal ready when he'd had a rough game or roadie. You might think he did more for you, than you did for him, but in reality it was pretty even. You both simply took care of one another.
He's as quiet as possible as he changes into just a pair of grey sweatpants, careful as he slides into bed besides you and gentle as he pulls you back into his arms. You stir slightly, but only enough to turn around and burying your head into his chest, leg wrapping over his hip. Still fast asleep even as you seek out his warmth.
Maybe when he was 19 he didn't want something like this, but now? Now he can't imagine anything better than spending his life doing the little things to make your life easier, to make sure you feel loved and respected even when teaching throws you a long day or a shitty parent or a ridiculous incident. He could do this for the next 70 years and never grow tired of it.
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Things I wish people would do when their partner says no to having sex:
Not try to convince them otherwise. You can have a discussion later about wanting to have sex more. Right now, thereâs likely a lot of emotions going on and it may be seen as coercive. Have this discussion after both of you are in better headspaces, in a nonsexual situation.
Not take it personally. Someone else not wanting to have sex with you right now is probably not about you. Especially if youâre in an otherwise stable relationship. If you have difficulty with this, please talk to a trusted third-party about it.
Ask your partner if thereâs another bonding activity they would be interested in. This can help with (2). Ideas: watching tv, playing a game, cuddling. This can also help reassure your partner that you are not mad at them for saying no and that you are a safe person to say no to.
A Bit of a Related Tangent:
People talk a lot about compromise. About how, in a relationship, if one person wants sex all the time and one wants sex only half the time, that they "should meet in the middle." They forget to add that compromise is OPTIONAL.
If you do not want to have any sex (and especially if having sex is making you feel uncomfortable in any way), you do not have to compromise by sometimes having sex. You CAN if you want to/don't mind doing so!! But you DO NOT HAVE TO. (You can also try and then say no that's not going to work. You do not have to try if you do not want to.)
If you do want to have sex and your partner doesn't, you do not have to be in that relationship.
You are allowed to be sexually incompatible with people. How that impacts your relationship is up to the people therein.
Your partner should not use "compromise" as a way to try to coerce you into having sex that you are otherwise not interested in having. If you are compromising, both parties should feel comfortable and happy with the outcome, not like it is their duty or just a way to prevent someone from leaving them.
I feel like too many consent-related posts focus too much on giving and getting consent, and not making sure that people feel comfortable not consenting. We talk too much of consent as if it is a given, as if you just have to ask and then youâll get it.Â
like, there are so many things that boil down to âbefore you have sex, ask for consentâ rather than âdonât assume youâre about to have sex unless you know for sure that the other party/parties want to, and even then they could change their mindsâ.
Which is just really unhelpful. The whole point of consent shouldnât be âyou should always ask for it and then you can have care-free sexâ. That still assumes that youâre going to have sex, when the whole point of asking what people want to do is that it should be possible to say no.
Consent and dissent are both equally valuable. Itâs OK if someone asks you if you want to do something, and you say no. And whether you say no for today, for a week or forever, itâs all fine.
Because you know that there are going to be people who think theyâre so ~progressive~ and so ~feminist~. when they ask their partner(s) if they want to have sex, but then wonât be able to handle the word ânoâ.
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