#i get into parent stuff in my writing every chance i freaking get

[jd-loves-fiction]

Did I say 2 reqs, I meant 3. This is gonna be a more specific one

You already know. Boothill, Gallagher, Blade, Aventurine and Ratio meeting reader of another universe and this reader almost the complete opposite of the one from their world with a different story and different circumstances.

(For more context HSR universe reader is more child-like, reckless, clearly teen aged, seeking parental validation a lot, Impulsive and just over all immature as expected from a kid.

Meanwhile this other universe reader is the same age but they are a lot more responsible, mature, basically parents the people around them, grumpy but caring (basically if you mixed Blade and Ratio personality-wise))

🌑it never eeeenndsss!! 😭(havin the time of my life) ALSO CAN YOU TELL I HAVE FAVORITES :D (maybe i should write a character study thing with Ratio too.... i like him a lot more than i realized)

✦ 𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐥 ✦

Eerie as hell, very freaked out

Like, who is this child and why do they look like you??

Obviously likes your normal self better, OBVIOUSLY

This is just weird :( you should be acting like a kid, because that's what you are, not... whatever this is

Unsettled through every enteraction with this other version of yourself, always a little distant - just can't get used to the change

Once its all over, he let's you get away with a lot more than usual (which was already a lot) and scolds you a lot less

✦ 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐝𝐞 ✦

Feels a strange sort of longing - this is what you could've been like

He sees it as the version of you, you should've turned into if you'd have a relatively pain-free life

If makes him ache in a way he hasn't been able to process yet

Lingers a lot on the possibilities - would you have never met him like this? Would that have been better for you?

Slips into self-deprication alarmingly quickly

Once it's over, he turns very introspective for a few days after

Before returning to his quiet, grumpy self, only change being he tries to make your life a little easier in all the subtle ways he can

✦ 𝐀𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐞 ✦

Definitely see the Dr. Ratio things and it freaks him out a little

He has to deal with one doctor, and now there's two?? (affectionate)

Isn't entirely pleased with the change - you're a lot less like him this was and he doesn't like it

Aven likes being able to relate to you and connect to you though your similarities (even if most of the things you have in common are undoubtedly negative)

Your similarities also help him lead you away from the worst stuff he's experienced walking the same path as you - like this though? He can't lead you, he doesn't know how and therefore feels as if he can't protect you

Spoils you like hell once the situation is solved, buying you anything you want and encouraging your childishness and recklessness - definitely not healthy, but he likes you better when you're similar

Totally has nothing to do with him seeing his younger self in you and wanting to vicariously heal himself through healing you oh my god this man needs so much therapy

✦ 𝐆𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐡𝐞𝐫 ✦

Appreciates the help? but is conflicted about the whole thing

Sure, you're being a lot more helpful than usual (or this version of you is, rather) and more well behaved on top of that, and he appreciates that BUT it's weird

It's just weird - you're a kid. You're supposed to act like him, you don't need to be good and helpful for him to enjoy having you around

Subtly urges this other version of yourself to relax a little and let loose, more so just to see if they would - they don't. He's quite surprised by it

He though they would when given the chance, that this serious version of yourself was just acting this way becasue they had to and would revert to your normal way of acting when given the chance

The thought that the you he knows isn't necessarily the you, you were meant to be is troubling

The following days, he has a troubled look in his eye but brushes you off when you try to pry

✦ 𝐃𝐫. 𝐑𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨 ✦

It's like looking into a mirror...... he's not a fan

Not in a self-centered 'I'm the only one who can act like that' kind of way, more so in 'why the hell is a kid acting like this' kind of way

Despite what some people would have you believe, Dr. Ratio is actually incrediby caring - he's just on the spectrum (that part is headcanon but tale as old as time)

His life's mission is to spread his knowledge to everyone isntead of monopolising it like the Genius Society is doing

So in a way, it's good to see you follow some of his lessons and act like he sometimes suggests you do

But it feels so damn wrong it just doesn't sit right with him

He wants you to grow to appreciate his lessons when the time is right and you're grown enough to understand them yourself

This just feels like you skipped that teenage rebellion stage that he feels is important to go through

Plus, the slight chip on his shoulder he still carries from being rejected by the Genius Society tells him, the world doesn't need more Ratio's (🥺)

Strangely encourages your misbehavior in the days to come, turns a blind eye to your troublemaking and lightens up on the lessons

The whole ordeal has him appreciating the teenage part of development more than before

AHEM - Valentine event here ;)

[gothichamster]

Freak Show [NSFW]

Hey guys my requests are still open. I’ve just been dealing with school stuff for a while. I’m happy that it’s spring break, so I can finally write again.

Summary: You used to be Jerome’s best friend. Things changed once your parents divorced and you left Gotham. Years later, you see Jerome on the news. You’re shocked, but has he changed?

You always loved the circus. It’s big and majestic. The clowns are hilarious, and the acrobats are depth defying. The smell of popcorn and elephant dung fill the air as you look around at the lights. Every time they came to town, you’d attend, and each evening would be magical.

You were sitting in the front row, when he spotted you. Jerome Valeska. He was definitely a handsome devil, but you weren’t drawn to good looks. He was charming, and tempted you into staying later after the show. You got along with him, somehow, seeing the humanity that once inhabited him.

“Most people see us as freaks.” Jerome says, looking at you in deep thought. “You’re the only person that sees through that.”

“Well, you’re human, aren’t you?” You say, quietly. “We all have feelings and emotions.”

Jerome looked into your eyes. If he’d kiss you then, maybe things would’ve worked out. He’d run away with you, leave the circus. But, he missed the chance to. He sees you leave, making his heart sink.

He killed his mom that very night.

A year goes by.

When you got back to Gotham, things had changed. You didn’t feel safe walking the streets alone. You’d always have a friend. One night, your roommate was out, leaving you home alone. You were watching the news, seeing a familiar face. Jerome had just raided the GCPD, creating chaos. He was unhinged, completely. You stood back, gasping.

You could see the madness in his eyes. You remembered them clearly. Blue with greenish flakes. He was just as bad as everyone said he was.

You heard rustling from the kitchen. The window was wide open.

You walked around the kitchen cautiously. Turning around, you noticed a knife missing. Jerome jerked behind you, pulling a knife to your throat.

“Hey (Name), did ya miss me?” Jerome says, madness twinkling in his eyes.

You gasp. “Jerome! Please don’t-“

“Relax~, I’m not gonna hurt ya.” Jerome lowers the knife. “I just wanted to see ya.”

You smile sheepishly, still terrified. “It’s been a long time, Jerome.”

He strokes your hair. “I know.” He whispered, his voice low and husky. “You’re just as pretty as I remember.”

“Jerome, I-“ You were cut off by Jerome’s chapped lips.

“Shh.” He whispered. “Don’t ruin the moment.” He kisses along your neck, biting it softly.

You blush, not pulling away. “You still have feelings for me, huh?”

“What do you think?” Jerome scoffs, nuzzling his face into your neck.

You feel his hands riding up your shorts. You push back slightly. “Jerome..”

“Just let me have this once.” He pouts, and you can’t deny that he doesn’t look incredibly cute when he begs.

You nod your head, a simple invitation that sets him wild. He lifts you up, kissing you from your cheek to your neck. He takes off his pants, springing out his cock. He rubs the shaft with his hands, getting hard enough.

You bite your lip, taking off your shorts and underwear. You sit up on your bed, spreading your legs.

Jerome was almost drooling. He looks down at you, then at his cock. “Now, you’re just teasing.”

You blush more, looking forward at his cock. He was bigger than you remember. Thick and veiny. He presses the tip against her clit, coaxing it inside her.

You let out a loud moan. “Ohh~! Mmpf-.” Jerome covers your mouth. You gulp against his hand as he began to thrust into you. His hips were hitting a rhythm that made your eyes roll back.

You gasped, feeling his other hand sneak up your throat, squeezing tightly. He pulls you into a furious kiss, his tongue slipping through your lips. He rocks his hips against you in an earth-shattering pace. You were close to your climax, and so was he.

He slammed into you over and over, making sure he was reaching his climax.

“J-Jerome!” You peeped. “I’m close~.”

“Yes.. I’m close too.” Jerome goes faster and faster, slamming against your clit.

You feel the white heat washing over you as you hit your orgasm. You’re panting and sweating. Jerome pulls out quickly as his seed spills out against your bedsheets.

“I’m gonna have to clean that up.” You pant heavily.

Jerome nuzzled his face in your neck, giggling. “I know~.”

[cranberrv]

so high school

˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ in which you run into your high-school sweetheart, darrel curtis.

( a/n : this isn’t my best work but not every piece has to be my fave! hope u cuties enjoy nonetheless, sorry i have no idea how to write darry )

his brown eyes met yours from across the classroom for the first time since grade 12.

your heart sank. you thought darry would’ve left by now, started his career as a successful football player or something even better, but he was standing in your classroom, still in tulsa.

your entire teenage years flash before your eyes — running on the field to kiss the quarterback, playing kiss marry kill, driving to parties, meeting his family. he looked the same.

darry’s eyes widen as he sees you. he elbows ponyboy. “you did not tell me that y/n l/n was your geography teacher.” he whispers.

“you’d of freaked if i had told you, man,” ponyboy whispers back.

tonight was parent-teacher interviews. one of your best students was ponyboy curtis, little brother of your high-school sweetheart. they were greasers, and you were a soc, but that never stopped you from going over to their house everyday, back when you were bittersweet 16.

“darry curtis,” you say softly, smiling gently. “long time no see.”

he avoids your gaze, his cheeks glowing pink. “yeah, nice to see you, y/n.”

“feel free to take a seat,” you offer, and they sit in front of your desk.

you begin talking about ponyboy — his incredible grades, your insistence on him participating more, assuring darry that ponyboy has a high chance of getting into a good post-secondary school.

you look at darry again. you have to address the elephant in the room — it would be weird not to. “this is weird, isn’t it?” you ask, voice soft. “i mean, we met in this school, and now i’m teaching your younger brother.”

“yeah, i guess so,” he agrees. “i honestly thought you would’ve left this dump by now, you always talked about wanting to move to new york city or toronto or somethin’.”

“yeah, plans changed.” you shrug. “i thought you would’ve moved by now, too.”

“plans changed,” he repeats, quoting you. you smile at him.

“what have you been up to since high school?” you ask him. “still play football?”

“i roof houses.” he answers. “but yeah, sometimes i fool around with football. not as much, though.”

“you were good,” you compliment.

“thanks,” he answers. he is never this awkward, what is happening? “you still into reading and history and stuff?”

“yeah,” you answer. “i mean, ponyboy can tell you, i never shut up about it when i’m teaching. always got a new book to talk about.”

and there we go. the conversation is back to ponyboy. “oh, that’s nice. pony only talks good about you. just never pieced together that it was you.”

“yeah, well, guess you thought i would’ve been gone by now.”

“guess so,” he agrees. “glad you’re not.”

you smile at him.

˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

the following weeks, you’d notice ponyboy talking to you a bit more whenever he could in class, talking to you about darry. and when you walked into the DX, sodapop asked if you were “darry’s chick,” and you had no idea how to respond.

flowers started blooming at the local park in your neighbourhood, so you decided to take a walk and pick some to decorate your classroom and decorate them for spring.

everything reminded you of him — you walked past a small punch of pink tulips. he got you tulips for your grade 11 semi-formal. he got them for a discount at the gas station, it was all he could afford. they were beautiful.

while you were walking, you spotted a gang of greasers. darry was with them, he was the tallest and stuck out like a sore thumb among the pink and yellow flowers and blossoming trees.

sodapop and ponyboy spotted you instantly, catching your eye and then telling the rest of the gang that you were here. they all excitedly started pressuring darry to go talk to you. you overheard the giggles and you couldn’t help but smile to yourself.

darry walked up to you after a few moments of resistance. you looked stunning — your hair gently waving in the warm breeze, a handful of wildflowers in your grasp. and you were smiling at him!

“hi darry,” you greet. he starts walking beside you, leaving his friends behind.

“hey, y/n,” he says. his voice is deeper than it was when you knew him. “it was real nice seein’ you at ponyboy’s parent-teacher thing.”

you agree, and then he speaks again. “i just, uh, wanted to talk to you about something.”

“what about?” you ask with a tilt of your head.

“okay, so i know we dated back in high school and stuff,” he starts. “it was real fun. we had some good times.”

“yeah, we did.” you agree.

“do you want to try again?” he asks you. his muscular body and his intimidating looks would be nothing if you heard how he was speaking now. it felt wholesome, shy, like how he asked you out in high school.

you take a second to think. you remember how you felt when he took another girl to prom 3 weeks after you broke up, you remember how that hurt you and how you wanted to kill him. but you remember watching shows with him on saturday nights, you remember kissing in the backseat, you remember his mom, mrs. curtis, kissing you on the cheek the first time you met her. you remember cheering when he got a touchdown, you remember him kissing tears off your face when he got hurt in a rumble. you remember the good and the bad. and when you look back up at him, you feel so high school.

“yeah,” you say softly. “i would love that, darry.”

[janethekillsyou]

grabs you grabs you i need every last thought youve ever had on jeff the killer. llease i need the rant

I AM HAPPY TO PROVIDE THE RANT

this is going under a read more. i did not realize i wrote enough to go under a read more. tldr boy that jeff sure can the kill you

okay so. i will be candid in saying my jeffery is an *asshole* like. not a lot of redeeming qualities. most of the time i write creepypasta stuff im writing from jane / someone close to jane’s perspective (cause. she’s my favorite. i am biased as hell i do not hide this fact) so like. not a lot of chances to see him in a positive light, yknow? that disclaimer aside.

A lot of his backstory is. pretty in line with how Jeff Woods’s story normally goes. Jeff is around 13-14, gets bullied a lot, Liu takes the fall when Jeff beats up one of his bullies (a reoccurring trait is that. this kid is strong. i haven’t decided if that’s just How He Is or if the Slenderman is placing his thumb on the scale and seeing what happens but), getting sent off to juvie etc etc. His parents. Aren’t the greatest. They’re not abusive but they really. do not give a shit about their kids to be honest.

Jeff gets burned and his skin is bleached (idk if my design for jeff is more realistic or more true to the original design but like. something with fire happens there. something something you can make symbolism or a motif outta that idk im not smart enough to). Although. I’m gonna personally say this doesn’t happen at a birthday party like it does in the original cause like. Where are the adults why would they let that happen. They just corner him in like an alley or something. Idk.

Jeff recovers, wakes up, sees himself in the mirror. Kinda freaks the fuck out for a second before realizing. damn okay no this rules i can work with this. This will have consequences.

Now. Jeff spends. Probably several months in the hospital. This is where I’m deviating from canon. None of the boys face any like juvie time for the burning cause they have. Damn good lawyers or something idk walk with me here. This is good news for Jeff once he gets out of the hospital.

He doesn’t really. Think about what he does next but the next thing he knows. He catches one of them off guard, one bad hit to the head… He’s standing over a corpse. He should feel terrified… But he doesn’t. Jeff feels a rush of euphoria that he’s never felt before.

He feels alive.

He rushes home, probably. to be honest. still high on painkillers. He carves a smile in his face, a symbol of his newfound joy. He carves out his eyelids so he’d never miss a second of his kills (because yes, why would he ever stop at just one kill?)

…Of course. His parents do not respond well to this. I think we can see where that goes.

But then. Oh, but then. He hears a voice. Turns out, in the time he was recovering, Liu got out of juvie! uh oh!

Let me be clear. Liu is like. The one person in the entire universe Jeff actually cares about right now. That being said, he did just watch his brother murder their parents, and probably would tattle to the police. So. Jeff did something that hurt his soul. Then, he burned his house down to hide all the evidence.

I haven’t decided if Liu is dead or not. Amending that statement, Liu absolutely dies here, I’m just deciding if I want him to come back to be homicidal or whatever yknow. I can make up some Zalgo fuckery for him being revived sure. anyways

Turns out. Carving like half your face off. Is bad for you! Jeff absolutely would have died if not for a certain tall faceless man in a suit.

They cut out a deal. Jeff gets healed (as in, he won’t get sepsis or bleed out and his eyes stay hydrated on their own) and protection in exchange for killing whoever the slenderman tells him to. He’s not a proxy per se; he has a lot more individuality than someone like Kate or Toby does, but he is absolutely one of the most effective ‘agents’ the Slenderman has.

So much so that he has a near perfect record. He’s genuinely having the time of his life being Slenderman’s attack dog. None of the other proxies really… Like him all that much? They feel like he gets special treatment. Because he does. And also he’s an asshole. Which he is. But what does he care about them? Besides. Arguing with Toby is so much fun.

He’s having his fun, until one night. A young girl miraculously survives his attack, gets a mysterious experimental serum injected in her veins, and starts a god damn warpath to come hunt him down and. Yknow. Jane the Kill him or whatever. His perfect streak… Broken… Gotta rectify that.

Jane being. Alive and being able to give testimony also kinda fucks him over with the law. See the good thing about leaving no witnesses is that there’s no one to rat on you to the police. Unfortunately. Now every police station in [INSERT US STATE WHERE THIS TAKES PLACE HERE] knows what his very distinct face looks like. And slenderman is good. He is not. Heal several bullet wounds good, so Jeff really has to lay low for a hot minute and keep his head down if he wants to stay. Breathing. Not that the cops are particularly good at their job but yknow.

Oh and also. True crime places start to pick up on the ~juicy~ story. And a young girl hears about the “Woods Case” and becomes. Unhealthily obsessed. Uh oh a third killer has entered the scene. Hi Nina.

And I mean. That’s kinda it. Not gonna lie I feel like this is. A pretty standard and kinda. vanilla interpretation of him, I don’t have anything like. Special going on. but like. whateva

Holy shit this post is so long I didn’t even realize—

[gwiyeounsonyeon]

out of all the people you write for in cod watchdogs and strangerthings who is most to least kinky

COD i dont think a lot of these men would be diabolically kinky, like they see enough shit on a daily basis, i think they just want to be loved.

BUT-

Konig and Ghost are at the top of the list, they're into some weird shit konig moreso they're both into size difference stuff, like,

ghost cant get over how small you feel in his hands, it turns him on so fast. he covers up for it by teasing you or playfully being mean, bullying your cock if its smaller than his, poking fun at how wet your cunt is when he hasn't even touched you yet, stuff like that...

i also think he might be into bullying or degradation, not to him of course, if you try to bully him he gets all fussy but as soon as the tables are turned hes relentless.

konig LOVES your size difference, i wholeheartedly believe this man is a sub-leaning, he can still dom he just needs to be in the mood for it first but thats pretty rare. so if you're tiny and you can still dom someone the size of him hes head over heals swooning for you. if you top him AND dom him hes actually in love.

hes got some other nasty kinks as well, i can feel it

third place is a close tie between soap and price,

price is super into taboo stuff, it just takes a minute to unlock that side of him. he likes being called daddy and sir and LOVES roleplay

soap is an exhibitionist, you can't argue with me on this one. he pulling you to every little nook and cranny he knows of and having at it. there was one point in his life where he couldn't have sex in normal places like he just couldn't get hard at all unless there was a chance you could get caught.

Stranger Things

first place is Johnathan, youu know that saying i think its like the quiet people are always the freakiest.

hes nasty, i can feel it in my bones.

he LOVES taking photos of you and himself, he gets off on knowing you're probably jerking off to one of his pictures.

slight exhibitionist, he likes going to develop his photos in public dark rooms, the thought of someone seeing one gets him all hot and bothered.

hes kind of into cnc, as far as his photos, nothing more than taking pictures of you without you knowing you've already consented before

next in line HAS got to be eddie, theres someone i cant remember the name of who hc's him as a virgin and i whole heartedly believe it, hes had so much time to just sit and think, hes got so many filthy little fantasies and hes so pent up

he likes being edged, hes only thought about it, every time hes tried he ends up getting too desperate and making himself cum anyway, if its by accident or not.

he gets off on being called a pervert, maybe a freak but only if its in an explicitly playful way, theres a fine line and honestly its better to steer clear of degradation unless he states he wants it outright.

he likes being made to say what he wants, he likes to act confident and stuff but as soon as it comes to actually having sex hes so nervous.

i also think he really latches onto nonsexual domination, not like anything aggressive just if you nonchalantly do something that strikes as dominant in your every day life he starts getting hot and bothered like, telling him to do something "answer the phone, I'm busy" or "move i need to get over there" he likes a man who can assert himself without being overly aggressive.

steve and controversially billy have to be the most vanilla,

as much as i want to say steve is a kinky degenerate, hes not. hes a rich white boy with no parents, he probably just wants to be comforted during sex.

but that doesnt mean he wont try things you want to try, hes open to suggestions you have. the kinkiest thing hes ever initiated would probably be heavy making out along with some frottage in a public bathroom.

billy is heavily traumatized and very like self-repressive and oppressive, he hates himself for being gay and he probably won't let you touch him like that for the longest time.

WATCH DOGS!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so excited to get this one, i never get watch dogs asks but i love my babies sm

first on the list is wrench, duh. the guys a fucking degenerate, he wants to try any and everything, no matter what it is.

i think his personal favorites are choking, cameras/filming, wearing women's underwear, and exhibitionism less so in legion

he doesnt like being called or calling you daddy unironically, it gives him the ick if its done seriously.

second is probably jordi. the more i think about it the more i think he might be kinkier than wrench but jori knows what he likes whereas wrench will do anything.

jordis into objectifying, hes not really the kind of guy to turn to a sex worker, i see him as a fuck buddies guy purely because he thinks hes too old/his job is too much to have a real relationship with you but he still acts like your boyfriend and he gets possessive in the way where he stalks you and your socials for more info about that new guy you're hanging out with. he wants to be the only guy you fuck and what he wants he gets.

jordi also favorites rough sex and choking and he likes cumming inside you whether you like it or not.

hes also super into spending money on you but only when it benefits him, he'll whine and complain if you ask him to buy you a charger or something but hes all over buying you like expensive ass lingerie or something

in last place is marcus, im sorry but he doesn't give me kinky vibes, the kiniest hes ever gotten was playing the weekend and turned the leds red while you fucked

[rc-writes]

Hello!!!

I just read your Ethan Morgan Drabble and it was so freaking adorable. It’s so nice to see people writing for MBV as I love that show so much.

I was wondering if I can request an idea? I don’t know if you write this type of stuff but if you do then can you please write some fluffy Dad!Ethan Morgan or Dad!Benny Weir scenario (i dont know why but they both give goofy sad vibes if they were parents)

If you don’t write that sort of thing that can you write Ethan Morgan x reader, where he has to take care of his sick significant other

Thank you again!!!

𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐤

𝙢𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙨 | 𝙩𝙖𝙜𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢

pairings: ethan morgan x reader

warnings: nothing besides the reader being sick i believe

a/n: i'm glad you loved my other ethan fic! and i agree that's its so cool to see people still writing for this show. our fandom may be small but it lives on lol. and i decided to go with the sick reader request (wasn't sure if you wanted it to be hcs or an imagine so i just went with hcs because i've been wanting to write more of those) but completely agree see either of the two with kids would be both incredibly cute/funny! anyways, i hope you like the hcs!!

ethan had texted you earlier that day asking if you wanted to go see the newest zombie movie 

which on any other day you would’ve jumped at the chance to spend the entire day with your boyfriend

but today you woke up feeling like you were the zombie

but you decided against telling ethan that in fear of him going overboard

you loved that he cared but sometimes he was a but much

last time you were sick he convinced himself you must have been cursed by the monster of the week

so you opted to just tell him that you were just a bit too tired to go anywhere

which wasn’t technically a lie

you did just sleep past noon and hadn’t gotten out of bed yet

ethan was a kinda disappointed that you didn’t want to go be he understood wanting to do nothing

saving the world would take a toll on anyone

when ethan replied that he understood you’re worry of making him worry went away

unbeknownst he did still worry

you didn’t even realize in your dazed state that you responded rather deadpan-y

usually you’d crack a joke about how tiring saving the world was, or something along those lines

not just “sorry i’m just a bit too tired today :(“

ethan immediately got a feeling that there was more to the story, so he planned to go to your house and seeing you in person

curse him and his caring nature

the jig was up the moment you opened the door wearing a haphazardly thrown on robe, hair a mess, and bags under your eyes

“ethan, what are you doing here?” 

sneeze #1

“i came to see if you were alright, which you don’t seem to be”

“don’t be silly i am-” sneeze #2 “alright”

he did not believe you for a second

even if he did the multiple sneezes gave it away

let caretaker ethan mode begin

don’t even think about getting off the couch any time soon

he will insist of getting anything and everything for you

want to change the channel? he will get up and get it for you even if you’re closer

getting kinda cold?

immediately throws the biggest blanket he can find on you

need a snack?

don’t worry he spread out a million different things he found in your cabinets the moment he set foot in your house

which at first he tried to find only healthy types of snacks but your sad pleading eyes convinced him to just grab everything

“you can’t eat only oreos all day”

“but they make me feel better” *sad eyes intensify*

“okay fine”

will make it his duty to find every tissue box in the vicinity and stack them up within arms reach

“i don’t think i’ll need that many”

“it’s just in case”

besides the many snacks laid out be prepared to be eating many bowls of soap

i don’t think ethan knows how to properly cook so it's mostly likely from a can

not that you’re complaining, the hot soap makes your throat not feel as scratchy

he’d probably call up benny at least once

“what’s up dude!?”

“is your grandma home?”

“you want to talk to grandma??”

as much of a good friend benny is he isn’t exactly the best at spells or potion making

so he was hoping grandma weir could stir something up that could make you feel better

and grandma weir loved you so of course she does

best she can do on such short notice is make a little home remedy that clears your nasal cavity for a few hours

you take it as if she offered you gold

“i can breathe again!”

“why didn’t you tell me you couldn’t before!?”

“i was just exaggerating a bit e”

“oh” you tell him that he worries too much

but you mean the world to him, how could he not worry?

you two would spend the rest of the day binge watching random movies

eventually you’d fall asleep on ethan’s shoulder

he’s a bit upset that you fell asleep during his favorite part of the movie

but he’s more than happy to see you finally sleeping peacefully

he falls asleep not much later

thankfully for you both you woke up the next morning feeling much better

and you about to cheer for joy when ethan suddenly starts sneezing

guess it’s his turn to be sick

oops

[acowardinmordor]

My brain won't shut up about this, so maybe if I write it my brain will let me finish working and get this massive work project off my plate.

Warning for Accidental Drunken Pregnancy

Fandom loves, correctly, the idea of Girl!Steve Harrington, either as an 'always a' or trans, we're a fan. And that's good. No arguments from me there.

But I was thinking about Always a Girl Eddie. And the impact that would have. Because see, Eddie is already Wrong in a lot of ways. She's poor, she's loud, she's a freak, she sells drugs, and starts shit with bullies. She's too much in every way, and she refuses to be a girl properly. Has ever since she was old enough to express an opinion.

She didn't want to play with dolls or play house. She wanted to run through the park chasing dragons. When her parents fought, she wanted to run away and get found by the Addams family where no one would be mad at her for liking black and reading about blood and fights and monsters.

By the time she's in high school, everyone's decided she's a lesbian. She isn't. She thinks she isn't, but she doesn't get a chance to try or test or find out before the whole damn town has made it Known. Eddie doesn't wear skirts, and she doesn't style her hair, and she doesn't listen when the counselor sits her down to talk about her behavior and how she needs to try to be a bit more like other girls if she wants to get married one day. That's her junior year, which is when she snaps and, true or not, goes on a rant about being a carpet munching butch who never wants to have a husband.

Her friends don't care. They've talked to her and agree its all bullshit. Her only regret about it is that her outburst becomes fodder for the kind of bias that makes her fail two classes her senior year. It makes her fail four her second time around. PE is one of them. The teacher won't let her participate if she isn't 'dressed appropriately' which suddenly requires that all the girls have their legs shaved. Surprise surprise, Eddie is the only one that has an impact on. Wayne gets into a shouting match over it, and he wins, but not in time for Eddie to pass.

And every time someone pushes her to be more ladylike, Eddie doubles down on being a freak because she's a lot of things, but she's not a quitter. The one good she knows she manages is that barely any other girls in Hawkins get bullied all that much. Eddie pulls too much attention, and Eddie is so far off the end of the scale, it makes the minor mistakes easy to ignore.

All her friends are guys because the girls of Hawkins are scared of the witch/lesbian/succubus/whatever bs they came up with this week. There are some girls who Eddie thinks want to come talk to her, thinks she'd be friends with if she could, but any girl willingly hanging around the Freak is going to get painted with the same brush.

She showed up to every single class in her third go around, daring her teachers to fail her again when she was getting perfect scores on anything with a straight answer, and doing so well on the subjective stuff they were giving her passing grades. She had a new flock of sheep who didn't care about the rumors because she ran Hellfire for them.

After Spring Break, after they accuse her of seducing and murdering Chrissy, after Eddie walks into Mordor and is dragged out the other side. After Eddie gives everything she has for a town that hates her, the school gives her the diploma. Maybe its just because they're terrified that she'll come back for a fourth try if they don't, but she has the damn thing.

Or maybe they don't want the new freshmen to start crying when they see her scars.

After the hospital lets them all leave, and after El and Will do whatever it is they do and promise it's over for real this time, Robin, Eddie, and Harrington sit around and watch crap movies and talk. It's still June when Robin comes out to her, and Eddie has to awkwardly explain that she isn't. Supportive, in favor of it, but not sure if she's like Robin.

"But everyone heard about what you said to--"

"Yeah, she was telling me I should start curling my hair and wearing makeup so I could find a husband."

"She did not."

"Yeah. I kinda snapped."

A few minutes tearing apart that kind of thinking later, and Steve asks, "So you like dudes?"

Eddie shrugs, because she's never tested that either. A bit of leftover enmity from when he was the King and she was the Freak keeps her from admitting she's a virgin. Instead she gestures to her face and neck, the part of her chest visible around her tank top.

"Don't think that's going to matter, Stevie, not now that I look like the Wicked Witch midway through melting."

There's nothing either of them can say about that. Between her status as a murder suspect, the infection from Upside Down dirt, and how efficient the demo bat fuckers were, her scars are ugly. Not the sort of thing she's read in books that a hero learns to take pride in. Just a mess. Her smile is jacked up on the left, and while she does have both of her nipples, the one boob is significantly smaller, and lumpier than the other now.

But they're friends, and its nice. Robin didn't find a fellow lesbian, but Eddie can understand the way she feels, and they bond over it. Where Robin goes, so goes Steve, so intentional or not, Eddie and Steve get close. Help each other with scar cream type close. It would be weird if there was any universe in which Steve would ever be interested in her. Instead they're good friends, and co-conspirators against the gremlins.

Robin is starting college in the spring semester in Chicago. Steve is going with her. Obviously. Eddie hasn't agreed to anything, but she's considering it.

They have one last party at Harrington's place. The kids leave around seven. The Hellfire guys leave around nine. By eleven, all three of them are plastered, and Robin is lamenting that she's leaving Hawkins and still hasn't kissed a girl. Eddie rolls her eyes and smacks one on her. Get it over and done with, right?

After an hour of Robin flustered and babbling about 'yes, yes, yeah, I do like girls! Kissing! Kissing girls is great! Steve! Steve-o! Did you know kissing girls is great?" she passes out on the couch.

Steve and Eddie, just sober enough to know that they're all going to be hungover in the morning, close blinds and lock doors. They leave water and asprin by Robin, then chug down a glass each.

"So, did it help you figure it out? Kissing my Soulmate with a capital P? Did you figure out if you like kissing girls more than guys?"

Eddie giggles instead of answering.

"I know Rob's not kissed anyone, but if you liked kissing her you probably could tell, right? So if you liked kissing her as much as you like kissing guys, or if its not like kissing guys, then you know!"

Steve's not a dumb as the kids joke. When Eddie doesn't answer, he puts it together. "Oh. Oh shit. Eds. You and Robin were each others' first kisses? Thats so -- you didn't have to do that! And now you don't know if you like kissing girls or guys or both or neither or -- Oh!"

Eddie watches Steve come to his decision and turn, and she decides to let it happen. Steve is the only guy her age who doesn't wince looking at her face. This is probably the only chance she's got until she's old enough her skin gets all wrinkly and no one can see the scars are there anymore.

It's better than kissing Robin. There's a lot of reasons why that might be true, but none of them matter, because after that first one. After a few seconds pause. After she leans a little closer like she's asking, they don't stop.

She wakes up naked and sore, with a blinding headache and the tight-skin pain that comes from forgetting the scar cream.

Awkward doesn't cover it when they look at each other in bed. When Robin trips on her way to make coffee, it gives them an excuse not to talk about it. It's bad enough that Eddie keeps thinking about it, and excavating the fragments of memory she's got. Probably the only chance she's going to get, and she remembers barely half. She does remember liking it, and Steve liking it, and neither of them being weird about the scars because they've been helping each other with them for months now.

Once they're sober enough for it, they talk, both of them apologizing, but not really. Neither of them regret it, even if it wasn't their best idea, and Eddie starts quoting Robin's rant about antiquated concepts of virginity when Steve tries to apologize for that. It's definitely weird, but they're not going to freak out about it.

By Wednesday, when Steve and Rob are loading up the beemer to drive north before the holidays, so they could get a place with a rental discount, everyone turns out to say bye. Eddie winks at Robin again, because it still makes her blush, and it still makes Eddie and Steve laugh when she does. She gives Steve a hug, and a promise to make a decision soon about moving up with them.

Six weeks of scheduled phone calls with them, and uncomfortable talks with Wayne, Eddie has finally, finally decided to go for it. She'll still be a freak, but according to Steve, no one in the city will bother her about it unless she asks them to. He's working at a diner, and swears the bookstore across the street will totally hire Eddie if she applies. Robin loves her classes, and her part time hours at the library on campus.

It's while Eddie is looking around and opening drawers, trying to plan how to move with more detail than 'throw stuff in the van' that she notices. There's a box of pads, mostly empty, in the corner of the bathroom cabinet. It's been mostly empty since November. And yeah, her period has never been predictable, and this isn't the longest its gone, and Eddie has never cared since she wears black all the time -- but. This time she had sex.

The odds are tiny, and the image of it is ridiculous. Eddie isn't any kind of a mom. Harrington is more a mom than she is. Anyway, all that shit in sex ed about it only takes once is crap. And she remembers Steve getting out the box of condoms. She doesn't remember anything between that and getting fucked, but she definitely remembers how concerned he was about opening the foil. So there's no way. No chance. Absolutely none.

The test comes back positive, and the nurse at the planed parenthood in Indianapolis asks if she wants to hear about her options.

It's pretty easy to choose as it turns out. Easier than quitting smoking cold turkey is for sure. Hell of a lot easier than telling Wayne. It's not something she ever wanted, ever thought about or considered, but Eddie knows this is the only chance she's got. Well. Sperm donors maybe, not that she'll ever have the money for it, unless she paid a guy to keep coming around until she got knocked up.

At first, she keeps it quiet because the nurse told her about the potential problems, especially with how much Eddie drank and smoked. It's not certain, so she stays quiet. Stalls the topic of moving up. She waits an entire day for the doctor to slip her in between appointments to get an ultrasound and check. Everything looks good. Healthy. and Eddie gets on their weekly scheduled call, hears Robin and Steve laughing as they tell stories, and Eddie breaks it to them.

"What do you mean? You said you were going to move up here. I thought you said you -- Eds, what the hell? You're going to leave me alone to watch Robin's attempts at flirting? You - I thought you promised."

"Excuse you, Dingus, she needs to come up so we can watch your attempts at flirting. I'm great."

"Fun as that sounds, me and Wayne are getting out of Hawkins. Wayne has some family in West Virginia, and I can't leave him at the mercy of all those spinsters. I'll still have a phone, you know."

They move before she's showing, and Wayne never asks, and Eddie never tells, but her uncle knows who it has to be. They land in Summersville, which is a damn lie since its a blizzard when they arrive. It isn't hard to use moving as an excuse to cancel a few phone calls. Then uses a boss moving her hours working at motel as an excuse when hormones means she knows she'll start sobbing if she gets picks up the phone.

Steve gets accepted to a community college. Robin aces her exams. Eddie finds out she's having a girl. She wouldn't have spent the money to find out since it wouldn't change anything, but the planned parenthood was still worried because of the alcohol at the start.

Wayne brings it up. Eddie considers it.

Steve gets a girlfriend. Eddie stalls.

Robin calls solo because Steve is on a one month anniversary date.

Eddie abandons the idea.

She never makes a choice to hide it from anybody. It's always one moment at a time, needing to get through one more thing, one more problem, one more checkpoint, then she could say it. By the end of July it's been too long, and it would be too weird. They didn't have some great tragic romance. They were good friends who got drunk one night. And Eddie is just living up to the warnings all the guidance counselors scribbled down about her.

She's never going to be anything special. She's not going to go chase her dreams and become the Joan Jett of metal music. She's coming up on eight months pregnant, can't hide it or pretend its something it isn't. She's still loud and obnoxious. She still wears all black and chained pants and refuses to style her hair in anything more complex than a ponytail. She's still mauled by monsters and scarred.

She's never going to be marriage material, and never wanted to be anyway. She can be a good mom though. Not a normal mom. Or a traditional one. She's probably going to end up punching someone at a pta meeting. But she can be a good mom for her daughter, whoever her daughter wants to be as she grows. And if that means she has to learn about ballet and glitter and my little pony, then she will.

Steve and Robin ask about a visit before their classes start since they'll have to do calls every other week now. They offer to drive to West Virginia, or buy Eddie a bus ticket. Eddie manages to dodge that bullet.

She dodges another when she starts contractions while on the phone with them, and plays it off like she has heartburn. She cries when she holds her daughter thirty hours later, smiling broad enough that the scars on her face hurt nearly as bad as the rest of her.

She gets good at sewing together a patchwork lie. Gets Wayne to take Lulu out for a walk during calls. Swallows the guilt when Steve talks about his girlfriend, Amy, who wants to have kids. Stares down the pediatrician who raises an eyebrow at her daughter's name.

It's awful. It's wonderful. It hurts more to do it alone than Eddie could have imagined, but she still can't bring herself to say it. Not because she thinks Steve would hate her for it . He wouldn't. One look at Stephanie Luthien Munson -- Lulu -- and Steve would know. And Steve would stay. And Steve would give up his classes and his girlfriend and his hope for his perfect family. Eddie has always known she's not what anyone is looking for.

So Eddie gets good at dodging questions, and explaining away noises in the background, and finding very reasonable excuses not to come out to visit. Very good at it.

She makes it to June of 1989, when her best friends decide it's been too long, and show up for a surprise visit.

Eddie was right though. It only takes a glance at the toddler on Eddie's hip as she opens the door for both of them to know.

[spidersonicbatl0]

Going over every pages of the devil dilemma to explain why I don’t like it: part 2 attack of the trans scars (unfinished)

Page 25: Damian is giving his school schedule by Zechariah. Who actually a anthro in this. And I actually like this change. For know who don’t know, Cameron (zoophobia main character) is plan to get multi love interest through zoophobia and it obviously one of tho love interest is Zechariah. Who a feral cheetah with human intelligence. But still, it’s weird! Plus, it weird that some animals creatures in safe heaven are feral while other are anthro. So yeah, good chance.

Page 26-28: jack is wondering why Damian is on the surface and Damian explains why. After saying that, Damian begs jack not to tell his mum or his own mum. Jack promises he won’t.

Page 29-31: jack ask about tenta and Damian say she ok. He also said that Styx is doing good (I guess Damian ignored the ‘really wish I wasn’t here right now’ button) and his parents are always too busy to spend time with him. Damian then ask Jack about her mum and jack say his mum is working two jobs to pay the bills. Damian ask “why don’t you move into my place”

DAMIAN, WOULD NEVER SAY THIS! Mentalbreze, what are you smoking!? Do you even know Damian personally!? Anyway. Jack and Damian go to their locker’s. Damian see jack locker has ‘freak’ spray painted on it. Leading Damian to said “who’s writing that stuff on locker?”. You Damian! If mentalbreze understands you as a character. In all seriousness tho it probably rusty.

Page 32-35: Damian notices the hand cast on jack arm and ask why he has one, despite having a healing factor. Jack explains he met three of his friends earlier this year. They didn’t know about jack curse before then. So jack actually feels normal for the first time ever. And to be completely honest with you, I actually like this changed. It makes no sense why someone with a healing factor has a cast on their arm. So saying jack keeps a cast on because it reminds him of the only time he’s felt normal. That a good change, I like that.

Page 36-39: jack take Damian to theaters class. Jack also tells Damian not to mention he a demon to anyone. Damian responds by saying “but.. won’t it be obvious? I mean.. my eyes- and I’m floating-“ maybe if you stop floating Damian. They might think you’re normal.

Anyway, Damian meets jack friends. Vanexa, spam (75% he on the autism spectrum), Kayla and zill. Who I need to mention something about him.

Mentalbreze like trans and race Headcannons. If you don’t know what that means. It means mentalbreze personally view a character as trans or different race (mostly black or Mexican), even tho they not. I bringing this up because mentalbreze Headcannon zill as trans. Despite never being trans.

Now, mentalbreze says “this is just fun, it not hurting anyone” well tally. 1. Real life trans people or people of different color skins are being harassed, ostracized or killed for existing. So saying “mario is trans” is very insulting to real life trans people struggle. 2. If you want to represent yourself or community, create a oc to be trans or a different race. Look at someone like spiderverse miles morales, he has different interests, struggles and few unique powers from Peter Parker. Heck! comic miles was created to be a black spider man, because Brian Micheal bendis wanted his adopted daughters to related to spider man more easily. He didn’t just kill Peter off temporarily and resurrect him as black. Bendis made an original character instead.

And 3. How is this fun? Like I could make a list of 10 things that are fun to read, watch or play right now. Actually I going to do that now.

The Batman. Great film, that opening of criminals doing illegal stuff before the bat signal turn on, causing them to stop what they’re doing is amazing.

Into the spiderverse. Incredible animation film with amazing animation, spectacular music, sensational storytelling and ultimate characters writing.

Invincible. Spectacular comic that a love letter to superheroes. Seriously this series is [title card]

Sonic generations. A celebration of sonic history (in 2011) with two playing sonics (one representing the modern (at the time) boost gameplay and the other one representing the genesis gameplay.), fan favorite stages from sonic history, amazing rearranging music of old songs, iconic bossfights reimagined and a re released with side game focusing on fan favorite shadow the hedgehog.

5 years later. A web comic epilogue of Ben 10 and danny phantom (also invader zim). Made to give both shows a better ending. Tho side media mostly focused on Ben universe (somewhat justified, because Danny retired after the events of phantom planet). It still on going right now, so if you’re a fan of either franchises. I highly recommend reading it.

The last of us. Do I even need to explain why this is good.

Doom eternal. Hazbin hotel is temporary, doom is eternal!

Smash bros ultimate. The ultimate crossover fighter game.

Batman Arkham series. Best superhero games based on an establish hero.

God of war series. Incredible of a man turning from a monster to hero.

Back to the story. Damian see Kayla for the first time and want to put something in her stomach pouch if you what I mean 😉. Spam then ask Damian something, why is his eyes red and black.

Page 40-43: Damian almost let it slip he a demon, but jack stop him by pull his hand over Damian mouth. Reminded him not to tell people that, Damian responded by licking jack hand. God why can’t we have more of the actual Damian.

Damian self monologue about his time spent with Jack friends. Talk about hanging out with spam, vanexa and jack (saying that makes me want to hit my head against the wall). Except zill for some reason despite Damian not harassing Kayla or pulling pranks on jack here. Damian then talk about how perfect Kayla is, at least this version of Damian still a simp.

Page 44-49: Damian and Kayla are hanging out when she ask Damian a question. Where is he from. Damian wonder if a good idea to reveal his secret but decide to it in hope of getting relationship upgrade with Kayla.

So Damian tell Kayla he the Antichrist and for some reason Kayla is still scared. Damian here a nice guy and isn’t sexual harassment her. Does mentalbreze know Kayla doesn’t fear damian just because he a demon? Genuinely question

[devondespresso]

Find the Word Tag Game!!

tagged by @lingeringmirth and my words are: beloved, insipient, clever, diverse and pervasive

unfortunately, my vocabulary hasn't extended to any of these, outside of one joke use of "my beloved" in the planning notes of my doc, and since i see no rules I'm making my own and stealing (oh so evil) lingeringmirth's words (because i already know i use them all the time)

Tear, Frown, Skin, Heard, and Lean

Tear -

Steve shook his head, finally sitting up and breathing. “No, sorry I– hey, what’s wrong?” He leaned forward to get a better look at Dustin's face, and as his mind woke up he finally heard the shakiness of his breath and saw light reflecting off tears falling just below his eyes. Steve dropped his feet to the ground and gave Dustin the space to sit.

Frown -

The sound of scattered clinks came from behind them, stopping just as sudden as it started. Steve turned around and saw Mrs. Henderson paused after pouring cat food in a dish. She put the box down, opening the bag inside to put the food back. Steve turned back around quickly. He chanced a glance at Dustin, who was still looking back over his shoulder, eyes shiny and mouth hanging in a small frown. After a moment he turned back around, busying himself with spreading jelly but blinking too much to be really over it.

Skin - (the most painful one to just choose one from, so we picked my favouite from the Dustin pov chapter)

Dustin had to take another breath. At least he was getting it out of the way. Better now in the house with clean supplies than in the car, or the tunnels, where Upside Down stuff could get in and make him sick. He took the wet side again, trying to scrub the dried blood off while being gentle, using a different spot on the towel every time it got too dark. The dry blood was stubborn, sticking to the skin like a scab and he couldn’t be sure how hard he could scrub without hurting Steve more. Not that Steve could feel it right now.

Heard -

Steve huffed a laugh before pressing the button.  “Well right now I'm sitting in Dustin’s room talking to nerds on a walkie.” “You’re so funny, Harrington, now why are you at Dustin's?” Steve laughed again, this time letting it be heard, and leaned back against the dresser. “Hopper freaked when he heard my parents are out of town and can’t check to make sure I don't die in my sleep. Dustin volunteered his couch till they're back.”

Lean - (also difficult to choose, but mostly becuase it's apparently all i write with 84 appearances in my document, so heres the most recent one)

He turned back around to the house, looking just as he left it. He walked around to the back of the patio to grab the slipper that he dropped, but turning the corner he found the area empty. Steve tiptoed up to the sliding door, opening it just enough to slip inside. The house looked empty with one glance around. He slid the door shut behind him, intending to go upstairs, but a few steps into the room and he made eye-contact with his mom. Leaning against the kitchen wall, arms folded with the missing slipper in hand, watching and waiting for him to notice.

and im tagging @marvel-ous-m @eriquin @roguenancy @sharpbutsoft @itsthestrangestthings @findafight

and your words are: strange, shaking, smile, scratch, and still.

[smolwritingchick]

What is Next for The Bangtan Gal!? Upcoming Chapters Part 2!

Damn, I'm really back writing this story with new chapters. It's weird yet exciting. Please bear with me with slow updates. I will try my best not to take forever to upload. You are welcome to skip this if you do not want to be spoiled on what I plan to write next for this story. 

Here is what I plan to work on. Some of these chapter titles may be placeholders and not everything is revealed in the summary as I'm still planning to get the gist of what's happening. As well as when I'll put smut and suggestive content in it. So stay tuned! But here is the first set of what I plan to write.

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Blood, Sweat, and Tears- Jennie and Jimin fight over his extreme diet. BTS film BST with Jennie and Taehyung filming a sexy scene together. Jennie spends time with GOT7. (This will be the last time I write about his diet. There is angst in this but it will end fluffy with them making up. I apologize in advance for the angst :( )

Idol Parents?- BTS anticipates the release of WINGS. Jennie and Jungkook are assigned to take care of a robot baby for a parenting class at school. (A reader gave me the robot baby idea years ago and I ran with it, lol. I used to have parenting classes back in high school but could never take them because it was always full smfh. Weenies I tell ya. Always taking up spots for the classes I was interested in. College was WORSE OMFG I was pissed that I had to wait days while others got first dibs.)

Big Enough For Two- BTS promote BST as viewers and fans freak out and wonder what is going on between Jennie and Taehyung due to what they saw in the MV. Jennie suffers a wardrobe malfunction during a show. Jennie and Jungkook become stressed trying to juggle school and promotions. Pissed about having to take an exam the next morning, Jungkook's angry emotions are shown while performing late at night for a show and Jennie helps him calm down back at the dorm.

Thank You- Jennie finally tells Jungkook that she is ready for the next step. BTS continues to promote BST. JenKook plans with Bangtan and Big Hit on how they want to reveal their relationship. BTS film their Halloween dance practice

Our First Time (Jungkook smut)- Jennie celebrates her birthday in Japan and Jungkook makes it a memorable one.

BTS 3rd Muster

First Daesang!- BTS wins their first Daesang! Jennie excitedly shares on social media about her preparations to collab with Hyuna at the MAMA Awards. But less than a week before the show, Mnet claims Jennie is not ready for a vocal solo performance and it is too early in her story to perform solo. The collab gets scrapped and Hyuna plans to perform by herself which pisses off Armies with the blindslide. (That'll be the end of the Hyuna stuff. They will no longer be friends after this and I will be done writing about her. For Mnet telling Jen she is not ready, I got inspiration from Victoria Monet being told she was not ready by MTV. But best believe MAMA Awards 2017 with Big Hit making sure she gets her time to shine without dealing with another Idol like Hyuna, she will SLAY. It will suck having Jennie spend long hours every day preparing for her solo before collabing with Hyuna. She planned to release a new song too. The song I thought of was Victoria Monet's Alright. Without the cussing since it would be on TV and also without the Jaguar roaring at the end of the song. That song is a banger! Omg. The plan was to have her perform that song for the first time while DJing and then dance and stuff before Hyuna met with her on stage. She will have the chance to perform it at one of the end of the year shows instead. G-Dragon will give Jen a pep talk on everything too and show support. I hope you like the vision when I write it.)

Mama Awards 2016- Jennie and Taehyung prepare for a stage kiss at the award show and BTS wins Best Artist. Jennie still makes sure to have a little solo dance for Fire when Bangtan performs, proving that she is ready for a solo.

BREAKING!! BTS' Jennie & Jungkook dating!?- Jennie supports Taehyung during his press conference for his drama. JenKook reveal their relationship in their own unique way, catching Dispatch and the world offguard. Big Hit and Bangtan show their support for the couple

BTS GAYO Episodes 10-15

BTS RUN Episodes 10-19

Going Public- With their relationship out, Jennie and Jungkook happily enjoy being a couple without having to be private. BTS attends ISAC 

You Never Walk Alone- Jennie and Jungkook graduate high school. BTS promote their new album with Jennie getting called Storm for dyeing her hair white/grey for the new comeback.

Black Panther- BTS begins their WINGS tour. Black Panther's director reaches out to Big Hit, wanting Jennie to have a small role in the film, and makes a character for her. Excited and honored, Jennie films with the Black Panther cast in Busan for the casino/chase scene, doing her own stunts. (I have been having this idea for years! It'll be a step closer for Jennie and Jungkook to meet Chris Evans and Robert Downey Jr. I got major ideas for the future after this Marvel themed chapter! I hope you enjoy the vision when I write it! It's going to be so fun!)

Billboard Awards 2017- Jennie Media trains BTS for America as they prepare to attend the Billboard Awards. Jennie runs into Trinity from Amity. (Best believe she will make sure to let Namjoon know what a heart throb is lol. I still remember that. Lots of Jennie and Namjoon fluff. She is going to have his back)

BTS Festa 2017

BTS Bon Voyage Season 2

Love Yourself: Her- BTS perform at Seo Taiji's 25th anniversary concert. BTS promote their new album

BTS Run Episodes 20-29

BT21- BTS creates their characters for BT21. Jennie creates a cute Hamster character called JW.

American Music Awards 2017- Suffering a broken ankle, Jennie documents her recovery, trying to stay positive as she promotes with BTS in America injured.

Mic Drop Remix- BTS release the Mic Drop Remix. Jennie and Desiigner snap on his version of Mic Drop. Recovered from her injury, Jennie makes a statement with a vocal and dance solo stage during Bangtan's performance after getting her solo scrapped at last year's MAMA Awards.

New Year's Rockin' Eve

Black Panther Premiere & Press Tour In Seoul- BTS attend the Black Panther Premiere to support Jennie. Jennie attends the Press Tour of Black Panther in Korea. Hobi releases his mixtape

Burn The Stage

Complete The Square- After Hobi's mixtape is out, ARMY trends for wanting Jennie, the last of the rap line for BTS, to finally release the music she has been working on for years. (Since there will be 4 people in the rap line of BTS, RM, Suga, Hobi, and Jennie, I thought it would be cool to say complete the square since she's the last one to release solo music)

Jennie X NIKE- Jennie films commercials for her Nike endorsement with celebs like Lebron James and Kevin Hart. Jennie proves that her getting chosen to endorse Nike was one of the best business decisions as her endorsement with the brand is released and sells out immediately, creating high demand. Jennie goes on press tours to promote the brand. (I'm highkey considering her Nike collab to be like Beyonce's IVY Park. Having various collections each time. I am still brainstorming.)

Love Yourself: Tear- BTS promote their new album. BTS attends the Billboard Awards 2018. BTS goes on Ellen and the Late Late Show with James Corden. (Jennie is not a fan of Ellen and will think of the negative experience she had during the Amity days with her.)

BTS Festa 2018

The Square Is Complete- Jennie finally releases her solo music

[angrybell]

Had to go in for a meeting with my youngest’s teachers and school counselor.

Now, I’m not a fan of these meetings because I always sort of feel like they’re judging the parent. And my son doesn’t have any real problems, he’s just a little boy who doesn’t want to sit still and hasn’t learned to focus yet. Normal stuff.

This year, has been a struggle for him. Why? Because his teacher is Dolores Umbridge sans cats. My other kids have had her. It was not fun dealing with her when they were girls who could sit still and, mostly, follow all of her rules.

For a boy? She’s a freaking nightmare. The tone for the year was set when she sent home a note that he had trouble sitting still on the first day. He didn’t get up when he wasn’t supposed to. He just was fidgeting. Pretty much every other teacher at the school I like. This one… we didn’t throw in for any gifts for her because she’s just awful.

Thankfully, she got pregnant at the end of year and missed the last 2 weeks. My wife was ecstatic. It was 2 weeks without a daily email about some little infraction by my son (the most infuriating was we was wiggling his pencil too much. No noise. Just flipping it in his fingers.)

Anyways.

We go through everything, I think I’m almost home free. We know most of my son’s academic deficiencies already and we’re working on them. No surprises.

Then, the counselor pulls out a stack of papers. Fishes through them and pulls out a picture of two dinosaurs. She says “On Friday, I noticed this that your son drew. I don’t know where he heard this word. I was going to talk to the teacher’s aide and see she heard him using this language.”

One of the dinosaurs had a speech bubble drawn and it read, “What the fuke.” Which she took to mean “fuck”. It might have been. But my son’s penmanship is worthy of a doctor so there is a chance it could have meant something else. But … probably not since it was the best ‘f” and “k” I’ve ever seen him write.

“He learned it from me,” I said.

Fun being a parent.

[jos-10-minyard]

13/11/2023

I have so much to say I don't even know how to start this. Maybe discussing about how my mom's being suck a jerk with me this week. She fucking knows about all my mental health shit, and even so she gives me all the indications that she doesen't trust me enough. I already knew she and dad didn't trust me, but receiving the confirmation is tough. Very much tough.

Basically, what happened is: I'm living with my aunt in another state now, to try to take care of my mental health. It's been being really helpful, and she's an angel in my life, I can't express how much I love her and love being here, in my hometown. I'll try to apply to the university in here, so I can stay longer.

But let's go to what really matters now. Thursday, my uncle got his knee operated, and my aunt went to the hospital with him to stay a couple days. At thursday night, my older cousin and his wife came to stay with me and my youngest cousin, so we won't be alone for the night (even though I'm 20 and he's 18). Friday, my aunt told me to call my friends to sleep with us, and so I did.

So here we were: me, Rafa, Ninne and Luiz (my youngest cousin), doing a barbecue and swimming at night (it's really fucking hot here in Brazil this week). And then my dad video calls me. That's weird, my dad never calls me, it's always my mom, but I accepted it.

Dude, the second my mom saw that I was at the pool, her face immeadiatly closed and she asked what I thought I was doing. I explained to her that my aunt was the one to give the idea to call my friends, and she continued to be mad at me. I really don't know why she was mad. Did she think we were having a crazy sex night at the pool? Did she think that I had organized a rave at my aunt's house while she was away? I didn't do any of these stuff. We only had a barbecue and swimmed. Only. Oh, we watched movies too. But that's all. The only boy present in all the situation was my cousin, and that means nothing because I live with him.

Anyway, as we were hanging out the call, my dad says to me to don't do any shit, and I jokily ask "don't you guys trust me?". He answered "no". And hung out. Yeah, that's really fucked up.

See, I don't think I ever did anything to deserve that lack of trust in me. In 20 years of my life, I barely went out of home, I never got home drunk or high, always told my parents where I was going and who were with me, they know all of my friends. Even so, they still don't trust me, and I can't figure out why. I'm 20 years old and they still treat me as if I was 10 and didn't know anything about life and how to take care of myself at all.

Man, they freaked out with me having a night alone, without any "responsible adults" nearby. Imagine when I live by myself? I'm planning to move out next year, if I get into college, and live with my friends and my cats. I think that's capable of giving my mom a heart attack.

Anyway, I'll talk about this with my psychologist later on today. I hope she helps me to not feel anxious every time I talk to my mom. And that I can figure out why the fuck I don't want to come home for summer vacations. Mom wants me to spend january with her, dad and my brother, but, honestly, I feel no will to come back home. It just seem so suffocating! I don't want to go home because that means I'll have the slightly chance to meet my ex without wanting to. And that would be the worst nightmare ever.

Someday I'll tell the story about why he broke up with me. Not today. I have another important things to write about today.

One of those is that I'm under the doubt of having or not Borderline. When I went to the psychiarist, she gave me emotional control pills to take, and I have been taking them since then. She also asked if there was people with bipolarity in my family, and my aunt said that yes, there is, my other aunt and her daughter are also under this doubt. Since this, I couldn't stop thinking and researching about borderline, and it's scary how much I identify with all of the symptoms. All of them.

Also, that would explain a LOT of things in my life. For example, my whole relationship with Mileto, my ex-webgirlfriend. Yes, I webdated when I was 15, you're free to judge me.

Me and her had a relationship that worked based on cycles. There were days where we would be so in love, feeling that nothing would ever end us, imagining a future where we would happily live together with a lot of children and animals in our big house. And, then, the next day we would be fighting so hard that anything would seem to work at all.

Talking to her about it last week, we came to the conclusion that the cycles were there to satisfy both her autism and my possible borderline. By living in a cycle, she would feel safe and confortable, because she would know exactly what's about to happen next, without any scary possibilities that she couln't predict. And I would gladly live in a scenario where I could win and lose interest on her without changing our relationship status.

Yep, that wasn't healthy at all, for neither of us. But we were young and knew little or almost nothing about ourselves, thinking and acting as if we knew everything. That only got us to hurt each other more and more, getting to the point where we broke up definitively, and live happier than ever as friends. She got a girlfriend now, and they're so happy and in love! I'm glad and proud of her, truly. No jealous, just good feelings towards her.

I think that's what love truly is, after all. Being happy about someone, even though you're not the one who got them to feel good.

That leads us to another important point that's been going round and round my head these days: Pablo. He's a boy I met on Tinder when I came to live with my aunt in another state. I downloaded this app because my friends told me so, hoping I would feel a little bit better about my life if I knew new people. They said it would distract my head from thinking about my ex-boyfriend.

Well, it didn't worked 100%, but it actually helped a little.

I started going out with this guy I met there, Pablo, almost two months ago. I think it was 2 weeks after Xande broke up with me. Blame me whatever you want, but I was so desperate to feel a little bit better that I would do actually anything to feel something that wasn't complete sadness and willing to die.

We had sex a couple times, and, in my head, I was certain that it was only this: sex. Hell, how I was wrong.

Maybe I'm feeling things about him, and I'm so fucking scared. The last time I gave all of myself to someone, he threw my heart into the ground and kicked it until it was bleeding. And I'm still recovering from all the wounds he gave me. I had this conversation with Pablo a lot of times, and I honestly think he feels the same, but both of us aren't ready for a serious relationship right now. Specialty me. Seriously, I know that I'll get emotional dependence in anyone that I decide to get romantic with. And I can't do this again. Not now.

I don't think I can survive another heartbreak right now. I still think about Alexandre more than I should, more than it's healthy to think about someone who fucking hurt you until you seriously thought about death, because anything could be possibily worse than what you were feeling at that moment.

That's why I'm so scared. I don't trust anyone with my heart anymore. I can't trust. If I do it, there's a big chance of my heart coming back more injured than it was before, and that I can't handle. I need to recover this first.

Anyway, me and Pablo had the most romantic date I ever had this saturday. We spent the whole day together with my friends and cousin, then I watched him playing football (he's a goalkeeper), and then we went to a hidden spot in the city, where we layed down and watched the stars in the sky, talking about everything. It was so simple, but also so fucking meanable to both of us. It really seemed like I was living inside a romance book or fanfiction.

Alexandre said that life wasn't a book, so I didn't need to be so dramatic at all the times. Well, I think I can romanticize life a little bit now, it wouldn't hurt anyone.

[taelovesjohnny]

Time traveled and fell in love ( the outsiders ) Bullied

Jocelyn’s pov 

“ get your ass up and get ready for school” my mom yelled at me.

I ground I hated school, I always get bullied by Jackson and his two friends Mason and Sam , I did nothing to them they were like the flirty kind of bullies I don’t know it’s hard to explain. I pushed the covers off of me and took my slippers off, I grabbed my outfit for today a jean skirt and just a regular black shirt, I didn’t really like dressing in girly cloths but my mom always yelled at me for not wearing something nice, I groaned at the thought why can’t I wear what I want to. I went to the restroom and took a shower it felt nice and warm. Wants I got out I put on my cloths, brush my teeth and hair, and other stuff, and grab my book bag, my dad punched me in the stomach and I winced and ran out of the house, I skipped breakfast not wanting to throw it up.  I saw Alicia and ran up to her, sense I was holding onto my stomach I let go she already knew what my dad did and mom as well, but she doesn’t need to worry about me.

“H-hey Alic” I said 

that’s what I call her, she doesn’t let anyone but me call her that. And I have always had That stutter. 

“ hey Jock” she smiled 

I nod and we soon arrive at school, it was kind of big, I took out my phone and showed it to her.

” i-i call you d-don’t worry” I said.

” you know me to well jock” she laughed.

she always makes me either text her or call her when those boys bully me,we separated and she went to her class sadly we do not have every class together, I put my stuff away in my but before I could put my history book away the locker door was slammed shut, and I turned away and saw Jack towering over me with one hand above my head. 

“ now, I’m going to ask you one more time, be my girl friend” he smirked.

” N-No” I said. 

I didn’t get why he kept asking me this i mean he always bullied me, I tried pushing him away but he wouldn’t move, he pinned my arms to the locker and I was freaking out, he tried kissing me but I turned my head away, he signaled for Mason to hold my head still and that’s what I did I glared at Mason but he only smirked. I looked back at Jackson and he winked at me.

” J-Jack leave me a-alone” I said.

” no, never” he said.

He leaned in and kissed me and my eyes widened he let go of my arms and left holding my hands up to Sam, he was more of the kinder one and he gave me apologetic look, and held my hands up. Jack pulled me closer to him, I refused to kiss back and that got him mad so he bit my lip,I yelped and that only gave him the chance to stick his tongue in my mouth, I mentally yelled at myself for that. Suddenly I heard yelling.

” Hey get off her!” Alic yelled 

The boys ran off, it’s a long story to why they are scared of her, basically they wouldn’t leave me alone so they beat the shit out of the , I so happy to have a friend like her. She gave me a hug and I hugged her back, I’ll only let her hug me.

” are you okay “ she asked.

” n-no, he kissed m-me I don’t like him!” I said.

I was almost in tears and she hugged me tighter.

” I’ve got you, next time I’m beating his ass I promise” she said.

I couldn’t laugh or smile, I haven’t done that in years. So I just thanked her.

” thanks Alic your the best” I said.

“ I know girl” she said.

I went to class then after a bit the first period was over, and now it was English I was happy I love English class, we get to write and read books I love doing those things ( sorry if I didn’t put that in intro, I’ll do that). Good thing Alicia has this class with me she likes it to, what makes this day an okay day is that we get to read the outsiders it is me and Alicia’s favorite movie and book! My favorite character is Johnny Cade! He is like me in some way our parents both abuse us and we are both very shy. I hated the way his parents yelled and beat him and when the soc’s beats him and left a scar that set my blood boiling. I know he’s just a fictional character but I don’t care. Alicia waved at me and sat down.

” hey I’m so excited” she said.

” m-me to!” I said.

I watched the teacher come in and take a seat grabbing her own copy of the outsiders.

” okay class open you books to page one please” the teacher said.

I had already turned there, I couldn’t wait to read this book.

” I’m going to call on people to read, so pay attention” the teacher said.

I was definitely going to pay attention to this. But as soon as I looked down at it I felt dizzy for some reason, I look at Alicia and she looks pale as well, was it because I didn’t eat breakfast this morning. I asked myself, I heard aloud thud and I hit my head on the desk, that loud thud came from me because next thing I know I’m laying on the ground and blacked out..when I woke up I saw Alice laying next to me and I was cold, I looked around, how did we get hear and where were we. I go over to Alicia and try to shake her awake.

” A-Alic wake u-up” I said.

she groaned and got up, I felt something trickle down my head and I touched it feeling liquid, I was blood I must of hit my head on a table when I fell but I don’t really remember any thing.

” where are we” she asked.

“I-i have no c-clue” I said. 

Suddenly I was picked up my the waist and my eyes widened. 

“ hey baby wanna come have a good time with us” the guys smirked.

”n-no thanks” I said.

” hey you leave her alone!” Alic said 

suddenly I hear rushed foot steps and I was pulled away from the boy.

” leave her alone!” One of the boys said.

And they beat the other guys up, wait a minute they….oh my god those were the Curtis gang! I felt like I was going to pass out, I look over at Alicia and her eyes were widened to. 

“ hey are you okay” ponyboy asked.

I gulped and shook my head yes, and walked over to Alicia 

“ o-oh my g-hid he talked to me” I said 

I almost screamed a real outsiders boy talked to me. But I stayed calm, I rubbed my arms I was cold. They motioned us to follow them and we did I stayed behind to shy to walk by them, but Alicia made me walk with them, we ended up at the Curtis house. We all walked in, it was a really nice house.

” A-Are you okay, are y-you cold” Johnny asked me.

I almost fainted the one and only Johnny Cade just talked to me.

”i-I’m okay, and a-a bit” I told him. 

I saw Alicia smirking at me she new he was my fictional crush, well now I believe he is real. I looked down and blushed a bit, suddenly I felt someone put something on my shoulders and I felt warmth, I looked up to see Johnny no longer had his jean jacket on him. And I looked down and saw it was wrapped around my shoulders I blushed even more. 

“ you pretty girls can take a seat we don’t bite” Dallas smirks.

I saw Alicia’s face go red and we both sat down. 

[johnathanandrewcade]

Time traveled and fell in love ( the outsiders ) Bullied

Jocelyn’s pov 

“ get your ass up and get ready for school” my mom yelled at me.

I ground I hated school, I always get bullied by Jackson and his two friends Mason and Sam , I did nothing to them they were like the flirty kind of bullies I don’t know it’s hard to explain. I pushed the covers off of me and took my slippers off, I grabbed my outfit for today a jean skirt and just a regular black shirt, I didn’t really like dressing in girly cloths but my mom always yelled at me for not wearing something nice, I groaned at the thought why can’t I wear what I want to. I went to the restroom and took a shower it felt nice and warm. Wants I got out I put on my cloths, brush my teeth and hair, and other stuff, and grab my book bag, my dad punched me in the stomach and I winced and ran out of the house, I skipped breakfast not wanting to throw it up.  I saw Alicia and ran up to her, sense I was holding onto my stomach I let go she already knew what my dad did and mom as well, but she doesn’t need to worry about me.

“H-hey Alic” I said 

that’s what I call her, she doesn’t let anyone but me call her that. And I have always had That stutter. 

“ hey Jock” she smiled 

I nod and we soon arrive at school, it was kind of big, I took out my phone and showed it to her.

” i-i call you d-don’t worry” I said.

” you know me to well jock” she laughed.

she always makes me either text her or call her when those boys bully me,we separated and she went to her class sadly we do not have every class together, I put my stuff away in my but before I could put my history book away the locker door was slammed shut, and I turned away and saw Jack towering over me with one hand above my head. 

“ now, I’m going to ask you one more time, be my girl friend” he smirked.

” N-No” I said. 

I didn’t get why he kept asking me this i mean he always bullied me, I tried pushing him away but he wouldn’t move, he pinned my arms to the locker and I was freaking out, he tried kissing me but I turned my head away, he signaled for Mason to hold my head still and that’s what I did I glared at Mason but he only smirked. I looked back at Jackson and he winked at me.

” J-Jack leave me a-alone” I said.

” no, never” he said.

He leaned in and kissed me and my eyes widened he let go of my arms and left holding my hands up to Sam, he was more of the kinder one and he gave me apologetic look, and held my hands up. Jack pulled me closer to him, I refused to kiss back and that got him mad so he bit my lip,I yelped and that only gave him the chance to stick his tongue in my mouth, I mentally yelled at myself for that. Suddenly I heard yelling.

” Hey get off her!” Alic yelled 

The boys ran off, it’s a long story to why they are scared of her, basically they wouldn’t leave me alone so they beat the shit out of the , I so happy to have a friend like her. She gave me a hug and I hugged her back, I’ll only let her hug me.

” are you okay “ she asked.

” n-no, he kissed m-me I don’t like him!” I said.

I was almost in tears and she hugged me tighter.

” I’ve got you, next time I’m beating his ass I promise” she said.

I couldn’t laugh or smile, I haven’t done that in years. So I just thanked her.

” thanks Alic your the best” I said.

“ I know girl” she said.

I went to class then after a bit the first period was over, and now it was English I was happy I love English class, we get to write and read books I love doing those things ( sorry if I didn’t put that in intro, I’ll do that). Good thing Alicia has this class with me she likes it to, what makes this day an okay day is that we get to read the outsiders it is me and Alicia’s favorite movie and book! My favorite character is Johnny Cade! He is like me in some way our parents both abuse us and we are both very shy. I hated the way his parents yelled and beat him and when the soc’s beats him and left a scar that set my blood boiling. I know he’s just a fictional character but I don’t care. Alicia waved at me and sat down.

” hey I’m so excited” she said.

” m-me to!” I said.

I watched the teacher come in and take a seat grabbing her own copy of the outsiders.

” okay class open you books to page one please” the teacher said.

I had already turned there, I couldn’t wait to read this book.

” I’m going to call on people to read, so pay attention” the teacher said.

I was definitely going to pay attention to this. But as soon as I looked down at it I felt dizzy for some reason, I look at Alicia and she looks pale as well, was it because I didn’t eat breakfast this morning. I asked myself, I heard aloud thud and I hit my head on the desk, that loud thud came from me because next thing I know I’m laying on the ground and blacked out..when I woke up I saw Alice laying next to me and I was cold, I looked around, how did we get hear and where were we. I go over to Alicia and try to shake her awake.

” A-Alic wake u-up” I said.

she groaned and got up, I felt something trickle down my head and I touched it feeling liquid, I was blood I must of hit my head on a table when I fell but I don’t really remember any thing.

” where are we” she asked.

“I-i have no c-clue” I said. 

Suddenly I was picked up my the waist and my eyes widened. 

“ hey baby wanna come have a good time with us” the guys smirked.

”n-no thanks” I said.

” hey you leave her alone!” Alic said 

suddenly I hear rushed foot steps and I was pulled away from the boy.

” leave her alone!” One of the boys said.

And they beat the other guys up, wait a minute they….oh my god those were the Curtis gang! I felt like I was going to pass out, I look over at Alicia and her eyes were widened to. 

“ hey are you okay” ponyboy asked.

I gulped and shook my head yes, and walked over to Alicia 

“ o-oh my g-hid he talked to me” I said 

I almost screamed a real outsiders boy talked to me. But I stayed calm, I rubbed my arms I was cold. They motioned us to follow them and we did I stayed behind to shy to walk by them, but Alicia made me walk with them, we ended up at the Curtis house. We all walked in, it was a really nice house.

” A-Are you okay, are y-you cold” Johnny asked me.

I almost fainted the one and only Johnny Cade just talked to me.

”i-I’m okay, and a-a bit” I told him. 

I saw Alicia smirking at me she new he was my fictional crush, well now I believe he is real. I looked down and blushed a bit, suddenly I felt someone put something on my shoulders and I felt warmth, I looked up to see Johnny no longer had his jean jacket on him. And I looked down and saw it was wrapped around my shoulders I blushed even more. 

“ you pretty girls can take a seat we don’t bite” Dallas smirks.

I saw Alicia’s face go red and we both sat down. 

[cardiac-agreste]

I'm going to play even though it doesn't particularly apply to me, because (1) @wehadabondingmoment is awesome and I will never ignore her; and (2) I love talking about myself SO FREAKING MUCH.

So I actually don't really have any WIPs that are linkable. I mean, A Small but Stubborn Fire could technically all be published tomorrow, but I'm polishing each chapter weekly with the help of my beta readers to make steady improvements. Does that count as a WIP? I think so. Other than that, I have no other fics that are partially published. Everything is either a longfic with zero releases, or a one shot that is unreleased (unlinkable) or fully released (not a WIP).

So don't expect many links! But I can still talk about the WIPs!

WIPs

A Small but Stubborn Fire. Sabine POV, Sabine & Marinette story that significantly expands on Sabine's backstory while looking at how a parent would react to their child showing all the signs of serious trauma but won't admit anything to you. And, later, how one would react to finding out your kid is having near-death experiences on the reg. Racism, immigrant experience, family trauma, all that good stuff.

Taking Notes. Loveywalker AU one-shot TBD by end of February. I posted about this on Tumblr back in January maybe? Marinette spies on her parents and takes notes on how to be a good romantic partner so she can turn around and cement a serious romantic relationship with Catwalker as Loveybug.

Motorcycle Drive-by. Post-Lukanette breakup from Luka's POV. Likely a one-shot. He travels along the Seine musing about what might be wrong with him, and why he was so okay with dating a girl who was obviously head over heels for someone else. I think there's a lot more going on under the surface of placid Luka, and I want to write this. Homedog gets akumatized, gets dumped, and finds out who his father is in like the span of one hour. If you know the song by Third Eye Blind, that's the vibe I'm going for.

Trust. I want to know what was going on in Gabriel's head in his last moments, when he decided to trust his 14yo senti-son's life with his mortal enemy, who independently was also the girl he was trying to keep away from his son. How massively he must have come to trust her in the span of a few minutes.

Seeing Through. One-sided, T/M-rated reveal from Adrien's POV. Ladynoir is in a serious, long-term relationship that has advanced to intense over-the-costume action. Somehow, Adrien finds out LB is Marinette, but she doesn't know she's been outed. So Adrien is at school like that sweating James McAvoy gif, staring at Marinette every chance he gets, imagining all the things they've done to each other's bodies as superheroes, meanwhile Alya, Nino, and even Marinette notice him being kind of skeevy, like unable not to stare at her chest, checking out her butt when she bends over, etc.

UPCOMING

ASBSF: I am really excited about the big reveal. It's written, but I need to reshuffle some stuff because I had the layout of the boulangerie totally wrong, and this has a significant impact on how everything goes down.

Taking Notes. The current structure of the story is Marinette spies -> Marinette writes in her diary -> LVB and CW meet up -> LVB tries things -> the notes actually work, but in clumsy Marinette fashion. I've written the spying, the diary, and the end of the meetup. The rest is completely absent. I'm looking forward to writing it.

Motorcycle Drive-by. I have a flashback to Luka and Anarka when he was very young, a birthday celebration when he's sad his (unnamed-to-him) father again doesn't make an appearance.

Trust. I've been working on a meet-cute flashback for Gabriel and Emilie! Also showing Gabriel's respect for Marinette "from one punk to another."

Seeing Through. Bros, this idea took HOLD last week. I've never written anything with sexual content before (I've hardly written anything at all, tbf). This is gonna be different. Think: Marinette bending over to pick something up and Adrien remembering Ladybug's lack of panty line when he's running his hands over her (costumed) backside on a rooftop. Bc, dudes, it's the SAME FRIGGIN BUTT. It's his to touch! But not even she knows it!!!

I haven't mentioned Emma Mia! or Into the Bug-verse because they're longfics with virtually nothing written at all. One might even become my Big Bang application for 2024. (And the Emma Mia! one was someone else's idea originally so I should ask permission before releasing anything)

As far as tagging writers, it looks like the ones I know (I am not terribly popular!) have been tagged.

WIP Reblog Game

Ooooh this one looks fun. Thanks for the tag @kasienda!

I always feel like I see the same games going around and for the most part I've played them before and I feel like I have nothing new to say, so it's exciting to find something new!

List the titles your top five priorities for WIP updates (link your fics for new readers!)

An upcoming scene, event, or detail in each fic that you're looking forward to writing

Bonus: make a poll for your followers to vote on which top 5 WIP they are most excited to see an update on!

Then tag 10 writer friends!

WIP TITLES

everything i know (brings me back to us) - post-s5, post-adrinette break up ladrien fic

This Fire Won't Sleep Through The Night - alyanette princess/knight AU

Entangled - established ladynoir, post-hawkmoth angst, chat's ghosting lb. NSFW

Probably Not The Best Idea - ladrien roommates fic

Say Something - ladrien to prpr hurt/comfort in the aftermath of a sentireveal and gabe-is-hawkmoth reveal

I know I haven't updated Ladrien Roommates in almost a year and Say Something has been nearly as long but aksfbkdsjb I swear they're still on the list. Quite frankly it might take me a while to get back to Say Something though, because I'm just...very stuck. And I keep rethinking the next few chapters.

Also, Happier--my Adrigaminette WIP--gets an honourable mention in the priority list because I SWEAR I'm going to get back to it at some point 😭

UPCOMING

Okay I'm super excited about the arc that the next chapter (which with a little luck may be posted today...) is going to set into motion. Especially because I don't think anyone quite knows where precisely I'm going with it...hehehe

Hm. I have one heart-to-heart scene I have planned for a few chapters from now where Ladybug gets to know Alya a little better and maybe starts to fall for her a little...

Looking forward to the next chapter!! Like, all of it! The thing is, I feel like I need a good chunk of time to really FOCUS on writing it. And I'm still navigating balancing writing time with my work schedule.

There's a little arc that will pop up in the chapter after next where Ladybug has trouble sleeping...and naturally there's no better way to fix that than for Adrien to invite her into his bed 👀

There is a conversation between Adrien and Kagami in the next chapter that was one of the reasons the length of this fic got out of hand 😂

Okay, I think I can find 10 new people to tag... @celestialtitania, @ck2k18, @saiikavon, @mostmagical, @monpetitchattriste, @heartfulselkie, @liiinerle, @hueynomure, @rosie-b, and @wehadabondingmoment

[I'm just now noticing--because apparently when i copied the title over i did NOT read it--this says WIP REBLOG game...which maybe means I was supposed to reblog the original post akjfbskjd. but uh. too late now I'm about to post this 😂]

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just gonna sliiide into your inbox to be like. got any complicated relationship with motherhood recs?? cause I'm👀

👁️👁️ b i s c i a.

the first rec is always for all time The Broken Earth trilogy by NK Jemisin

talk about books that changed my brain chemistry and boosted my writing, especially the fifth season, which pulls a narrative trick with its 3 main character perspectives that still has me reeling and makes me resent the fact that not every protagonist is an exhausted middle aged mother who's haunted by choices and horrors of her own making!!

The Devourers by Indra Das

a take on werewolves that's at times genuinely sickening to read, esp for my body-horror-scawy ass. lot of upsetting themes fyi, like. all the themes. are upsetting. but i was left feeling like I'd just gotten the world's most dire hug. also trans allegory out the wazoo.

i feel like this one is really obligatory like yeah no shit Beloved by Toni Morrison but still: Beloved by Toni Morrison

I've never felt smart enough for this book but i think about it constantly, not just because the contents are so traumatic but the way it's written..... even now i feel like such a dunce trying to say anything about it but it's like. it broke rules in my brain about how books are supposed to be structured and understood. there's a chapter that ends in a stream of thought that's borderline incomprehensible and it's in my head forever.

ok little different now and largely positive mushy gushy mom stuff, but a lot of Brandi Carlile's songs, especially The Mother:

and her whole In These Silent Days album. particularly it's celebrating lesbian motherhood. Mama Werewolf is awesome and introduces that complication that makes me ravenous, but my favorite is her love song to her wife, You And Me On The Rock

there's a song exploder podcast episode about it. she talks about how it's an homage to her good friend Joni Mitchell, how it's about this very feminine love she shares with her wife and daughter (and now also her son) and how she spent some of her youth grappling with that femininity.

speaking of song exploder!!!!!! the episode for Song For Our Daughter by Laura Marling

Laura Marling and her partner don't have children. this song is a hypothetical about the trauma of being a girl and having your boundaries crossed when you're young. but what absolutely destroys me is that there's a string section, which was written by a violinist to whom she gave creative liberty, and in his strings he says, "i wrote this to be the character of The Daughter, so she's here in the song soaring over everything" and it just. hearing the context and then listening to the song........i show this episode to anyone who's stuck in a car with me 25 minutes.

on the subject of music, of course there's Florence + The Machine's 2022 album Dance Fever, particularly King

like hell yeah let's get primal with it

and ok this is gonna clock my grew up as a theatre kid ass but still, to this day, Next To Normal.

listening to this show as a teenager who was just starting to hate my (wonderful awesome love her) mom was like......hoooooo. it blew open the my-parents-are-human empathy. idc about like whether or not this musical lives up to the insane hype it got in the late 2000s it just meant a lot to me personally.

also there's movies i guess! but if you're not already on the Everything Everywhere All At Once train idk what we're doing

then my oldest mom-centric media of all, so old that I'm not even sure how well it holds up to my current person sensibilities, Fruits Basket

the way her death is the inciting incident for everything that happens after, and how she's a ghost that haunts the rest of the story, at times a protective spirit and at other times a traumatic poltergeist, is like. i thought i was a 13yo reading a magical high school romance what's happening to me.

then of course the current rec, Priestdaddy by Patricia Lockwood

Lockwood is a poet and this is her memoir about growing up with a Catholic priest for a dad, something that in itself seems contradictory. it's phenomenal. i can't believe someone exists who's this good at writing. her relationship with her mother is hilariously, tenderly depicted and it's questioning and resentful and loving and there's a chapter about them called the cum queens of the hyatt palace and it's the funniest thing I've ever read

oops too many words

motherhood in media borders on fixation for me lol i don't always seek it out but when it's there I'm like AAAAAAAAH, AAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAH IS ANYONE ELSE SEEING THIS GRAAAAAHHHH!!!!

........oh and undertale. how could i forget Undertale.