#i finished playing mass effect and im coping by going back to the og rhowan

[where-is-caithe]

I keep thinking about sylvari!Rhowan and how she and my other sylvari, Charleigh, would be direct opposites, personality and qualifications.

Rhowan would awake at the break of dawn, a secondborn, with a wyld hunt to defend Tyria at any cost, including, but not limited to, fighting and destroying the dragons. She would have woken with a heavy burden already, and then she is taken with dozens of other secondborn and traumatized to the point of hating being alive, on top of being born with this insurmountable destiny. She has already been beaten down, she doesn't believe in herself, she doesn't believe in the pale tree's vision of a peaceful Tyria. She sees the rise of the nightmare court. She sees many of her siblings die horribly. She has no hope. She is thrust into a role she doesn't understand. It takes over 20 years before the world is ready to take on Zhaitan, and Rhowan is still not ready. She has no motivation. She's already seen too much.

Enter Charleigh. Born as Glint breathed her last breath and with a wyld hunt to defend Tyria, a dragon's voice in her mind. She knew her purpose when she awoke. She knew who she was meant to be. She trained in the Grove as a warden for a few years before signing onto the Vigil and making her way through the ranks quickly. She is a natural leader. Someone people will follow into the darkest night and trust that they will live to the end. She is everything that Rhowan should have been.

But she was not at the right place, at the right time. Meeting Trahearne on Claw Island. Defending the survivors to flee. Watching her friend sacrifice herself to give them a chance. She was not the one the Pact rallied behind to retake the fortress. And she didn't become Trahearne's second-in-command.

Complete disaster Rhowan, who was barely a crusader, who had continuously failed in the Vigil and had been put on probation prior to Claw Island, she was the one to become the Commander of the Pact. By chance.

It's not something Charleigh would think about. She has a job to do, but watching Rhowan become the leader and hope of the world. It did not inspire confidence.