#i for one have just accepted I'll be in student loan debt for the rest of my life

[quiteearlyonemorning]

One of my biggest pet peeves online is people on Tik Tok or Instagram posting shit like "sigh, wish I could follow my dreams and be happy but I have to work a job I hate" like no you really don't.

I've seen hundreds of people wishing they could go study anthropology or art or become an actor or musician but won't because of money or fear they won't make it, which at first made me sad but now it's just kinda pissing me off.

Okay, then do it? Go apply for schools and financial aid and scholarships, go to your local open mic night or audition for community theater. I'm not saying quit your day job by any means, but what good is complaining on the Internet in a video set over Piano Man doing you?

If you don't at least try, how're you gonna know you'll fail?

[thestarsdescend]

i have a major medical school exam next week. it's very difficult and a fair number of people do not pass it and get kicked out of med school. i have been studying for months, but i never feel confident/prepared for any exam i take. i started anti anxiety meds last week because of how bad the stress was getting. however, now that the anxiety is being reduced, the depression is getting stronger. i can't find the motivation to study this last week before the exam. i just want to accept that i prob dont know enough to pass and will def not know enough in one week and that i'll get kicked out and be in student loan debt for the rest of my life

[hotchley]

🐨 okay, Koala Kate would be an adorable tag. And I love that you reread my asks <3 I like to reread your answers, too.

Yeah, next week is my last week of junior year, hallelujah and amen. This week was a 3-day one, because of Memorial Day and then my grandpa’s funeral (which was rough in the way that all funerals are rough, but the actual service was nice). And then we work!

It’s not camp like last year, sadly. That was a volunteer thing, and I need to start saving up because I only have one more year of high school before college. I don’t know how Uni works over in the UK, but in the US college is insanely, infamously expensive. And I would like to not have student debt for the rest of my life. So sadly, no camp. I want to go back next summer though, because I’ll be old enough to be official staff and then I can get paid. This summer, I’m leading programs at local parks for kids through the city I live in. I get a badge and a key to our city hall and everything! I’m working with one of my good friends, so it should be fun.

I loved the Jubilee poem! The inserted “God save the Queen” etc bits were really cool. Gave it a nice format. I get your point about the monarchy. It feels…quite outdated. Over here we do the President and House and Senate stuff, and that is far from perfect too. I guess government will never be perfect cause it’s just people and humans are very fallible. But we’ll keep trying to fix stuff. Reach for the stars even when they burn our hands, and all :)

It's occurred to me that I could just use both lol. So I will in fact be using both! Aww, that's so sweet, I'm glad we both do it!

Oh wow... the time really has flown by! My last exam is in eighteen days which I only just realised so anyways... let's not think about that one ahahaha. Umm... what is Memorial Day? Is it like Remembrance Day? Just cos we all go into work/school if it's a weekday... yeah funerals are never nice because of what they mean, but you got through it and I'm glad the service was nice!

I actually need to find either a job or some sort of voluntary work, I just haven't had the time so it's my aim after my last exam to actually get some stuff sorted out because now really isn't the time to be focusing on that (which for some reason my family can't understand but anyways)

One more year? That's... I can't even believe it, that feels so close... aww... yeah it's expensive here but you don't pay your loan back till you're earning over a certain threshold, it's 6% of the amount over that and it gets written off after 40(?) years so I'm going to be in large amounts of debt, but it doesn't impact other things like mortgages and I can't not take the loans. But if I live at home, I'll probably get a part time job so I may be able to limit it!

Ahh that sounds like so much fun! I hope you have a great time <3

I'm so happy you did! Ah, that was probably my favourite part, especially because they sang it at the service yesterday but the headlines that had been running along the bottom before had been... it just felt very disconcerting and like the hunger games.

The monarchy has so many problems. All systems of government do, but the monarchy just feels morally so much worse. And just in general, with their history and their beliefs about things... weird...

Exactly. It's like that quote- I can't remember who said it- but it reminded me of you and it's like: we know we can't fix everything, but we believe we should fix what we can. And it's true! I know I can't fix my friends problems for them, but by accepting that sometimes all they need is for someone to listen, I can be there for them. And I can't fix the feelings of grief, but by letting them come and not repressing them, I feel better than before. And even the bad days aren't as bad anymore.

And keep reaching no matter how much <3

[xxwritemeastoryxx]

An update that no one asked for.

We're hopeful that the application we put in earlier today will be accepted. That my credit will have enough positive payment history (which it does. Cause I keep that shit at 100%) and that my credit card debt of $800 and student loans don't screw me over.

If it doesn't, I get keys on Monday. If if doesnt, I can stop stressing. If it doesn't, I can actually use my half days off to get writing done or even my art.

But if it does....welp let's not go down that rabbit hole just yet.

I'll keep it positive and let my anxiety run wild for the rest of the weekend.

My brain: we need to pack

My brain: we need to find a place to live

My brain: we need sleep before work

My brain: Thanksgiving is a few days away and we might not be able to go with the family

My brain: we should watch the Supernatural finale to distract us

My brain:.....

My brain: probably not the best thing to do right now. We cant handle anymore emotional overload.