#i have loads of time to finish it bc im not going to any cons before mcm may

[lycazart]

o yeah I’m making astarions ea doublet btw ‼️

[artificialqueens]

Girl I Met On The Internet, 3/? (Crystal x Gigi) - Strawberry

a/n: sorry i haven’t updated in a bit! i had a migraine for almost a week straight so it took me a hot minute to finish this lol but i hope you guys enjoy this chapter!! and i want to thank everyone again for all of the positive feedback!! it means the world to me <3

It had now been two months since Gigi met Crystal and she had never enjoyed being on Twitter more than she did now. Sure, her past self said the exact same thing when she had met Jan almost two years ago, and then when they had befriended Jaida, Nicky and Heidi, but this felt so much different. Gigi loved the other four girls to death, but she had made a stronger connection with Crystal, despite knowing her for the least amount of time.  

Whether it was messaging Crystal about nothing, or replying to her tweets with nonsense, Gigi spent almost every minute she was online interacting with her. Gigi could not deny it anymore, she was definitely whipped for this girl she had met on the internet, and the other girls were definitely starting to catch on.

jaida @.essenceofbey 

if gigi doesn’t stop flirting and actually ask crystal out in the next two minutes i’m going to block her

nicky @.nickisdoll

well… au revoir, gigi! 

gigi @.bitchjenner

i have no idea what u guys are talking about! crystal and i are platonic soulmates!

Despite the fact she made her crush on her new friend incredibly obvious, Gigi refused to actually acknowledge it. Jan and Nicky were the most determined to try to get Gigi to crack, but the most Gigi would say that Crystal is just really nice and funny, and would change the subject immediately. Gigi didn’t think she had it in her to tell any of her friends, let alone Crystal how she felt, even though she desperately wanted to, but she just couldn’t bring herself to do it yet, no matter how much she wanted to. 

Gigi’s feelings were very new to her. She knew she liked girls, but none of her crushes had ever lasted for more than two weeks. Gigi always saw this as a good thing, as she wasn’t out to anyone besides her mother and the group chat and she planned to keep it that way until she had moved away for college. She never planned on pursuing anyone romantically until she was older. 

Crystal, however, made this promise extremely hard to keep. As unfamiliar the feelings Gigi had whenever she talked to and flirted with Crystal were, she liked them. A lot.

Gigi came to realize that this made her feel vulnerable, which she was also not used to in the slightest. Gigi loved to pretend that she did not have feelings, and if she could, she would keep up that facade for the rest of her life.  

On top of all of this, Gigi felt guilty about keeping this from Jan. Jan had a handful of flings and even a girlfriend since they had become friends, and she told Gigi every single detail about the various girls and the experiences with them, and even cried to Gigi for days when said girlfriend broke up with her. Gigi wanted to give that energy back. 

Gigi weighed the pros and cons of telling Jan. The only con was that Jan would know that Gigi is capable of feeling emotions, which she didn’t like, but she was able to convince herself that it wasn’t that big of a deal. So, when Gigi had gotten home from cheer, she enlightened Jan.  

gigi: hey jan guess what

jan!: hm?

gigi: what if i told u that uhhh 

gigi: ihaveacrushoncrystal

jan!: i would say i’m not surprised. you hated one direction before you met her and you made her tell you everything about them.

gigi: no u are surprised this is brand new information

jan!: so glad you admitted it finally tho <3

jan!: are you gonna ask her out??

gigi: i dont know

gigi: she lives in missouri too so we might not have to do long distance but idk where bc i panicked at the thought of her being close to me and lowkey shut it down

jan!: omg could you imagine if yall were irls

gigi: i would know if she lived in my town… there’s no way i could miss her chaotic energy

jan!: okay but you need to tell her

jan!: i know you hate talking about feelings bc you think you’re a robot but if you can tell me, you have it in you to tell her too. i believe in you and i know the other girls do too.

gigi: i will this weekend. i promise

Gigi did not tell Crystal that weekend. She didn’t tell her the next weekend, either. There were a couple of letters Gigi had written in her notes app confessing her feelings for Crystal, but they never made it out. Every time she went to copy it to send to Crystal, she backed out. 

gigi @.jennerbitch

this is impossible

crystal @.mitamcrystal

what is? ily :(

gigi @.jennerbitch

i dont wanna talk about it

-

Crystal had noticed the shift in Gigi’s energy almost instantly. The girl who was usually confident and witty almost always seemed nervous and somewhat irritated, and would always deny it and change the subject if Crystal mentioned it. 

Crystal couldn’t help but be upset about this; she was extremely emotional and took almost everything to heart! Her brain had instantly come up with the conclusion that Gigi figured out she liked her, and was uncomfortable with it. Deep down, Crystal knew this didn’t make sense, as Gigi would still flirt with her occasionally. Gigi would’ve stopped if Crystal liking her made her uncomfortable, right?

The old Gigi came back one day. It had only been two weeks since this had started, but to Crystal, it felt much longer. 

crystal @.mitamcrystal

i kinda wanna dye my hair again… thoughts?

gigi @.jennerbitch

omg yes dm me now

gigi: crystal crystal cryssieeeeee

gigi: what color do u want to dye ur hair???

gigi: i think green would look nice!

crystal: i was thinking pink but i think i’m on team green now

gigi: hehe good <3

Crystal grinned. She wasn’t sure why this in particular made Gigi go back to normal, she found it extremely odd but she was not going to complain. Crystal had missed this.

When she headed to the store to get the hair dye, Crystal updated Gigi on everything happening; the stray cat she saw, the fact that the only non-natural hair color available was neon green for some bizarre reason, even the fact that Crystal knew the cashier from school. Gigi knew Crystal was doing this because she had missed feeling close to her, and Gigi loved every single minute of it. 

Crystal stopped updating her when it was time to actually dye her hair, saying she didn’t want her phone to be green. Gigi understood but was sad; she wanted to keep talking to Crystal to make up for the two weeks they had gone without talking for more than ten minutes at a time. She told herself that it was okay, they were back to normal and as long as she didn’t fuck up again, she could have Crystal back for good.

A couple hours later, Crystal finally returned.

crystal: it’s done!!!! 

gigi: ooooh lemme see!!!!

gigi: only if u want to show me ofc.. i dont want u to be uncomfortable.

crystal: hold on… i need to find a snapchat filter that makes me look pretty 

gigi: :(( i bet u look pretty no matter what

crystal: ehhhh 

gigi: im right!!!

crystal: what if… you sent me a selfie back… aha… unless?

gigi: i think i could arrange that… it’s only fair!

crystal: OMG YAY!!!

crystal: ok here it is! hi :)

When the image loaded, Gigi’s stomach dropped. Not because Crystal was ugly, she was the complete opposite. There was no doubt that Crystal was beautiful, even her teeth were perfect. Her brown eyes were rich and soft, and her hair was shoulder-length and very curly. The neon green looked great on her. She had even found a filter that put little dinosaurs on her rosy cheeks, Gigi thought that filter was made for Crystal.

gigi: CRYSTAL!!!! ur so stunning holy fuck

gigi: but i dont think ur gonna think the same about me

Gigi was not going to let herself back out this time. It was now or never. She sent her selfie in return, preparing for the worse. Crystal was not going to be happy.

crystal: uh

crystal: what the fuck

Gigi’s stomach had dropped because she knew Crystal from school.

[svt-stories]

I think the world would be blessed if we had Mingyu CEO! smut. So could I request one...?

I haven’t written in ages and also my sister is hella into Mingyu so i don’t see him in any type of attraction way but this seemed fun. this ended up kinda long or at least it seems like it so I hope you enjoy.

edit: Im shitty, i started this weeks ago when i said were coming back so the tone might switch halfway bc I was in a different mind of writing

theres no smut in this part, hopefully in a part two but i wrote this so long ago

Your head throbbed, smell of printer ink and stale coffee wafted through the unmoving office air. For a company that was focused on innovation, you would assume that it could handle the damn CEO coming for a check in. You started at 7TEEN industries five months back and those months had been filled with the best job you had ever had. You have motivation, talent at your job and a happy environment. 

Considering the past months, it wasn’t wrong to think the vibe would remain the same but man, were you wrong. The first hint of an issue happened last week during your daily lunch with Seungkwan, the floor secretary, and DK, 7TEEN’s intern. Never once in the five months have you seen them apart. Coming along for that day was Soonyoung, floor manager.

Seungkwan sipped on his berry blaster smoothie, eager for the rest of you to sit down with your food to spit the latest office gossip. “You guys won’t believe wants happening.” He announced, practically bouncing in his seat. You roll your eyes, as this sentence was a daily occurrence. 

“What is it this time.” You take a bite of your meal. 

“The CEO is making a visit next week.” Seungkwan leans in, whispering.

Soonyoung chokes on his food following the information. “THE CEO?”

Dk laughs “Who else. The hunky, tall, rich, handsome, dash-”

“Enough” You cut DK off, not seeing an end to his sentence in sight. Dk pouts, returning his attention to his food. “So? What about him.”

Seungkwan bounces with excitement due to your ‘interest’ “CEO Mingyu is a known playboy, every time he visits he sleeps with someone, not to mention fires someone.”

“It’s even been the same person before.” Soonyoung adds with food in his mouth. 

“Try not to make eye contact, we need you to stay around.” Dk jokes, or at least you thought it was.

A week later brings you to now, trying to block out the murmurs and excitement to actually get some work down. It managed to work until you heard multiple coughs trying to get your attention. “Y/N” Your boss said, voice stern. You look up from your papers to see a familiar face, and a not so familiar one. 

“Good Afternoon Mr. Choi, how can I help you?” You put on your best “business” voice. 

“I wanted to introduce you to Mr. Kim Mingyu, the CEO of our company.” You look over to Mr. Kim, who had an intimidating smirk across his face. ‘They’re our best employee, only started here a few months back.”

“No wonder I haven’t had the pleasure of meeting you.” Mr. Kim greets, a faint lisp in his words. He sticks his hand out firmly, and you do the same, shaking his warm, slightly calloused hand. 

“Nice to meet you, Sir.” 

“Please, call me Mr. Kim.” He smiles, eyes scrunching. After a few moments your boss leads him away, and you return to your work. 

A few hours later, Seungkwan is popping by your desk. “Y/N” He sings, drawing out each syllable. 

“Hmm?”

“Mr. Kim, would like to speak with you.” The giggles in his voice was hard to hide. 

You swallow thickly. “And how do you know I’m not getting fired?”

“With that body? Highly doubt it.” Seungkwan laughs harder. “Tic toc, better get going.” You drop your head on your desk.

“I cannot deal with this right now.” You mumble to yourself before getting the courage to push away from your desk and walk with shaky legs to the elevator. 

“Be back for lunch!” Dk shouts from behind you, amusement clear in his tone. 

The climb of the elevator took a toll on your state of mind, would it really be bad to fuck the CEO? But then again, how cliche would that be. A loud ding shook you out of your thoughts. As the door opened, it showed a hallway leading to his office, The only thing in the path being Mr. Kim’s secretary. She shot you a knowing, secretive glance. You swallow down the thick pool of saliva in your mouth, with a bit of your pride, before knocking on his door. 

“Come in.” his voice answered the knock. 

“You asked to see me?” You smile at the CEO. He faced away from you, appearing lost in thought, but soon turned around. 

“Yes, I did, I was just looking through the monthly reports and stumbled across some interesting information.” He began.

this was it, you thought, he found that my sales were bad, and I’m going to have to fuck my way out of it to keep my job. You sigh, slightly too audible. 

“Nothing bad.” He chuckles, able to read half of your thoughts from your expression. “The opposite to be exact, you have topped your previous sales each month, the best in the district. You even managed to have our competitor’s biggest buyer switch to us!” His mouth hung open slightly with a smirk on his face, as if he was in awe. “It’s absolutely incredible, how did you manage?” It took a few beats of silence before you realized you had to answer.

“I uh, talk them through the pros and cons of working with us versus other companies. The key factor is making them believe they made the decision to buy, rather that me ‘begging’ them to.” You explain. Mr. Kim nods along. “So by doing those simple tasks 8 times out of 10, they are sure to buy, even a tiny amount.” You finish, shifting your weight awkwardly from foot to foot. 

“Interesting, I’ll be sure to share that in this weeks email, we need the whole team pulling as much weight as you.” You smiles warmly, walking around to the front of his glass desk and leaning on it. “That’s all I wanted to ask, you can return to work.”

“That’s all?” Mr. Kim’s eyebrow shot up. 

“Were you expecting more?” The subtly smirk returns to his lips as he begins to roll the cuffs of his shirt past his elbow. You couldn’t help that your eyes followed the movement. 

“No, thank you for noticing my work si- Mr. Kim, have a good afternoon.” You were about to turn away, until you noticed him striding towards you.

“I’m assuming you’ve heard the rumors then.” His height became painfully obvious when he stood right at your feet, face inches from your own. “I can’t say I’d be disappointed if that’s where you wanted this meeting to go.” He placed one hand against the wall behind your head, halfway caging you in. “Don’t think this involves your job though, just two, consenting adults, looking to have some fun at work.” 

Honestly, you were speechless, unsure what to do. “Sorry, I promised to be somewhere for lunch.” You manage to mumble out before turning on your heels and out the door. The hallway felt longer than before as you speed walked back to the elevator. 

When you reached your desk again, the boys looked shocked to see you. “What are you doing here?” They all said.

“You said to be back for lunch.” You huffed, taking a seat at your desk. 

Weeks went by, and everyday you couldn’t think about anything other than Mr. Kim. You had learned his name was Mingyu, that he worked hard from a young age to get to where he was. That when he was younger, being a famous singer/rapper was one of his dreams. That he has a lisp, that he loves to cook. All around, everything seemed perfect surrounding Kim Mingyu, and it made your heart ache. Especially seeing him helping around with projects, carrying heavy loads of paperwork that made his muscles bulge. Whether it was infatuation or sexual frustration, you needing it out of your system, now. 

“I’m going to miss lunch.” You grumbled to the guys before stand up and heading towards the elevator. Now or never chanted over and over in your head. The elevator climbed slowly yet too fast at the same time. Your motivation remained

-june

HEY GUYS I KINDA WANT TO COME BACK AND WRITE BUT IDK HOW OFTEN I WILL BE ABLE TO BUT I WANT TO TRY BECAUSE I MISS THE LITTLE COMMUNITY WE HAVE. I WROTE THIS MONTHS AGO SO ILL TRY TO FINISH IT LATER WITH THE SMUT THANK YOU

[countessdelannoy]

in other news studying abroad is stressful

so i went to costa rica last summer to study abroad and basically had the time of my life and ever since ive wanted to go abroad again for a semester to a spanish-speaking country since thats my degree. and at this point it would probably be next spring, because thats the time that works best for scheduling my classes and everything, but i didn’t plan this semesters classes very well so now i have at least one class that i for sure have to take next spring or i won’t finish in four years. not that taking more than four years is a deal breaker but my scholarships run out after four and i’m not sure i want to be in school any longer than that without some sort of break. but anyway, ive been looking at programs for what feels like years and it was basically down to one really good academic program to spain that would be basically a full immersion in the university (and id definitely get the class i need), living with spanish students and also complete freedom for travelling and stuff. basically like my home university situation but in spain. and thats the plan that my parents and i talked about the most and the one that i discussed with my advisor and now some how a bunch of professors in the department know that im looking at that program and have mentioned it to me (a little weird but whatever). and its a good program that i know id enjoy and get a lot out of, but.

theres this other program that ive had my eye on for a while and mentioned to my parents but we really didnt discuss it much because its not a direct enrollment but through a study abroad company so even though it says full immersion it would be with a set group of other american students with probably very different levels of spanish and would not be nearly the immersive experience that the other program would be. also i would not be guaranteed to get the class i need because the courses may vary and so if that happens i may have to stay an extra semester at my home university or do some weird scheduling things to make it work. but it does involve a homestay which is great and also as part of the program (like as a course you can take) theres the option to do an internship or teach tesol/esl or volunteer or whatever and thats what i really like about this one. not that those arent things i could do in the other program but i would have to set them up myself and it would be in addition to my full course load and in this program it would be part of the course load so it would be built into the program.

and i just really cant decide which one is best for me or if i should be focusing more on the academic/immersion experience with the first one or the internship/work plus homestay with the second one. both have pros and cons and the decision really feels like im choosing between whats best for me academically and whats best for my career or future opportunities. the second program would be more expensive bc the first one would be mostly covered by my scholarships and the second one wouldnt be. my parents keep saying that i shouldnt worry about the money part of it because they have money saved for education and that would cover this, but that would also mean it wouldnt be there if i want to go to grad school or something in the future, and it also just seems more reasonable to go with the one that would be almost completely paid for rather than the one that we would be paying for ourselves. but i cant tell my parents that bc theyll just go on about how i should worry about the price.

ugh.

[yoitscro]

Ramble time again, lol

My brain has felt “stuffed” for last few months and I think I’m starting to figure out why? Maybe. I mean, outside of the obvious ADHD and depression. It’s more so that it’s felt stuffed over the last two years, actually.

I had some projects that, within the last year, have fallen back from where they should/should’ve been. The next reanimate should been worked on at this point, the pesterquest dub should be half way, meenahquest had to be revamped to the point that i may limit it to either myself or a VERY small team...so on.

I’m choosing to not listen to anyone who claims it’s because the pot finally boiled over with how much I carry. Yes, I do A LOT, more than I should, but I tend to feel a bit hurt if anyone suggests that me being overwhelmed is solely on me and not, like, outside factors. It feels ignorant and slightly one-upping on me for no reason, and like, I’m not going to take that well, lol.

My run of projects was fairly well before that and it isn’t just because I finally bit off more than I could chew. It’s because 2020 set EVERYONE back. It consisted of me being an essential worker during the midst of the pandemic, on top of being one of the many black people in America that were stressing to hell and back. Also, I’d been trying to (still) get over overall trauma that’s come from having a falling out with some ex-Homestucks that decided that publicly trying to stomp out a black person in the beginning of February was some kind of heroic justice. I also still have to live with my mom...which is, alot.

It’s been a mix of things that’ve left me, more so than usual, feeling angry, fatigued, sleep deprived, anxious, depressed, and semi-suicidal (I say semi because having a fear of pain has only had me at most to think about the most painless way to go versus...doing anything. also i still have too many things i wanna do. too many people i still care about for these...rhetorical scenarios. which. still isn’t good).

I guess you could say there’s a lot more going on that maaaaybe just maybe puts projects on the back burner, reasonably so, and well, I’m never one who’s taken well to salt being put in my wounds.

(I remember someone I once considered a friend suggesting that I go to therapy, or asking if I looked into it, despite ignoring the fact that they’d been one of the people that, if not had given gossip to others*, then at least knew that I was being singled out and didn’t do anything to help or at least provide understanding. They in fact felt annoyed that it was getting worse and I was talking about it so much as a sign of help versus actually caring, or at least telling me directly that they didn’t want to hear more, which, while still callous, would’ve sucked less.

*they told me they didn’t and got offended that i even asked, overly defensive, and in the back of my mind I thought about how I was told by another party that they were specifically the one that shared stuff from a private server. though i held my tongue cus that would’ve gotten more people involved...)

(It also sucks that I literally got into HStwt, the time of bad times, the month following when my ex-best friend ghosted me and left me severely depressed in the winter of 2018, but I digress. I’ll save that for another ramble)

I think my recent head stuffiness has more so contributed to the fact that after years of connecting myself to the HS fandom, 6, and overall to fandom throughout my life, I’ve finally found the confidence and skills to want to make something original. Not only that, but to do some other things, such as having time practice in other art medias, overall doing art studies with a pencil, etc. Even doing things outside of my creative outputs, like exercising, or watching an anime or playing a game I wasn’t able to get into two years ago because I was worried about a zine schedule when I wasn’t working or at minimum doing doodles on the side.

Work still doesn’t help. This year I clocked in at 100 hours in two weeks once. It was dreadful.

I also got deep into a new fandom which...hasn’t actually happened SINCE Homestuck. But funny timing, lol.

I guess where I can say that I am now is...hm.

I’m still trying to figure things out. I have projects to finish, and I still have HS ones I wanna do...but I potentially need to diminish the list so I’m not long terming this stuff. I have some big ones I wanna do, and at least one more SAHCon year, two if I feel like having a 5 year con. 

I also wanna try to work or either very small teams, or just not work with anyone for project stuff. I love working in collabs and the mutual benefits, but it can be stressful on relying for certain things, and, I’ve been accused of using people  for clout or so one too many times for my liking.

I have to look at these original ideas I wanna try, some of which like I said requires me to practice certain things that project fatigue won’t allow.

And then, two glaring things to keep in mind:

I’d like to go to college at some point, community, potentially next fall? It gives me time to get some of these hefty things out of the way before I start struggling with math, lol.

Secondly, I really wanna quit my job. I’ve only been dealing with it for 3+ years because it’s not minimum wage nor is it food services -- I can work on my projects on the go. I’m making this journal during my Sunday shift right now!

But it’s gotten suckier with new management, and I’ve never worked with benefits. I think my goal is to just work as long(er) as I can to earn a certain amount of money, and then some time before going to school in fall, I’d take some months of a break. Not only to work creatively in piece with no extra stress, but to get some of these projects done before I scoot my boot.

Honestly, the idea of having a free Saturday again and doing art next to a window sill while listening to youtube commentary seduces me. And if I were to chop down my work load, I’d feel even happier.

Anyways, I guess this was just another vent. I haven’t been able to get any creative work done today bc these thoughts were spinning around in my brain, but I had to write them down so I could also organize what I should do first. 

Apologies to that one anon long ago that got sad that Im not longer silly or whatever <:””((((((