#i guess it's about escape too maybe for self ship ppl? is it? but for me i wanna jump into a whole different world & live thru characters

[fondfamilies]

not a self-shipper, not a two characters ship blog/one character main blog, but a secret third thing (revolving hyperfixation blorbo show around in my head & occasionally v casually shipping the lot of them with each other in nearly any combo, whatever's fun)

[fubukiswifenoimnotjoking]

Some opm fanfic ideas I’ve come up with thatIwishIcouldwrite ._.

1. Therapy! Maybe a bunch of heroes are pushed into taking therapy by the HA for legal reasons and it’s SO angst filled, what with Genos’ depressing past, Fubuki’s inferiority complex, Saitama’s depression, Metal Bat feeling pressure to be a good caretaker for Zenko, etc. Hey maybe in a Garou redemption take he ends up there too, taking in his childhood trauma. And everyone’s arguing like SHUT THE FUCK UP MY PAIN IS REAL and throwing stuff, meanwhile Saitama sits with Mumen (who I see needing physical therapy more than therapy therapy but coming there anyway to support heroes) and they drink tea and talk. Maybe eventually it mellows out and they can (sometimes) put their pride away to talk their stuff out, but Garou SWEARS he will kill anyone who talks shit on him!

2. Genos decides he can’t take it anymore and leaves to go find the Mad Cyborg cuz he knows he just can’t get strong like Saitama, even tho he doesn’t want to leave him. This has been done a bunch in fic BUT I rarely see any where Saitama goes with him! And maybe they like, go on adventures to get there and maybe over them, they grow closer, learn to speak to each other more, Genosai pining etc etc. oh and lots of camping together. When I imagine the end I always see like, either they find it and Genos almost dies but Saitama’s like no, we can do this TOGETHER and they punch it together, or a really emotional one where they find the cyborg’s corpse and Genos breaks down but admits he’s almost relieved, and yeah idk what else.

3. AA ok so I have three very self indulgent Au’s, I’ve talked about one on here and it’s kinda lame but I love the idea. K so, there’s this scene in A Star is Born with lady Gaga where she sings la vie en rose in a drag bar and when her and the main guy meet eyes they just!!instant attraction. So yeah my idea was that but Genos is a new drag queen at a drag bar owned by Fubuki and Saitama is a taffy puller at a candy shop (idk why I chose candy) with King and Mumen and Saitama goes to the bar for the first time cuz they’re promoting their candy there. And yeah lol it’s Genosai again, they start to hang out in and out of drag bars and for Genos, in and out of Genny, his dragsona (tho Genoko is way better now that I think about it). He has trust issues cuz shitty past etc and Fubuki takes him under her wing and they’re friends and she gives him advice. Oh and Sonic is a drag queen too, him and Genos are rivals, Tatsumaki owns a more popular bar and her and Fubuki have that sister rivalry, Garou and Badd work there as bouncers and mess with Genos all the time bc I love Shitty Teen Squad. Mizuki is a bouncer too :0 Also there’s Mizuki x Fubuki and Garou x Badd. Sonic x Mumen too I guess, tho I’m not as into that ship as before

4. My second self indulgent one oo boy. Soooo this is an au where everything is more monstrous, ppl are half or have become complete monsters, but more traditional ones usually, like Godzilla level kaiju, incubi, stuff like that. Except these monsters fit a teeny bit more into society, so there has to be something like a police force to get at em when they’re criminals but with heroes/detectives. Cue Genos and Mumen, totally BAD, SCARY eMO cop and goody🥳two😍shoes✨ good cop. One day they’re getting coffee or whatever when the whole place blows up, and while most people survived in wreckage, Genos notices-a monster! He chases after an incubus, and even rockets into the sky after him when he starts flying. Saitama’s like ow what the fuck, I didn’t do any of this I was just walking by! And Genos is like shut up scum >:( they take him in for questioning and learn he’s a super OP incubus (go figure) but he doesn’t have much of a sex drive and doesn’t “do the whole incubus thing.” Genos doesn’t believe him but Mumens like omg that must be so hard, have some more tea sweetie. Anyway Genos leaves it to Mumen and when he’s gone Saitama uses his convincing flirty powers to get Mumen to release him. He feels guilty about using his powers, he feels skeevy! But he really doesn’t wanna be there and escapes, Genos catches him etc and it’s a whole conspiracy all 3 of them have to figure out that actually goes super deep, also more Genosai lmaaoooooo

5. THIS IS MY DUMBEST ONE BUT I LOVE IT. Ok so Saitama is out walking in the woods one day and finds an abandoned cottage and he’s like oh sick. He goes back home but can’t get it off his mind. He keeps going back and fixes little bits of it here and there, really makes it shine and then Genos catches him and he’s like yo Sensei? Of course Genos takes the project super seriously bc Saitama is hardly ever interested in stuff so they get it done and pretty looking ridiculously fast. Then Saitama suggests like, living there every now and again for certain seasons. Genos says yes without thinking, and is floored by all the tender things he discovers come with cottage life, like a garden, taking care of little hurt birds and not accidentally hurting the house. He’s scared to tell Saitama but Sai eventually worms it out of him that he feels like he doesn’t belong, he’s so bulky and damaging to everything. Course Saitama feels awful for not realizing, hugs the shit out of him and apologizes. Then he gets the idea to help Genos feel like he can enjoy a simple life, help him hold animals, feed birds, etc. and Genos is like oh my GOD Saitama is too good to me 🥺🥺 and idk what else happens hhhh. anyway could be either established relationship or mutual pining, I like either for this story but the most IMPORTANT part is it’s full of cottagecore imagery and vibes or it’s not a simple cottage au, and I live by that. Anyway if anyone likes these and wants to use them then hell yeah! I can’t write to save my life, but please gimme credit 🧡🎃

[chillyravenart]

why do you think ppl are so defensive of characters like r*n weasley and s*nsa? i can't even count how many posts (w THOUSANDS of notes) i've seen over the years calling everyone who dislikes them trash, stupid, misogynists, classists, or other negative things lol

Ok ok hold up, I love Ron Weasley myself so idk anything about that discourse 😂 (thank God I could just enjoy HP as a form of escapism without getting involved with the discourse, I thank my lucky stars daily and wish my innocence had been preserved with asoiaf too). I even enjoy Sansa's character in the context of the story, but I think people get defensive because they confuse her with D&D's ridiculous version of a "Girl Boss" alongside the notorious Tumblr metas who paint her as someone she's not. Sansa is a conventional white feminine character many people personally relate to and enjoy, and that's cool. I've talked about this a bit here so you can check it out if you like. I've never had a problem with her character per se, but the fandom really doesn't help when it comes to interpreting her character and a lot of her fans can be fucking feral too and that's where the problem lies. Many of her fans probably project on her a lot (privileged, white, traditionally feminine, conservative etc) and take any criticism of her personally. This is paired with ascribing additional and inaccurate characteristics to her character to fill a personal void or to add dimension to a character they might not consider adequate enough. Another thing is that this fandom has a habit of putting oppressed, conventionally feminine and passive characters on a pedestal and glorifying suffering as if it's something to be celebrated. So many characters are validated only by their bad experiences and suffering or by their romantic potential and that just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. And it's no wonder that Sansa is literally shipped with the most people in the entire fandom ...🙃

Let me also add that Sansa is very well written character - she's an innocent young girl with her own experiences on on her own unique journey which ultimately deals with the higher classes and the corrupt and manipulative "game" that she has been used as a pawn in so far. But IMO, she isn't exactly a revolutionary or breaking the existing status quo in an active manner, nor is she some progressive feminist or badass that some people make her out to be (ahem like her mother ahem). In a series with girls like Arya, Brienne, Asha, Ygritte, Val and Dany, maybe they think this somehow diminishes Sansa, whereas in fact Sansa is a different type of character altogether. I guess people think that makes her somewhat less significant and gives them cause to get defensive? I'm personally not as invested in her story as I am with others, I don't personally find her as interesting or as multidimensional, but that's just ME. She's relevant to the storyline because she undergoes a personal journey of discovery that will ultimately end in Littlefinger's self-made doom and hopefully give her the skills and wisdom to stand up for herself (hopefully things start clicking quicker in Winds). Anyway to answer your question, people get defensive of her because they think any criticism of her is a criticism of them. And if the shoe fits... 🤷🏽‍♀️

Anyway I really don't wish to talk on this topic anymore so here are a bunch of posts you can have a look at that discuss this very well!!! As always I do not speak for everyone and if someone has an issue with what I've just said then ...🤷🏽‍♀️

[yaboylevi]

What about this chapter did you not like? love your art btw ❤️

Thanks!

Sorry for the wait, I wanted to read the official chapter and wait for a bit to see if my feelings changed (spoiler: they didn't).

It would be way faster to list the few things I enjoyed but alas.

VERY negative opinions under the cut. Seriously, if you liked the chapter, don't read this, I don't want to spoil your fun or upset you. I didn't bother to write this in a respectful tone, it's not an analysis, it's just me venting. That being said, if you guys read this ignoring my warning and get upset, it'll be your fault and responsibility, yeah.

The Annie's father stuff was okay, though I hope it's gonna be explained why he was the only one in Liberio running against the flow of the screaming crowd.

Then we get Reiner being pathetic once again, I am so tired of this. What's his purpose in the story aside from killing people, being a nuisance and or dead weight to others and feeling sorry for himself? I would've appreciated if he had had some introspection on how his rushed plan was partially the cause for Porco's death and Falco's transformation (and all the other deaths bc Zeke would've never screamed in Shiganshina if Reiner hadn't pushed for another attack there). But anyway if he'd had introspection, it would've been about self-pity and NEVER growth because he seems unable to have that, so I would've disliked it anyway. 

If I wasn't already rolling my eyes this hard at Reiner, then I would've started at Gabi. She's all over the place and I guess it's understandable since she is a kid and also deeply shocked and in pain. I understand it. But I don't like how Isayama made her go from despair, to murder instinct, to calm and collected in 2 pages. It's just ???? Then we have the Eren parallel and I groaned out loud. Whatever its meaning is. It's just forced.

One of the things I hated this chapter for and that I'm becoming so annoyed at in general lately, is that EVERYTHING parallels something that has already happened, and I don't understand if Isayama thinks he's being smart or if it has some deeper meaning like "oh see, history repeats itself!! wow!! a concept that is not being repeated ad nauseam in the series, not at all!! /s". I don't need it to be shoved into my face.

Idk. Also Reiner, of course, being safe in a house amongst titan territory...of...course...

Then the 104th scene. Ugh. Jean's delusion is so annoying. One moment he's rational, the other is like "muuuuu ereh is doing this for us!!! we couldn't do anything!!!", then he's rational again. Maybe if they had paid attention to Eren, and didn't only take into consideration stupid ideas that would've never worked for 4 years, maaaybe yeah, this wouldn't be happening. Who knows. I'm just tired of the 104th whining about their situation. I understand where they're coming from, their feelings, etc, I understand it's a crazy and emotional situation and all, but we already have SO MANY CHAPTERS about it, it's time to move on at least with the plot. It's just so pathetic and annoying. It makes me angry how he's basically trying to avoid responsibility or rationalize genocide like all the Eren goat stans in the fandom. I hate this mentality so much. "if they disappear, so will all the hatred! Do we really have to stop him?" JESUS CHRIST JEAN..............yikes

And then of course they (and Isayama) had to ruin chapter 108.

Then Jean also had the guts to say they should kill a kid so they can revive a commander, just bc he's too scared to take the reins of the situation. Again, I understand the struggle, it's the same as Hange afterall, it's just very, very ugly how he didn't even waver. Connie's been acting irrational, and he's been swept up by his anger for a while now, so I understand his development. Plus I find it more relatable to wanting to make a big sacrifice for someone you love, rather than someone you (think you) need. But Jean???? wtf. He doesn't even think back on the sin he was willing to commit, he isn't ashamed.

Armin as well doesn't even care that it's a kid they're talking about, he's only strategizing. And here's another annoying point: he's able to make these calculations now but when it comes to Eren his brain freezes and he becomes a delusional kid. Where were his brains when he had to think up of ways to negotiate with the world? Anyway, I get it, it's because Eren's his childhood friend and family. I am just so tired of seeing this again and again, and again. We've been stuck on this for over a year... Nothing has changed, they're just dejectedly going back and forth on their opinions and feelings. Really goes to show that Eren was the real heart of their group...

Connie flying away from the battlefield, effectively splitting again the povs we need to follow is...big yikes.

Parallel to Trost, parallel to Serumbowl. Yeah wow so interesting.

Nile dying so quick like that was also underwhelming. And it was unnecessarily cruel, imo, that as a titan he tried to kill children when as a person he was so sweet with kids (except with Eren, of course...).

The Gabi-Sasha parallel left me a bit confused. On the one hand, I don't like the killer being paralleled to the murdered. But on the other hand, I understand why that is [/inserts meta that i don't care about writing]. The Kaya-Gabi moments were also cute + Nicolo's little speech was nice, though a bit awkward, imo. I bitterly laughed at Gabi finally admitting that she mindlessly killed people just to be praised. At least she can better herself from now on! If only her cousin could take his self-pity and do something to change himself with it, but no, he just wants to change others or run away (and this is why i don't like reiner anymore).

Shadis saving these ungrateful kids was pretty cool.

I felt bad for Yelena, I want to see more of her (and maybe Mikasa+Louise), but instead, we have Jean vs Floch angst and I'm already sleeping, because I care so little about both of them.

Isayama painting Jean as a cool leader is just embarrassing when moments before he was pathetically whining and trying to kill a child (to which there was no setup, especially comparing it to the setup for Connie's plot thread. The last we saw of Jean with a kid was him wondering if he hesitated in killing the Cart because of Falco 15 chapters ago...and that was a compelling doubt but I guess he hadn't hesitated at the time, after all lol). The pages dedicated to the killing of the titans were boring, occupying space for nothing imo. Glossing over them would've sufficed, there could've just been the Pixis stuff, and it would've been fine. Which, btw, made me laugh a little in retrospect, because Armin is once again involved in the death of a Commander. Oh well.

I also didn't like that mini-flashback with Eren&Pixis. I guess Isayama wants to ruin every single nice moment Eren had with other people, because Eren is soooo so so bad now uwu, for no good reason, and it's only his fault right? people were nice to him and look at how he repaid them uwu. Big yikes for me.

I expected more from that Louise panel because it made me go [EYES EMOJI], but I guess I'll have to wait.

It's also unbelievable that NO ONE IN THE WHOLE STORY has thought of stopping Floch, when last time they arrested him, so technically why would they even leave him running around NOW? It's beyond me. Do they have a brain?

As for the basement conversation with Gabi, I hope that "I won't give up on Falco" panel + Armin looking at Gabi thoughtfully will start a "We can't give up on Eren" mindset for the 104th, but I doubt it's gonna be handled in a non-pathetic way, considering how's been done as of late.

Gabi screaming to talk to Eren was also very embarrassing from a reader pov (well, my pov). Because she was RIGHT THERE when EMA talked last time, and she should know that would most likely not work (I guess she's talking out of desperation but still...ppl be like "yeah!! they should talk to ErEn!1 why didn't they think of it!?!?!" and I mean it's probably gonna come down to that if the final audio is of any indication...I just find the presentation of this concept awkward and forced). 

I really disliked most of Gabi's part, even though she's a character I have learned to enjoy. I guess what shined through in this chapter is exactly what I don't like about how Isayama uses Gabi's character: it seems like she's just there as a fast-paced mini representation of the story themes, so she's just an instrument to the story. Sometimes I feel like she's a real character, sometimes I feel she's just a tool for the story and the themes.

Armin's reaction to hearing about Annie is...I don't know. aruani has been one of my first ships and I used to be obsessed, but this is just awkward and forced, just like the previous aruani scene that made me angry at Armin. I don't even understand if Armin's shocked, scared or happy. All of these don't make sense to me, because I have no clue what he even expects from her.

Annie's release from the crystal happened in an unexpected way which i appreciated, though I would've liked it more if she had decided to get out on her own. But it depends on if she was stuck in there or if she was still willingly escaping from reality. If she was stuck, I will love this a lot more, because basically Eren set her free.

Also, Eren's radio podcast was longer I guess ("Eren said he would undo all the hardening"), and I wonder why we couldn't hear it all. Sigh.

In general, the "theme thread" of the chapter (adults & kids) felt really pushed in our face. I appreciate when things are a bit more subtle, this just came off as...boring, because every scene made me go "well, of fucking course this scene would end like this...". The only tense moment was the Connie part, let's be real.

And yeah, my perception may be also partially because I am so tired of no Eren pov and "eren is the evil, evil villain" rhetoric, so maybe I will appreciate this chapter more once we get his pov at the end of the story (bc i have no illusions left that this won't happen anytime before the finishing line). For now, I'm just frustrated because I didn't care about ANY of the things that went down in this chapter. Like, okay, let's move on, ffs.

Everything felt forced and contrived, like, Isayama must know that nobody cares about this stuff that much and everyone would prefer to see literally anything else amongst Eren, Historia, Levi&Hange, the Colossals. Hell, imagine if this chapter didn't have Annie at the end. That was the only thing that made this chapter barely worth the read for me. I hope the next one will at least follow Connie and Annie, if I can't get any of the other things that interest me.

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(this came out way longer than I intended im so fuckgkdsdf sory)

How I feel about this character: EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME KNOWS I’M IN LOVE WIHT RATCHET. I love him in all iterations of Transformers because he’s always the tired, pragmatic one of the group. In contrast, he’s also almost tiredly optimistic in some ways. He won’t get out of bed, but if someone gets shot in the head he’ll spend however long and beyond to resuscitate them. There’s 2 halves to this--the me who identifies with the beating exhaustion he exudes, and the me who’s in awe that he’ll still fight his way through life.  I won’t... get into each continuity...because that’s too much, so I’ll stick with probably the most unpopular version of him and that’s IDW (my impression, anyway). IDW Ratchet gets a lot of flack for being way too sour and like, maybe not selfish, but uncaring. He cares! A lot! He’s always thinking about everyone in really surprisingly thoughtful ways. Like when he’s 90% sure he’ll die due to Overlord and his last words are to promote First Aid to CMO (he’s ready!! god that’s sweet), and to give his hands to Whirl (though maybe a bit blindsided, he’s paid attention to some roots of Whirl’s trauma). Or yeah he’s hella mean to Drift in the beginning, but when Drift is dying in his arms he’s scREAMING at him “you’re gonna make it! You’re gonna be fine because I’m gonna make sure you’re gonna be fine”. He can be an asshole, but he knows the time and place. Death isn’t something to play with--he’s seen probably countless friends die, and he doesn’t want that to happen again. Even now, even after the war.  So I feel very confused when ppl act like he’s this mean, cold person. He’s exTREMELY emotional. He’s probably way too invested in everyone’s lives, honestly? He interrupts a round table story for Rung just to reminisce on the veery last time he, OP, and Roller were together in the same room (not even hanging out or anything, just being together one last time. who remembers that after 5+ millions years??). He started an illegal clinic in the bad part of town because he wanted to put his skills to better use! Like! LOL.  ALSO, a point that i think is unfair is that ppl think his atheism is just really mean. IT is! But I think it shows just how much of an emotional and extremely, deeply hurt person he is. It gets aggravating when he’s condescending of religion, because there’s no simple logic to it. He reacts the way he does because he’s a hurt person who’s gone through years of trauma and this is his way of coping. Is it healthy or right? Nah, but it’s humanizing. It’s why when he becomes closer to Drift he occupies this weird between space where he snarks but also tries to indulge more in perspectives outside of his own in his own dumb old tsundere way. He’s a person who believes in justice, ultimately, and religion to him doesn’t fall under justice.  ALSO, can I say that his inability to say good byes is so.. like relatable? I have rly bad social anxiety, and so I’ve definitely ghosted people who’ve been nothing but really supportive for me. It’s not because I wanted to burn them, but it freaks you out needing to, not even say goodbye, but communicate with ppl. And for Ratchet--how many times was he FORCED to say good bye to friends + patients who were dying beyond his help? Maybe, if he could help it, he doesn’t want to say goodbye. And it’s tragic the times he’s just left, these were people who ended up either dying for falling astray into insanity, i.e., beyond his help. But he learns. He chases after Drift, who he actually said, in a way, good bye to (helping him off the floor after being attacked, also I should point out that a very tiny handful of people were comfortable interacting w/ Drift at all, and how much Ratchet just doesn’t give a shit abt how other ppl think abt him. he’ll help drift off the floor bc t’s the right thing to do). He says goodbye in his old dumb way--First Aid calls him out on it. ALSO his trust in First Aid is super cute. ALSO he’s like.. genuinely nice to Ten (he helped him get a date with Minimus!!!). And he’s not afraid to call out on other ppl’s bullshit (telling rodi straight you dont deserve to be captain which, at the time, was really true). He’s also SUPER smart. Also there’s that post on tumblr that pointed out that Ratchet immediately goes to deescalate conflict. He’s willing to put aside pride and anything if it means ultimately coming to a resolution where EVERYONE involved is safe. The only time he doesn’t is FUCKING OVERLORD who he rightfully, immediately, tries to briefly incapacitate to lockdown his medibay (protect patients/information). Ok I gotta stop I can go on forever just going page to page. Also, despite my love, I can totally point out his flaws. He’s grating when it’s unnecessary, he’s abhorrently bad at communicating, he’s privileged, he’s narrow-minded at times, etc. ec. But again what I love about him is that despite all that, he’ll throw his own self out the window for others’s well-being bc he genuinely, genuinellyyy cares about other people. If only he could care for himself //cries All the people I ship romantically with this character OH god... everyone. He’s my bicycle.  ok look, ya’ll know I’m an intense dratchet shipper and I could literally write a god damn essay. ... here’s another essay???!! So, I’ma be real, I wasn’t a super dratchet shipper before. I wasn’t anti (i have no notps), but I was just “yeah they’re cute i guess haha”. But 99.99% the reason why I ship anything is all for super cute adorable fanart. and I kept drawing them because 1) ratchet’s my fav, 2) drift is super popular so I figured I should learn to draw him. And they became the only 2 mechs I could draw. I used to be way more into Scavengers + megarod. I used to only like 1 dratchet fanfic and that’s bc it was less romantic and more plot centric (still a fav tho). Then I kept seeing cute fanart, I would read posts by other dratchet shippers too about what makes them so nice? And I was yeah.. oh yeah. And it doesn’t help that in Lost Light, drift is CONSTANTLY by Ratchet’s side. He’s constantly checking up on him and holding him and touching him, like as if Ratchet is the thing that he needs to make sure, at all costs, is safe.  In Drift’s life, Ratchet is the one who appears to him when he needs support the most but is in the most denial of it. When Drift is at the brink of death, overdosed and about to be broken apart and Orion brings him to Ratchet’s clinic. Ratchet patches him up pro-bono and tells him that he sees something special in him.  like??? can you imagine how that feels? To have no one believe in you--you don’t even believe in yourself, and yet here’s this person who tells you “you’re gonna be great”. And it totally doesn’t hit Drift in anyway, at least in a way that’s tangible to him, until much later in life. Or maybe it does (hey, how do you weave character narratives when it’s been written by like 3 different ppl shrugs). And that statement means 2 different things to them. To Drift, it’s a reminder that he’s worth something, even if it’s a sliver of nearly nothing to hold onto. To Ratchet, it’s a reminder that the greatness he saw led to the deaths of thousands of people.  HEY can you imagine this person you saved, patched up, tried to encourage, ended up being a mass serial killer in the future? (have you ever read Monster by Naoki Urusawa). Ended up killing people you loved?  So it’s no wonder that a good part of Ratchet is absolutely mad at Drift. And I think if that was all, they probably would’ve ended up being amicable. But Drift also ended up being super religious and seeing the hand and primus in everything and oh my god is this person really waxing poetry on the value of life when he, himself, shot several bullets at me at one point?  I also believe they are uncomfortably similar as they are different. The reason why they constantly butt heads is they’re two people trying to escape a past they don’t want and found complete opposite ways to cope with their losses. Drift found religion, Ratchet is gratingly pragmatic, and they see each other and go “how could this guy choose to be this way?”. I’ve heard ppl like to cite the annual as the reason why they could never work out. BUT, can I point out, that they act around each other in a way they don’t with anyone else? Drift gets SO MAD. Ratchet gets extremely talkative and incredibly personal (pulled out an electro slug from someone’s spark, holy shit that fucking traumatized you didn’t it??). They challenge each other emotionally, and it’s so fucking difficult bc they’re both extremely depressed and suffer from PTSD and would probably rather just go on their dumb space adventure and look at stars--take 2 emotionally constipated idiots and you get them. And hell no, don’t tell me Drift is in-tune with his feelings bc he’s 10000% not. He uses religion to cope with a past and life that he doesn’t want to think about. He tries to re-contextualize himself because he hates who he is. OUCHHH. And Ratchet MAKES him confront the parts of himself he hates--bc Ratchet has seen his worst traits and isn’t afraid to make him think about it.  So why do they work out eventually? They realize how important they are to each other. Delphi, Drift saves Ratchet’s life while he’s barely holding onto his own because he probably feels like he owes Ratchet his own life. And that’s a huge turning point in their relationship--Ratchet sees that... Drift tries really really fucking hard. My friend Zig pointed out that post-Delphi, Drift is eating energon w/ chopsticks (what a fucking nerd), and you can see in a later panel that Ratchet (who chose to sit next to Drift) is using those chopsticks too. IT’s such a small thing, but they’re becoming closer by sharing and learning from each other. And then Drift takes the fall and leaves. And Ratchet realizes just how important Drift’s presence is in his life. I mentioned it already lol but the scene where Ratchet helps Drift up off the floor and it’s superimposed with the love message Rewind left for CD. They care about each other so much!! And Ratchet chases after him!! HOLY SHIT. If that isn’t romance, what is?? lol I kid, but it’s obvious just how important Drift’s presence meant to him. IT’s really because they became so so so close in a way that can’t be described as just friends. They deeply understand each other in really uncomfortable ways and bring out the absolute worst and absolute best in each other. And this point is where Ratchet again appears when Drift doesn’t realize he needs someone in his life. Drift thinks he can be a loner and just float aimlessly and voicelessly--hell no! He needs friends, he needs community. He NEEDs belonging, because he wants to belong somewhere. And Ratchet helps bridge him back to friends and found family.  And Ratchet slowly changes the more he’s with Drift. He reads religious text and tries to brag about it bc he’s a dumb tsundere lol but he’s trying to understand Drift’s interests more even if it takes a decade and more to get there. And Drift values him for being his rock. That’s why he’s constantly making sure Ratchet is safe and unharmed, because he owes at least that much to him. And yeah they eventually fall in love because they value each other in a way they haven’t anyone else. IM EMO I CAN GO ONE, this all probably didn’t make a whole lot of sense but yeah. I’m just so soft to the fact that they’re horribly hurt people who don’t know how to redirect their pain, but by being together they come out healthier and more confident. IT’S RLY ROMANTIC IDKKK My non-romantic OTP for this character As much as I also love OpRatch, they are also great best friend platonic ship. They know each other best, they’ve been through SO MUCH together. It’s honestly a shame they barely interact in IDW bc the small tidbits we have, they obviously deeply respect each other’s opinions and deeply value the relationship they’ve had over the past millions of years.  I’m also all for non-romanceOTP for dratchet because I can totally imagine they go to each other to talk about things they feel uncomfortable sharing with others (they’ve seen the absolute worst of each other afterall).  My unpopular opinion about this character I don’t... think I ahve one. Some ppl view my love for his as grating lol.  One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon. Medic spin off.

[marxzsoul]

daisy..... ACTUALLY all four princesses, peach daisy rosalia and pauline

Alright it’s gonna be a long one!!

Princess Peach

favorite thing about them 

I love how cute she is!! But she’s still shown to be tough and not afraid to speak her mind or go out and fight if needed!! She’s also very sweet and cares a lot about her friends!

least favorite thing about them

This isn’t really about her personally but I wish she wasn’t written as the helpless damsel in distress anymore. So many games have shown her as super headstrong! But if she is going to be kidnapped, I wish it could be like how it is in paper mario or ttyd where it shows even when she’s kidnapped, she sneaks around to try and escape or help Mario take down the villains from the inside!!

favorite line

“I fell through too, and landed right on Bowser! It was a surprisingly soft landing…”

brOTP

Her and Mario!! They’re best friends!!

OTP

Her and Daisy!! The’re a power couple!! 

nOTP

I just don’t like implications of romance between her and bowser, I think they could be friends but Peach is just never gonna see him romantically

random headcanon

After the super crown with Peachette and stuff was revealed, I like to think that the reason Toadette “powers up” to look like Peach is because Peach is actually a more powerful type of toad! She’s just naturally really strong, and regular toads can only hope to become as strong as her by using a power up

unpopular opinion

I can’t think of much else to say here other than I just think it’s unrealistic for her to still be getting kidnapped in the newer games

favorite picture of them

I’ll be using official art for all these!

I LOVE the art style of 80s/90s anime so I’m a bit of a sucker for the Princess Peach from The Great Mission to Rescue Princess Peach

Princess Daisy

favorite thing about them

She is spunky and LOUD and proud of it babey!!! She is my favorite feminine tomboy icon!!

least favorite thing about them

I just wish she could be in another game again that isn’t a spinoff!! If Peach is still the damsel, maybe have Daisy jump in to help save her? I’d love that!!

favorite line

“Hi! I’m Daisy!”

brOTP

Similar to Peach, I see her and Luigi as best friends!! Since she’s very extroverted and loud, she helps to try and build up Luigi’s courage! She also checks in on him often and doesn’t mind doing things in his place if his anxiety is getting to him

OTP

She’s the butch to Peach’s femme

nOTP

She has high standards, stop drawing her with Waluigi u bafoons

random headcanon

Daisy doesn’t mind wearing dresses, but she really only does it for public appearances since it’s the custom for royalty in the Mushroom kingdom and surrounding kingdoms. When she’s just out and about she’s often just rocking some jeans and a cool shirt and jacket!

unpopular opinion

Some ppl think she’s annoying because she’s loud but I love it, I love women who aren’t afraid to be loud, but just because she’s brash doesn’t mean she doesn’t care about her friends deeply!

favorite picture of them

Her mario strikers art!! She looks great in the gritty aggressive style!

Princess Rosalina

favorite thing about them

She is GORGEOUS first if all, my 8 year old self gasped when I first saw her. My first love… But anyway I love how graceful she is, she is so serene. But behind that calm and serious demeanor, she holds extreme power! She’s probably the most powerful character in the mario franchise!!!  

least favorite thing about them

I can’t think of anything I hate about her, she’s probably the most developed of all the princesses, her backstory reveals a lot of struggles she went through. I guess I wish her powers were explained, we don’t really know why she’s magical or immortal.

favorite line

“Thank you… I will watch over you from beyond the stars.”

brOTP

Mario is probably one of her closest friends since he helped save her observatory and lumas, but since she’s spending more time on earth she’s become very close to Peach, Daisy, and Pauline!

OTP

I don’t really see Rosalina getting involved with anyone romantically actually

nOTP

If she were to date anyone, it wouldn’t be a boy that’s for sure lmao

random headcanon

Rosalina was once reluctant to make friends due to being immortal, she’s afraid of eventually being forced to lose them. But I think using her powers she decided to bless her friends with relative immortality so she wouldn’t have to deal with the same grief she felt from losing her family. And that’s why Mario and co haven’t shown any signs of aging

unpopular opinion

I didn’t really like the voice actress switch, I think her original was better than the current one. Her current VA isn’t bad though! Just not my favorite

favorite picture of them

Okay this concept art of her from the mario odyssey book is ICONIC and such a gay look

But also this smug ass gif of her is a fat mood

And Finally Pauline!

favorite thing about them

Pauline is THAT BITCH. She dropped off the face of the planet and turns out she was working on her political campaign that whole time! I’m so proud of her! But despite her new position, she still loves to have fun and go out and sing!

least favorite thing about them

Like Peach and Daisy I wish there was more to her character bc I can’t find a least favorite trait, just things I wish nintendo would do with her character! It would be cool if after her odyssey appearance we start to see her more in staple mario games!

favorite line

Literally all of the song Jump up, Super Star!

brOTP

She and Peach are best friends!! The two help each other recover over their previous traumas over being kidnapped and offer political advice to each other on governing their nations! They also just love going to late night karaoke with the other girls!

OTP

I ship Peach with Daisy the most, but Peach and Pauline is a close number 2

nOTP

DK. That’s awful for several reasons. Pls don’t do this

random headcanon

Pauline struggled with what she wanted to do in life for a long time, and the trauma she experienced from being kidnapped made her feel scared and confused about the future. But while in recovery, she realized how positions of leadership made her feel powerful again! So she decided to become a politician in order to become a leader and bring herself confidence, as well as inspire as many people as she can in her city! 

unpopular opinion

I don’t think she has any romantic feelings towards Mario lol

favorite picture of them

Her suit in odyssey kills me!!! Fuck it up Pauline!!!

[yuriyuu]

2017 fic writing round up

Found this survey on dreamwidth and I wanted to fill it out. :3 It’s basically my thoughts on the fics I’ve written throughout 2017. It’s long so I post it under a cut. <3 Please feel free to fill it out if you’re interested! I’d love to hear your own thoughts! Blank survey can be found here

Total year-long word count: Ummm probably around 40k. I don’t write many long things. That’s only counting finished fics tho. Idk how many words i’ve got of WIP haha. 

Word count by fandom: Dude it’s all Yuri on ice lol. everything is Yuri on Ice.  Fics completed: Probably about...18-20 I wanna say? 13 or 14 of them are on AO3, and then the rest are posted on my tumblr.

Works-in-progress: We do not talk about that lol. I’ve got too many.

This year I wrote and posted: a lot more than I thought I would.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted? A lot more. I’ve always enjoyed writing but I always struggled to post what I wrote because I wasn’t very confident. I always felt like my ideas were dumb and overused, so I never wrote fic for my old fandom which was much larger bc someone probably already did my similar ideas but 10000x better. When I got into Yuri on Ice, all of my ships were rare so I had no choice but to write and post my own. 

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January? Milabek!! 

What's your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest? Hmmmmm idk. To be honest, all of my fics make me very happy. Not because they are good, bc they aren’t really, they’re just self-indulgent shit I write to make myself feel better, but each of my fics comes from a very personal place. Writing is how I cope with events in my life, esp past trauma, and writing the kinds of fic I write is just a very soothing process for me? Idk, it’s weird lol. 

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them? My biggest risk was actually writing and posting stuff. I’m so happy people seem to enjoy my stuff, esp because I don’t have any confidence in it.

Your best story of this year: uhhh idk. 

Your most popular story of this year: Sharks! It’s a yuriyuu story where Yuri is transgender and comes out to Yuuri, although it didn’t go as planned. (Don’t worry, it’s a happy ending and there’s no transphobia in it!)

Story of yours most under-appreciated by the universe, in your opinion: Pretty Boy. It’s a vikturio story which also features trans Yuri. Basically Yuri misses wearing girly things, like skirts and lingerie and lipstick, but he gave up those things so people would take him seriously as a guy. But like, Viktor doesn’t want to see Yuri deprive himself of things that make him happy for the sake of social expectation, so he introduces Yuri to the concept of crossdressing lol. I mean I can understand why it’s not very popular, considering trans male crossdressing is a huuuuuge taboo and a no-no for most ppl, but it’s a topic I hold very dear to my heart for personal reasons and I wish more people would give it a chance lol. In case anyone has sex triggers tho, there’s 2 scenes with extremely mild non-explicit sex. Like you can tell they had sex but I wrote none of it lol. It’s very fade to black. I have a severe sex trigger so I’m warning in case anyone else is sensitive to sex. 

Most fun story to write: Birds of Paradise! Definitely Birds of Paradise hands down. It’s a silly little story where Georgi finds out Yuri has a massive crush on Yuuri and gives him shitty unsolicited love advice. 

Story with the single sexiest moment: Definitely the bloodplay scenes in Red. That is all I will say about that lol. Though I also found the scenes in Pretty Boy where Viktor makes Yuri stand in the corner so he can admire how pretty and gorgeous he looks to be really sexy. Yeah uh, i’ll just see myself out lol. 

Most "Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story: I don’t consider it wrong because it was consensual kink that people actually engage in, but for people who are unfamiliar with sadomasochism, I think Red might get this reaction from people. It’s a sadomasochistic knifeplay yuriyuu fic I wrote which also features bloodplay. I also pretty much only write fluff or hurt/comfort, so I guess me writing a sexless hardcore kink fic is a bit shocking lol. The aftercare scenes are extremely fluffy tho! :D

Story that shifted your own perceptions of the characters: Hard to say since I usually don’t write a fic unless i’m deep into that particular headcanon lol. I guess Birds of Paradise because I didn’t realize how much I loved Georgi being a supportive idiot until I actually wrote it lol. 

Hardest story to write: Not one I’ve published. Hardest story i’ve starting writing is this very personal fic that is very similar to the trauma I went through in my childhood. I don’t know if i’ll ever finish it, I doubt I’ll ever publish it, but I feel it’s a story I need to write. I don’t even want to say which ship it is because even that feels like revealing too much.

Biggest disappointment: Nothing really. I post my fic with zero expectations that anyone will read or enjoy it lol. 

Biggest surprise: Sharks got translated into Portuguese!!! 

Most unintentionally telling story: I’m sorry I don’t understand this question lol. 

Favorite opening line(s): “Sometimes for Yuri, life is loud. Sometimes it’s nothing more than a cacophony of dirty memories etched into his skin, violent thoughts on infinite repeat, adrenaline that turns into outward aggression at every person, intentions be damned. Sometimes, most of the time, that’s all he feels life is.” (from Reprieve) 

Favorite closing line(s): Listen, I went through all of my fics on AO3 searching for my fave closing line and my fave closing line is also from Reprieve lol. “Safety is not a luxury Yuri could afford. Safety is conditional, safety is a reward. Perform well enough and you can escape the looming danger for a little bit. But in Yuuri, Yuri finds reprieve. And for that, he’s thankful.”

Favorite 5 line(s) from anywhere:

  “Is this...guilt tea because you feel guilty?” (from Guilty), 

“Grab a spoon and help me finish the ice cream before it turns into soup. I don’t care what anyone says, it’s good and healthy to eat your feelings worth in ice cream.” (from Heroes) 

 “Perhaps maybe, home is less of a physical place and more of a slow culmination of warm, fond feelings.” (from unfinished vikturio wip) 

“Really, Viktor doesn’t know anything about him either. I saw the bruise on your shoulder. But somehow, he already knows too much.” (also from the same vikturio wip), “ 

 “You're a masochist, you like pain. Pretend this is a scene or something.” (From Red. And yes I know that quote makes no sense out of context, but the context is that Yuuri is cleaning Yuri’s wounds from their scene and Yuri is bitching that the anti-septic stings lol)

Top 5 scenes from anywhere you would choose to have illustrated:

Yuuri bathing and bandaging Yuri in Red

The knifeplay scenes also from Red lol.

Yuri and Viktor sharing pocky together during Kiss and Steal

a scene from my dark forbidden fic i’m still too embarrassed to finish writing or even post LOL. 

The scene from Slowly where Yuri and Yuuri fall asleep on the couch together by mistake, so Viktor just comes over and cuddles with the both of them while they’re sleeping. (It’s a viktuurio fic, so if you like viktuurio and getting together fics, please check it out! <3)

Fic-writing goals for next year: Just to keep writing more fic. :D Maybe work on my self-esteem a little bit heheh...

[adhdvane]

Anon back again, don't worry about delay in answer! I'm not expecting you to reply in a matter of seconds and I'm patient anyway! (●'◡'●) (and yeah, tumblr's notification system kinda suck so really, not your fault haha)

I understand your struggle with fics all too well lol I'm sure a time will come when it just clicks and you can write the good stuff ( •̀ ω •́ )✧ And no need to feel bad if you haven't posted a lot on ao3! You don't have to have 1000 fics or 200k word-long fics for your works to be enjoyable!! Even little ficlets and drabbles are good to have around ♥

It's good of you to have taken time for yourself if you needed it ♥ And yeah, completely understandable to hesitate and come back to fandom in general with the current state of things (a couple years ago I made an IE/Go sideblog and I'm still terrified that someone is going to come up and yell at me for shipping the characters lmao And that's without counting the Problematic™ fics I wrote when I was 16 lmao)

Regarding your tags, I'm just sitting there like starry-eyed because YES TenKyou. I'm DELIGHTED to know that's your preference because that's mine too for the ship asklhjkh

As for Todd and Prof Mirror, that's a tough and personal question, so good luck! (I'm thinking Todd topping's nice but does it make the prof kink better or not is the question!! ALSO in the french version, I know there's a line from Todd going like "Mirror was already being called Professor before he was a professor" so maybe he's not the only one with a prof kink, just from a different angle, hah)

(you say sorry for rambling, but joke's on you, I ramble too! Sorry for clustering your blog though woops Have a good day! (´･ω･`) )

rip, okay, once again i apologize about this one being even later, mostly bc i saw it early, but i haven't been able to sit down and respond to it. this week was the last week of the month so i actually had a lot to do at work and was able to go in every day (as opposed to 1 - 2 days bc business is still so slow). but at the end of the month i do invoicing for inventory charges for that month for each customer. though i was able to actually get a lot of it done sooner than usual (bc i actually started the process on tuesday instead of thursday), there were still three big ones i couldn't even do until thursday bc they had several orders in production that didn't get shipped until thursday. I was going to finally get to this ask on friday when i got home (we only work half days on friday and close at noon)… but the new gbf event had started… and uhg… a sho centric event. g od.

rest of the word vomit under the cut

before i just—IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ ABOUT THIS GBF RAMBLING FEEL FREE TO SKIP BELOW TO THE END THE GBF OF RAMBLE—this event askjdsjkdfslkdjsdjg talk about giving the antag his redemption art event. the emotional growth in sho. so many new assets to save… there are fricking 6 different versions of his character labeled _painful (_painful, _painful2, etc.), and like so many zoom in's that basically every one of his images has an _up version (the battle ones ((the ones of him on his gearcycle)) also have a bunch of _up2 versions that are zoomed in between the default and _up close up) anyways these in particular kill me.

sho "i'm-not-going-to-cry-or-show-expresions-of-gratitude" awkwardly smiling and crying in this event (while also repeatedly getting the shit kicked out of him/getting hurt. having a moment of breaking down from exhaustion and pain, in the rain, before deciding he has to swallow his pride. every single english word that comes out of his mouth, cv: taniyama kishou is a gift (on a side note i can't believe he fucking played alpha in chronostone. like thats fucking hilarious a va and voicalist capable of such range and drama voicing alpha and his serious monotone ass). Sho (@tsubasa): You showed me the light before—[…] Tsubasa: Wait, what? Whaddya mean I showed you the light? ((you mean when he punched you in the fucking face at the end of the previous event of this series?))). I mean I already shipped bc of the their last event, how can you not ship the guy screaming he's going to kill the protag w/the protag esp after getting punched in the face by the protag at the end makes him calm down and be like fine i guess you win i'm not going to try to kill you know and our gangs don't have to fight. also they're both like 16 (or at least tsubasa is canon 16 (a yeas totally looks like a 16 year old) and sho is at least still in school and at least confirmed to be a minor (not age of majority, which idk what that is exactly in universe, could be 18, could be 20, bc it is fantasy, but it's also japanese, thoguh japan's age of majority is actually lowering from 20 to 18 next april (2022), drinking/smoking/gambling age will still be 20, and the comment in this event was about we're still minors save the smoking for when you're an adult). sho could arguably be 18 or 19 and still believably in school and be considered a minor legally (if in universe gbf follows japanese laws) considering the time he spent in juvie he could easily have been held back. gbf will probably just make him tsubasa's age if a canon age is release. but thinking about sho being 19 and tsubasa being 16 would make some ppl upset and that brings me joy. (also just how funny it could be thinking about (bc everyone is perpetually the same age) how later when sho a year older and legally being able to drink, and tsubasa not, and despite the fact sho being like i will break the laws about physically assaulting a guy but underage drinking, smoking, and drugs is a no-no is fucking hilarious. (the app is rated t so i guess there's only so much you can do…) (oh and one last note, a character in the event asking if sho enjoys the pain and is a masochist, to have other character be like dude you can't just ask someone that. sho saying no he doesn't enjoy the pain. only for later when they are escaping, a character noting "You look rather happy about all this. Now I'm sure youre a masochist." gbf first crushing my sho masochist headcanon and then building it back up in this event, thank u gbf). anways, rip that was a lot and not even everything, as you can see i have been… distracted by this event. apologies

—END OF GBF RAMBLE—

oh god worry about ppl like that in ina like, there really people out there who don't want you shipping ficitional children?????? and the main ina cast is roughly between 12-15. and got i started watching ina in 2013 when i was 19. which apparently for some people is like bad uwu because it's a show for young teenagers (like lol too bad i'm 27 and even though i haven't kept up with aries i still love ina and all the little babies and wont stop shipping). i didn't even know there was people out there who get UPSET AT AGING UP??? like wtf???? sorry i want them to be old enough to marry, adopt children, have a job, and also f.uck. the dpk au is my lifeblood (and has a lot of Problematic™ content that's never even been posted online anywhere bc it used to be an rp. my favorite is that out of all the relationships in the au, tenma and kyousuke's is probably the most unhealthy bc of kyousuke's mental health. some very bad things happened to fei (per request of my rp partner) (part of vanfeny and garsha's revenge on saru as they were sent to megun while saru walks around ''free'' (what exactly is free is a whole other lore mess in itself that i wrote up about post chrono stone future). and that just lead to more bad things fei then did to himself. problematic™ content 9492347 in the dpk au, shipping ozrock and lalaya. (even worse, bc of lore planning i did for the au and decided how their species worked, lalaya is about 6.5 cycles (faram obius years) or roughly 130 earth years and biologically similar to 13 year earth years, and ozrock is about 48 Ixal years roughly 48 earth years and biologically similar to 24 earth years. so like even a worse ship. i mean just ignore cultural norms would be different on an alien planet and also she's royalty and has an obligation to be wed even younger and is probably socially more mature than a human 13 year old. rip sorry i just like alien stuff. a lot of this was also because wouldn't it be great for lalaya to have a really long lifespan so the human friends she makes get older faster and also die way before her :) ina's gunna hurt me with the bug aliens then i'm going to… continue to hurt myself with more alien life span stuff.)

Anyways, With TenKyou, idk I think it's easy to paint tenma as the innocent ~pure baby~ and kyousuke as ~bad boy~ bc of the first inago… and seed kyousuke was a little bastard man (affectionate). which would idk explain the default to kyouten. but like kyousuke chills the hell out in chrono stone and galaxy. and just bc tenma is a dumbass with a heart of gold obsessed with soccer doesn't necessarily mean he's has to be ~innocent baby 受け~ trope. (not that these are the only tropes that decide) (maybe it's bc i sort of like messing with what it must be like to be the main protagonists best friend and watch him continue to overcome everything and be in the spot light and how everyone praises him. kyousuke with self-esteem issues, looking back at all the problems he's caused, tenma has flaws but they're either negligible or something to love about him and mine have only hurt others. disregarding his own goddamn plot armor in the past. complex, emotional, suffering kyousuke is how i like my kyousuke. need we even get into how god eden was canonically revealed to be physically/mentally abusing seeds and that whole can of worms) (also just "nervous baby i don't know how to approach tenma" kyousuke, "cheeky little shit doesn't have any regards to personal space and boundries" tenma) at least if anyone starts giving me shit about an ina ship or problematic fictional ina content, i can always respond with something i drew back in 2015.

back to the matter of new snap though… that line is so familiar (im pretty sure it's in the eng txt, i have it set to jpn audio tho). i recently started keeping a log of the messages that pop up on the camp, lab, and map screens (but haven't saved too many bc i get distracted or at least i know i'm missing quite a few i have vague memories of). (also idk why my first thought to that line was mirror responding with "That was because you were the one calling me that.") there actually were a couple messages i saved initially that would be useful for fic writing:

Todd: "The professor used to be kinda reckless back in the day. I suppose after 10 year he must've calmed down a bit."

and

Mirror: "Todd's calmed down since I last saw him. Or maybe he's just acting mature because you kids are around…"

possible implications from these that I'm deciding to consider for headcanons:

both reckless and wild in their early 20's but that's not unusual, so they were acting like reckless young adults when they were 20. makes sense.

because mirror mentions the last time i saw him (which is definitely implied not 10 years ago since todd had a research team pin so obviously he's been around a bit since the lab was established) meaning todd is potentially still a chaotic bastard but is just trying to act like an adult in front of the kids. beautiful.

and on that note another wonderful Tood message:

Todd: "I never invited Phil to be my pupil—he just declared himself my "number one student" and started tagging along! But honestly…I was kind of flattered."

the possibility that when todd showed up in game, after that cutscene he went to talk to mirror like "this 10 year old just started following me and wont go away, pls help. what do i do?????"

this unsupervised 10 year old just followed a ~30 year old man into the wilderness and somehow just declares todd is mentor (and took the research team pin from todd to ''borrow''). this is a hostage situation. todd is the hostage.

the idea that perhaps todd just got back from a long expedition and was glad to be back and spend time with mirror, except this kid started following him around and wont leave him alone or go away, and then when he got to the lab there were two more kids there. how the fuck am i supposed to get it on with mirror when we have little alone time and when we finally do we're constantly at risk of being interrupted and/or walked-in on. (that last part was mainly the premise of the fic i wanted to write. "these kids are a handful how are we supposed to have intimate time. especially bc they're all so young and have child energy levels and when they go to bed i am already fucking exhausted." i'm thinking it might work better as like a drabble collection, that way i don't have to adhere to a plot line and can pick and choose scenarios to write because i keep winding up with more scenario ideas that i can nearly piece together into a coherent timeline anymore.)

(also a bit that rita becomes suspicious that they are 100% fu.cking even though all that happened was mirror wasn't asleep up in his bed above the lab and fell asleep in one of the bungalows w/todd and then tried to cover it up like haha what no, i was checking on todd he's not feeling well uh… what? where are my pants? oh. oh i can't believe i just totally got out of bed and left the lab without my pants haha.) (todd and mirror just trying to keep their relationship a secrete out of fear of rumors spreading and it affecting the lab's funding, even though rumors definitely started ages ago but neither of them realize). (also todd doesn't trust phil to keep his mouth shut and doesn't like the optics of the random 10 year old who started following him (UNSUPERVISED) just blabbing to his parents about how his cool mentor is dating the professor at the lab like yikes that could end badly worst case scenario.)

(i like the idea of mirror playing along with todd's ki.nk, albeit a little awkward sometimes (not very good at being intentionally 'sexy' about it, but that's not what todd wants anyways bc it's already inherenty sexy for him). Phill has a message "I barely get half the stuff the professor talks about. Do you?" and i can only image if he said that to todd

todd: （人*´∀｀）i know it's hot

phil: what)

anyways i hope you don't mind me rambling even more on your asks like this. last time i totally just cut chunks out to be smaller but this time… i'm going to leave things in rip.

[troofless]

BNHA semi romantic/platonic bkdk Steelheart AU time!

Basically if you haven’t read Steelheart by Brandon Sanderson it’s set in a semi-post-apocalyptic world where one day a giant firey star (Calamity) appeared in the sky and gave a few people superpowers. These people, now called Epics, got drunk on their powers to the point of extreme arrogance. They would start fights with other Epics for the right to rule cities and kill humans if it suited their whims bc they thought normal humans were underneath them. Epics are treated with extreme reverence and terror bc of the massive powers they wield.

Epics can be classified into Lesser and High Epics, the difference being High Epics have an additional superpower (called prime invincibility) that make them almost impossible to kill eg Invincibility (impenetrable skin), Self-Reincarnation, Regeneration, Precognition. Epics can have more than one superpower.

However Epics are possible to kill when you target their sole weakness (fear), usually stemming from past trauma eg drowning to death bc past trauma of drowning in a lake etc etc.

>> Main plot of the trilogy is how this dude joins the Resistance (called Reckoners) to kill Epics and save humanity and maybe find the truth about humanity along the way.

Izuku takes p much the same role bc like David instead of a hero otaku he’s a Epic otaku

His mother was killed by an Epic but he still believes in the inner goodness of Epics (for a certain number of reasons), but agrees that most Epics are doing it wrong and should be killed to save innocent people who are suffering

Yeah he tells everyone his intensive research into Epics is p much a hobby bc when he was young he really wanted to be an Epic to save people and that’s why he started keeping notes and it’s just a habit now

Anyway the story starts with him tracking down a High Epic to track down the Resistance bc he wants to join them, and there he meets Bakugou engaging in a fight w said High Epic which Izuku theorizes to be the Resistance’s next target

‘KACCHAN????!!??’

Izuku pops up out of nowhere and assists Bkg, they kill the High Epic and return to base where Izuku convinces them with sparkly eyes that can he join them?? Everyone is suspicious but then Bkg brings up Izuku’s nerd notes and grudgingly (very grudgingly) says that they would help a lot. Everyone immediately accepts Izuku into the fold.

Why does Bkg know about Izuku’s nerd notes? Izuku comments that he didn’t think Kacchan would remember, and reveals to everyone that they were childhood friends/classmates all the way to high school, when the Calamity happened and Bkg disappeared into the void

Anyway Bkg is furious at Izuku, w all the inferiority complexes and trauma being there, bla bla bla you know the drill all the edgy childhood ‘can you stand’ stuff happened in the past

But there’s a good reason why Bkg keeps Izuku at an arm’s length, trust me

Anyway the night Izuku is initiated into the Resistance he bumps into Bkg in the corridor and basically Bkg drags him into somewhere isolated and threatens him, saying if Izuku ever revealed his secret Bkg would kill him

Bc Bkg is an Epic

And Izuku knew this bc he was there in class when Bkg manifested his Epic explosion powers and burnt down his home, killing parents in the process. He may or may not have also burned down his high school and killed his classmates and tons of students, leaving Izuku as the sole survivor

Bkg’s powers: Explosion, superhuman reflexes (though he keeps telling everyone that he was born talented like that bc Bkg FLEXES). Technically his powers classify him as a Lesser bc he doesn’t have prime invincibility (or so he says) but the multi-usage of his one (1) epic power kinda make him one. He indirectly gains flight (explosions…), mini bursts lasers (useful for lockpicking, or so he says), and other useful stuff. Bkg is Bkg, basically.

But like in this AU Bkg hates his powers for good reason too (being a bipolar mass murderer fucking sucks), and pretty much live in denial that they exist. Uses mainly guns and cc gun kata, but can handle sniper rifles. Has a soft spot for machine guns but hates using explosives and is queasy when Ashido tries to get him a rocket launcher (ROCKET LAUNCHER!!!!). Funnily enough he is voted by everyone to be Person Least Likely To Be An Epic In Disguise bc though he has the personality of an Epic (extreme hubris), they theorise he would long have acted on his impulse to kill everyone (extreme compulsion to boast reason for said hubris), but he hasn’t, so he can’t be an Epic

Todoroki’s conspiracy theory is that he’s an Epic’s lovechild explaining his intense hatred for Epics and revulsion for being compared to having the personality of one

Anyway they plot to kill the Big Boss of the city! Which will be *spins wheel* Mirio (Epic name Lemillion)(bc you know. he’s killed millions of people) with *throws dart* Dabi and Toga (interns from another city of Epics ruled by AFO/Shiggy), Tokoyami, Asui, and Iida as subordinate Epics

Amajiki, Nejire and Nighteye were killed by Mirio’s hands in this AU bc extreme hubris :))) Also Mirio has the history of killing Overhaul, the previous ruler of the city

Mirio has the power of permeability, super reflexes and dexterity, and teleportation (the gist of it is that he was OP just like he was in the original world)(Overhaul was right in nerfing Mirio he is too strong)

Izuku knows Mirio and Nighteye but keeps that a secret, but he does share w everyone his theory that after studying his fight w Overhaul he thinks Mirio’s weakness is indirect attacks (when he shielded a little girl from a bullet he bled from it). Izuku knows this bc he saw Mirio in the aftermath, but he doesn’t tell anyone that and says he got that from studying old camera footage that Mirio destroyed a few days after the fight bc he got corrupted and took over the city

The plot is p much them plotting to assassinate Mirio and his henchman (luring him out? infiltration? both??) and saving the city in the process

There is of course arguments against this saying the city would collapse w/o the protection of the super powerful High Epic Mirio but they agree it’s for the best that he dies (insert recent incident of unstable Mirio destroy stuff)

Ppl in the Resistance: Aizawa (leader of branch Resistance in current city), Yaoyorozu (second in command, in charge of making plans and intel), Todoroki (ops guy? normal dude), Uraraka (sniper), Kirishima (support w Bkg), Kaminari (mechanic and support) and Ashido (in charge of weapons stocking and uncertified medic whose solution to everything is duct tape and staples)

Endeavour is a morally grey High Epic ruling another city in this AU (he’s p chill here actually he doesn’t kill anyone and protects the people from other Epic attacks), Todoroki left and joined the Resistance and denies having any connection w Endeavour bc dad issues

All Might is the legendary Epic who never got corrupted, but disappeared one day and was never seen again, everyone assumes he’s dead

Anyway they lure the subordinate Epics individually and kill them

Throughout the whole story Izuku and Bkg are always at odds w each other so to shut them up Aizawa puts them on a mission to kill like one of the more powerful subordinate Epics

Everyone: WHAT

There are some people arguing that Izuku hasn’t proven himself to be exactly trustworthy yet but Aizawa argues that the person who would keep the closest eye on Izuku and not hesitate to kill him would be Bkg (jokes on you bc this is bkdk but anyway) and hence Bkg and Izuku would be a great pair for the mission

Although we all know like Aizawa knows that it’s just UST and he pairs them up to make them solve their previous trauma issues

They get into a scuffle before, during and after the mission bc they are that disaster duo

They definitely fail the mission and Bkg has to resort to using his Epic powers to bail them out

Bkg becomes more short tempered than usual bc of that

Also they have a lot of witty banter throughout the entire thing, before Bkg withdraws into his tsun shell again (there is no dere Bkg is wholly tsun)

Note that their relationship is still rocky, no Deku v Kacchan 2 yet but at the point of let’s say Final Exams Arc, where they grudgingly accept that they would work together for their shared goal

Anyway one day the subordinate Epics aka Dabi and Toga sniff out their hideout and appear and knock Bkg out and capture him. They reveal that they noticed that Bkg was an Epic and when they told Shiggy he told them to capture Bkg so they could convert him to the dark side. Meanwhile subplot of Toga getting trashed by absolute eight pack abs Uraraka

They tell him if they want to save Bkg they have to surrender and bring their leader to see Mirio at a specified location

(of course the interns’ goal is to make the Resistance and Mirio take each other out like Yakuza Arc style)

Izuku kinda loses it and wants to go rescue Bkg, but Aizawa says Bkg would have told them to go ahead w the plan to assassinate Mirio and not care for his safety as a hostage

(Izuku. Although Bkg doesn’t have prime invincibility he is still an Epic, he won’t die that easily…)

Anyway they kill Mirio in a fight, and once Izuku sees Mirio is dead he nyooms straight for Bkg’s location w Uraraka, Kirishima, Todoroki (everyone else is incapacitated)

They find Dabi and Toga there trying to corrupt Bkg (they ignored Mirio’s order to kill Bkg once the Resistance attacked bc have their own agenda remember), and they save him (damn Bkg why you Princess Peach like this)

Yaoyorozu arrives with backup and distracts them long enough to regroup, but Twice appears to bail Toga and Dabi out when Mirio dies, and they escape the city through Kurogiri

The building/ship on an ocean/underground base (idk haven’t fixed a location) is on fire and Yaoyozoru orders everyone to escape, but the falling rocks separate everyone as she says that

Izuku and Bkg both hobble out, but ha ha guess what Bkg’s weakness is?

If you said fire you are 100% correct

Anyway Bkg kinda freaks out bc he’s useless in situations involving fires (both w his usage of Epic powers and his fear) and kinda faints, and so Izuku, now all alone in the fires, whispers to Bkg ‘hey remember during one of our fights you accused me of keeping secrets from you bc you thought that was my way of looking down on you? well here is my secret and well on the 1/10000th chance that you’re still conscious and almost-but-not-really-delirious I’m deciding to share my secret with YOU’

And here is plot twist number 420 of the day: Izuku is an Epic.

Anyway Izuku busts out of the hideout with his super strength and gets them out of there safely. He hands Bkg to their medic Ashido who staples him up JJBA Fugo-to-Mista style and pronounces him Good to Go

The city celebrates and Aizawa takes control by saying the city is now under the protection of Endeavour (bc Endeavour is a High Epic who is secretly collaborating w the Resistance to end other Epics bla bla insert real life political examples about how to correctly go about revolutionising an entire city)

Anyway a day after the aftermath Bkg pulls Izuku aside and confronts him w his suspicions bc although he was unconscious there was no way Izuku busted them out of there w/o a superpower.

Also Izuku is a bad liar and he has been hinting w his actions throughout the entire plot like telling Kacchan that he has been entrusted with the hopes and dreams of a better future after one of their fights (but from WHO?? and entrusted with WHAT exactly???) and also Izuku accidentally bending forks in his stress and when someone calls him out he panics and calls them magic tricks or smth, or the time there was an event where they visited the market for weapons and he witness a slave ring selling kids for unpaid labour and when he thought no one was looking when he went out in the middle of the night and destroyed their hideout with one stomp but the next day they see it in the news and think it was a small earthquake (upon hearing that Izuku breathes a small sigh of relief, someone comments he must be relieved that the kids don’t have to suffer anymore right? and Izuku is like Yeah! That is Totally What I Was Thinking About And Not The Fact That I Am Afraid Of Having My Epic Powers Found Out And Subsequently Lynched) idk small foreshadowing stuff like that throughout the entire plot ok

Bkg is like dude. is this the reason why you’re so agreeable to keeping my Epic powers secret?! bc you too have powers and were looking down on me??! (Deku v Kacchan 2: Electric Boogaloo)

Izuku’s powers, inherited from All Might before he died a peaceful death: Gifting (permanently, or for a short period of time), Super strength and dexterity (but not reflexes), Minor prediction powers (though Izuku claims that is his own skill and not part of his Epic powers). Izuku is also, unexplainably, unable to be corrupted by his powers

Izuku’s fear is being powerless to act, which is why watching helplessly as Kacchan was kidnapped hit him particularly hard, but he overcame that which also alludes to his 100 level mental strength to resist corruption

Bkg, whispering: Holy shit.

Anyway the main story ends there with a hint of part 2 where they solve the mystery of OFA/AFO (where Calamity occured when AFO appeared and gave everyone powers to watch the world destroy itself for fun, and the only way to make the Calamity disappear and return sanity to the Epics is to *insert plot mechanic I have not figured out yet which has to do with Izuku’s OFA power* *or maybe it’s just as simple as killing AFO and Shiggy. idk*)

Hawks would appear in part 2 as an insider agent who recons w the Resistance at the start of part 2 and gives them intel on how to kill Shiggy. He is a normal person.

But the start of the start of part 2 definitely starts w Bkg and Izuku in chains in some kind of prison in an Epic hideout in another city. Bc Izuku tripped and fell while doing parkour during their mission. (Bc Bkg was forcing Izuku to train his usage of Epic powers bc more firepower is good in fights in the future!!!) While Epic who captured them is having a turf war with another Epic outside they do a prison break showing their pretty competent relationship now (and yeah both of them are too emotionally stunted have a relationship)

i’m sorry there is 0 continuity in this plot i wrote this at 1am while delirious and hungry please take it and leave