#i get to suffer at work that's so fun 🙃

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Have a fever of 101.1 right now and I have work tomorrow 😭😭

[neondiamond]

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[voidstateho]

STOP ASKING OTHERS TO ENTER THE VOID FOR YOU.

TOUGH LOVE. NOT BLAMING ANYONE OR ACCUSING: THIS POST IS ALL /LH 💜

i just saw a 🙃 post saying "all people who entered the void are selfish because my life sucks and so do others so you MUST ! enter the void for me! and them."

homie! We are entering the void for ourselves, and if you want to, you can enter for others. The void is supposed to be fun. You are the one being SELFISH by demanding people enter the void to manifest for yourself and thousands of others. Why are you yelling at them when you cant log off tumblr for one second? I know you are angry. your conditions probably suck ass. I GET IT. this is coming from someone who's never entered the void but posts revelations on here for help and has gotten SO CLOSE. want to know whats gotten me close? i logged off for a bit. touched grass/lh even. i stopped being jealous of others. I worked on myself and my mindset and now the void is so easy I might as well be there. Why are you so trusting of others that you DEMAND them to enter the void for you and to harass and blame bloggers when YOU 🫵🏻 can't even trust yourself to enter. TW!: Ik you are suicidal i get it. I have an abusive mom who gave me situational depression and I have to wait to join the military bc of it to get off my meds. Im working my ass off to transfer bc my home is abusive and when I go back i always gain like 10 pounds from stress existing there. My mom is the sole reason for my OCD and attempts. But you know what i don't do? Blame other successful bloggers and demand they solve everyone else's problem and act like people are suffering bc they wont enter the void for them like they are the hero's who are ignoring you to change your world. Im not trying to be harsh on you. Leave them alone. Let them enjoy their success because they deserve to and aren't selfish. They DID SOMETHING. Relearn Loa, get a job if you can, touch grass-perhaps/j? This might be harsh. But I needed this back then too. Read a book watch a movie or something. Watch like, the Matrix, im serious it has a lot of LOA references. Have FUN with the void and quit yelling at these bloggers when they are trying to help you, not solve your problems. They are not the reason for you and others problems. They cannot help you but they CAN give advice which they post, and motivation; use it. let me make this clear: you can enter the void with a bad mental mindset. you are not running out of time. or you need to back off the app and take a break and forget about it, heal and come back from it. Yall seriously making me angry for these creators, i used to be a jealous mf as well. But im close bc i healed. Be patient with yourself. Take care of yourself.

YOU AND YOUR MENTAL HEALTH, HEALTH IN GENERAL COME FIRST BEFORE SHIFTING OR VOID OR WHATEVER.

Thanks 🤝

-Tired mf seeing others be blamed for not saving the mf world and being called selfish for it. Let them rest and have peace. You're ignorant as well but seriously anyone can enter, we all are the same. I believe in you if you don't believe in yourself. You will be fine. 💜💯💯

[daisychainfiction]

nooo now im sad 😭😭 how would the ros feel once the misunderstanding was cleared up, maybe from mc directly asking them for bug bite cream or complaining about it?

this is in response to this ask!

sorry this took so long. The start of 2025 has been ..........

It's been. 🙃

It's taken all your self-control through the day not to claw the itching bite on your neck. You knew you shouldn't have left the window open last night, but what did you do?

Yeah. Great thinking.

You find --

…Silas to be the first one in the dining hall that night, lazily bent over a book on one of the window seats overlooking the back garden.

"Have you seen Nadia?" you ask on leui of a greeting. "Or do you magically have calamine on you?"

He raised a brow, closing his book and leaning back to study you. "Can't say I have seen her or carry a super specific medicine in my back pocket."

You groan, hand hovering over the spot on your neck. "Then we need to fill in that pond behind the dorms and kill every mosquito as retribution."

"Retribution?" he repeats, a slow smile spreading.

"For me tearing all of my skin off."

Siilas' eyes settle on your neck and, to your surprise, he grins. He looks much too pleased with your situation.

Getting to his feet and leaving his book, he steps toward you. "I have some aloe vera plants in my room," he murmurs, voice soft. Pressing the softest touch to your shoulder, he adds, "Don't tear off your skin while I'm gone."

…Annika tending to the herb garden just outside the kitchen's back door, her hair gleaming in the rapidly setting sun. She gently touches each plant, fingers the barest whisper, and the plants respond in kind. Leaning into her touch. Growing just a fraction more to reach her.

She glances up when you come through the door, her face a mix of welcome and discomfort.

"I'm sorry to bother you," you say, assuming she's uncomfortable with you interrupting the moment. "But these bug bites are driving me insane. Do you have some aloe or something? I can't find Nadia."

Annika looks bemused for a moment, and then she grins. With deft motions, she gently cuts sprigs from a few plants with her sharp nails, motioning for you to follow her into the kitchen.

She makes quick work of crushing her chosen plants into a thin paste. She raises a brow at you, motioning to your neck, and you dutifully tilt your head to give her access.

Annika smoothes the mixture against your skin with delicate, slow strokes. Her fingers are warm like sun-drenched soil, but the paste is cool.

The itching disappears almost immediately. You let out a relieved sigh and grin at her once she secures a bandage over the site.

"Thank you," you say.

Annika shyly drops her gaze, but her smile is wide when she nods and tucks a strand of hair behind her ear.

…Vardah leaning against the serving counter, watching the cooks moving about. She swivels to grin at you as you approach, her eyes lighting on the blemish on your neck.

"That bug must have really liked your taste," she teases with a wink.

"You're making fun of my suffering?" you snort. "Typical."

"Mhmm. Where's the fun in being sweet?"

You can't bite down the smile. "Sure. Do you know where Nadia is? I need something for this thing before I tear my skin off."

Vardah's lazy smile stretches, a little unsettlingly wide, and she sways closer to you. "I can fix it for you."

You raise a brow. "By tearing my skin off for me?"

She laughs, the sound rich and low. "Well, that. But I was thinking of something a bit more… pleasurable."

You can't help the little chill that shudders down your spine. "That's… vague."

"Do you trust me?" she asks.

That is a loaded question. "Are we still talking about the bug bite?"

Vardah steps even closer, a hand hovering behind your neck as if to pull you closer. As if to kiss you. "For now."

You nod, heart in your throat. The woman grins that sharp, alien grin and pulls you to her.

Her mouth presses against the bite; a flare of sharp, hot pain lances through the site before it's blissfully… normal. Warm from her lips and breath, not a hint of the bug bite left.

You touch the spot when she pulls back, a bit lightheaded.

The bite is gone.

"There!" Vardah grins. "Told you I could fix it!"

…Jordan watching the back garden through one of the bay windows. They angle their body toward you but don't look away from whatever they're studying. "You're earlier than usual."

You groan a little, sitting at the long table. "I've been looking everywhere for Nadia. I need something for this bug bite, or I will literally go insane."

This does make Jordan glance at you. Their eyes flick from your face to the blemish on your neck. Per usual, their expression doesn't shift from boredom, but their lips tilt a little.

"You're such an idiot," they chuckle. It almost seems fond.

"Excuse me?"

Jordan sighs, leaving the window. "Give me five," they say, walking out of the cafeteria despite your spluttered questions.

When they return, it's with a small bottle of calamine lotion. They hand it to you, saying, "Crownie's Store."

You wince, finally remembering the entire wall dedicated to medical and health products. "Oh," you mumble.

Jordan snorts good-naturedly before jostling your shoulder.

...It almost seems fond.

…Hunter in the kitchen, leaned over an array of cookies that he's icing. When he glances up to meet your gaze, you groan, "Please tell me you have something to get rid of bug bites. Or make them stop itching. Or burn off my skin. Anything."

Hunter looks alarmed, then he glances at your neck and grins wide. "Oh. It's a bug bite."

You frown at him. "Yeah…?"

"It's just -- at breakfast it looked -- I mean, I thought --" he breaks off, wincing, and visibly decides to drop it.

Hunter clears his throat and removes his gloves, tossing them into the trash before moving toward the back wall. "I'm sure I have something."

He comes back with a medical kit, rummaging around the massive assortment. He eventually pulls out a small packet with acetaminophen and a second with pramoxine lotion. "Here," he says, offering them to you. "I'll get some water, hold on."

You apply the lotion while he does so, which is a mistake. Now, you are standing there with medicine-coated fingers and no way of opening the acetaminophen.

When he returns and sees your predicament, he chuckles. "Here, let me-" he grabs a clean towel from a drawer, wets it at the sink, and gently uses it to clean your fingers instead of handing it to you. It's oddly intimate, and you can't help that your mouth goes a little dry.

Only when your hand is clean does he seem to realize what he's done. He looks from your hand to your face, mildly alarmed. "I should have just -- I'm sorry, I didn't --"

"Hunter," you grin, reaching out to gently touch his wrist. "It's fine. Thank you for your help."

…Nadia cleaning, scrubbing at one particularly grimy spot on one of the children's tables.

"Nadia," you call; she doesn't look up, but she does stop scrubbing. When you get closer, you say, "this bug bite is going to kill me if I don't get some relief."

Nadia glances up and away, a muscle tightening in her jaw. She drops the rag and cleaner, wipes her hands on the kitchen apron she's donned, and mutters, "Stay here."

She disappears into the kitchen before returning with a small, unmarked tincture bottle. "Sit."

You do so. Nadia's hands are cool and shockingly gentle when she takes your chin and tilts your head to the side. Her motions betray her feelings for you, just like they have since you first began to gain her trust.

"What's in the bottle?" you ask.

She unscrews the bottle, the glass making a gentle tinkling noise as she taps excess liquid from the dropper. Her voice is soft, barely audible as she leans down to inspect the bite. "A mixture I make for the Initiates. It works better than anything you can buy. Hold still."

The first drop of liquid stings. The second feels like ice. The third soothes your skin in an instant.

You breath out a sigh of relief, expecting Nadia to pull away.

She doesn't.

Pretending to keep working on your neck, she whispers, "That will work for six hours or so. I'll come by your cabin tonight when the others are asleep."

"For another dose?" you ask.

She pauses, warm breath on your neck and words tickling your ear. "Among other things… If you want."

[linguisticparadox]

Anyway did you know the current Parkinson's medication they give is literally the same thing they were giving over 50 years ago. Did you know it requires SWALLOWING and the only option if you develop impaired swallowing from The Disease That Impairs Your Swallowing is to start crushing it and adding it to applesauce and when that stops working the only thing left is to have a fucking tube surgically installed leading to your stomach. Did you know there is not even a version that can be given by IV!!!! There WAS an oral disintegrating tablet but the manufacturer fucking discontinued it. 🙃

And this medication has to be given MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY (there is an extended release version but it is prohibitively expensive so we only give it to dad before bed. Fun fact it does not last until morning!) and it loses effectiveness over time until eventually it just stops working.

(There is a new continuous subdermal pump version but it only just got FDA approval in the US and it will be at least 10 months before it's covered by Medicare, you know, the insurance that probably like 99% of Parkinson's patients in the US* rely on???????? Also iirc it's the same medication just a new delivery route so the issue of developing resistance still applies!!)

(Did I mention that Medicare also does not cover the cost of a nursing home lololol and THOSE AREN'T FUCKING CHEAP.)

Did you know Parkinson's can cause dementia symptoms including loss of executive functioning to the point that sufferers lose the ability to make decisions, which leaves them vulnerable to abuse? And that the medication does not help the cognitive symptoms???

Did you know patients' breathing remains intact so what kills them is usually smth like aspiration pneumonia, bedsores, or a serious fall?

Thank god for Michael J. Fox btw, it fucking sucks he has to deal with this but he has done SO MUCH to get new research funded, which is probably why we're just now having new breakthroughs like the pump or discovery of biomarkers that can be used to diagnose the disease before symptoms manifest.

Anyway I know there are a lot of causes needing our attention now but if you can it would be cool if you donated to the Michael J. Fox Foundation here:

* This is hyperbolic, I don't feel like looking up the actual number (if they even track it). Parkinson's mostly affects old ppl and in the US old ppl have Medicare ok.

Also all of this is possibly specific to the US but that's where I am and we are not moving to a Whole New Country just to squeeze a couple more years of misery out of my dad. ✌️

[sunshinegat0r]

I’ve had a song stuck in my head all week, can you guess which one? Also Eustass Kid is so fucking fun to write, what the heck! Modern AU, established relationship, just thought it’d be nice to see him as obsessed with reader as I am with him. 🙃

Perfect ~ Eustass Kid x F!Reader

CW: Swearing, brief mentions of sex acts (masturbation, grinding), nothing too exciting.

WC: ~1.2k

“What’re you doin’?”

You glance over your shoulder and unfold your torso, pulling up the large boxer-briefs patterned with cartoon nuts and bolts. You release the waistband with a flourish and let the elastic snap against your hips with a smirk.

“I feel more comfortable with something on, and-” you glance around the semi-chaotic state of the bedroom, “-I have no idea where my underwear even are.”

“I ripped ‘em off ya.”

“Eustass!” you chide, no real heat behind the words. “I liked that pair!”

The red-head shrugs with a big grin and tucks his arm behind his head, propped against the headboard of his giant-sized bed. He has to admit it’s a nice view, watching you move around his room topless and wearing his clothes.

“Why’re you leavin’ me all alone over here?” Kid sulks.

You move to the desk in the corner, dragging over a small desktop mirror and some makeup wipes. “Some of us have things to do this afternoon and can’t stay in bed all day fucking.” Kid tsks at that - you know he could keep you trapped in his bed if he really wanted to.

“And as much as I love your, uh, art, I don’t think my boss would appreciate it nearly enough,” you tease, peering at your body in the mirror.

Reddish-purple lipstick is smeared all over your skin. While there are rare spots that form a perfect set of lips, it’s mostly lines of color, left from where Eustass Kid dragged his lips along your body as he ravished you. Your lips and neck suffered the most attention, but you blush as you notice the prominent amount concentrated on your breasts, and the trail down your stomach leading in between your legs.

You turn the mirror to meet Kid’s gaze behind you and find he has the most insufferable grin on his face. Truly caught red-handed - or red-lipped - his own mouth is anything but neat and tidy.

You roll your eyes, a soft smile lifting your lips, and adjust the mirror back towards yourself, grabbing a wipe to start removing the evidence. You don’t bother taking a seat at the desk, you just lean over and get to work.

As he watches you with sharp golden eyes, Kid’s smile slips slowly from his face. The gears in his head are spinning fast enough he’s surprised you can’t hear him thinking.

He’s fucked.

Well, technically you both were - he’d made sure of that thoroughly - but he’s in real trouble here.

He can’t tear his eyes off of you. You look so perfect standing there in his underwear, with his marks decorating your pretty skin like the finest museum-worthy art piece. It’s not an unfamiliar sight - the two of you had been dancing this tango for months now. Neither of you wanted to put any labels on it. For Kid, at first it had been a fun distraction from the regular bullshit of living.

Now, thoughts of you distracted him from every other aspect of his life. You were the first thing on his mind when he woke up, checking his beat-up phone for a text from you (since you were usually up hours before him). No matter what his day consisted of, even in the palace of his workshop, it was plagued by thoughts of you. And at night, when he couldn’t sleep for tossing and turning, your eyes, your smile, your body, consumed him as he tugged his aching cock, desperate for your touch to wear him out.

It was safe to say Kid was a bit obsessed, which was new territory for him. But as he watched you, all soft curves and graceful limbs, humming tunelessly and tapping your foot a little, he knew. All he ever really wanted was you.

You straighten from the desk and give yourself a final once-over in the mirror, satisfied with your work. You haven’t bothered cleaning up the marks below your neck - the collar of your shirt will hide all of that.

And besides, you… Kind of like the idea of walking around with Kid’s claims burning on your skin, with no one else the wiser. The thought brings a warm flush to your cheeks and you turn sheepishly towards the bed.

You’re surprised out of your own embarrassing thoughts by the sight of Kid looking just as flustered. Briefly you wonder if he knew what you intended by leaving yourself in such a state. His large hand is covering his eyes but it’s not enough to hide the blush bathing his own cheeks and tips of his ears, bright red against his pale skin.

Padding softly over to the side of the bed where he’s reclining, you lean in and blow a gentle puff of air into his ear. Kid jumps and swears, staring at you like a deer caught in headlights. It’s enough to make you giggle; you’ve never seen his feathers look so ruffled.

“Penny for your thoughts, babe?” The question is dripping with false innocence as you walk your fingers up his arm.

Kid scowls and looks away, twists his arm to grab your wandering hand with his own. You yelp when he tugs you back into his lap and you settle, straddling him. You’re suddenly glad for his underwear; flimsy barrier though it may be, anything to give you a chance not to be lured back into his clutches.

Eustass Kid was never one to back down from a challenge and he’s not about to start now. Despite the heat still painting his face he manages to pin you with his golden gaze. His mouth works for a few moments before he forces the words out through clenched teeth.

“Just… Realized how much ya mean to me. How - whenever I think about what I want, you’re top of th’ list. By leagues.”

Your eyes widen and you feel like you could melt straight through the bed, the floor, into the earth below. You thought your face was on fire before - now it’s your turn to cover it with your hands.

At least, you try, but Kid has a firm grip on your left hand and he’s not letting go to save you any dignity. If anything, your reaction seems to have given him some of his cocky swagger back.

He snickers at your distress and gathers both of your hands into his large one, raising your arms above your head and leering at you like a fresh-caught prize. “What’s wrong, treasure?” he coos ominously. “Can’t handle a little sincerity?”

You shake your head and let out a surprised gasp when he pulls you against his chest, his mouth immediately back on your neck and undoing all your hard work. “Only you could turn such an embarrassing confession to your favORRrr,” you mutter, a particularly hard nip turning the last syllable into a quaking moan.

You feel an inescapable hardness growing through your stolen underwear. A secret smile spreads across your lips and you arch against Kid’s chest, grinding your hips down and wrenching a garbled curse from him against your skin.

You were definitely going to be late for work.

Tag List: @zoros-sheath @quinloki (Your pinned post says to tag you in any Kid stuff so here I am hello goodbye 🫣)

[beyourownanchor6]

20 questions for fic writers ✍️

Tagged by my dear @spotsandsocks 🩵

How many works do you have on ao3?

249!

What’s your total ao3 word count?

1,588,699 ummm guess i really never can stfu 😅

What fandoms do you write for?

mostly 9-1-1, but also teen wolf. debating another but we shall see..

Top five fics by kudos

if i lay here, would you lie with me (forget the world) (over 3k kudos 🥲)

nobody can do everything

i want to love you (but i don't know how)

five + one (istg i'm gonna come up with a title for this so i don't have to see this embarrassment of one anymore 💀)

if i asked you to stay, would you?

Do you respond to comments?

always! i appreciate people taking the time to leave them <3

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

—uhh either of these since they're both mcd ooop 🫣

dancing after death (you and i)

come back home (version 2)

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

—mm i'll go with chris doesn't come back au since it was full of angst and everyone suffered 😂

wake me up (i'm drowning)

Do you get hate on fics?

no just annoying/unnecessary comments sometimes 🙃

Do you write smut?

i may have written a few....

the slutty suit (i think this one's self explanatory 😏)

upstairs/downstairs (pwp on a rainy day in the fire station)

i'll let you fire my hose if you merry my christmas (author!buck writes pwp x amatuer model eddie for his book covers)

beautiful drama series (buddie meet on a dating app and start up fwb)

Craziest crossover:

uhh, well there's my step up au: let me lose myself

or there's my divergent au: crossfire

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of...

Have you ever had a fic translated?

i don't think so. someone asked once, but not sure what ever happened with that

Have you ever co-written a fic?

yep, with my wife @loserdiaz 🫶🏻 (i think i know what our next one shall be 👀)

—no body, no crime

—this is my idea of fun (playing video games)

—i don't want to keep secrets just to keep you

All time favorite ship?

buddie ofc 😌

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

—uhhh probably the buddie fwb buck 1.0.2 that i started, deleted, but still have the notes for....rawie look away

What are your writing strengths?

keeping them in character and metaphors, according to my lovely readers 🥰

What are your writing weaknesses?

keeping things short 😭 (idk i could make a whole list but don't feel like tearing myself apart atm lmao)

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

—to each their own

First fandom you ever wrote in?

teen wolf!

Favorite fic you’ve written?

i hate picking between my children 😭

i'm gonna go with duck buck, just bc i've been thinking about her lately 🐥 (and i'm sure y'all are tired of hearing about my favorite one 😂)

the ducking of evan buckley

—so i definitely forgot this was in my drafts hfurnj. if you’ve already done this just ignore me <3 tagging: @loserdiaz @monsterrae1 @redlightsandicedtea @honestlydarkprincess @bi-buckrights @onward--upward @elvensorceress @daffi-990 @wikiangela @hippolotamus @wildlife4life @eddiebabygirldiaz @confetti-cupcake @queerdiaz @jackluvsdaniel @ronordmann @spaceprincessem @underwaterninja13

[ceruleanwhore]

I wanted to make another set of childfree headcanons like I did for ikevamp but for ikeprince this time. For the record, when I do it like this where I’m going through all the characters in this way, I’m doing that for all the cf folks out there who maybe want to be able to think of their fave as being compatible with them or whatever else. This isn’t me being like ‘I believe every character in this story would genuinely be cf,’ this is me coming up with ways to justifying whoever out there might want to believe that any of these characters could be cf, potentially. I’m not doing all the characters, though, since Silvio, Keith, and Gilbert haven’t been released yet and I have all my knowledge of them from Tumblr translations that not everyone has seen.

Also, this is going to be more dark and serious than the last one, so TW for talking about ptsd and also a mention of suicide. 

Jin — He has a very complicated relationship with his parents and with his childhood that I think would get in the way of him consciously deciding that he wishes to have kids. I also could see him doubting himself and his ability to protect any potential kids after that one time he couldn’t protect some children 🙃 Regardless, I see him readily agreeing to a cf lifestyle if prompted by a cf partner.

Chev — I get the vibe from him that he has no real, genuine desire to have children and also that his own complicated relationship with his mother might further dissuade any such desires, but I do also think that he sees procreation as part of his duties as a prince or as king. I believe that having his partner come disclose to him that they do not desire children would in a way be liberating for him because then he could let go of feeling the need to force himself to do so anyway and come up with a different solution if he’d need an heir as king.

Clavis — He’s said it himself that what he wants more than anything is for someone to love him above all else and, as both my parents have explained to me, once children come into the picture you do love them even more than your partner, and I think he’d struggle with that. Also, he’s so much better suited to be a fun uncle than to actually be a father and I genuinely think that’s also what he’d want for himself more than actual fatherhood.

Leon — The strongest impression he gave me in his route is that, once he’s interested, he is 100% dedicated to making his partner happy, so that’s where he strikes me as one of those guys who would go with whatever his sweet baboo desires.

Yves — I mean, I don’t see him doing well with the mess and the noise, not to mention that he has his infamously bad luck that actually could prove harmful to a baby. More than that, though, he already has tremendous amounts of stress from all the added pressure he puts on himself with his work for perfectionism as well as all the criticism he constantly receives from everyone else around him who isn’t Sariel or the other princes, so I just don’t think he has the capacity for the additional stress that would come with a child. Also, beyond the normal stress of having kids, he would then also suffer additional stress from the constant criticism he would receive from people around him every day about how he is as a parent or even about his kids and I genuinely don’t think he could handle all of that, all stacked up.

Licht — This man is so traumatized from his childhood that there’s no way he’d let himself even consider it. If he ever had a partner end up pregnant, it would massively trigger his PTSD and might push him to leave or even die by suicide, given his mental health history. I think he’d be positively delighted to skip that part of marriage and just enjoy his relationship with his partner, without any stowaways.

Nokto — Also heavily traumatized, also not getting over that trauma any time soon, would likely do horribly with having children. The other thing you need to remember about the twins when it comes to kids is that it isn’t just how much they’d panic about the idea of having children, it’s also that massive, unprocessed trauma like they both have can get triggered by said children and come out in some pretty awful ways. I was lucky enough that, in my personal experience with such things, all I got from my dad being blindsided by suddenly having all this trauma he didn’t know he had being triggered by me was yelling and, when I was younger, some spanking. With the twins, yes, we can all agree that they’re good people, but if they were genuinely triggered by a child in a way they never would have expected to experience, they could do something worse than yelling or it could even send them back, mentally, to their childhood so now the baby’s crying because it’s hungry but Nokto’s now in the middle of a PTSD episode and is also crying and yelling about how his mom needs to leave Licht alone. Like I cannot express how bad it could be for these two to have kids without YEARS of therapy at least.

Luke — He has that really interesting attachment style where he gets so singularly attached to one person, so with as much as he talks a lot, even at the very end, about how he doesn’t give two shits about anyone except his sister and his partner and maybe also Jin, he could very well see a potential baby as just a stranger that he doesn’t really give a shit about. Now, obviously, one could point out that once a baby has actually been produced he could come to love it like he loves his sister, but that would require the production of a baby in the first place, which wouldn’t happen if he had a childfree partner. 

Sariel — First off, he lives and breathes for his work, so I really don’t see him having the time to really focus on a child the way that they need. Secondly, it’s clear that he doesn’t like or do well with chaos of any kind, as proven by Clavis, so it seems unlikely to me that he would desire to produce something that is inherently going to be the living embodiment of chaos for some time. 

Rio — This man would be thrilled to do literally anything at all to make one woman happy, including having or not having kids. He’s a delightfully submissive simp who will do anything his mistress asks, no matter what, so it’s only natural he’d accommodate any preference, including this one.

[mirillel]

Get to know me tag

Tagged by @giaffa a while ago❣️

Do you make your bed?

Sometimes yes and sometimes no; there doesn't seem to be a pattern to it

If you could, would you go back to school?

The argument for it would be that back then I didn't appreciate how much free time I had! Now I would do soooo much more with that time 🥲

Can you parallel park?

No drivers license Club 😎

A job you had that would surprise people?

My current job is the only one I've had so far; been working at a thrift shop for nearly 3 years now. Which isn't very out of the box but does sometimes surprise people?

Do you think aliens are real?

More likely than not!

Can you drive a manual car?

Public Transport Princess 🤭

What is your guilty pleasure?

Cringe is dead but ...wedding dress content

Tattoos?

Ladybug, Minotaur + labyrinth, weird house, bunnies praying to an onion and a dragon :))

Do you like puzzles?

Haven't done them in ages but have been getting back into it recently with my so and I'm having lots of fun with it

Any phobias?

Very un-swag of me but I just can't deal with spiders 😔

Favorite childhood sport

School sucked the joy of sports out of me at an early age 🙃 Only recently been dipping my toe into it with yoga. I actually think that I would enjoy more sporty activities now but alas I already don't have time for the hobbies I already have

First thing you wanted to be growing up?

Artist; which is ironic giving that drawing suffers much from the above mentioned lack of time ^ as well as my tendency to be frustrated quickly. Though I've recently been trying to make more time for it and go into it without an expected outcome

Do you talk to yourself?

Not really? But I guess I'm substituting that for beaming my every thought to my bestie

What movies do you adore?

Faves include: The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Jennifer's Body, Castle in the Sky, Alien, Labyrinth

Coffee or tea?

Coffee my best friend coffee <3

Favorite colour?

💚🤎🖤 earth tones my beloveds

Tagging: @swanmaids @meadowlarkx @ramyun-person @jouissants @aeondecember if any of you feel up to it :)

[amazingmsme]

Hey there! I'm so sorry in advance for such a long ask 😂

I'm super new to Epic (like, started getting into it 2-3 weeks ago) and have very slowly been working my way through all the sagas. I haven't gotten through all of it yet—I'm trying to take it in as gradually as possible so I can appreciate and savor every last bit 🤌 As a music nerd, theater kid, and mythology lover I can safely say I haven't been THIS obsessed with something in a long time. This musical has a death-grip on me and is not planning on letting up any time soon 🙃

1. Just wanted to say that you and some of the other t-fic writers have been FEEDING me the last few days with your content 🙏 I was so worried that there wasn't going to be anything for epic in this community lol. So thank you!!

2. I saw that you have an ongoing fic (rtwrh), but I can't find anywhere that says what it's actually about! (I can't seem access your wattpad masterpost through the link in your blog description) Mind filling me in..? What's the story about?

3. If you see me going through and liking dozens of your posts at once but not reblogging, it's just my way of bookmarking or saving for later! Once I finish the other sagas I haven't listened to yet (wisdom & vengeance), I'll be back!! Right now I'm trying to avoid reading fics that I know I won't have the context for. :)

No worries, I don��t mind! You’re all good!

First of all WELCOME TO THE FANDOM! I’m so glad you found us! This really is just the beginning, & I can’t wait to see whatever Jay has planned! & I feel you, I was a huge theatre kid, music is everything to me, & Greek mythology has always scratched that perfect itch in my brain, even if I never dove super deep into it but maybe now’s my chance to really lean into it & this has been my top obsession for a whole year now, & there’s no sign of it stopping anytime soon lol. Trust me, the epic chokehold is one strong motherfucker

1. You’re so very welcome!! I love being able to provide some much needed fluff for this fandom because good lord do we all need it! I remember when I first got into it there was literally just a handful of us sharing headcanons on this blog & then it really started to pop off & more fics started popping up. It’s been so much fun watching as the fandom continues to grow within this lil community of ours ☺️

2. KDVXLKDHAKSI YES AN EXCUSE TO TALK ABOUT MY MOST FAVORITEST FIC OF ALL TIME!!! Ok so Restless ‘Til We Reach Home is my ghost!polites au & it’s an ongoing fic I started last year & began syncing up chapter drops with the saga release dates. It’s the first chaptered fic I’ve vaguely planned out the whole plot for & have a specific end in mind that I hope y’all will be happy with. There’s 5 chapters out now & I’m already 5k into chapter 6, but we last left off with the end of thunder bringer (with my own twist of course) & left off with a cliffhanger of Polites in Tartarus.

A lot has happened in the fic so far, but we start in the middle of the underworld saga & follow a ghostly Polites through Hades as he finds his way back to his friends & crew. Obvi Odysseus has since changed & isn’t so quick to believe Polites is actually real, & I tried to heavily imply that the song Monster already took place. Hermes makes a few appearances to lighten the mood & comfort Polites

Converting all the different songs into written scenes has been my favorite part & really helps me to plan & visualize where I want the story to go. I loved making the mash up of Suffering/Wait for Me, that scene made me feral lol. Plot wise, we’ve covered the entire Thunder Saga & chapter 6 starts off with Legendary & so far I’ve already gotten through Little Wolf as well! I’m hoping to get to God Games by chapter 7, I have some really fun plans for that!

I have a lot of headcanons in my ghost!polites tag if you’re interested in hearing more about his ghostly shenanigans. They’re a lot more light hearted than the actual fic lmao

3. You’re good, I love seeing people go through my blog & liking stuff! The way you’re spacing out listening is kinda like simulating the experience of the saga releases & I think that’s cool!

[yakuzabrainrotlive]

Had a LONG gaming session; finished Saejima's part and got a good amount of mileage into Haruka's!

No idea how the SNIPERS SITUATED ON THE ROOFTOPS or the people right next to Kitakata didn't notice the VIP guest of the event getting snatched and dragged into the sewers. Very weird. Anyway! Good job, guys!

As soon as I saw Saejima and Kitakata next to the window like this, I knew Kitakata was getting sniped. You kinda develop a 6th sense for who dies as you play through the games.

What I DIDN'T see was Baba being a traitor. Man, I had just kinda started to like the guy, too 🙃 Although he did kind of turn around by not killing Saejima, so maybe I can keep being chill with him.

Saejima's a very wholesome guy, I tend to forget he joined the Yakuza for very altruistic reasons. Kinda wanna see him get out of that whole life, but I bet that's never happening.

I don't know what to think of this guy. He does seem to be on our side for now, but... I get a bad vibe from him. Maybe I'm just paranoid? I feel he omits too much information for him to just be a good guy who's helping us.

Now. How do I tackle this. My poor mutuals have already had to suffer through my 1000-word enraged rants about this woman. If you wanna know my full thoughts, let me know I guess. But for now all I'll say is:

1) I dislike her very, VERY much, for multiple reasons.

2) I will probably never like her, no matter what she says or does in the future.

3) Once a character gives me this bad a first impression of themselves, it's going to require a MIRACLE for me to even become neutral towards them. So if I don't specifically comment that I now like her... assume that I still, at minimum, dislike her. I'm petty, I hold grudges. Not sorry.

....

SO! HARUKA! I.... I do have thoughts. I fully support kids going after their dreams and wholeheartedly want Haruka to succeed. Now, THAT BEING SAID. I do NOT like the thought of her becoming an idol, purely because of the absolute STATE of the industry and the community. I don't think the game will go deep into the skeletons in the industry's closet, but it's a very unhealthy environment. I just... I don't want her to end up being hurt by this decision. I want her to be happy! ;-;

(Nooooo, Oshi No Ko and the research I did into idol culture afterwards totally didn't leave mental scars on me or anything HAHAHHAHA 🫠)

Haruka is very... alone right now. Besides Horie trying to cheer her on at times, the adults around her feel very cold and emotionally distant. And she said she hasn't had much luck making friends at school. Makes me feel very sad, to be honest🥺 I hope things change for her soon - for the better, that is...

As for the gameplay... I like it! It does end up feeling kinda repetitive, grinding the same songs and tasks, but that's just how grinding is. The performance lessons are very fun; almost like karaoke, but different. The dance battles are tough! I REALLY hope I get to play as Kiryu and sing karaoke with her at the end of the game. IF they even reunite, that is 😭💔

Overall I'm enjoying seeing more of Haruka and hearing her thoughts. Kinda do miss fighting, though ( ´△｀) I'm scared I'll forget how fighting even works while I go through this section 🙃

[thesandsofelsweyr]

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

TY for tagging me @zeroducks-2 😘 Passing to torch along to @blahwesome, @baesonjason, @niphredil-14, @scaryscarecrows, @mrsd-writes, @igotanidea, @artzysyam, @thejasonandsladeagenda (no pressure ofc!)

How many works do you have on AO3? 11 on SandsOfElsweyr, 2 on my other top secret account 👀

What’s your total A03 word count? 47,475

What fandoms do you write for? I've written fic for Dragon Age and Skyrim, but my only published fics are in the Jason Peter Todd fandom 😉

What are your top five fics by kudos? (Only including my SandsOfElsweyr fics)

✧ The Sus Boy Next Door (ao3) 229 Kudos ✧

After coming back from a terrible blind date your asshole neighbor is the last person you want to see right now. He doesn’t have his signature scowl for you tonight, however. Tonight he seems terrified.

✧ Hollowed Out (ao3) 194 Kudos ✧

When Jason saw that photo of Batman and his new Robin, the thin cord of hope holding him together had snapped and he had broken into a million pieces. No one was coming for him. Not one single person on the planet cared whether he lived or died, or how much he suffered, or how loud he screamed. No one except the Clown. He was Joker’s now, and he would say or do anything to get a reprieve from the torment and the pain, even if it meant letting himself be reduced to something less than human.

✧ Remember Jason Todd? (ao3) 114 Kudos ✧

Joker reminisces to Batman about one of the happiest years of his life: the year he spent breaking Jason Todd.

✧ The Wrong Cell (ao3) 96 Kudos ✧

When Harley comes to fetch Batman’s annoying little sidekick from his cell in Arkham Asylum she finds someone unexpected in his place.

✧ His (ao3) 82 Kudos ✧

Jason has been beaten half to death with a crowbar, shredded by barbed wire, strung up for so long his shoulders ripped from their sockets, shocked, starved, branded… It's only a wooden paddle, it can’t hurt more than any of the Clown’s other toys… right?

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I get behind sometimes but I try to reply to every comment I get. If you take the time to leave me a comment, I'll take the time to give you a reply! Fun fact: I love replying with reaction gifs, hehehe

What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? lol. Almost every fic I write has an angsty ending 😂 I suppose Hollowed Out (ao3) is the angstiest so far.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Touch (ao3) or Cocoon (ao3)

Do you get hate on your fic? I'm sure I do but I've thankfully never seen it!

Do you write smut? Yes. Badly 😂 But I'm learning! Practice makes perfect~

Do you write crossovers? Personally not a fan of crossovers 🙃

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I know of

Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope

Have you ever co-written a fic? Nope

What‘s your all-time favourite ship? Probably SanSan (ASoIaF). Then there's Shakarian (Mass Effect), Surana x Alistair (Dragon Age), and AK Jay x my OC 💕 Also can't forget AK JokerJay and Thramsay (ASoIaF), muwahaha 😈

What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I don't want to answer this and jinx myself!

What’s your writing strengths? Putting men through the ringer.

What’s your writing weaknesses? Overcoming my perfectionism 😪

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I have to phone a friend!

First fandom you wrote for? Probably Mario? I've been writing for a looooooooong ass time, heh.

Favourite fic you’ve ever written? Hollowed Out (ao3) ❤️❤️❤️

[arleniansdoodles]

As an avid sunshine x grumpy connoisseur (both rokantic and platonic) i so understand the mc-sean thing. Its just so fun to write and read!

N e ways could you perhaps share your thoughs on The Olds (Jinfeng, Sifu and co.)? Pretty please?

Ooh I’d be more than happy to share my thoughts about the oldies! Regarding the Wood and Water Guardians, I don’t have a lot of headcanons about them except for creating OCs as their surviving relatives post-massacre 😅 So I’ll stick with Sifu, Sean’s father, and Jinfeng for now XD

Starting with Jinfeng, I didn’t know her backstory at the time of writing my fic (nor do I have the game, so I couldn’t check for myself), so I created one for her - only to realize much later that her backstory is written on a wall in the Tower 🙃 Basically, she was born to an impoverished family (which I’d already assumed) as the eldest of four sisters, only to lose her family and right arm in a terrible criminal attack. Following that, she relocates to the city, trains, and becomes the first female Sifu in that region, teaching poor families, women, and girls how to fight, etc.

I’ve kept all that as the basis and just added my headcanons on top loll Before the attack, little Jinfeng is sent to a kung-fu school so she can learn how to defend her younger sisters. And it’s there that she finds Sifu and Sean’s father, and becomes their little sister – not just as a fellow student, but in a more familial way XD She becomes the sunshiney one while Sifu is the voice of reason and Sean’s father is grumpy loll I’d say they’re kinda like the older generation version of Yang-Sean-MC, which presents quite a few parallels between Jinfeng and fem!MC.

Following the attack, Sifu and Sean’s father avenge Jinfeng by dealing with her attackers, though Sifu is affected enough by the experience that he vows to take the Wude path; on the other hand, Sean’s father has no problem beating people up loll And afterward, they support Jinfeng as she heals, and they all train and grow up together! 😁

Regarding Sifu and Sean’s father, I imagine they lived in a similar region as Jinfeng as kids – Sifu was probably better off; meanwhile, Sean’s father was in the roughest neighbourhood and developed a rough personality because of it, which is later passed down to Sean. I’d say Sifu was the most level-headed of the trio (though he’d still get in some trouble as a kid hahaa); he’s the “middle sibling” and the most conscious about the virtues in kung-fu. Sean’s father was protective of Sifu and Jinfeng as a kid, given that he’s the eldest; but he’s probably the reason they got in rough (or dangerous) situations in the first place loll 😅

In their adult era, I like to think that Sifu and Sean’s father are pretty smart when they’re separate, but when you put them together, they gotta share one braincell while Jinfeng gets the other to herself 😂 I even had this crack idea about putting the three in an escape room; Sifu would climb out the window (or search for the key if there’s no window), Sean’s father would break the door down, and Jinfeng would force them to solve the room lmaoo

I think having Jinfeng as their little sister adds to the betrayal later when she works with Yang to take down the Guardians. By that point, she likely had some disagreements with Sifu and Sean’s father about the talismans, but they didn’t realize how far she was willing to go to do it. I do think she truly believed what she did was for the best – she wanted to prevent others from suffering what she did as a child – but at the same time, I imagine she had to bury her guilt and grief so deeply that she wouldn’t feel it anymore.

I also headcanon that she’s kept her conspiracy board up for eight years because she regularly goes down to the Rift to look at Sifu and Sean’s father’s portraits, since she has no other mementos of them (which is something I’ve added to my extended Sifu fic XD)

And that’s the summary of my thoughts! I did start a mini-comic about Jinfeng last year, but it’s been sitting in my drafts forever and I don’t know if I’ll ever return to it 😭But anyway, thank you so much for your ask, anon!! I always love a chance to ramble about my ideas lololl (and feel free to share yours too, if you’d like! 😊💗)

[switch]

okay I didn't end up answering immediately because I have a Merlin and Castoria and so I decided to jump in and get a Himiko from the friend list and it actually worked! Thank you!!! Apparently I need to try stalling more often, it's kinda fun as long as I don't do it regularly lol (also no Ryouma because I only started playing like two years ago 🙃 being a late joiner is suffering)

oh i'm glad you were able to use that setup!

yeah from what i remember that's one of the better stall teams for most situations.

[thecyrulik]

15 Questions, 15 Mutuals

Tagged by @ceph-the-ghost-writer! Trying to get back to being more active here. One day I will write a chapter of one of my stories, I swear.

Let's start!

1. Are you named after anyone? Ostensibly not! My parents had a Talk TM before I was born and they both decided that I should not be named after anyone, to make my life my own etc. They found a name that hadn't appeared on either side of my family till that day. And then my aunt named her child the same name 🙃

2. When was the last time you cried? Sad Moment TM - it was my grandma's funeral last year (the exact anniversary is due in a couple of days), and before that, my other grandma's funeral a couple of years back. I'm not a big crier, though I sometimes wish I were. Lets feelings out.

3. Do you have kids? No, but I'm cool with having them one day, with the right person to raise them with. Love the fact that those funky creatures turn into actual taxpayers with careers one day.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? not really. In text - perhaps. With people I know well - yes. Generally no, I'm not that kind of a joker. In fact, I am a little dull IRL.

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people? How they react to other people, I think. Their relations with coworkers, how they talk to customers, people above and below them in the company hierarchy etc. I love analyzing that too. I also adore trying to figure out where they're from based on their vocab/accent.

6. What’s your eye color? Greyish blue. The dullest colour there is, though one person (very dear to me) called it "like winter sky on a frosty morning". Not cool enough to be "steel eyes", not blue enough to be compared to aquatic formations. There's no such thing as ugly eye colour though, and mine isn't either.

7. Scary movies or happy endings? Def both. Scary with a happy ending. I'm not a fan of jump scares but I think characters have to fight (and sometimes suffer) for their happy ending sometimes.

8. Any special talents? Hah. what does "special" mean? I'm stubborn in all the wrong ways and it makes me end up in some odd situations. I am rarely lost and read maps very well, and if you give me a simple task that needs to be repeated 1000 times, I'll happily do it without getting bored. I will just imagine my blorbos suffering during that time, so any negative moodlets cannot affect me.

9. Where were you born? Poland! In a small town I've only ever been to twice in my life, including my birth! The local hospital used to have a wonderful maternity ward and all, so my parents went there every time they had a baby on the way.

10. What are your hobbies? I write and I read, I find out weird stuff on the internet. I like crafts like stitching and knitting, I make my own beer, cider and fruit liquers, and work in the garden a lot! Oh, and I love languages an awful lot.

11. Have you any pets? I have two cats that live with my parents now - one of them is an idiot and also quarter European wildcat - he has 2 braincells only. The other one is his domestic cat momma, a black demoness that loves staying in the shadows and attacking you when you step on her (she doesn't have a non-black hair on her body so you can imagine she is stepped on quite often).

12. What sports do you play/have played? Used to be into handball in high school. Right now I mostly swim, usually when I have to think about stuff. I can't listen to my music in the swimming pool so I'm forced to listen to y thoughts. Other than that, I juggle! And it's fun and satisfying and you can make your own juggling balls with balloons and sand/rice!

13. How tall are you? 164 cm. Not great, not terrible. I get +2 in sneaking though, and exploring basements, mines and medieval castles is generally safe for me, at least when it comes to bumping your head on low door frames.

14. Favorite subject in school? Foreign languages and biology. I also enjoyed maths a lot, but I had good teachers all the way. In uni - history of Greece, pharmaceutical botany, infectious diseases and ethics.

15. Dream job? Coming up with new blorbos to torment and put in Situations TM and talking about them. Since I have no discipline to be a full-time writer, my current job is a very nice second-best option.

Tagging @whumpsday @kim-poce @whump-cravings @andordean @hold-him-down @whumpy-writings! feel free to ignore any questions that feel too private for you, and swap them with a fun fact about one of your OC!

[gallopinggold]

Some training thoughts post clinic

I definitely have a bit of a new game plan going forward after the clinic and I wanted to organize my thoughts:

Mary- I will never take for granted again how lucky I am to have a horse that is not only pretty. but smart too, because it's apparently rarer than I thought lol. Mary has been on the back burner for bit, since she's at home and no one other than me really has to handle her, she's just been chilling and I haven't done any formal work with her other than just playing around every now and then. I would like to restart her, essentially just working through a check list and see if we can reestablish and solidify our foundation. I think her foundation is pretty good already and it won't be a long process, but I just want to make sure everything is properly done so it doesn't come back and bite us later. I'm also using an actually clicker this time, instead of just a mouth sound, in hopes of again formalizing it a bit and getting better consistency. I use to be embarrassed to use the clicker at boarding barns because its so stigmatized and I didn't want Mary treated differently because of it 🙃 Now that she's at home I don't have to work about it.

The goal is to get through on ground cooperative care behaviors, then move to in hand lateral work and strengthening exercises, and eventually move to under saddle work. I really don't ride Mary anymore because frankly she doesn't like it, so I'd like to get her going really well in hand and then see if we can make under saddle work fun for her again. Her aversion to riding is mostly based in soundness issues, I believe, as she's always struggled on and off with her EPM damage. Her feet have been looking much better since I moved her home, so I'm hoping between that and enough ground work, we can work out her soreness and muscle weakness to get her comfortable enough for light riding.

So yeah, not a ton of changes with my original plan with Mary, just now going to try and make myself to do it consistently. Upside of clicker sessions is that they can be super short but still impactful, and since Mary is literally right there, it's a lot easier for me to squeeze out 10 minutes a day to work with her.

The alpacas- These gals a bit of different ballgame. The ultimate goal with these two are to: 1) get them halter broke 2) make shearing less stressful and 3) establish low stress cooperative care. One of the big challenges I've run into with them is that there's a lot of mandatory handling that has previously been aversive to them so they already have negative associations, but it's not stuff I can stop doing. Alpacas are very susceptible to a certain type of worm carried by deer, to the point where if the average temp is above 80F (which it is in my climate is May to November) they need an ivermectin injection every ~30 days. So the girls have no choice right now but to be "grabbed and stabbed" once a month, which obviously is going to just damage the trust relationship more and more. This is the big thing I want to make cooperative for them, if the injections can eventually be low stress, it would make all our lives easier.

Alpacas suffer from the same thing mini horses often do, where because of their size, they can be manhandled into doing things against their will without a huge danger to the handlers. So there's not really been a push with selective breeding for temperament or to domesticate them more, because it's not as important as coat quality etc. My gals are both older, so they've had years and years of baggage with humans to contend with. This is no shade to the farm they came from, they were treated fairly there and were loved and cared for, but they were treated like standard livestock, which doesn't prioritize the animals emotions and choice in matters.

Another alpaca challenge is that they are soo codependent. I could probably work with Sweets on her own as long as she can see her friends, but I will never (at least at this stage) be able to work Sara on her own. She would be so stressed about not being able to freely get back to her friends that we would never reach a level of relaxation. Learned that hard way when I separated her out to give her wormer, and even with the food dish right next to the fence where Mary and Sweets were literally a foot away, she got so panicked at not being able to freely get to them she broke a gate 🙃 I hope to eventually get her settled enough that it's not a big deal, but alpacas are super herd bound by nature, so that may never change, it just may be her base personality. So I will need to figure out how to work with them simultaneously. Mary I can kick out to the pasture, the alpacas and her are fine being separated, as long as it's not like hours, and just work with the alpacas, which is a win because she likes to hog the attention.

My girls are at pretty different places in their journey too.

Sara- she like, really does not like people right now. She's incredibly fearful and anxious about me. She pops over threshold quickly, and is so sensitive to any movement from me. She will occasionally get close to me when she doesn't think I'm paying attention to her, especially if Mary is close by, but will usually run if it looks like I'm moving towards her at all. The injections have not been great so far, the strategy we've had to employ is basically restricting her to smaller area with two people, and using her running from one person to drive her into the reach of the other. Not ideal, and definitely not helping her comfort level.

I'm going to use Shawna's strategy she recommends for the untouchable horse, because that's where Sara is at. The main idea of this is to give the animal back the control of the situation, so that they can build confidence in their safety. Some key aspects involve choice, so I need to do this in an area where Sara can freely come and go. It will completely fall apart if Sara can't freely leave, the whole point is to get Sara empowered in her decisions and prove to her that nothing bad will happen to her regardless if she stays or goes. Once I can get Sara to eat in a relaxed manner in the general area of me, I'll slowly start moving her food dish closer and closer to me, then get her to to the point where she can start taking food from my hand, and then eventually start seeking me out in a "feed and retreat" strategy. None of this will be using the clicker, and I'm not trying to get a specific behavior, I'm trying to take advantage of classical conditioning and rewire her brain from thinking humans are scary to humans are chill. Once we get her able to be consistently handled, then we can move on to working with the clicker to start target training and haltering and all that fun stuff.

Sweets- does not find people nearly as aversive as Sara. Sweets doesn't like being handled, but she doesn't run from me, nor seems to care too much once caught. I would put her firmly in the neutral category right now, so my goal with her is to push me into positive, and have her actively seek me out. The same goals apply, halter breaking and cooperative care, but I feel like at least I'm starting at like +1 instead of -50 like I am with Sara? I'm planning on sticking with the same sort of game plan, just hoping it won't be nearly as long or difficult with her. Since I have to feed the two alpaca girls together, I'll be working on the same general steps with her as I am with Sara.