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secret-engima · 4 years ago

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So in your Naruto FF cover where Noct/Yoru is believed to be a god, what are the reactions of the families of the Chocobros? Cause their Clan member just got poached but they've also been really strange ever since their near death experience that woke up their memories (or did they always remember)? Especially the Hyuuga because they basically had Hikaru/Ignis enslaved and branded. Or even some povs from the Chocobros. (Poor Prompto, being an Aburame lol)

Ooooo tricky. Kinda depends on the family?

Lemme see- Ignis’s family are Most Displeased. They are super possessive of their eyeballs and treat their branch members as slaves anyway so they see it more like theft than a powerful man claiming a friend. Of course, there’s not much they can DO about it considering it’s Yoru and he burns Ignis’s seal off in .05 seconds and also threatens to burn the rest of the main branch to the ground if they touch Ignis again (not in so many words, but his magic does flatten a few of the members with its intensity when they got too close to Ignis.

Tbh that’s probably a blood grudge the Hyuga hold until Naruto’s time even though they stay in Konoha and Ignis is known among the hyuga not only as the blind member but the Stolen Hyuga. A warning to all hyuga of what will happen if they are not careful with their eyes and other such nonsense that only works because younger Hyuga don’t interact with Yoru enough to know that he’s a really chill dude and Ignis is happy where he is.

The Inuzuka are not too thrilled at first, but more laidback about it? Gladio still visits and they can tell that he’s Super Happy about being reunited with Yoru, and Yoru is polite and respectful to them and their dogs like him and you can never go wrong with the opinion of dogs in an Inuzuka’s eyes.

The Aburame ... are honestly the most chill about this? They aren’t too thrilled at first, but Yoru already has a Hyuga and an Inuzuka by then, so there is a precedent, and after a bit of watching it’s clear that these four are basically a Hive unto themselves and Prompto is happy to be there, is healthy and well cared for so they just kinda- shrug and move on. Maybe use the fact that one of their own is “Favored by Yoru” to their advantage during tricky Council meetings generations later.

The oddness and memories thing were long commented on, but ... mostly unnoticed in Hikaru’s case? Among the Branch Clan it was noted, but no one said anything or really thought about it because honestly I doubt the Hyuga have never had an Incident where Branch Members get a bit ... weird post Sealing and post a traumatic experience. That’s a chakra doohickey tattooed to your SKULL, side-effects are not impossible. The Inuzuka noticed it too, but Gladio was still ... himself, just a big more jaded and mature so they let it slide.

The Aburame maybe spent a good few years trying to figure out what the freak happened with Prompto though. Because they’ve never had a bug-a-phobic member before and it’s weird. They love him tho. He’s their disaster child.

Tbh in the Warring States Era nobody was really focused on mental health. If you were loyal to the Clan and could fight that was all that really mattered, weirdo personality changes aside.

Uhhh POVs but only short snips, and pls forgive any inconsistencies with previously establish AU lore my brain is tired and I may not keep all the details 100% straight. Just roll with it.:

Ignis:

After a lifetime of being blind, being able to SEE everything, all around, at any given time is unnerving. This entire era is unnerving and Hikaru has bitten his tongue more than once to keep from railing against it. Against sending CHILDREN, some not much older than toddlers out into the field, against the brand on his head and the heads of so many others that burns on the whim of a Main Branch member.

He keeps his head down, but inside ... he hates. More than a little bit. He is a fractured piece of glass and he knows too much pressure with make him snap, so he does his utmost to avoid those situations (because if he snaps children will get hurt even more than now and nothing will change in the Clan).

Then one day they go to meet Hashirama and Madara, to speak of peace, and of course Hikaru has heard of Yoru, the mysterious forest spirit that supposedly watches over the new village and ensures no fighting happens, but he does not actually think this Yoru will be all that impressive.

He never expects it to be NOCTIS. Noctis, who looks at him with hope and wonder in his eyes, who looks so very unchanged despite lifetimes, who rises and calls him brother and Ignis and friend and CLAIMS him in a way the Clan Head cannot dispute. No one can dispute against Noctis, because he is still a Lucis Caelum and a king and to him, their chakra is pebbles in an ocean.

And for the first time in a long time, Ignis is happy. Ignis has hope.

...

Gladio

Gladiolus loves his new family, and he knows they love him back. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t miss his old life like a wound in his side. Iris’s presence makes it a bit better but also not, because war is cruel and no one cares that she is still so young (older than the other Clans children sent to the field, because Inuzuka treasure their puppies, but still far too YOUNG to the mind of a Shield and Crownsguard). He loves his canine partner and the Pack, he loves that they don’t really question his memories, how his personality has matured and changed since the incident that woke him up.

Even so...

Even so, the absence of his brothers is a bleeding wound in his heart, and when the Clan Head looks at him, Gladio knows the man can see that in his heart of hearts, Gladio is not part of their Pack. He is family, but he has another Pack, another Alpha he swore to a lifetime ago, and that loyalty still howls in his soul far stronger than even the ties of blood and Pack and love that binds him to the Inuzuka.

So perhaps that is why the Clan Head does not look as outraged or surprised as he could have been when Yoru finds him, when NOCTIS looks back at Gladio from an eerily familiar yet not face. That is why, while the Hyuga sputter in shock when Gladio hugs Ignis tight and spins him in a circle for joy, the Inuzuka just watch with comprehension dawning in their eyes. Gladio looks to his Clan Head and says he’s going with Yoru and there is not request for permission. Just a courtesy of announcement. Because THIS- this is his Pack, his Alpha, his Beta, his brothers and littermates. He will follow them above all.

And the Clan Head lets him go.

...

Prompto:

Prompto wants to know who he ticked off in his past life that had a say in the next, because he HAD to have ticked off someone. Why else would he have been reborn into a clan of LIVING HIVE PEOPLE???????

He thinks he distresses them- no, he knows he does, when he flinches from the clan techniques and hives, from the little insects and their pheromones that the Clan uses as essentially an insectoid, chakra-based texting system amongst themselves. He knows he stresses out his hive for a long time, flinching from the feel of them inside him, from the skitter of their legs and wings and the whisper of their tiny, simple little thoughts in his own when they talk to him.

It .... it’s bad for a while. A WHILE. Bad enough the Clan won’t let him fight (which is fine with him) but also bad enough he loses weight and can’t sleep from the hive buzzing buzzing buzzing under his skin from his distress toward them.

It’s his great great grandma that saves him, quite literally, because an Aburame that rejects the hive is an Aburame who dies, not by any malicious intent on the Clans’ part but just- biologically. Just like starving to death will kill him, rejecting his Hive will kill him too and he KNOWS that but he can’t just- turn off his fear.

Then one day Elder Maya, the oldest living Aburame, sends for him. He comes to her private house with shivering skin and jumping senses and the hyper-awareness of the things inside him buzzing buzzing buzzing trying to remove the source of his distress and making it worse because they WERE his distress-.

Elder Maya takes his shaking hands and leads him to her garden.

It’s- it’s beautiful. It’s so beautiful he could cry for his long lost camera of another life. There are colors everywhere, blues and greens, reds, pinks, whites, and mixed splashes of yellow and purple- flowers that stand tall, flowers that droop, flowers dangling from the vines growing up tree trunks.

And everywhere there were flowers, there were butterflies. Butterflies and ladybugs, the two insects he wasn’t completely creeped out by because they were so pretty and photogenic, and for a moment Prompto is so awed his shaking stops, the Hive inside him goes quiet. A butterfly flaps lazily over to him, a glorious thing with vivid blue wings the color of magic and black dots and swirls that remind him of fire. It settles on his hand and he doesn’t flinch from it like he does the kikachu of the clan, just stays quiet and watches it with a bit of awe.

“You are not scared of these ones,” Elder Maya hums.

“U-um ... no,” he whispers as he watches it, “they’re ... pretty. Cute. They don’t ... they don’t look like they’ll hurt me.” And that’s not really his issue with the Kikaichu, but he can’t explain a phobia to ninja, not well anyway.

“Good,” says his great great grandmother, but not with her lips, with the soft splash of impression-scent-sensation from the butterfly on his hand and he gapes as he realizes THIS is her hive. These ladybugs and butterflies are Elder Maya’s hive. He stares at her and she adjusts the dark glasses she wears, “I will give you some of mine. Why? So you can cultivate a new Hive that you will not be afraid of.”

And she does. And it’s CREEPY, but also ... kinda not? It’s ... it still freaks him out to have bugs under his skin, but these ones ... he knows these ones. He chose them, he hatched them, he raised them. They are beautiful and deadly and soft looking and can strip flesh from a target in seconds and he wishes he had a camera because it would be so cool to have butterflies that can pose on command.

It’s a rocky road, but his shaking stops, and his weight goes back to normal, and his sleep schedule returns, and all the Clan breathes a sigh of relief when they see Prompto ambling around, not flinching from the glittery blue butterflies flitting on his shoulders.

And it’s not like his old life, his brothers he misses so badly, but its kinda nice to never be alone. Wherever he goes, his Hive goes, and his new Queens are kinda ... bossy almost and its endearing in a creepy kinda way. The only thing that would make life better, make it perfect (other than to not need a Hive in the first place) would be to have his brothers again.

And then they go to the new village of Konoha, and he meets the famed and terrifying Yoru, who isn’t terrifying at all, but is instead old and tired and blue eyed, and a fish lover and when he smiles, crooked and shy at Prompto all his Hive SINGS under his skin because he KNOWS.

And suddenly the world is perfect again.

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inspired-aspirer · 6 years ago

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Z Berg and Ryan Ross Concert Masterpost

hello and I am sorry that I promised to post before Christmas about my experience of flying to LA for the Z Berg and Friends concert where I saw and met Ryan Ross. Here is a breakdown of the night and how it went from what I remember and if you have any questions after I post this I will do my best to answer them and if I cannot I will tell you and perhaps someone who can answer you question better than I.

1. anything before the concert

So I know many of the people reading this are not in fact, from Los Angeles California, and I can say I am not one of those people. I live in the middle of nowhere, better known as the state of Oklahoma. So the trip in and of itself was my Christmas present and cost ten times over the price of the ticket to the concert itself. I decided to purchase the tickets after Ryan Ross posted to instagram his photo of the Bad List shoot with “…Gonna play some new ones” as the caption to his post on 30th November. I then convinced three of my friends to come with me, flying from Oklahoma, Georgia and another from Alabama. We found some cheap ass tickets that ran about $250 each and convinced some family friends to let us use their beach house for a weekend and we were off. The tickets were $15.00 before taxes and fees, afterwards they rang up to be a grand total of $18.21.

It is notable that the tickets sold out prior to the day of the concert so I would recommend with any of Z’s concerts in the future, to buy your tickets weeks in advance to avoid anyone not getting a ticket.

2. the day of the concert

a. before doors open

The location of the concert was at the Pico Union Project which my friends and I looked up the night before to scope out the place. I recommend looking up the places around it if you plan on camping out for the day for a restroom and most definitely pack snacks. I ate lunch at noon and made the mistake of not eating again until 6am the next day which really was not a good thing. So pack snacks and take care of yourself. We got there around 3:30pm and there were already about 30ish people. We just missed Z coming out early to see everyone and take pictures, but nonetheless, we got a pretty great spot in line. I will say that for the most part, all of the people waiting outside the concert were lovely, and we all had a great time talking about what we were looking forward to and where everyone was from. I met some chill locals who had been to these things before, a guy who had been to every single one of Z’s concerts and a girl who, like me, got this trip as a Christmas present and flew with her mom all the way from Massachusetts.

*We all added eachother on insta and facebook so 10/10 quality people.

I will however, point out some things that were not good or respectful, and I hope people in the future will refrain from doing this in the future.

1. Being disrespectful to people passing by, especially to some of the homeless people we saw walking by throughout the evening.

2. Wearing new Panic! merch (I’ll get into this later because there was an issue to be dealt with during the meet and greet time.)

3. Playing new Panic! songs while people are trying to listen the pre-show sound check and rehearsals, or just playing new Panic! stuff in general

4. Also I overheard a group of girls say “Honestly, I am more of a Brendon fan, he is sooo hot. And tbh fuck Ryan Ross haha” and I get it, everyone is entitled to their opinion and such but if you are going to have that attitude, please keep it to yourself. I didn’t hear such negativity during the meet and greet from them but it really put me in a bad mood when I heard that.

The doors did open right at 8 o’clock and everyone was really good at staying in their place in line and not rushing the door. Have your tickets ready to scan and phones at full brightness. (Bring battery packs because you will need your phone for a ticket scan and probably for pics of the performances and if you want to meet them later so save it for as long as possible.) Due to our great spot in line we sat in the fourth row back which was prime seating and we had the great luck of sitting behind Z’s family which was really fun to hear them talk about the work put into the show and other fun tid bits. There was even a point when her grandmother said something like “I don’t know why they insisted on leaving so late to get here. I think they should have left early and had a nice lunch before all this” and I thought that was the most adorable and grandma thing to say. Also if you are 21 or older, you can get a wristband for alcohol, if you have your ID out and ready to show them when you first walk into the venue when they scan your ticket. I also recommend getting into the line for merch quickly because things do sell out and the line does take forever. I immediately got in line when my ticket was scanned while my friends snagged seats and it still took me about 20-30 minutes to get everything I wanted. Also I recommend taking cash to buy things, it makes everything go faster.

b. the concert

The concert itself was amazing. Z hosted the entire first half from the balcony in an exact replica of Sharon Tate’s wedding dress as I am sure you have seen photos of. I will confirm, it was magical. She curses like a sailor in front of a backdrop of pure grace. She interacted with he audience the entire time and genuinely enjoys just spending time with her fans and the people that came to hear some good music. The first half of the show was the “& Friends” portion of the show, with majority of the people playing one song each with a few exceptions such as Azure Ray, Jackson Browne, Alex Greenwald and of course, Ryan Ross.

So throughout the concert, people in the concert/show (idk what I would call it officially???) would come in and out from backstage to watch each other, which I thought was wholesome. Ryan did not come out to watch like everyone else and my working theory is, the one time he did poke his head out the door, first of all, me and like 10 other people saw him, he smiled and winked (I died) and then went back in, after that people stopped paying attention to whomever was onstage and so I think he didn’t want to take away from the other acts performing. It's admirable and I understand why he stayed backstage until it was his time to go and then would promptly exit after his numbers were done.

In the first half Ryan came out with Alex Greenwald and played the guitar for him. Everyone screamed and cheered despite the wonderfully melancholic mood of the crowd mixed with the beautifully crestfallen music that had preceded them. Alex jokingly said “wow you guys are so nice” after we screamed following the remark someone in the back made along the lines of “I love you Ryan”. Let’s be honest, we were all thinking it and she had the courage to say it. So as far as the number, he sat and played his guitar in a suit that looked one size too big and jet black hair that was perfectly out of place. It was heaven. Following Alex’s song, Ryan ditched the guitar and joined him to sing “Lonely Moonlight” as a duet. He made jokes prior to the song saying they wrote it “18 or 25 years ago”. Alex agreed and laughed to which Ryan amended “actually it was the year 1825 when we wrote this” and the crowed giggled with them.

What I’m getting at is this entire concert, there were moments when you felt like no one else was around and you are sitting in any one of their living rooms, having a good time listening to them play their music and laugh with each other. “Lonely Moonlight” was beautiful and the hall was silent a part from them, no one dared speak until Ryan smiled and walked off the stage and disappeared backstage again. A few more beautiful songs later, many which Z sang in followed and then there was a brief intermission for approximately 15 minutes.

The second half of the concert Z came back on stage to the “Overture” from Nightmare Before Christmas and I died. Her voice is literally angelic and I just want everyone to know that while you damn well know that she knows she has the best fuckin’ voice ever, she remained absolutely graceful about it in any duet she did and didn’t try to out do anyone and remained humble the entire freaking time and I’m gonna cut myself off right now because she is my role model.

*inhales*

Anyways, so I’m just gonna tell you she brought Ryan on stage with one of the most iconic ways you could bring Ryan on stage, “Um, haha, I think I need a little baby Ryro” *everyone screams* “I do that to when he walks into a room. After ten years it is getting pretty fuckin’ annoying” and he smiled and laughed and everyone was probably either screaming or crying or a combination of both. She and Ryan sang “Calm Before the Storm” together, he just sang with her and she played the guitar as well. After his bit in the song was done, he just walked to the back of the stage and sat on the floor and just smiled at her and did some funny gestures, (Again, I have this on video, I just don’t know how to link long videos in a tumblr post). The crowd was amused by this and it caused Z to turn around to see what was going on, and they laughed.

Again the atmosphere was pure enjoyment and I wish everyone would get to experience that at any concert. Then he walked off stage while Z said “yeah we just love to watch you walk away” and truer words have never been spoken. The final time he did come out to perform was, of course, for “The Bad List”.

c. The Bad List

Yes I am giving this one song an entire thing on it’s own because I just have a lot of things to say about this performance of this song.

First of all, during the soundcheck while we (all the crazy fans) were outside we heard the song resonate outside the walls and the sound was angelic, so you could only imagine what it sounded like inside the venue.

Second, everything before, during, and after really just was surreal and thank god I have the whole thing on video (and I mean the WHOLE 7.5 minutes) because it is NOT something I want to ever forget. Ryan came onstage, and hugged Z and everyone awed, and then she went into this adorable and heart-warming speech thanking her fans and the people coming out tonight while Ryan tried to move his mic to the other side of her.

This was hilarious for two reasons.

First, any footage I have seen of Ryan Ross, out doing normal people things has just been gold because just like the rest of us, I would imagine, he is on the struggle bus every day going nowhere fast. So he had a time and a half trying to move the mic stand along with everything else to the other side of the stage.

Second, Z was completely oblivious the entire time he was trying his best, to move the mic. Adorable really. He also chimed in at the end of her speech that “She means that it’s all she has been talking about all week” which apparently embarrassed her but let’s be real, she is two perfect and sweet to even think abou tbeing embarassed. Don’t worry, she got him back by calling him out for saying they should turn up the piano “a weenie bit”. Then she announced they were going to sing “The Bad List” and everyone cheered to which Ryan responded with a sarcastic “Wait have you heard it yet?” and yeah, the song began.

It was divinely depressing. It was perfection.

Videos of the preformance don’t do it justice. We were the first and so far the only audience to hear it live, and everything I did to get there up to this point was worth it. It was the best performance of any song I have ever witnessed. I will navigate this hell site and hopefully figure out how to upload the video without getting copyright to take it down on my youtube channel and link it below so you guys can watch it.

As many of you know, the song it super personal to them and a few times, you heard Z’s voice break from the truth the lyrics spoke about their life, and when each of them sang, the other really didn’t look at them. It was moving to see the emotion that drove the lyrics to the song and to hear which lines bled the most to each of them. In the piano instrumental part of the song, Ryan broke up the melancholy mood by asking Z to dance with him and they smiled and had a blast (or so it looked). She eventually went limp in his arms to play dead and you could see Ryan laughing at the theatrics she pulled.

After the song ended, the smiled, everyone cheered, and they exchanged a few words which I couldn’t make out before she pulled everyone on stage for the final number. Ryan, ever the smol bean, walked to the side of the stage and did his best to blend in when everyone else from the evening piled on stage.

d. last number and Post-concert

Ok so I am almost done, I promise. The last number was “All Out of Tears” which everyone came up on stage for and sang with her on. Everyone stood up from thier pews for the last song and everyone clapped, danced, and sang along with her. The guitar and bass from the speakers were so loud that the “Z” hanging above the stage fell down in the middle of the performance, to which Alex Greenwald played the tambourine to throughout the second half of the song. Z promised that she would stay until the very last person got a picture or hug or autograph and wouldn’t leave until then.

The concert ended on a high note unlike another.

side note: so I know there is a joke about Ryan not being able to clap, and let me tell you, I made a point to look at the big ass rings he wears all the time when I met him, and yeah it would make me not able to clap normal either. In the video I have of them preforming “All Out of Tears” he at one point shakes his hands and mouths “ow” because I’d imagine his poor hands hurt. So yeah, still funny but give the guy a break.

After a breif break they all came out from backstage and made their way to the Christmas tree. They (Ryan and Z, the rest of the people left before I could get their autograph) kept their promise. Ryan came out chugging yellow red bulls and Z was a new woman after ripping off her straps to her dress (she told me and my friends this). I waited two and a half hours in line to meet Ryan and Z. It was at about two in the morning when I finally got my turn to speak to him. I noticed throughout the evening, he was never short with anyone, and if someone seemed overwhelmed and nervous (@me) he would take a pause, ask for your name and listen intently to whatever that person had to say to him. I was extremely nervous to have him sign any old Panic! merch and I have a few things to say about Ryan Ross and Panic! merch at the concert.

First off, don’t wear it, especially if it is new. Now I am not one for gatekeeping on a lot of things. However, I did see an individual (my hero) make a girl take of a new Panic! lanyard before she went up to see Ryan. It is disrespectful and frankly insensitive for anyone to do that to him in my opinion. The entire time he was patient, and understanding and omg if you ever get to hear his chuckle you will surely die and go to heaven, but I am appalled at anyone who would wear new Panic! merch or have the audacity to have him sign it. Thankfully, she took it off and I didn’t see anyone ask him to sign any new Panic! merch.

Second, Ryan is more than delighted to see The Young Veins apparel. One of the people I met at the concert was wearing a Young Veins sweatshirt and I saw some albums and CD’s people brought to him to sign and he had no issue doing so.

Third, on the issue of Panic! merch he WAS a part of, such as AFYCSO and Pretty. Odd. albums, he signs them no problem. The girl right before me had all three CD’s (afycso, pretty odd, and take a vacation) and he said “Wow haha, you have all three of them” and laughed. I split up the stuff I wanted signed between myself and three friends so I got four things signed. One was my 2007 Rolling Stones issue where Panic! made the cover, I flipped the magazine to the page that had his face on it and when I gave it to him I had the best reaction.

Well, first I totally blanked out so I only remember this because one of my friends videotaped the whole thing. Anyways, I said “hi, don’t hate me for what I am about to have you sign” among other things, gave him a letter and a bag of sour patch kids, and he said, no worries and just continued talking to me like it was no big deal. when I handed him the magazine he went “Oh man, I haven’t seen this photo in a while.” and even was stumped as to where he should sign it. He took the time to talk to me and let me say what I wanted to say to him. I asked to hug him and he said ok. Just so you know, he lets you take any kind of photo you want (within reason). Unfortunately I don’t have a single photo where we are looking at the same camera, but I have a 10/10 photo of Ryan Ross giving me a hug and let me just say, I am blessed. Another of my friends got an afysco vinyl signed and another got the booklet to my Pretty. Odd. CD signed without any issue or trouble.

Now, my friend had a silver sharpie which I gave her before to sign a poster I bought of the cover of The Bad List with him and Z on it and she said he went to sign it, started to, then saw the silver sharpie, and went, “that is a silver sharpie” and she went, “it is” and then he said “I want to sign with the silver sharpie” so he signed my poster AGAIN in silver sharpie. Then, she went to Z to have her sign it, and she signed it and said “Wait, did he sign this twice? Well now I have to” and she signed the poster at the top in the middle and again on the picture. So that is the story of how I got the poster signed twice by both of them.

e. Tid bits

I don’t think you want to hear all of the tid bits I have from talking to them on and off for an hour or so but here are the highlights.

I also got to hear Ryan say he made the Christmas playlist that was playing in the background.

At one point, Z said, “I have to go to the bathroom, but he will be mad at me if he knows I left. Don’t tell him” and ran to the bathroom. Well Ryan did notice and went “where did she go” and we said “She said we can’t tell you” and he laughed and went back to signing and talking to whoever was next in line.

Before I left Ryan I said to him “by the way, I can’t wait to hear the new music” and he chuckled and replied “Soon, I promise” and smiled before I left, so there’s that.

Also might I add. I got the best hug of my life from Z. I spent like two solid minutes with my fiends telling her she was absolute perfection (there are no lies in that statement) and gushed over how amazing the show was and everything else and then she game me a solid, and I mean solid, 30 second hug and to be honest I didn’t want to let go. Then we talked to her some more and had a good time and then realized we had to leave because we had about 2 and a half hours until we had to be at LAX for our flight out. I cried on the way back because hello? I met Ryan Ross and Z Berg and you best believe I will do just about anything to make sure I can go to any more of her concerts.

So yeah I will try to post videos later. Thank you for your patience with me and uploading it. If you have ANY questions, please send me an ask. I won’t mind answering them at all. I hope everyone had a wonderfully dreadful Christmas on The Bad List and I can’t wait to see what music Ryan has in store for 2019.

much love ♥♥♥

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wishingfornever · 6 years ago

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12/14/17 – No Contact: NationState Anniversary

It would appear that a year ago, MN was created. Hrm… Interesting. I thought I made it sooner. I was in Texas at this time. I thought I was in California when I created MN. Or when Castro died. Well, he died in November… yeah, I was in Texas. Weird. My memory is turning to crap.

Hrm… I coughed up some mucus mixed with blood. That’s a really bad sore throat.

244. I’m almost at 240. That’s great. Then 40 more pounds and I reach my goal. Which should be in about April. April is going to be the month for me. 2018 will be the year for me. I’m optimistic. :D

Watching Moana on Netflix. Charming movie thus far, of course it just began. I have one quip. This wisewoman is sharing the history of the tribe with these toddlers and they’re all scared except for the titular character. Two things that I take issue with:

Firstly, there are more male toddlers than female toddlers. That would be a truly rare occurrence to see in a culture such as theirs. Women have always outnumbered men historically.

Second, this old bat is talking about how everyone is going to die and Moana is smiling like a maniac. All the other children are afraid. So, I guess this has two points within it’s own point. Moana shouldn’t be smiling and it’s alright to be afraid. She is young, she has a lot of reasons to be afraid because if she’s not then she won’t grow up and will be carried off by predatory animals in the middle of the night. That said, why not tell the story when they’re old so that they won’t break down in tears and will remember their own history better? Just saying.

Also, why doesn’t Moana have any siblings? Especially since her father’s father’s father’s father’s father was chief that continued to son onto son onto son? Idk, I don’t understand how their government works. I like the poetic meaning with the rocks on the tallest part of the island, though.

Fuck, how old is this fucking chicken? Where are they getting their fabric from?

Moana isn’t a super narrow princess that we’ve grown accustomed to in Disney movies. She’s kinda buff. :o

Oh, shit. Moana’s grandma killed Steve Irwin. :o

Ugh… Just finished Moana. I feel like crying.

I ended up crying. Watched Lava by Disney/Pixar. Cute song. Very touching. I’m very emotional right now, I guess. Anyways, it’s time to walk Max.

Back. Watching the Jungle Book. The one with CGI animals. One of the wolves refers to a boar as wild. Like, really? You’re fucking wild! >:C

I noticed how there were hand drawn animations in this one (at the beginning) and in Moana. I guess Disney is still watching out for their old cartoonists. That’s nice of them.

Just like the old Jungle Book, they cheat. They’re recycling CGI animals from OTHER Disney movies and using them in slightly edited scenes! GAWD!!! Kidding, kidding.

Oh, Sher Khan sounds powerful. Good voice actor.

Fucking hell, Bill Murray is ruining the movie for me. Like, GOD DAMMIT. Everyone refers to Mowgli as the “Man Cub!” and speak very properly and in a distinguished manner. Then Bill Murray comes in speaking his fucking slang and just being… well, himself. Says, “Kid.” Like, really? I wish they got someone else to be Baloo.

Something I do like about the movie is how the animals have their own customs, traditions, cultures, languages, governance, and even religion. It’s crazy. So much lore. :o

Eh… the bear-necessities song seems out of place. Guess I was hoping it’d be more of a drama rather than a comedy/family movie. I mean, Bill Murray isn’t a bad actor but I don’t find him very… well, dramatic. He’s more comedy which is probably why I prefer someone more fluid with the other voice actors.

Mowgli forgot his rope.

Christ, Christopher Walken is King Louie. “I want… to… be like… YOU… I want… to… TALK… like you… in coherent sentences.”

I take back everything I said about Bill Murray. Christopher Walken, however… And yet again, the song feels out of place. Want more drama. Then again King “Louie” doesn’t sound like it belongs to begin with. All the other names are SUPER Indian. King Louie, however? Sounds French. I’ll look into it sometime.

Gigantopithecus? Is that what King Louie was in the original? I thought he was an orangutan. Ah, well. It’s kinda cool they’re using an extinct creature. It makes it extra creepy, like he were some sort of old god. I was wondering why he was so big. I feel like they changed the song since then.

HE SAYS “FIRE” IN THE FUCKING SONG!!! WHAT THE FUCK!?! THE LORE!!! YOU’RE BREAKING THE LORE!!!

Wait, Mowgli did a monkey crawl thing up the steps. Now that he’s running in terror, he knows how to run up them like a normal person? Consistency…

This is a weird thing to note, but Christopher Walken has a lot of screen time. Kaa’s voice actor has such a pretty voice, I was hoping we’d get to hear more of her. Maybe she’ll show up again. I’ll look up the cast when the movie is over.

I like how the monkeys swarm but can’t really do much damage. Like, lol, they the zerg.

Oh, fuck. Zerg is a perfect comparison. They have a hivemind. The temple collapses and they immediately coordinate a rescue effort. All in unison. In sync.

Mowgli is sneaking into the Human Village. I bet you he’s going to steal the fire and then leave. Obviously not trying to join them. Also, wasn’t it daylight a minute ago?

Now, I’m pretty civilized. But is it common to have a bonfire in the middle of the village every night? I feel like that’s a waste of resources. Also, how did he reach that torch? It’s like twice his height up. Also, how would they know fire is red? When it’s more orange? Not the point. Red flower. Aren’t most animals colorblind?

Fuck, that was a quick run. I thought it took him days to get to that village. It took him far less time to get back.

Ah, fuck! Mowgli just proved Sher Khan’s point! Whaaaaaat?! Moral complexity in a Disney movie?!

Sher Khan killed Baloo? Oh, shit. That was brutal. I wonder who would win. A tiger or a bear. Doubt they’d interact very often, tbh. Bears would win on strength but tigers are strong AND agile. Like, oof. They’re a feline. And Sher Khan is like… vicious. Baloo is lazy. Guess that settles that.

Drat. Sher Khan fell to his death. Though, admittedly, the fall probably didn’t kill him because tigers are just oversized cats. Rather, I’m fairly certain the fire did. Disney likes having falls into fire. Hrm…

Fuck! Baloo lived!

Elephants don’t strike me as the sort to alter the environment but I’m not an elephant specialist.

Alright, it’s over. I wonder what will happen when Mowgli gets older. Like, will one of the female wolves be offered to him as a “bride” or whatever? Will he fuck a wolf? Is he a furry? And what of King Louie? Will he come back for him? And also, his diaper. Why does he never take it off? I’m aware that it’s indecent and I don’t want to see an underaged penis. However, how would he know what decency is? And does he ever poop? Where does he poop? Does he eat meat raw? It seems like he must have. Can you actually eat meat raw? I think humans used to be able to but the organ responsible is no longer functional. There are so many questions. Really, he should have been brought back to the human village at the end to avoid, “When his balls drop, will he fuck animals?” question. I might be the only one asking it, but I’m asking it.

Oh, the outro is fucking awesome. Christopher Walken/King Louie crawling out of rubble and then singing in these temple ruins inside a book. Pretty cool, not sure if it’s canon. If it is, then that means he lived and Mowgli better beware.

Shere Khan? I’ve spelled it wrong this entire time. :o

HOLY FUCK!!! KAA WAS SCARLETT JOHANSSON!!! ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!? Like, that’s a name I’m familiar with and I’m not that great with names. Jesus Christ, you fucking got her to play Kaa for a SINGLE scene? Less than that? Like, so little. I feel like she should have had more screen time. Like, really. She must have been EXPENSIVE to bring in. Geez. :o

Just googled Akela’s character. It’s Gus from Breaking Bad. Or the Dentist from Payday. That dude is usually a villain. They’ve got a great cast. He was a very powerful pack leader, I thought. Surprised his character died.

Then again, these actors are pretty expensive. Maybe that’s why they’re only in it for a little bit? Or because plot.

Alright, so that was it for the big names. I heard that in the original story of the Jungle Book, Mowgli had elephants destroy his village at the very end and killed everyone. Not sure how true that is. If it’s very true, then the book is immediately better.

Eh… looking for something else on Netflix. Recommended for me… all anime. I don’t watch anime. Esther does. Her spectre is back. :/

Going through critically acclaimed. That means they received high reviews. They’re considered good movies. One of these movies: Antz.

I’ve seen Antz. I remember it from when I was very young. Allow me to assure you, it wasn’t very good. It had Christopher Walken in it. That’s not really relevant to the quality, just thought it’d be interesting to point out since the Jungle Book also had him.

Holy shit, Antz is a children’s movie? There was an attempted rape scene in it. Christ. :o

Anastasia… that was a decent movie. It’s not a Disney movie. I know this because I cracked a joke involving Disney. I think it was the supposed hatred for Jews? I don’t remember the joke. Anyways, everyone quickly YELLED at me, calling me VERY mean things and informed me in a not so polite manner that Anastasia is made by Fox.

Whoops! Anyways, I remember that a lot because it was in my World of Warcraft days. Dark times, even then. Late high school, early… no school? Idk, but you get it. I basically had this guild I rolled with called the Bloodfury Clan. Orc-Only RP guild on an RPPvP (Role Play Player versus Player) Server. It’s where my writing talents sort of… came to me. These folks were very professional in a very brutish way. It was great. We never referred to our guild as a guild. It was a Clan. Because ORC!!! The head of the Clan was this Puerto Rican woman. A lovely person. Kil’Gora. Or Kilgora because the game wouldn’t allow punctuation in your name, but lorewise! It was Kil’gora. Real name was Miri. I looked up to her. She was very influential. Helped me through… a lot of dark times. Mostly caused by my dad.

I don’t remember if it was before or after my comment… I think after. But over Ventrilo, she sung to me. Out of the blue. Just… randomly sung. She knew I was going through a particularly rough day, so she sang to me. She sang a song from Anastasia. I cried. It may seem like I cry a lot, but I assure you, crying for me used to be rare. I hated crying. I didn’t want to seem weak. She was there for me. And she was the first person to hear me cry.

Esther, however, was the first person to see me cry. Weird how that works.

Anyways, a nickname of hers was Ariel because of her Disney singing voice. I pointed out to her that Anastasia isn’t by Disney but by Fox. It surprised her too. I also told her that the internet thought I was a fucking retard for not knowing. That didn’t surprise her. Tough love.

Decided to send her a message. Just something reassuring. Life hasn’t been easy for her. And considering how Puerto Rico has been this year, I’d say she’s probably worried about home. She doesn’t live there anymore… but it’s still her home. Weird to say.

You know, I never really considered California home until I left it. I was alone in Texas with plains. I felt like I was in the middle of a golden ocean. Why was it golden? Because it was piss. I missed the mountains. They were always so reassuring. Then I come back and realize that I never wanted to come back. And I couldn’t return to Texas because my dad fucked my credit. Well… I have now. I don’t really look outside. I don’t really pay attention to the atmosphere. A lot has changed. But, I keep my troubles to myself. To many, they see me and think, “Wow… he hasn’t changed one bit after all these years.”

The reality is, I’m always changing. I find new horrors, new regrets, new kinks in my personality. Every day, I feel more unhinged. What they see is what I rehearse. I plan conversations ahead of schedule, I alleviate thought and avoid improvisation. Should they deviate from the path… chaos. Panic. Fear behind a shy smile. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say.

Thus, many will see that I say the same thing over and over. This is intentional. This is the conversational package that will get me through my life. How long will that last?

Years ago, I predicted that I would die at the age of 27. This was during the Bloodfury Clan. So, perhaps I will die next year. Maybe I shouldn’t enlist afterall. Regardless, it’d be more convenient if I do perish. Simpler, rather. Not that I seek my own death but I will not seek to prevent it, either. If I die, then I will die. If I live, then I will live until I die. The age at which I die is irrelevant.

However, I will be disappointed to die at 28. That might actually piss me off.

Anyways, backtracking. Fun fact about Orc RP: It’s basically descriptive grunting. Like, it’s comical at times. You have to be fierce. Not necessarily sub-human but definitely animalistic. I was THE BEST recruiter Bloodfury ever had. At least… I think? Not sure. Might have changed since then. I’d post my advertisement in General Chat and Trade Chat. People would often comment with how well written it was. I had longer adverts, too, but Blizz prevented me from using them because spam filter.

Drat.

My best advertisement was actually a ripoff from the Napoleon: Total War intro cinematic. The thing is, I didn’t even own Napoleon: Total War until I was in Texas. I had already stopped playing WoW by then.

Not the point. The point is, people would send me a “Tell” or “Whisper” which is a direct and personal message directly to me. Tell me if I need to slow down. Anyways, we’d set up an interview to see if they can RP. Turns out, not many people can. It’s easy. Write a coherent sentence, right? You’d think.

Most people are illiterate. And though my advert was well-written, it appealed to EVERYONE. So, a lot of Non-Orcs and Non-RPers would have to be turned away. It was a shame, but purity. You know how that goes. #fascism

When the interview began, I started with a single statement. “The Prey approaches.” Nothing more primal than referring to someone who is your lesser as prey, something for you to sink your fangs into and tear their flesh out. It also establishes dominance. Not sure how, though. Miri said she LOVED that line because it was just… perfect. Orcs don’t HAVE to be stupid. They can be, but that’s not their purpose.

Big, dumb orcs? No. Orcs are brutes, but that doesn’t mean they’re stupid. Orcs should be Laconic, forceful, direct, perhaps impatient. Orcs can be really smart but they should still be prone to their instinct.

I mentioned a story here, I’m fairly certain. Of my orc in a forest? I might not have, but if I have then consider this a recap. The orc ended up looting a dwarven doll and then it broke and he angrily threw it at a tree so hard it shattered. He was basically an angry gorilla, pounding the floor and screaming over something so trivial. My Orc wasn’t dumb. He had my intellect, which has been praised by many. It’s also been denounced by far more, but fuck them; me am smart Orc!

PvP was my thing. It was my character’s lore. I basically leveled from 57 to 60 using NOTHING but Alterac Valley, one of the PvP modes. PvP, btw, stands for Player vs Player. So, I would attack other players. Miri got me turned on to WORLD PvP where you gank people. Gank means you ambush them while they’re questing. I was REALLY good at it. Like, I set up AMAZING ambushes.

Back in the day, you had to walk to dungeons. Now, you just magically appear there for… reasons. But back then? No. You had to be there in person and then you could summon people to join you. What I did was I waited at one of these dungeons. It’s entrance was an opened top box. On the top parts, were pillars and debris to depict the dungeon being ruins or whatever. What I’d do was have my cat, who was named “Mittens” because I’m a badass Orc Warrior but lol. I RP’d with Mittens. She was canon. It was… the best.

Mittens would break to be on one side. I’d use a bunch of potions to make my character small and turn him into a skeleton. I’d wait on the other side of the box. When someone entered, I’d pop out behind cover, throw my axe at them, pop back in, and wait. They’d look around, see the cat, and look at it. Then, when Mittens had their attention, I’d pop out from cover again and charge into their backs and just BEAT the everliving shit out of them.

Other times, I’d stalk people. Wait to strike. Like this one Paladin who I was following. She jumped down and bubbled (meaning she cast a spell making her immune to damage for a limited time). When the bubble faded, I charged her. She took so much damage she tried to heal. I spellblocked her in the middle, meaning that spell and any spells like it were unable to be cast for a limited time. Her defeat was SO absolute, her only response was to /cry.

I felt a little bad, so I apologized for it on my Alliance character almost immediately after. She was really nice it seemed.

Anyways, another time there was another Paladin. He was doing daily quests. He was pulling all these monsters all at once so he can kill them all at once and complete the quest faster. I saw this and ambushed him. Me plus ALL these monsters meant he had no chance. I won.

When you die, you have to find your body as a ghost and then you come back to life. He does this and immediately heals. He finds me. I wave. He changes his armor to PvP specific armor. He changes his specialization from Player versus Environment (PvE) Paladin to PvP Paladin. I get worried. I message Jer that I might need help. Then I realize he has no mana. I tell Jer, “Nevermind” and charge him again.

A Paladin is worthless without Mana. He loses again. I laugh and I laugh.

I use player’s instincts and strengths against them while feeding on their weaknesses. When you get attacked, you find where they attack from. You see a fortified position or a sign of previous occupation (like say a cat that follows a player anywhere they go) and you prepare for an assault from that position. Then you get attacked from what you thought was barren and had no sign of life because you didn’t expect a 6’5” Orc to actually be a 2’ skeleton hiding behind the least cover possible. The most powerful spells in someone’s arsenal will be used carelessly when they’re not threatened. So, if you wait long enough, they’ll expend what they think they won’t need and will be vulnerable for attack far sooner. Preparing for confrontation means you’ll have to reallocate resources. Failure to account for the resources lost means you’ll be targeted before you can replenish.

I could have written a world PvP book. Like, I suggested to clan members who were getting into PvP to get the Helmet and Shoulder armors last when it comes to PvP gear because it’s the easiest to recognize because they actually have unique models. If you have ALL the armor besides the helmet and shoulder armor, you’d be VERY well-geared, but you won’t look like it. Thus, you’d be underestimated and that’d give you an advantage in the initial engagement.

I miss PvP.

Anyways… watching Anastasia. If you ever read this and think, “Maybe Orc RP is kinda cool?” it is. At a time, I knew plenty of Orcish words that I’d just throw into conversation to make it sound so much more authentic. My axe was named “Lok’tra” which is an Orcish song about great battles or whatever. I LOVE naming weapons. ^^

Hrm, I’m not sure how historically accurate those uniforms are.

300 years? Um, not in 1916… 1913 would be 300 years. Though, I guess it was just rounding down at that point... But traveling to Paris? During WWI? Not with that German Uboat threat. And this bitch, with Rasputin? The Tsarina LOVED Rasputin because he saved their son. And then he said when he dies, their entire family would die.

This is something petty to point out, especially since it’s accepted regardless… but “Tsar” is better than “Czar.” I’m sure “Tsar” looks less pleasing, but the Russian character they use is basically a “Ts.” Pronounce the T and then the s. Czar is still correct, of course, but Tsar is perhaps more correct.

Rasputin did die from drowning. But it wasn’t an accident. He was assassinated by Russian nobles (not the Romanov family) who didn’t like how much power he had with the Tsar and the Tsarina. Or he was assassinated by the British. Long story there. The fun story is that he was poisoned. Excessively. And then he was shot. Excessively. Then he was tied up. Excessively. And then he was tossed in a river. His body was discovered and he had freed himself of the rope. He had drowned, though. He was a pain in the ass to kill.

Also, a fortnight? Really? The Romanovs were killed in 1918. Not 1916. Or 1917.

Wait, this bitch is taking a train to Paris? A train? Bullshit. Not with WWI. Like, no way. She could be taking it to a sea port, but still. Not very likely.

Saint Petersburg? Still? 1917, we’ll say, so in 7 years. She’d be 23 when it switches to Leningrad. So, I wonder how old she is. If it’s not too long, then she’d be stuck in a Russian civil war.

Oh, that’s dumb. They have a newspaper saying, “Anastasia Lives” and the “A” is the Russian character for “D.” That’s the only Cyrillic letter there. The rest are western letters. Commissar wouldn’t have a tie at this time. At least he shouldn’t, fairly certain they had only collars.

How come the main characters are the only people without Russian accents? More importantly, why would they have Russian accents? They’d be speaking Russian, not English. Thus they wouldn’t have much accent to themselves. Thus, it’d be more natural to have them use anglophone accents instead of Russian accents speaking English. Like, if they speak French? They can speak French in English but should have a Russian accent because French isn’t Russian so they would have an accent. It’s just… trivial, I guess.

TEN YEARS?!? FUCKING CHRIST!!! Anastasia was born in 1901! Assuming it all happened in 1916, that means she’d be leaving that orphanage at the age of 25. There is no Russian Civil War at this point, and it’d DEFINITELY be Leningrad.

Backing up to the Russian accents thing… something that I’d think would be cool would be Russian slang equivalents or idioms. I say that because there are a lot of American slang and idioms in movies like this. Like saying, “Pal” or “Guys” or whatever. When making someone sound foreign, you don’t need to give them an accent. Just alter the way they speak. It’ll still sound foreign when clearly spoken in English. A good example is Jade Empire. I think the character’s name was Smiling Mountain and he introduced you to the in-game language and then spoke regular English again. Mind you, Jade Empire is based in Fantasy China so they wouldn’t be speaking English. Thus, they reflected the foreign language through clear, concise, and proper wording and very poetic touches like Spear-Catches-Leaf. Of course, that’s a name. They’re are a lot of names like that, obviously… but the point of those names is that you understand the language so you know what the names mean. Very pleasant. :D I already hate the fucking dog. Fuck the dog. I hate the fucking dog. Die. Dog.

Also, I want to see this movie in Russian. I feel like it’d be better.

The squirrels should be hibernating.

The animation is weird. Like, multiple layers… the footprints in the snow move at a different pace than the snow does when the camera is moving. Peculiar.

No exit visa! No ticket! Glory Arstotzka! I love how he actually has a hammer and sickle. Red uniform was a thing for at least one unit during the civil war, not sure if he’d have one though.

Fairly certain the palace wasn’t abandoned. It was probably re-purposed. Might be wrong though since the governance did move to Moscow.

Singing the song Miri sang to me… It was touching, almost brought me to tears. Then I realized that all the dancers look the same. I realized Anastasia is a schizophrenic. Maybe not the real Anastasia. Just Anya. Tsar Nicky looks good for a 50 year old man. Or at least a ghost. Then again, he was always an attractive man I thought. That is unusually rare for royalty. I’m not sure why that is. Look at the queen of England. Who will inherit looks like he was kicked in the face by the ugliest horse in the stable. Who won’t inherit actually is a decent looker.

Of course, the uglier son… I heard he is supposed to be a very kind man. Could be wrong. But he is honorable.

She said she was 8 when the revolutions happened… um… no? She was born in 1901 not 1908-1909.

I’m fairly certain Tsar Nicholas II’s mother died before Anastasia did. The entire movie is her going to find her grandmother, who clearly played favorites. What a bitch.

I like how Rasputin actually expresses joy when he sees his old bat friend. It’s touching. :D

They get a period correct map but they couldn’t get the rest correct? Actually, how am I sure this map is correct?

It’s not! Estonia isn’t on there! Or rather, it doesn’t have any borders, really… implying it’s a part of Russia! Come on! >:C

It bothers me that Vladimir is the only one with a Russian accent. Either everyone does it or no one does.

Where did they get horses? Did they steal them?

The fuck is Tasha? The boat is in Germany? Why is Tasha everywhere?

Ugh… I always found France pretentious and overrated. Like, at a point France dictated what was considered art and what wasn’t considered art. Rembrandt is an example of what wasn’t considered art. However, more people recognize Rembrandt than any of the French artists of the same period.

Holy crap, someone’s actually speaking Russian. Really?

Where did they get the palace? In France? The French Republic? They leasing out Versailles now? Who are the nobles?

Dmitri gets hit in the head with debris. Then the dick. Then Anya says, “THIS IS FOR DMITRI!!!” Like, make sure he’s dead first. Otherwise, he might already have one. Won’t need two.

They eloped? Oof. Where are they going? Leaving Paris, it seems. Can’t go back to Russia because… well, they’ll kill her there. Curious. Probably a dumb idea. The monarchy could establish a government in exile, of course. That’s if she didn’t elope. She doesn’t think about Russia. Self-absorbed brat. This is why the Romanovs were shot.

Huh. The voice actors are up there. Kelsey Grammer. His last name bothers me. Christopher Lloyd was the Doc from Back to the Future. John Cusak. Kirsten Dunst. That’s all I recognize.

Oh, fuck. It’s 1 in the morning. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. Um…

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