#i had to reread 1000 chapters to find the ones I needed and organize the reflection in two parts it reminded me of high school

[dreadark]

rambling about writing (yeah again

i want to like... annotate the entire fic i wrote for some reason This feels incredibly full of myself but hey

well... i'll probably find it interesting in 5 years lol I'm glad I've only ever deleted one fic... even if rereading some of my old shit makes me die of cringe it's useful to have My memories are bad so this is proof of who i was then (?)... well. my whole account is that. i can also die of cringe to my old tweets yay

so i doubt anyone else will read it but i'll post about it when i'm done anyway

Caring less about the attention the things you post get... i hate how ppl talk about this like it's just social media disease If art is a form of communication then wouldn't you be sad that no one's listening to you talk

just thinking abstractly... i saw some post and it annoyed me (the usual) i think that fic got through to some people so im happy. but also it makes me diseased continuously bc when i see people mention they like knw im like oh yea? have u read my fic. I'm ...not doing this.

on a kind of related note im glad this zine apparently sends decisions out in a week i would probably blow up if i had to wait longer. however it shakes up lol (nervous

for now i think i need to literally ban myself from writing for a couple weeks so i become normal again (tweyen voice I've never been normal) i still have 1000 ideas tho... and uh. really i should probably work on my chapter fic.......

whatever. it's time for umineko.

...maybe i should make more of a habit of blogging... whatever that means... need to organize my thoughts

[noicevibes]

ik you have a list of recommended manga and stuff, but what are your top favourites??? like your personal faves

I think I've read way too many in my life to make a sane list of them, but imma do my best LMAO (pls I have 1000 tabs open between my phone browser and private browser and my tablet ;-;). I'll give you both bl and straight manga/manhwa ok??

Sign (18+, bl)

This was one of my first bl manhwa I ever read (before I spiralled down the rabbit hole). IT'S SO SWEET, the mc Soohwa gets a job at the ml's cafe, and the ml Yohan is deaf-- Yohan loves when Soohwa signs at him, and Soohwa loves when Yohan talks, and they're both just so so cute, I love this manhwa with all my heart.

The manhwa is completed!!

2. Paljae, Child of Winter (shounen ai)

Where do I even begin with this one, holy shit... the art style would be gripping me by the balls if I had some. It gives a little of tcgf AND mdzs vibes tbh??? the mc Munryeong starts to take care of this tiny "child" he names Paljae but there's a couple of plot twists and surprises that I don't want to spoil, it's SO GOOD.

It's currently ongoing BUT it's on a break before it starts its third season!!!!

3. Pink Heart Jam (18+, bl)

Probably one of my favourite manga; I don't remember much of it so I'm going to reread it-- it's short, about 11 chapters? and it has to do with a band, but the mc and ml are *chef's kiss* wonderful

4. Payback (18+, bl)

I... have many words I could use to express my love for Payback. Jay and Yoohan are skskhsks I NEED A CERTAIN PLOT THING TO HAPPEN BUT IT'S KILLING ME THAT'S IT'S SLOW BURN. Lots of angst and unraveling of truths and facts and it's kind of a revenge story but GOD, those two are so hot, I blush, I blush.

5. Cherry Magic (18+ish, bl)

IT WAS SO GOOD THEY MADE AN ANIME AND A LIVE ACTION SHOW ABOUT THEM OKAY, THAT SAYS ENOUGH, MY CUTIE PATOOTIES AHHHHH

6. One Summer Day (18+, bl)

I just recently started this and it has 50+ chapters so far, but it's by the same artist etc. as Sign!!! it's really good. The mc died and then undied because of an accident he and a Grim Reaper cause, so he's in limbo, alive but is scheduled to re-die once his name gets re-added to a death list or something, but he had a lasting regret because he never had a relationship or anything further, so the Grim Reaper has to give him "organic energy" to calm down those "regrets"... hehehe.

7. The Guild Member Next Door (18+, bl)

I'm putting 18+ for now because I believe the novel for this has smut/sex scenes, but it just hasn't been drawn into the manhwa yet. It's super cute!!! mc plays an online game and meets the ml there, but they don't know who they are irl yet (there's 30 chapters), but the mc ends up moving next door to the ml and the ml thinks the mc is stalking him bc of some previous incidents due to this game-- it's cute. Just read it.

8. Dear Door (18+, bl)

EXTREMELY 18+ SHFSLKLS the ml has to engage in sexual frivolities with the mc in order to open a "door" to hell. This is a completed manhwa with 150+ chapters, a side story (iirc), and some really interesting plot twists. WARNING: this does also contain some dubcon/noncon stuff with certain characters (not including the mc and ml, but also kind of, it's weird). But the story ends on a good note, it's one of my favourites EVER.

9. A House for Samsami (18+, bl)

If you're a fan of hybrid, golden retriever-like characters, this one's for you! A veterinarian finds a stray hybrid on the street and takes him in, and I should reread this because I don't remember the details, but I love the characters, and I really recommend this one for its cuteness. Only 13 chapters so far, I believe; it's slow uploads.

10. Our Sunny Days (18+, bl)

PUREEEEEE PUREEEEE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AHHHHH

The mc is a single father after a woman he'd been with leaves him with a baby and leaves, and he moves into a small village town where he meets the ml who's like, the village chief, and they both start crushing on each other and sjhfsks d'aww it's just so sweet, I love them. The first season is done at 25 chapters!

11. Bailin and Li Yun & Fathoms of Atonement (bl)

Both of these are by the same artist and are both on Webtoon. They have shorter chapters and one of them just became a Webtoon Original (finally!!!). I won't spoil these ones much; both have to do with merman... enjoy~

12. Mimori's Naughty Mouth (18+, bl)

AHHHH SUPER HOT AND THE MC AND ML ARE HOT TOOOOO, ml is a dentist and mc has a sensitive mouth, like insanely sensitive, so going to the dentist is a nightmare for him... until he gets this dentist. Hehe.

Now for the straights *cracks fingers*

Do Androids Dream of Love? (18+)

After mc's father dies (or someone dies, idr), she's left an android to take care of her, and she's against it at first, but he's very sincere and kind and is programmed to want to take care of her, but he finds himself going against his coding a bit and starts falling in love with her and vice versa... vewy cute. Slow uploads, but long chapters; there's currently 16.

2. I Thought My Time Was Up!

Lariette, my cutie patootie, gets with another cutie patootie Duke, Asrahan, that happens to be cursed, and she happens to have the power to heal the curse, but she's not so strong that she can do it in one shot-- but she thinks she's dying in three months' time and makes a contract to date him for that time because she has a mini bucket list she'd like to complete with him. There's another character, Doha, who slowly falls for her as he heals her and helps train her in her magic. So so good, and Asrahan's blushing moments? oh my god. There's smutty themes, but nothing explicit since it's on Webtoon.

3. Iseop's Romance

Fuck me, reading this hurts my heart because the slow burn is reaaaaaaaal. The mc is the titular Iseop Tae's executive secretary and she's amazing at her job, something he has a complex about because they completed the same program together. The complex slowly turns into a crush and his internal monologues about it are the absolute funniest shit ever. It's on Webtoon at almost 40 chapters.

4. My In-Laws Are Obsessed with Me

SLOW BURN AS HELL I don't even think they've kissed in their almost 100 chapters?? The Lapileon family has a blood curse that kills anyone who touches the blood-- except the mc, Pereshati. I forget exactly why they agree to contract in marriage, I think it's to spite her own House or something, but all of the Lapileon's love Perry, and they start to investigate different things and Perry goes on a business venture-- it's so good, and I adore the art. Webtoon!

5. When Jasy Whistles

I remember crying when this went on its first break after the one season ended, like this story is so fucking good, I WEPT. Jasy Jatare is a rumoured "god" that steals people/children (for whatever reason), and Hela, the mc, has a friend (Rodrigo I think...) who is "taken" by him into a different world, one full of dangers and other tribes of people that either live beneath the thumb of the other gods there or are protected by some (very rare). Hela wants to get her friend back and works with Jasy on a certain condition-- at 100 chapters, a lot happens between them. Sexual themes but not explicit; again, this is on Webtoon.

6. Harem of Luu-Anh (18+, poly)

Ughhhh I love this series. The one on Webtoon is sfw BUT the artist has a Patreon where they post the 18+ series... It's worth it to become their Patron to see it all. The story is well over 100 chapters by now (I believe), plus the Patreon has additional stories having to do with Luu-Anh and her FOUR HUSBANDS, YEAH FOUR HUSBANDS AND THEY'RE ALL FUCKING HOT it's worth it whew.

7. Trapped

I have to catch up in this series... There's about 200 chapters to it, but Chae-A was dealt a shit hand through life and again when she runs into the ml who is a VAMPIREEEEE he's hot though, it's fine, and she's fiery, and it makes for a good enemy to lover story, I SWEAR BY IT.

8. Selina ~ Moon Bride ~

Whyever the fuck Webtoon hasn't turned this into an Original, I'll never get. It is so beautiful, the lore and the characters are so amazing, like... I can't even put into words how much I love and recommend this. Please go read it; it has 228 CHAPTERS Y'ALL AND IT IS A DELICIOUS READ, it's been going on since 2016 but the artist had taken a huge break in between; it updates a few times a month-- PLEASE GO READ AND SUPPORT IT!!! on Webtoon.

9. Tonari no Seki no Hen na Senpai~ (18+, yandere)

Guilty pleasure. Had to pop this in. WAITING FOR THAT EIGHTH FUCKING CHAPTER IS AS PAINFUL AS WAITING FOR A RAMEN CUP TO FINISH HEATING. The ml is obsessed and in love with the mc, and she's put off by it quite a bit because he goes overboard when she finds out, but he's a puppy dog yandere-- imma go read this again tn, tbh. Ahhhh I love it. Want it for myself. Sigh.

All of my other recommendeds is in this list!!

I hope you enjoy all of them; if you want to talk and squeal about them with me, my dms are always open~

[ciralys]

Why can’t Zoro and Sanji get along?

Is it really because Sanji’s a pervert, Zoro’s “dumb” (says Sanji) and the two of them are too hot-headed? It plays a part, sure, but if Sanji had started to be totally indifferent to women, then Zoro would’ve found another thing to tease him about. That’s how their relationship works, and I’ll try to break it down here.

It’s important here to take into account that there are two sides of the question, and, so, two answers to give:

- Why can’t Zoro get along with Sanji?

- Why can’t Sanji get along with Zoro?

The first occurrence of bickering is, I think, in volume 9. Zoro talks rudely about Nami, Sanji gets mad, he sends a kick, Zoro blocks it. That could sum up the majority of their interactions through the dozens and dozens of volumes that followed. Why is that? Why are they so irritated so fast with each other, when everyone else in the crew gets along so well? And does that mean that they really dislike each other then?

Ok, let’s start with Zoro. Zoro doesn’t make friend easily. He’s hard to approach, doesn’t bother to make good impression and often gets snappy with people he just met. There are tons of examples in the manga. When he meets captain Tashigi for the first time, he yells at her for looking like his childhood friend Kuina. But the same goes for people he knows – Nami’s greedy, Sanji’s a pervert (a coward, a dumbass) and, while Nami lets the comments slip easily, Sanji just can’t. Sanji yells and kicks him in the face. And they never make up, they never act nice, they can’t help but fight in any situation. Honestly, it does look like they got a shitty relationship.

Now Zoro’s a simple guy, simpler than Sanji. All he does is orientated towards his will to become stronger. To be the best. And he needs challenge, always, in every environment he evolves in. As a kid his world was his village, Kuina was the only person stronger than him, so beating her was his goal. Then he embarked on a ship - his new environment, his new world. Only two people there would match him in a fight, but one was his captain, and Zoro had too much respect for him. So that’s why Sanji became his new opponent, the person keeping him on his toes. I’m not saying that, had Zoro been the stronger person on the boat, he would’ve been lazier and more lenient in his training. But I’m saying there’s a chance. It’s worth noting that, during the two years gap, the island represented his world, and Mihawk the opponent that kept him focused on training. At all time Zoro needs to have someone around, someone to challenge him and someone whose skills he respects. At least that’s what I think.

(Just after the two years-gap, in competion already)

Now on to Sanji. Sanji isn’t like that. He doesn’t like fighting more than the next guy, and that’s not something he does in his free time. He fights to protect - his captain, his crew, the next oppressed village they find. But what makes him happy isn’t training, it’s spending time with his friends and cooking. So where does Zoro fit in this picture?

Sanji is a social being by heart. He doesn’t like being alone. The boy grew up living with twenty cooks so living with a group in his daily life on the Sunny is pretty easy for him. He’s clever, he usually got his head on straight, and he’s pretty easy-going (more so than Zoro). But he can quickly be driven by his emotions. It’s pretty obvious for love (or lust I guess) but same goes for his more irritating side. Notice how, most of the time, Sanji is the one that teases Zoro first. See also how it’s always Sanji sending a kick and Zoro blocking him with his swords, not the other way around.

(From the manga so it gotta be read backwards)

Zoro asked him what was said on the phone, then Zoro asked him what the source of the commotion was. Sanji had literally no reason to make fun of him twice. But that’s a kind of interaction Sanji likes to have, see with Zeff. I do believe that when people interact a certain way with someone they’re close to, they look for that kind of relationship in other places they go. But Sanji doesn’t share nearly has much with Zoro has he has shared with Zeff. So what, is Zoro simply some sort of scapegoat he likes to make fun of? For mocking his intelligence so often, does that mean he really has a low esteem of Zoro?

It doesn’t, because Sanji do respects him. Now that’s not something that is reflected in his actions, that’s for sure. But the first time Sanji met the Straw-hat pirates (which at the time only included Luffy, Zoro and Usopp) something weird occurred. Mihawk arrived and slashed Zoro in two. And Zoro didn’t back up. That’s something that troubled Sanji deeply, especially when Luffy fought almost to the point of dying an hour later.

For that, yeah, Sanji respects Zoro, and I do believe that their bickering and their fights is something they both like, because they know they’re equals and they can’t really hurt each other (some argue that Zoro would win in a fight and it’s probably true but that would take a lot). I also think that Sanji understands Zoro more that the only way around, because Zoro’s a bit oblivious to other people’s feelings. So that’s my take on the two of them.

Forgive any English mistake pls rofl.

(bonus, the two fighting over who would take Luffy’s pain, something that they thought would kill them.)