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[shadowedresolve]

There's a buzzing in Eri's stomach that's a mix of all kinds of feelings, almost impossible to fully identify together. The strongest, though, is undoubtedly nervousness - it's been plaguing her for hours now, ever since she decided that today was the day that she'd finally seek out Toshiro Kasukabe.

She knew she had to. Ever since she saw his broadcast on TV, and the way he pushed himself tirelessly to restart his campaign, regardless of what people had to say about him... somehow, it feels like something about him has changed. And maybe it's that change that finally pushed Eri herself forwards, giving her the courage to seek out the man who she still cares about so much.

He was always on her mind. Even when they fell out of contact... she never blamed him. How could she, when she'd caused him so much pain? Even if it hurt her when he stopped showing up... she knew that seeing her must've been something that hurt him even more. And besides, in the end, she made the choice not to contact him just as much as he had - it was a mutual choice that caused them to slowly drift apart.

But now she thinks maybe it was cowardice that kept her silent for so long. Yeah... she was scared. At first, it was fear that she'd be a burden on Toshiro, a constant reminder of the mistakes they'd made and the guilt he had to carry - but more selfishly than that, she thinks that she'd wanted to avoid him for herself too. He was a constant reminder of her trauma, her reckless attitude and the stupid choices she'd made; a reflection of the pain she'd caused by not thinking about how her path would affect anyone but her.

Over time, though, the fear changed. All at once... she was afraid of having to fight again. She feared his expectant gaze, and as shameful as she found it, she was scared of being expected to return to the same spirited girl she'd been in the past... it was nothing more than the fear of being hurt. Or maybe she feared that she'd get others hurt instead - after all, on that day, her confidence in the rightness of her own decisions and opinions took a hit that it's never truly recovered from.

...But she's letting herself get lost in thought. Right now, sitting across from Toshiro, the nervousness she feels hasn't gone away - and yet it almost feels too easy to slip back into the past and the way things used to be. It makes her happy. And... she's glad that she finally found the courage to take that step - to see him.

"What, got something on my face? All this attention is gonna make me blush!" Eri laughs, but she's clearly just teasing him. "Really, though, Toshiro... I'm just- so glad to see you again. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you for so long."

@quillheel ( starter for toshiro! )

[tia-amorosa]

Sunset Died - Bunch Family

New Hope

While the children are at school, the parents take care of the household. Minka the cat doesn't really have to do with that. She enjoys the warmth in the house and occasionally makes sure that her humans clean up after her.

After Jack had finished a few jobs around the house, he sat down at his laptop. But he didn't switch it on straight away. Because every time he did and checked his email, there was nothing there to help him. He would have liked to close the screen again, but a gut feeling led him not to do so this time.

Jack worked with the PC almost as if in a trance. It was the same routine as every day. He took a quick look at what was happening in the other cities and then went to his e-mail inbox. And today, once again, there were lots of fake emails and supposed competitions promising the blue sky. But in the midst of all these unnecessary emails, there was one from a familiar sender. Subject: “Is this true?”.

“Ju-Judy…"/ ‘What, are they trying to sell us a car again or give us some weight loss tips?’/ ‘No… Erin, she… she answered me…’. It almost hit Judy like a blow, she couldn't breathe or speak for a moment. She almost forgot about the food in the oven until she came back to her senses… “And… And what did she write?”.

“She writes… 'oh my God, Jack! I have to apologize for only being able to reply now. I've was macht on assignment with my team for a few months. What's more, your email didn't end up in my regular inbox, but in the spam folder, which I've coldly ignored until now.” Judy was too distracted by this message and took the precaution of getting the food out of the oven to continue cooking it later. “Unbelievable… read on…”.

“'Never in my life would I have thought that I would get a sign of life from you. Of course, I'm all the more pleased to hear that you and your family are doing well. I swear to you, I didn't know there were any survivors. Some things have been kept under wraps and are only now gradually coming to light. Judy listened spellbound.

“'I've only been back from my mission for two days and my team is pretty worn out. I'd like to give them a few more days to catch their breath, but then we'll be on our way to you straight away. Can you hold out that long? What about food? What else do you need? Please let me know'… Wow, she's got a team.” Jack was filled with joy and excitement

A huge knot that had been stuck in Judy's soul for what felt like an eternity loosened. “We're finally getting help. And she didn't even know anything?"/ ”Apparently not. I think we'll get an explanation for everything. Hhh, my God, in the spam folder… Is my email address that dubious?”. Judy's emotions fluctuated between crying, laughing and being relieved.

And Jack couldn't hold back his joy either. “haha, hey, don't cry, honey, they're going to help us."/ ”and sob how? Theyll have trouble getting here in a jeep…”. Jack couldn't help but grin mischievously “ooh, they have ways and means, believe me. Should I tell the others or let them stew a little longer?”. She saw a twinkle in his eye that she hadn't seen for a long time. But she just put her hands in front of her face, shook her head and cried the pressure of the last few months off her chest.

The news from Erin stoked the long-awaited hope you had all along. An emotional moment where you think you're alone. You hadn't even heard the front door… “Why… Why is mom crying?”/ “Arlo? You're home already?"/ ‘Yeah, today was just playing and talking, I didn't want to join in anymore’. For a brief moment, Jack and his wife didn't know whether to be angry with him or just laugh about it. They opted for the second.

“And don't worry, your mother is fine. She… she's just happy because we got good news"/ ‘good news, yes… and… what kind of news?’/ ‘we'll talk about that when your siblings are home’.

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@greenplumbboblover ⭐

Poses by @poses-by-bee , miss adrienne & jellyfish (cry baby)

[sugar-omi]

(swiftie asker) "he was the sweet lemonade you wanted for a summer but cove was the water you needed" OH OKAY. OH OKAY. YOU LITERALLY COULD'VE JUST TAKEN MY STILL BEATING HEART AND THROWN IT INTO A FOOD PROCESSOR AND IT WOULD'VE HURT LESS THAN THAT. WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK DUDE

the idea of baxter filling the "other woman" archetype is so bittersweet because he doesn't even show any hints that he's upset about it. he's just so very good at reassuring others that everything's fine, that the day is meant to be about them and that he's here to make their special day perfect. but who's going to be there for him? who's going to be more than just his summer love? who's going to realize they still love him in the fall?

reminds me of some of taylor's new music from ttpd ... fortnight (the first track) is such a baxter song because like . fleeting love? the one that got away? "thought of calling ya, but you won't pick up" referring to baxter ghosting mc for five years? "i took the miracle move-on drug; the effects were temporary" referring to baxter trying to make himself as temporary as possible so mc would forget about him easily - and it not working? "i love you, it's ruining my life"? "i touched you for only a fortnight"? "all of this to say, i hope you're okay - but you're the reason"? "and for a fortnight there, we were forever"???? i'm sorry but it's literally him.

ahhhh i don't mean to constantly send in walls of text but i've been a fan of yours for a long ass time and i'm so glad you like my silly little ideas!! i look up to you a lot as a writer so it makes me really happy that you're willing to entertain my thoughts haha

"who's going to realize they still love him in the fall" OH MY GOD.... just snatch my heart up n squeeze it omg...

that song is so him. i listened to it like 3 times and it's so HIM. also "i love you, it's ruining my life" is the best fucking way to describe how I FELT AFTER PLAYING BAXTER'S DLC. the pain, the way he delicately then cruelly rejects you when you ask for more.

that'd be exactly what he was trying to avoid. it's why he didn't go further with you in the cabin, and it's why he keeps up the appearance of someone put together and strong, mysterious and a whirlwind. so much so you can't put up with it for more than the summer.

gives you the glitter and flare of a summer fling, gives you fun and excitement but deprives you of the intimacy, dodges the sensitive questions...

but you're too kind. always reaching out for him, pulling him into your small world, and he's too much of a sucker. falls for your sweet smile, your insistence that he joins your friends or family for activities. falls for you insisting that you need him, that you like him...

jfc i cannot ramble again, if anything im the one yapping your ear off LMAO. please i can ramble about baxter for DAYS. i love him but this man is the perfect angst bank and i can drag on for ages...

and please don't worry about writing long messages, even if i take awhile to respond, i love reading em so much. i was actually looking forward to what you had to say about my last response lol <3

n plus you know much more about taylor swift than i do, and the songs n stuff better. i mean i do check the lyrics n associate em n associate songs n stuff but i love how enthusiastic you are, it's very refreshing to me 😊

and omg you're so kind... ngl i cried a bit LOL i've never had someone say they look up to me n i didn't expect that, that's very sweet and i'm glad i'm good enough to be inspiring, i'm very happy to hear that🥹🫶

n i'm more than happy to listen to everyones thoughts, i think everything yall have to say is worthwhile and it's like you pluck some things straight out of my brain too 😂 i wish i could spend all day answering yall's thoughts and stuff, i get excited seeing more asks even though i cannot respond quickly

so thank you for sharing your thoughts <3 i look forward to more, n don't be afraid to dm me!!! yall are too sweet, so feel free to ask me anything 🥰

[act-addict-actors-matchups]

@lcst-at-5ea said,

Could I have a matchup please? I'm kinda short, I have dark eyes and short, straight black hair in a pixie cut. I'm a pretty chill ambivert, and I like art! I like to think that I'm funny, haha, but I'm also a massive procrastinator. I don't really have a type, other than dumbasses. I love them. I LOVE cuddles!! I'm obsessed with pirates, and I like acting and mythology, and drawing. I'm a Taurus, a Ravenclaw, and I'm an INFP, I think. Also, I'm a minor!

✧ Thank you for requesting a matchup, love. Stay safe and positive! 💞

✧ WARNING: there will be spoilers about Tenma’s backstory in ‘How You Two First Met’ part. Read at your own risk.

I’d match you with: . . .

➜ HOW YOU TWO FIRST MET ; Your first encounter with each other was in your elementary school. You weren’t close with each other though. In fact, he didn’t even know you existed back then. You, on the other hand, knew the name Tenma Sumeragi. I mean, who wouldn’t? Even from such a young age, it was possible to see his face on TV. His acting abilities were far from normal for a boy in his age. From his gestures to his facial expressions to his voice, everything was as good as it could be. So, needless to say you were not surprised when you heard that he got a major role for his class’s play for the the school festival. Something you were very excited for. Not only you were going to be free from some of the classes, you’d also get to see a play. Basically two birds with one stone. Even from such a young age, you were interested in the art of acting. So it really wasn’t that surprising when your friends found themselves getting dragged to somewhere near the stage the school put out. You really wished your class would do a play too but sadly, that wasn’t the case. After a while, the play started and you found yourself getting sucked into the story. That was until a boy with orange hair got to the stage. Tenma Sumeragi, to be more exact. You’ve seen the movies he was in before so you excitedly waited for him to say his line, just like everybody else did. To your surprise though, he was standing still, his purple eyes full of fear and panic. The red curtains closed on the other children who were on stage, indicating that the play was not to continue. A disappointed sigh escaped from your lips as everyone around you started to murmur about the poor boys accident. If you haven’t clearly seen the look in Tenma’s eyes, you would be probably whining just like everyone else. You really didn’t want to leave the school without checking up on the boy so you ran towards one of the cotton candy stands, leaving your friends behind and confused, and purchased two fluffy, sweet confections. With both of your hands full, you tried to make your way towards the backstage. It was now nearly empty, with a few students still talking with each other and some teachers. Your eyes immediately locked on the boy who was sitting on a box, head hung low. His orange hair covered his face but there wasn’t any people who could have that bright hair color. Putting on a smile, you ran towards the boy and sat down on the floor, giving him a little hello. The boy looked at you without saying anything and looked back down, clearly ignoring you. Getting up, only to sat down next to Tenma, you offered one of the cotton candies to him. His eyes shot back at you, surprised to receive something from a total stranger to him. Regardless, after hesitating for a second, he took the spun sugar confection from you, mumbling a thank you. You two ate the cotton candies in complete silence before you grabbed his hand and dragged him outside. On the way, he was shouting at you out of surprise, asking you what you were doing but you didn’t pay any mind to him. That day was spent going from one activity to another with each other. After that day, even if he wouldn’t admit it, he was stuck to you like a glue at school. He would occasionally come and visit your classroom on the breaks and you two would spend the entire break together or sometimes, you were the one who visited his classroom. With the blink of an eye, you two were very close friends, best friends even. Yeah, after graduating from elementary, you went to different middle and high schools but Tenma, despite his hectic schedule would always make time for you. You knew about the stage fear he developed, so in your second year of high school, when he told you he was going to try and get over his phobia, you were delighted and gave him your %100 support. Needless to say, you were given a ticket from the first row to Water Me!, his first stage play since elementary.

➜ PERSONALITY COMPATIBILITY ; Did you say you love dumbasses? Here, you can have him. Jokes aside, since you didn’t include that much of your personality, I’m going to base this part on your MBTI. I hope you don’t mind. Tenma is what you would call a 'tsundere.' He is a confident, arrogant boy who is not afraid to tell other people what he thinks but despite that cocky and self-centered attitude of his, he often feels pressured by the success of his parents and fears of disappointing them. Most INFP’s don’t just want to find a partner– they want to connect. So when Tenma tells you about his worries, which is harder for him than usual people, it’s your duty to make him feel safe and welcomed. Make him feel like he can tell you everything. Since he generally has trouble connecting with other people, he appreciates it and it means so much for him more than you can guess. INFP’s respect their partner’s independence, which is very important because Tenma is definitely not your usual high school boy. He’s always auditioning for a movie or a series, maybe even a commercial. On top of that, he has both school work and theater. Needless to say, he is a very busy person. Sometimes, this can lead you two not seeing each other for weeks, only some texts here and there. The reunion is always something you can look forward though. Don’t worry about being a procrastinator because Tenma will constantly remind you do to the things you have to do. Maybe he’ll even put a prize at the end, something like “If you manage to finish your assignments until Friday, I might take my precious time to come and visit you.” Listen, I know Tenma’s generally easily flustered but if he is able to say "You want attention that bad? Then practice a kiss scene with me." without any problems then he can easily say the former. No I don’t take criticism.

➜ SHARED ACTIVITIES ; Public and Tenma don’t exactly go well together since his face is basically everywhere so your dates are usually indoor ones. From watching each of your favorite childhood movies to making plans for the future, although the later is usually only when he’s particularly feeling soft. Movie nights are a classic for at-home dates, but one way to give it a particularly fun and connective spin is to pick out movies that mean something to each of you. For example, you take turns watching each person's favorite movie from when they were ages 5, 10, and currently. It's a great way to learn more about each other and can spark some interesting conversation and rediscovered memories to share. Planning for the future gives you something to look forward to, makes you feel more in control, and can make you feel closer as a couple because you're spending time thinking about a shared future together. You can also make other kinds of plans. For example, what if you spent an evening thinking through what you want to be doing one year from now, five years from now, and 10 years from now? You can write down what you come up with so you can reflect on it later. You love cuddling?? Ask this boy for some! He will try to be smug about it but deep down, he just wants to feel you close too! His arms would wrap around your shoulders, his chest pressed firmly against the muscles of your back. Slowly he would rub his hands up and down your arms, warming your skin, yet leaving more goosebumps than there had been previously. He wouldn’t always insist on conversation, it‘s enough for him usually to just have you in his arms. Both of your breathing would start to grow steady with sleep. Before you knew it, both of you were in the dreamland in each other’s arms.

➜ ZODIAC COMPATIBILITY ; Tenma’s birthday is on June 21th which makes him a Gemini. This pairing of consecutive signs frequently works out because the two share similarities by season, while still bringing different elements to the table. Taurus and Gemini are spring signs, and when they combine forces, we can discover a lot about how the world works and why life blooms on this planet to begin with. Both of you are content with time spent away and time spent together. Try using this cycle to your advantage. Know when to nurture each other and when to give each other space. By putting your best effort into this, you can strengthen your relationship ties. Taurus should not give up or get annoyed with Gemini for having too much flexibility in their mind. Taurus needs to be patient when possible and comfortable being more decisive. Neither of you can manipulate the other. Work to compromise and balance out your strengths. In a healthy Taurus-Gemini relationship, this combination will be a major team. They both have strong mental focus and, together, they can accomplish whatever they want. Bring about world peace? Sure! Bring about the world's end? Sure! They have the skills to link up and become truly united without feeling as though they are losing themselves.

[sunshinexlollipops]

1/ I wanted to thank you for writing ACW, you are doing an amazing job with the characterization and I'm dying at every interactions between Wolf and Arthur. I'm already ready to have my heart broken if your story ends like the game. I'm really looking forward the next chapters ! You have a lot to cover between the canon story and the original stuff you add, especially everything covering the TB, I don't know what you're planning to do (and whatever you will do I will love it !)

Part 2:

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Ah! Thank you anon! You’re too gd sweet and I’m so happy to see all of the love you have for my work as well as the amount of confidence you confide with me!

And as for my health, I’ve been doing a lot better! My tendinitis was caused by a pinched nerve in my neck from sleeping on it wrong for a week straight and having a bad pillow, and I’ve since gotten a new one and viola! Worked like a charm! ;)

Personally, I’m enjoying to really get to the parts I’ve been DYING to get to for MONTHS since I first started this fic. What you all are reading has been plotted out since we first started chapter two and were in Horseshoe— not even kidding.

And we haven’t even touched the best parts of Wolf and Arthur’s relationship, nor have we gotten to its true depth yet, and I’m so god damn excited to get these next few updates out to truly begin venturing into the actual substance of their relationship.

I wish I could talk about what I intend for the ending of this story, but more importantly, the ending that I have planned for our beloved Wolf and Arthur— but unfortunately that would be such a huge spoiler and I want you all to actually get to EXPERIENCE what is in store rather than have it whipped out in a superficial ask reply haha — not that you are asking to have it spoiled, but just that I wish I could have the proper discussion over what is to be with you!!!

As for Arthur being alone in the game in chapter 6/post TB diagnosis, it’s true. Arthur’s ticket for death separated him from everyone. Dutch saw him as useless, Micah saw him as a weakness, and everyone else saw him as a dead man walking. All Arthur was faced with was pity and apology after apology— “oh, Arthur, that’s awful I’m so sorry.”

The two who were truly best at processing Arthur’s TB was Sadie and Charles. They kept him busy and didn’t treat him any differently in terms of blockading him from helping or writing him off because he’s not as capable as he used to be. Granted, they checked up on him and made sure he was handling himself alright, but they didn’t see Arthur any lesser because he was gravely sick and dying slowly and in an agonizing way.

And it��s not that John was awful either, but he tried to spare Arthur. Arthur felt like a fragile, cracked tea cup, a shadow cast by a man who used to be his rival when he showed up, practically snarling and feral at thirteen or so. He and Arthur always had competition, who was better, who was capable. And suddenly, Arthur can’t run without coughing, is weak, is fainting, is dying, and suddenly everything is different. Suddenly it feels like he’s lost in the worst way possible and John’s prize is that he isn’t coughing up blood every so often. How trivial their rivalry had been, and to what conclusion did it bring?

Sean. Kieran. Hosea. Lenny. At this point they all had died, and for what?

And what was Arthur dying for, even?

And that’s when Arthur’s atonement truly began to shape when he was dying.

As he says in the game, you see everything so much clearer. There isn’t a bigger picture, not anymore.

He wasn’t gonna worry about money— after all, what good would it do him? The Pinkertons? Well, I might be dead come tomorrow, so I don’t care if they are close to catching me.

Every single concern he ever had just got washed away. Worries that blinded him, fears that misguided him— all were gone, and all Arthur could see was the fear and greed that grew within the members of the gang.

Arthur spent the last couple of months to weeks of his life living them for everyone else, trying to save who he could, all the while feeling regret because everything that he ever told himself that could “wait till I’m done” wasn’t possible anymore. No running off with Mary, no farmland to become his ranch out West.

Every dream or hope or future shattered with the words, “I’m so sorry, son... it’s a hell of a thing.”

Knowing that he was going to die made him so alone because everyone else... they all were trying to survive.

No matter what happened to them. If the gang stayed together, if Dutch got caught, if Micah died and Dutch killed him, if they broke apart and went on to live the rest of their lives— Arthur’s end was certain.

Arthur was going to die.

He already was dying.

And it made him feel like he was separated from every damn person around him, because they were so scared for their life, so greedy for their futures— and Arthur, he had none of that.

Only regret. Only a certainty that he would die a miserable and painful death, and soon.

Arthur lived the last part of his life trying to ensure others had their own, and that he didn’t die with the regret that he couldn’t save them too. He was a lost cause, a goner— and while that made him feel like he was on the outside looking in, he knew that it was the last thing he could do before his body finally couldn’t keep going anymore.

For ACW, their fight has been important to me. So important. I grew extremely attached to Arthur, and in the time I’ve written her, Wolf as well. They are so important to me and in so many ways.

I get emotional in a lot of ways for what they are going to go through, and how their story will conclude. And I just want to ask you guys one thing: please keep going, even if the story and events seem so bleak, that you don’t stop to avoid its conclusion.

With fan fiction, the sad part is that, to an extent, your story is already told. You all know what direction this story is to go, and what events transpire in the game.

I wish I could tell you more anon— I wish I could write down all of the feelings I’ve had and all of the planning and dedication I’ve poured into just figuring out how this story is mine is to end, and everything leading up it to and in between.

With Arthur, but more importantly, also with Wolf.

And I have been restraining myself for nearly the entire time I’ve written this fic for everything that were about to reach to here in a few updates.

Have faith.

Continue reading and pushing until you get to the very last god damn word because despite Arthur knowing his ending, he kept going.

But please, have it within yourself to continue. That’s all I ask!