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#bungou stray dogs#bsd sigma#bsd#the autism hit#this image is of a message i sent to my friends on discord#i love him sooooo much you dont understand#i just finished season 4 ITS SO COOL#i read the manga when i used to be a fan but it was 2 yrs ago so i forgot lots of it#i remember the important things though#like sigma for example#I WILL BE MAKING BSD ART AND POSTING IT#SOON I SWEAR im just busy with school ugh#people who understand and appreciate that bsd fyodor is based off raskolnikov talk to me please#i finished crime and punishment recently and its my favourite book ever#unrelated to bsd cuz i started it way before getting back into bsd
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[EXCLUSIVE] A Year in Reverse: An Insight into the Beautiful Minds behind K.P.P.D
By: Admins Tia ( @kpopbrownieficsā ), CL ( @smutfictionaddictedā ), and Kia ( @pocinamediaā )
KPopPantyDrop.
A name which promises sinful and sensual experiences galore.
But also a name which evokes feelings of inclusion, support, love, tenderness, loyalty, care, humor, sassiness, and pride.
The blog has been a staple to many kpop fans of color and other marginalized who arenāt always represented in the mainstream avenues fans use to connect with each other. Ā What started as a spur of the moment decision has turned into, in some regards, a growing empire that centers around one very simple yet often difficult principle to adhere to: Ā Diversity.
In a rare moment of vulnerability and candidness, we spoke with the beautiful admins who graciously opened up to us for this exclusive interview.
Tia:Ā First off, ladies, thank you so much for allowing us to interview you. Ā Itās rare we get a chance to have such meaningful conversations with all of you.
Soul: No, thank you for even agreeing to interview us! Ā Weāre each huge fans of the three of you so really this is quite an honor.
CL: Flattery will get you everywhere with me! [laughs] Ā How about we get started with an easy question. Ā What is the meaning of your nicknames?
Winter: Iām a loser that likes Game of Thrones and āWinter is Cummingā is pretty iconic...in my completely unbiased opinion. Ā Also wintertime can be soft flurries or can be a killer snowstorm, like me.
Syn: Itās apart of my first name. You are going to have to ask Lily why its āSynā because Iām an angel.Ā
Lily: Ā Itās the inversion of the first half of my second middle name and I just really love lilies. Ā And Syn, your name is Syn because all you drop is sin in the group chat.
Rosa: Well I just recently changed my name; itās because Iām known as the āEnglish roseā of the blog, though I donāt really know why... But I didnāt want Rose, so I chose to go Spanish with it and picked Rosa instead.
Soul: The nickname comes from the anime, Soul Eater (promo, go watch it). Uh, I always felt like I could relate to it in a way so that's why it's my nickname.
Blossom: I love flowers very very much, but my favorite of them all is the cherry blossom and thatās where i got it, pretty basic. [giggles cutely]Ā
Kiwi: I have no idea. I really don't, you're gonna have to ask the admins about this. Iād assume I'm sweet, but that'd be just a straight up lie. āŖ~ į(į)įĀ
Winter:Ā Issa lie.
CL:Ā What got you into kpop? When was it? What was the first kpop song you heard?
Kiwi: Well I had a glimpse of it when I was younger...I donāt remember how. Then last year (my Freshmen year of high school), a friend of mine brought it up and I remembered the faces of who I saw when I was younger (it was BTS btw if you wanted to know the first group, the it was Beast my friend showed me). Thatās how I got back into it and decided to catch up on it.
Blossom: The first Kpop song heard was Ringa Linga by Taeyang or Hello Bitches by CL (i donāt remember) about a year and some months ago; after that I kinda just drowned in the life and thatās about it.
Soul: For me, this happened in two separate years. The first one was when I was in 7th grade(so 2012-2013). I saw a reaction video to SNSDās Gee. I grew to like them but I never got into anyone else before I stopped listening entirely. Then fast forward to late 2015 or so, my best friend got me into Big Bang and I found BTS and Got7 on my own and the rest is history!
Rosa: Okay so Iāve told this story before, but my first K-anything was watching Gong Yoo in Coffee Prince when I was 13 or so and I fell in love with the man. I got into kpop though, when I was looking through youtube, and it recommended SNSDās āGeeā to me, when it was just released in 2009. I clicked it out of sheer curiosity, but I loved it so much.. And boom! I fell into the kpop hole.
Lily: I fucked up and watched Try Guys Take KCONLA. Eugene Lee Yang is my non-monogamous life partner, as Winter would say, so when I saw how excited he was over showing the guys and their viewers some of his favorite things about Korean culture and media--I laughed my ass off when he LITERALLY kicked Ned in the chest to demonstrate some common elements of kdrama fight scenes--I just had to watch it. Ā So that was October 2015. Ā The first song I willingly listened to (I donāt really count me hearing āGangnam Styleā and āFantastic Babyā back in 2012 since those 2 songs were played on the radio nonstop) was Big Bangās iconic anthem āBang Bang Bang.ā Ā All it took was one electric fart and my ass was actual trash. That song and the rest of MADE series is probably why Iām such YG trash.
Winter: I honestly and truly donāt know when I got into kpop. Ā My friends where I lived before moving back south who were Asian would add songs to my playlists that they thought I would like. Ā So Iāve been listening to Kpop, Mandopop, Jpop, Jrock and Krock for nearly a decade; but I didnāt start paying attention to fandoms and learning members until a few years back. Ā Itās funny because when I realized kpop was starting to take over my playlists, I sent a message in our Facebook group asking them why no one ever told me I like kpop. Ā They then reminded me Iām slow and they told me years ago.
Syn: I got into Kpop out of sheer procrastination. It was fall of 2014, and a lot was going on with my college classes, I hated my major, I was hold on to some family issues and my mental health was deteriorating. I was in a very dark place and I just needed an outlet. So I went on youtube and one video recommendation lead to another and I found out about Eric Namās āOoh Oohā. He was doing an interview and I thought he was goofy and cute and had to find more music of his. That lead me to ASC and ultimately the world of kpop. I remember distinctly that I was watching a BTS episode for āNo More Dreamsā and seeing them interact with each other and the fans and smiling, goofing off; that episode made me simile for the first time in a long time. I would like to say kpop helped me get through that year and gave me motivation to finish what I started and just to get better overall.
CL:Ā If you had to chose only one book, one song, one food and one movie, what would you pick? Just one of each!
Rosa:Ā
Book: Oh Lord, I read a lot.. Erm, Iām gonna say The Vampire Diaries books, because Iām currently reading them again for the 100th time. And Iām not tired of them.Ā
Song: Nah, I canāt choose.. I have many different favourites, from different genres. Itās impossible to pick one.Ā
Food: Hot wings (i mean the dry, crispy ones) or Spag bol or Fried dumplings.Ā
Movie: White Chicks. Iāve watched this film many, many times that I can quote pretty much every single line. But still Iām dying of laughter every time I watch it.
Lily:Ā
Book: Crime and Punishment by Dostoyevsky. Ā I love the story and I havenāt finished reading it all the way through yet so itād keep me entertained for a while. Ā
Song: I know this is really...depressing, I guess, but itād have to be Mozartās last Requiem, specifically āLacrymosa.ā I just love it SO much.
Food: Lasagna. Itās my love language. Ā
Movie: Skyfall. Ā As Winter can attest, I am a massive Bond aficionado (Iāve seen all 24 films and one of my goals in life is to drive or at the very least ride in a 1964 Aston Martin db6, my dream car honestly) and this to me is everything that a Bond film should be. I could watch it for weeks on end and never be tired of it.
Kiwi:
Book:Ā Wake by Lisa McMann.
Song: āClairvoyantā by MISOGI.
Food: Hot pot.Ā
Movie: Coraline.
Winter:
Book: The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova; Iāve read it a few times now and Iām enthralled every time. Ā
Song: Impossible, I couldnāt survive with just one song. Ā That would be torture.Ā
Food: Chicken and rice, maybe? Ā Yeah, thatās always good. Ā Or cheesy eggs and rice. Ā YUM! Ā
Movie: Cat on a Hot Tin Roof. Ā NO! Ā Cleopatra, mainly because itās long as hell and I can break it up and watch it by sections when I need a distraction.
Syn:
Book: The Color Purple by Alice Walker. Unfortunately, I havenāt had time to leisurely read and expand my book collection but anything by Alice Walker is a classic and they way she writes is amazing.Ā
Song: āReflectionā by Lea Salonga. Now truthfully I canāt choose, and if anyone asks me this question again it would change. But I love this song oh so much. Itās depressing af but it speaks the truth and it spoke to me growing up.Ā
Food: My momās seafood gumbo. Just everything.
Movie: Disneyās Mulan. That was the first disney female character I could connected with. Like every movie Iāve seen before that was like ādamsel in distress, prince come save me, Iām a princess but my life would be better with a manā. Mulan said, āEFF DAT BRUH.ā She said, āEff marriage! Yeah I know Iām different. Iām gunna go into the army so my Father wonāt have to. Iām just as good--if not BETTER--than these guys, killed the enemy, the bish SAVED China, the Emperor gave her props, AND STILL GOT THE HOT GUY AT THE END!! Just sayinā¦.. Mulan the GOAT.
Soul:
Book: Piecing Me Together by Renee Watson.Ā
Song: āStill Breathingā by Allison Iraheta.Ā
Food: Pizza. Ā
Movie: The original Halloween;Ā I can watch it over and over.
Blossom:
Book: The Book Thief by Markus ZusakĀ
Song: Any piano cover. I Ā love piano covers.Ā
Food: Chicken wraps.Ā
Movie: Howlās Moving Castle cause Iāve only seen it once and it would take me awhile to get tired of it.
Kia:Ā Based on who your Ultimate Bias is, what would be the ultimate first date?
Rosa:Ā Hm.. This one's hard cause I have so many possible answers. But Iād say either me and JB would go to a concert.. Like one of those chill throwback r&b concerts, where a bunch of artists get together and perform their songs. Or weād go to a theme park, ride a bunch of coasters and heād win me a huge stuffed animal. Either one would be followed by, food.. Lots. Of. Food. Weād bring it to a open space somewhere, with blankets, lights, drinks, music.. just laugh, eat, dance and chill.
Syn:Ā I have like categories of who my UBās are and usually itās person I fell in love with out of the group. When i think about it they all have one thing in common and is that they are silly, goofy, outgoing and fun. So I would love to go on a like carnival/state fair type of date. Play games, win prizes, ride rides (except roller coasters I donāt eff with those) , share junk food and just basically let our inner child run free. Cliche, but I would love it.
Winter:Ā It depends since my Ultimate changes with the breeze. Ā But I think a good first date would involve meeting, getting dinner/drinks/coffee and then just walking around and talking.
Soul: I have too many ults to truly answer this question, it changes up too much so it really depends on the specific person I'm into at the time.
Kiwi: I really don't know I don't think about this. I guess just a date with nature involved? Like maybe hiking???
Lily: Honestly, Iām horrible at these kinds of questions since I have far too many interests in general. And it certainly doesnāt help that Lay has just as many in common. So I think weād have to keep it simple in order to truly enjoy each otherās company and really experience the otherā¦ I guess the best way to do it would be maybe a cooking class or we both cook dinner for each other together. Can hardly go wrong with great food and even better company.
Blossom:Ā I feel like Yongguk is the type to take you out to a romantic dinner for a first date. Just imagining it is making my cheeks heat up! So cute!
CL: I actually have a follow-up for that!Ā If your bias asked you out on a date, and asked you to bring friends for the other members of his group, who would you pick?
Winter: All the girls of legal age from our blog and sister blogs. Ā [turns towards Soul, Blossom, & Kiwi]Ā Sorry !
Syn:Ā [nods head]Ā What Winter Said. All my biases are at least 21 or older soooooo yeah, sorry yāall.
Lily:Ā Well Iād bring all the girls! Duh!
Soul: All the admins; but if I had to pick one, it'd be Blossom of course.
Blossom:Ā [hugs Soul tight]Ā MY TWIN SOUL!
Kiwi: I'm just gonna bring all the girls so they don't fight me on why I didn't choose them.
Rosa: Iād bring all the girls. [turns to the rest]Ā Thereās 5 boys to choose from so yous can scramble over āem.
Lily: Kiwi, Rosa, and I are Switzerland it seems. [laughs]
Kia: So letās say you were strolling down the streets of Seoul just being your fabulous selves. Ā Or New York or Los Angeles... I donāt know. ANYWAY.Ā If you were ever scouted for KPOP, would you go into training?
Winter: [pulls out megaphone]Ā HELL NO!Ā
Syn: Can I borrow this?Ā [reaches over to grab megaphone]Ā HELLZ TO DA NAW!! As much as I would love to wear the amazing wardrobe and to be able to perform I couldnāt handle everything that comes with it. The extreme criticism, the little to none creative freedom, barely seeing my family, the sasaengs, the blatant racism. Naw, they can keep that. Iām good. Ā
Lily: Iāve been performing nearly all my life (whether it was band/orchestra, choir/show choir, plays/musicals). Ā Actually, college (except freshman year) was the first time I wasnāt on a stage. Ā So Iād say yes since I really do miss performing and I have such a passion for music. Granted, I know Iād face a shit ton of backlash and go through so much shit (discrimination, racism, you name it) but I think it really would all be worth it just to be on stage again. (Man, Iām such a sappy mess.) Ā Plus itās a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and Iād forever kick myself if I didnāt do it.
Soul: Uh, I have mixed emotions on this. Personally, I think I'd say no simply because I'm not talented in that department. Buuut, I'd do it for the experience. Thereād be so much racism and discrimination I'd endure but I think I could get through it.
Blossom: First of all I get home sick really really fast, second, I get angry pretty fast too and if i had to go through just 10% of what some idols had to deal with i would be burning my company to ashes and punching everyone in the face
Kiwi: [in her best Simon Cowell voice]Ā Itās a no for me.
Rosa: I would, to be frank. Iād miss my family... Like a lot. But I canāt help but think of all the amazing experiences I would get, I would be able to learn Korean easier as well. Plus I would love to be on the stage.
Kia: Okay, well letās say you worked for a company as a manager. Ā If you could be the manager of any girl/boy group or KHH artist who would it be and why?
Winter: For girl groups, I want to manage Stellar or EXID probably. Ā I feel like they could do so much more if they were handled properly. Ā There are so many boy groups, but I would definitely want to manage HotShot, Cross Gene or Ukiss. Ā They have so much talent but itās not being shown as well as it could be.
Soul: For me, it'd instantly go to Oh My Girl or EXID as well. Both groups have such underlying talent that's too overlooked in the industry. They're both equally amazing in their own ways and I think I could make people see that.
Rosa: Boy Group? Hmmm... Thereās two. First isĀ Got7. Surprised? I didnāt think so. It would be so cool and fun to chill with them, discuss music with them, dance with them. I would literally do an album that was all smooth r&b tracks, that I know the boys have been screaming to do since forever. I would show all the foreheads, and allow them to actually let loose and do their thing with music/choreo. Literally their deepest musical desires, Iād help them fulfill. Ā The second is Block B. Because I love them so much as well, Iād help them get all the recognition. Like you would never know. Iād up the exposure to 10,000, the whole world would know.
Blossom: TOPP DOGG! I would treat them right and let them finally go and blow people away with all their talent. They deserve BETTER. For KHH... NADA! Sheās freaking amazing and beautiful and her flow is so good.
Lily: Ā Hmmā¦ For boy group, itād definitely be--yep, you guessed it--MadTown. Ā I think itād be really fun to co-manage with their current manager Kevin because heās just an adorable ball of fluff who really loves them and, of course, theyāre my boys so Iād work my ass off to get them every opportunity possible to let each of them and/or all of them shine. Ā For girl groups, itād either be BlackPink or Red Velvet. Ā Iām such a sucker for them and Iād constantly be hyping them up like the stage mom I know myself to be. Ā For KHH, itās hands down Jessi. Ā The staff at her company--except for a select few, most notably her current manager who she adores--are so shitty and she honestly deserves better so you can bet Iād get her on every show I could that would allow her to fully express herself as an artist and person.
Syn: For one I wouldnāt manage any boy group just because I couldnāt deal with the crazy amount of fan girls that would be surrounding/following them. Love them but naw Iām good. For girl groups I would love BlackPink just because they seem like fun and energetic girls but also sweet and respectful. For KHH, anyone from AOMG because they are all foolish and I know there wouldnāt be a boring day managing them.
Kia: One last question from me and I hope you have your thinking caps on because itās kind of hard.
Lily: Oh my stress.
Kia: Hush. Anyway.Ā Say you were the head coordinator for the MAMAs what would be your performance line up. And what we award would you add? Take away?
Syn: [laughs]Ā Dang this is a hard one. Ā Mainly because Iāve only watched Ā two full MAMAās and clips of another one. I would love more collab stages of the artists/groups that are on the same level. Like rookies with rookies, vets with vets and that such. OH! I would love a BTS & EXO collab stage just because the fanwars are getting too ridiculous and I want everyone to share the love. I would add more KHH awards and also more awards for artists from other countries. Like it is called Mnet ASIAN Music Awards, why are they only focused on acts from Korea? Also get rid of the Netizen Popularity Award. Like we donāt need more drama than it already is.
Winter: Open with a rookie collab stage, close with the veteran artist that promoted that year. Ā In with the future and show proper respect to the elders, yanno. Ā I would bring back Best Mixed Performance so KARD has that locked down and--like Syn--get rid of the Netizen Popularity Award because that is just some bull that fuels fandom wars.
Lily: Hmmmā¦ Iād also open with a massive rookie collab stage. Ā But like a super dramatic one to really make an impact and let folks know this aināt ya ordinary MAMAās (think 2013 and 2015 MAMAs on steroids). Ā Iād have different underdog groups perform between the different award presentations/awards clusters to show off their talents. Ā As we go through the night, Iād have the bigger groups perform and work my way up to the veteran artists. Ā For the final stage, Iād think itād be really badass to have a collab stage with all senior-most veteran artists to collab together for a stage. Ā Oh! Iād also love to do collab stages with artists of the same companies (groups from smaller companies would get mixed in with the groups from bigger ones). I would get rid of Netizen awards as well because letās be real theyāre kinda pointless and cause so much unnecessary drama. Ā Like our focus should be on the music, not some pointless drama.
Rosa: I havenāt got a clue lol. I just wanna see a whole bunch of collabs, including rookie collabs. I want Got7 to actually have a proper stage to themselves for once, instead of performing like one song. [rolls eyes] I also want to see some of the veterans of kpop perform on their own, or even collabing with newer groups/artists. Netizen awards can burn.
Kia: So Netizen awards are officially canceled?
All: And deleted. [all laugh]
Tia: Oh man, Iām so glad I didnāt have to answer that! [laughs]Ā You guys are such incredible writers but you are also relatively avid readers.Ā What overused prompt for fanfiction is secretly your favorite? Jaebum is your brothers best friend, Grew up with S. Coups etcā¦
Winter: I think my favorite overused prompt is you bump into each other in public and you just have to have one another. Ā Whether it be the club, a store or coffee shop. Ā I just think itās so ridiculous but hilarious.
Rosa: Well actually, I donāt read a lot of fanfiction, so i donāt see many overused prompts. [giggles]Ā But ābrothers best friendā is one that I have seen more than once, yet I love it.
Soul: My favorite prompt would be childhood best friends. I don't know, there's something about the bond of people that grew up together that I can get behind. It's really cliche but I love it anyways.
Blossom: I like when they growing up up together and they gradually fall in love with each other, itās so cute.
Kiwi: The best friends and theyāre both oblivious, but everyone else knows they like each other. Some of the situations are just pure ignorance and it's great.
CL:Ā If you guys had to pick your favorite fanfic writers, whoād make it to your list at the moment?
Syn: Too many to choose from but our sister blogs are my go-toās.
Winter: You three of course! As well as @chanyeolspoutā and all the admins here. Ā I donāt usually find and stick with one writer but I do with these ladies. Ā I also donāt read any Reader x Idol stories if they didnāt write them.
Lily: Winter hit the nail on the head here! I also really love what Iris of @jeonjagiyaā creates (her Hoseok series āTransferenceā is INCREDIBLE) and I have a huge soft spot for Lu of @tayegirecsā and Kara of @seokvie because they were two of the first fanfic writers I actively followed when I got into kpop. Ā Off of Tumblr, itād be seitsemannen (AO3); her GOT7 work āPlayhouseā is a MASTERPIECE.
Soul: I agree with Winter as well. I haven't really had time to branch out on my own yet haha.
Blossom: I agree with Winter, all our admins and the lovely sister blogs!
Kiwi: Tayegi, @pjimims and the rest are what Winter said.
Rosa:Ā I donāt really read fanfiction so I donāt really know... Ā But I gotta say, tayegi with her "Equilibriumā series is great. Also, @please-baby-calm-down is good too; I love "Threeās a Crowd.ā I need to catch up on both of these though! As you can see i love poly fics. [giggles]
CL: So letās talk more about the blog. Ā What motivated you to start this blog in the first place? Where does the name KPPD comes from?
Kiwi: It all started in the group chat we all joined. A couple of late nights later we had the idea and inspiration to make a blog together. I don't know the real inspiration though. Iād say we were all hyping each other up.
Winter: Good question! Ā I donāt know...I wasnāt expecting this to be this big or go this far honestly. Ā Like, weāve been doing this for a year and have all these followers, an Instagram account and a merch store? Ā BANANAS!
Soul: The motivation really just came from the group chat we were in. Everyone was on board to start a blog and it had such a good meaning behind it and I loved what everyone was bringing to the table.
Lily: I think it was Winter that came up with our blog name. Ā We were just tossing out random titles and she said and no one could top it.
Blossom: Retweet Soul and I honestly donāt remember who came up with the blog name but Iām guessing Lily is probably right--she has a good memory.
Rosa: I didnāt want to join the blog at first, because I thought wtf I canāt write anything, so what am I gonna do on this blog? But Iām kinda glad I did. Nobody remembers [chuckles], but I actually came up with the name for the blog: We were spitballing names in the chat, and I put forward some stupid joke names, but then I said Kpop Panty Drop and everyone was cool with it. So thatās what we went with.
Lily: Please let the record show my memory has failed me and I shall never again speak without receipts.
Winter: I never thought this day would come...Lily, silent? A miracle. [snickers]
Tia: You each have different styles of writing but if you had to pick a niche of writing that you specialize in what would it be? Thriller? Fantasy? Romance? Suspense?
Winter: I think my niche is that I have no niche. Ā As long as Iām interested in the genre I can write for it. Ā I originally thought I would just be a smut writer and nothing more. Ā But being able to challenge myself with other styles and succeed at them, in my unbiased opinion of course, is pretty awesome.
Rosa: I donāt really know.. I think I would love to do them all tbf. I havenāt written any fantasy yet though, but I would like to try!
Lily: Ā I am more drawn to suspense and thrillers but I havenāt had a chance really to write those genres yet as much as I would like. Ā I will say that I do enjoy writing drama though not necessarily romance and sometimes angst. I think for me romance comes secondary in a lot of my longer plots unless itās smut in which a lot of times that romance has to be or have been established in those charactersā relationships. Ā I tend to throw little sprinkles of fantasy in my writings here and there so I think itās about damn time I actually write a fantasy story.
Soul: For me, I think its mix of everything. If I feel like it goes with how I'm feeling, then I'll write about it. However, there's usually romance and suspense in there.
Blossom: Lately iāve been trying to write a little bit of everything! But no matter what thereās usually some type of romance, what can i say. I love love!
Kiwi: I really donāt know. I havenāt written in so long, but from past writings I think it would be suspense.
CL:Ā Does anyone in your personal life know that you run this blog and/or write fanfic? If so, are they supportive? Did you tell them the contents of the blog or no?
Winter: My mom knows lmao. Ā She actually read my SsamD smut, it was super awkward but she hasnāt read anything since. Ā Since sheās my boss it kinda works that she knows about the blog because Iāll say I need time to work on something because I actually have inspiration and she knows how I am. Ā My long distance bestie/sometimes friends with benefits knows. Ā He helped me with Stalemate actually.
Syn: Nope! I mean they donāt even understand my kmusic obsession, they are not going to understand this blog. Plus most of my family is like super religious so if they were to find out I work on a blog called āKpopPANTYDROPā I would be shamedā¦ *cue the Game of Thrones reference scene*
Lily: Nope. Itās not that Iām ashamed of the blog (I mean my family and friends have walked past me while Iāve been writing and adjusting things on the blog) but itās just never come up in conversation and Iām the type of person that if you donāt ask me something, I wonāt answer it because I wonāt know to answer it. Ā Plus my family and friends already know that I listen to all kinds of music so they never once batted an eye when they heard me listening to kpop because my tastes are just that eclectic.
Rosa: Nah nobody knows. My brother has read smuts on the blog but he doesnāt know Iāve written them or whatever. Iām cool with them not knowing too. Iām a very secretive person, and I keep myself to myself anyway so yeah.
Soul: This girl from school knew. All the admins know what I'm talking about lol. And my best friend knows, they were super supportive. I told my best friend what's on the blog, the other girl knew already.
Blossom: Yes, a lot of people know I have them blog with the other admins but they donāt know the content loll. Only like 2 people know the content and they are very supportive!
Kiwi: My mom knows I run a blog, but she doesnāt know what type of blog and I'm gonna keep it that way. Other than that my two close friends know about the blog.
Tia: Okay, now to get a little bit more serious. Ā When it comes to writing what's your weakness? What do you think you can't do or needs improvement?
Lily: I get too caught up in the details which, ironically, really muddles up the images Iām trying to portray. Ā I also get really hung up on technical things which can also impede the voice, flow, color of the story. Ā Thereās been so many times where I will write and rewrite a particular sentence just to get it right that by the time Iāve finished editing, Iāve lost a lot of motivation to finish writing for that day. Ā I just have to step back and remind myself not to get in my way and by extension the charactersā way.
Rosa: Okay, I have a ton of weaknesses when it comes to writing.. So Iām gonna be lame and say everything is my weakness. I tend to waffle a bunch as well sometimes, and my fics make no sense.
Soul: It's all me. I think I'm my biggest weakness because I don't really like my writing all that much. Compared to the other admins, it's shit haha. I know I can be better at what I do, I just need the confidence to push myself.
Blossom: Self doubt, I worry a lot that my writing just isnāt good enough for the blog sometimes and that my spot as an admin is undeserved. Which is my why it takes me so long to write my fics and theyāre so short. I put a lot of effort into my works but there's still lots of room for improvement. I want to be best of the best and Iām nowhere near close to that.
Kiwi: I canāt do shit. Iāll write, reread what I wrote, think it's not good enough, delete it, then take a long break. That's my process. I need to improve everything. (;Ā“ą¼ąŗ¶Šą¼ąŗ¶`)
Winter: My weakness is me. Ā I honestly think my writing is shit, which Iām not supposed to say but Iāve always been my harshest critic and biggest anti-fan. Ā Whatever I do it can always be better, I can do better.
Lily: For the record, I would just like tell all of you that youāre wrong and I will happily continue to aggressively compliment you until you believe it and in yourselves. That is all.
Kia: I second Lily.
CL: I third.
Tia: I fourth.
CL: Okay, back to the tough questions: As poc, what is your biggest challenge in the kpop fandom?
Rosa: Pretty much people telling me I shouldnāt like this person or that group or whatever, because of this drama and that drama.. Let me, do me. Iām an adult, I can look at things, and make a logical decision for myself. Donāt tell me what to do. Also, people telling me āIāve let black people down, Iām a disgrace to my race.ā No. I love Korean culture as in the foods and music, but Iām not out here bleaching my skin or denying my blackness so please tell me how Iām letting poc down? Plus if I were to cut off everything that offended me--colour wise, gender wise, religion wise--I would have to live on Mars, because itās everywhere.
Winter: My biggest challenge is also people telling me to be angry. Ā I hate it and think about leaving the blog at least twice a month when I see/read a āWhy would you support this/them? Ā Why arenāt you angry right now?ā Ā I have a LOT of anger in me from everyday stresses and I canāt afford a therapist to work through it. Ā Music is my therapy, so I donāt go into it looking for things to be angry about. Ā If that was the case I wouldnāt be able to listen to any music that was made...damn near ever. Ā Appropriation, racism, colorism, sexism, all the -ismās and just blatant stupidity is rampant EVERYWHERE. Ā Iām not going to argue about someone when if something offends me I can simply, turn it off and listen to something else. Ā My motto is one of RuPaulās quotes: āIf they donāt pay your bills, pay those bitxhes no mind."
Syn: Everything Winter said. Plus people that tell me I shouldnāt be listening to them because they take from black music. Like if you are so called āwokeā then you would know almost every popular genre of music out there have was taken from Black people. Like so you donāt want me to listen to music at all?
Soul: weāre always looked at as problematic when an idol blatantly takes our culture and we shut they asses down. Sheer ignorance and it seems like your opinions don't matter.
Blossom: 1. People always look down on us 2. The colorism and ignorance 3. The unneeded drama
Kiwi: Being represented the correct way. Pure ignorance. They want the culture but not the lifestyle. Blackface (this isn't just kpop this is in general).
CL: You guys have endured a lot within this past year, most notably several plagiarism scandals.Ā Have the plagiarism episodes changed you in any way? What would you like to say to people who do this?
Soul: It's made me more cautious. I haven't put out anything but it's given me a slight fear to do so. To the people who do it, have fun because y'all gon steal from the wrong one and y'all gon end up in court or jail. And originality is a thing, get some of it, it's free.
Lily: It has made us more...guarded I guess you could say. Weāre all more hyper vigilant in monitoring activity on and off the blog. It still really--pardon my language-- fucking hurts and itās incredibly disheartening to see your works stolen. For every 100 words written, thereās at least upwards of 3 hours spent writing and perfecting them. So a story--even a drabble--takes at least a day and in many cases several months to complete. But in a matter of seconds, all your hard work and effort you spent crafting this piece into something that you are actually happy enough with to publish is practically ripped from your hands and itās really a slap in the face and a kick in the gut. I really wanted to stop writing altogether after each theft because I didnāt want to feel that pain and anger anymore but I kept on-- I keep on because itās something that I love and Iāll be damned if I give anyone the satisfaction of breaking me.
Blossom: It just made me pay a bit more attention to things, look out more. To the people that do it...just do better hun! Take your time and your own ideas and inspiration will come to you! Remember the process of writing take a lot of time and donāt be surprised or act stupid when and original author and their followers comes for you.
Rosa: Nah, it hasnāt changed me much. I just think I care less now. To the people who do it, I just want to say that karma is gonna get them one day.
Winter: Iām more...meh now.
Kiwi: Karma is gonna have a great time in your next life Źā¢į“„ā¢Ź
Syn: What I would say to them? Hmmm..... Fuck you.
CL: I donāt know if I told you, but it was because of your answer to one of my anon question in your confessionary that I had the courage to write my Fat Fiction Series. You guys make such a positive influence on countless people (especially for marginalized groups) and Iām living proof. How do you guys deal with this amazing task? Do you have similar stories like mine (with you and/or followers)? And do you guys have your own personal struggles, like body or health issues, sexuality, etc and do they contribute in any way to your work in KPPD?
Blossom: Well cheese puffsā¦ I didnāt know that and i never really thought of us having an influence on people. To me itās usually just us saying how we feel and expressing our opinions on things people come and ask/tell us. Ā Weāre all young and still growing into ourselves. I struggle with my emotions and expressing them properly, anxiety, i have back problems, like the list goes on and on lol but i know no matter what itāll be okay! I used to not be able to look at myself in the mirror and now all i see is beauty, i used to hide and not speak about my sexuality but now i really donāt care, I used to cry myself to sleep every. Night. Now my smiles are real and i have an amazing happiness surrounding me. I 100% think my personal issues and such influence my writings and contributions to the blog, many of my ideas are from real life events or things that reminded me of someone or something in my life.
Soul: I've always struggled with my sexuality. I've never know what I truly was or what I liked so I don't put a label on myself anymore. I was so afraid that no one would accept me for who I was and it truly got to me when I came out to my mom, I didn't hear what I thought I would. It wasn't that she didn't accept it but she didn't believe me. I'm over it now honestly. I never thought about our influence on people. I didn't think we were that kinda blog
Kiwi: I just don't like myself at all. Not the amazing story you were looking for unfortunately. As Lily likes to say, āPractice what you preach.ā Never happens in my life, just my writing.
Rosa: I mean I donāt think Iāve had any part in creating positive influences on people. But Iām glad the blog and other admins are able to do it. I have many issues, many... Itās impossible to list. Iām not about to start a pity party, but Iāve always hated the way I look, and always hated my weight. Ever since I was younger and I canāt escape it, no matter how many people tell me Iām not fat or whatever, itās just something Iāve accepted so yeah. Health issues? Ugh where do I start? I always joke and say hospital is my second home, but itās the truth. I am always in hospital for something or another and donāt get me started on mental health. As for sexuality, thatās the only thing Iāve never had any problems with.. Erm...in regards to writing, I havenāt put any of my issues into any writings Iāve done. Just because I donāt really want to, ācause I wouldnāt know how to write it and I want to keep my stuff separate from the blog.
Winter: I never struggled with my sexuality per se, I just never gave a damn. Ā And I have some health issues now that I, I don't want to say battle because my struggles aren't even that bad just inconvenient. Ā But I still struggle with body issues. Ā I've always been big. I've been 5ā10ā since third grade and that was hard to move to a new school and just be this random tall kid from the South. Ā Then I got a few injuries and wasn't able to be as active so I started gaining weight when I learned to cook. Ā I've never been too comfy in my own skin, so when we have someone come in and say they struggle with it I get it. Ā But even though I struggle myself, I hate to see someone feel less than. Ā I'm always told I need to practice what I preach, maybe one day.Ā
Lily:Ā First off Rosa, thatās a lie: You have contributed so much and influenced so many people in so many ways just by being unapologetically you. Ā I think that goes for all of us, but for you especially. Ā Okay now thatās off my chest... this is going to be really long but...
I think my biggest aim since day one has been to just make everyone who Iāve come into contact with--followers, mutuals, and admins alike--feel that they have an ally thatās always with them no matter what it is they may be going through. Ā We each endure so much on a daily basis from any number of struggles and issues we may have in our lives and our individual struggles are just as valid as someone elseās.Ā
Honestly, Iām the type of person who can endure the worst of the worst so long as it means Iām able to put on a brave face and be strong for someone else. Ā I know itās not the best thing for me to push my feelings down, but itās just something Iāve done all my life. Ā When Iām in a solid mindset and Iām alone, I unpack everything and process it then. Ā I like to handle my struggles privately because I often feel that theyāre not as important as othersā may be. Ā Yes, I know that sounds really hypocritical and it is to an extent; but I do open up to the girls about things after Iāve processed my emotions and understand where I was in that moment versus where I am in this one. Ā I think the first time I fully opened up to them was back in May and it was specifically about some very hurtful things people I had once truly cared for and loved had said about and toward me. Ā Ā It took me even more by surprise than them because I had done it so freely and without second thought and without any filtering. I just laid it all bare without any expectations of reciprocation or condemnation and really it was just soā¦ The love and care they showed me in that moment is something I will be grateful for forever.
Thereās a story--actually, thereās two stories Iām working on right now that havenāt been published that are very close to my heart because theyāre the first time Iāll really be allowing some of the darker corners of myself be seen through the lenses of these characters.
Tia: If I may, I just really want to thank you guys for opening up about your struggles. Itās not an easy thing to do, but so many others--such as ourselves--have taken inspiration from your strength. You all have such beautiful spirits.
All: Thank you!
CL: I hate to ruin such a sweet moment with a little filth buuuuuuuut thatās what Iām here for!Ā Writing smut can be fun, exciting and steamy, but how do you feel when the public only goes for the nasty? You guys voiced your discontempt with smut being the biggest (many times the only) expectation of the public before, did it get any better after the hiatus?
Winter: I am a pervert. Ā You can ask the other admins, 69% of the things I say is sexual or Iām laughing at something my brain made dirty. Ā That being said, I donāt really like writing smut anymore. Ā Well, itās not that I donāt like it. Ā I just have zero confidence in it. Ā Iām a kinky person in societyās eyes but I never knew my kinks were kinks until the admins pointed it out to me. Ā So, Iām scared I guess that Iāll write something that goes too far. Ā I never want to make someone feel uncomfortable or triggered. Ā That being said Iām trying to accept that there are people out there like me who are searching for stories with kinks like ours. Ā Not the same old spank me, bite me, pull my hair. Ā Not that there's anything wrong with that.
Soul: I think at the time, it was harder for me to deal with because I can't live up to expectations. It was draining and annoying but I love the way I write now and some people actually appreciate what we do.
Rosa: Um, to be honest, Iāve gotten to the point where I donāt care. I donāt care what people want any more. [shrugs]Ā Sorry but itās true.Ā I think I has improved after the hiatus, because I posted āRivalryā thinking it wouldnāt go anywhere because it didnāt have any smut in it, but almost 600 notes later (I still donāt know why it has so many notes) I guess I was proven wrong?
Blossom: Because itās a really good story, Rosa! But yeah.Ā January 1st when we opened our requests we prolly got the most fluff and angst requests weāve ever had, i think people understand a bit better that weāre not just smut writers, we do everything and each admin has their own specialty.
Kiwi: I understand, but at the same time I actually am not a big fan of smut without a plot. I have my limits meaning I don't mind it, but sometimes enough is enough. The admins are not some smut generator. Iām glad people are beginning to realize that and actually ask for other genres or ask for smut that has an actual plot.
Lily: Ā As frustrating and annoying as it was (and sometimes is), I get it. Ā We advertised ourselves as a sin bin for the longest time. I mean just look at our blogās name. Ā We just made the mistake of truly believing in our hearts that all our followers wanted from us is smut (which yanno is fun to write sometimes but not all the time) so we put all our other fic projects to the side and just focused on churning out filth, but our hearts werenāt in it so it was just really draining and created such unnecessary tension between us (former admins included) that shouldnāt have been there. Ā But now I can say that things are a lot better between us which really reflects on the blog. Ā Weāre closer than ever though because of all we went through so thatās been a blessing.
CL:Ā To all admins who worked on āSeoul Nightsā: This is one of my personal favorite fanfictions ever and one of the first works Iāve read in KPPD. What do you guys feel about it? And as a fan, I need to ask: can we hope to read more from this universe in the future?
Winter: I feel like Seoul Nights is a hidden gem in the Kpop AU world. Ā People see it and think, oh yeah another mafia AU great. Ā In fact Lily and I spent WEEKS developing each character's personalities and quirks. Ā We plotted them out down to the knives hidden under their designer suit jackets (as well as which designers they wear), even their hair color is a decision discussed between us. Ā But it barely gets any attention and thatās kind of disheartening but at the same time I donāt care because I am so invested in each character's plotline and making sure they get a proper introduction and the story is as fluid as possible.Ā You will read so much more about this universe in the time to come. Ā Youāre still in the introduction phase for this universe. Ā I donāt want to give away whatās going to happen but I will tell you this. Ā *leans closer* Ā Seoul Nights connects with multiple stories on the blog, some have already been published and some are coming this summer. Ā But this universe is vast and the rabbit hole goes deep.
Lily: Thereās really nothing more I can add to this except... [crouches down to show off fake Timbs and claps] FACTS. Ā It is our precious baby and while we would love for it to get more attention, weāre really grateful for those who have faithfully read the series and are keeping up with it. Ā Plus, I donāt think thereās really anyone who is more excited for this universe than either of us as well as the other admins who are also contributing to it. Ā So yeah. I would definitely encourage you to read the series again and again because when things really get rolling, wellā¦
Kia: So what youāre saying is youāre about to kill us?
Winter: Maybe, maybe not~ Youāll just have to see.
Kia: I hate you.
Winter: You donāt but itās fine. Because I know something you donāt know~
CL: Iām just going to go ahead and write up my will. Just in case.
Winter: Wise choice. [chuckles]
Tia:Ā I actually have some questions for each of the admins individually. Who would like to go first?
All: We volunteer Lily as tribute.
Lily: Yāall suck.
Syn: Only for Papi. [winks]
Kia: Nassy!
Tia: Yāall are a mess! [laughs] So Lily, you are self-confessed trash for Zhang Yixing--
Lily: AN ANGEL AMONG MEN, WHOM WE DO NOT DESERVE!!!
Tia: --so Iād love to get your take on a couple things. Ā Do you think that SMās unfair treatment of Lay will ultimately cause a disruption in the group? On the off chance that SM decides that EXO can do without Lay how will you react?
Lily: I didnāt realize I was presenting my dissertation today. Oh, heavens, Iām so unprepared!Ā [pushes glasses up nose and pulls out notecard while clearing her throat] Actually, I donāt think SM has treated Lay unfairly recently. Ā Yes, it was incredibly disheartening to see that we wouldnāt have a full EXO comeback but instead EXO-XSBCCDKS (talk about a subunit name!), but we have to look at the facts: Ā SM allowed Lay to create his own satellite studio in China; no other artist prior to him had been able to do that. Ā SM also allowed him to self-compose and release a Station track in Chinese; it became the first (and so far only) Chinese solo station song and it broke several streaming records in China. Finally, SM allowed him to release his first mini album which he self-composed, arranged, and wrote as well as helped to produce in Chinese. Ā The album shattered countless records in China, such as number of albums (physical and digital copies) sold and streaming records, almost daily just about. Ā He single-handedly saved EXOās reputation in China and became one of Chinaās golden sons with his appearance on the hit variety show āGo Fighting!ā and through his roles in several TV dramas and films. Ā He even got to co-host two of the largest festival broadcasts in the nation! Ā I mean he isnāt called the Prince of Changsha for nothing, you know. Ā Everything that heās done over the past few years has been done with EXOās benefit as well as his own benefit in mind. Ā He has the most autonomy out of all the members because he wields so much power in China, which is a massive market, so he chooses and finalizes his schedules accordingly. Ā Given both the recent ban on Korean anything just about in China as well as his high visibility, he undoubtedly decided it would be best if he stepped back from EXO promotions so they wouldnāt receive backlash from C-netz. Ā Business stuff aside, there is SO much love between him and the members and he mentions them wherever and whenever he can. Ā And whatās more is they mention him just as often (they even left a spot for him in the music video!). Ā So all this to say: No, I do not think it will cause a disruption. Ā Iāll continue to be the loyal XingMi/Xāback that I am and support him wherever his career takes him. Ā And I will still continue to support EXO because I love the other members as much as I do him.
Tia: Hmm, those are some very interesting points. Ā Rosa,Ā JB is your ultimate bias but with the problematic things he has done before (as most idols) has it changed the way you looked at him? Hands down what the best JB fic you've EVER read?
Rosa: JB is a problem in himself lol.. But honestly? It hasnāt. People have told me it because iām infatuated with him, thatās why I canāt see his faults, but thatās stupid. Iām not infatuated with anyone, and believe me, Iām the first to call out and be pissed at JB for him doing his stupidity. Iām just able to forgive (not forget) and move on, because well iāve been riding with him since day 1 and iām not gonna cut him off like that. Ā Hmm, I donāt have an answer for this lol.. I mean Iāve only ever read like 2JB fics in my life, cause iām hard to please and i get bored or turned off really easily. So I havenāt read one that has hooked me enough to say itās the best one Iāve ever read.. Feel free to send me some though.
Tia: Iāll definitely be on the look out for some for you! Syn, Ā Jay can be soft and cute but he's also very daddy. Do you think he switches it up or do you think that soft side is really him?Ā The outfit sets you create are gorgeous, how do you find the inspiration to create something new for each idol?Ā
Syn: Thank you oh so much!! I appreciate the love I really do! Truthfully, itās all about the picture of the idol and from the picture my imagination goes wild. Once I find a picture I like, I study it and ask myself a million and one questions. I also like to be situational, like what setting is the picture in? what is going on in the background? What are the colors? How are they lighting the idol? After I figure out that I come up with a story in my head base the outfit off that story or based on the colors in the picture. As for putting what with what I canāt tell you because I donāt know myself lol I just go and hope it looks good. Ā In regards to Papi-- I mean Jay:Ā I personally think both the daddy and soft sides are him. I think his soft side is him is like 85% of the time. As for his daddy side, I think only comes out when he is on stage; and in a more personal setting, someone has to bring is out of him (if you know what Iām saying..)
Tia: You meant Papi, but Iāll let it slide. Ā [laughs] So Blossom,Ā Youngjae is a tender sunshine, how do you think he is in a relationship? Ā Would he have a hard time communicating his needs to his partner? What is your relationship communication like? Are you a straight hitter? Passive? Somewhere in between?
Blossom:Ā I think he would be gentle but protective. No, i feel like he would be very open and express his feeling for certain things, but i also think he would hind things to try to keep you happy. I think the communication would be good for the most part, iām definitely somewhere between straight hitter and passive, i can be very stubborn sometimes but i try to let things go if it seems to be affecting others or if itās just someone i trust and care very much about i usually just passive.
Tia: Youngjae is such a cutie and you two would be such a cute couple! But your twin, as you call her, is equally whipped for the maknae of his group. So Soul:Ā Yugyeom has shown us that his dance moves are truly sinful, but do his dance moves really correlate to bedroom prowess? How would you handle a man who is a virgin? First time sex wise.
Soul:Ā Ah, this is my unpopular opinion but nah, I don't think it necessarily correlates. You can be the best dancer on the planet and still be hella inexperienced. Since I'm a virgin myself, I think it'd be a learning experience for the both of us. I think it'd be easier to take it slow knowing that you're doing it at your own pace and not trying to impress anyone.
Tia: Soul dropping some soulful wisdom! But I definitely agree itās important to do what feels natural and best in the moment. Ā Kiwi, youāre the youngest of the admins so itās only fitting I ask you a couple things about your ultimate whoās also the maknae of his group.
Winter: And noona hunter!
Tia:Ā Jungkook, the golden maknae. Do you really think he lives up.to that name or is he overhyped? BTS choreo or vocals, you can only choose one. Which is it?
Kiwi:Ā Warning unpopular opinion: I think it's overhyped, but then I see him nail something on his first try and kind of go āgood for him.ā Still overhyped though. And I choose choreo for sure.
Tia: Youāre such a straight shooter and I love it! Ā Now, last but not least, to perhaps the most sharp shooting admin there is: Winter. Ā Heechul is known to have a saucy attitude and a smart mouth. In reality could you see yourself being in a stable and loving relationship with him? What's a little fact about Heechul that makes you like him so much?
Winter:Ā In reality I canāt see myself in a stable relationship ever, seriously. Ā Itās gonna be twisted no matter who Iām with, but Iām okay with that. Ā Itāll keep things interesting. Ā Heechul and I would have a long and loving open relationship, if he would agree with the open relationship. Ā The fact that Heechul is so comfortable in his skin and doesnāt care if people thinks heās gay because heās so secure in his sexuality. Ā Thatās admirable and attractive to me. Ā Also, I like that even though heās a sassy flirt he gets all shy and his heart flutters when heās around someone he likes.Ā Ā
CL: I have some individual questions for you all as well! Ā Iāll go in the reverse order Tia did, if thatās alright by you.
Winter: Oh Jisoos, Iām first.
CL: Yes, you are!Ā 1) Where do you like to find inspiration in? 2) What do you think you have in common with Heechul? 3) What is the best 2pm era in your opinion? 4) Describe yourself: reason, emotion or both and why?
Winter:Ā
I find inspiration everywhere the Cosmos allows. Ā Books, movies, music, dreams, pictures, nature...just everything. Ā I can be sitting there and see or hear something and all of a sudden, this is where I start to sound crazy but oh well, I hear dialogue between characters or I see an idol doing something in a different world or scene. Ā Itās frustrating because Iāll think of this awesome new story but then I canāt write it because of time constraints. Ā
Kim Heechul is my equal in petty, shady, tea spilling savagery as well as being a genderbending flirt. Ā
The best 2PM era? Ā Jisoosā¦.GALAXY OF 2PM. Ā Their Japanese release last year. Ā BABY LOOK! Ā BITXH! Ā The hair, ugh. Ā The suits, lawd help me. Ā The overcoats, unnnnnnhhhhh. Ā EMOTIONS PHOTOBOOK! Ā I wanna know WHO THE FXXK HURT THEM TO HAVE THEM LOOK SO BROKEN! Ā
I am ruled by emotion and reason. Ā Most of the time Iām very levelheaded and I think things through. Ā Iāll try and see things from all sides because I canāt stand when people take in new information and they let their emotions take over. Ā But if I think on something or talk about something and emotions run high. Ā There is no reasoning with me until I calm down and hopefully I donāt hurt anyone or anything before I calm down.
CL: So Kiwi: 1) What does writing means to you in your life? 2) Jungkook: a cinnamon roll or a sinnamon roll? 3) BTSā best concept for you? 4) Describe yourself: introvert, extrovert or a mix of both?Ā
Kiwi:Ā
Believe it or not, I'm not actually a big fan of writing myself. But when I actually feel creative I will write. So I guess it's not that big in my life.Ā
Sinnamon roll.Ā
āRun,ā hands down. Had a hoe in her feels for once.Ā
Mix of both. I'm āextrovertedā if I personally know you, but I lean more towards introvert.
CL: Soul on to you!Ā 1) What is your work that youāre most proud of? 2) What do you think is Yugyeomās strongest feature (not necessarily his talent)? 3) GOT7ās music video you think Yugyeom is particularly beautiful? 4) Is there something you always wanted to try or do but couldnāt?
Soul:Ā Ā
āOnly Fools Fall,ā hands down. That was the best thing I've written since the blog started. I think it shows what emotion does to people.Ā
His eyes. He's such an attractive person overall but his eyes are what drew me in.Ā
That's a hard question, but maybe Never Ever or If You Do.Ā
Besides running a blog, I've always wanted to try and write a book. I can't really do it right now because I have no inspiration to do so. It's already hard for me to write on the blog without it feeling forced but yeah, that's what I wanna try.
CL: Blossom, you ready?Ā 1) Do you have a favorite place to write? 2) Did you chose Youngjae as your bias or did he chose you? 3) Ā Favorite GOT7 meme? 4) What do you think is your biggest strength?
Blossom:Ā
I like writing in the library, i usually get a good bit done when I have the time.Ā
HE CHOSE ME! When I first got into Got7, I never would have thought Youngjae would be my bias cause I kinda had a type at the time but after getting to know him and falling in love with his smile, his laugh, just his everything there was no way of turning back.Ā
I donāt really have one since theyāre all just walking memes.
Positivity is definitely it.
CL: Syn, letās chat fashion:Ā 1) You create such beautiful outfit sets and I personally drool over them. What is your personal dressing style? 2) As a fellow stan, I know this will be hard, butā¦ Why Jay Park? 3) Favorite Jayās album and favorite collab heās made? 4) What do you think is your biggest flaw?
Syn:Ā Thank You!!! Iām oh so happy you like them!Ā
My personal style is depending situational. Where Iām going, how long am I going to be there, how I feel and depending on the weather. But usually I like to have a focal point or statement piece of my outfit and then everything else I put on will complement the piece. So not too flashy but not too simple either. I like everything to be clean and there for a reason.
Lawd! Girl! Why NOT Jay Park?? Lol but for real, he is just everything I love in a person. Like take they fact that his music is the bomb diggity and he is fine af. Personally, he is so kind, so generous, so caring, artistic, a goofy sense of humor, and amazing friend, son, and person in general. I love the fact that whenever he comes up he brings everyone with him. He always give credit where credit is due, and is always there to help out someone or give them a chance. I donāt know why more people arenļæ½ļæ½ļæ½t stanning him.
I say I do love all his albums but my absolute favorite would be āEverything You Wantedā. I know thatās one of his newer albums and people are going to say āYou aināt a real jaywalker blah blah blahā but seriously if you think about it, all his albums leading up to that one has all been experimental. Take a deeper look, New Breed, Evolution and even World Wide has been experimental and trying to find his sound. With Everything You Wanted, he takes a bits and pieces from each album and figured out what worked and what didnāt and we had everything that worked in that album. The sexy songs, the slow jams, the meaningful songs, the bops, the electronic sounds, both in Korean AND English. Like it really was legit everything I wanted lol. Thatās why I love the album. Favorite collab is a hard one just because he slays everyone song heās on. But I would have to say his songs with ChaCha, āFeatureā and āForeverā just because I wasnāt ready for singing ChaCha and I do think their voices work well together.
Biggest flaw would have to be, I donāt believe in myself as much as I should. And because of that Iāve held myself back on some opportunities that wouldāve been beneficial in my life and I would be further along in the things I would love to do if I would just say āhey I know Iām good enoughā. Example A: this blog lol I didnāt believe I could being anything substantial here thatās why I wasnāt on here in the beginning. So yeah something I need to work on. Ā Ā
CL: So Rosa, our lovely English rose:Ā 1) What is your biggest difficulty when writing? 2) Why is JB your bias and what is the thing you like most about him? 3) What is your favorite GOT7 song? 4) What is your biggest dream, even if it seems impossible?
Rosa:Ā
My biggest difficulty is finishing things that Iāve started because I either have no motivation most of the time or I just donāt have time to.Ā
JB is my bias because I can relate to him: We are pretty much the same person itās scary. We have a lot of things in common, plus heās beautiful. The thing I like most is that he can be very serious, but the next minute heās being extra and playful.
Oh Lordā¦ I canāt. I donāt have one favourite so here are my favourites; āStop Stop It,ā āSign,ā āProve It,ā āAngel,ā āLaugh Laugh Laugh,ā āMagnetic,ā āWOLO,ā āLet Me,ā āMy Home,ā āEyes On,ā āShopping Mall,ā and āAāĀ
My biggest dream is to be able to set my family up, so there are no money worries and then to travel.Ā
CL:Ā And lastly is you Lilith!Ā 1) When did you start writing? 2) Times are hard for a Yixing stanā¦ Honestly, how are you coping? 3) Your favorite EXO lyrics? And Layās lyrics? 4) If you could change anything in yourself or in your past, would you? If so, what would be it?Ā
Lily:Ā
I honestly donāt remember when I started writing, but I think I was pretty young--maybe around 7 or so.
Iām actually coping pretty well. Ā Heās been active a lot more recently in China and he seems to be very happy and well-rested, which really is all I want for him to be. Ā So as long as heās good, Iām good.
Um, my favorite EXO lyrics are actually an entire song: Ā āMy Answer.ā Ā Itās just such a gorgeous song! I know it backwards and forwards and I have to listen (and sing along) to it at least three times a week. Ā The admins know that it has to be played at my wedding. It just has to. Ā My favorite part is the bridge/breakdown before the final chorus. Ā Gives me chills EVERY SINGLE TIME. Ā Honestly, if I were to audition for a company, Iād sing this song. Ā Ugh, I just love it so much.Ā
My favorite of Layās lyrics? Again, my favorite lyrics are a whole song. Ā While this one is a tough call, itās decidedly the acoustic version of āMYM.ā Ā Thereās really no way to describe it other than just stunning. Ā I think itās the song that best suits his voice, which really just shines since it shows just how well-rounded it is. Ā And the guitar! Cāmon! It should be illegal for a guitar to be played that beautifully. Ā If you havenāt listened to the song, please donāt ever speak to me again until you do.
You know...Thereās a lot in my life that has happened that didnāt go according to plan or anywhere near the plan honestly. Ā And while Iāve made many mistakes and have been hurt by (as well as hurt) others, everything that has happened, has happened for a reason. Ā I am who I am today because of it. Ā So no, thereās nothing I would change. I live my life with no regrets as best I can so I just take whatever comes to me as a lesson and an opportunity to grow.
CL: One final question before you all go to celebrate your anniversary.Ā What is the best thing(s) about running this blog? And the worst?
Blossom: Best: Seeing people's reactions to the things we do. Worst: Drama.
Kiwi: I can barely answer this because Iām never on. But I do enjoy when the admins get happy in the group chat because they're getting compliments on their writing. I hate when drama happens because everyone seems off and upset in the group chat. Becomes a dangerous ride.
Rosa: Best thing about running the blog is reading peopleās reactions and comments about something Iāve written. Itās really cool, and I encourage anyone who reads fanfiction to not only like and reblog but leave comments and tags for the writers to read! Worst thing is obviously people saying mean, horrible things in the inbox.
Winter: Best thing is being able to inspire and interact with people from ALL over the globe. Ā To see and find out we have followers in Germany, Australia, Brazil...WHAT?!? Ā Weāre just a bunch of weirdos and you guys actually WANT to follow us? Ā I donāt get it lol. Ā Worst thing is trolls coming at the admins, they act like Iām not a troll hunting anon slayer. Ā Why would you even try? Ā I donāt even see why people feel the need to say negative things to people they donāt even know. Ā That takes time and energy I donāt have to spare.
Syn: Well I canāt say much sense I just started being active but from my observation I love seeing all the love everyone gets when they post their content. Like all the adminās styles are different and seeing each one of them getting a like or a repost or getting messages from the readers is amazing and it warms my heart seeing that. The worst has to be what happened behind the scenes with that fallout. It sadden me seeing what was going on and basically being helpless and seeing a negative effect it had on the other admins. But weāre better now!!
Soul: The best thing would be to inspire others to start their own blogs, it's nice to know that we're a big influence in that. The worst would have to be all the drama and stress us admins have to go through on what seems like a daily basis.
Lily: Iām such a sappy heaux, but the best thing about running it is being with the girls. Ā The love I have for them is so deep, itās actually kind of ridiculous. A close second though is meeting such incredible people like our mutuals; like itās kind of insane that Iām now able to call the very same people I admired my friends and talk with them nearly everyday. Ā The worst is definitely all the drama thatās happened on and off the blog. Ā I could definitely do without it. But a little bad always comes with a lotta good. Cāest la vie.
Tia: Thank you all again so much for letting us chat with you! Ā You inspire so many people on a daily basis and itās really rewarding and humbling to be able to be as close as we are to you. Ā I hope you all have a wonderful anniversary and even more wonderful times ahead!
All: Thank you all! We love you!
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The Bookworm Tag
tagged by @tacosguidetothecinema (thanks)
1. Do you remember how you developed a love for reading?
Probably in pre-school when I had this big book of classic childrenās stories. I remember reading Madeline over and over again. And then I was obsessed with Dear America books in elementary school.
2. Where do you usually read?
Preferably in a big, cushiony chair.
3. Do you prefer to read one book at a time or several at once?
One at a time.
4. What is/are your favourite book(s)?
Pride & Prejudice.
5. Do you have a least favourite book?
Uh... I never made it through Hatchet in 5th grade or Beowulf in 12th grade. Those were not my slice of pizza, if you know what I mean.
6. What is your favourite genre?
This is pretty broad, but 19th-century European lit. Love stuffy, wordy books.
7. Is there a genre you wonāt read?
Not yet.
8. What is the longest book you ever read?
Anna Karenina.
9. What book are you currently reading?
Iām actually reading two (despite the above answer): The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern and Team of Rivals by Doris Kearns Goodwin.
10. What was the last book you finished?
The Kite Runner.
11. What was the last book you bought?
I picked up The Night Circus along with The Devil in the White City (Erik Larson), American Gods (Neil Gaiman), and The Stand (Stephen King) during my last trip to Barnes and Noble.
12. Do you have a favourite book quote?
Oh jeez, not off the top of my head. I love the language of Pride and Prejudice, Crime and Punishment, Anna Karenina, and Jane Eyre. Definitely love the first line of P&P (duh).
13. Do you prefer library books or buying books?
Buying books. I basically use the library for movies only.
14. Where do you buy your books?
Last Exit Books, Barnes and Noble, and Amazon.
15. How many books do you buy a month?
I usually buy a couple every few months.
16. How many books do you own?
I couldnāt tell you, but I can tell you they were a massive pain when I moved last winter.
17. How do you feel about second hand books?
Love not spending a butt ton of money. Donāt love not having a fresh, clean book for myself.
18. Do you prefer E-books or physical books?
Physical. I donāt think Iāve ever read an e-book...
19. Do you prefer paperback or hardback?
Hardback all the way.
20. Do you prefer to read trilogies/series or standalones?
I definitely read more standalones, but I donāt know that I have a preference.
21. What is the weirdest thing youāve used as a bookmark?
Nothing weird comes to mind, but I love using ticket stubs.
22. What is more important to you: characters or plot?
Both?
23. Do you ever judge a book by its cover?
Every time. Oops.
24. Whatās the most beautiful book you own?
I have a lot of fancy classics collections - Dickens, Austen, Bronte sisters, etc.
25. What is your favorite book to movie/tv adaptation?
Pride & Prejudice (2005).
26. What is the best beverage to drink while reading a book?
Coffee.
27. Are you looking forward to any book release? If so, which one?
I donāt follow upcoming releases, so Iāll go with a recent-ish release: Born a Crime by Trevor Noah.
28. Recommend me a book :3
Pictures at a Revolution by Mark Harris.
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