#i get bangers stuck in my head for whole days and im gonna make it everyones probblem

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And I'm askin' why lord

If this is how I die, lord

Why be left with no family and no friends?

Ooh

I've got no celebration

Just this consolation

Time eats all his children in the end

-The Ballad Of Jane Doe

[syubub]

Yoongi birthday reading/energy check!!

It's sweet sweet tangerine bois birthday!!

I wanted to do a cute little energy check up to see what's up and ask some fun little questions!!

I'm excited so let's just do this shit!!

Disclaimer: this is for entertainment purposes and not to be taken as fact!!

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I want to apologize for the absolute shit pictures but what's new lol

So, let's start with the platform. First thing I noticed was the blue was brighter but the platform was darker? It was like someone cranked up the contrast to 100. Ngl it looked pretty cool. Yoongis platform doesn't typically have a barrier like some of the others do so I just kinda walked in and did the whole, "happy birthday, I have questions" His energy seemed a lot more... vibrant? And playful I guess? It was really nice. Now. The actual connection was intresting because the cord was blue again and like, real thick. (I don't think my perceived thickness of the cord has and real correlation with how strong the connection is. It was just thicc) this time though, the cord was connected at the chest instead of the third eye. So i was like, ??? But my guide didn't give my any sort of helpful input (my guide likes to watch me suffer in my confusion. I'm sure of it)

Anyway, cord like that and then yoobi gave me a headbutt to connect at the third eye. Idk why he gotta be like that :( istg next time he's gonna flick my forehead or something.

I was like "cool cool cool. I want to do the reading now pls" and idk how to explain the energy other than sassy. You know? Blah blah blah I'm thinking, "I don't remember him being so cheeky but maybe I've been gone long enough for him to level up into his final sass monster form"

Anywho, this was intresting because after the little strings were connected and stuff, we plopped down on the floor. And it was like everything I was doing irl was being mimicked infront of yoons energy? So we were sitting facing eachother and I was putting the cards down between us?? Usually that doesn't happen but it was kinda fun!!

Moving right along. I first asked if there was anything he wanted to say or needed to get across and it was 11. Now, 11 has come up before and I'm still not to sure what it's in reference to? My best guess is possibly he's been seeing 11:11 or that it's 2? Idk let me know if you have any clues lol. Other stuff was just kinda banter and stuff.

So so so.

The reading. First thing I asked was how he was doing. And I shuffled his preticular way (when I ask a question I always ask for the energy to tell me how much to shuffle or when to stop. For yoongi it's always 2-2-2. So 2 bridge shuffles, 2 hand shuffles and then split the pile in 2. That's why I think 11 might be 2 to him?)

The cards we got are ace of swords rev, justice,the heirophant rev, the empress.

So based off this I was like okay. I want to pull clarity cards for the two rev cards to get a better picture so I pulled the emperor rev for ace or swords rev and strength rev and wheel of fortune rev for the heirophant rev.

Starting with the ace of swords rev, and the emperor reverse. It seems like yoongi has been re thinking his relationship to control in his life. That's he's possibly noticing any unhealthy needs to control his life and the situation around him. It could also refer to his judgment being clouded by a rigid approach.

With the justice card it makes me think that he's possibly considering a big choice in his life or that he's really doing some deconstructing of his own views. This second idea fits in well with him getting clarity on some possibly unhealthy control issues in his life.

Now. The heirophant rev, strength rev and wheel of fortune reverse. This was intresting to me bc they are all major arcana. The heirophant rev can really talk about no longer needing outside approval and making your own way in your own time bc you are your own teacher. Strength in rev I kinda read as self doubt and feeling down in this case. Like a lack of confidence in himself and his abilities. And the wheel of fortune in reverse I took to mean as his breaking cycles. All together these cards kinda paint a picture about wanting and trying to break a cycle of self doubt and self limiting beliefs and learning more about himself and why he think what he does about himself and searching through everything for truth. It's really good!! In short he's doing some nice soul searching and trusting himself to guide his own way through this self discovery!

The empress! This card seems to pop up for yoobi a lot and I think it really speaks to the abundance that surrounds him! Not just money but the abundance of creativity, love, friends ect.

Now now now. I asked him if there was anything that he wanted to tell us about himself or bts or what's happening in the near future. For that I got 2 of cups, king of wands and 3 of coins.

So the 2 of cups is partnership. Usually romantic. Could be pertaining to the may 13th thing that is ever present lol but I'll get to that later. With the 3 of coins talking about teamwork, this could definitely hint at collaborations coming up!! That's the vibe I get. No one crush my dreams. And for the king of wands it could be talking about taking the reigns on a new project and starting to get it done. Like a new opportunity. This could be a new bts project like starting a new campaign or new venture or maybe personal like the a mixtape or doing more songs for other groups ect.

I had to ask him how he was feeling about the grammys. I had to. Had to. The cards were ace of wands, 2 of wands and death reverse. When these came flying out I could help but smile. Yoongis energy was almost giddy too!

Witht he ace of wands

It's that spark of creativity and inspiration. It's that feeling when you get super excited over some new thing. I think this is the perfect example for feeling reinvigorated. The 2 of wands takes that spark from the ace and tries to funnel that excitement and newness into something directional. Using that burst of creativity to start planning for future progress!! Its so nice to see that! If they don't win (IF) you bet we're gonna get some bangers about a corrupt system. If (WHEN) they do win we'll get bangers about how thankful they are to have gotten where they are in spite of a corrupt system. I just want to hear an uncensored version of yoongi being like, "HOLY FUCKING SHIT, WE DID IT BITCHES. FUCK ALL YOU BASTARDS THAT SAID WE COULDN'T."

I can dream....

What a nice dream.

Now I asked if there was anything yoobi wanted to say to us as in advice or comfort or anything like that and I got, Clearing negativity, make time for self care, when I'm tuned into the energy of abundance I become abundant. when I'm in a state of appreciation im in vibrational alignment with my true love nature. The world rev, 2 of swords rev and that project, that person, that idea is waiting.

Awe. Take care of yourselves!! Make sure to take time to enjoy what you like and try not to let any negativity get in the way of you enjoying your days. The world rev to me seems to be talking about seeking closure on the things in your life that have been impacting you. Tie up those loose ends so you can move foward without triping over yourself and 2 of swords rev I think talks about information overload and being kinda indecisive bc of that. Take a sep back to evaluate the situation at hand because sometimes it's so close you can't see what you're looking for. Those of you who are studying and getting frustrated because you just can't seem to get it, try taking a step back and doing something to take care of yourself and come back to it so you can approach with a clearer mind. Try not to get stuck or paralyzed by choice but if you do get stuck, take some time to detach yourself from the situation and come back later!

A fair few people wanted an update on yoobis soulmate as well. If you need a refresher here's the run down. Yoongis soulmate is impossible for me to read, yoongi is a smug ass and I'm nosy and probably a little dumb.

Now that that's cleared up

I asked, "am I missing something?" (As to why I can't connect and why yoongi won't give me answers.)

I got queen of cups, magician and the high priestess. I read this as him being like, "yeah dude, you aren't woke enough"

YOONGI just give me answers pls. The high priestess is intuition and sacred knowledge, the magician is manifestation and the queen of cups is also intuition.

At this point I was like, okay you little shit, can you at least tell me how your soulmate is doing? Can you do that for me?

2 of cups, 2 of pentacles, 9 of wands and knight of wands. 2 of cups is partnership usually romantic, 2 of pentacles is priorities and managing them, 9 of wands persistence, knight of wands motivation for a new thing. His soulmate last time was in the process of going through some shit and figuring it out and it seems like now they've got a better clue of how to move foward and are currently heading towards good things/ important things in their life (possibly like working towards dream career or had an idea for a business the want to start or field they want to go in.)

I was thinking about the next question when this popped into my head, "if you know about your akashic book, do you know about your soulmates? Have you read it?" I used my pendulum. No movement at all. What so ever. "Are you listening to me?" Yes. "So answer my question please" No. "Do you like to watch me suffer?" Maybe. "Do you know the answer to the question" yes.

YOONGI WHY

This cheeky son of a bitch.

Now I was like, fuck it. Imma ask him the big boi question.

"Is your soulmate present when I do these readings?" Yes.

WHY THE FUCK CAN I NIT PICK UP ON IT???

I had to take a deep breath dude. Yoobi is testing my nerves.

"Are they hiding their energy?" No.

I was actually gonna combust. This makes no sense.

I asked yoongi if he would tell me what I'm not getting. Silence. So i ask my guide.

"lol ur dumb"

Watch me Google "how to fire your spirit guide"

Istg this feels like some dumb prank. Maybe I'm just genuinely oblivious to his soulmates energy or maybe I'm just doing something.

What do you want to bet that his soulmate is just hiding under the platform and I'm too stupid to notice or some dumb thing like that.

yoobi, sir, why must you do this?

I decided to continue.

"What message or thing have you learned from your soulmate recently that could be valuable to us?" I got healthy communication in relationships and deep replenishment.

Good to know you can have a nice communicative relationship with your soulmate bc I CAN'T.

I'm petty about it, sue me.

The message does stand though. Good communication and taking proper rest to replenish yourself.

Now I had to ask yoongi directly what he thought of may 13th.

I got the lovers, 7 of swords, the magician and judgement. The seven of swords was intresting and it makes me think there's some extra stuff at play here too. 7 of swords is about getting away with something and deceit. The clarifier was the magician.... this could mean a lot honestly. It could be that maybe yoongi will have his relationship exposed or possibly that maybe him and his soulmate meet but yoongi is disguised? Idk how that would work at all but I'm stumped. There's a lot of variations that this could be. The magician is about manifesting and having everything you need to create what you want. This could possibly mean that maybe he gets a sudden idea that's like, "oh I have to go here right now. Its super important" eventhough he has practice scheduled. So that would let down his team but he would be following his path and it might lead to him meeting his soulmate? Maybe vice versa? Idk let me know what you think??

With the judgement its about inner calling and kinda like the peak. Like shit has been leading up to this moment. With the lovers too it does seem like a union?

I asked him, "but like what's gonna happen on the 13th thought and I got the 10 of cups. Divine love, bliss, alignment, happy mushy gushy shit. This is why I'm so inclined to think that they'll meet on the 13th or things will get serious or their paths finally cross. The cards seem to heavily suggest that.

My dude. Yoongi is really sappy, pass it on.

For the last question I asked yoomgi if there was messages/ advice he had given to his soulmate that we might benefit from.

First step, open your third eye, open your heart, sign from heaven, open your arms to receiving.

A lot of opening lol.

It's good advice though learning to be open and receptive and taking that first step in tackling life or any situation.

Oki. Now for the disconnecting. It was not nearly as strange as it has been in the past. I was just like thanks dude. Again, happy birthday blah blah and I got up to leave. I noticed it looked like we were in sitting in one of those old plastic hoola hoops? Like the pink and yellow ones lol. As I was looking at and and like??? Off to the side the numbers 13, 28, 54. Obvi 54 isn't a date and then I the last yoongi check up there was book pages and I feel like 54 and 28 were the pages?? I'm not actually sure as I'm writing this so I'm gonna check.

Yep I checked. They are the page #s.

So that's intresting.

Other than that though I just kinda left and he was like, "bye" and that's all.

Not as cool as other yoongi adventures but equally as frustrating.

TLDR

Yoongis doing pretty okay and he's a cheeky little shit. My guide like to watch me suffer and yoobi is mushy gushy squishy.

Happy day of birth Syub!!

[seasidepierre]

ohhhh im gonna need you to tell us everything about the concert so i can live vicariously through you 😭😭😭

Welp, that was an absolute banger and I'm officially too old to go to concerts and be wild, now. Seriously, everything clicks, everything hurts, everything's sore. I'm in pieces. But let me do a recap of my day because my oh my was it good.

I made my way to the arena at around 2.30pm and ate on my own because I was the only one of my group of friends going to the soundcheck. It was a bit awkward and I got yelled at by a group of fans because they were giving numbers to us all (which annoyed me a little, because you're just a bunch of fans so you shouldn't tell me what to do? anyway, I respect their wish for order but I was honestly just trying to have a good time and then join my friends at the back so I truly didn't care whether I was #138 or #569 tbh). I entered the arena at 3.30pm or something like that, which wasn't granted because apparently, my friend's ticket had been scanned several times already and they wouldn't let me in. Even though my name was literally next to hers on the screen. It was so dumb, it was a joke. I got to talk with a nice lady who was in the actual 5SOS staff and explained to her that my friend couldn't attend anymore and had sent an email to explain that I was the one who could take her place. She very kindly laughed at the whole ordeal and told me I was fine, so here I was in the arena, waiting for my fave dumdums.

It was my first 5SOS soundcheck experience and tbh, it left me a bit confused. They were super late, which, granted, is a very 5SOS thing of them to do. They played Valentine (which I really don't like), answered a bunch of questions that had been pre-selected, and played Vapor (which made me want to actually sob). Calum was wearing a trucker hat, which hid his entire face during the Q&A so I'm not sure we got to actually see Calum and not some lookalike at that point. Luke was sitting crisscross it was super cute. Michael kept giggling at his own jokes and Ashton looked super soulful so I was stocked. When they played Vapor (they elt us choose between Vapor and Lie To Me), Calum had to step out to grab his phone and google the lyrics and chords, it was just hilarious. I got back out of the room, waited again and finally made it to the fifth row in front of Luke. It would have been perfect to stay there, I was so close, it was so nice, except..

Except I am ochlophobic and I could feel myself getting very very stressed out, to the point that I could hear my heart beating more loudly in my ears than the opening act. It was bad. Also, there were TONS of foreign fans who apparently didn't care at all about the rest of us and who showed up drunk or high already. Two of them tried to squeeze by me, which ended up in me having a sweaty shoulder stuck to my cheek (disgusting) and the girl in front of me, who refused to let them pass, got bitten (????). It was a massive joke. I couldn't move, my arms were stuck, I couldn't even clap. All I could do was throw my head back and get some air, which I did for most of the set. I didn't really enjoy the opening act, their music was a bit too agressive for me and tbh, the fact that I was full on the verge of a panic attack wasn't making anything better.

I squeezed on Michael's side between the two sets and felt myself breathing for good. I stayed on the side, it was really good, I could see the stage pretty well and that was all I needed.

There's something truly magical to me about the moment when Ashton finally comes on stage. For the longest time, he was the first one stepping on stage and we'd get him alone for a handful of seconds. I've been in Ashton's lane forever so it was truly a communion of some sorts between him and I. I was looking forward to this part, but they came all at once and I didn't get that little suspended in time moment. I was a bit disappointed but that was quickly swept away.

The first third of the show felt like a blur because they did not stop at all. The songs blended together, the transitions were really really good though!! They stopped to chat a couple of times but honestly, it was the perfect mix of old and new songs. Beware, they don't do the SLSP jump anymore and because I'd been told about it, I jumped myself. Gotta take the matter into your own hands lol. At some points during Talk Fast, Luke dropped the mic and Calum couldn't stop laughing, which made Luke laugh too and the whole start of the song was a giant mess.

It was overall a super super nice experience, which a couple of really weird moments, but I enjoyed my night and I'm so glad I got to see Ash and Mike again!

[alienshea]

And now, for no absolute reason, I will give every Gorillaz song from the main 6 studio albums my rating from 1-10

Self-Titled

Re-Hash: 7.5/10

Bopping tune, 2D doing his own backup vocals make me swoon, Noodle is great as always, no one really knows what the lyrics are but they’re valid

5/4: 6/10

Better than average,not the best song i’ve ever heard but still pretty good, kinda uncomfy with Noodle screaming about someone turning her dad on, drumbeat makes me wanna dance, wished they couldve made the music video

Tomorrow Comes Today: 7/10

The kind of song that gets stuck in your head all day, love the overall sad tone, music video makes me laugh now bc that one murdoc gif, makes me cry when i have depressive episodes

New Genius (Brother): 7.5/10

Love 2D’s voice in it, lyrics hit home a little bit for me, have never skipped this song tbh, overall pretty good song

Clint Eastwood: 8.5/10

I literally know all the words, I love the rap, iconic, there’s a reason it’s popular, Del is everything

Man Research (Clapper): 3/10

oooo boy i’m gonna get shit for this one, i always skip this song, i can’t stand the whole “yeah yeah” thing, the only great part about this song is the “tHiS Is a bReAkFaSt ClUuUuuUB!”

Punk: 6.5/10

gets me turnt, toooooo short, tbh i like any song where 2D yells

Sound Check (Gravity): 9/10

looooove this song, gives me body chills when the drums kick in, love the deep ass voice, overall emo kid bop

Double Bass: 8/10

nice jam, I like listening to this when I do homework or art, relaxing

Rock The House: 8/10

legit makes me get up and dance, great rhythm, music video is beautiful

19/2000: 9/10

amazing bop, gets me pumped, iconic af, first gorillaz song i ever heard and first music video i ever saw, n o o d l e

Latin Simone: 7/10

I don’t speak spanish so i cant really sing along, love the feel of it, will listen on repeat, prefer the english version but im biased

Starshine: 6.5/10

idk I don’t really listen to this one, not a bad song i just wouldn’t play it on repeat or actively look for it, i do like the vocals

Slow Country: 8.5/10

love the feeling this song gives me, kinda like im just floating, super chill song to get high to, have never skipped this song, i like the lyrics

M1A1: 8/10

super fun song to sing along with, honestly the best song they couldve ever chosen to start a concert, he   s c r e a m

OVERALL SCORE FOR SELF-TITLED: 7.5 (rounded up)

Demon Days

Last Living Souls: 9/10

absolute favourite song on the album, breakdown gives me chills, constantly changing it’s tune and i love it, the basssss <3

Kids With Guns: 6/10

I love singing the chorus, great song to have in the background, chill af

O Green World: 7.5/10

i love the instrumental of this one, vocals give me chills, kinda wish you could hear the singing more tho

Dirty Harry: 6.5/10

bopping beat, i love the rap part, overall not really the type of song i’d play on repeat but not bad

Feel Good Inc: 8/10

first and foremost the fucking bass of this song is the reason i’m learning bass, chorus gives me chills, kinda overused but i understand

El Manana: 6/10

kind of a meh song for me personally, not a bad one just not the greatest

Every Planet We Reach Is Dead: 9/10

banger, the reason im also learning guitar, vocals are on point, has made me cry before

November Has Come: 7/10

love the chorus, rap is kinda meh for me, i like the beat

All Alone: 5/10

not really a song i listen to, i like the bloopy noises

White Light: 4/10

I always skip this one tbh, better than man research but not by much

DARE: 6.5/10

this song haunts my dreams, its like the best kind of elevator music, on another note you fucking go noodle

Fire Coming Out Of The Monkey’s Head: 7.5/10

I WANNA BE A COWBOY BABY, narrative is really fucking good tho

Don’t Get Lost In Heaven: 8/10

beautiful, usually dont like gospel-esque music but i love this, gives me chills

Demon Days: 6.5/10

not my favourite tbh, meh for me

OVERALL SCORE FOR DEMON DAYS: 6.5 (rounded up)

Plastic Beach

Welcome to the World of the Plastic Beach: 7.5/10

i love snoop dogg, also this song gives me good vibes

White Flag: 5/10

ehhhh not a fan of this one, i usually skip it, i like the orchestra tho

Rhinestones Eyes: 8.5/10

i fucking love this song, great tune great vocals, i never skip it, i even got my boyfriend to start loving this song even tho he doesnt really like gorillaz

Stylo: 9/10

jesus this song, makes my heart hurt, i absoultely long singing along to this, his voiceeeee, bobby womack!

Superfast Jellyfish: 8.5/10

quirky af, i love de la soul in this one a lot, have never skipped this

Empire Ants: 9/10

so beautiful, has made me cry, both of their voices are so soft and lovely ugh

Glitter Freeze: 6/10

starts off strong but when it starts sounding like a drill i usually yeet out

Some Kind Of Nature: 8/10

used to be my favourite until i started listening to the album more, 2d’s part is so soulful omg

On Melancholy Hill: 8.5/10

so sad and amazing, music video is probably my favourite, is me and my best mate’s “song”

Broken: 9/10

ugh beautiful, i know all the words and always sing them loud af, has never skipped this song, honestly is everything

Sweepstakes: 5.5/10

not a big fan, i usually skip this one, not a horrible song just not for me

Plastic Beach: 7.5/10

love it, better at the beginning than the end, still a bop

To Binge: 10/10

WHEEEW BOY, i love this song, its so sad and amazing and gay jesus christ, the best thing murdoc has ever done

Cloud of Unknowing: 7/10

soulful and beautiful, again bobby womack!!

Pirate Jet: 7/10

i love the tune bc it gets me feeling ~spooky~, lyrics dont really make sense but thats okay

OVERALL SCORE FOR PLASTIC BEACH: 7.5 (rounded up)

The Fall

Phoner to Arizona: 8/10

gets me bopping and grooving, great music to play in the background while writing or doing art, my go to for when i draw or need background sound while I relax

Revolving Doors: 9.5/10

OOF, it so sad and it makes me feel things, i scream the lyrics errytime

Hillbilly Man: 10/10

fell in love with this the second I heard it, has been my favourite song of all time for over 2 years now, will never skip it in my life, i yearn to learn the guitar 

 Detroit: 6.5/10

generally a good happy bop, usually play it as background sound

Shy-Town: 6/10

nice to the ear, i don’t really like the prerecorded vocals of 2D but when Damon sung it live it sounds much better

Little Pink Plastic Bags: 8/10

i love it ugh, relaxing af, will never skip

The Joplin Spider: 9/10

big love for this song, its just soooo goooood

The Parish Of Space Dust: 7.5/10

big cowboy energy, sounds so sweet, 2D’s voice is unnnf

The Snake In Dallas: 7/10

good for when you wanna party but you’re depressed and can only stay in bed, love the little robotic sounds

Amarillo: 9.5/10

i meeeean what can i say, this song is so sad and gay and beautiful, ive cried while listening it this, will never skip

The Speak It Mountains: 7.5/10

this track is really weird and creepy and kind of not a song but i adore it anyway

 Aspen Forest: 8/10

beautiful sounds, the piano is so soothing, will play this on repeat while i zone out

Bobby In Phoenix: 9/10

i wanna cry every single time i hear this bobby come back

California and the Slipping of the Sun: 7.5/10

this song so so pretty and i cry every time ugh, he sounds so fed up im sorry pretty boy

Seattle Yodel: ???

what

OVERALL SCORE FOR THE FALL: 8 (rounded down)

Humanz

Ascension: 8.5/10

absolute banger, i get pumped everytime this comes on, skys falling bb

Strobelite: 7.5/10

i used to hate this song but then the music video came out and i tried it again and now i love it dont @ me

Saturnz Barz: 9/10

theres so much i could say about this song ans the mv unf

Momentz: 9/10

banger, i dance like a maniac every time i hear it, will never skip

Submission: 8/10

gives me a good chance to work on high notes, makes my skin tingly

Charger: 8.5/10

2D’s voice is so griity and i can help myself

Andromeda: 8.5/10

I’ve never skipped this song, has made me cry, makes me dance

Busted And Blue: 9/10

has made me cry several times, vocals are everything, will never skip

Carnival: 7/10

is a bop, don’t really listen to it much anymore but it’s alright

Let Me Out: 8/10

i love it, one of my favourites to rap with

Sex Murder Party: 4/10

ehhh dont like this one, i always skip it

She’s My Collar: 8.5/10

i dont want to admit the things 2D’s voice in this makes me wanna do

Hallelujah Money: 7.5/10

hated this at first, grew to love, very soothing

We Got The Power: 9.5/10

gets me FUCKING PUMPED, we do got the power fuckers

OVERALL SCORE FOR HUMANZ: 8.5 (rounded down)

The Now Now

Humility: 8.5/10

summer bop, makes me wanna dance, have never skipped

Tranz: 9.5/10

i love singing along to this bc it makes me feel sexy oops, always screams the lyrics

Hollywood: 7/10

not a huge fan of this but ill listen to it, favourite part is the chorus, also snoop doggy dogg

Kansas: 9/10

oof this song makes me cry, i always scream this 

Sorcererz: 7.5/10

ooo them vocals thooo, makes me relaxed

Idaho: 8.5/10

i love this song sm, one of my favourites of all time to sing, i wanna learn the guitar for this

Lake Zurich: 8/10

I love to listen to this while relaxing or writing, makes me wanna dance, COWBELL

Magic City: 8.5

always dancing to this, billboards on the moooon

Fireflies: 10/10

yall saw this coming, i always cry, its so somber, in close competition w HillBilly Man for my all time favourite

One Percent: 6.5/10

only song on the album i would skip and it isnt even that bad

Souk Eye: 10/10

its so gay and sad i love it sm

OVERALL SCORE FOR THE NOW NOW: 8.5 (rounded up)

So after months of me saying i’d rate the songs in order I finally did! Now keep in my the overall scores are averages, my personal rating for each album is:

Self-Titled: 8/10

Demon Days: 7/10

Plastic Beach: 8.5/10

The Fall: 8/10

Humanz: 7.5/10

The Now Now: 9/10

thanks for reading, i did this so i wouldn’t have to write an essay oops! <3

[namegoesup]

What are some of your favorite songs and least favorite songs? And what’s the reason as to why each of them are your favs/or least your favs I just really enjoy seeing your input and opinions lol

ok so i’m assuming u mean non-taylor music, this is gonna be a LONG post so i’m inserting a read more to save everyone’s sanity

note: i came back to add this to say that this is way more information than u ever could have possibly wanted so like honestly??? im so sorry asjhfdfj

ok so i’m gonna split this up into a couple categories and talk about the categories more in depth since there are so many individual songs, and then highlight some specific songs if i wanna u know.,,,(and i’m gonna try to keep taylor out of this bc that would be…too much).,,and this post is probably primarily gonna be songs that are my favs for sentimental or personal reasons, not necessarily bc of how “good” they are technically. i’m gonna break these up into periods of my life bc that’s easiest for me to organize them ok

hair - lady gaga // just dance - lady gaga // stupid boy - keith urban // we owned the night - lady antebellum // anyway - martina mcbride // moments - emerson drive // nothin better to do -leann rimes // red high heels - kellie pickler

so those songs are favs bc they stand out most from my childhood through like..,,middle school…i grew up on country music so i have a soft spot for the music that was out during like 2005-2011, i only mentioned a few here bc they were my absolute favs when i think back. but i used to sit in front of the tv at 6am and watch the cmt top 20 countdown while i ate my toast before i went to daycare (this is where i first heard taylor!!! i remember tim mcgraw when it entered the countdown ajhfsdjf) and it was my first introduction to music and like not to be emo but as soon as i like..,,saw music videos i was like fuck i wanna do that someday.,,and still to this day sometimes i get moments stuck in my head and just start fuckin crying like a loser that song makes me WEEP along w stupid boy like if u want to get me crying like a little bitch, put on stupid boy and watch me suffer. and i just have a lot of good memories associated w that time bc it felt like my entire world had opened up all bc i realized music was a thing and i suddenly had a dream to fulfill. so then i heard just dance for the first time at daycare and my little 8 year old mine imploded on the spot it was the song that got me interested in non-country music bc like ?? i hadn’t really listened to anything outside of country bc my parents never did so pop was a whole other world and after that i was.,,,hooked. country started to seem so boring in comparison and i definitely stopped listening to it as much after i heard gaga it was almost an immediate switch and i felt like i had to hide it from my parents it was a wild time my parents hated that i liked pop, specifically people like gaga but thats another story for a different time. so like a few years later i was starting to realize that i had depression and it was a really scary and confusing time for me bc i lived in a household where mental illness was v unheard of and like wrong to talk about. so i never told anyone that i never felt like i fit in w any crowd at school, i was uncertain of my own self bc of not knowing where i came from (i am adopted lmao i forgot thats relevant) and at that point in my life being adopted was really bothering me. i felt really hopeless and could never imagine a future for myself tbh and it was scary and awful and lonely and i remember hair being a song that made me feel so understood and comforted ??? also?? just a fucking banger i played it for my 8th grade journalism class bc we had to do an album review presentation and play one of the songs we liked most from the album (fun fact, we had to do this twice and the other album i presented was red and i played what for my class??? the lucky one lmao)

karaoke - drake // the whole a thousand forms of fear album by sia // jimmy crack corn - eminem and 50 cent // can’t take my eyes off of u - franki valli n the four seasons // space bound - eminem // pearl - katy perry // who am i living for - katy perry // the lucky one - taylor swift // bad romance - lady gaga

so these songs were important to me in high school, depression got worse.,, so so much worse to the point i finally had a mental breakdown to my mom at like 11pm one night and was like “plz get me help” and that went basically nowhere bc like i said, mental illness was a no no so i just shut up after that and suffered in silence so much to the point where i couldn’t walk around and see something as simple as a door wo envisioning how i could off myself w it.,, v birdbox-esque of me.,,where are my royalties. anyway, the single most important music to me at this time was sia’s gift to us all, a thousand forms of fear. my saving grace.,,my dim light.,,,i easily listened to this album like a minimum of 700 times?? literally art. the pinnacle of music. this gave my weak sad ass hope.,, it felt like a whole journey to me. i also was like the biggest low key eminem stan and i think it was bc i was so sad and i guess angry (idk about what??? lol) but i immediately illegally downloaded every single one of his albums and between a thousand forms of fear and eminem’s whole discography, that was almost what i exclusively listened to for like ?? 2 years straight?? before that tho katy perry released the pop masterpiece that is teenage dream the complete confection and pearl and who am i living for fed my depression sjhfjsdh. also like not to be a baby ace here but this is also when i started to realize that like maybe something was wrong w me bc everyone was obsessing over guys and wanting their first kiss and like blah blah blah and i literally couldn’t have cared less??? there’s a song i didn’t list, but is from teenage dream called not like the movies and it was the song that made me realize love would never be for me and at that point i didn’t know how painful that would eventually be to grow into (foreshadowing!!!!)

literally fall out boy’s entire discography

this is short but like after sophomore year i basically listened to .,,only fall out boy 24/7 . specifically the holy trinity of albums that is from under the cork tree, infinity on high, and folie a deux ((but that is not to discredit save rock n roll which is what their latest album was at the time, it was also in rotation don’t worry)) not to be dramatic but fall out boy is low key what pulled me out of my really bad depression stretch. idk why. their music always felt like home, i had never felt more validated and understood. and it still is for me like i still listen to those same three albums for weeks at a time. i know this is about specific songs but i shit u not, the entirety of those three albums are all favs, couldn’t choose a favorite if i had to

bluebird - christina perri // once in a lifetime - one direction // the scientist - coldplay // straight for the knife - sia // nothing left for u - sam smith // angel down - lady gaga // million years ago - adele // my blood - ellie goulding // the girl who cried wolf -5sos // truth to power - onerepublic // the thrill of it all - sam smith // praying - kesha // the queen - lady gaga // paranoid - post malone // champagne supernova - oasis // ever since new york - harry styles // getaway car - taylor swift // the light is coming - ariana grande // no tears left to cry - ariana grande // melodrama - lorde // vienna - billy joel // woman’s world - little mix

so all of these songs are representative of literally the worst time in my life, after i was in a horribly toxic, manipulative relationship that i never wanted to be in and then was consequently raped and almost murdered. i don’t really have a whole lot of good words to explain why these are favs bc truth be told they are favs in like.,,,the most awful way possible?? they kept me from dying to be blunt about it.  i was falling apart throughout the semester after it happened, i was being harassed and stalked while going through the legal case while still going to class for 10 hours a day and not really sleeping at one point for.,,close to 2 months?? while going through like the crippling fear and anxiety that ptsd brings. i was a walking disaster and ya girl was gonna Do It. we had a date and we had a plan.,,but here we are unfortunately sdhlskg but thats a different story. my point is.,,, i could not have been in a lower place like .,,the lowest of the lows and it made my depression back in middle school/high school look like sunshine.,,it was the first time in my life where i actually felt cut off from music it was the one thing that had always brought me solace and was always like my best friend and for the first time it really didn’t do anything for me and i remember not even really listening to music for the first month and a half after it happened.,,,anyway.,,those are songs that i eventually did listen to.,,and kept listening to.,,either to drown myself in sadness OR to force myself to see some sort of light at the end of the tunnel all the way up until like the end of last year really. it’s funny bc like my mom booked a trip for me and her to go to new york a few months after it happened. a little backstory, i love new york. i had dreamed of going there my entire childhood. i had already been twice when this trip happened and loved it w my whole heart, it was a surprise for spring break bc my mom knew how..,,let’s just say it..,,suicidal i was. it was an attempt to make me happy. so here we are on this trip and i had a mental breakdown in the middle of the street in the theater district bc of how miserable i was. i was miserable in my most favorite place. i was miserable bc i had formed such a bad need to control everything,,and for everything to be an exact way.,,,and i couldn’t. and it made me realize just how fucked up the entire incident made me/was making me, so ever since new york became really important to me bc of that.
 and from that point on, i struggled w existing in this world knowing that i would always have this dread inside of me and surrounding me for the rest of my life.,,while also struggling to find my value in other people’s lives as i’ve become negative and pessimistic about everything.,,..shoutout to lorde’s liability. its fine lmao

flamingo - kero kero bonito // white iverson - post malone // pinball wizard - the who // radio gaga - queen // sky full of stars - coldplay // waste the night - 5sos // come on eileen - dexy’s midnight runners // talk fast - 5sos // the way i am - charlie puth // nasa - ariana grande // greatest love of all - whitney houston // karma chameleon - culture club // the longest time - billy joel // don’t stop me now - queen // for the first time - the script // oh my my - onerepublic // future looks good - onerepublic // my prerogative - bobby brown // starboy - the weeknd // hymn for the weekend - coldplay and beyonce

these are songs that just make me happy!!!! they didn’t fit anywhere else but i love them and they are great. also just basically anything from post malone.,,,we know beerbongs n bentleys slaps. also starboy.,,the whole album, incredible. old town road??? honestly a banger.

as far as songs that i don’t like, it’s hard to think of some off the top of my head bc it’s honestly hard for me to truly not like a song, i can usually like some sort of aspect about anything. and if i don’t, then i just never listen to it again u know so i wouldn’t remember it easily. i can definitely name a few from taylor just bc i’m so familiar w her, and am constantly reminded of the songs that aren’t my favorite. so those would be: mine, today was a fairytale, bad blood, sweeter than fiction. also i am not a big fan of a lot of selena’s music.,,like a lot of it is flaming hot trash. specifically same old love, revival, rise, and fetish just to name a few. revival and rise are on this list bc of the god awful speaking parts.,,,and revival is just..,,not good in general aslsdfhj. i am biased tho, i don’t like selena in general and her music tends to be boring, forgettable, v surface level, and just flat out not good for me at least. idk why but perfect by ed sheeran is also not my favorite, it’s just repetitive coming from him and a little cringy for me to listen to. passionfruit by drake is boring too. like i said, when i don’t love a song i just don’t listen to it so i tend to forget about it, so i’m sorry that this part of the post is so short in comparison to the rest adksjfk

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as suggested by @elevatorville, ill be doing this whole thing (minus a few for reasons like requiring input from the asker or me legitimately just not having an answer)

answers under the cut

1: a song im ashamed of liking? def a lil peep song, maybe downtown 2: shit man, remembering my favorite lyrics is gonna be hard. theres car seat headrest's "apologies to future mes and yous, but i cant help feeling like were through. the ripping of the tape hurts my ears. in my years, i have never seen anyone quit quite like you do." from famous prophets. that one fucks me up good. 3: some of my favs are the dismemberment plan, car seat headrest and radiohead 4: god uhh i guess 1: academy award by the dismemberment plan, 2: i want you to know that im awake by car seat headrest, 3: neighborhood #1 by arcade fire, 4: age of adz by sufjan stevens, 5: the great curve by talking heads 5: this is pretty generic but. i shot the sherrif by bob marley. i was getting put on new anxiety meds and getting used to them making me barely concious while spacing out to planet earth. 6: wilco is overrated imo, but i am trying to break your heart will never not fuck me up 7: alice in chains is the shit but man in the box is overrated as all hell 8: famous prophets (stars) by car seat headrest. more specifically, the first time i heard it. the piano part was so unexpected, and THEN they pull the pain star shit. DAMN. 9: i wouldnt say they saved my life but the antlers helped me through some shit in the past. specifically hospice. shit in that album hits close to home for me and to relate to it when i needed it was kinda nice. 10: car seat headrest. deadass who else would you expect 11: grizzly bear's veckatimest and yellow house + department of eagles' the cold nose and in ear park bring back major memories to the Good Old Days. 12: kiss another day goodbye by david kauffman and eric caboor 13: i dont sing in the shower, but girlfriend is better by talking heads would be my go-to 14: in elementary school, i tried to play the flute but i sucked so bad i forged my moms signature on the practice sheets 15: uh? the tourist by radiohead maybe 16: devil in a new dress by kanye west, communist daughter by neutral milk hotel, only you by makeout videotape, family romance by department of eagles and id engager by of montreal 17: does saving weezer from becoming mediocre musicians count? 18: ok computer by radiohead. no questions here, its just like. THE album. 19: forgiveness is due by the dismemberment plan 20: i can change by lcd soundsystem 21: all i can think of is. piss on your grave by travis scott 22: passing put pieces by mac demarco. 100% 23: breathe by dandelion hands 24: comfort by jerry paper 25: sad claps by machinegirl 26: idk? i dont have a good memory of lyrics so. heres "im bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer" off of atrophy by the antlers 27: either xtc or talking heads 28: im trying to learn guitar, but its so damn hard hdhfjl 29: mac demarco. his bands shows look so fun. 30: cds. vinyls have a nice aesthetic but cds are more accessible, plus they fit my aesthetic more anyway 31: oh boy this is gonna be a long one. sober to death by car seat headrest, no surprises by radiohead, take me down by smashing pumpkins, chalk talk's cover of wouldnt it be nice, weezer's brain stew cover, the good times are killing me by modest mouse, cheerleader by grizzly bear, after hours by the velvet underground, kurt cobains cover of and i love her, nude by radiohead, only you by mac demarco, pale blue eyes by the velvet underground, when the lights went out by whitey, from the stars by redvox, i am trying to break your heart by wilco, i dont belong by look mom im on tv, me and hawkins by best witches, your protector by fleet foxes, you are you by fleece, in ear park by department of eagles, she wanted to leave by ween, let down by radiohead, helicopter by deerhunter, zebra by beach house, i want wind to blow by the microphones 32: naruto themed sexting (by pannuci’s pizza) is a pretty obligatory one. i also like despair came knocking (by daniel johnston) tremor christ (by pearl jam), and disco infiltrator (by lcd soundsystem) 33: why bother be weezer? man idk 35: sylvia by the antlers 36: ive talked about them too much here already but. im proud of how far car seat headrest has come even just since i started listening to them. im really proud that theyre getting some of the recognition they deserve. especially knowing alot of wills early stuff, its been a long time coming. 37: i want wind to blow by the microphones 38: my smile is extinct by kane strang 39: telecastic fake show by moving on is the only one i have the english name of both the band and song for. in terms of non-english songs, aside from a few edgy italian and japanese rock songs, its mostly instrumentals by far 40: submarino by franco tamponi 41: la mer by debussy 42: earthborn by brian bennett 44: rooster by alice in chains 45: just what i needed by the cars (massachusetts) 47: orange things by best witches 48: girlfriend is better by talking heads 50: i wouldnt rock it but id definately put some mf passion into academy award by the dismemberment plan 51: someone great by lcd soundsystem 52: that one part of impossible soul by sufjan stevens. you know what the fuck im talking about 54: shit, disney songs generally just arent my thing. hellfire from the hunchback of notre dame i guess? 55: kid a by radiohead 56: kim's caravan by courtney barnett 57: blow up the outside world by soundgarden 58: summer love by justin timberlake. his older albums unironically have some fucking bangers 59: pink triangle by weezer 60: eight and a half minutes by the dismemberment plan 61: two wuv by tally hall 62: guerilla radio by rage against the machine 63: spook by adult jazz 65: the summer ends by american football. some government required down-to-earth chilling 66: dreamy by jad fair 68: no one does it like you by department of eagles 69: shouldnt you be laughing by jerry paper, and bonus: a song that a former friend associated with me that really stuck is making flippy floppy by talking heads. hell, this got me into talking heads so theres that too 70: real talk? i like alot of charles mansons music. a specific example would be home is where youre happy