#i feel like they sum up her journeys message so well. im glad i could finally get myself to execute a sequential piece based off it

[meltylove97]

i want to live

[gurorori]

The Seed and Queendom were so powerful whwhwbwhsjjdd i'm🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i love. Cure for me was also verrry fun i love her choreographies, she's such a skilled and fluid dancer !!!

And exist for life is so🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭 beautifulllll i'm wjqbwnnsns <333 in love. I love. A lot . Mwah thank you for all your recommendations it is. 3:15am and i have to call it a day but !!!!!! Wah

da seed always gimme chills cuz i love da message & its nawt jus a figure of speech either, aurora fun fact is dat shes grown up in very close proximity 2 nature n clearly has so so much love n respect 4 it an i think it show wonderfully nawt only thru her music but thru her entire energy. she bcome one with it!! there a reason every1 calls her a forest nymph / elf n so much more in da comments aha

tho i think 2 call her anythin but human is a bit unfair, i think shes very human in da most beautiful of ways. unironically

queendom is suhc an anthemmmm... n it warms my heart when i see live performances of it cuz it really feel like one big hug with every1 given da lyrics n jus da vibes it creates. luv it so much, n i love da music video n_n women....

cure 4 me is very special 2 me even tho it a bit sillier soundin than most of her songs (along w the chorus blowin up on tt) readin more ab it from aurora herself tho, it turn out da inspiration came from sumthin dats a very loaded topic & after dat i cudn look at it da same & grew even closer 2.. THE SONG? idk why im talkin ab it lik a human but. word from miss aurora:

"Like always, I got inspired by a really huge, dark and horrible thing that happens in the world. The first seed of inspiration came from thinking about the countries where it’s still legal to do conversion therapy for gay people and lesbians. I just thought that’s so pointless. The first idea was me saying, ‘I don’t need a cure for me – just let me live, man!’”

“Why is it so difficult for people to just let others be themselves? Then I thought that it could mean many other things. People tend to believe quite quickly that something is wrong with them if they’re not like the people they see in front of them. It’s so sad that it doesn’t take much for us to really doubt ourselves.”

^ lil context 4 dat is, aurora is definitely queer as shes talkd ab her attraction 2 ppl in da past & shes had a girlfriend be4 too. i think she mentions dat she feels different romantically in regards 2 men n women. but also she doesn label herself really, but i think this gives more insight into this song. as well as ive noticed ppl talkin ab her includin some of her own more 'weird' mannerisms n well. the dance is weird n silly too (/affectionate!!! its gettin added 2 sky soon like i talkd abt in dms, n im boutta spam it everywhere) n i think it an incredible move too.

i think cure 4 me can also b related back 2 auroras neurodivergence, which she has talkd ab before. she mentioned bein made fun of @ school 4 bein autistic (altho i don think she was ever diagnosed w it) n also bein put on adhd medication in da past - pretty sure dats her official diagnosis. but yeah. honesly, jus from watchin the way she carries herself n moves n talks in interviews & lives, she was always so clearly different & felt closer than other artists 2 me. like nawt in a 'wow shes so weird' way like sum ppl say. idk theres an inherent sense of belongin w dat person cuz shes so much like us too. man i started cryin but anyway i luv her lots she really mean lots 2 me.

exist 4 love is very beautiful too.. i luv da reference 2 the birth of venus, i love da influence of 1920/30s music too like many mentioned.. it make me melt into a puddle sumtime. we rly do exist 4 it huh.!!!!

but yah n_n thank 4 goin on this aurora journey wit me!!! am glad it was fun & am glad 2 infect ya so @/meowyoi, ya n i can all grow a bit more insane togethr <3

[jimlingss]

Dear Miss Kina, it's me again! First of all, congratulations on finishing your final fanfic on this blog! It was immensely what i've been waiting and hoped for. You definitely played with my heart till the very end! It's kind of like - with every fic you've released till now from Seokjin fics to Jungkook fics - every one of them are all so perfectly crafted, every member gets so written well that sometimes time flies so fast when im reading it!

I waited, and read The End for like two hours? And it was really worth it (im wriitng this at like 3am too) like damn i was pausing every second because I was just trying to decipher whatever was happening in each scene, it was all a lot to take in because with each scenario created with the boys, it almost felt like six whole fics crammed into one! The scrollbar was really small n wasn't moving at ALL when i was reading the first few parts and i was like, "wait this feels more like a 60k than a 31k ㅠㅠ" ??? Like how??? But i was smiling as i was reading through the whole thing, to find out it was a Jin centered fic -- and honestly all of your Jin fics are godtier -- i was like "YES YES YES OMG YES I THINK I KNOW WHERE THIS IS GOING" n it was real fun to guess which member went next and how the scenario would turn out.

N i really loved how smooth u incorporated both oc and Jin during each scenario, their bickering was so fun and their moments made me go "AWW WTF I WISH I WAS OC ATM" AND OMFG especially that parf where ic asks jin if he ever knew her before everything happened n the whole "like you love me" scene went down -- my mouth was WIDE open i was tearing up and i screamed so loud lmaooo omg ur like the only writer to actually make me react so violently about that ○_○ n when the scene wherein oc wakes up and doesnt see jin and rushes out, the way you wrote it, you sense the urgency and the dishevelled/rampant thoughts of hers when she sees seokjin on the floor bleeding like that and all the way to the hospital scene where she cant even talk despite feeling so sick DAMN i cant even stop staring at the screen even tho my head hurts from being awake all night (but honestly ur worth it)

Like if i had to rank the individual realities where reader ended up with, i think the one i got sadder for was the Taehyung reality -- the oc in that universe couldn't even have time for herself n gradually drowned in becoming a mother and a wife n all i could think of was "tae u should at least treat your wife >:((" n with Yoongi's i was like "whut's happening," and instead of being hurt about it i for no reason started to discuss my thoughts onto thin air "i dont want a partner like yoongi, they dont have time for e/o n thats kinda sad" n thats where i really started to guess maybe every scenario has a major downside but i had to figure it out. N then with Hoseok n Joon's i felt my heart crack a lil bit bc the oc's insecurities in that part (she felt world's apart to hobi n then inferior to joon) i was like...this is me n I DIDNT WANNA FEEL THAT WAY IN A RELATIONSHIP so then again i started to talk to myself looool. Then we have Jimin's that got me like damn :(( thats kind of harsh -- being in a reality with oc in the picture removes the fact that jimin had a stable life. And i guess with every scene you made with all members (did that intend to give me life lessons or sum uhh)

And last but not least, Jungkook's! Not gonna lie, i also thought he was gonna cheat on oc bc she mentioned she was a racer, thats the reason he was late to her bday dinner, but then the dots started to connect when she mentioned why jin looked solemn in the hospital (re: everything that i mentioned a paragraph or two before)

I do know this was loosely based on TATBILB, but as i was reading through it i found so many similarities to it. Like the BTS UNIVERSE incorporated in where Jin goes back in the last to try and desperately change the future where he is not there in order to stop people from getting hurt. And also Orange (one of my fav mangas) where Naho received letters (along with her friends) from her alternate self to save Kakeru from committing suicide, and it had the happy ending too wherein she stopped him from getting right in front the truck (tho there were mistakes that she didnt do correctly)

And that's all 😭🤧 im sorry if this ask was really long. But i wanted to say thank you for creating all of these wonderful stories! They made my day n i could still rmember finding out about you as a baby army myself so i could say you were part of my journey as a new army msksksksk. It was such a great fun time to be waiting for new fics to drop, new chapters released and announcements and funny asks to scroll through on my tl! I do hope you do well in whatever you embark on from now on and hey you'll finally get to publish a book! And i'll most likely read that too ^^ happy 5 years to the blog^^ thank you user Jimlingss, thank you Kina!

omg thank you for this amount of feedback and your extensive praise, I feel undeserving of it hahaha anyway, thank you for taking your time to enjoy the end. honestly, I was aiming for it to be a 50k fic to just really indulge you all as my last story. But as I was writing it, it turned out muuuch shorter to my exasperation. but it still stands as my longest oneshot and I think it ended up pretty great in spite of being so much lower than my intial word count goal. that being said, I'm glad it felt long to you!!

Also thank you for giving me a run down on your thoughts on the other timelines LOL it was really fun for me to think about it as well and consider what OC and Jin would've chosen had they chosen. While each had their downsides, some of them they liked more than others. since you indulged me so much with such a long message, I'll indulge you as well....OC's choices prob would've been JK > Tae > Joon > Hobi > Yoongi > Jimin. While Jin (if he could make the choice for her), it would've been Joon > Tae > Yoongi > Hobi > Jimin > JK.

I came up with the whole idea of the end. while watching TATBILB cause I thought this whole alternative reality worlds was gonna happen but nope, they took a much different direction lol and I'm happy to hear you mention Orange bc that was one fantastic manga I read!! Personally, I find the end. to be the love child between The Truth Between Us and The Seven Kinds of Love (with a sprinkle of Seven Seconds in Heaven) hahha there's definitely elements of pre-existing stories to this guy but I don't mind so much since it feels like almost a call back to them :')

Anyway thank you for the love and encouragement!! I'm sending well wishes to you too!!

[honeymoonjin]

day 8

GWoo boy! The tension was nearly insurmountable going into this chapter. I’ll admit that my anticipation was laced with some trepidation. I was curious as to how the atmosphere would shift once someone was sent home; how being focused on the endgame now would shift the dynamics with each of the members as well as with our lady. Then to have PD-nim start the whole process by asking each of the members to vindicate their place in the show felt like a twist of the knife. It was a very sucky albeit effective tool to bring to the forefront of the audiences’ mind that they all have something to bring to the table and deserved to stay. It inadvertently justifies for us what you are about to have the show’s staff announce right before our lady reveals who was about to be sent packing. 

To say I was surprised by the twist would be an understatement. And yet, I still found myself uneasy (after all, just because there wasn’t going to be an elimination for the first week, it didn’t mean that no one was going to go home in the second week; we had only delayed the inevitable). But it seemed as though my worries were all for naught because you seemed to have found a way to side step the emotional turmoil all together in a rather clever way. The reason I would argue this solution works for this verse is because by eliminating the potential emotional turmoil sending someone home would bring about (thus clouding our lady’s objective judgement of each member’s sexual performance) it turned the potentially messy and awkward situation into one where the stakes were equally as high but without the emotional shamble. Oof! I have no idea if any of this is making sense; I wish I was able to articulate how just happy I felt that no one was going home but that there was also a good - nay, beneficial reason for this amendment to the elimination process! Needless to say, this certainly changes things for the better because it feels as if you had just cranked the tension up to 100 now! I can’t wait to see how this aspect will play out! 😏

And speaking of things playing out, Namjoon was anything but playing with his first time. I loved how intimate and so very fitting his scene was! I really appreciate the decision to have his first time be something that was solely for him. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy because it’s exactly as our lady says: he deserves it. I love that it started with him stuck in his head (quite possibly hearing Hobi’s voice coaching him through his first time; lols!) and then, with our lady’s help, morphed into a scene about truly feeling himself and that just feels like Namjoon at his core. The entire scene had just the right amount of sweetness - even subtly romantic - filled with passionate kisses and an eagerness to please. It made for an unforgettable scene that left me both swooning and breathless in the very best of ways. I do love that ease that settles between him and our lady afterwards, even at the dining table. It feels like unspoken promises. (oh… was that just me? *shrugs* no matter, a girl can still hope)

How great then was it that the following scene comes with promises of more moments of bonding between the group?! I was cackling at Jin and Hobi and Tae! *content sighs* Every little detail from Jungkook playing with his party hat to Yoongi using his as a makeshift container to put his snacks in made my heart do cartwheels! The familiarity and ease of the scene makes for another special meal time with the added bonus of celebrating Joon over cake! Warm fuzzies overload! 🥰

But perhaps what was the real icing on the cake *😉* are those sext messages between our lady, Hobi, and JK! Oh the promises of dominance to come was such a tantalizing tease! And yet, as wonderfully hot as that entire scene was (like, I may or may not have had to physically walk away from just how hot that scene was getting) not having our lady climax the entire chapter and thoroughly put in her place did something to me. I couldn’t put a finger on what it was but I felt complete for some reason… 

And then Hobi spelled it out for me. And I was floored. 

As our lady chased her high at the very end of this entry, I too found a sense of calm and satisfaction I did not think I deserved prior to Hobi’s scene as my choice to vote Hobi off also weighed heavily on my heart. You were able to convey both understanding and a way for me to let go of the guilt in the most tantalizing way. Like… WOW! It was impeccably devised from a writer’s standpoint and I feel as though only the word “genius” could best sum up the emotional satisfaction that you were able to subconsciously evoke in me. How? How did you know? As the kids say: I am shooketh. Wow… just, wow. 

Magic Weaver, your work this week was truly spellbinding! I can say with certainty that there has never been a story that affected me on that level and I will forever be in awe of your amazing writing! What an honor to experienced with each new entry (knowing the caliber of talent that would be present) and still be taken by surprise each time. Thank you once again for sharing this very special entry with us and for your constant hard work. I cannot wait to see what you have in store for us next! 💜 Jan

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no lie tho me writing the elimination scene i was like “....but will jan like this?” fsjdkf 

ahh it’s such a relief to finally have this big secret out in the open,, phew ! now it’s time for us to get to the fun stuff without worrying about losing numbers woo !

im so glad you appreciated yn’s journey in this chapter and how hoseok knows how to make her feel better. i, for one, felt awful having to write yn thinking of sending hoseok home, so it felt right that you readers would probably feel bad too. allowing that but also giving a resolution at the end felt really necessary to me so that we could move on guilt-free !

i’m too weak for serious angst BUT that doesn’t mean that our twist won’t lead to more emotional turmoil,,,,, what happens, my darling readers, if yn develops feelings for a member that’s been eliminated and they’re no longer allowed to touch? what happens when a member gets upset that they were voted out but they’re still around yn every day? so many new possibilities now that our villa is staying full !

thank you for your support on every chapter. it means so much and i always think about what you’d think about something or how you’ll react. but be sure to buckle your seatbelt because week 2 is going to be very intense now that we’ve revved our engines in week 1!

[survivorpacificislandallstars]

Ep. 1 - “Have I ever seen anything that messy? Yes” - Madison (Pt. 2)

The fact that I have Jordan Pines on my tribe is a blessing because that's one person that I genuinely trust not to betray me. Going to tribal sucks, and there's no denying that. But everyone seems to be mostly on board with Isaac and all I can do is trust and hope that they're telling the truth.

So like I came back from hell to a tribe of people I have never talked to. The only two i know are Mitch and Samantha the rest it has just been seeing them around the community. I can't believe im going from being rocked to being first boot what a journey. Even if I'm first boot i hope my tribe slays and someone on the tribe wins. http://vignette1.wikia.nocookie.net/survivor-org/images/e/ec/F1bt6z.gif/revision/latest?cb=20150319025301

Welcome to All-stars! I'm glad I could be cast and be considered an all-star, AND be considered someone who slays challenges! Thanks to Monto and Allisno for giving me a title that will essentially make me indestructible during the tribal phase. Merge? I'll be 60 by then so it'll be okay. I'm glad to be part of this season, which will end up pretty crazy, I'm sure. Casting 32 people? Were those all of your applicants guys? Because what the hell. So this game started during band, so I don't have any idea who everyone is yet. This requires research and Monto won't update the wiki with the cast. All I know is I have the Hoshi (Yoshi) tribe, and our color is dark teal. The first challenge? Flag making. Did I help at all? No. Did Katie do literally all of the work on the flag and I felt bad about giving input because she had already blazed through 70% of the flag while I was unconscious? Yep. I had no part in that flagmaking challenge and I think my input would've been appreciated. Gif flags aren't fun. But since Katie has won flag challenges, I'm just gonna shutup and let her do her thing. We lost because it wasn't starry enough. Whatever. It was a good flag and I enjoyed it. Unfortunately we have to go to tribal, along with another tribe. I've been making decent social connections with everyone, and I'm sure my status as a challenge whore will keep me safe. Right now it's looking like Jordan's going to be the one to go, because he hasn't talked with anyone, and the first message I got from him was an hour ago asking where the vote was. So... he can be swept under the rug for all I care. Here's a tribe assessment: Sara - A sweet girl. We've been in VLs and mass chats together but we don't really know each other, so I think the game will get us familiar with one another. I can see myself working with her. Sam - Sociable and pretty friendly. She's hosting Westeros with Stevie, so that's a connection I'll have my eye on. Otherwise she seems chill and she seems like someone who I could work with. Katie - She's quiet a fair amount of the time, she did our flag so that guarantees her safety basically. I know she's a hard worker but I don't feel a swell personal connection with her, so I'd vote her out if I felt the need. Chrissa - She's pretty awkward socially, from what I've seen in other VLs and stuff. But she's a good person, and I think the sort of neurotic Hannah attitude could keep us together. I can see myself in an alliance with her because I feel like she'd agree to it and stay loyal so easily. Charlotte - Let me just say that Charlotte didn't deserve what she got in Niue because she is the sweetest person so far. I feel like her and I could become really close because she's pretty new to the scene, and I'd like to help her learn the ropes. I just hope that doesn't play against her because she's not as aware as the rest of us are. As far as I know I'll protect her if I need to. Steffen - Steffen and I have a mixed relationship. I think Steffen is an ok guy, and he's pretty chill a lot of the time. In Hawaii I wrecked his ass and lied to his face and he seemed pretty bitter about it for a while, so I'm hoping that doesn't come back to bite me. I think we could work together since we've put it aside, but you never know with these people. Jordan - I rocked him out in Hawaii, and I don't ever really know what he's thinking? He never says much... at all... So I can't exactly hold a conversation with him. Everyone else on the tribe says they haven't even heard from him, so I think it's fine if we take him out...

THE FLAG WAS UGLY, I KNOW, I'M SORRY, THERE'S NOTHING I COULD DO ABOUT IT I mean there were several things I could have done about it but I did not do any of them so um..........there was nothing I could do. I'm CHOKING that Jordan Pines and Jay are on my tribe, I hope that means I'm okay this week? I don't think I'm okay this week, I think I'm going home first and I'm going to be 32nd boot and I'm going to have to actually actively hope that a season with 32 people also has a redemption island twist. Which realistically might not be too far off since we're going season by season and both Izu and Rakiura brought people back from the dead. But whatever. As "penalty" for putting in the most effort, I got sent to Exile, got an extra vote for later, and then came back and everyone was just like "Oh yeah, the vote is Isaac, we're all good, it's Isaac, no one has really come up with chats, it's just Isaac, group decision, vote Isaac, no one blames you for the flag, did we mention it's Isaac, well it is so go vote Isaac" and I'm sitting here like WOW like all of my efforts to campaign are gone now because I'm apparently fine? Even if I don't believe I am? Like I'm genuinely convinced that I'm going to be going home in two hours. I haven't felt this out of the loop in a long time. We'll see, I guess? I don't have too much hope. I think Jay is lying to me, maybe Jordan too. But honestly, if I die, I die. I haven't been here long enough to feel invested. If I live, I'll start to care.

Are these idiots like blind? So we're submitting Karen's and it honestly pisses me off because she basically copied mine so I had to say something, because mine is clearly aesthetically better and were losing the challenge because of these idiots. I hope the other tribe's is amazing. Well won't really matter anyways we might as well just put a picture of yoda on ours.

I love when Jordan Pines recycles alliance chats from old games. Have I ever seen anything that messy? Yes. Does it sum up how I think his gameplay will go? Yes. So I have an alliance with Jay, Dan, and Jordan, which is really cute and all, but eventually I gotta cut ties with that group and play for myself. So far the consensus is to vote out Isaac, and I'm down, but I keep having this feeling in the back of my head that there might be something bigger going down. I don't want to seem paranoid at the first tribal, but I'm really worried. Good survivor Gods, please let me be wrong. Tell me this will go smoothly. 

I think I obviously contributed the most. 1 my flag was the best, 2 karen copied parts of my flag onto hers because she sucks and yeah! :- )

so vote planning seems to be going well. I’ve become apart of 2 main alliances, one of me drew and jay and one of me jay madison and dan. I have a great relationship with ash, and I think I am forming a good one with van. So that about covers everyone on the tribe but Isaac, who sadly if all goes to plan will be going tonight. It should be a unanimous vote, but honestly I’ve been sketched out cause like Isaac is online, but hes not trying to sway the vote? idk whats up. Hopefully all goes according to plan.

first of all screw liana for that judging lol also I hate that we are going to tribal and I just hope it's not me going this week, I need to stay safe, I am so so nervous not gonna lie. I am using that social game

This tribe!!!! Is iconic!!!! Winning immunity by like...a lot of points and all I had to do was nod my head and say the flag looks good when will your fav. Side note I hope it's Karen that goes home I don't even know if her tribe lost but maybe a shark will crawl out of the ocean to get her

I can't wait for Liana and Chris to replace the first people voted out and they were judges to pick which tribe they would end up on Anyways actual game stuff, Steffen and I were talking about what to do and we were talking about pulling together an actual alliance between me him Sara Charlotte then one more, I was hoping Mitch or Chrissa because I don't talk to Jordan a lot so I was hoping it would be him. So now I'm 99% positive after talking to Mitch and Chrissa that this could be a unanimous vote for Jordan... I don't wanna get cocky or anything I've just heard he's the person people have talked to the least and I'm here for it. Jordan is really nice but he's quiet and the first vote is always better if it's easy so hopefully things go smoothly omg I just realized there's 5 girls and that's majority on its own and I think everyone is on board for Jordan hopefully so that's good and Steffen thinks we're super close so like omg if we could do the whole girls alliance I would cry of happiness because that's iconic and we'd have an easy majority STEFFEN IS ACTING SO WEIRD AND IM CONVINCED I'M GUNNA GET BLINDSIDED I CAN'T WAIT TO BE FIRST BOOT OF ALL STARS FUCK

when Katie does the work for me so I don't have to get any blood on my hands

I AM LIVING FOR THIS GIRLS ALLIANCE shookt in every sense of the word

Wow I can't believe I'm going to be first boot. It's kind of hard to avoid that when no one wants to fucking talk to you.