#i feel like william's first post deserves a tag for how annoying it is

[defensivelee]

what if six lives! mary had tumblr

yeah what if. that would be crazy lol

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daddy finally fucked off 🥳 pls wish him a good trip. i'm going live in ten

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does @raccoongirlbush want to join.. the stream always makes more when we pretend to kiss 💛 i PROMISE i'll take you out later with the extra dono money, wear something nice!!!!

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o7

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anne i swear to lo!!! ok whatever click here to join the stream, i look forward to seeing all of you there~

#streams #i'm just kidding ily anne... #please accept dinner as my humble apology #i'll peg you later <3 #wait how many followers do i have on here again?

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We're all seeing this, right? The fucking election results? I feel so bad for Rersetia, getting stuck with an Ally governor who does nothing but fear-monger and whine about the Overlifers-- all bark and no bite, that one. Unfortunately, woke little brats who don't know any better will flock to this one and decide it's a great victory instead.

I think I know what the next podcast episode will be about. It's about time we get the Allies to step down-- power doesn't mean competence. There are better people, with horns and tails, nothing but pure devil blood running through their veins, waiting for their chance out there, but when will Altos Diablos realize that?

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william please

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hans omg i forgot you followed me here haiiii ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

#hanni tag

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just seen the UGLIEST girl omg

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bitches still go out like this.

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wear green stockings or don't show your legs at all, fucking cow lol

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on it bossman 🤍💚

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wasn't talking to you. but can you dox that girl for me

#and then stop stalking my blog thank you #i love you princess <3 but get out #you are such a creep

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when is @/menhera-prince-unlimited going to come out with the Ally Bentinck sex tapes like we all know what he's hiding

#ally bentinck #religious posts #horny posts

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my girl got me a new collar :3 gonna post a pic later on the alt, horny timezone bitches are gonna have to wait

#m woof woofs

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Please be normal about seeing James Stewart and I together tonight. For the last time, honestly...!

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Even just allegations of abuse can ruin a person's life, literally fuck off with that. You all think you know everything.

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you fucking wish it was just allegations lol

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I thought I blocked you, did you make another account?

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hehehe <3 you're amazing at changing the subject... it's why he loves you 💚

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High again? @vitamarkedheart can you come deal with her now?

#sorry about this lol #don't believe them for a second #or her for that matter #marly reblogs

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HELLO Everyone I must Tell You NOW!!!!11 That none other than Next Month, Devils Willing,,, I will have a NEW FEATURE (๑>◡<๑) for the Pup Hoods that you all so Adore very very Very very much~ for the first time Everrrr <3 now you shall ALLLL have the option to pay for ☆Custom☆ Pup Hoods up on the site, at the LOW low Low price of an extra Twenty Guilders ♡ ～('▽^人) and nouuu Additional Wait :3 doesn't that sound great n amazing n Everything you ever wanted???? Stop moping around, Get it up, let me see you all Happy now ( ◡‿◡ ) you weird Furries with Fursonas may join in the Celebrations naowwwww~

I love you all Forever and ever ♡＼(￣▽￣)／♡ please make me very Happy and very much Richer!!!!! TOO!!!

#business spam #small business #JUST KIDDING FUCKETTES!!!! #you wish you were me #go make monopolies elsewhere ily <3

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sometimes I miss the feeling of knowing that at least death is a certainty

🗝️ cross-marked-angel

it can still be one 😘

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is that supposed to be comforting or a threat??

#and how did u find my vent blog

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The word of the Western Kingdom today is to have UNPROTECTED SEX 🙏🔥!!! Please enjoy yourselves, suck a lot of dick for good luck 🧡!!

#i love you all <3

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hot take, maybe, but I think they should bring back teaching Messianic in schools. you can't take children to a museum and expect them to be moved at the valiance of the devils when they don't know what the angels wanted.

#i don't remember who taught it to me but i am eternally grateful #maria.txt

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[rpd-rookie]

The One Who Runs Away, The One Who Runs Back (Leon S. Kennedy x Reader)

Author’s note: This is a sequel to “A PAST WITH HER, A FUTURE WITH YOU” and the end of my three-parts fan fiction "I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY HEART" I decided to write after so many of you asked for it. Sorry it took so long but I was navigating from one fandom to another. (BTW, if there are any Devil May Cry fans up here, you can read my DMC fan fictions here) PS: Even if I said it before, I have no hate whatsoever towards Ada or Aeon.

Tagged: Angst, Fluff, Romance, Post-Break up, Sexual Content 

Part 1 / Part 2

***

Do you remember? We started this story by quoting some sitcom character that was clueless about love. Well, here’s a suggestion. Why not ending it by quoting someone who knew a little more on such matter.

William Shakespeare - you know that English dude expert on tragic ‘drink this poison, stab yourself’ kind of love - apparently once said ‘Love runs away from those chasing her, and those who run away, she throws herself on his neck’. I say ‘apparently’ cause, even though I have a master in English lit, this quote is from the internet, and also … who knows what the guy truly said?

But it’s the quote that’s important. Not the author. The quote it’s important because it sums up perfectly how this story is gonna end. However, before starting, let me tell you this quote is going to be the only Shakespeare-worthy sentence in this final chapter. You’ve been warned.

Love runs away from those chasing her.          Well, this part was definitely written for someone like Ada Wong. Owner of countless gold medals and possibly a world record at this point, that woman is basically the Usain Bolt of the ‘Running from Leon S. Kennedy’ competition. Unchallenged winner since the creation of this sultry version of cat and mouse game, it’s better not to think about the number of times she successfully ran away from her favourite agent.  But this year, this formidable titleholder in a gorgeous red dress will have to face her Nemesis in the championship. You. Though the comparison to the hideous bio-organic killing machine might not be very complimentary to you but you get the idea.  This year you enter the Kennedy Olympics. And this year you run like Sonic the Hedgehog and you win the damn competition (screw you Usain Bold!). And you do this with your head high and without an ounce of regret. Ignore all the texts and flowers Leon might send on your track Mario Kart style. His gifts are not as slippery as banana peels and they can easily be dodged, I promise. Well, most of the time, when you’re not lying on your bed in the middle of the night crying and sobbing while reading his messages or playing his voice in your voicemail again and again until you’re nothing more but a giant mess with puffy red eyes drowning in a puddle of your own tears.        Screw those messages too! And screw his broken yet terribly sexy voice as well!

Being a man of word, Leon kept his promise. And for months you kept on running peacefully, marathoning away from this past relationship that had destroyed you like no other before while tranquilly fixing your broken heart on the way. That run was a good cardio.

But sometimes, cardio is not enough, and even just the small sight of an overpriced whisky bottle or the smell of Leon’s perfume on some guy’s clothes is enough to reopen your wounds.           And when it happens, you always do the same thing, you break the damn bottle - and run cause damn! it’s expensive! -  or you tell the guy his perfume smells like cheap cologne and that he should definitely change it, which is an improvement on your past destructive behaviour, since there was a time shortly after the break up when you would have simply dragged the guy to your place to let him fuck you senseless while imagining he was Leon. All that just for the illusion to feel him again and for the sake to kick him out the next morning, screaming like a hysterical psycho.

So imagine, for a small second, the wave of intense feelings surging out of your healing heart when, in the middle of a cafe, you hear some dude sitting behind you ordering Leon’s favourite whisky while wearing the same bloody perfume. “It’s got to be relentless persecution at that point!” You sigh, already annoyed, closing your book more violently than intended. Hope you’re ready, stranger! Because you’re not in the mood to deal with this right now.            You turn around with a fake smile that reflects perfectly your irritation, ready to give him hell, your sharpest riposte already burning your tongue. After all, he deserves it and you can’t help it.         But when you meet familiar – and freaking gorgeous - baby blue eyes you freeze and stare, suddenly confused and lost and refusing to believe that in spite of the intense running, love just jumped at your neck after all and it was sitting there, taking the shape of Leon S(tupid) Kennedy.

You should have stood up and left, run for your life, run for your heart. And yet, you didn’t.    You stayed there staring at him looking at you, allowing all your memories, the good ones and the bad ones, all your buried feelings to come back from the dead, embracing them as if you had missed them, which, let’s be honest, you probably had.            You tried to scream to yourself “Come on, Y/N! Shake a leg!” but it seemed that what you brain understood was something like “Cum on him! Open your legs!” as a couple of blurry hours later, you were on Leon’s bed, legs wide open, screaming his name and begging him not to stop his amazing thrusts.

Six months, you ran for six months … Well, looks like the run ends here and now. After a minute-long deep stare, an afternoon of amazing sex and two hours long of something blurry in between.

“I missed you.” And there you were! The moment all couples that broke up have after one of them (in this case Leon with the infamous ‘I missed you line’) starts to believe they miraculously rekindled their love. The fatal post-coital cuddling session that you don’t know how to react to, as you think of all the possibilities before you.      Possibility Number 1) You tell Leon you missed him too and cuddle, enjoying that embrace you secretly yearned for months. But that includes forgetting what he has done or pretending that nothing happened.     Possibility Number 2) You push him away, get dressed, leave again and act as if this afternoon never happened. But if Leon doesn’t remind you of it, the ache between your legs will, that’s for sure!   Possibility Number 3) You jump him again until you sore even more and hope that you’ll be able to leave afterwards.         Frankly, all possibilities suck because, in all cases, it seems like you lose. Since,       with Possibility Number 1) you lose the run forever, with Possibility Number 2) you lose him again and with Possibility Number 3) well it’s result 1 or 2 + your body aching like crazy for days. I suck at math but no need to be Einstein to know the result of this calculation looks unpleasant.    So what do you choose?

You see a triangular dice rolling in your head, showing a never-ending succession of 1, 2 and 3 that doesn’t make any sense and that confuse you even more than you already are. 1, 2, 3, 2, 1, 3, 2 ! Oh for fuck’s sake!

You grimace, angry and pissed at Leon and probably even more at yourself, and finally leaves his bed and his strong warm arms, feeling the tears furiously forming in your eyes. “I can’t” You can’t look at him in the eyes. You don’t want to see his confusion, don’t want to see his pain as he witnesses all his hopes shatter to pieces.         “ What do you mean?” You can hear the sheets crease behind you, alerting you of Leon’s agitation, so you hurry and pick up all your clothes scattered in his room. You must leave, now. 2! 2 it is!  “This! All This! This afternoon never happened.” You tell him, putting on your clothes with sudden clumsy and trembling hands, not caring if your bra is correctly hooked or if you put your shirt on back to front. Your heart. You have to think of your poor heart first.          “Hey, hey, hey.” You feel Leon’s hand softly grabbing your arms and you let go of whatever you were holding right now. His voice is sweet and trying to be comforting. Don’t look at him Y/N! Don’t look at him! “Look at me.” You do. Damn it! And you see his gorgeous blue eyes staring at you, studying your flustered face and the tears slowly drowning your (colour) look. You missed those eyes. You missed them so.damn.much ! As much as you missed his hands cupping your face and his thumbs wiping up your tears. God! How many tears those thumbs have missed recently. “It’s alright.”

You want to believe him. You really do. But there is this voice screaming in your head and very clearly this time. A voice shouting, forcing you to remember that night, that awful nightmarish night, the one when you felt your heart break and your dreams turn to ashes. All that because of him and his obsession for her.

“No, it’s not alright, Leon.” You shake your head and miraculously manage to take a small step back. You never thought you could. But you had to. You can’t stay close to him. You can’t let him touch you, feel you. Not if you want to run away. And you have to run away. Like her! Like Ada. Ada! “I told you. For as long as you have feelings for Ada, I can’t … we can’t…”     “Please don’t talk about her.” He begs and rubs his hand over his face. Is he trying to chase her away from his mind? Is she still in here? Please, let her not be in here.    “But she’s the reason we’re in this situation now. She’s the reason why we’re in this mess.” You insist only for the sake to see his reaction when you mention Ada, to see if she’s still under his skin, somewhere. “Ada is not the reason. I am!” Leon corrects you, a finger directed at his heavy chest as he is putting the full blame on himself for the first time since that night. “I am the one who went after Ada when I shouldn’t have! I am the reason why we broke up! I am the reason why we are so miserable!”         “But I was fine!” You shouted back in an attempt to show him he was wrong refusing to listen to that part of you who knew he was completely right. You were miserable without him. “I was doing fine until you came back and fucked everything up! I was healing goddamnit!”             You felt new tears rolling along your red cheeks and quickly wipe them off with the back of your hand that felt so callous and rough in comparison to Leon’s gentle touch. “You can’t just jump back into my life like this and expect me to forget!”

Leon nods, agreeing with you in a certain way. But the truth is, he doesn’t want you to forget. He doesn’t expect you to erase his mistake. He just wants you to forgive him … No, he just wants you to come back to him. Period. And that’s got to be what you want to. It has to!   “So why did you have sex with me, huh?” He finally asks even though he already knows your answer. “Tell me!” You’re not the kind of person who has meaningless sex, not the kind of person who worships one’s body with divine kisses and devoted caresses if they mean nothing. “Why did you have sex with me?” And yet the answer he wishes to hear doesn’t come out. “For fuck’s sake Y/N! Answer me! Why?” He shouts making you shiver and cry even more.    “Because I LOVE YOU!” You finally scream. And it hurts. It hurts but it feels good too. Like a weight lifted off your chest. “Because I missed you too! Because those months without you have been terrible! Because I don’t know how to handle even just the thought of you or the sound of your voice in my voicemail. Because each time I see something that makes me think of you, I’m a mess and I do things that normal me would never do! You fucked me up, Leon! You fucked me up but I love you! And I hate to love you!” You grunt in pain and relief, enraged but happy that you finally let everything out. And Leon listens in silence, frozen by your powerful honest confession. But he doesn’t know how to react. He doesn’t know what to say. Part of him is overjoyed, ecstatic that you still love him but there is another part that just feels terrible, sorry for the pain your love for him caused you even in his absence.   “But you see—“ You continue “That’s the problem in our relationship, Leon! I love you in ways that are so intense, that go beyond sanity. And you love me by half.”    You see him crumple, his horrified face looking suddenly very pale as if he had just heard some dreadful news. Is that really how you feel? Is that how you see his love for you? Is that what he has made you believe?         “Goodbye Leon.”

With the full intention to leave Leon’s place for good and never come back, you grab you bag on your way out of the bedroom while carelessly shoving your underwear inside of it since you forgot to put them on in the midst of panic and precipitation. Get out of here, Y/N! Now! A reasonable voice encourages you. Listen to me!    But this not what Leon wants.

“I never loved you by half.” He declares and you abruptly stop, asking God if he’s some kind of sadist that loves seeing you in pain from the comfort of his divine sofa somewhere in heaven. “Never.” But it’s not God and his sadism that makes you turn around. It’s you, and your masochist love for that blue-eyed man before you.     “I don’t believe you” Your voice almost doesn’t leave your throat as you try not to sob.           “But it’s the truth.” He says with a calm soothing voice as he slowly approaches you. “I never imagined my future with Ada. I never wished to grow old with her or build a home with her.” You want to tell Leon to stop talking, to stay where he is but your body doesn’t seem to respond. And when you feel him grabbing your hands in his and the comforting warmth that goes with that simple touch, you know that leaving is now an almost impossible task. “Yes. I admit it. My feelings for her were real.” Even when his honesty hurts you, you don’t know how to leave anymore. “But they were nothing in comparison to what I feel for you.”     You try to let go, pulling your hands away from his loving grip but he holds you back. And you’re not strong enough. Or maybe, you just don’t want to be strong. Everything is so confusing. Everything is tearing you apart.     “But they’re still here, aren’t they?” You question, hoping his answer might give you a clue, might give you the strength to make the correct decision. Do you leave? Or do you stay? “And they’ll keep coming back each she goes back into your life. You can’t let go of her.”    “You’re maybe right.” His words hurt you more than you thought they would. They hurt like hell because you realise there are not the ones you wanted to hear. You wanted to hear him say that he would let go of Ada, for good, for you. You wanted to hear that because deep down … YOU WANTED TO FUCKING STAY! “But can you let go of your past?” He continues and you shake your head refusing to hear any other word coming out of Leon’s mouth.       “Don’t!” You beg, weary.           “No! Listen to me this time. Ada is my past, Y/N. She’s my past. And you … you’re my future. You’re my life, damn it!” He doesn’t cry but you don’t need his tears to sense how emotional and how honest he is. And suddenly, you just want to listen to him. “And I was a fool not to see it sooner. When you left me, I felt a void I had never felt in my entire life. I felt like a part of me was missing. And then, the bombing in Washington happened, and it was like I had nothing left. I needed you. I wanted you. You. Not Ada.”      “Leon” You whisper and he cups your face again, blue eyes staring deep into yours, allowing you to see everything in him, his strong love for you and all the weaknesses he hated to admit. “It was you in my mind. Only you. And it will always be you. Because I love you. Now. Today. And I will always love you.”

You cry even more, uncertain if those tears are tears of sorrow, tears of joy or a mix of both. God, how can your emotions be such a mess right now? How can you be wishing to shout at him with all the anger you’ve accumulated and, at the same time, willing to kiss him with all love you’ve got?

“If you got to believe something. Believe that. And if that’s not enough and you think you can be happy with someone else. Then go. I won’t hold you back.” You frown. He is fucking lying. You’re sure of it. “You can’t stop running after me and you know it.” He smiles and scoffs, sensing that hint of sudden defiance in your tone he enjoys a lot.  “True. I can’t sop running after you. But I’ll do my best not to catch you if that’s what you want. But you got to tell me. Is that what you truly want?” You don’t reply. Truth is, you’re not sure what to say not because you’re not sure that’s what you want but because you’re not sure you can trust him if you let him in again.                        “No.” You whisper. “No, that’s not what I want. I want you. All of you.” You can see Leon struggle to contain his growing joy as it starts to glimmer brighter and brighter in his irises. He doesn’t want to cry victory just yet. He is cautious and rightfully so. “But can I?”        “Want me?” He smiles. “ Have you completely?” You correct, searching for a promise in his eyes, one you hope, you wish he would not break this time.     “Trust me with your heart again and find out.”

This better not hurt this time…

[uno-writing]

Hi! I see you here alot and I love your headcannons, so can you do some John angst headcanons? I'm feeling angsty today and this boi John can hold so much repressed trauma :D

Hi! Welcome :D I’m glad you enjoy! *slaps the top of John* This bad boi can hold so much repressed trauma!

***Side note*** For anyone who doesn’t read my things (or anyone who does), if it gets annoying/in the way with how many posts I make daily in the unordinary tag, lemme know!!! I know it kinda crowds the tag and I can easily just take it off all of my posts (And I don’t mind, it wouldn’t be bothering me or anything<3). I always tag my posts with unordinaryxreader or unordinary headcanons (depending on the content), along with the characters in the post, so if I need to, I can just rely on those tags :) Thanks🍿<3 <3

*He doesn’t try to make anything (crafts, art, food, ect) because he has the idea that his hands are only good for destroying and hurting

*He envies people like Remi who are able to go through hardships and still able to be a good person/want to help people

*He’s considered becoming a superhero. Not to help people or anything. Just as a stress reliever and because it’s so dangerous. He thinks that if he gets hurt, its what he deserves

*There’s a lot of times where he wonders what he’d be like if he had a god tier parent, or at least a god tier mentor. He knows William did his best, but he still thinks he would have been a better person if he had someone stronger as a parent that could teach him how to act

*He remembers several times when he was a kid that his dad got beat up on because his dad didn’t have any ability. One of the times, John tried to stand up for his dad and he ended up getting hurt in the process.

*He kind of enjoys Zeke’s attention, even though he knows it’s fake. It’s the first time someone aside from his dad has put him on a pedestal and refuses to take him off of it.

[princesscatherinemiddleton]

My thoughts and feelings on the Great British Divorce, as written on January 18th (and updated on February 19th)

I wrote a very long and detailed essay on my feelings when the Sussexes stood down and it was super cathartic. I’ve not reread it since (although I have added one final paragraph) but I am going to make you all read it...

Prince Harry announces he is dating Meghan Markle

I had Meghan Markle down with Ellie Goulding, Mollie from The Saturdays, Caroline Flack, and Jenna Coleman as famous women Harry has “dated” that would never come to anything. Then, on a completely normal day when I was at work, Harry released his statement. It was completely unprecedented. Everyone in the staffroom was talking about it, saying things like “I didn’t even know he was dating/Diana would want to see him happy/Who is she?”. And I knew they would be for keeps. This one would become Mrs Harry.

Engagement announcement

Do you want to know what my initial reaction was when the engagement was announced? Fear and worry. I was so so scared that Harry’s fiancé would be put through the same awful treatment Kate had gone through. I was also worried that Meghan would be pitted against Kate and vice versa – I hadn’t spent all those years watching people drag Kate against Diana/Sophie/Camilla/[insert female royal here] to live it again with Harry’s fiancé. But, despite my fears and the initial sinking feeling of dread, I was still excited. Apart from George’s first day at school, Harry and Meghan’s engagement announcement remains the only event with no Kate appearance that has a tag on my blog. I fell in love with the brilliant, charismatic, intelligent woman in the engagement interview. I was excited for the future.

Pre-wedding engagements

My main memory of how I felt at the time was disappointment at Meghan’s outfits. Where had my stylish young professional gone? Why was she wearing these wide-legged trousers that dragged on the floor with long coats? But I genuinely thought they both did really well. Meghan came across as personable and warm and intelligent. They were clearly in sync. They were a modern young couple and the perfect counterpart to the stability of the Cambridges.

Wedding

I was at uni when the wedding happened. I took the day off work and travelled home for one day to surprise my mum and watch the wedding with her. My auntie called me minutes before Meghan appeared to talk to me because she was watching it and she “knew” I was on my own in Bournemouth. When Meghan appeared, I literally crawled in front of the TV and sat inches from the screen so I could see her emerge in her dress in all its glory (I was disappointed, ngl). I cried during her wedding. I’d spent the morning spotting celebrities and Kate was there and the bridal party was fantastic. Meghan’s tiara shone like the jewel she was. Charles, Camilla, and Doria were literally angelic. After the wedding I went to my auntie’s house to watch the FA Cup final (as a family, we always do that and have a BBQ) and I spent all my time on my phone waiting for photos of their evening outfits. I cried again when I saw Meghan’s Stella dress. It’s one of my favourite wedding outfits of all time. I’m a super fussy bitch and I had plenty of complaints with the wedding and I have aired them before but it was a truly happy and wonderful day and I was happy and content.

Post-wedding engagements

I know I’m literally only talking about Meghan but I don’t pay attention to Harry so I barely know if he’s there or not. I think Meghan hit the ground running. She did some brilliant engagements during the time post-wedding and pre-Archie. Her patronage choices were inspired and the work she did with her patronages is some of my favourite Meghan work. Obviously, she also created the Together Cookbook, which doesn’t need going into. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, Meghan would have been the Anne of this generation of royals, quietly getting the numbers and doing fantastic work. Meghan was connecting with people no one else could in a way no one had since Harry himself. She quite literally made the role her own.

Faux Pas

Meghan had teething problems but, most of the time, I put them down to cultural differences. Things like talking about abortion in Ireland – any British person knows not to do that. More importantly, it was a political statement, which is, essentially, “against the rules”. I think Meghan would have grown out of these, as she was making far less of them already, in the same way Kate, Camilla, Sophie, and Diana grew out of them. I also think the general public opinion wasn’t as positive as social media has people believe. I was talking to Cece about this but the Africa documentary went down badly. If it wasn’t for Andy’s well-timed interview, I think it would have been a much bigger deal but, as it was, it was swept under the carpet. Don’t get me wrong, I think Meghan made some incredible points in the documentary that deserved being aired BUT I never heard anyone in the real world say anything positive about those decisions. I think, during their time together, both Harry and Meghan made mistakes that warranted criticism and I don’t think they ever received that criticism because…

Press treatment of Meghan

Has every royal woman received incredibly negative headlines? Yes. Has Kate and her family been treated awfully by the press? Yes. Do I find it funny when people make comments like “look, Meghan touched her baby bump and people hate her and they loved it when Kate did it” when I had to sit through people talking about what trailer trash Kate was for touching her bump in her first two pregnancies? Yes. Was Meghan compared to Kate in the same way Kate was compared to Sophie and Sarah compared to Diana? Yes. Was Meghan’s coverage actually that different from the coverage Kate got? No. Did Meghan receive worse coverage than any other British royal? Yes. Without a doubt.

I’ve stayed away from talking about race too much. I am a white woman. I look like a “stereotypically” Jewish woman as my family is Jewish. A large proportion of my family is either from the Republic of Ireland or the Irish travelling community. I’ve seen my family be subject to abuse because of their ethnicity. My mum has scars because her house was set on fire as a child because her dad was Irish. Despite that, I have no idea what it is like to experience racism. I’ve had the most closeted white woman life when it comes to matters of race. None of the things I described was racism in the way Meghan experienced it and none of it means I am in a position where I can join in on this conversation. I have spent years learning about racism and every day I find myself coming across something that I hadn’t considered, like the idea that Meghan is a good mum for going back to work so quickly is a form of positive discrimination and we should tackle that. I genuinely don’t know how much I should get involved in these conversations but I also don’t want to add to emotional labour by continuously directing these conversations towards people of colour.

Coming from my position of privilege, Meghan received some truly awful and horrific treatment at the hands of the press and the public. She was humiliated, her family history and private life was raked over, she was blamed for war because she ate an avocado one time? I can only assume Harry is really good in bed because there is no way I would have stayed with him if I had to go through what Meghan went through. Announcing they were suing the press was still the dumbest thing I’ve ever seen though.

BRF & Meghan

The BRF could have – and should have – done more to protect Meghan from the press. However, I think it was naïve to ever assume they would. I could talk until I’m blue in the face about how it would have helped Meghan’s confidence (and the BRF’s PR) to make a statement like “The Queen and the royal family are greatly distressed at the treatment of the Duchess of Sussex…”. I could talk about how the BRF uses symbolism rather than statements and I watched you all talk about how the Queen loves Meghan because she went on the royal train and had a solo engagement with the Queen so don’t pretend for one minute that you all don’t know that. I could talk about William releasing a statement (which everyone glosses over but go off, I guess). I could talk about how, if the Queen did not release a statement, Kate couldn’t very well have gone off and released one on her own (also, how come it’s always The Queen, Charles, Will, and Kate, where is Camilla?). But there’s no point. They should have done more. It was a massive oversight not to consider how being a woman of colour would affect Meghan’s treatment after becoming a member of the firm and they had a duty to help protect her. But no one should ever have thought it would have happened. The BRF look after number 1 and that, right now, is the Queen. That’s how it has always been. They treated Meghan the same way they treat everyone who isn’t in the direct line (also Andrew but that’s Andrew). As Katie says, anything else would have blown up in Meghan’s face. If I was in charge of the BRF’s PR, I would not have advised them to say anything.

Archie

Archie is a precious angel and I refuse to hear otherwise.

Archie’s birth was poorly handled by Sara but I don’t care. It was cute. Archie’s christening was foolishly handled by the Sussexes. I also don’t massively care. It’s miniscule in comparison to the bigger fish at play. Despite that, the only people who would have cared who Archie’s godparents were, are on this site. By refusing to allow the small bit of access the public get to christenings, it annoyed people who barely even know who Archie is. And we’re still talking about it today. I said to a friend recently that most British people only care about royals when it comes to weddings, babies, and money. With a wedding in Windsor, not London, and on a Saturday (meaning no bank holiday), coupled with a messy birth announcement, no “Lindo Wing” appearance, and the godparent faux pas, they missed golden opportunities to help the public fall in love with them and their family. There’s a reason the Cambridge kids are always seen after a PR disaster.

Sussex Statement

My opinion on the statement? Massively poorly handled. I think the BRF knew the Sussexes wanted out but did not know the statement would be released. This doesn’t contradict anything anyone has said. Harry and Meghan are right to leave. Mentally, and also for their family. They will flourish outside of the confines of the BRF. I also think Harry messed up by releasing the statement when he did. By forcing the hand, the public was calling for them to lose their funding before a decision had to be made (and lo and behold, they lost their funding), rather than being able to release a full statement confirming how much money they would keep. TLDR; good idea, hope it all works out, awfully handled.

Sussex/BRF Resolution

I think it was the best possible solution. I’m a little shocked they are completely stepping down but, as time goes on, I’m not surprised. I think the Sussexes clearly expected to be more half in/half out because their website had a whole section dedicated to royal work and supporting the Queen and taxpayer funding. The website used their titles. There are still things to work out (Duchy funding? How will they repay the taxpayers? Will they go to Trooping? Will they answer letters? SussexRoyal) but I think it’s a good middle ground.

Overall thoughts

The Sussexes are right to leave. The way they left was messy af and I blame Harry for that. I don’t think Meghan was innocent in how they left but I blame Harry for being so trigger happy. They made some bad PR moves in the last few months: announcing they were suing the press (do it quietly or they’ll just come after you more), the documentary, the statement. I think the press will be after them even more now and I think it’s interesting looking at how many times we’ve seen Meghan papped in Canada this year compared to the times we saw her papped in the UK since 2017. I also think, long term, they will lose their star power and become Reese Witherspoon levels of famous. Everyone knows who she is, most people like her, she does some good philanthropic work, she gets freebies, that’s pretty much it. Meghan and Harry’s appeal (and this goes for every single royal) is in the fact they are royal. Without the connection to the BRF, they’re just rich people preaching.

I’m also very sad. I thought Meghan would come back, post maternity leave, with a new project and put everyone else to shame. I thought she would take on new patronages, do a solo overseas visit, and generally flourish as a young working mum. We will see far less of her than we thought we would. I doubt we’ll see little Archie much at all. As for Harry, I can officially say that the most amusing and upsetting thing to come out of this has been seeing good, kind, left-wing people brown nose a rich, privileged, racist, quite frankly dangerous white man because he married a good woman. I think he will struggle more out of the royal bubble than in it because he’s lost the little structure he had.

Harry was always going to leave the royal family. Meghan might have been a catalyst, but she is not the cause. There is nothing the BRF could have done – no statement – that would have stopped him. He did a whole interview about how much he hates being a royal and then said the public need royals. In his new life as a whatever he is now, my biggest worry is that he will spend more time talking publicly about issues like mental health, without understanding what he is saying. I hope I’m wrong and that he flourishes and becomes a force to be reckoned with. But, while I know Meghan will do brilliantly, I have no idea what he’ll do.

Meghan, Archie, I hope you flourish. I can’t wait to see what you do next. Harry. Sayonara, biatch.

A final update

I thought I should give my thoughts on this now – mid-February – after the dust has settled. I genuinely miss a lot of the people the Sussexes brought to the fandom. I miss planning outfits for Meg to wear to events, I miss predicting what Meghan’s next patronages might be. I miss seeing Meghan interacting with the public, because that was where she shone. We now know the Sussexes will formally split on March 31st, after a final set of engagements. I’m super looking forward to these engagements and judging the vibe from everyone there. We also know it’s likely they will have to rebrand (my bet is Sussex Foundation) and I’m assuming this rebrand will happen in April/May time, possibly around their anniversary. Honestly, I was expecting to see more of them. I was expecting more posts on their Instagram about private visits to charities. I was definitely not expecting them to jump straight to JP Morgan and start attending exclusive events. Rich people going to rich people, I guess. Despite that, Meghan and Harry could start a business selling rubber ducks and, quite frankly, it’s none of my business. If we never see them again, that’s their choice as private citizens and I have to respect that. I’m still fascinated to see how this will all turn out but they are now free to live their own lives and, because of that, I’m going to live and let live.

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Yknow a thing with techno & techno apologist is always like ‘he was betrayed!’ And suddenly he’s justified?

Like.. why is that necessarily a bad thing? Like.. being betrayed doesn’t suddenly make you a hero and right to do whatever you want?

Yknow who was also betrayed?? Schlatt. He was 100% betrayed by Quackity and tubbo and Fundy. But he deserved it, because he was a bad person and he didn’t do any good for the country.

And so when techno or any techno apologist is like ‘grrr people be betrayed me’ im like ‘so? It’s not like he didn’t deserve to be betrayed??? He was shit and tried to destroy a peaceful government.’

269 notes • Posted 2021-02-27 13:33:02 GMT

#4

stop putting x reader fics in the main tag.

393 notes • Posted 2021-03-21 14:26:57 GMT

#3

My Opinion on the “Did Techno Have Consequences to His Actions?”

Yes, he did! But that doesn’t matter, because he didn’t learn from it. He didn’t get the right consequence.

Techno got a lot of physical consequences. He was kidnapped, had an anvil dropped on him, had his horse threatened etc.

He also had some emotional consequences as well. He felt betrayed and hurt by many people, including some who were close to him! His feelings are valid, I won’t deny that.

But he never truly changed! He’s the SAME.

He’s never considered other points of view (form what I’ve seen, feel free to correct me)

He’s never thought of himself as in the wrong despite others being very hurt by what he did

He doesn’t think he’s done anything wrong and THATS upsetting!

He’s learned nothing except that his OWN point was proven- and it was because HE was the one to cause it to be proven!!

And that’s infuriating! It’s annoying for techno to freely be able to say “Yeah I was right all along! See :)” and have NOTHING happen!!

The narrative is twisted to have techno ALWAYS on top, and that’s how he escapes any real consequence.

He doesn’t learn that anything he’s ever done is wrong because there not consequence to tell him that!

And so yeah, I want him to have consequences!

But I want it through WORDS.

I want someone to openly and downright tell techno that he HURT people. That he did BAD things, that he WASN’T fully justified in what he did!

I want the line “You are a person, but so are we” to be ACKNOWLEDGED in the narrative.

I want techno to have consequences for what he’s done.

878 notes • Posted 2021-04-03 00:20:09 GMT

#2

C!slimecicle should become a stripper so people stop infanitizing him

1385 notes • Posted 2021-08-24 23:43:40 GMT

#1

Age is so weird because you will spend the first 15 years of your life being told that you’re are a stupid child who doesn’t know anything and then suddenly at 16 you should be getting a job to become an adult and at 17 you should be getting a car to become an adult and at 18 you should be a fully functioning adult who knows everything and should be in college and preparing to move out of your parents house and if you aren’t you’re a failure.

6438 notes • Posted 2021-08-13 02:11:31 GMT

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REVIEWING THE CHARTS: 1st July 2018

Just a shorter episode today, hopefully. As long as it’s 1,000 words I’m fine with making a lower-effort episode after a busy week of doing other stuff like BLAST TO THE PAST and promoting my mixtape. This has kind of fell in my priorities since, but I’ll still try and make something of an interesting read with the five new arrivals we have, and all the other antics.

Top 10

Well, we have another new number-one this week, topping the charts at its fourteenth week here! This one’s “Shotgun” by George Ezra, which I believe is Ezra’s first ever number-one, so congratulations, even if the song is much less deserving than, say, “Budapest”.

This means that the song “Solo” by Clean Bandit featuring Demi Lovato has been hit a spot to the runner-up space, number-two, but I have a feeling it will rebound.

“2002” by Anne-Marie won’t freaking go away at number-three. It’s been steady for weeks now, please drop or climb sometime!

Former #1 “I’ll be There” by Jess Glynne has not fulfilled its promise by staying at number-four.

Oh, yeah, and we also gave XXXTENTACION a top-five hit, as “SAD!” crawled up a whopping 26 spaces to get to number-five, after UK chart rules started to include YouTube video streaming, conveniently right at the time the video for X’s track dropped. I think this may mean more new arrivals each week, so prepare for that, but we’ll see.

“If You’re Over Me” by Years & Years is up two spots to number-six, and will go into the top five once the album releases this week.

“Better Now” by Post Malone is now down a position, probably due to “SAD!”, to number-seven.

“I Like It”, however, by Cardi B, Bad Bunny and J Balvin is climbing up higher – it had a one-spot boost this week and is now at number-eight.

“Leave a Light On” by Tom Walker is down two spaces to number-nine, but will rebound because I heard it on another advertisement and that’s how this song gets plays.

Finally, just like last week, we have “One Kiss” by Calvin Harris and Dua Lipa staying at the final spot in the top 10.

Climbers

Other than “Rise” by Jonas Blue featuring Jack & Jack up five spots to #12, most of our big gainers this week are for cloud or emo-rap artists, including Juice WRLD, whose “Lucid Dreams” got a five-spot gain up to #18 (I called it!), Post Malone, whose feature alongside Preme on Tiesto and Dzeko’s “Jackie Chan” got a big 15-space boost up to #20, as well as the late XXXTENTACION, who got some more post-death streams, landing his two other songs that entered the top 40 last week in higher peaks, the highest being “Moonlight”, up 15 spots to #17, and the other being “changes”, which although latching on nowhere near as well as “Moonlight” and “SAD!”, is still up 11 spots to #22.

Fallers

We don’t have many, but the ones we do have are massive, and mostly for bigger hits that served a long time in the top 20. We have Ariana Grande’s “No Tears Left to Cry” taking an 18-spot leap down to #23, George Ezra’s “Paradise” being clearly drowned by his self-competition, jumping down 17 spaces to #29, joining “Love Lies” by Khalid and Normani down eleven spots to #33 in the group of bigger tracks that took giant hits. “Bed” by Nicki Minaj featuring Ariana Grande is also down ten spots to #30, and “This is Me” by Keala Settle and The Greatest Showman Ensemble is down five spots, now at #35, and hopefully exiting soon.

Dropouts & Returning Entries

We have quite a few new arrivals, so naturally there were some drop-outs to let the entries come in, including Ziv Zaifman, Hugh Jackman and John Williams’ “A Million Dreams” from The Greatest Showman, dropping out from #37, “This is America” by Childish Gambino featuring Young Thug dropping out from #39, “Lullaby” by Sigala featuring Paloma Faith collapsing and dropping out from #21, alongside “Bad Vibe” by M.O., Lotto Boyzz and Mr. Eazi out from #29. “In My Blood” by Shawn Mendes has also ended its decidedly decent run, as it has dropped out from #38.

In terms of returning entries, we don’t have any, but we do have sudden gains for a lot of songs that have been bubbling under the top 40 for a while, so let’s start talking about the new arrivals.

NEW ARRIVALS

#40 – “Ring Ring” – Jax Jones featuring Mabel and Rich the Kid

Okay, I’m sick of this Jax Jones dude and his bland production, pointless producer tag and stupid sweet-wrapper album covers. Everything he does, including this, just feels so cookie-cutter and aggravatingly bland somewhat-danceable pop music. This, however, is a bit more interesting, as it combines dancehall girl Mabel with trap-rapper Rich the Kid – which has surprisingly happened before on a remix of Rich’s “Plug Walk” – however, it somehow makes the interestingly-distorted vocals from Mabel, which are delivered oddly sensually for a song that’s otherwise really annoying, with its vocal sample in the drop and skittering trap hi-hats that do little but make Rich feel more fitting (it doesn’t work), boring as all hell. This is dancehall, EDM and trap-rap combined without any of the soul, energy or passion that people like Sean Paul at least had when they combined hip-hop with reggae and dance. With Rich the Kid’s tacked-on, phoned-in (quite literally, it starts with him talking about someone calling him) non-presence of a verse, this just feels like a cluttered monstrosity of different minimalist genres that mesh together to create nothing but rubbish chart fodder. I’d say I expected better from everyone involved, but then I’d be kidding myself, and I don’t exactly believe Rich and Jax are even close to how talented Mabel is.

#39 – “Nevermind” – Dennis Lloyd

Wow, you guys just want to give me the bland, inoffensive schlock today, huh? This is Dennis Lloyd, guy with a moustache and a dream – except the moustache is the only thing he deserves to succeed. This dude has the least presence and charisma out of any singer I’ve covered here who doesn’t consider themselves a rapper, and the unnecessarily heavy bass, repetitive and boring hook melody, basically non-existent guitar strumming, weak and fake finger-snaps, the dreamy synths that add nothing at all to the song other than just making it more of a waste of time. This song is only two minutes and 36 seconds, and it’s 80% that simplistic, monotonous hook. I’d say it’s much of a muchness, but it’s not much of anything at all except that damned hook, which is repeated ad infinitum, like an earworm that develops into a full-on mantra that will haunt your nightmares. I mean, it’s not that bad, it’s just so lazily and sleep-inducingly awful that I have nothing to say about it other than the fact it’s snooze-worthy.

#36 – “APES**T” – The Carters (Beyoncé and JAY-Z) featuring Migos

Offset and Quavo don’t have verses. They just provide ad-libs. Biggest musical mistake of the year, probably! Offset would have killed this beat, and Takeoff isn’t even there at all. What���s the deal with that? They’d do better than Beyoncé, of all people, who is sloppily trying to stay on beat (why are we autotuning Queen Bey and letting her make trap-rap ad-libs again?). There’s also this really annoying synth in the beginning that Quavo just repeats “yeah” over, that’s kinda pointless. The pre-chorus from Bey is decent, but her verse just feels kind of boring, as does the hook, right before JAY-Z comes in to kill it like he nearly always does. It’s not incredible bar-wise, but it’s damn tight mainstream brag-rapping – sadly, he has barely any time on the track compared to his wife, as he desperately tries to get more words in edgeways during Beyoncé’s second verse, where he’s resorting to ad-libs behind Bey’s faster flow. Also, it’s kind of awesome that JAY-Z just disses anyone he can right now, because he can definitely get away with it. I don’t know, it’s just kind of cool how there’s no holds barred for him anymore.

It’s not a bad song by any means, but disappointing from three of my favourite urban and hip-hop artists right now – JAY-Z, Beyoncé and Migos. Speaking of Migos, actually, our next song is a much better example of a trap banger.

#34 – “Taste” – Tyga featuring Offset

I rated this a six out of 10 in a rate a few days ago and, well, I didn’t really want to give a paedophile and a homophobe any more credit, hence why I didn’t give it a seven, or even eight, but now, it’s grown on me so much that I can just say I kind of love this.

I love that vocal sample, with the vocalising sounding pretty great behind the subtle bass and piano loop, especially when the vocalist goes into his falsetto. Yeah, I don’t really believe what Tyga says about all his gang activity, because he’s not threatening at all, but when the beat cuts out, he has nice enough lines to make it not seem pointless and anti-climactic. Oh, yeah, and this hook? Catchy as hell. The whispering of “taste” is sensual and kind of creepy, but I frankly don’t care, especially when Offset comes in and kills it, once again – seriously, this dude’s great, and his flow and delivery is always so slick, and it’s proved here. Also, Tyga just sings a bunch of nonsense at some point and he somehow gets away with it because it leads into the chorus well and is apparently a reference to rapper A.E.’s catchphrase (thanks, Genius)? Yeah, while there are some questionable moments, this is a relaxed yet still exciting banger from the dude who made his album art a naked furry tiger lady monstrosity this same year and (Offset!), who apparently has access to pterodactyls, spaceships and Ric Flair (who he actually does have access to; he got him in a video more than once). Maybe that’s why I love Offset – for his goofy personality but how he confines it into such sweet, chill verses, kind of like MF DOOM. Sorry, I’m going off on a tangent, next song!

#32 – “Only You” – Cheat Codes and Little Mix

I was dreading the day I’d have to talk about both of these groups, because I really hate everything they’ve made. Little Mix are either infuriating, confusing or boring with fantastic singers, while Cheat Codes are bland but usually okay production-wise with an awful lead singer, so I guess it’s like the Chainsmokers collaborating with the Chainsmokers when they’ve got a featured singer.

Oh, yeah, this song? It sucks. It’s boring. It has some guitar strumming and simple synth bleeps but they mean nothing. All of the Mix singers are great, as always, but they feel wasted (once again, as always) here, because they don’t really get to burst too soon, which is what I like about their voices – when they belt, they can belt damn well, and I feel it’s just very underwhelming when instead, we get an ugly drop and harmonising from the Cheat Codes singer (in a falsetto at times) in the second verse, which just kind of hilariously proves the landslide in quality between people like Perrie Edwards and people like Trevor Dahl. It’s just kind of short and uninteresting, but what did I expect from Cheat Codes and Little Mix? Not much. Not much at all.

Conclusion

Best of the Week goes to Tyga and Offset for “Taste”, with Honourable Mention not being served, rather a double Dishonourable Mention: “Ring Ring” by Jax Jones, Mabel and Rich the Kid, tied with “Only You” by Cheat Codes and Little Mix. Worst of the Week easily goes to Dennis Lloyd for “Nevermind”. Knowing my luck, that’s going to be a hit. Delightful. See you next week.

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“The Great Unfriending Experiment”, a Reflection

• Sejeong (real life-close friend), Dayeon and Somi (not-so-close friends)

Christelle Agustin (BA COMM II) COM 120

Before a hundred points can draw a line, I admit, this is cliché in content. But I’ve heard this repeatedly from a lot of people and I have also dropped the same face of the dice identical to theirs; you can have more parallel and contradicting engagements with people you’ve known for a long time considering the framework given by time as a large avenue to craft structural experiences together. It’s like rubbing to each other’s surface and a productive friction dares to exist, and this scenario can ideally happen in social media podiums.

To be honest, I spent one and a half hour contemplating on my Facebook account, just constantly reviewing my friend list. At first, it was an easy round for me to identify those people who are close to me, but I had a rough dimension where I have to actually eliminate and trim down people in order to come up with the final participants of this experiment, thus, I also consider those people who are always reacting on my posts and those who I frequently talk to in messenger in a daily basis because they are the ones who would likely check my profile from time to time since it seems like we have this active conversation and maintaining connection policy in this particular medium even though we don’t disclose things to each other that much.

At the same time, I particularly chose the seven people because I don’t personally know them, we have zero or few mutual friends which led to my understanding that we really don’t have personal ties or even connections, their information shows they live in places I’m totally unfamiliar with, they share posts that are disgusting and not beneficial at all, the identity displayed in their accounts are affirmatively not their authentic self-presentation and others are old and inactive accounts I do not interact with.

I started unfriending at 8:00 PM and I ended at 8:25 PM. The whole duration of that made me imagine about the possible reactions simply because I am personally acquainted with their usual responses. For Sejeong as my real-life close friend, I was laughing inside my head knowing the fact that she’s a person of bluntness shaded with silly feedbacks, even her sudden outburst sometimes becomes comedic in kind. Meanwhile, Dayeon, who is one of my not-so-close friends and was my classmate in high school and now residing in California, I initially thought that she might be offended and her who can be easily annoyed is a plus. In contrast, I felt no worries to Somi because one of her characteristics that I appreciate the most is her being light and understanding.

The least person I expected to approach me after unfriending is Dayeon. But, surprisingly, she ranked first in messaging me with the content “Takte ka in-unfriend nak gayam oh! Main-inbox zone nak lang ngarud kanayon kenkan tapos nakarkaro pay toy in-unfriend nak ah.” At that juncture I felt a sign of success in a bit because I finally got a response after two days, so to go on, I asked her how did she discover it. Then she started telling me that she usually encounters news articles in her timeline because of my shared posts and in two days she noticed that I no longer appear whenever she scrolls in Facebook. She had this assumption that I just went inactive although I am always online but she still decided to check my profile and learned about it. After that, she sent me a friend request.

On the other hand, Somi and another friend unintentionally bumped into each other in the oval and we ended up walking to CHS to roam around the university. We’ve realized that it’s been a while since we last hangout together so we took a lot of pictures while walking. I was so tempted to tell her if she have seen my latest posts, to test if she already noticed that I unfriended her, but I refused to speak about it because it’s an experiment. At 7:00 PM that night, Somi popped up in chat, she informed me that she can’t tag me in her messenger story and went to check my profile to check if I deactivated my Facebook account. According to her, she got surprised but not shocked when she discovered that we are no longer friends. I did not respond to her immediately, I waited for more chats from her, fortunately, I received a message saying “Pero feel ko may purpose ka or experiment na naman ‘to noh? Di ka naman ganon ka-shallow kung trip mo lang hahahahaha”.

Lastly, Sejeong, who is a real-life close friend failed to notice it in six days. So, this Friday morning, I told her to kindly check my featured photos to see if they are still the same. She searched for my account and told me she got a technical error because there appeared “This Page isn’t Available Right Now”. Few minutes later she sent me a screenshot of my profile with the “add friend” button visually present in the screen. Being funny as always, she jokingly said, “Happy Halloween! Naar-arya’n sa pati FB tan ta di met agfriend’n lola.”

Whenever I make decisions or even selecting between options exclusively served for me, a part of the process is that I always try to figure out or visualize the probable outcomes of the things I weigh together in my hand. In relation to this, in choosing between two friends to unfriend, I choose who I think can provide me more essential or substantive responses despite being in its natural set-up. Moreover, I also take in consideration those who I am more comfortable with, where I can push myself to my greater limits when it comes to communicating.

These friends, I feel so lucky for they gave justice to my existence in their social media accounts as a friend because they noticed about the so-called disturbance of unfriending although it really took them for days.

A string can be tied again together but they will not be strong as the way they were connected before the incident of cutting. So, if there is a person I would never unfriend, it would be my mom. In a week, I spend five days in Batac, and only one and a half day at home, which means my mom and I dominantly talk virtually rather than in person. We always give update to each other, more on chats than texts because we are active when it comes to exchanging photos. According to Em Griffin’s Eight Edition of A First Look at Communication Theory, Joseph Walther’s Social Information Processing Theory indicates that Computer Mediated Communication (CMC) users can adapt online medium and use it effectively for close relationships. This applies to us, especially on the part of the theory suggesting that these people have the same warmth online and on face-to-face communication. I can never unfriend my mom, because it could be a sign of disrespect which may led to her disappointment and that’s the least thing I’d want to happen.

Yes, social networking sites can also be a real world.

While I was on the process of this experiment, I came to recognize the possibility that who I am offline massively affected my actions online. My personal preferences in real life influenced the decisions I’ve done in unfriending – I chose to eradicate those who I think do not have significant roles in my Facebook activities. Moreover, I can perceive my online behavior as the duplication or reflection of my offline behavior; I cut unhealthy and unnecessary ties. I’m an active multi-network user, on this context, I also saw the element of bonding social capital adapted from Williams (2006) that origins to Putman (2000), wherein, I was able to assemble the assurance that those people I chose not to unfriend are those who I could turn to in time of need and any other matters, more likely because we have built a certain degree of intimacy or closeness in our relationship. In the three behaviors of social capital, I only had a manifestation of maintaining relationship and information seeking in this experiment, completely disregarded the act of initiating.

Overall, this activity made me realize that the social networking sites I’m utilizing should be like an arena; open to some but not for everyone. There are seats inside it, and I think I should only allow those who have tickets to enter. Tickets, on this sense for me, are those who are deserving for strong ties, who can highly contribute on my social capital and those who delivers positivity and encouragement that can also enhance my offline behaviors. Because what I’ve learned the most is that, who I am offline and online are both interrelated to each other; and there should be careful parallelism, frequent contradictions are not always healthy.

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99 questions for the MUSE and 1 question for the MUN.

Originally posted by pan-imagines

Rules: Don’t reblog! Repost with your own answers, tag whoever you want

Developing a character.

1. What is your full name?

Wilkiam (He doesn’t know this); William Smith - soon to be William Page Hawthorn as soon as the adoption goes through.

2. Where and when were you born?

He was born in London on October 9 about 7 years ago. To hide him away from the dangers of being near his own father, Wil’s uncle Tristan took him as a baby back in time, about 6 years, and placed him in a human orphanage to hide any proof that William was truly the fae child.

3. Who are or were your parents? (Names, professions, personality ��)

His birth mom’s name was Jenny Page, his father is Kheelan. His birth mom did not have a profession yet, as she died when she was sixteen. She loved the sciences, though. Kheelan is a Fae Prince of the Autumn Court, and Dream Fae who lives off  the imagination of others. 

Abigail Hawthorn is also his mom through soon to be adoption. They’re just waiting for the paperwork to go through. He fully considers her mom now.

4. Do you have siblings?

By birth, no. He considers Larc Delacroix his brother fully.

--- Wil answers from here on ---

5. Where do you live now and with whom? Describe the place and the people who live with it.

I live with my mom, and my brother, and his family in their mansion.

6. What do you do?

I go to school ... I like to draw, too. 

7. Write a complete description about yourself. You should consider height, weight, race, hair color, eyes and tattoos, scars or any other mark that differentiates you.

Um .. like physically? .. I’m kind of short, skinny. I have dark auburn hair and freckles that are annoying. I guess I’d be considered Caucasian... but my human family’s from London, and I’m half Fae, so not sure that truly applies, considering I’m not even fully human. Who knows. I do have a scar .. that I don’t want to talk about. (Wil has a self inflicted scar on his upper thigh that crudely says, ‘I hate myself’)

8. What social class do you belong to?

Me personally? Lower class. I don’t really have anything. My mom works hard though, but we don’t have much on our own. My brother helps us out a lot. He’s super rich. 

9. Do you have allergies, illnesses or other physical weaknesses?

I can kicked around a lot really easily. Does that count? -chuckles- Okay, um.. no, not really as in illnesses. I’m pretty healthy... -voice trails off just a bit as if lost in thought for a minute-  I’m allergic, though, to a lot of things. Iron and a lot of metals, I can’t eat foods that are overly processed. My stomach gets really upset. I have to eat really natural foods.

10. Are you right-handed or left-handed?

Right handed.

11. How does your voice sound?

Like a voice? -chuckles- Okay, um.. I don’t know. Mostly American, but I do have a bit of a British lilt that comes out from time to time. I think it’s because I learned to talk while I was in care in London.

12. What phrases or words do you use frequently?

Probably, “Whatever,” and “Dude,” most likely. 

13. What do you carry in your pockets?

My cell phone, and my pencil.

14. Do you have tics, hobbies, strange habits or other characteristics that define you?

I like to draw. I’m working on a comic.

15. How would you describe your childhood in general?

Just don’t ask. It wasn’t very good, until I met Larc and Abigail. Just .. don’t. I don’t want to talk about it.

16. What is your earliest memory?

I remember wallpaper, and how I could see little people in the patters moving and dancing, even though they weren’t really there. I remember getting yelled at, and being on meds after that. I don’t know. I block most of it out. It was some home I was in way back. I’m not sure which one it was. I was probably five.

17. What studies do you have?

I’m an eighth grader at Prentiss Academy. 

19. Where did you learn your skills?

Drawing skills? I don’t know. It’s just always kind of come naturally to me. I do take an art course in school, now, though.

20. Have you had models to follow in your childhood or adolescence? Describe them.

Not until I met Abigail and Larc. I wish I could be more like Larc. He doesn’t realize it, but he’s pretty amazing.

21. Growing up … What kind of relationship did you have with the members of your family?

None. I moved around a lot from different homes. Nobody ever wanted me.

22. What did you want to be when you grew up when you were a child?

I wanted to be in another dimension or world far away from here.

23. What were your favorite activities as a child?

Drawing, hanging out in the woods, and watching my stars.

24. What personality traits did you have when you were a child?

Silly, playful... but when I was alone. That’s why I liked to go out in the woods by myself. I could play there without anyone watching. 

25. Were you a popular kid? Who were your friends and what were they like?

I’ve never been popular. I’m popular with the bullies. -forces a sarcastic smile-

26. When and how was your first kiss?

My first kiss was actually kind of awesome. -grins- i mean, it was more like a testing it out thing, but Larc offered, so yeah we did it. I wanted to do it, again.

27. Are you a virgin? If you are not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?

Yeah.

28. If you are a supernatural being (eg magician, werewolf, vampire), tell the story of how you have become or have learned your own abilities. If you are a normal human, describe any influence that has led you to do what you do today.

I didn’t know I was half fae until I met Larc,and he started seeing some of the things about me that normally creeped the hell out of people, and made them run away. But he didn’t. Instead, we started researching more together, and did some tests, and he really helped me see that all that shit I’ve been going through all my life, the fears, all of it, where actually normal. I was not ‘wrong’ or needing to be fixed like everyone said. I was fae, doing natural fae things. No one knows how much that means. I’m still looking for my family, though. Not that I don’t have one now, but to find out, you know? I just want to know. I want to know why and what happened.

29. What do you consider the most important event in your life so far?

When Larc and I became brothers.

30. Who has had the greatest influence on you?

Larc and Abigail.

31. What do you consider your greatest achievement?

Nothing .. really.. I don’t know.

32. What is your greatest repentance?

Like what I’m sorry for? Leaving little Jenny behind at my last foster home. I also feel really bad about trashing Larc’s room in the catacombs. I feel really shitty about that.

33. What is the meanest thing you’ve done?

Define your definition of mean.. I’ll admit, I’ve done some things, but I didn’t find them, ‘mean.’ per say. They were things they deserved. I don’t do mean things to people that aren’t mean. I care about people... usually..

34. Do you have any criminal records?

No, but I wasn’t a suspect of a missing person’s investigation once. It almost came up again, but we took care of it.

35. When was the time when you were most afraid?

Seeing my brother, Larc, sick in bed, and when Anjelah freaked out and made me feel unwanted in the manor for having Five in my room bound to a chair. I thought I had hit that point, again, where I lose everything.

36. What is the most embarrassing thing you have ever done?

I don’t know.. but I’ve been made to feel embarrassed by assholes lots of times.

37. If you could change a thing from your past, what would it be, and why?

I don’t know. Just make it all go away?

38. What is your best memory?

That first night at Larc’s house, when I slept over, and we talked all night, just looking at the projected stars on his ceiling, and later when we were just goofing around laughing, and dancing in the rain.

40. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?

I’d like to say optimistic, but I know part of me is always waiting for the fall. 

41. What is your greatest fear?

Lossing Larc and my family, and not having that rock, or any security, or sense of home, again.

42. What are your views on religion?

I don’t know. Whatever people want is fine with me, I just like hate those people that want to force shit on everyone or judge them. That irritates me.

43. What are your views on politics?

Eh.

44. What are your views on sex?

Eh.. I don’t know. Not really sure what you’re asking, specifically. 

45. Could you kill? Under what circumstances would you find killing something acceptable or unacceptable?

... I .. can kill.. I have. I’d kill in a heartbeat to protect my family and those I care about. 

46. In your opinion, what is the meanest thing a human can do?

Make another person feel as if they are ‘wrong inside’, not normal, and that they need to be ‘fixed’. That fucks with you and messes you up forever.

47. Do you believe in the existence of “soul mates” or true love?

I don’t know.

48. What do you think makes a successful life?

Being happy.

49. How honest are you about your feelings and thoughts (eg, do you hide your true way of being from others, in what way?)?

I think I try to keep things inside, but I’m pretty easily an open book. It’s hard for me to hide what I’m feeling, but I do block a lot of things out at the same time.

50. Do you discriminate or have prejudices?

Only to assholes.

51. Is there anything you refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it?

Lie anymore to my brother.

52. Why or who, if there is, would you die (or do other extreme things)?

Larc, Abigial, Danny, and pretty much anyone at the Delacroix manor. They are my friends and family.

53. In general, how do you treat others (Sincerely, rudely, keeping them at a distance, etc.)? How you treat them changes according to how well you know them, and if so, how does it change?

I tend to be a loner, save a small few. I’m more of a slow to warm up type. It’s hard for me to open up and trust to let people in.

54. Who is the most important person in your life and why?

Theee most important person, like as in one? Larc. He’s my brother. He’s more than my brother. I don’t think I’ll be okay if he dies. I’m glad I have the others, though, like my mom, and Five. If something happens, they’re probably what’s going to save me.

55. Who do you respect the most and why?

My family. 

56. Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend? Describe those people.

It’s weird, but I don’t really consider Larc a friend anymore, so I’d say my only real friend I have right now, is Danny. (Five). I do really like him a lot. He confuses me, though, some times, but I’m trying to get past that.

57. Do you have a spouse or person of affection? If so, describe that person.

Not in the sense I think you’re asking, but I do really love Larc.

58. Have you ever fallen in love? If so, describe what happened.

I don’t know. I don’t think in the normal sense no.

59. What are you looking for in a potential lover?

I’m thirteen. I have no idea.

60. How close are you to your family?

Very close.

61. Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If so, you want? Why or why not?

Huh? I’m thirteen..

62. How would you react if you were desperate for help?

Probably crazy? I don’t know. I’d go to Larc, Danny, or Abby depending on what it was.

63. Do you trust someone to protect you? Who Why?

I trust Larc and Abigail to look out for me with their best hearts.

64. If you die or go astray, who would miss you?

I don’t know. Probably Larc, my mom, and maybe Danny? I don’t know. It scares me if I die, though, because then I can’t put Larc in my book, and I need to take care of my book. I need to take care of Danny, too.

65. Who is the person you most despise and why?

A person I can not name in this dimension. 

66. Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?

I’d say I try to avoid conflict, but that would probably be a lie. I tend to get in arguments a lot.

67. Do you tend to take the leadership role in social situations?

Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don’t. It depends on the situation and the person I’m with.

68. Do you like to interact with large groups of people? Why or why not?

No. Large groups make me feel claustrophobic and binding.

69. Do you care what others think of you?

Yes. I wish I didn’t, but I do.

70. What is your favorite hobby (s) or hobby (s)?

Drawing and painting, watching youtube vids, reading creepy pastas, and watching horror with Larc or Danny. 

71. What is your most treasured possession?

My sketchbook.

72. What is your favorite color?

gold, red, orange, and yellows

73. What is your favorite food?

cheese - anything with cheese

74. What, if there is, do you like to read?

creepy pastas, Stephen King novels.

75. What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)?

I have very eclectic tastes in music, but I tend to like horror and stuff with movies, and I love surreal art.

76. Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to leave it / s?

I drink occasionally as a social thing with my brother usually.

77. What do you do on your typical Saturday night?

Hang out in Larc’s room, drawing, and chatting .. maybe watching a movie.

78. What makes you laugh?

A lot of things. I don’t know. I’m weird, I tend to laugh a lot, even probably when I shouldn’t. It’s a habit.

79. What, if there is, does it shock or offend you?

Rudeness?

80. What would you do if you had insomnia and should you find something to relax?

I would probably pull out my sketchbook and draw.

81. Do you get the stress?

Yes.

82. Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to plan?

Tend to be spontaneous. Plans are binding.

83. What makes you angry?

People hurting me.

84. Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when that routine is interrupted?

I tend to sleep in late, unless there’s school, which I still try to sleep in late for, but mom tends to takes the covers off eventually which is so rude, really. I go to school, hang out a bit in the art room. Sometimes skip class to help out in the art room. The art teacher’s pretty cool, and gives me a pass, saying he needed my assistance. Then I head home through the woods. I usually walk, unless Larc’s free and gives me a ride. I head in and half a snack from Betty, and then mosey upstairs to chill with the Larc-ster. 

85. What is your greatest strength as a person?

As a person? I don’t know.. but I’m pretty good at my art. I also am getting pretty tricky with some of my fae abilities.

86. What is your greatest weakness?

Probably my temper, and emotions.

87. If you could change something about yourself, what would it be?

See my last answer.

88. Generally, are you introverted or extroverted?

Introverted.

89. Generally, are you tidy or cluttered?

Cluttered. It fits my mess abstract surrealism art style, okay? Don’t judge.

90. Name three things in which you consider yourself very good, and three in which you consider yourself very bad.

Very good:

Art, some magic, being probably protective. When I care, I really care. Begin silly. Yes, I know this was more than three, just put counting in very bad at section.

Very bad:

Overly emotional, sometimes I act before I think, have a side to me that is kind of twisted.

91. Do you like the way you are?

No.

92. What are your reasons for being an adventurer (or doing anything heroic that an RPG character would do)? Do the real reasons you do differ from what you say in public? (If so, detail both sets of reasons)

Um... I have no idea.

93. What is the goal you most want to accomplish in your life?

I just want to be happy, and have my family and friends safe and happy. I also want to take down the Coven and murder the one responsible for what he did to my brother. I won’t let that go.. EVER.

94. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

I don’t. If I really think about that, it scares me. I don’t want to think about it.

95. If you could choose it, how would you like to die?

Saving my brother.

96. You know you’re going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do before your time runs out.

Put Larc in the sketchbook.

Give my sketchbook to Dr. Mum and explain to him that he has to keep it safe, and why, and explain everything that’s in there.

Hug my family and say my goodbyes, and then go out into the orchard one last time to that tree.   

97. Why would you most like to be remembered after your death?

I don’t really care or think about that.

98. Which three words best describe your personality?

Playful, emotional, artistic.

99. What three words would the others use to describe you?

Weird, Freak, Difficult.

100. (Question for the mun) If you could, what advice would you give your character? (You can pretend that you are sitting in front of you and use the right tone for him / her to pay attention to your advice)

You are a lot better person than you give yourself credit for. You tend to let the negative things drown you, and stay, when there is so much good in you, and what you can do for people around you. You make so many people happy in ways you don’t realize. Focus on those things. You can become anything you want, and you can do anything you want with your abilities. Help make the world more beautiful. 

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[cnisms]

ok u know what ? what i had planned was taking way too long n i don’t wanna rush myself so let me just share what i have n then we’ll take it from there xx HELLO AGAIN ! i’m emmy (she/her) of the house aest/gmt+10 aka yes i did wake up at 6am on a saturday then fall asleep halfway through putting this together. my things are intersectional feminism, avocados, inxs, dogs, history, and watching every single tv show to ever exist (except suits... one day...) ! i have 25 too many muses so get ready for one line on each ! don’t @ me bc they’re all fleshed out and if u wanna ask abt any of them, i’m ready 2 go off. do @ me bc i’m too lazy to finish their individual pages. anyways ! i love plotting so if ur interested... pick a muse or five and we’ll brainstorm !!

i do have a muse navigation here which you can click through. an amazing 2 out of 25 muse pages are completely finished, some have completed stats, most have shit-all. also, they do have intro posts in this tag but probably don’t read them bc they’re mostly messy and expired memes.

MARI RIBEIRO (camila mendes, 21) rich girl with her shit mostly sorted. was loved an unrealistic amount by her parents and now does the same to her friends. if ethan jumped off a bridge, would mari do it too? absolutely. always overreacting to something. can’t drive.

TOMAS TURUNEN (bill skarsgard, 25) pretentious romantic. mad at his dad and takes it out on everyone else w mind games. has probably killed someone. manages the bar in soho and that is literally... all most people know about his private (fake) ass.

CICI GAUTIER (elle fanning, 18) thinks she’s marie antoinette. filthy rich, filthy morals. does whatever jennifer meade tells her to if she can’t make someone else do it for her. uncomfortably obsessed with her cousin (no incest tho, i promise). very very little empathy. absolutely the type to costume change at any event.

WES KOTECHA (avan jogia, 24) has a lot of feelings, all of them hurt. plays guitar (and keytar but...) for liberal scum. tfw no gf meme. king of making dinner awkward by either bringing up his latest personal problems or just getting into politics. surrounds himself w vegans.

MINDY WILLIAMS (margaret qualley, 22) the goth girl kevsdgaf is always tweeting about. monotone. only listens to one direction or the cure. loves twilight and shakespeare. the weird girl who never got over her vampire phase. rarely experiences bad moods.

BECK HOLMES (alfie enoch, 29) big nerd. means well. loves learning and helping others learn. literally does not ever stop looking for new information to absorb. needs better friends right now immediately. does not have a life outside of his few friends n his books.

ROSIE RIVERA BLANCHE (eiza gonzalez, 25) my first muse... my baby... biological and adoptive daughter of rock royalty. got into acting instead. too good for the show she’s on but hasn’t gotten any other big offers. thinks she’s better than everyone else. friendship and romance? she doesn’t know either. just hugo.

ANGEL ROSADO (zoe kravitz, 24) heiress to a resort empire, head of a fitness one. competitive. has considered having other gyms burned down. has her head stuck up her own ass most of the time. dependent on her family. takes everything personally.

AJA PAREKH (naomi scott, 22) farm girl who was forced to run away to the city when family dramas got tough. can’t decide if her dream is to drive a van around europe or just milk some cows. super friendly, super annoying. doesn’t even know how to acknowledge a problem.

ARABELLA GOMFREY (gabriella wilde, 23) lucrezia borgia. pious. thinks her family are right about everything no matter how wrong it is. would do anything to make them look good. cliquey. likes surrounding herself with beautiful people but gets pressed if they’re cuter than her. nice until you come for her family. 

ZACH BALTAZAR (jamie blackley, 25) insecure or just lazy? he’ll crack a joke about it. deserves happiness but doubts that. is up for anything but will judge you the whole time. king of impressive first dates and romantic poetry then forgetting to text you back for a solid three weeks.

NATALYA BELYAKOVA (alicia vikander, 27) boring. literally just reads, works and wears pencil skirts. actually only moved to london to get bloody revenge on the people who killed her father and brother. good at keeping secrets obviously. smart.

ALANIS BAUMANN (emily ratajkowski, 25) a hero. literally scammed 9 different people for money telling them her baby was theirs before calvin shut that down. actually named her kid freddie mercury. would die for him. crude. just tryna have a good time.

CONSTANCE ABERNATHY (diana silvers, 20) church girl who didn’t wanna go to church or read her bible. got married young n ran away. not the one who put her husband in a coma but we all have our suspicions. was famous on vine and refuses to let it go. kinda mean. 

PARIS BAYOUMI (mimi elashiry, 20) full time kitchen witch. has a herb garden that she actually talks to. will ask how you are then immediately tune out. serene. unintentionally sardonic. tells detailed stories that literally no one cares about. no one knows anything about where she came from.

GWEN HATHAWAY (madchen amick, 43) soft spoken angel who can and will turn into the actual devil if you get in her way. still dealing with the 90s. has children somewhere. impulsive. always putting herself first. seems so sweet it’ll takes a second to realize she doesn’t care.

LUKE FALLEY (toby regbo, 25) the biggest pain in the ass. seems to think he knows everything. actually does not have a mean bone in his body but seems condescending. always got some weird shit to say. feminist. does not stop talking ever.

HELENA O’SHEA (lily james, 26) the girl who had it all together at a young age n then fell from grace. successful wedding planner who threw it all away out of embarrassment when she got dumped and called off her wedding. miserable. hates children. extremely organized.

GIA VISARIYA (charli xcx, 23) actual queen of youtube. writes n stars in a ‘reality’ series there. very loud and very friendly. thinks of everyone as a bff. if you end up in her contacts for whatever reason she will invite you out every weekend. needs some manners.

VERONIKA ERIKSON (angelina jolie, 40) goddess. half retired supermodel who has spent the last 20 years trying to have a baby. got divorced n “””moved on””” bc she couldn’t take the heartache anymore. iconic aunt. deserves the world. now flips houses to keep herself busy.

LUMA PONTECORVO (sofia black-d’elia, 23) such a bad influence that her older brother literally set her up in a different country so she would stop getting his kids into trouble. brat. always showing up to work late and hungover. cunty. mad abt her mom dipping.

ELIZABETH LEBLANC (margot robbie, 27) fakes the domestic goddess stereotype to please other people. gets her kicks from spending her dirty drug money on clothes and curtains. has experienced poverty and would probably kill before going back there.

AJAY JOHAL (rahul kohli, 30) everything he does is literally just in an effort to support his parents. super flighty. could not make a decision to save his life. super respectful. quality lad. maybe a lil immature but he’s working on it. sike ! he’s not.

PERCY NICHOLS (finn cole, 20) an actual stain. just a horrible lil shunt. screwed over his friends and got rich. would absolutely do it again. cheeky nandos. very smart but you wouldn’t know it. coked out. absolutely has to live a certain life. will never be satisfied anyway.

BOBBIE SANTOS (blanca padilla, 22) ruins lives w how angelic she is. ur annoying yoga friend who instagrams her food before eating it. doesn’t know how to mind her own business but thankfully isn’t very perceptive. glass half full. under educated. independent.

[callunavulgari]

SCRAPBOOK 2017 - TAKE TWO

Scrapbook for the second half of 2017, because tumblr doesn’t like it when you have a million links on one post.

Italicized titles = enjoyed muchly, bold titles = love, titles with an asterisk* = OBSESSION and titles in (brackets) are re-watches/re-reads. And lastly, strikethough = DISLIKE.

Goals are: read thirty-five new books this year (yikes, way behind), finish four video games (definitely on track here), finish writing and publish the Sabriel AU (eh heh), and write something original (does coming up with the idea count?). 

MOVIES

June

Wonder Woman

(Doctor Strange)

Kiki’s Delivery Service

Bronson

Chocolat

Tristan and Isolde

(Moana)

Power Rangers

July

Spiderman: Homecoming

Mona Lisa Smile

Baby Driver

(Logan)

Ouija: Origins of Evil

(Star Wars: Rogue One)

Passengers

Atomic Blonde

King and I

Stranded

August

The Sixth Sense

(Armageddon)

Miss Peregrine’s Home For Peculiar Children

9

(The Princess Diaries)

(X-Men: Apocalypse)

Legend

(Silent Hill)

BOOKS

June:

Authority | Jeff Vandermeer

July:

Authority | Jeff Vandermeer 

The Secret History | Donna Tarte

A Wrinkle In Time | Madeline L’Engle [Fin]

The Archived | Victoria Schwab [Fin]

Scythe | Neal Shusterman  [Fin]

Shadow and Bone | Leigh Bardugo [Fin]

August

Siege and Storm | Leigh Bardugo [Fin]

Less | Andrew Sean Greer

Authority | Jeff Vandermeer

A Wind In The Door |  Madeline L’Engle [Fin]

PODCASTS

June:

The Bright Sessions Eps 31-32

Alice Isn’t Dead Eps 3-4

Welcome to Night Vale 1-3

July:

Alice Isn’t Dead Eps 4-5

EOS 10 Eps 1-3

August

N/A

TV SHOWS BY SEASON

June:

Grace and Frankie

American Gods

(Stranger Things)

How to Get Away With Murder s2

Black Sails s2

July:

Black Sails s2

Grace and Frankie

Stargate SG-1 s2, s3

Doctor Who s8

The Strain

Boku no Hero Academia 

August

Westworld

Voltron s3

Game of Thrones s7

The Strain

Yamishibai

Jerry Springer  (Vacation w/ boyfriend’s family. Brother and friends are awful.)

VIDEO GAMES

June:

LoZ: Breath of the Wild (Definitely more than 40 hrs; Fin)

Dishonored 2 (Corvo Playthrough, 7 hrs)

Witcher 3 (15 hrs?)

July:

Witcher 3 (15 hrs?)

(Final Fantasy XV, 2 hrs)

August

(Final Fantasy XV, 2 hrs)

DELIGHTFUL FIC

June:

Running on Air by eleventy7 (HP; Drarry; 75k;  Draco Malfoy has been missing for three years. Harry is assigned the cold case and finds himself slowly falling in love with the memories he collects.)

Slithering by astolat (HP; Drarry; 27k;  Draco found the nest down in the Manor’s cellars, while he was clearing them out.)

Bitter Honey, Green Night by Faith Wood (faithwood) (HP; Drarry; 14k;  An inn, an Auror, a criminal, a mystery.)

Hermione Granger's Hogwarts Crammer for Delinquents on the Run by waspabi (HP; Drarry; 93k;  'You're a wizard, Harry' is easier to hear from a half-giant when you're eleven, rather than from some kids on a tube platform when you're seventeen and late for work.)

Stately Homes of Wiltshire by waspabi (HP; Drarry; 57k; Malfoy Manor has mould, dry rot and an infestation of unusually historical poltergeists. Harry Potter is on the case.)

stranger things than polyamory by trepan (Stranger Things; Jonathon/Steve/Nancy; 3.5k;  Somebody spray-paints NANCY WHEELER HAS TWO BOYFRIENDS on a wall she walks by on her way back from school in May. There are a couple of other students watching her as she passes. Nancy gives the sign a long look, then smirks at them politely.)

the heart its own rough animal by trepan (Stranger Things; Jonathon/Nancy/Steve; 21k;  “Where’s her daemon,” says one of the boys urgently. “Guys, she doesn’t have one.”)

in the bone by patho (ghostsoldier) (Dishonored; Corvo/Outsider; 2.8k;  It all began when Corvo started kissing the Mark for luck.)

The Sea and Stars Are Yours, My Dear, But the Moon Would Not Cooperate by NeverwinterThistle (Dishonored; Corvo/Outsider; 25k; The Outsider explores the murky seas of human courtship while Corvo watches in bemusement, and in the background Emily draws, Callista takes charge, Piero sulks, and Cecelia accidentally becomes indispensable. There's also a plague, a vase of asparagus, and about a hundred singing whales who randomly showed up in the harbour one evening.The squid is still wriggling.)

apocrypha by aerynlallaboso (Dishonored; Corvo/Outsider; 95k+; WIP;  The Eighth year of the reign of Empress Emily Kaldwin, First of her Name, the second year without a whisper from the Outsider, is the year the Void chooses to mark the end of an era.)

a small soft death by patho (ghostsoldier) (Dishonored; Corvo/Outsider; 2.8k; “The finest steel,” the Outsider says, “is forged with true purpose in mind. Elements that enhance the strength of the weapon are carefully chosen, and those that make the metal brittle and weak are burned away. It is an exacting process. The most beautiful dagger will be of no use at all if the steel is not properly tempered. Do you understand?”)

in·car·nate by bygoneboy (Dishonored; Corvo/Outsider; 21k; The Void’s Chosen have loved him before.)

The Crown of the Summer Court by astolat (Merlin; Merlin/Arthur; 24k;  "The king sent me to get you," Merlin said, with a tone that implied strongly that he wasn't rolling his eyes where Arthur could see, but just wait until his back was turned. "He said you're to get changed into formal clothes and meet him in the Great Hall, there's a delegation coming from the Summer Court.")

the king of oak by saltpans (HP: FBAWTFT; Credance/Percival Graves; 38k; The first thing Percival Graves does after being released back into the world is buy a new wand.)

Hi, You Were My Husband in Another Life, Professor by littlebirdtold (Star Trek; Spirk; 48k; Um, hi. I'm Jim. Jim Kirk. You don't know me, but I know you. Well, sort of. It's a long story.)

  Bluebird by waldorph (Star Trek; Spirk; 7k; Jim whipped around so fast most of his drink ended up on Spock, who was reaching for the phaser that wasn’t there. The Enterprise crew was parting like the biblical seas before Moses, and Jim could feel the temperature dropping. “Mom,” Jim croaked.)

Misethere by astolat (Witcher 3; Geralt/Emhyr; 46k; Emhyr was looking at him for once, with a strange expression. “I have misjudged you,” he said, sounding irritated actually: how dare Geralt surprise him.“I get that a lot,” Geralt said.)

Blooded Crown by astolat (Witcher 3; Geralt/Emhyr; 24k; “You need not thank me,” Emhyr said. “I have an ulterior motive.”It annoyed Geralt to be surprised. He should’ve known from the start. “Yeah?” The words came out with a little bite. “Have another daughter you need me to track down?”“If I wished to hire you, I would hire you,” Emhyr said. “No: I want you to come to my bed.”)

Cursed by astolat (Witcher 3; Geralt/Emhyr; 8k;  Geralt was reasonably sure this was the worst damn day of the worst damn month of his life, and it hadn’t hit bottom yet.)

July:

The War of Silver and Ash by astolat (Witcher 3; Geralt/Emhyr; 15k; He hadn’t come here with a contract. He’d come here to get the faces out of his head: the bloodless dead sprawled in heaps through the streets of Beauclair, the morning after the rampage Detlaff had unleashed; the blank eyes of the boy in the orphanage tilting his head to let Orianna drink from his throat, with the lullaby she’d been singing him still hanging in the air.Wasn’t working that well so far.)

A Year In Toussaint by astolat (Witcher 3; Geralt/Emhyr; 30k; Geralt had no damn idea what to do with a vineyard when Anna Henrietta gave him Corvo Bianco, but he figured it couldn’t be that bad.)

circling by xpityx (Witcher 3; Geralt/Emhyr; 5k; Emhyr sighed, as if Geralt’s lack of immediate understanding was a fundamental failure of his character.)

Running Behind by Asidian (FFXV; Prompto/Noctis; WIP;  There's a tag hanging on his storage pod, instead of the clipboard that documents his progress. On that tag, there's a single word stamped in red: defective.)

Toys by astolat (Lucifer; Lucifer/Chloe; 2k; “You want to fuck me!” he said gleefully.)

Emblazoning by astolat (Merlin; OT4; 19k; Morgana turned away from the high, barred window and rubbed her arms, chilled and bare. Arthur was sitting in the dirty straw at the very limit of his chains, which kept him a few inches too far away to touch Merlin's limp body. Outside they were putting up the stake.)

Redemption Merry Go-Round by astolat (Lucifer; Lucifer/Dan/Chloe; 8k;  Dan was deeply sorry for whatever he’d done in his life that had landed him in this mess, and also reasonably sure that despite all the shit he’d pulled in the last couple of years, he still didn’t deserve this.)

wild peaches by notbecauseofvictories (The Labyrinth; Sarah/Goblin King; 3k;  The morning after Sarah Williams defeats the Goblin King, she gets up and makes toast.)

where the weeds take root by beenghosting (Supernatural; Destiel; 30k+;  “Are you happy? Y’know. Just—being here,” Dean says, gesturing to the yard with his beer bottle. “Being with—I mean, you used to fight in celestial wars and—and save the world. Now you’re growing vegetables and talking about chickens.”)

damnatio memoriae by temporalDecay (Witcher 3; Geralt/Emhyr; 12k;  “May I walk the estate?” Emhyr repeated, and his nose crinkled in that familiar twitch of displeasure that Geralt had always secretly delighted in causing, despite how downright suicidal it was to invoke it on purpose. “I'm not going to run away,” he added, with a slight glare. “I'm merely bored.”)

Heart and Home by lc2l (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 97k; In an alternate Paris, werewolves occupy the majority of the ruling classes, making and adjusting policy to suit their interests. The punishments for a human attacking a werewolf can be brutal, unless they have the protection of a wolf pack.How this translates to 'claim Grantaire as your mate to get him out of prison' is something Enjolras is still trying to get his head around, but he's never been one to give up on a cause even when it's sleeping on his sofa.)

August

How the Future's Done by barricadeur (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 12k;  "Grantaire," he says slowly. "What do you have in that box?")

vocal ink by sarahyyy (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 3k; “Officially, we don’t have a leader, everyone here is equal,” Courfeyrac says, keeping his voice low as Enjolras starts his speech, “but if we did, and we don’t, it would be Enjolras.” He looks over to Marius. “Do not approach him. Let him come to you, let him be the first to initiate conversation, and for the love of God, do not mention soulmates.”)

Years Since It's Been Clear by lady_ragnell (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 10k;  Grantaire really doesn't expect Enjolras to force him to move in with him when he hears how shitty Grantaire's apartment is. And he definitely doesn't expect Enjolras to want him to stay, or how easy it turns out to be, or the way Enjolras has a habit of doing his studying in the sunshine on the living room floor ...)

Tolerable (Inuyasha; Sesshomaru&Miroku; 30k; “The scent is not entirely unpleasant.”)

Silence Is the Speech of Love by lady_ragnell (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 50k; Grantaire's life has a pattern: he pays his respects to Aphrodite, he goes to work, he loves Enjolras and provokes him because he can't bring himself to do otherwise.)

The Five Year Plan by Neery (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 16k;  Enjolras loses his memory. Thankfully, nothing unexpected seems to have happened to him in the five years he can't remember. Well, except for the boyfriend. The boyfriend's kind of a surprise.)

dance this silence down (the emergency room remix) by Fahye (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 54k;  He's sitting in a car with all of his belongings in the back seat and his hands wrapped around the steering wheel, admitting to himself that a stupid, dizzy firework of a one-night-stand with a man he'd barely known is one of the only bright memories he has right now.)

World Ain't Ready by idiopathicsmile (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 185k; Enjolras presses his lips together. He already looks pained, and Grantaire hasn't even opened his mouth yet. That's got to be a record, even for them."I need a favor," he says at last)**

  The Ghost of You by luchia (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 25k; Grantaire moves into an apartment inhabited by a poltergeist. Enjolras haunts him, and Grantaire should really win an award for most complicated relationship status ever.)

box of secrets by nightswatch (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 53k;  Grantaire leaves his doodles all over the place. Enjolras collects them without knowing who drew them.)

Yes, Sir by mikkimouse (Voltron; Sheith; 8k; "Are you all ready to get started?""Yes, sir!" twenty voices answered in unison.Shiro's stomach flipped at the words. Oh, no.The soulmark on his right wrist burned, confirmation that his soulmate was one of the twenty people who'd just uttered the phrase.)

despite what you've been told by caseyvalhalla (Yuri On Ice; Yuuri/Viktor; 14k; When Victor falls, he goes down hard.)

these things take time by sonhoedesrazao (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 63k;  He’s always wary of making assumptions; even more so when Grantaire is concerned. He knows he’s not the easiest person to deal with. People either like him or can’t stand him, and it’s easy to respond to those reactions, but Grantaire—Grantaire is hostile and mocking, Grantaire scorns his beliefs, and Grantaire stays.)

In the End We Have Each Other by samyazaz (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 50k; what startles Enjolras the most is that he manages approximately half a step through the door into the back room where they all meet before Grantaire rattles his glass down on the table in the back that he's taken for his own and drawls, "Is there something you forgot to tell us, Apollo?"That silences the room, predictably enough. Everyone breaks off their conversations and swivels to stare at him. At him, and at the baby carrier that he's got hooked over one arm.)

True Colors by lady_ragnell (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 4k;  The first thing that catches Enjolras's eye when he enters the Musain Cafe for the first time is the walls. They're a dull black that it takes him a moment to realize must be chalkboard paint, because near the tables there are words and doodles, and all over, even the erased sections are stained with faint colored marks like the walls have soulmarks.)

Hit Me With Your Best Shot by tellthemstories (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantaire; 10k; Fourteen times Grantaire tried to kill Enjolras.And one time he fell in love.)

RSVP (+1) by tellthemstories (Les Mis; Enjolras/Grantire; 21k;  When Enjolras is invited to Marius and Cosette’s wedding, he fully intends to ignore the ‘plus one’ on the invite. He’s busy at work and he has a lot on - he doesn’t have time for relationships. What he doesn’t expect is for Grantaire to invite himself along and then hit it off immediately with all of his friends.)

always there to remind you by estora, taywen (Dishonored; Corvo/Daud; 8k;  Later, after he had killed a number of people for coin, but before he killed so many that he lost count, Daud was glad he had no mark. No soulmate deserved to have his words marked on their skin.)

( Watercast by Fishwrites (Voltron; Lance/Keith; 96k; WIP;  Shiro has been a Galra prisoner for over a year; with his flight feathers clipped and unable to fly. Desperate to escape, he jumps overboard while being transported to the capitol on a Galran ship. Lance is a merman who saves him from drowning. Keith thinks Shiro is about to become mermaid dinner. Hunk just wants Lance to stop going to the surface all the time, dammit!))

DELIGHTFUL FANVIDS

June:

Multifandom || Tessellate (TYS: round2)

Multifandom || Bleeding out (collab w/ KatrinDepp)

Multifandom || Is this Real?

Multifandom || Insane Like Me (TYS: round1)

Multifandom │ Warriors

July:

the beast of america | percival graves

Get You Killed || Percival Graves

Percival Graves - Hit & Run

► Graves (+Credence) | Are You Insane Like Me?

Credence Barebone/Percival Graves || And I wanna fight, But I can't contend

[FIREFLY] - She always did love to dance

[Multifandom] - Dance with me

The Last of Us || Can't Pretend

The Walking Dead || Bottom of the River

Multifandom || Do Not Go Gentle Into That Goodnight

Doctor Who (Logan Style)

Spider-Man (Peter Parker) // Everybody Loves Me

Iron Man (Tony Stark) // Gold

In The Flesh | we're gonna die, die, die

In The Flesh || We're Alone Now

Fantastic Beasts || Step into the light

Stranger Things|| Knocking On Heaven's Door

Jonathan & Nancy|| Tighten Up

Multifandom|| Stuck.Broken.Dead.

[Multifandom] - One Word

Marvel | Human

percival graves | can't hold us

August

Hela // Castle

grantaire & enjolras - help me kill the president

Game of Thrones || Blood of My Blood (for 60k)

(GoT) House Stark | The North Remembers

(GoT) Jaime Lannister | Oathbreaker

Jonathan Byers || I'm not like everybody else

Uptown Funk || Marvel Universe

MARVEL || Can't hold us

GLITTER & GOLD || Multifandom [HNY●2017]

I'M SO SORRY | Marvel Cinematic Universe

David Haller [Legion] | Dysfunctional

(Legion) It's Better When it Feels Wrong

unless you make it real [Legion]

not today [yuri on ice]

Haikyuu!! || not today

Multifandom | Tame Your Demons (w/SnowLightxx)

Six Of Crows - Trouble

marvel || battle royale

(GoT) Jon Snow | The Targaryen Wolf

Arya Stark // See What I've Become

(GoT) Jon Snow || The Wolf With Dragon's Blood

MARVEL/DC || BORN ready 

DELIGHTFUL MUSIC

June:

Johnny Hollow - Boogeyman

Sia - To Be Human feat. Labrinth

Lorde - Green Light

The National - "Don't Swallow the Cap"

The Growlers - "I'll Be Around"

The xx - I Dare You

Phantogram - Fall In Love

alt J - In Cold Blood

And I Waited All Night For You To Come, But You Never Did

Sia - The Greatest

Hopeless Fountain Kingdom - Halsey (Album)

History - Monakr

Wildcat! Wildcat! - Relentless (feat. Wynne)

Ingrid Michaelson - In the Sea

Cities in Dust Lyrics- The Everlove

Prides - Messiah

ODESZA - It's Only (feat. Zyra)

Metric - Breathing Underwater

Purity Ring - Sea Castle

Hundreds - Fighter

Labyrinth Ear - Urchin

Rasputina - Dig Ophelia

Sóley - Fight Them Soft

Soap&Skin - Boat Turns Toward The Port

CocoRosie - R.I.P. Burn Face

AURORA - Nature Boy

July:

Hamilton Soundtrack

Karen O - I Shall Rise

Miracle of Sound - Lady of Worlds 

Annie Lennox - I Put A Spell On You

Woodkid - IRON (Sara cover)

Peronal Yeezus By Chambaland (Atomic Blonde Trailer Music)

Kesha - Praying

twenty one pilots: Screen

Lemaitre - Higher

Regina Spektor-Blue Lips

Zaz - Les Passants

Katie Costello - Stranger

Arctic Monkeys - Knee Socks

Silversun Pickups - The Pit

If I Apologized - Mirrormask 

August

Les Mis - One Day More

Les Mis - Red and Black

Les Mis - Do You Hear the People Sing

Les Mis - Epilogue

Sleeping At Last - Mars

Hozier - Take Me To Church

Lynrd Skynrd - Freebird

You - Keaton Henson

Radical Face - All Is Well (It’s Only Blood)

Valerie Broussard - Trouble

Erutan - The Willow Maid

Imagine Dragons - Gold

Imagine Dragons - Thunder

Which Witch - Florence & the Machine

Paint It, Black - Ramin Djawadi

Honor For All - Dishonored

Daniel Licht - The Return

Patrick Wolf - Teignmouth 

Ballet Breakup - RvB

WRITTEN FIC

June:

it's warm, this skin i'm living in (SGA; Rodney/John; 1,170 words; When he is thirty-seven years old, John Sheppard thinks about the universe.

it's good to be in love, it really does suit you (KH; Sora/Riku/Kairi; 1,694 words; “We’ve done dangerous before.” Sora shrugs. “Getting a mortgage was dangerous, but we did it anyway.”)

a hazy shade of winter (Stranger Things; Steve/Nancy/Jonathan; 1,863 words; In November, they build a tree house.)

July:

can't deny your appetite (SGA; Rodney/John; 4,031 words; John finds out that there’s a vampire in Atlantis the day after they’ve stepped through the gate.He finds out that the vampire in question is Rodney McKay four weeks later, when they’re all hunkered down in the yawning shadow of some crumbling ruins and Rodney looks at him, his eyes eerily bright in the darkness, sees the blood on John’s face, and says, “Oh.”)

August

caught off guard by you (FFXV; Prompto/Noctis; 1,671 words;  “I just got you back,” Prompto says quietly, words muffled into the curve of Noctis’s neck.)

take me to church (Teen Wolf; Sterek; 3,129 words;  Derek scoffs. “You want to take me back to Quantico.”)

FANMIXES/GRAPHICS

June:

N/A

July:

the salt water sting:  wor·ship | noun | the feeling or expression of reverence and adoration for a deity.

The Flash | Fire Fire [Vid]

August

love has no heart: A mix for those with no hearts.

i believe in you: You love him. The story still ends.

January.

February.

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[daughterofwasps-blog]

really  LONG CHARACTER SURVEY. RULES.

repost , don’t reblog ! tag 10 ! good luck !

TAGGED. no one, thought this looked fun TAGGING. @foundingavenger, @codenamemockingbird, @wobblemywebs, @looktotheants, @newjerseyshero, @ironmaidenfan, @error1nmycode, @webheadjrr, @synthetiicus, and anyone who like me is procrastinating and wants to do a thing.

BASICS. FULL NAME : nadia pym* ( *awkwardly holds up multicanon sign* ). NICKNAME :  wasp ii, pixie, bee girl, bug girl, baby wasp, tinkerbell, mean pretty lady AGE : verse dependent. BIRTHDAY : unknown. ( headcanon: capricorn ) ETHNIC GROUP : american // hungarian-american. NATIONALITY : american // russian. LANGUAGE / S : english, russian. french. & etc. ( see here + here for more info) SEXUAL ORIENTATION : asexual. ( headcanon: nadia is an ace lesbian. )   ROMANTIC ORIENTATION : gray-romantic. RELATIONSHIP STATUS : single. CLASS : superhero. HOME TOWN / AREA : small, comfortably affluent neighborhood. CURRENT HOME : pym residence. PROFESSION : scientist.

PHYSICAL. HAIR : brunette. EYES : brown with specks of green. NOSE : straight, high bridge, straight and pointed tip FACE : round shape, high cheekbones LIPS : soft, plump COMPLEXION : smooth, pale BLEMISHES : freckles. SCARS : none. TATTOOS : none. HEIGHT : 5′6″. (167 cm) WEIGHT : ~ 120 lbs. BUILD : slender, petite frame FEATURES : sharp eyes, prominent eyebrows ALLERGIES : none except pessimism and bs USUAL HAIR STYLE :  short, choppy bobcut USUAL FACE LOOK : it’s either vacant space cadet or the steady, serious “judging you” expression. there is no in between.

USUAL CLOTHING : 

nadia: 90s style burgundy bomber jacket, handmade necklace, and worn out boots hope: dark colored blazers, tank tops, ruffled blouses, black,stiletto high heels, acorn necklace

PSYCHOLOGY. FEAR / S : failure, abandonment ASPIRATION / S : to make up for lost time and and change/make the world a better place. POSITIVE TRAITS : diligent, empathetic, intelligent, focused, determined, confident. NEGATIVE TRAITS : impatient, prying, rebellious, obsessive, prideful. MBTI : istj (the logician) TEMPERAMENT : melancholic ( nadia is sanguine ) SOUL TYPE / S : thinker  ANIMALS : sable antelope. VICE HABIT / S : , putting off sleep for work, skipping meals (often forgets to eat), caffeine addiction, often consumes fast food & has a MAJOR sweet tooth.  FAITH : agnosticism. GHOSTS ? : no.  AFTERLIFE ? : no. REINCARNATION ? : unsure. ALIENS ? : yes. POLITICAL ALIGNMENT : none. (appears to learn towards liberal) ECONOMIC PREFERENCE : upper middle class. SOCIOPOLITICAL POSITION : stable. EDUCATION LEVEL: Red Room Academy // M.S. in Business, Biochemistry, and Entomology, B.S. in Physics.

FAMILY. 

FATHER : alive. (616: and fused with homicidal robot brother.) MOTHER : mia! (1. mcu!janet is alive dammit! & she’s nadia’s stepmom in 616. 2. let me live my dreams that maria escaped captivity, changed her name, and started a new life. )

SIBLINGS :  

brothers: henry pym jr., ultron, dimitrios,  bangalter, cothran. half brother:  william nelson. sisters: alexis, eton, fountain.

EXTENDED FAMILY : (see here for post on ultron’s family)

grandfather:  brad pym, vernon van dyne, janos trovaya (616) grandmother: doris pym, lynn van dyne (take wiki w/ grain of salt), mrs. trovaya (616) great-grandmother: angela pym nephews: vision, victor mancha nieces: jocasta, alkhema great-nephews: billy kaplan, thomas shepard, vin vision great-niece: viv vision, antigone “son”: ion-man (982 verse)

nieces-in-law: wanda maximoff, virginia vision,  eve nephew-in-law: machine man ___________________________

relation due to brain wave patterns transfer/personality engrams:

jim hammond (human torch)  ➡ vision 

simon williams (wonder man) ➡ vision ↪ eric williams (grim reaper) : brother of simon williams 

bobbi morse (mockingbird)  ➡ alkhema

nathanial richards (iron lad) / teen ver. of kang the conqueror   ➡ vision (jonas) ____________________________

relation due to pym particle superhero shenanigans (ant-family):

scott lang (ant man ii) ↪ cassie lang (stature / stinger)

bill foster (goliath) ↪ tom foster (bill’s nephew / goliath)

eric o’grady (ant man iii / black ant) raz malhorta (giant man ii) rita demara (yellowjacket ii)

_____________________________

those not mentioned above: literally millions of androids, bio-synthezoids, robos, war toys, and rex (creations/”children” of ultron, alkhema, or eve)

NAME MEANING / S : slavic — hope;  english— expectation of the future 

HISTORICAL CONNECTION ? : nadia pym is basically hope van dyne only her mother is maria instead of janet. (and age difference) the girl is also the heroic version of hope pym from MC2 (982 verse) who was also hank and janet’s daughter but is a villain. (they even have similar costumes!) 

hope van dyne herself is also based on the idea of doing a hero version of MC2! Hope. so…in a way despite the obvious differences between the 3 of them, it comes back full circle.

FAVOURITES. BOOK : contact by carl sagen MOVIE : the day the earth stood still (star wars is a close second)

5 SONGS : (in in particular order)

hung up - madonna

heroes - david bowie

a better son/daughter - rilo kiley

man! i feel like a woman! - shania twain

grande valse brillante (arr. igor stravinsky for orchestra) - frédéric chopin

DEITY : athena HOLIDAY : new year’s day. MONTH : august. SEASON : autumn. PLACE : laboratory. WEATHER : cold. SOUND / S : steady mechanical buzzing, pencil against paper, idle chatter SCENT / S : firewood, smoke, perfume, chemicals, old books and photographs, vanilla TASTE / S : dark chocolate, strong, bitter coffee, honey FEEL / S : wind blowing through her hair ANIMAL / S : wasp, greyhound, stallion NUMBER : 8. COLOUR(S) : red, black

EXTRA. TALENTS : proficient in mixed martial arts, mechanics, and science, efficient strategist, able to juggle many ideas simultaneously. BAD AT : difficulty picking up emotions/social cues, lying TURN ONS : science, intelligence, hardworking ambitious people TURN OFFS : jealousy, immaturity, poor personal hygiene HOBBIES : building inventions - robots, gadgets, holograms, etc. TROPES : a sample taken from tv tropes: action girl, adaptational heroism, badass bookworm, broken bird, in the blood  legacy character, meaningful name , morality chain , sci-fi bob haircut, sweet tooth 

AESTHETIC TAGS : there is beauty in the details GPOY QUOTES : “This is not how it’s supposed to be.It’s supposed to be better.”, “It’s easier to think without pants sometimes.”, “I’ll let you know when I start being more interested in kissing someone than quantum physics.”, “You know me. I’d be happy with a cheeseburger.”

FC INFO. MAIN FC / S : evangeline lilly ALT FC / S : considering natalia dyer and madison wolfe for nadia ; ramona marquez for hope pym OLDER FC / S : n/a  YOUNGER FC / S : emily evan rae. VOICE CLAIM / S : none as of now GENDERBENT FC / S : none, i would say edward burns ? i guess? hmu with suggestions

MUN QUESTIONS. Q1 : if you could write your character your way in their own movie , what would it be called , what style would it be filmed in , and what would it be about ? 

A1 : a solo wasp movie not starring janet van dyne would be criminal. i’d do the solo janet wasp movie first (either post!agent carter set in the cold war with her having undercover superhero  adventures with hank or rewrite the mcu timeline altogether and have her be a founding avenger with the rest of them). THEN, have a sequel movie where janet is training hope as her successor. 

also, i’d LOVE an animated mini-series with nadia having science adventures. Saturday morning cartoon style with monsters and villains of the week while recruiting members for G.I.R.L. she can even do ‘nadia science facts” in-between commercial breaks a la sailor says. Q2 : what would their soundtrack / score sound like ? A2 : a lot of classical music (mostly compositions from 17th-19th century that accompany a ballet), alternative rock, and 80s/80s-inspired eletronic-dance pop. Q3 : why did you start writing this character ?  A3 : there were a lot of avengers character ask and rp blogs, especially when i first joined tumblr, but i didn’t really make up my mind on rping her until after seeing the movie and the want to explore her character, because her characterization is pretty great.

Q4 : what first attracted you to this character ? A4: i’m someone who often hides my emotions, and i often end up looking cold without intending on it, so i really enjoyed seeing a character who is defined like that? she expresses her bitterness and unapologetic anger that is rarely seen in heroic characters and that it doesn’t shy away from the idea that she could easily block out the light and turn into the darkness, but underneath her no nonsense cold exterior, she’s really empathetic and compassionate. and seeing her finally getting what she rightfully deserves, and knowing she’s gonna be the biggest damn hero the world’s ever seen is just amazing.

similar thing can be said about nadia in that her optimism is refreshing in the current state of comics. 

Q5 : describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse. A5 :

Nadia Pym: i mean if i have to find ONE nitpick it would be that her overly sugary upbeat personality comes off as "too quirky”. i love the writer and artist of the solo series, but i see why some people can get annoyed by that, especially when they didn’t expect her series to take the colorful, fun, lighthearted, there is very little drama (eg: squirrel girl, batgirl) route as opposed to a traditional action drama legacy character approach (eg: ms. marvel, the atom rebirth )

Hope Van Dyne: i relate a lot to hope’s cynical and snarky personality, but the fact that she’s the exasperated, strong, serious, work-focused female interest trope found in nearly every movie is very…meh. 

Hope Pym (982): 

WARNING: RANT

if you’re going to make her a villain at least give her a GOOD REASON to be one. WHAT IS THIS ‘KILL THE AVENGERS BS’. your parents are hank pym and janet van dyne. FOUNDERS OF THE FREAKIN AVENGERS. hank literally passed the ant-man mantle to scott lang before you were even born! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! YOU GREW UP WITH THESE PEOPLE! HOW IS THIS EVEN POSSIBLE?! THERE’S A MILLION REASONS TO BE A VILLAIN BUT THIS ONE MAKES ZERO SENSE. (i guess her being jealous of cassie would be her “reason”, but that’s a really cheap route to go considering how close the pym-van-dyne and lang family are. which leaves the “she’s mentally unstable” which im not even gonna touch.)

she isn’t even cool as a villain this could have been so cool! WE COULD HAVE HAD A VILLAIN ON PAR WITH ULTRON IN TERMS OF THREATENING. all that build and all we got was “MUHAHAH IM EVIL AND IM EASY TO DEFEAT IN 2 PANELS” all i see is a bunch of writers  going “OOOH PLOT TWIST~ THE CHILD OF TWO SUPERHEROES IS ACTUALLY A BAD GUY OOOOH~”

sorry. im just disappointed by the lost potential in this idea . I genuinely like the idea. Hope Pym and Henry Pym Jr.. Twin siblings who are raised by Hank and Janet, and one going on the path of being a villain, and the other deciding to be a hero could’ve made a good story. this could have been executed a LOT BETTER than what we actually got.

Q6 : what do you have in common with your muse ? A6 : we love doughnuts, are often deep in thought and forgetful of the world around us, wear mostly dark clothes, not really interested in romance, think holograms and robots are the coolest things ever, would probably marry a robot lol Q7 : how does your muse feel about you ? A7 : i think she’d like me. it’d  take a while for me b/c i’m an anxious jelly bean, but i think i’m a pretty nice person. im not a science genius or anything, but i can offer doughnuts and friendship! Q8 : what characters does your muse have interesting interactions with ? A8 : pretty much EVERYONE considering she’s still new to the world around her. i love her interactions with janet, jarvis, bobbi morse, kamala, lunella, and peter parker. (can’t wait to see her interacting with matt murdock in the next issue) 

i also have a pretty solid list on characters we have NOT seen her interacting with im interested in seeing: bucky barnes, natasha romanoff, bruce banner, reed richards (both mister fantastic and the maker), rest of the fam (scott, cassie, raz, eric, rita, viv, billy kaplan, victor mancha, etc. etc.), every known scientist both good, evil, and in-between, in the entire multiverse. ant-man ridiculous but astonishing rogue gallery (like dr. egghead and whirlwind) the list can go forever tbh.

Q9 : what gives you inspiration to write your muse ? A9 : i don’t know. when i have an idea, i just roll with it. listening to chiptune music and reading old analysis and metas are major boosts to get myself out of the writing slump. Q10 : how long did this take you to complete ? A10 : about 5 hours.

[formulakay]

Tumblr Tag Game

Thank youuuuu :) to the lovely @jedivszombie for tagging me! I love talking about myself so here we go.

1. Why did you choose your url?

Formula 1 + Kayla = formulakay. I’ve considered changing it and have a few good urls saved but I feel like this is my brand now so I’ll likely stick with it!

2. Any side blogs?

Yarp!

Harry Styles (inactive) - @tpwkay

I also have a locked private side blog where I reblog resources and tutorials to save for later.

I’m considering making a Star Wars/Mandalorian side blog but idk if it’s worth it or not just yet.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

Probably 13 years now? At least? I’ve been through the following fandoms: Supernatural -> NCIS -> Hunger Games (Josh Hutcherson) (spent A Lot of time here) -> WWE -> was an ~aesthetic~ blog for a while -> back to Supernatural -> hockey (also spent A Lot of time here) -> F1. I did most of that on one blog but started from scratch with this blog.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Not yet, but I don’t queue things often enough to have one. I like posts to go back and tag/draft to post later most of the time. Unless I schedule a post (like a fic dropping), if I’m posting, I’m here!

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

This blog started because my sister @allgood-allways influenced me - I had been working in marketing for a couple years and when she got into F1 she said it could be a fun creative outlet that wasn’t my job.

Before, I think I had joined because it was the edgy, “cool” social media to use? Not many people that I knew irl had one and I liked it for that.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

George is one of my favorite drivers and I think the picture is goofy and cute.

7. Why did you choose your header?

On desktop, I’ve got a few different images on my theme - I’ve got an icon of Toto on the phone which is an outright reference to my ongoing fic series Texts with Toto and then I have the main header which is the Williams FW43B, and my sidebar pic is another one of George! Is is obvious who I support each race weekend yet?

On mobile, my header is a gif I made as a part of an edit set!

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

I have two that are neck and neck!

George Russell as Michelangelo’s David

Intersection presents Daniel Ricciardo (just passed 700 which is insane!)

9. How many mutuals do you have?

A bunch - 75+. I haven’t updated my list in a while though.

10. How many followers do you have?

377 lovely lil beans! Idk why they’re all here but I love them for it.

11. How many people do you follow?

165 - I’d love to follow more though!

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

Just once! It was worth it. I should do it more often. I get scared to shit post cause I never know how it’s gonna be interpreted.

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

Way more than I should. I work from home right now and we’re in a very slow period, so it’s near constant during the day.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

Not that I’m aware of. I really try to stay out of drama - it doesn’t do great things for my anxiety so I just keep my mouth shut. I am, however, blocked by a few people I’ve never interacted with, which is interesting! (I block back 🤷🏻‍♀️)

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts?

As someone who creates content (edits, gifsets, fic), I’m enraged constantly by the like-to-reblog ratio on my own posts and on the posts of other creators in this community it’s. That’s not to mention the fad of saving/reposting/sharing without credit that a lot of people do (this will also get you blocked btw!) both here and on other social sites. If I make something and it doesn’t get notes, that’s fine, but if it gets a ton of likes and no reblogs, it’s incredibly discouraging. Reblogging is the only way to spread content - liking literally does nothing. I’ve seen people stop creating because of it - cause what’s the point? Yeah, the appreciation of getting a like is nice, but if you don’t enjoy something enough to share it with your followers, just don’t interact with it at all. I hate the ~aesthetic~ vibes that so many blogs tend to stick to - I can guarantee you that the percent of your followers that actually look at your blog as a whole is very, very low. We see what’s on our dashes for a very short period of time- if you don’t reblog it, and your followers don’t reblog it from you, people don’t see it. I want content creators to be selfish and reblog their work over and over again, to continue exposing their followers to it, especially if no one else is sharing it for them. They deserve the recognition and attention.

16. Do you like tag games?

I love them! I have some incredible friends that always tag me in them and I am so appreciative (like, someone Thought Of Me! I was On Their Mind!) each time it happens. Plus, I’m not a very openly ~sharing~ person most of the time so it’s nice to have an opportunity to do so that doesn’t feel awkward or forced.

17. Do you like ask games?

I love ask games too but I always end up feeling guilty for clogging my followers’ dashes with answers - I think that guilt of over-sharing is something I need to work on! It’s my blog and I can post what I want to!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I have mutuals that have a ton of followers and mutuals that don’t have many - I myself am definitely not tumblr famous so who am I to judge.

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

I have a lot of friend-crushes on mutuals - mutuals that I seriously would love to be friends with but I’m too shy/feel too annoying to reach out.

I think it can be hard sometimes on tumblr too to approach people that already seem to have a close-knit group of friends. It’s like wandering over to the popular table at lunch in the hopes that they won’t turn you away.

20. Tags!

Just a few! @race-me @mushroomlance @sunshine-ricciardo @p1tstop and @ricciardosmile