#i have a meeting with My Rabbi (sponsoring rabbi) and i might bring this up. we've only spoken once face-to-face (zoom)
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I've been doing a lot of reflection as of late, especially after this past class.
This past class was about the Torah and Tanakh in general, and the way the rabbi talked about the commandments (specifically the ten commandments) has made me really reflect on how I interpret them, specifically the fifth commandment, or honoring your mother and father.
This is a commandment I have wrestled with for a long time - in fact, it brought me away from g-d at multiple times. I was severely abused when I was incredibly young by my mother, and I used to feel insulted at the implication that I were to honor her while she got to live a better life. It was hypocritical, in my eyes.
But this rabbi surmised that this particular commandment was because parenthood is an act of creation, something that is like the g-d from which we come from. My realization is this: I don't think we're necessarily meant to take even these commandments literally.
I this particular commandment is more of a call to honor creation - creation is a gift, and like any gift, many people simply will not like it and will discard it. The person who abused me created me, but she did not honor creation. She didn't honor me, but I can still honor it.
I have started to honor creation much more. I'm too young, too unstable, not mature enough to be a father (though I fantasize about it), but I create all the time. I create relationships, I create with my hands through crochet. I create memories, I create my world. And I can honor who I am and where I came from that made me who I am. I've been learning one of the mother tongues of my family (Italian, since part of my family originates there) and it was judaism that inspired me to do this.
I don't think g-d wants me to honor my abuser. I think He wants me to remember the Holy action of creation. When I am a father, that act of creation will be Holy, and indeed, I am already joyful about the thought.
I have seen many people struggle with this particular commandment, but I think this perspective helps me personally. I don't think I ever have to forgive my abusers (plural), and I don't think I am commanded to simply because they happened to be family. I am commanded to recognize the holy, to elevate the mundane. In doing so, I will remember g-d. Through creation, I honor g-d and everything he has done for us, for me, and for our collective people.
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#abuse tw#i am not sharing this for the sake of pity and i also ask not to be told to divulge my abuse story. that isn't relevant#i have been needing to engage with this topic for a long time though and judaism has helped me a bit in navigating healing#but i decided to share this publicly in the hopes it will help other survivors specifically of familial/parental abuse#i know how it feels (in general). it's so lonely and you can really harbor (understandable) baggage about this particular commandment#i have a meeting with My Rabbi (sponsoring rabbi) and i might bring this up. we've only spoken once face-to-face (zoom)#so that might be really Intense to bring up to him but he is very kind and i trust him (which is why he is My Rabbi)#and he has already told me that he WANTS me to wrestle with g-d and His word *with* him#again i am posting this publicly so i can document my thoughts and keep them straight but also with the hope it MIGHT help others#if it even *casually* inspires another survivor i will feel so grateful (though it is THEIR achievement and not mine to claim)#i want us to survive. i want us to eat well. i want us to smile#i will say that this must be a very sudden whiplash in tone from my last post about sex. from sex to awful horrific abuse#my stream of consciousness is just Like This though in the sense that i have very sudden realizations and tonal whiplashes#so you're just getting a very frank look into how my brain is structured and what my brain thinks are important enough to think about#if i seem much more verbose it's because i needed to write this on my laptop which makes typing and more importantly yapping even *easier*
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Vayeshev-What is the Secret of Success In Life?
In this parsha Yaakov told Yosef to go check on the welfare of his brothers and the welfare of the sheep and to bring back a report. [1] This mission changed the life of Yosef and his brothers, and indeed, it changed the entire history of the Jewish people.
The Torah says[2]: “A man found him [Yosef] and he was wandering in the field and the man asked him what he was seeking (Mah Tevakesh?). Yosef responded ‘I am looking for my brothers, tell me please where they are pasturing.'” The man gave him directions to his brothers and he went to find them.
The Kotzker Rebbe (Rav Menachem Mendel of Kotzk) gives a “drush” [homiletic interpretation].
The pasuk says, “A man found him.” The Medrash Tanchuma states that the “man” is the Angel Gavriel as we find the Angel Gavriel referred to as “the man” in the book of Daniel [9:21].
Next the pasuk says, “And he was wandering in the field.” This is a metaphor for man and his life on earth. People often do nothing more in their lives than wandering and searching. They are seemingly lost and don’t know in which direction to go.
Finally, the pasuk says, “And the man asked him what he was seeking.” The Angel Gavriel told Yosef: “Listen well. You are about to embark on one of the greatest odysseys in human history. You are going to be thrown into a pit. You are going to be taken down to Egypt and be sold into slavery. You are going to be falsely accused and spend time in jail. Then you are going to be taken out of the dungeon and become the viceroy of Egypt. In your lifetime, you are going to experience the greatest heights and the greatest depths. What is the key to success under those circumstances? To remember one thing: ‘Mah Tevakesh?’ You always have to be focused and persevere on what you want to accomplish in life (what is it you seek?).”
If a person focuses and persevere on what he wants, then no matter what happens to him in his lifetime – whether be it the greatest troubles or the greatest success – nothing will ever spoil or corrupt him.
Yosef hatzadik, despite all that happened to him, did stay focused. He was never corrupted. When people endure terrible troubles and ask themselves “Why is this happening to me?” [Maybe the right approach is to ask, "Why is this happening FOR me?], they are many times tempted to throw in the towel. One’s natural inclination might be to give up and forsake everything including his faith under those circumstances. A common reaction is, “This is not fair” and despair.
On the other hand, when people meet with undreamed of success, they also tend to forget where they came from.
“Yosef”, the Angel said, “I am telling you two words. Remember these two words: ‘Mah Tevakesh.’ Keep what you are seeking in focus with consistency. If you hold to that goal, nothing will ever corrupt you.” [Needles to say that our goals must always match was Hashem wants from us, as it is written in Pirkei Avot (2:4) ".. Do His will as if it was your will that He may do your will as if it was His will." We must constantly ask ourselves, what does G-d want from me now?]
Many times, we meet people who are very successful. We ask ourselves what made them so successful. Why are some people successful and others not so successful? We tend to say that the key to success is talent, brains, good fortune or some combination of them. This insight of the Kotzker Rebbe is teaching that the main ingredient to success in life is FOCUS and PERSEVERANCE. A person will usually be successful if he has a goal and he keeps to that goal and never loses sight of that goal.
The importance of this message is emphasised by the Midrash quoted by the Ein Yaakov, discussing the most central pasuk in the Torah:
Ben Zoma said: We found a pasuk which is all inclusive, “Shema Yisrael, Hashem Elokenu, Hashem Echad.” (Devarim 6:4). Ben Nannas said: We found a pasuk which is all inclusive, Vehhavta lereecha kamocha.” (Vayikra 19:18). Ben Pazai said: We found a pasuk which is all inclusive: “And the first sheep you shall offer in the morning . . . “, referring to the Korban Tamid (Bamidbar 28:4).
The Maharal explains why the third pasuk, describing the Korban Tamid, could be considered by anyone more important than the ‘Avodat Hashem’ aspect of Judaism (Ben Zoma’s opinion), and the ‘Moral Code’ aspect of Judaism (Ben Nannas’ opinion). He explains in Netivot Olam, that consistency and focus are the most essential aspects of both religion and a fulfilling life. In Judaism, we can clearly see that focus and consistency are the secret for success in life.
Rabbi Yaakov Luban once illustrated this idea by referencing the physical phenomenon of laser beams. Lasers have revolutionized the world of medicine, technology and defense.
A laser is basically a beam of light that is focused to a high degree that increases its power to such an extent that it can even cut through a diamond. Such a laser might use about 15 watts of electricity. The distinction between laser light and ordinary light is that laser light is focused and regular light is diffused. This metaphor is applicable for success in life as well, not only to material and monetary success; it applies to spiritual success as well.
If a person knows what he wants, is committed to what he wants and can always maintain the focus to achieve what he wants then he can undergo the trials and tribulations of a Yosef and can still come out on top.
This was the message the Angel Gavriel gave Yosef. All of us wander on this world. We do not know where to go and what to do. The solution to this uncertainty is to focus and persevere on “Mah Tevakesh”, that which we want to achieve in life.
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[1] [Bereshit 37:14
[2] Bereshit 37:15-16
Le Iluy nishmat Eliahu ben Simcha, Mordechai ben Shlomo, Perla bat Simcha, Abraham Meir ben Leah, Moshe ben Gila,Yaakov ben Gila, Sara bat Gila, Yitzchak ben Perla, Leah bat Chavah, Abraham Meir ben Leah,Itamar Ben Reb Yehuda, Yehuda Ben Shmuel Tzvi, Tova Chaya bat Dovid. Refua Shelema of Mazal Tov bat Gila, Zahav Reuben ben Keyla, Yitzchak ben Mazal Tov, Chana bat Ester Beyla, Mattitiahu Yered ben Miriam, Yaacov ben Miriam, Yehuda ben Simcha, Menachem Chaim ben Malka, Naftali Dovid ben Naomi Tzipora, Nechemia Efraim ben Beyla Mina, Mazal Tov Rifka bat Yitzchak, Rachel Simcha bat Yitzchak, Dvir ben Leah, Sender ben Sara, Eliezer Chaim ben Chaya Batya, Shlomo Yoel ben Chaya Leah, Dovid Yehoshua ben Leba, Shmuel ben Mazal Tov, Malka, Yosef Yitzchack ben Bracha.
Atzlacha and parnasa tova to Daniel ben Mazal Tov, Debora Leah Bat Henshe Rachel, Shmuel ben Mazal tov, Yitzchak ben Mazal Tov, Yehuda ben Mazal Sara and Zivug agun to Gila bat Mazal Tov, Naftali Dovid ben Naomi Tzipora, Elisheva bat Malka. For pidyon hanefesh & yeshua of Yosef Itai ben Eliana Shufra.
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PENCE ROCKS KNESSET
“It was a great honor to host @VP Mike Pence in Israel. He gave exceptional expression to the powerful relationship between Israel and the United States, and we’ll always remember his magnificent speech in the Knesset.” (PM Benjamin Netanyahu via Twitter, @netanyahu, Jan 23).
USA Vice President Mike Pence was met with one standing ovation after another in the Knesset, during his speech full of Biblical references and expressions of support for Israel and the Jewish people. Pence said, “We stand with Israel, because we believe in right over wrong, in good over evil, and in liberty over tyranny.”
“The people of the USA have always held a special affection and admiration for the People of the Book. In the story of the Jews, we’ve always seen the story of America. It is the story of Exodus, a journey from persecution to freedom, a story that shows the power of faith and the promise of hope,” he stated. Pence, the first US Vice President to address the Knesset’s plenary, spoke to a packed room.
A devout Evangelical Christian, Pence paraphrased Psalms: “The USA is proud to stand with Israel and her people, as allies and cherished friends. And so we will pray for the peace of Jerusalem, that those who love you will be secure, that there be peace within your walls and security in your citadels. And we will work and strive for that brighter future, so everyone who calls this ancient land home shall sit under their vine and fig tree, and none shall make them afraid.”
Rabbi Yehudah Glick Applauds VP Pence’s Knesset Speech (Photo via Flash90 at www. breakingisraelnews.com).
Pence urged the Palestinians, who are boycotting his visit to the region, to come to the negotiating table. “We recognize that peace will require compromise, but you can be confident in this: The USA will never compromise on the safety and security of the State of Israel. The USA remains committed to peace,” Pence stated, saying that the USA will support a two-state solution if both sides want it.
That comment was met by a standing ovation. The vice president announced that the US embassy will move from Tel Aviv to Jerusalem by the end of next year, emphasizing that Jerusalem is Israel’s capital.
PENCE RAPS IRAN:
Pence rapped Iran as the world’s biggest state sponsor of terrorism, in his speech to Israel’s Knesset, and used the phrase “radical Islamic terrorism” several times, saying it “respects no creed, stealing the lives of Jews, Christians and Muslims. Together with our allies we will continue to bring the full force of our might to drive radical Islamic terrorism from the face of the earth,” he said.
During his speech, Pence waxed poetic about Israel and Jewish history. “As I stand in Abraham’s Promised Land, I believe that all who cherish freedom and seek a brighter future should cast their eyes here and marvel at what they behold. How unlikely is Israel’s birth; how more unlikely is her survival?” Pence said the Jewish people held on to the hope of returning to their homeland over a 2,000 year exile, “through the darkest and longest nights. Tomorrow, when I stand with my wife Karen at Yad Vashem to honor the six million Jewish martyrs of the Holocaust, we will marvel at the faith and resilience of your people, who just three years after walking in the shadow of death, rose up from the ashes to resurrect yourselves, to reclaim a Jewish future and rebuild the Jewish State.”
Speaking on Israel’s upcoming 70th Independence Day, Pence said the Shehechiyanu (“who has granted us life”) blessing. Pence’s blessing was met with a standing ovation from nearly all of the MKs present, as were several other points in his speech.
VP Mike Pence praying at Western Wall (Photo via Twitter @VP, VP Mike Pence, Jan 23).
‘ISRAEL’S BEST DAYS ARE YET TO COME’:
Vice President Mike Pence and Israeli PM Netanyahu held a joint press conference in Jerusalem on January 22, 2018. Netanyahu praised Pence as a long-time ally of the Jewish state, saying, “We’ve known each other for a good many years, and from the day I met you I knew you were a true friend. I remember vividly one day in 2009, when I came to meet the congressional leadership in Washington, and Mike, you spoke up with such clarity and such conviction in support of the direction I was leading Israel. I will never forget that.” The Israeli premier then expressed his thanks to the Trump administration for the decision to recognize Jerusalem as Israel’s capital. “I want to express once again, Israel’s appreciation to President Trump and to you, for the historic decision last month to recognize Jerusalem as our capital. I also want to commend you for your magnificent speech in the Knesset today.”
Pence, in turn, reaffirmed President Donald Trump’s December 6th declaration recognizing Jerusalem as Israel’s capital, and expressed President Trump’s thanks for Netanyahu’s “commitment” to the USA-Israel relationship. “It is an honor for me to stand before you today in Jerusalem, the capital of the state of Israel,” said Pence. “The president asked me to give you not only his greeting, but also his thanks for your stalwart commitment to freedom and your unbending commitment to the relationship between the United States and Israel. I leave here with confidence that with President Trump in the White House and with your strong leadership here in Israel, that the best days for both the United States and our most cherished ally, Israel, are yet to come.”
VP Pence tours Yad Vashem with PM Netanyahu: “We are here in order to remember the victims and to promise: Never again.” (Photo via Twitter @netanyahu).
PENCE VISITS WESTERN WALL, YAD VASHEM:
Vice President Mike Pence made a visit to the Western Wall and met with Israeli President Reuven Rivlin on his final day of a trip to Israel. The vice president departed late Tuesday, January 23, 2018. His visit to the Western Wall in Jerusalem’s Old City took place amid tensions with the Palestinians, who have assailed the Trump administration’s decision to recognize Jerusalem as Israel’s capital. VP Pence held meetings with PM Netanyahu, announcing plans to speed up the timing of the opening of the USA Embassy in Jerusalem to late 2019. Pence also traveled to Egypt, Jordan and Israel during his first trip to the Middle East as vice president. (JPost and JNN News)
“I urge then, first of all, that requests, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for everyone–for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness” (1 Timothy 2:1-2).
In Messiah, Lonnie C. Mings
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