#i gwt it in my own house too

[diabetesnscoliosis]

I love how any time i ask for help I jsut dont get it. Oh but ask me anytime sure, sure. So where are you

[theuniverseawakens347]

Howard you have a hard time with my understanding bc you don’t believe you lost sober time messing with Lee …

YA DRINK ODULES … ON YA OWN OR FOR LEE TO NOT FEEL LONELY!??

SHE DOING CRIMAL ACTIVITY AND YOU MARRIED N WATCHING THIS BITCH AND CALL HER CHAIN AND SHE HALF ASS THIS SHIT!?

YOU DOING DEFORMATION IF MY CHARACTER PLANNED SINCE 2020 ON YOUR OWN STALKING ME AND PLAY STUPID WHEN CAUGHT LEE ..

And then Howard ya play dumb like “this isn’t her character” TF I WATCHED YAL ARGUE WHEN I WAS 11 UR ANGER THE SAME BUT ONE MORE STUBBORN AND A LIAR

YOU BOTH LOAT UR SOBRIETY WHEN WAS YOU SOBER!??? I TOLD LEE SHE PROJECTED SENDING ME TO CLARITY AND RIVER REHAB BC I CAN CONTROL SMOKING WEED AND SHE CANT … I smoked at the house IM IN MY ROOM NO TIME SPENT AROUND YOU IM HIGH AND VIBING WORKING OUT AND RESEARCHING AND LEARNING … but you see eyes low me in sports bra and shorts and on my laptop AND YOU GO STRAIGHT TO SHIT THINKING so ya put child protection on my shit. BITCH UR LAME UR THE INAPPROPRIATE ONE YOU BOTH SHOWED ME I WASNT GOING TO GET THE PARENTS I NEEDED SO A BITCH HAD TO BOSS UP AT 11 AND BECOME THAT FOR MYSELF!

YOU LIED TO ME AND PUT ME THRU EMOTIONAL MENTAL AND PHYSICAL FOSTWR CARE ABUSE AND I HAD TO PROTECT MYSELF .. you buy me like an asset for my inheritance when granny died then throw me to the curve when I don’t for your definition of a wounded warrior… ITS GOD FOR ME BITCH. IN FULL.

I’ve tried time and time again to HELP YOU GWT ON MY LEVEL CLEANING YA DAMN OFFICE SPACE BUT YA WANT TO BE MENTALLY STUCK N HOWARD YA GLUED TO HER .. yes your tried leaving or pulling back or finding equal room for you to be you.. BUT I TOLD YOU AT 16 THAT BITCH GOT YOU ON A LEASH CAUSE SHE THINK SHE BAD SHE GOT MORE $$ THAN BOTH US COMING IN.. but she raping us.

CHARLES MANSON COWS FUCKING BRAIN .. and now she’s asking for help and you not helping her Howard .. she’s tossed to the curb by you to .. you not even the idle man you want me to date WHO TF ARE YOU TO SAVE ME OR LEE .. sobriety not there in behaviors … ya think bout using you go wood work.. then take a break when’s the last time you comepleted a wood project NEFFI TREADMILL .. WE LOVED IT YOU TOOK TIME W IT YOU GOT CREATIVE I SAID I GOT CLIENTS FOR YOU YOU SAID NO “it’s too much” .. so ya sit and watch wind blow trees but no control anger YOU HIT ME WHEN MAD .. ur uncontrollable.

I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU YOU ARE WEAK TO ME IM TIRED OF BREATHING LIFE YOU CANT TOUCH you wana die

🤷‍♀️

[azlovesem]

No dmokes no nutn no its too heavy. I go get my own shit make dure ur good. The less alcohol around me the better for at least a minute the better.

in flying down to vosit Pierre next week. Just worry everyone the fuckn morons. But ill gwt to pierres and wont leave. Ill make him drink n srive if we go anywhere on an old beat up corolla hes had forever. Windsors really different from toronto the so called good. Its a drivers town snd ima goin a drivn dien there. I could have rented a nice house right next door to Pierre. But my family said theres no aay in hell they want to hear Pete and I laughing all the time. Thst snd we get eachnothee going with the drinking things get out if hand. A lot.ha ha ha. Thats why im goin down. Im staying at his place. His old mans in the eu. His sister and take off all her clothes and try to come get into bed with me ag ain. I justvtell out to Pierre Disnes fuckn trippn out again. She has the bidy of a greek goddess but is not at all there since just after high school. There is no wsy in hell she could turn ne on.? Before she lost it we were inive eithveach other byt necer had sex. Almost kne time. It was a fun almost. Ww went crazy on a 69 instead.

I go for some groceries Do you want anything else?

[milexa2000]

4 town x reader headcanon where the reader is terribly clumsy please? 😍🙏

OMGGG YASSSS I LUV THIS ONE

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ROBAIRE🎤

He just thinks its so cute when you act clumsy

He doesnt even mind when you act awkward infront of him

Whenever you trip on your own foot, hes always there to rescue you

he quickly catches you

He will always ask you if your okay

"Are you okay, mon Amour?" he asks, in a Soft, romantic voice

You just stare at him, your pupils getting bigger and bigger cause of how hot he looks looking down at you, holding your body

"Y/n?", "y/nnn???" no responce

"Y/N!" he asks a bit Louder this time which catches your attention

"Wha- what??"

He starts to chuckle

He loves the way you stare into space

"Bébé, i was asking you if you were okay."

You quickly apologize cause you thought you Were being weird

But he shushes you and saya "dont apologize, i like it."

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Tae young🕊

Like Robaire, he thinks its cute when you are clumsy

he giggles when you poke him on the cheek

Or when you stroke his cheeks like a grandma

He loves it so much

or even when you give him so many kisses and praise him likes he's a little baby

"Oh my gwoodness you are just so cyuuteee!"

He is always there for you whenever your about to drop or break something

You both we're gonna have cereal and you shakingly hold your bowl full of cereal

Tae young, afraid that you will drop it, came behind you and holded your arms steady

"Careful dove, dont want you to drop your bowl." he say with the most CUTEST SMILE ON HIS FACE🥺🥺

"Awww thanks tae, your my hero." you say in a silly baby voice.

You stroke and kiss his cheek and walk off

His face turns super red after that

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Aaron T

Aaron just loves you to much

Like you guys love being clumsy together

Like when you guys spin around to much and you fall on top of him from all the dizziness and you both die of laughter

You are so clumsy around T's friends and he acts like its nothing

Sometimes he might get nervous if his friends might find you awkward

But luckly, they all love you and find you funny

His friends love watching you both being clumsy to eachother

Like both of you poking your cheeks And shaking his head with your Hands

Your distracted from your phone when Aaron T comes suprises you by coming behind you and hugging your waist

That scares you that you almost dropped your phone

But Aaron has "spider sences" and he quickly grabs your phone from falling out of your hand

"I'm sorry baby!" he says, laughing hystericly at your reaction

You start play fully hitting him and chasing him around the house

"AARON T YOU COME BACK HERE RIGHT NOW!"

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Aaron Z🏀

He just thinks your absolutely adorable

He is just so lucky to have you

Poor baby can get super worried about you getting hurt cause of how clumsy you can be

Like one time you Were dancing like crazy, listening to music on full volume

Z relaxed on the Sofa almost about to sleep. But then he heard a loud thud

Which immedietly wakes him up and go run up to the sound he heard

He sees you on the ground and immedietly goes up to you and carries you, bridal style (hes super strong dont worry)

"Babe! Are you okay?" , "does it hurt when i touch you here?", "did you break your leg?"

He just keeps asking multiple questions

You laugh at him and say that your totally fine

He sighs in relief and holds you tight

"You almost gave me a scare there, please dont scare me like that again."

You promise him and gave him a kiss on the forehead which he returned to you

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Jesse🎨

He cant help but have a big smile on his face when he sees you acting clumsy with his 2 kids

His kids LOVE you so much

Which they starter to call you "mommy" which almost made Jesse cry of happiness

When you accidently drop something, he would always be there to help you

He's always watching you, making sure you dont axt to clumsy and fall, or gwt hurt

He loves seeing his lover being clumsy with him

Like you poking him alot or pinching his teasingly

He doesnt mind cause his kids do it too

He is such a good catcher

Like when you are shakingly holding your coffee, almost about to skill it

Jesse helps you drink it for you (what a gentleman🥰)

"Oh, thanks Jesse!" you say akwardly

You both dont realize that the kids are watching you both having a moment

"No problem baby, im always here for you." he says, stroking your cheek

Hes gets close to you for a kiss buat the laughter of his kids scare him

"Daddy's gonna kiss mommyyyyy!" they sing songed

You couldnt help but giggle cause of how cute they are, teasing they're daddy

"Alright alright time for bed now, go on." he tells the kids.

While the kids we're in theyre rooms, he turns to look at you

"Now, where we're we?"

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thx so much for the request! I enjoyed writing this😭🖤

-Milexa

[officerfifgun]

Ppl get get inffected ovwr some bullshit

I see a lot pf ppl that see wat ppl are doing and they do it wrong

I go to see god everynight

And pray to the higher ppl even if u dont know

Those games are made to make u rich

From verizon pay it forward

Im doing a kerticy for the ppl

They dont even know that im payed for my way

Out of the hood

This ocean bay is not the hood

This is a private vector

And i is in jail for life without the ppsible chance of parroe

I shot myself in the leg i burn myself. Alive

I killed myself in the electric just beciase i payed for it i shot ppl in the head in game mode to prove that wat they do is wrong i even shoot myself to sleep and woman come and police come to see if im still alive

I even shot dead pool in the head for hitting and killing those real gangster that were dilivering

Pharmacy drugs to far rockaway certified everything

And they still prove cardi x and the hole industry

That they got thier games and they ask me for adive to beat the games and finnally get money

Make sure u give back to kie

I payed ur way so ppl in theor own world in thier minds to concee thier own world

Like black hole black soul

Gods u just have to ask and pray

I pray every night to everything

They love that o get gratified

I feel in my own world that i visite even in heaven on far rockaway

O get sad because ppl are still doing me wrong

By jumping without signin in to the bulding

In speaking all including cops and fbi

Sign in so i can give u ur money

And o can finally get mind

Yes i just pay u off with gold and pay ur phone and give u everything

Mom is abdexent woman and i took her to school

And she bought her way to finnaly finnish

The reason why ppl hit me

Becuase u are not signing in to almeda and u come as crooks

And i pay u off billion here and invest

Why i dont have money and why my room looks like that is becise i have alot ppl that see and eat with me every single they get hungry

They sign in to me and smoke with me

I make buissnes with prifesional gangster that .know they speak proper and talk proper

Now that a way of my american buisness

Im a fbi so im a train mother fucker

U diss me u loose and u dont get payment from the president

Imy family and all have badge to protect them self

From dieing

U kill u will be prosicute like i did

My mom i dont know if she killed i hear alpt of things

But shes in court for that

Im a gang leader for all gangs in nyc and all china and all middle easten sector and all spanish and all white and all race u have to come threw me if

And only u rpent to me that when i pay u forward

And if u did a good job afterwards i send the gods to u and they check u put and they been checking me out cuz of my smoking way of new and different way of dealing with volent

Ppl

They all play in movies if u want real sign out its disterbing u die ppl love to stay in the movies cus they get shot different way from the shooting

U get shot wit everything

And including woth money

They pay u off and i get a little becuse i have alot

I payed the music industry

And all crimals taht hang out with me

Yes i hear alot of sorry but u still diss and do

The same if from of the cops and president that

Hangs out with me

Yes trump still does hangs out

I held down trump

And beought him to savety

And he passed and i win that he didnt die

He got infected becuse u all were on top of him saying foolish stuff and black virus is not to play

Its to see all tge black sociaty that are hurt and

Fustrates so they can come and see me get a case and i tell u all wats wrongs and right u did wait give a god rapits that sees the future

And u can get free and. Finally see the wprld like my family are trying to do

U all can see ot to i made all shegods and all adults most of them still dinale see

Keeping it low in voces will keep u stupid

Live high voice tell me ur succes and u moght just win

And im gwtting biting by these mosketo ahhhhhiiii juat know that i cured coronavirus games and gave it to china and. All ma are learing cus they juat got birthed by me

And. The game of games i drink milk in the joker house and get prenate but ppl still want to stick

Their dock in me

Shegods and females and gays family i loves them all they love me and i care fpr them like i make family

I even cured cancer

And aids i still have to do for some humains taht

Need me juat come and see yes i do get tired by jumpees i fall a sleep faster

Cant do my job and u dont gwt ur money and i dont gwt my money from my family

I have a job to prove

That i dod it end found the cure for everything i

Left to heaven and ask

Save me and i save u

Yes im a super hero that earning my way to fly

I shot my self and i have to start over

Im in jail and i have tobwait to the cops say so

In pcean bay their every where

now with ppl

Long time ago i said to my mom

Promise i will get money and get out we all got money

And i just cant invest cuse want to smoke and and get healed by my code

Dont diss me they all see me and i love u all

And i work for the president of far rockaway

He sees me i have side jobs still with the games

To surly prove im always distracted by paying and i cant evwn help the millitary

Cus won of my family member werent ready so i have sign in to the millitary and help and tell them to bring renforment to help me succed

All war on tv is a joke ppl show u all dieng so u go out and do it to die

So u dont gwt ur money and i can succed with in helping ur freedom

Yes that trure keith ahas ur freedom

So do right and ppl can get out calmly

And see the world u kill u dont go anywhere

The goverment says deal with it ge telwl that to me to

Becare wat u do to keith cus i repented to the gods and brought back an army

And they wayching if anybody kills me so they can end all games u all have for ur freedom that including terrorist and rapits and murderrs and victim and crimes

I have to intervine woth wat ppl are doing in my hoiae they are infecting a hero keith i save u becare full i did get hit by the real tv

The real tv is not for terrrprist is foe buisnees

And stop jorge ocscar jeminez stop from disconecting my tv i have buisnes woth mom and the family that see and atay in the house

Yes jorge ur family comes and see me fpe payment they alreaady got when they need

I seee wat they did good to the kids

And i paythe kids grades are must 100 all the time for all humains and darksind and all evil

And good

Grade u all in school evwn if u are not playing u have kids u have to treat them with repect

I have grade to give i have my grade to deal with

Bod mind and soul repect loyalty

And fine woman i have to prove to the woman to

And all men that come to my house and talk to my mom and not me u infect my family i take ur money show ur grade and u go outside and work

Geades are a must 200 the prinsipal says yes i have my own school keith i teach ppl how to win

And all kids win too all i teach

They still say inffexted they come to me and ask me wat they did wrong i tell them all their hearts

Thank u all i gratify that i get a pass from the goverment amd i surly prove u that i have all codes to fix ur life

[stormbornwithblackfyre]

My Game of Thrones S8 Rant.

At this point we have two episodes left in the entire Series of Game of Thrones and to be completely honest it's been underwhelming, disappointing, and rushed, which now that the honeymoon period of having my almost 2 year wait end i can clearly see.

The writing is the main issue I have with all of this. It all comes back to the writing. Too many times gor too many occasions have I asked "why?" It just feel like too many things don't make sense and too many things were done to be overtly dramatic and shocking, instead of leaning on the STORY and NARRATIVES which we as a fandom has been salivating over for the entire series.

Let's start with "The North" and their whole Saga and the Dilemma with The Night King, White Walkers, and AotD. An evil that was shown do us from the very first episode, very first scene if i am not mistaken. An ancient and evil magic, that the living will have to deal with, that the living will have to overcome or become just more members if the AotD. THAT was the driving force of S7 basically. The reason Jon and Dany meet? Dragonglass mountain under Dragonstone. Dragonglass? Oh, just ine of the 3 ways you can kill members of the AotD. The reason every main charachter besides a certain red head *Insert word here cause I'm trying my bet to not name call* showed up for a summit in the Dragonpit IN KING'S LANDING OF ALL PLACES? Oh, just to show Cersei a wight in an attempt to convince her to help fight which was an idiotic plan in it's own right. Bottomline is the Night King and his Army was a driving force and tbh i appreciate focussing one half if the last season on him and the other on Cersei. Issue is Cersei conventionally should have been hit with a "Fire Style Fireball Jutsu"

Off rip cause that was the easiest and SMARTEST MOVE. But i digress this is avout S8. So i have no conv eptyal plab with the amount of time in episodes gi en hi the threat north but the dialogue and context are what begin my frustrations.

Everything feels rushed immediately, as evidenced by Bran

Dropping the bomb of the wall falling and Viscerion being controlled by the NK. Now the pace quickens and thats cool but it gets jumbled and stats jumbled. Which makes the North and their resistance to Jon bending the knee so weird....or weirder than it already is. Yes you want independence. Yes you want to be held out of wars. Yes want to be isolated but.......THE WHITE WALKERS ARE COMING FOR YOU FIRST AND JON WAS YOUR KING. HE LEFT WITH NOTHING BUT DA(D)VOS AND A FEW GOOD MEN AND RETURNED WITH TWO ARMIES, TWO DRAGONS, AND WARS SUPPLY OF DRAGON GLASS AND A GODSDAMN QUEEN.....Why in gods name are any of them so cold and hesitant to people helping thwm when they didn't have to? Or at the very least why thorough the very end of that war does it last?

Which brings me to a certain Red head. Sansa Stark has cause way more friction and problems than necessary this season amd it's so ridiculous and petty and stupid that legitimately gwt upset thinking about it. Upset about Jon not telling you he was going to bend the knee? Fair point. Ask him why and how he bent the knee maybe hmm? Want to stand your ground and show Dany you are a Wolf of Winterfell amd wont be taken down without a fight? I respect the chutzpah but Dany is here to save the North and literally gave you the warmest of hellos along with layer on telling you tje obvious that she loves your brother after you state the obvious that he loves her too. Maybe sit down and discuss the fate Winterfell and the North after the war is won before the war begins hmm? Mad Two armies, Two Dragons, and A Queens entourage now must be housed? THEN DIE ON YOUR GODSDAMN OWN AND JOIN THE ARMY OF THE GODSDAMN DEAD......Sansa and her pettiness and nothing. NOTHING...of use to the season until she breaks a swear to her own brother. Now we all know biologically they are cousins but They grew up Brother and Sister tho not the beat relationship. She swore to him i front of Their other Brother and Sister in the Godswood no less that she wouldn't tell a soul.......and then goes and Tells Tyrion. Why? Please. Anyone. Anyone please tell me why. I have zero clue. Break an oath to the man who was a brother to you? Why? You don't want Daenerys, the woman who saved your entire country from Death's icy grip, as tge Seven Kingdom's queen? Why? None of it makes sense. None. And for those who dare say she's "Playing the Game" No she isn't Triple H amd no it's not time to play the game it's time to think rationally.

Next up is the choices made by the writers that just rubbed me the wrong way and shot down my faith in the show. First and foremost Sam and the Tarly reveal. Absolute ridiculousness. Randyll Tarly, Sam's father, basically said to Sam: You aren't what a real man is, you aren't what a Lord should be, you are garbage. Go to the Wall or I'll take you out back and end you myself.

Now, person who may or may not read this, I don't know about you but i would tap dance on the grave of my father if he said and did to me what Randyll did to Sam. Period. End of discussion. On to Dickon *Insert snicker here* Tarly. I would have less hate for him but still no love. Dickon was now heir. Dickon was now going to get all the land and wealth and possesions and titles that nelonged to Sam simply do to patriarchy and age. (which is another discussion but we all know is how GOT is governed) So I have no clue why sam is boo hooing about either of the two. Now here's the kicker. Randyll Tarly....along with Dickon Tarly...COMMITED TREASON. TREASON AGAINST THE HOUSE THEY WERE SWORN TO FOR GENERATIONS. They also HAD. A. CHOICE. Death or Bend the knee. They chose death. End of story. Sam being a little shook? Understandable. Full fledged sobs? Stop watching Lifetime movies D & D.

That leads to Sam telling Jon, R+L=J with spite and anger which in all honesty is bullshit and Sam is a bullshit friend for it. You can't tell your supposed best friend his life was a lie n an attempt to get back at someone who honestly did you no wrong. Just bad decisions all around and feels lazy on top of it all.

Then comes the shock and awe that really just.....*Deep sigh* takes away from it all. No issue with Arya saving us. Being the hero that kills the NK. Being the Princess who was promised. But wait.......It was shock value? This was a decision made 7 years into this show? Not off rip? Jon and the NK stare downs were.....just stare downs? While all along we learn nada of the NK? Shock value is a no go most times and this is why. No substance. No merrit. Ep 4 references Arya as the hero....maybe 3 times in small passing. It just felt l like it didn't matter. More shock that was there dor shocks sake was Rhaegal dying. How did Dany not see them? Why did Dany not see them? HOW WAS I THE ONLY ONE PRESENT THINKING TO MYSELF THEY'LL BE AMBUSHED? Tyrion too drunk? Jon to tired with having to Defend Dany against Sansa because Sansa on that bullshit? Varys all of a sudden cant get information? Like how was THAT not foreseen and how wans every boltshot at Rhaegal a guranteed hit? The most shock value of all was Missandei, former slave and a POC being re chained and then killed in a foreign land by a foreign person(who's Caucasian as you guessed) for nothing. It was a heart stabber indeed and makes you want to see Dany destroy Cersei and Grewworm sestroy the Mountain but unnecessary.

All in all I'm real hurt. Real hurt. Totally prepared to wipe S8 from my mind and have GOT with S7. If you read any of this, welcome to my ted talk, sorry for rambling haha.

[kim-isnt-seaweed]

^^those photos are all taken by me. Use them ig you want but please credit me.

Hello people!

How was your week? I had a fairly good week, it was hectic and tiring but it was good until i caught a cold.

Monday: Monday since i didnt have to work i stayed home laminating my interactive material and when T came home from work we went to Emart. He bought me a really cute watch since i needed it for classes since i didnt want to keep checning my phone, he wanted to buy a smart watch for both of us (hahaha i sound like we can just buy those things whenever we want but no, we save up for those type of things) but i dont want one because i geniuenly dont have a need for one, anyway we bought stuff at emart and came home. I thought at the time i had avoided the cold i thought i caught on Sunday.

Tuesday: went to work, every tuesday staff reuinion at the center and then i went to my first class the 27 m/o baby, he is really cute and you can notice he is somewhat understanding what i am teaching him but he cant speak yet so its tough to tell for sure. The second class was new kid i was added and he is the type of kids that ..are difficult, the mother had forgotten the class was on tuesdays at 6:30 and my boss forgot to call her to confirm (usually teachers do that but she said since im a forgeiner she would do it) besides they gave me the families old address thankfully the new house was a street away. The boy was not having it, he did not want to have class and he was just doing whatever the fuck he wanted, most of my students are young so its normal for them to get distracted but you can tell the difference when they get natrually distracted because they include me in their distraction for examole the baby boy keeps trying to gwt mw to play ball with him, or anotherone that just telling me about pokemon but this boy did not give a fuck about me or the class he was just difficult but i was like whatever i will go through if the class and maybe its just because he's tired, so who knows but when i was going his mom gave him an orange and he just threw it on the floor and smeared it with his foot as if it was funny and his mom said nothing so ..he still seems a bit difficult.

Wednesday: t was at home for the morning but had to go to work that night so i decided to make lunch for both of us: carne asada, refired beans a co-worker who grew up in Guatemala gave me and cilantro rice i made with the left over cilantro the Pho place gave me. I went to work at 4, and when i got to my students house i noticed he had a cold and i immediately was like "uh-oh" you know how kids are (he is 3) they dont cover their nose, whipe their nose with their hands and then touch you and your stuff. After class i came home and later that night my throat started feeling weird.

Side note: my mom would always make soup and salad everyday for lunch and dinner (same thing for both meals as is common in Colombia) and without fail they had cilantro ALWAYS! So i grew up eating cilantro, but it wasnt until i moved to Korea and the first time eating mexican food with T he was like "oh no the taste of cilantro is too strong i cant eat this" and i was like "Cilantro has a taste????" Like i grew up eating that in soups and stuff, never on its own so i never recognized the taste, let alone believe it was strong, i just thought it was a must for food like salt or whattever, the only other thing i new of cilantro was that it makes you sleepy, so if there was too much on our food it was like "mom is trying to make us chill" idk if its true or its just placeboo at this point since i grew up hearing it thus believing it. So yeah, i didnt know cilantro had a taste of its own until i moved to Korea, thankfully T has learned to like it but he judges me when i add a bit too much.

Thursday: my throat was even more irritated that morning but i felt fine in general, t had the day off so i made lunch again: arroz con pollo. I went to work, T took me to my classes on his new scooter motorcycle and while he waited he went shopping. My second student on thrusdays is a bitbhard because he is all over the place distracted and skipping all the steps but its okay because at least he looks excited for the class. Then i had my last class and went out to eat dinmer with T, by this time my throat was in so much pain it hurt to talk but the rest of me felt fine, we went to Kondae to eat Makchang (i think its the large intestine of the pork) and then i bought a leather jacket more like i bought a fake leather jacket because T has been dying to see me in a leather jacket (boy shoulda seen me at 16) idk why so now he can finally stop talking about it.

Friday: my throat felt better so i thought i had avoided getting a cold, i went to the center to pick up my class materials for next week and for the new student on fridays my boss had only told me about the night before. I went back home and since T again had the day free we went to the bank to open a family account, then he took me to my class, i was nervous because i had been told the kids mom is scary but when i arrived there (a bit late since i had forgotten something and had to go back to the center) they were so nice, their appartment is amazing, its huge and has a beautiful view people say celebreties live in those buildings too which explains the amount of security in the complex which is odd for most korean apartments. The mom was so nice, the dad too and their little boy is wonderful too so idk what they wete talking about tbh. When class finished we came back home, took all my pants (all except one i recently bought) a skirt and a dress to the seamstress because they were too big on me now and the lady was like "why are they so big??" "Its hard for you to find clothes the fit well, right? (it is) since you have a butt (i dont i just store most of my fat in my thighs and hips but not the butt) but your waist is so small" then when she got to the dress she seemed troubled because it was more work than what it seemedm we paid 90 bucks which is apparently expensive? Idk how since she has to do a lot of work on my clothes, 7 items and 2 items for T. Then we came home and i started to feel sick again, when bed time came i was completely sick.

Today: sleeping was terrible, i kept choking in my sleep because i have a stuffy nose and a very swollen throat. T woke up at all hours trying to help me feel better, giving me wster and medicine, i felt so bad since he had to wake up early but there he was taking care of me at like 4 am. When he woke up for work all i remember is him telling our cat "Bean, mom is sick be nice to her today and take care of here" aside from that being cute on its own i actually think she listend to him, although bean is very sweet she has moments when she likes to bully me, trip me ovet, bite my legs or scratch my hands (only me she never does that to T even if he was the one annoying her she takes it out on me) but today she has been so sweet and calm, no yelling or demanding snacks, no bullying just love.

At one my MIL took me to the doctors, they somehow always mention the fact i got surgery on my nose for allergy reasons and say something i cant fully understand and no one can translate for me but i am starting to feel the surgery was a waist of money, my allergies are back (not as bad as before but their back) and everytime i get a cold it fucks me up so hard. Then when comming home my MIL bought me so much pastries and bread because i didnt want lunch or let her pay for my medicine.

Sometimes i look at T and feel so lucky i have a husband that is so sweet, selfless and careing but then i see his parents and im like yep that makes sense. His parents have always been so sweet and understanding, the accepted me for me get go and have always treated me like a daughter, sometimes i tease T telling him his dad loves me more than than him haha his parents helped pay for my surgery back when we had only been dating for a year (my parents couldnt afford it i mean back at home they could but Korean money is much more expensive than Colombian money) and now everytime i mention trying to pay them back they wont have it.

I also noticed i have three big bruises on my legs i have no idea where they came from. Its annoying because everytime i hurt myself and say "oh this is gonna leave a bruise" there is no bruise to be found, but then these bruises appear and its like for you to be so big and persistent shouldnt i remember what your from???

Tomorrow: T and i finally both have the same free day, but this fucking cold will probably ruin it all so who knows.

Anyways that was my week, i hope you all had a good week too!

[curtiscroachblog]

How are things at home?

Word for Today written by Bob and Debby Gass

Friday 3rd December 2021

'I will live in my own home with integrity.' Psalm 101:2 GWT

After King David's affair with Bathsheba, the prophet Nathan told him, 'The sword shall never depart from your house' (2 Samuel 12:10 NKJV). And it happened. His son Amnon raped his half-sister Tamar, and because David had lost his moral authority at home, he did nothing about it. When his other son Adonijah staged a coup, David 'never rebuked him by asking, "Why do you behave as you do"' (1 Kings 1:6 NAS)? If ever there was a time David needed to be a husband and father, this was it. As a leader he unified Israel, won wars and brought the ark of the covenant back to Jerusalem. But with his own family, he blew it. No wonder he 'went up by...the Mount of Olives, and wept' (2 Samuel 15:30 NKJV). When he heard of his son Absalom's untimely death, he cried, 'If only I had died in your place' (2 Samuel 18:33 NKJV)! And when he faced death himself, instead of sending for his wife and children, his servants hired a 'young woman...and she cared for the king' (1 Kings 1:4 NKJV). The man who made strangers of his own family died in a stranger's arms.

It's too late to change David's story but not yours! If you succeed in your career and fail at home, your achievements will be hollow. Apart from your relationship with God, your first priority should be to love your spouse and dedicate yourself to the children in your care. David wrote, 'I will conduct the affairs of my house with a blameless heart' (Psalm 101:2 NIV). Sadly, David's best wasn't good enough. But by God's grace, your story can be different!

[neuropathicgypsy]

One of my (living teenage) sons is nicknamed after Disney Super Villian...

He and his twin sister had normal names when they were born. Normal nicknames thar his (safe) father had for himself, passed down to the kids.

But when his sister was choked to death in front of him his name was legally changed to Raul as an honor because he took great care of his sister, even trying to fight her murderer (Stewie/Stuart as ordered by Rutherford) and begged for her life. And Matt's and I's foster father was murdered in front of us and was named Raul as well. So it was an honor because he really tried to be the best father ever and because of his sister's murder he was already dead inside.

So it was a reminder to Rutherford that the job had been done and to leave the family alone. It worked :)

He's also nicknamed Elvis for the same reason, alive in everyone's hearts.

And he's nicknamed after a Disney Super Villian as a warning that one day he would learn how to revenge. His twin sister was nicknamed Jasmine (pronounced jaz-mean)

He visited with me when my daughter had been kidnapped. Stewie came over and he picked up Raul Elvis by his shirt off the floor. I put an (unloaded because I would have killed him and in case I lost custody of it) gun in his face and asked him if he wanted it, tor distract him which scared the shit out of Raul although we had practiced it and he knew it was unloaded. He tried acting but reality took over. When Stuart said yes and tried to take it, I said "oh too bad, I wanted my son and daughter" and held it to my head but Raul said no (that wasn't practiced, it was just me breaking up the adults who were chill because they weren't acting and just waiting) so then I said "oh okay nevermind"

Then pressed it to Stuart's temple very hard, so hard I pushed his head to his shoulder. I was so angry, I didn't mean to but i saw my son and his fear and I knew that Stewie should die. I just knew. I felt it. I was so strong i could have killed him very easily with my two hands. Or maybe just one. But I'm into teaching and showing how people should act and not just preaching about peace.

So I gave Stewart to the count of four to gwt out of my house after I pulled the hammer back and cocked the gun which I was unsure if really had one in the chamber or not and wasn't sure if I could handle there not being one once I decided to kill him. And I wasn't sure if I should beat him to death in front of the kids and if the adults would really let me. I still had deep amnesia but had great faith in myself to find the truth and to find if the people were honest to me. The child's face told me it didn't matter because he was so afraid. In the end the event did help me to trust what they said, especially after the nightmares as his tears why I didn't kill his sisters murderer in the days after. He purely broke my heart. I felt like like a horrible person but he gave me great love despite allowing the murderer to go free.

So start took off on 3. I was told later I could said 4 while he was still in the house grabbing his stuff.... unfortunately I didn't think of it.

But it did end the murders of my family and children although rape and kidnapping did occur a few times after that. Of me and Annabelle (although I did protect her from rape. Some idiots still stuck their dumb dicks in her face... in her eyes face -- not her mouth. Luckily for her she was trained by FBI to attack naked people whom tried to be sexual by biting, pushing, punching -- at the age of one and has been reinforced throughout her life)

The point is just that I have many kids whom were murdered. And I just wanted to say they're not forgotten and the pain we've suffered whether alone or together will always exist.

And we are very happy that Rutherford and Stuart and his family have all died in prison.

I thank very high public officials for finally taking the steps to protect my family and i. Forever I will be grateful for everything one person has done for me. Only because I was kind to his daughter, he saved my life so many times from many people.

Of course I know he's not done. But my family and I. Are just so relieved at this time. The fight will always continue. And I know he has many more things planned for us in the future.

I know his heart heals to know he can finally help after 30 years of knowing. And that makes me so excited for the future and the present. That is alot since I spend alot of time depressed.

I know he has alot alot alot of things to do. I'm just one on the list. But he's just trumped so many of our troubles with great triumph.

And all of us are here for him in ways he may not expect to prove our great great gratefulness.

We all have proven to live by luck. And so we kinda just get each other, that way, too. But we do realize we all make our own luck, by humans acting with humanity.

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

So i realized saying I worked at a boarding house sounds kinda crazy.

First let me explain, they were all grown ass men but like 3 ladies. Like older than 40 grown ass men. And big.

Until the military inserted their men Which were younger and smaller.

So i began working there in 2002. Right after my gramma in Okmulgee died.

Now the men got off at the train. Got in a van and rode the van to the hotel.

Now the men could have their own cars they parked at the train yard and used in town and some even shared cars.

Others didn't want the hassle and took the van. The van would stop at very few stores along the route.

This is the route.

Yes i have it marked as Pennys Diner but the hotel changed names and now people can rent rooms. And i couldn't think of the new name.

It used to be the Oak Tree Inn was where i worked. Then the Best Western I would send some guys if we we're full. And the Rio Grande Diner was right between us. But all kinds of things and names have changed. So.

Now there used to be a place that is nearly on the train tracks called the Harvey House which had ladies all perfectly being waitresses and maids (amongst other things willingly or not, i am quite sure) and there maybe there was issues...

But as i could tell each man and the few ladies that worked were all 100% their on their own and usually talking with each other and smiling and talking about wives or dinner or whatever.

I could check them all in less than 20 seconds and they would ask me their room numbers and I would tell them their name and the room number I gave them. Sometimes they requested a certain side or a certain floor and i would switch them to their preference. Because we didn't even keep track, to be honest. We had a huge slot board and we put name cards in it. It was all old school and the only way we knew which room someone was in was the slot board which could fall over and totally destroy everything. The guys were supposed to write their room numbers but A lot Didnt. And alot didn't sign out either.

But we got their train calls and we used this ancient system that could been destroyed in 15 seconds and we wrote down their names then and room numbers. So when his train went out at 915 and at 10 the maids as for rooms, you pull all the rooms that have cards in them that had been called out. They were like index cards.

Only we could see the board it didn't face outward. Just towards the wall because there was a counter the stood at, really long so there was enough room between the wall and the counter for 2 people to stand. And like 6 or 7 to stand down the counter length and the board was about two people high and about 4 and a half to 5 feet tall on a table.

So, it was very old fashioned. No one ever bothered me for sex. I only saw one guy in a towel because he wouldn't answer his phone and i had to run back and check he was living and okay because the girl that called me to call him was freaking out and he opened the door in a towel, thinking i was his friend calling. So he messed with me a little bit cause i was looking at his body to see what the fuck his deal was.

Usually they had like 12 hours until they returned. Sometimes 16. But then it was like 9 hours that day. So he wasn't expecting me and he was all "whoa!!"

And A lot of guys would get bored or go out to eat and ask me if they had gotten a call. And they would say they were going to the diner and send the call there or they would be at a friends or whatever.

And so since often many wondered where their calls where to return to work, I didn't see them as human trafficking victims at all.

We had two sets. One from Winslow Arizona that drove goods to Belen then drove more goods to Winslow and then back again with a new load and so on.

Then we had a set from Clovis New Mexico that did the same thing.

And now we had a group of Belen Boys that would drive to Clovis and Winslow (and some other places) and stay in their boarding houses and then in Albuquerque they also had their set of rail roaders.

We also used to service El Paso Texas and Vaughn New Mexico but only had one of each groups that came once a month.

Pays really dam good money.

And so heres a link to the original boarding houses called Harvey Houses. It is Now a museum.

**so the men signed in in notebooks labeled Clovis, Winslow, El Paso or Vaugn.

And they put time in, date, name and room number.

Then when it was time to leave we had our own log sheets for calls we had to record. Where we put their room numbers. But not until it was time for them to go home.

So it was the slot board and the note books the railroaders used to sign in on. And if they didn't want to leave their numbers they didn't have to.

I left because I had to gwt pregnant and deal with clones and marriage.

But i loved it although I worked really too much. I was constantly 100% working it was always busy. And when it wasn't I was 100% bored and sleepy.

Google is old.

So it happens to be on the same street the airport is on where there were tons of human trafficking victims. And right next to the freeway I25

So it may look familiar to some people, especially human trafficking victims that were here in Belen as the Chinooks flew them right by it.

I worked at the one on The bottom of the hill on the side of the diner. The South side of the street.

I used to park where the silver and white cars are here now.