#i feel like a zombie

[raise-a-gla55-2-fr33d0m]

My IbisPaintX is something else...

[clancysjumpsuit]

hi frens <3333

[incognit0slut]

yall im sick cant write cant edit cant do shit

[shadovvheart]

Anxious I won't be able to finish all work before dav drops bc my illness makes it near impossible for me to focus on anything for more than 30 min 🤢

[just-a-pretty-corpse]

I feel like a corpse. Sometimes I genuinely think I'm dead. But not in a bad way, if that even makes any sense?? Like it feels normal to me. I don't think it is normal tho. Like why do I genuinely wonder to myself sometimes if I am actually a zombie. & I feel like this should be cause for concern but it's not affecting me all that much. Honestly it's really just a lingering feeling of actually being dead but still walking the earth yk.

Honestly I have no idea wtf this post is about. Btw don't be concerned at all I'm fine- well not really but in this aspect I am. I'm pretty sure there's a name for this but I don't feel like looking it up

[nullheaven]

Holy fuck man i should've went to the hospital to try and get another sick note instead of going to work

[adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy]

sitting at the break table eating a cookie and staring at the wall

[askinnyblackman]

i’ve been in this weird depressive something for like a month now and i don’t know what CAUSING it but i feel like shit and i want it to STOP

[houseofwolvess]

wh. why did i wake up at 3pm

[resident-rats]

Irl photo of me right now, right this second, at this very moment

[bilolli]

Traveling is so tiring but so worth it. But why so tiring if so cool?

[ficmeouttahere]

no but i read this whole thing in a couple hours last night (nope I did not sleep)

OP YOU SHOULD BE IN THE BRIDGERTON WRITERS ROOM IMMA START A PETITION

I was SWOONING the whole time and you managed that without a single kiss till the end how'd u do that atlabeth huh WHAT MANNER OF SORCERY IS THIS

can't won't and don't want to stop thinking about the stargazing scene

“One could argue it is because of you I’ve done all this,” he said. “You have a way about you that makes a rational man want nothing more than irrationality.” 

EXCUSE ME?!?!?!?!?!?

His lips quirked into a slight smile. “The stars do not have much meaning without you beside me to give them one.” 

AND

“If you tell me they are more than lines, then they are more than lines,” Anthony said. “That much, I know.” 

NO IM FINE IM FIIINE

(not so) simple masterlist

pairing: anthony bridgerton x fem!reader

status: complete!

summary: coercing lord bridgerton into pretending to court you to avoid the affections of a baron is very simple. that is, of course, until it isn't.

featuring fake dating/courtship, minor rivals to lovers, idiots in love, mutual pining that they think is unrequited, slowish burn, hurt/comfort, a signature bridgerton happily ever after, and my blood sweat and tears!

total wc: 44,497

overall warning(s): historical inaccuracies, period typical misogyny, implied/referenced sexual harassment -- individual, more specific warnings on each chapter. reader is referred to with the last name worthing for convenience

part 1 ↳ 10k words | miss worthing makes an awful sort of proposal to the viscount bridgerton.

part 2 ↳ 7.1k words | miss worthing despises and enjoys the viscount bridgerton's company in equivalence.

part 3 ↳ 9.7k words | miss worthing has a terrible realization.

part 4 ↳ 7.6k words | the viscount has a revelation and miss worthing decides against her heart.

part 5 ↳ 9k words | miss worthing and the viscount find themselves at a crossroads.

[mydaylight]

This week really knocked me out in terms of energy

[milo-is-rambling]

Why is my life just wake up throw up eat go back to bed for too many hours wake up get nauseous eat something lay down in bed again

[a-knight-in-shining-rainbows]

finals…

[a-heart-like-a-sparrow]

November 13th, 2024 - Reflect

I've been very busy and nervous lately. Exams, school projects, family issues, internal ache.

At least the Philosophy test is over. So I can relax for at least a moment, and think a little bit about how I feel.

I'm basically paraphrasing something I wrote on my notes app.

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I do miss him. Of course I do.

But I've been thinking about not going back.

No matter what he tells me, I never understand him, I don't know what he wants from me.

However, I still came to a few conclusions.

He wants someone better than me. He's not gonna make it easy. I should've known that by now. If I want everything I was promised, I'll have to do everything, no matter how tiring and embarrassing it is.

He wants me to go away. This is all to push me to the limit so that I stop trying. Well, it's not gonna be that easy, I went back when I should'nt have, and I can do it again.

No reason. He's just like that. It's probably the most realistic conclusion. I already knew he liked to be that way. No surprises.

But the ending is always the same. I suffer.

If I stay and obey, I feel bad.

If I leave it all behind, I still feel bad.

If I don't do anything, I feel worse.

Maybe that's what he wants. He knows how I feel.

He knows everything. I cannot escape.

He's everywhere, and even if I left, I'd still find him everywhere.

He tells me he doesn't believe in any god. I'm not sure if he knows that he checks all the boxes to be one.

Does it even matter anymore?

Maybe I'm just crazy and saying nonsense.

Forget it.

But at least now you know.

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