#i feel like shitty writing / ableism could have been easily avoidable here

[howyouducan]

If Jennifer Hepler hated the character of Anders so much, why was she writing him

[fairestmusesismoving]

I feel like that Spongebob meme right now. That whole... INHALE. BOY.  Boyfriend: You got vague’d on that Confession Blog three weeks ago. Me: I kind of don’t care but can I see since we’re all angry tonight? I’m not gonna reblog that thing cause that is a little triggering for some people. In fact, I regret looking at it. I’ll probably need to grab my inhaler and do some controlled breathing But we’re gonna talk all nice and calm under the cut. Here’s your content warning in case you want to proceed like ADULTS cause... wow we got shitty people in the rp community. We’re gonna talk about ableism, taking people’s disabilities for granted/mocking them, and not reading an rper’s rules when they talk about how this is for their health. Okay? Okay in we go like adults. And this is gonna be a little long, but hey. If I don’t make this clear, I won’t have the mind to work on drafts.

It’s pretty silly to talk about how I have to make rules regarding my disability and health, but unfortunately due to the past few times I’ve been on tumblr, people don’t get the hint that I’m not their performing trained poodle. I get tired. I’m in pain. People have asked me to do excessive things when I can’t move my arm to wipe my ass on some days. The last time I tried to rp on tumblr and I tried to engage in a conversation with someone about how I needed assistance in rping, the immediate response was “So what like depression?” and I was not allowed to make any more headway into this conversation. Before that when I had my personal, I was told that I was a “party pooper” for being on anti convulsion medication and I “ruined the time for others around me” since that medication means I have a lot of “can’t do”. I was told I “sounded like I was making my illness up” because it “sounds too long”. I was told by people I was “selfish” for “crying” be it in pain or because things just made me sad more easily. I was told that cutting my hair because I couldn’t grip a hair dryer made me “ugly”. I was told “oh well you can get a job as a teacher, plenty of disabled people do that” when I was losing my ability to stand and use my hands. This is not a complete list. That’s your track record as a whole, Tumblr. Even a great deal of you who claim to be disabled do this to me. You even do it to my friends who are disabled. I am choosing to believe that had I been given a time to explain my limits better, maybe I could have avoided some of the most insensitive remarks. Some were inevitable. But some? I believe they didn’t have to happen with some knowledge. I do not want more followers. That’s unreasonable and honestly, I just want people who read my rules. I can’t constantly spit out endless starters for people who don’t take the time to answer at least one. I can’t do all the quick fire responses I often see going out. Mine have to be much slower, even when they are short. Sometimes I can’t remember words or I’ll fall asleep at my keyboard because of my heavy medication. You’re not getting your response. I honestly tried, really. I don’t want to rp with anyone from the ableist mindset that thinks this is a “cry for attention”. Did you read the rules? I suppose not. I am not your toy. I am not here to write you endless things. I am honestly tired of this because I don’t want attention. I want to hide, do my things to enjoy what time I’ve got, and I want just a few people to read my rules and respect me at a bare minimum. If this is disagreeable, please let me know and promptly unfollow. Thank you.