#i gotta go get my 2 hrs of rest rn but when i wake up i'll be working on this dw
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illegiblehandwriting1 · 1 year ago
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fuck it *switches ch17 and ch18*
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ghost-town-story · 5 years ago
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... The more I sit here and am allowed to think, the more pissed off and upset I get
Rant blog status reinstated!
So firstly, I’m not happy about getting kicked off campus. But social distancing shit, whatever I guess, whatcha gonna do. 
But no. My fucking mother takes the goddamned fucking cake rn. 
We got the email about being kicked off around 4 pm eastern time, Monday. My mother. This fucking woman. Calls me and insists I pack my stuff and get off campus by Tuesday morning. Packing is normally at least a few days ordeal, especially since I hate packing and it always stresses me out a bunch. But done in little spurts, okay I guess, more doable. 
But noooo I have to get out by Tuesday. Fucking. Morning. And this woman actually has the gall, the fucking gall to halfheartedly suggest I start out Monday evening since I’ve gone nocturnal. 
I tried to tell her there’s no fucking way, but she wouldn’t fucking listen. So she hangs up, and I go down the hall bc I desperately need a hug by this point, and she’s a sweetheart but the only roommate available is a gangly skinny girl and not the type of hugs I need. (really, boyfriend would be ideal, but at the time he was in Colorado visiting his sister). And I end up breaking down on huggin friend’s couch bc I hate packing, and I don’t feel like I can pack up a year’s worth of shit in about 12 hours. 
Mom eventually calls me again, mostly just to tell me “yeah you need to pack up and get back tonight, your roommate can grab the 1-2 bins remaining.” And she refuses to listen to me saying “hey, it’s a solid 2 loads in my car, it’s not gonna be 1-2 bins”  “But it fit all in your first car!” “My first car was a fuckin beast, literally the largest car in the lot freshman year. Fred is definitely shorter, definitely less trunk space, etc.”  “Well Y can get the last few bins.” “It’s a lot of stuff!” “It won’t be that much” JUST FUCKING LISTEN YOU PIECE OF SHIT FFS
I was so stressed and crying that huggin friend stole my phone when I was texting my boyfriend, and had him call me so I could maybe stop crying. I miss my boy. Hearing him was good tho.
I’m packing up my stuff in the bathroom when I remember. I store my empty bins at my brother’s place (2 hrs north). I double check with him and call my mom back “I can’t leave tomorrow. It’s too much to pack, and some of my bins are at Brother’s.”  Despite all this, despite me literally breaking down and crying on the phone, she refuses to listen, to give me an extra day, to bring half my stuff up to my brother’s (and therefore eliminate most of the need to have my roommate take my stuff) and grab my extra bins. Nope, gotta get out.
I was staring at my room, halfheartedly packing and trying to figure out, and just sobbing out loud. I thought remaining roommate was gone at dinner, otherwise I would have tried to be quiet. But she had gotten back without me noticing, and when she poked her head in, I couldn’t do it anymore and just kinda. Fell to the ground crying and apologizing. She’s a such a sweetheart and I feel bad for probably worrying her (and possibly waking her up in the middle of the night with packing noises)
I texted my roommate about this. She basically said, “Wtf, what she’s asking isn’t possible.”
Same thing from my boyfriend. 
My mom kept texting me, asking how things were going, basically ignoring my subtle requests for more fucking time. At one point she said “Hang in there”. I sent a screenshot of that to my roommate and boyfriend and asked, “Is murder acceptable?” Roommate said a solid yes. Boyfriend offered to let me live with him. (cept 2 hour parking and I already got one ticket from that :P)
Mom texted around 10 pm, asking if things were fitting in the car. I wasn’t even remotely to the point of packing the car. I was basically at break number 2 of mandatory “sit down, have something to eat, and rehydrate after crying so damn much”. I think I had one bin completely done (out of what ended up being like. 6 bins? plus assorted bags n stuff) and was mostly done packing my clothes, but like. slow going. Especially when packing is stressful and you keep getting overwhelmed woot woot
I put off a fair number of things bc of panicking about time and simple emotional capability to do so. Sorting out my dishes, unlofting my bed, grabbing my band shit from the music hall across campus.
At some point in the night, I had to lay down, because my body decided “hey, you know what would be great right now? Period cramps, minus the blood.” Which, thank fuck minus the blood, but also it meant I had to spend a solid half hour/hour out of commission bc it hurt so damn much to walk around and try to pack. But I had to keep going, even though the pain came back when I stood up again.  
Mom texted me at 7 am if I’m awake. I hadn’t slept. 
We have housekeepers, and they got there around when I was finishing loading up. I stopped and chatted for a bit (nobody had told them what was going on), and nearly started crying again because it was just so damn shitty. Everything’s so damn shitty. 
So I got on the road at about 8 am, and get to driving for a bit, but about 1.5 hours in I’m doing bad. I can barely keep focused, despite drinking probably half a bottle of Mt. Dew by this point, so I pull into a rest stop and text my mom “Hey, I forgot my shampoo/conditioner/toothbrush stuff, and also I don’t think I can get home safe.”
Does my mother tell me to take a nap in that rest stop? Nope Does she tell me to find a hotel or motel there and take a nap/sleep and try again tomorrow? Nope Does she tell me I can go back to school, sleep through the day, and try again tomorrow? Ha ha fucking ha.
Nope. She calls me, and proceeds to tell me to keep driving, and that she’s going to stay on the phone with me so I don’t fall asleep. 
I yelled at her quite a few times, when she was being fucking stupid about all this shit. She had the fucking gall to be pissed that I pulled an all nighter, when that’s what was fucking necessary to meet her stupid fucking deadline. 
At one point, I made a new driving playlist so hopefully it would keep me awake better while I wasn’t on the phone (being serenaded... awake? by the lovely voice of Tilian lel (lots of DGD and his solo work on that playlist. Also ATL. Fuck yeah ATL. anywho)). And right after I made that, she ended up calling me before I was driving yet, and I rejected it bc I really wanted to finish my text to the dear bf, and then I started driving, thinking she’d call me back and chew me out for ignoring her, but surprisingly nope. So I just jam out for a bit, and eventually start yelling at myself bc of dumb writing ideas (the original story rewrite... lol) and I end up texting my roommate (while driving... shh) “Hey, feel free to call me if you want to hear me ramble on about writing” So after a short phone call from mum where she hung up to let me drive through a city, roommate calls, and I end up spending the last few hours of my drive rambling at her and mutually bitching about the shitty situation this leaves us in. 
When I get home, my dad (a doctor) is wearing a mask, apparently at my mother’s request. He also mentions that we probably shouldn’t be in the same room, according to her. I am also forced to strip everything and shower basically immediately. K, fine, I do so, Dad makes me dinner (despite Mom’s probable disapproval), and I stay awake just long enough to toss my laundry in the dryer. It was a close thing tho. I nearly fell asleep waiting for the washer to finish. And so I pass out at 8 pm central time (9 pm eastern)
Mom, during all this, has fucked off Up North to our cabin, my final destination.
Wednesday, Mom makes me leave our place in the Cities at 11 am to get up before weather gets worse and all that jazz. Once here, I’m allowed freedom for as long as it takes to help mother move shit so I can fit my car inside a garage, then I take the bare minimum inside (my electronics, stuff that would explode if frozen (like pop (and my Smirnoff Ices shh)), travel toothbrush I somehow have and hairbrush), and I’m immediately quarantined to my room and the bathroom down the hall. 
So here I fucking am. Bored as shit and pissed the hell off
I needed more time. But no fucking way Mom was going to let that happen. 
I could have gone up to my brother’s. But noooo I had to come all the fucking way home, only to be shoved in a room for two weeks.
I could have taken care of all/most of my shit by my fucking self (dishes are debatable, would need basically the whole apartment to sort those out), but nope, can’t take enough time to take a trip up to my brother’s apartment 2 hours away, no way.
Nope, instead I have to suffer a panic attack for basically 16 hours, then nearly kill myself driving, because I can’t stay one fucking day more, because I have to get my ass up here just to be basically shoved in a room and left alone for 2 goddamned weeks. Nope. Can’t fucking make sure that moving out, usually stressful on its own, is as calm as we can make it in these trying times. Nope. Gotta just fucking nearly kill the kiddo instead to comply with my stupid whims because I can’t fucking listen
I’m pissed.
Especially since I was almost 100% sure I was gonna block her everywhere and go full no contact with this bitch after college.
But now I’m stuck here for the foreseeable future! Yay! Can’t see that going badly! 
(I’ve already texted the anonymemers to call me so I don’t go crazy and actually punch her. We’ll see how that goes. The desire has been kinda strong all afternoon.)
Fuck
This
Shit
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kenshiliker · 7 years ago
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mcfuck load of things i was tagged in going here thanks everyone that tagged me & im sorry for this Entire Mess
Also I was tagged in 3 different things that have like similar fuckign questions so im jst gonna stick them all into 1 tag bc if not you’d have me repeating my damn names 18 times and thts no fun for Anyone)
Meet the blogger meme (Tagged by @bodhierso, thank u ark!! @woehuxbub tHJANKS FAMTHER & @orsonkraennic)
i. name:  徐
ii. nickname: OH LORD I HAVE SO MANY um I’ll just put the main ones; Brucie, Jerry, Tiaan, King Dickard II
iii. zodiac sign: Sagittarius / Dragon (Chinese Zodiac)
iv. height: ??? UH I think 160 cm the last I measured but I’m not sure. Over 5′3″ iirc.
v. orientation: Ace (the helpful place)
vi. ethnicity: Chinese 
vii. favorite fruit: Orange, Strawberry and Banana, L E M O N (u fucKIGN COWARDS)
viii. favorite season: Autumn/Winter but I’m stuck in hell so guess I’ll Die
ix. favorite book / book series: I don’t read many books but I like Shakespeare’s stuff & also Sherlock Holmes
x. favorite flower: Hibiscus rosa-sinensis (this is as patriotic as I get tbh), PLANTA GENISTA
xi. favorite scent: Nothing too strong or I’ll feel nauseous. Maybe a soft vanilla? ...And maybe orange. Or Lemon.
xii. favorite color: ORANGE (funny story is that my dad’s fav colour was orange and I decided to project frm a young age and wow guess what Orange has been my fav colour ever since), White, Black, Blue, Red
xiii. coffee, tea or cocoa: T e a slorp slorp
xiv. average sleep hours: Depends on what I have planned the next day. Lately (due to exam month) it’s been about 5 hrs per week so guess I’ll die
xv. cat or dog person: I like both as long as I’m not being chased
xvi. favorite fictional characters: ghhh Bruce Wayne, Tiaan Jerjerrod, Illya Kuryakin, B.J. Hunnicutt, Freddy Newandyke, Cal Lightman, (and Duke of Aumerle & Richard II if they count,,, hte Shookspeare version)
xvii. dream trip: UK,,, Get Me Out Of Here, 
xviii. blogs created: 4 (This one, TMFU blog, Secret Shakespeare Blog & Secret Art Blog) (I haven’t posted on the latter two) (That’s why they’re a ‘secret’)
xix. number of followers: 940 here (how even the Fuck) & 1582 on the TMFU blog.
xx.  random fact: I recently sat on the hard wood floor for 10 hours straight (s/o to you if you remember this) and felt myself just physically shrivel up and die. I literally hurt everywhere bc if I wasn’t sitting down, I was laying on the ground and gOD It took me a week to feel better but yeah god 11/10 would not recommend
xxi. number of blankets you sleep with: There’s like 4 on my bed lmao I’M LIVING
xxii.  blog created: I’ve had a tumblr since like... 2010 and I didn’t really use it until 2012, 2013 was my first year I was really active
xxiii. nationality: Malaysian
Tagged by Krenny again, to answer all these questions, and then tag 15 people 5 things you’ll find in my bag: SUPERMAN WALLET, Phone, Powerbank + Cable, Earphones, Art Supplies
5 things you’ll find in my bedroom: 5000 Stuffed Animals, DC shit, SW garb, The decapitated head of Jar Jar Binks that greets the visitors, Convention merch (+4 GAY REALLY FUCKING GAY, SO GAY THAT IF MY PARENTS FOUND THEM I’D BE FUCKING DEAD, fanbooks of TMFU which are in Chinese, sent by my lovely Internet Sister)
5 things I’ve always wanted to do: Get some air-dry paper clay and make tiny sculptures or something, learn how to paint properly, have nice handwriting, visit the UK again, WATCH A PLAY
5 things that make me happy: My unhealthy coping mechanisms, my favs, my friends!!, drawing (sometimes), reading/learning about something I’m interested in
5 things I’m currently into: TIM ROTH, LIE TO ME, Shakespeare, Star Wars, DC
5 things on my to do list: Get good fuckin grades for once in my damn life aye, finish watching Lie To Me, finish reading As You Like It and Othello, finish the school year & be done with it for the rest of my life, memorise all the experiments for the physics syllabus by Thursday if not my teacher will literally grill me
and lastly, tagged by @bunn1cula​ and Krenny again! Thank u two am loaf the both of u,
the last
1. drink: water 2. phone call: irl friend that is saved as ‘Mr. Pink’ in my phone (as per their request fhghg) 3. text message: ‘👌👌’ or if chats count then:
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4. song you listened to: HOOKED ON A FEELING 5. time you cried: Yesterday while watching Lie To Me 6. dated someone twice: Nooooot yet 7. kissed someone and regretted it: NOT FOR ME THnks 8. been cheated on: ?? I don’t know. Probably not. 9. lost someone special: Yes 10. been depressed: Yeah, still am, but I think it’s not so bad nowadays (hopefully). 11. got drunk and thrown up: Never
3 favourite colours
12. Orange 13. White 14. Black
in the last year have you
15. made new friends: Yeah, definitely!  16. fallen out of love: NOT YET BUT MAYBE SOON 17. laughed until you cried: GOD A HECK OF A LOT OF TIMES 18. found out someone was talking about you: No, not really. I mean, there’s an asshole in my class that loves talking shit about me but I honestly don’t give a fuck about him he’s Irrelavant. 19. met someone who changed you: I don’t really know,,, I think I’m still the same? 20. found out who your friends are: I’ve never really had an issue with anyone, really. Maybe except one or two people, but yeah, the rest of y’all are alright. 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: NO
general
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: About 60/93 of them. I plan to boot a ton of them after I graduate tho. 23. do you have any pets: UNFORTUNATELY NO but I’d love a cat 24. do you want to change your name: UM SURE I mean it’d be kinda nice bc I hate when people I hate tainted my name by calling it, so yea, Yes 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I don’t think I did anything at all. 26. what time did you wake up: 6.30 a.m. (gotta love tht School Life) 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: ,,,Watching Lie To Me, reading fics instead of studying for my exam, 28. name something you can’t wait for: GRADUATING and getting tf outta here. 29. when was the last time you saw your mum: Last night ghghg 31. what are you listening to right now: Stuck In The Middle With You 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I was the person named Tom once, so, yes. 33. something that is getting on your nerves: My shitty fucking class/school. 34. most visited website: Tumblr, YouTube 35. hair colour: Dark brown 36. long or short hair: Short! 37. do you have a crush on someone: Mnnn 50/50 38. what do you like about yourself: I’m kinda sorta funny & I can draw sometimes 39. piercings: None 40. blood type: A+ 41. nickname: Jerry, Brucie, Tiaan, King Dickard II 42. relationship status: Single & That’s Alrighty 43. zodiac: Sagittarius 44. pronouns: He/Him or They/Them 45. favourite tv show: RN IT’S LIE TO ME (TIM ROTH COULD FUCKIGNG LIE TO ME RIGHT IN MY FACE & I’D BE LIKE WOW UR TELLIGN THE TRUTH I BELIEVE IN U), but I also like M*A*S*H, The Man From U.N.C.L.E. and The Twilight Zone 46. tattoos: I idon’t really want any! 47. right or left handed: Right
first
48. surgery: None to my knowledge, or maybe a few when I was super young bc my moves (lungs) are weak babe 49. piercing: None (my mom keeps trying to get me to pierce my ear but it’s not my thing, & also if I do get it i’ll only get one and it’ll be the Gay Ear) 50. sport: Football, I think? In any case, I’m bomb as hell at getting hit in the fucking head by the sports balls.  51. vacation: London or Australia iirc 52. pair of trainers: I don’t remember either, I can barely remember anything from 2016.
more general
53. eating: Nothing at the moment 54. drinking: Water 55. i’m about to: Nap or watch Lie To Me (I haven’t decided) 56. waiting for: My exams to be over 57. want: Nothing at the moment 58. get married: Sure? I’m not really opposed to marriage as a whole, but if it starts getting yikes you bet your ass I’m gonna fucking bounce 59. career: I don’t have a career rn but I’d like to do illustration/concept art it seems p cool. Either that or become a psychologist and charge people $30 for readings.
which is better
60. hugs or kisses: I don’t like either 61. lips or eyes: Eyes 62. shorter or taller: I don’t really care. I love both short girls and guys (@tiM), and tall girls and guys are just as good! 63. older or younger: Doesn’t really matter to me either. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: Also doesn’t really matter but if ur arms are good I’m definitely eyes emoji af 65. hook up or relationship: Relationship. 66. troublemaker or hesitant: See, I’d say hesitant but I don’t really know that either. Just as long as you’re not doing some stupid shit we’re good.
have you ever
67. kissed a stranger: No 68. drank hard liquor: Nope.. Well, not to my knowledge. 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t wear either ghgng 70. turned someone down: No 71. sex on the first date: N O 72. broken someone’s heart: UH Yeah when I was 13 (how even the fucK.) 73. had your heart broken: yEP 74. been arrested: Never bc I’m a cop, Larry 75. cried when someone died: Yes. I’m okay throughout the funeral but the minute it registers that I’m never gonna see them again, I’m gooooone af. Even if I didn’t particularly like the person when they were alive. 76. fallen for a friend: YEAH!!! But it’s usually one of those new-friend crushes sourry.
do you believe in
77. yourself: I mean, Sometimes. It’s like... Can I do it? Most Likely. Did I do it correctly? Most Likely Not. 78. miracles: Not really, no. 79. love at first sight: Yeah, sure, I mean everyone’s different, so who’s to say just because I don’t feel it someone else doesn’t. 80. santa claus: No way my dude 81. kiss on the first date: Depends bc at mY AGE I’m not boutta put my face anywhere near someone else’s thts jst weird 82. angels: Mayhaps,,,, I don’t believe that they don’t exist, if that makes sense.
other
83. current best friend’s name: Mmmnnnn Kylogram (Kyle Ron), maybe? I’ve a few best friends. 84. eye colour: Dark brown, they look kinda nice in the sun I guess. 85. favourite movie: RESERVOIR DOGS, Four Rooms, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead, The Lion in Winter, TMFU, Wonder Woman, ROTJ, Indiana Jones and The Last Crusade
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This is a big Mess, but yeA I’m tagging whoever was mentioned above & no one else bc this has gone on for long enough, to do the one you weren’t tagged in or hell do the first one if you want, bc that one is a compilation of like 3 different tag memes ghfh. Good bye u all.
(OH YEAH if ur a mutual/follower/whoEVER who sees this feel free to do if if you’d like!! Say I tagged you if you’d like to c:)
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trinispidey-blog · 7 years ago
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i was tagged by the amazing @strawberrydirt
rules: answer all the questions and tag 20 other blogs [ tagged at the end of the post ]
last:
1. drink: water ,, stay hydrated kids 2. phone call: mama 3. text message: mama as well 4. song you listened to: a message to you rudy - the specials 5. time you cried: i honestly dont know , im a p happy person ya no 6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope bc still have yet to kiss someone 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: sorta 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope im a child
3 favorite colors
12. blue 13. light brown 14. white
in the last year have you
15. made new friends: yess 16. fallen out of love: not rlly 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20. found out who your friends are: yesss i love my friendssss 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nope
general
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23. do you have any pets: i got 4 doggossssssss ,, i love dogs 24. do you want to change your name: no way , my names awesome 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went to the beach 26. what time did you wake up: 7:45 am today but usually 1-2 pm 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching cooking vids 28. name something you can’t wait for: get into a srs relationship (someone date me) 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: abt 2 hrs ago 31. what are you listening to right now: legend has it - run the jewels (its from the black panther trailer and its literal fUeGO) 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah 33. something that is getting on your nerves: cis white straight men 34. most visited website: ig, twitter, tumblr 35. hair color: brown 36. long or short hair: longg 37. do you have a crush on someone: not rlly 38. what do you like about yourself: im musically talented 39. piercings: nope, theyre weird 40. blood type: o 41. nickname: got a lot of em 42. relationship status: single as a pringle (again someone date me pls) 43. zodiac: aries aka best sign 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: rick and morty, game of thrones, brooklyn nine-nine, all the dc superhero shows 46. tattoos: none but would love to get one someday 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: elbow/arm 50. sport: FOOTBALLLLLLLLLLLL (or “soccer” for you americans smh its called football not soccer) 51. vacation: id love to go to greece, cambodia, iceland or visit italy again bc food is bOMB 52. pair of trainers: 1
MORE GENERAL
53. eating: nothing rn 54. drinking: water 55. I’m about to: sleep, ya homegirl needs her rest 56. waiting for: soMEONE to DAtE mE 57. want: to be loved 58. get married: maybe, mixed feelings abt it, id probably wanna get married if its the right person 59. career: film/tv director or film score composer
WHICH IS BETTER
60. hugs or kisses: both 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: shorter altho im kinda short myself 63. older or younger: both as long as the person’s not over 18 or under 14 lmao 64. nice arms or nice stomach: both omg 65. hookup or relationship: relationship pLS 66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesistant as fuck,,,,, i act like a badass but rlly im scared as shit
HAVE YOU EVER:
67. kissed a stranger: nope 68. drank hard liquor: nope 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: nope i take good care of my glasses 70. turned someone down: yeah 71. sex on the first date: idk 72. broken someone’s heart: yes 73. had your heart broken: major yES 74. been arrested: nope 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: ....yes..
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
77. yourself: kinda 78. miracles: yes 79. love at first sight: yES 80. santa claus: santas fucking real y’all 81. kiss on the first date: would be amazing if it ever happens to me 82. angels: kinda
OTHER:
84. eye color: rlly dark brown 85. favorite movie: power rangers, duh
@bikimberlys @kimberleystrini @kimberlyann @kimberlyharts-trini @trinisexual @pearparker @spideyslinger @amerlcachavez @zephyroh @trimberly @magikspidey @spriderman @brittanvers @rangers-walking
(that wasn’t 20 ppl but isokay rules are made to be broken,,, if youve already done it you dont gotta do it, if you dont wanna do it you dont gotta do it,,, i just wanna know a lil more about some of yall cus yall cool)
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foreverxdaydreaming · 7 years ago
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Turns out my dentist "doesn't do" sedation OR laughing gas, so I was 200% awake THE ENTIRE TIME... Yay. I was terrified, I cried before/during/after, but they were super sweet and patient with me, despite my strong ass gag reflex and crying/mini screams of pain (bottom 2 hurt like a mofo, top 2 just felt pressure tbh). ANYWAY, so like fuuuckkk bruh, I'm still in pain, and that shit was like 10 hrs ago😭👏🏻 Have to take antibiotics and painkillers, and use some special medicinal mouthwash shit bc I can't even brush my teeth ajshsjdj. Wisdom teeth are so mf useless istg. They're the appendix of teeth -.-; So yeah ALSO, funny story- and by funny I mean terrible- anesthesia squirted out of the needle and into my mouth (UH GROSS) a n d half of one of my teeth mf broke off and it flew into my throat (almost swallowed it fml). Since then I've just been chilling at home, binging Voltron s3 now that I finally have some time off (was busy for like a week straight coño). SO MUCH IS GOING ON HOOOLLYYYYY- and then need to catch up with Monsta Xray s2 (and RUN! BTS lolol I'm super behind there). But I can currently barely speak, and laughing hurts, so ima have to stick to serious > funny for the moment ;n; maybe I'll play some Pokémon Sun tmrw or smth, since I'm on bed rest this week and ish. So much for possibly going to se JJCC in Miami on Wednesday x_x not when I feel like this, fml. Can't even go on a second date for like another week lol gdi. He and one of my auras girlies plus mom's love and support are what reeaallyy helped me get thru today istg. esp bia (auras), oml she spammed me today with so many cute gifs and sweet msgs, bless her heart😭👏🏻💛❣ Also made dad buy me a wil plushie dragon, she's my recovery bby, lil beanie baby named Coral (I'll post a pic in a sec). I say made bc long story short, he made the appt and it's essentially his fault that I got stuck with just anesthesia vs sedation. Plus, plushie was on clearance for $2 so not like he lost much there😂 Ugh all I can eat is ice cream, pudding, jello, etc, drink water/juice/yogurt.... like what if I wanted nuggets or pasta or????😩😩 fuuhh it sucks it truly does;;;; --oh did I also forget to mention I have hella HELLA anxiety when it comes to dentists?? like thank GOD the place we go to now is super nice, bc I'm always shittin myself before appts. But they make convo to distract me and pet my head/play with my hair, let me take breaks, and then are all "she did such a good job, brave girl! you're kick ass for getting over it enough to be here! good luck with school- gosh she's so cute ao pretty- and brush/floss well!!" sO LIKE I STILL HATE GOING BUT THEY'RE SO CUTE THAT I DON'T MIND AS MUCH;;; --also the surgeon that removed em has my same last name pmsl. "We _'s are brave and strong, you'll be fine!" "I literally locked myself in the bathroom two minutes ago to cry before sitting in this chair....pls sir;;;" and he just laughed but was like "at least you're honest and hey you're still here! plus not many ppl can do all 4 at once so you're pretty badass for that!" SO BLESS YOU SIR FOR HELPING ME OUT THERE🙌🏻 good lord am I glad it's all over, I cannot WAIT. Also my therapist will be proud of me for getting this over with at long last😅😂 alrighty if I remember any more stories I'll rb and add, but for rn ima get back to Voltron. Prob gonna finish it tmrw bc I need to sleep soon, just gotta stay up long enough to take my meds....ugh have to wake up early to take the other pill, then knock out again hopefully until afternoon@.@ take care everyone!!💕💕 ..maybe I should finally update my stories again tmrw.....like SPICA q_q [ gifs = mood + goals *~*; ]
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