#i gotta switch into sarenrae mode now for downfall

[cringefaecompilation]

i dunno, man.

i guess maybe back in episode 34 we didn't have as much fearne lore as we do now. how could you be so incurious, though? why didn't anyone question why fearne seemed to instantly go to a hellish inverted feywild or what that could mean for her? why are we only now realizing that being killed by otohan was traumatic for her too? like fearne wasn't just traumatized by watching both laudna and orym die and how that probably might've tied into her outburst at ashton when she killed him on accident? how about having to choose between them over and over again in life or death scenarios? and not just them, but being pressured and guilt-tripped into bad scenario after bad scenario over and over again that she's basically told to suck it up for the greater good? and she still keeps a brave happy face through it all? and the fandom rewards her by refusing to talk about her depth and only using her for shipping content or getting angry at her for being "selfish and impulsive" and it drives me fucking insane?

idk!! idk!!!!