#i feel like im boutta combust

[drawlody]

Look guys it's my wives-

I got these 2 spinning in my brain so the next logical thing is drawing them interacting obvs :D

I love how with how drastically different these 2 character r they still have 1 thing in common that is they both adopt a buncha kids ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ parental firgure go brrrr. Say what u said about Adam dude got like 50 kids in the bible and no one can forgot fatherly instinct entirely>:)) I can't tell if I like Lute as his daughter or gf more so uhh leaving her outta this ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ . Simon forgot neptr again(⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠)

I am perfectly normal bout them why ya ask(⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠)

Forgive me since this a doodle I didnt really clean up or pay much attention to the details ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ

[did-sm1-say-catfish]

mind palace feels like an epic sherlock reference!!!

vexes in grian's mind palace........ scar reference?

[gayerthanthee]

screw this i'll get my serotonin by fully embracing being he/they.

[ellitx]

Oooh~~ butler Himmel got the gears turning~~

How about a bath time with Himmel scenario (boutta make a blog called whoring for himmel, I feel bad clogging up your inbox just lemme know if its annoying oki? ;w; )

The day was sweltering hot ,whilst enjoying your daily walk on the royal grounds the sweat dripping off your back and brow was getting a bit too much to bear, even your thighs were starting to sick together where stockings didnt cover.

"Mistress are you alright? Would you like to go in for the afternoon and freshen up?" Always so attentive and kind your sweet butler is as he gently took his handkerchief and wiped your brow "Y-yes that would be wonderful, thank you" you say with lightly panting while fanning your face with your hand trying to hide the blush that was forming

Stepping into your much cooler quarters you heaved a heavy sigh of relief as you plop down into one of your chairs with Himmel following you in to make sure you're alright since venti was busy with other matters he had you for the day to himself. "Are you alright, My dearest? Is anything I may get you or help you with..?"

With all your clothing stuck to you, you could help but think "A nice bath and a change of clothes would be most delightful" and looking down with a blush knowing there was a heat only he could cool "I might need a bit of help.. I cant reach a few things.." you face beginning to burn " Help me undress..?"

A small flinch went through his body as a blush began to tinge at the tips of his ears "O-ofcourse..! Not a problem at all Mistress!" A small lie slipped his lips knowing that there was indeed a problem, him craving his dearest like mad, with him slowly removeing each article of your until much of you was exposed skin glistening, leaving nothing but intricate garments, beautiful lace gaterbelt with matching panties that dug slightly into your soft form with a complimentary bra.

"Venti had surely dressed her this morning this is much too.. too erotic for our sweet maiden.." he though to himself but he couldn't help but take in your beauty for a moment. "Alright wait here, Ill start your bath for you" he spoke trying to keep his composure through his excitement but as he walked towards your bathroom he heard soft footsteps. "Sir.. I want to acommany you.. you look quite hot yourself.. would you like to join me, I want to help take care of you since you work so hard.."

He inhales sharply at your request " would it really be alright, what if we were cought, surely if it was of her request it shouldn't be a problem" he thought again be he cant stop his mind from wandering to more inappropriate matters "A-As you wish, my dearest" holding the door open for you step inside as he pulls off he coat and gloves laying them on the marble counter.

He drinks in your ethereal form as he draws the water making sure it to your liking with dd a touch of lavender scented soap to help you both relax. "Are you sure about this my dearest.." he asked softly locking eyes with those gorgeous e/c orbs. You nervously compose your naked form undressing moments before while his back was turned "Yes.. you need some time for yourself too.. just Venti may not be too happy if he hears.. I just want to take care of you for once.." you plead crossing one arm around your breast and the other to grab his hand you pull him in for a sweet kiss.. " Dont make me wait to long~" you tease as you drop down into the tub perfectly warm and soothing

God your lips were intoxicating, nodding he turns to undess himself fully.. "N-now mistress, may you keep your eyes closed un till I tell you..?" He was really embarrassed about not only having his angel see all of him, but him already being half hard. He slowly guides you forward and positions himself behind you hoping you wont notice "Alright my dearest you can open them now.." he sighed into your shoulder while gently placing his around you " Dont be shy.. sir Im also quite heated" you whisper as you turn to face and straddle him

Oh god feeling your thighs brush against him lit aflame and with your bear wet chest leaning up against his he feels like he could combust any moment "Y-y/n.. my beloved do you really want to-" "Shhh" you hush his worries with a heated loving kiss slowly he let himself go, opening his mouth to let his tongue swirl with yours. Almost instinctually starts grinding into you with his cock brushing againt your slick folds.

"Mm..! Sir.. more..!" The way you said sir sent electricity through him he never thought he love it the way he did "My songbird.. I am here to please Aahh.. All of your commands and desires.." he moaned while while letting his hands slide up and down your plush thighs under the water being careful not to make a mess

" Then just relax Himmel..~" you cood as you raised yourself over his hardened member, wide-eyed and red faced he held your hips to position your self and slowly guiding you down onto him both moaning in unison you rested on him, just laying your head on his shoulders rubbing them to try to ease all of his tensions while you bask in the full feeling of your core

"Aa... Y/N you really are such.. nng.. an angel so sweet.. so beautiful.. to think I have been blessed with you.." He couldn't help be feel so loved by you and himself sit with the warmth of you around him.. "H-Himmel Ahhh~ I want to please you too.." He feels so torn one side wants to keep you still and feel your wet warmth all around him but the other wants to rut up into you bringing you both bliss "M-misstress.. Ahh!"

Your sudden bounces cought him of guard "Im sorry sir I- Ahh.. I cant help it..!!" He grips your hips tighter helping you to move on him whilst water sloshes about "Oh.. god my sweet... Its so good!! More..!" He shakily breathes out the coil building the more you go, wanting to come undone as you clench down around him and with your hands on his shoulders trying not to slip "Yes..! Right there..! I dont know how much longer i can h-hold it..!

"Dont my songbird..! Let it go spill onto me..!! And that you did leaking everything you had onto with you clenching onto him he swiftly pulls out and finishes into the tub "mmm..!" He moans looking away shyly.

You curl up onto his chest and playfully whipser " looks like the day got even hotter huh~"

( oops this got long im sorry sjdjdj -💚)

ANON YOURE FEEDING ME WITH THESE HIMMEL CONTENTS AND I LOVE YOU FOR DOING THIS FEED ME MORE PLS IM HUNGRY, IM THIRSTY FOR HIMMEL

I. NEED. MORE. HIMMEL >:((

And you also included one of his kinks of shower sex!? I mean it’s not really shower but yeah he’s into those taking a bath with his darling ;3c

And that sir 👀 i have a headcanon where himmel has the position of the student council president and he sometimes stays late to finish all the paperworks and his darling often visits him to check on how he’s doing.

Wink wonk we know where this is going ♪(´ε｀ ) himmel, stressed, desk sex—

[juuuuzou]

the expression is making mountains out of mole hills right but this will likely no this WILL be a prevalent problem in all of my romantic pursuits that dont begin on social/dating media re: coming out bc at this moment i dont pass as male even tho im mostly, socially, out, and im not boutta stop that but then thats a WHOLE CONVERSATION thats awkward for everyone

but im getting ahead of myself

bc the main issue is ME

ie i dont know shit folks bout how this is all meant to go nor what i actually wanna do

i haTE THIS HATE THIS STUFF I FEEL SO DUMB? EVEN WRITING THIS OUT I FEEL SO STUPID AND CHILDISH? BUT I KNOW IF I DONT IM GONNA COMBUST? fuck u autocorrect combust is a word

bc the situation is: a boy (when is it EVER not) but its not even about the boy specifically, its about the circumstances of the boy, the limitations of getting to know the boy, bc i am also boy but no one would know that looking at me. perhaps an advantage until i wanted to further something. i do but i dont bc of the Unknown of what would happen

on one hand Why The Fuck Not It Wont Kill Me but also Embarrassing

if i did want Something Further and he somehow, miraculously, agreed, id also have to disclose the Gender and thatd be a hard but necessary thing to do

(three months on hormones yesterday, my voice is shaky and wibbly wobbly and the hair around my upper lip is getting a bit longer and darker. i am thirteen years old with my first gay crush and breaking voice)

even worse: this scenario is fuckin with my dysphoria. at tafe i sit on a table with these two boys and they talk together and sometimes im included but not often but istg i swear to fuck i WOULD be more included, id be adopted in, accepted, one of the Lads, if i were perceived as male, and not bc theyd think i was better than what i am now but just bc id be the Same and not Other like i am now. and then it would be soooo much easier to talk to him.

im always on the fringe of friendship groups and I DONT MIND but it does make it harder to GET TO KNOW PEOPLE bc usually i dont want to be included in a group, i just want to have one person i can talk to

(even though i dont talk much. that might be surprising considering how long this fuckin text post is but. i dont talk much. and i suck at small talk. and jess has given me some pointers on how to talk to people to know them better but its so hard.)

i cannot stress enough how gross this all makes me feel (i feel like i am somehow violating his privacy by Liking him and talking about it. ive always felt like this when ive liked someone. they are a person?they dont belong to my brain?to talk about and think about at will?its creepy?idfk)

but i think the game plan is to just.......................................... let it be. its all i can do i guess and at the end of the semester maybe? if i still wanna? i cant be spending all my time thinking about what could and could not happen if certain things did or did not happen

this is all so stupid this kind of stuff, personal relationships and feelings and navigating other people, makes me feel so stupid bc im mentally and emotionally ten years behind everyone else

mountains out of mole hills