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Mutilation Theory by Anonymous The little village that rests at the heel of Castle Dimitrescu has a rough population of thirty-eight, and of that slim number you are the only one that knows how to tune a piano. It had been two, now it is one.There are about three pianos within a seventy-mile proximity to you. And of those three pianos, there is only one person who owns one that can actually bother to have it tuned. And there are four lords, there is only one of them that is cannibalistic.All the odds intercept to bring you to the castle doors.Because fuck you.
Keeping Up with the Dimitrescu's by Lyris_Leonhart In which we visit multiple timelines in the SWWITD universe and it's all just as feral and chaotic as usual.
She Who Waits in the Dark by Lyris_Leonhart @shewhowaitsinthedark (one of the first i read and i loved every second of it, it was bizare, orignial, funny but incredably well writen and THE STORY!!!! god i dont think anything can really top this. i hope that when athours begin their writing they take insperation from this to see how amazing is supposed to be. i cant that them enough for creating this, i love it with all my heart and soul. tied at first place. You knew you shouldn't have tried to take a shortcut back to the village that night. You were always told it was better to freeze than stray near Castle Dimitrescu. But, like a star doomed to fall into a black hole, you find yourself gravitating perilously close as you seek shelter from a sudden storm. Perhaps it would be better if the wolves found you first, rather than she who waits in the dark.
to love the lonely by discorice (tumblr @feshsticks. omfg, its just horrifyingly good. every second of it has me clenhing my teeth wanting more and the ENDING!!!!!! i have never cried as much as i have reading that. you're a humble warehouse worker employed under the Duke when you're tasked with shifting goods into the Beneviento household. somehow, your lack of verbal filter and domestication don't get you immediately evicted and you have to confront the fact that you have indeed fallen for a Lord. Shit
The Dollmaker's Apprentice by HackedTig Isabel Luca is one of the kindest maidens in the village, despite no kindness deposited to her. Many reserve her as a bad luck omen from a judgement given by Mother Miranda at a young age. She spends her time learning to sew, and one day approaches Lady Beneviento herself for guidance in an agreement that could very well make or break the judgement of the village matriarch. OC x Donna; loosely based on a RP with precious girlfriend/diet wife FIANCEE with granted permission <3
The Deliverance of Change by Vizzi (@lelianasbitch You didn’t think the Duke would actually take you on as his courier, but here you were carrying packages through all kinds of weather. The process of delivering the packages themselves wasn’t daunting, it was to whom you were delivering them to: The Four Lords.Being a courier was simple though and the Lords wouldn’t hurt you. Or, at least that’s what the Duke told you.Courier!Reader slowly befriends the Lords and Dimitrescu daughters and falls for Lady Beneviento. Or is it the other way around?
A Wildflower in Early Bloom by AngeredMarsupials You awake in a cell, fully knowing where you are and how you got there. Expecting a swift death, you simply lie in wait, until a rather excitable girl brings her mother down to see you. You're being presented as a ' gift ', as if you're a bouquet of her favorite wildflowers thrown into early bloom. You can't help but wonder for what purposes you are being presented; the answer is not a long wait away.
To Promise the Moon by valleynix (tumblr @valleynix) (this is...just wow i really dont have words to describe this level of awe and intruige i feel every time i read this. i makes me wan to just thow wild theories adn what not out there it. and the communaty they have is once again just baffiling, they are active with both asks, posts and just writing in general and i feel blessed every day that i found this if it really has impacted me alot. tied at 1st place. You stumble through the thick snow, broken and bleeding, pulled along by some imaginary string promising you safety. It's all you've ever wanted, isn't it? To belong, to feel the comfort of your loved ones. The feeling beckons you, calls your name, and you can't help but follow it. You never had a choice, did you?Something seems to be missing as you spend your days inside the warmth of Castle Dimitrescu. You can't place it; you can't even remember why you were out in the freezing forest in the first place. You don't know why they're so intent on keeping you alive. Maybe you will, one day.Surrounded by four women who could very well be the only ones to fully understand you… you've never felt more alone.
Smoke Gets In Your Eyes by PittsburghPlunge420 (tumblr @ladydimitrescuspersonalashtray) (this had me the very first chapter, it got me laghing and gasping and it to this day is one of the best THINGS ihave read, the writing and its quality could rival shakespear any day of the weak, and the emotions it draws out of me is unbelivible. i cant recomend this enough. tied at 1st place. All you wanted was to find your birth parents. You never imagined you would find so much more.
The Handmaiden by KeshaRocks Before Ethan Winters, there were others who entered Castle Dimitrescu.And never made it out.Only the truly desperate accept any employment there, and that’s exactly what Erika Pavel is.Desperate to escape her alcoholic mother and provide for her younger sister, she applies for a job as a handmaid to Castle Dimitrescu. And they’ve accepted.Trading one hell for another, her unyielding determination for her little sister is her only defense against the castle denizens. Though she tries her best to remain feeble and obedient, the eyes of the mistress and her daughters are always upon her back. Not just of hunger, but curiosity.Which may be even more dangerous.As the castle slowly starts to reveal its secrets to her, Erika finds herself unraveling as she’s soon dragged into a dark and cruel world.Torn between what she was taught and what she believes, Erika has to rely on the teachings of her deceased father and her sharp mind if she’s to make it out with her money, her life . . . and her sanity.
Taken by thinking1bee (tumblr @thinking1bee) (this whole thing has been a battle of emotions, from going to sad to anger to fear to sad to happy and just switching back and foruth, it truly has me captivated every time i read it and i cant get enough. and that one scene had me balwing my eyes out. this is most defeinetly tied at 1 st place, and the only reason it isnt on the pudium by it self is because i cant decide. You're sold to Castle Dimitrescu after labeled a murderer. Hauled away in chains, swimming in trauma, and covered in blood, it's not too long before you find yourself in the very castle where more people were seen walking in than walking out. Your fight for survival begins the moment those metal doors close behind you, and you know that surviving the inhabitants inside would be nothing short of a miracle. Then, you meet the lady of the castle and her daughters, the mysterious and enigmatic Alcina Dimitrescu. Everything in you should hate her, should despise her and everything she stands for even. Even after facing the horrors that the castle has to offer, even after suffering with blood and pain, you can't hate her like you should. Your Lady and her daughters are surprisingly human…and a huge contradiction. What makes them tick? And why is it that there’s something that draws you to your Lady even after all the pain she put you through?How are you expected to survive both this castle and the trauma from your past?
Never Tell Me The Odds by SapphoButSexier You came to Castle Dimitrescu with exactly one goal in mind - to get yourself killed. As it turns out, that’s a much more difficult task than you initially anticipated
sooooo, i wanted to make this because i apparently cant reblog and i have no idea why. (i'm referencing the little...challenge? however you want to call it by @drinkyourvillainjuice.
anyway here it is, i also added a few fanfics just cause.
The Second Sight @spoiledblog (demo) You’re an urban legend in a county full of them. When you were thirteen, you were found passed out in the road by one of the local cops. No missing persons report. No fingerprints on file. No memories. Just a name.Oh, and some bizarre psychic powers.You're content with simplicity. You like your isolated cabin and helping Carter track down missing persons. You know that in theory there are more people like you out there, but you've never wanted to look behind the curtain to find out.However, with the disappearance of a local teen named Casey Powell and a recent attempt on your foster father's life, your serene, isolated life comes abruptly to its end and a new chapter begins.
After The End @albywritesfiction (demo)
Your former fiancé and heir apparent of the Aurelian Kingdom, Prince Ædan, has married the love of his life, the fair Saintess Helene. As the nation celebrates their union, you are left alone to pick up the pieces of your broken heart... until you receive two letters. One is an invitation to the office of Prince Ædric, the crown prince's younger brother and rival for the throne. The other is a letter filled with concern from your childhood friend and secretary-in-training, Cyfrin, who is currently assisting your father at your family’s ducal estate in the countryside. Each letter contains a proposition that will change the course of your fate forever.
Which one will you choose?
God-Cursed @wings-of-ink (Demo)
you were found as a newborn, clutched in the arms of your dead mother at the base of a tree. No family came to claim you, but the men who came to your rescue adopted you as their own and became the only parents you’ve ever known. Growing up in the village of Stonebrook, you never want for much, until the day you first fall ill. Life plagues you with a mysterious condition that no one can diagnose or cure. You never know when it will strike or if it will eventually kill you. Living between fear and hope as you age, you try to come into your own as an adult with the ever-looming threat above you. As years pass, your condition seems to improve, until a mysterious mark appears on your body and opens up new questions.
It appears that you’re marked for death with no answers as to why, and your only chance to survive is to go out and seek them.
Journey through the land of Iroda, a fantasy world where the gods have abandoned their people and magic no longer prevails as it once did. Something is brewing that may change this world forever, and you’re in the middle of it, though your role is a mystery you must solve. Wanted dead by some and alive for mysterious purposes by others, you just want to survive. With the help of a few friends, find the answers that you need, and make your choices.
Before We are Ghosts @anjiefiction (DEMO) When a powerful villain threatens the safety of Metamora, you and the city’s heroes go to great lengths to stop him, and ultimately you are forced to pay the biggest price of all.(Against all odds, the heroes win. The victory is hollow.)The doctors are professional, if not sympathetic. They tell you that your body is in the process of slowly shutting down. No, they aren’t sure why. No, there isn’t a cure. When you ask how much time you have left, the faces grow dark. Perhaps a year, they say. Two if you’re lucky.(You thought you could rest. You thought wrong again.)For as threats resurge and the past rears its ugly head, you can only wonder: Do you have the strength to see things through? Will there be enough time?And when the end comes, can you find the courage to say goodbye?
more than me @ryanstillwrites-if (Demo) On a Wednesday morning, you leave your doctor's office with the diagnosis of an inoperable brain tumour and the knowledge of an estimated four months left to live.Suddenly left without any direction in your life, you find yourself in a support group for the terminally ill. Where you expected to find sadness, melancholy and a looming sense of dread at thought of a fast approaching death - all the same feelings you harbour - you find smiles and laughter instead.You're drawn in by the people you meet there, curious and confused by their carefree attitudes. They're kind to you, they take you in, they turn your frown upside down - literally and figuratively. And just when you think you might be beginning to accept your fate; they decide to throw all caution to the wind and whisk you away on the adventure of a lifetime.You don't know what will come of the next four months but with your new friends at your side, you're excited to find out. After all, this is the only life you've been given, and though it may be ending soon; you might as well live it to the fullest.
Omen of Ice @omen-of-ice (no demo) The North has been all that you’ve known your whole life— residing within its icy landscape as part of House Eirlys; Wardens of the North. You’ve never thought you’d one day leave to head south to Vela’thian— the kingdom of the elvhen— much less that you’d head there due to your betrothal with the king himself.What will await you once you arrive? Is everything as it seems? Or is there something more brewing beneath the surface of the seemingly pristine nation?Will you find your way back home? Or will you find something, or someone, worth staying for?Let’s see how your story unfolds…
Mons Immortalium @mons-immortalium-if (DEMO) Mons Immortalium is a fantasy romance interactive story. Human MC falls into the magical land of the faeries, a mountain island that has been secluded from the rest of the world for over a millennium. Break curses, fall in love and beware of  wicked faeries. Whatever you do, never give them your true name!
In the Cards @inthecards (demo)
You've always had psychic powers. Reading auras, speaking with the dead, and channeling spiritual energy through runes - these number just a few of the things you're capable of. It's not an unusual gift in the kingdom of Khepris, though it's uncommon enough that you've only met a few other people with such abilities in your small hometown.
After a plague sweeps through the kingdom, unrest bubbles up in the realm known as the Beyond, home to fae and spirits alike. A group of fae who call themselves the Butterfly Court are testing the boundaries between your worlds, and they don't seem to care what harm they may be causing along the way.
With a deck of tarot cards imbued with mystical powers in your possession, you're pulled into the struggle against the Butterfly Court. You must join one of two organizations - the King's Guardians or the Hounds - in order to fight back against this mysterious court… or risk losing everything.
Parasitical @parasitical-if (DEMO)
His flesh, our sustenance. His blood, our drink. His bones, our foundation, His body, our haven.
Five hundred years ago, the Earth was dying. Water polluted, dirt infertile, forests and meadows crumbling to the wars of steel and fire. And so the Order called His Grace, the Lord of Communion, down from where he rested before and He allowed humanity to rest inside his body.
Or at least, that's the story the Order tells.
You grew up under the masked faces of their Exalted, under the stories of Earth past. Rusted metal and cracked plastic; His bone and His flesh. Conflicting worlds, conflicting times, and soon, it might all come to a head.
crown of ashes and flames @coeluvr (demo) The war had taken everything from you.King Luceris had taken everything from you.You were just nine years old when all of this happened. One moment you were in your room sleeping and the next you were walking through smoke and ash trying to find your parents.Love, he said, was the reason he started the war. Ironically, you lost everything you loved but you also lost yourself when he let you survive and dragged you away to his home.In a new Kingdom with no one on your side what choices will you make to survive? Who will you become?Inside of you, there’s something burning for revenge and there’s only one thing I want to tell you. Let it out.
Bleeding Heart @bleedingheart-if (Demo) Congratulations, you got engaged. Whether that is good or bad is ultimately up to you.Shortly after your engagement, your fiancé sets out on a journey to the distant lands of Transylvania, a real estate opportunity that proved too irresistible to decline.With your wedding temporarily on hold, you don't hesitate to respond when your childhood friend Lucy implores you to pay her a visit, seeking your company and counsel with an urgent matter concerning her very own future.The strangeness begins as you arrive in Whitby, a charming coastal town where the Westenra's estate resides.
checkmatein 3 moves @checkmatein3moves (DEMO) YOU are the heir; the child of one of the most powerful women on Oracle Island. When she’s accused of murdering her sister almost forty years prior after the revelation of a suspicious anonymous tip, her power falls to you — but so will her reputation.Many questions present themselves: is your mother a killer? Who wants to see her fall for it? Who will make the next move in the inevitable game? Can you play as well as the rest of them?The Elite Class are full of blood and schemes. Your generation carries the scars of those before them, and thus you all must join the game or face the consequences. But dark intentions are cloaked in silk and diamonds, and the heady taste of power corrupts like an infection.
The Abyssal Song @ri-writes-if (DEMO) In the underworld kingdom, where demons fight for survival against the abyssal monsters, you are just an Oracle. In the distant past the Oracles were at the top of the demonic hierarchy, but those golden days are long gone. You did what you were most afraid to do and now sit under arrest in the royal palace.When the Abyss sends you a vision of a terrible disaster that will happen in the future, you make an inevitable “deal” with the Sovereign to try to change the future and improve your abilities, not only to become stronger and learn more about the coming disaster, but also in an attempt to achieve mind stability.However, what has been happening to you since you received the vision makes you think that you are already slowly but surely losing your mind.Will you be able to maintain your sanity and help others protect the kingdom, or will you become just another name in the long list of Oracles gone mad?
the lonely shore @thelonelyshore-if (DEMO) Meet me at the cabin. Please.You weren’t sure what to make of it. A cryptic late night text sent from your younger sibling, begging you to meet up at your family’s old lake home. The plea for help was as concerning as it was confusing. As far as you knew, neither of you had set foot in the cabin in a decade. You had your hesitations, but Willow seemed desperate. You couldn’t help but oblige.Everything goes downhill fast when Willow's research into childhood ghost stories lands you in a town that doesn't exist. A town where people go missing at an alarming rate, where things that aren't quite human run businesses with hungry eyes, where time runs differently.A town you can't leave.Something about Easthaven is wrong. A supernatural fog permeates the town, so thick you could choke…but you’re one of the only people who seems to notice it. You’re quick to realize the fog keeps the residents ignorant, keeps them passive, keeps them trapped. When people who have long since gone missing start coming back home, you realize Easthaven’s mysteries go deeper than you could have ever imagined.
Kenneski @devilishmango (here)You were ripped away from your home, your life- all because you were accused of using magic. Sent away on carriages, bursting full of others like you, being brought to Kenneski Prison. It’s a prison made specifically to hold those that can wield magic, making it so you are powerless. It’s a death sentence for most that go there. But not for you.
stagnation @stagnation-if (DEMO) It's the year 2524, and you're a defeated God/Goddess/Deity in a place and time where your kind is rarely needed anymore. After being locked away and thought to be dead for nearly a millennia, you wake up.
The Fall of House Black @endemise (DEMO) The fall of House Black, your house, was an imminent thing. A name had never been so cursed that all it could do was bring about death.First, your younger sister in a swimming accident, then your older brother in a case of mistaken identity. As the rest of your family sought to grieve and bring justice to your brother, your older sister was killed in a hunting accident at the end of your father’s bow.The three of you, mother, father, and child, became inconsolable. Broken beyond repair. Your mother unable to bear the weight of life any longer took her own while your father disappeared, gone into the night. When you remain the sole survivor of House Black, you know you must leave, and on the night of your decision, your home goes up in flames with you inside.Then, you awake, dazed with no recollection of anything, and when you look down at your body, you scream. It is wrong. So wrong.
Drink Your Villain Juice @drinkyourvillainjuice (demo) Everyone knows that superpowers come about through three distinct methods.One can be born to their abilities, see them emerge in a moment of great strife, or acquire them through extensive cybernetic augmentation.Everyone is wrong.You’d know. If only that knowledge—and your snazzy slash horrible powers—didn’t come with a host of strings attached. Too bad that was an offer you couldn’t refuse.Did I mention one of the strings was supervillainy?Thrown headlong into a life of crime, balance conflicted loyalties, personal scars, and navigating a web of secrecy and deception, all while maintaining your cover.Above all, remember to drink your Juice. Your life depends on it.
The Gilded @the-gilded (Demo v1.2) Your younger brother, Leo, went missing three days ago. Your parents called the police, and they started investigating quickly. They were too late. Leo had already disappeared into the deepest part of the forest, where the mortals have vowed never to return. The police have offered to contact your family if Leo crosses the barrier back to the mortal side, but their investigation can’t go any further without inviting the wrath of the Fae.The winter solstice is approaching fast, which means that the High Fae are likely gathering mortal children for their great feast. The only way to get your brother back is to follow him into the forest and steal him back from the palace of the High Fae… If you can get there in one piece. The Fae forest is full of tricksters and killers, and you'll likely need some allies to help get you both back home.
VANGUARD @vanguard-if (PLAY) As a faering, you should want to keep to yourself. Your home is a safe haven where your dragon kin people reside; a place of true neutrality. There are no allies to the Midlands, nor are there enemies. Your people simply are, and this will not change.But you were never one much for rules, were you? With whispers of a certain prince in the Northlands allegedly receiving death threats from your docile leader, Cirrus, you could only slip away into the depths of the North to go see for yourself. It's so hilariously outrageous that your peace-loving ruler has such rumours teeming about them.You did not expect to find a bounty hunter bleeding out from her abdomen. And most of all, you did not expect her to know you by name, even through her raggedy breaths. And most of all, you did not expect her to have leads on the one you seek: the Northern Prince.
TWISTED GOLD @icaroif (DEMO) In the wake of an attack on your village that left your father dead and everybody you had ever known missing or the same, you are given one option; find your uncle in the Capital or else run for the hills and never look back. It was never really a choice anyway.
NINE BLOOD DANCES @nineblooddances-if [DEMO] You were a gift. Now to whom? No one knows.All that matters is that you are a gift and not like any of the others of your species. Uniqueness and importance oozes from every fiber of your being. You're important. Everyone says you're important. But why you're so important?Who knows?You must figure out what makes you so special and different. You must figure out what drives you through all circles. And you have to figure out why the nine commanders of Hell all have their eyes upon you and wish to have you by their side.All before the fall of the ninth moon.
Trouble Brewing @troublebrewing-if (Demo) it's all fun and games until someone loses a head!Quinn, your best friend, has brought you some awful news: your illustrious parents, having run out of potential mates for their brood, have set you up with the worst person you know -- Devon Bainbridge. Your intended is uncouth, self-indulgent, and ten years your senior.Of course, if no one can find you, the wedding's off, right?Make daring escape from your family's castle, get pressed into joining a rebellion, and find yourself fighting alongside a plucky bard, a brooding bandit, a naive idealist, and a fool-in-training. Escape marriage, join a rebellion, and find love… or sabotage it all.
ANECDOCHE @anecdoche-if (Demo) You wake up chained to a chair by one of the most notorious gangs in the country, only to be saved by one of the most famous hero organizations only a few moments later. Who wants you so badly that they would hire an entire gang to abduct you, and can you really trust the Supers that have been put in charge of your protection?
Blood of Morana @blood-of-morana (demo) You are one of the people, cursed with Morana’s magic, which gives you power over both winter and death. You can imagine that being one of the White Deaths hasn’t exactly made you the beacon of hope or the icon of popularity among your people. Worse yet, some of your magic has been sealed, making it impossible to witch away the inquisition.
The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - An affair of the heart @doriana-gray-games (demo)
Play as your version of Sherlock Holmes in this romance detective game!
Make an enemy of a friend and a lover out of an enemy. Solve the case of boredom. Have a pet bird—and best of all, play as a romantically and emotionally stunted genius detective!
nemisi @elegy-if (demo) The struggle between cosmic deities — now worshiped (or abhorred) as gods — tore its way into your planet not long before you were born. Unlucky for you, you were one of the first generations to be born exposed to Excinate, the name given to the radioactive-like sickness that comes from being exposed to magic not of your world. As you've built up a bit of an immunity to the more dire consequences, you were promptly ripped from your family after a doctor's visit when the Excinate got a bit too close to your childhood home. Since then, you’ve been shipped around and transported from facility to facility to be poked and prodded at.Until now. No, now you’re free.Aside from that lingering hunger for flesh you’ve had since becoming infected, of course. Just a little side effect from the radiation, along with a mouthful of jagged teeth and a jaw that can unhinge like a snake.
Burning Academia @burning-academia-if (Demo) You never thought you'd go to college, due to your circumstances. But you especially didn't dream you'd be forced to attend the prestigious Vales Grove University after being attacked by wraiths in their library. What started as a visit to a long time friend, ended with your hands burned, your innocence questioned, and the startling realization magic is real.To apologize for what's happened to you, or more accurately, to keep an eye on you, the Headmaster himself offers you enrollment with all fees waived. With no real choice in the matter, you become a student, and try to ignore the suspicion everyone throws your way. Besides, you have worse things to deal with.Like how you've started to attract ghosts and other dead things, or the fact that there is a very living thing inside your head, waiting for you to lower your guard and take control. And most pressing of all, managing your obligation to a family that hasn't been such a thing in years.Tread carefully, if the ghosts don't devour you, the university certainly might.
lightweaver: Chosen @lightweaver-chosen-if (DEMO) A world where elemental deities share a fraction of their powers to their chosen, bringing upon the age of weavers; humans with the ability to manipulate the elements of their patron.You have been chosen by a mysterious lightning deity—blessing you with the power to weave lightning. But with a troubled childhood haunting your every step, your new abilities present a double-edged sword.The choices you make, the support you receive, and the inner strength you harness define your journey—a journey fraught with anguish, but one that promises a life outside Mother’s grasp.Two divergent paths lay ahead.Will you let yourself heal and grow, or will you fall deeper into the void?
Talon's End @asheepinthenight (DEMO) You were never destined to marry for love.As the third child of the Earl of Eastthorn, your purpose is to marry to your family's advantage, but after one failed engagement already, your prospects are less than promising. So when the Crown calls upon you to infiltrate the lair of an Elven sorcerer in search of a powerful magical weapon, the offer is too good for your family to refuse.But leaving your respectable home to marry an immortal being of immense power quickly puts you in uncharted territory. Between your secretive, disagreeable spouse and their labyrinthine spire infested with strange creatures, your mission to uncover their secrets is risky from the start. But as you come to know both your partner and your new home at Talon's End, you discover terrors and wonders unlike anything you've known–and the true price of your mission.
Leas: City of the Sun @sailingshellsgames (demo) Enter the city of Leas, where humans dwell in safety behind city walls while strange and powerful Fey roam the wilds. Play as one of a rare few skilled enough to explore the outside world, an agent of Den Zarel.After making a dangerous discovery you are sent on a mission that unfolds into an adventure that will unearth more than expected, and more than you alone can handle.Fortunately, you’ll have help along the way: a lifelong friend hiding a dangerous secret, a mysterious and taciturn rogue, and an eccentric and charming mage unite under your banner to help save your city, and possibly, the world
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polarbearqueen3527 · 4 years ago
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Hey tumblr, have an adhd rant that kinda became a rap
eerrrrgggghhhh
focus is hard today
and i have catch up work to do
I think I might have internilized the romanticization of ADHD
people are sometimes like "oh, ADHD is more like a personality trait than a disability"
and its like, Ok, But I'm genuinely strugiling a ton doing homework. its a disability, and it can kick your ass Like, it would actualy make me feel a whole lot better about myself if people were to say like "people with ADHD sometimes have to put way more work into the same stupid stuff, even though they know how to do it perfectly well, snd sometimes they are suffering."
Because, I don't think people understand that ADHD comes with tons of frustration at an inability to do simple tasks Like, I understand perfectly well how to do these things, and they are simple, and easy, and boring. But, because they are simple and easy and borig, I'm going tospend signifigantly more time trying and failing to focus on doing them then actualy doing them.
And focus has just been so much harder during quarintine and i think i would be much less frustrated if people around me acknowledged how bleeping hard I work, and not go like Work harder cause im working bleepin hard but im getting nothing done and cause imgetting nothing done no one thinks i could be working hard at all and the assignment is so easy so i must be bleepin lazy to not bemaking any progress but cause the assignment is so easy the focussing is hard and im not lazy and im not stupid but im not making any progres and i wish i could just do it but im working really hard and not making any progress and i dont when itl be done but appereantly im lazy except im not lazy and im not stupid but im not making any progress so i must be bleeping stupid or not trying at all but im trying and im smart and im still not making progress and all i hear is that im lazy and im stubid but its all from ADD and that comes with RSD and when the praise im getting sudenly is insults then i cant be working hard and i must be not trying but im trying and im failing so maybe im not smart but i know i am smart so i just need to work harder but im so so tiered and i need some motivation but im not getting any praise and making progress dosnet seem to make a diffrence cause imnot done but im not sure if ill ever be done and i need some motivation cause its getting even harder cause the end is out of sight and i must be bleeping lazy or stupid or maybe narsasistic but im not and im trying really hard and i just wish you would acknowledge that cause honestly itd make it easy and i just wrote all of that but i cant write any of my work even though i understand it and i know why this is harder but i wish you would just acknowledge cause than maybe id feel better but apperenatly im not suffering and ADD is fun and there are meds and i take em and im probably over dramatic cause i cant do easy shit cause apperantly its to hard but having ADD is fun its endearing its like being a little kid but if im a little kid why do i have to do an adualts work but im not a little kid stop infantalizing me and more than six percent of the worldwide population cause were terying were not stupid were not lazy were not narsasists but apperenatly we must be or maybe were just childs but im smart and capabale but i cant do easy shit even though im really smart so maybe im just lazy and i dont swear unless i mean it but i really really do cause all you dicks make me feel like the fact this stupid shit is hard makes me lazy for complaining stead of brave and strong for trying and it all takes me way longer and im lyin and im lyin cause i just need a break or my motivation will start dieing
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