#i gotta find a new rabbi to sponser my conversion

[toastedpopsicle]

fucks me up how beautiful the world is and everyone in in it and how fucked up powerrful people have like doen immessurable harm to so many people who are my freidns and siblings and like there's so much beauty and kindness and immeasurable good in the world and I just get so fucked up that people like there are people who live on this world with it's people and decide that like the best course of action is to destroy and perver that beauty and kindness and weild power to exploit and dstroy and like how is any financial or social power worth looking at this gorgeous tiny little speck of beautiful light in an infitite emptiness and fucking like decideing to fucking destroy it. likte how can anyone with power live with themselves knowing that they're taking something perfect and incredible and beautiful and every beautiful thing that has been born of us and our lives and our incredible accoplmismt and fucking just like. decide that a number on a screen is more importatnt than allf of the incredible realized human people on this world. like there are more complete fully realized human experiences than any of us can conceptialsiosm and less than a single percentage of them have somehow accumulated the power to decide the fate of all of this increiible world and have fucking decicde that their personal grains are worth more than entiree human lives of literally wveryone else on the planet and like I don't belive in hell but that must be what hell is. thinking you're the single most important perons of billions. seeing the entire intrerconnected sytmthem of life and reality and deciding that t hyour

'e the single central point of all of it and you deservbe to decide the fates and lives of *billions* of other lives *hundres of billions of other lives* like every siungle one of of is a victim of single individuals with more power than any single being should ever have and like it fuicks me up that that's just happenings perople are letting it happe npeople are helping it happen when tyhey're allso victims of it. like therees not rational reason to belive in the sovrteignty or rights of these mosterous abberations who have deastroyed countless couinteless counteless lives and live in the upmost peak of compfort and luxury and like it just fills me bile and sickness and feels liks a perversion of the ideo of humanity like we''re the image of god and the fact that anyone can be so powerful and systemically cruel and look at humans and see pest s and vermin when even cockroaches are one of god perfect beautiful creations and deserve their slice of this glorious incredible irreplacable world that is for us all to share and shepard and protect and there are just poeple on it who think they're more important than anything else on this planet when we're all the same fucking miraculous life-slime formed into different shapes. and like even when and if you belive in alien life we're theonly earthlings and the only humans and we're a tiny little spark of somethingf incredibel and beautiful and anything anything that evven suggests at fucking extinguinshting that spark should be reviled and destroyed because that's t he only evil. seeing the tiny little spark in the vast emptyness that is the beauty of life and decinding that you['re more impoatant than that.