#i genuinely have a problem idk if it's the confirmed autism or my adhd suspicions coming back to bite me | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

immortalsins · 1 month

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flipflopping between 'this bio exam will go ok since i did zero studying for the first one and still passed' and 'i'm going to fail abysmally i need to give up on sleep, cancel my travel plans, and lock in until i know whole textbooks off by heart' so i'm stuck here with paralysing guilt and fear obviously

#the zero studying for the first exam was quite a time #the start of the downwards spiral that i'm still in tbh #and technically i've passed the whole module so ?? no need to even do this exam #it could go terribly and i'll be fine #but at the same time i know i could do better and i'm just. not doing it.#i genuinely have a problem idk if it's the confirmed autism or my adhd suspicions coming back to bite me #but i CANNOT focus #and it's kind of terrifying how little control i have over where my mind goes #i can't do anything to stop it drifting away from what i'm supposed to be taking in and idk why #is that adhd fr. or am i just stressed #it's 7pm and i've gone over one topic #not good enough . pathetic. failure material #idk how to fix it !!!!#<- medication.#most likely #but it's not like i can just try that out

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