#i feel i may have gotten a bit too sappy w this one chat

[victor-aguilar]

💌

HI ZAZZIE. OMG. WHERE TO START. my favourite person in the world, quite possible, mayhaps? (yes) i look forward to talking to you and just seeing you online every day and i count down the time when you're away. you are truly one of the most fascinating ppl in the world and i will never be the same now that i've met you. you are so so deep and intense in everything you do and from the fics you write to the stimboards you make, you are so so talented and creative. you are the stars in the night sky, you are the promise of tomorrow, you are the eternal abyss of the sea, the darkness to my light. ily ily ily.

[honeymoonjin]

Content Creator Year in Review!

now that i have finally escaped the labyrinthine 2020 i may as well go sappy for a lil bit and chat about my creations i suppooooosee.... thank you very much to the thoughtful @ttttaehyungie @kkulfm-writing @flurrys-creativity and @nightowls388 for tagging me in this xx

first creation and most recent creation of 2020:  my first creation of 2020 was my most recent creation is strawberry lemonade, which i wrote for a sapphic fic fest on twitter

one of your favorite creations from 2020:  i didn’t write many oneshots, but i have a soft spot for florezco. i love writing gentle, passionate characters, and the jimin in florezco is the epitome of that. researching it was so much fun too, and i have nothing but fond memories.

a creation you’re really proud of:  honestly, love is the warmest colour is one of my personal achievements because all the things the mc is struggling with, i was really having a hard time with when i was writing it. i poured a lot of my heart into this and it helped me process things for myself a little.

a creation that took you forever:  definitely tgm. i guess it’s kinda cheating bc it’s a longform series but i feel like if i finished it all the way it would end up taking like 2 years fkjdsfksddjfsk in terms of oneshots, strawberry lemonade took a long time. i was so rusty that sometimes it felt like pulling teeth to get words on the page. i’m so happy i powered through though.

a creation from 2020 that received the most notes:  technically my most popular 2020 post is the tgm masterlist. out of curiosity, i added all the notes for the masterlist and each chapter and bonus content (since the whole thing was written in 2020) and it’s over 27k notes isn’t that BONKERS ? tgm also currently has over 60k hits on ao3. i had never expected to even get 1k notes when i first started out in march of 2020. wow, even just working this out now makes me feel even more grateful for this lil community we fostered together and i promise i’m working really hard right now to try and find a way to bring it back <3

a creation you think deserved more notes:  because i had a lot of direct interaction with tgm (asks, reblogs, discord) i had the luxury of no longer paying attention to notes. i know everyone preaches (and i have too) about how notes don’t matter but they kinda do, in terms of feeling like your hard work is being received with warmth. i do wish strawberry lemonade would get more notes but i’m unsurprised since it’s not the usual fic you’d find here, and i was inactive for so long. i know it’ll take time to build a regularly interacting community again like i had with tgm.

a new fandom you joined and a creation you made for it:  ...crickets

a creation you made that breaks your heart:  tgm. always tgm. i feel so unsatisfied with myself for not finishing it. i miss the days i was updating weekly like crazy. isn’t it weird that i could update a 10k chapter each week while working and being in uni, but now i’m graduated and unemployed and i spend a whole day on 1k? fksdjfkds madness luv

a ‘simple’ creation that you really love:  honestly, i really loved making the tgm bonus contents. the social dummy app is a lot of fun and it was nice getting to kinda play in that world without having to pay attention to the grand arcs of the plot and stuff.

a creation that was inspired by another one:  almost all of my oneshots have been inspired by the art style of ghibli movies. it’s that magical realism, the wonderful mixed in with the ordinary, the love given to the smallest of details. whenever i write, i’m picturing my story in that aesthetic.

a favorite creation created by someone else:  this is so hard trying to choose just one but it’ll have to be The Songbird and the Sea by maia_archives. this fic is literally so good that it is now PUBLISHED (or at least available as a fiction ebook w name changes i believe) and there is even a sequel which i haven’t gotten too yet bc i’m putting off rereading the first one as long as possible so that it feels like the first time again THATS how much i adore this fic. i don’t think i’ve read any piece of fiction better executed than this. it literally does every genre better than anyone. it does the pirate au better than potc, it does slowburn better than pride and prejudice, it does worldbuilding better than jules verne, i cannot praise it enough.

some of your favorite content creators from the year:  on the home soil: my best girls @dreamyhan @hongism @baekhyyun @wintertae @sope-and-shine @ironicarmy @minjoonalist and my absolute role model @joopiterjoon (i’m sorry for not putting down more, i really have not read on tumblr at all this year) on ao3: annie_vi, Arobeebee, GinForInk, minverse, SugarAndMint, Lilithgirl, moonflower1306, tendershipping, Only_A_Fangirl, maia_archives, elle_O_moonchild, jjks, spudcity

and for good measure, another couple more creations of yours that you love:  my guy if i actually posted more things in 2020 maybe i could list them here

tagging:  the people i have tagged above, as well as anyone who sees this and wishes to do it! please tag me so i can read about your marvelous creations ;;-;

[shiroe-is-my-baby]

Movie Date

Summary: Everyone loves a good movie date

W: self-insert, au, fluff

Feeling my phone vibrating in my pocket, I quickly dashed down the sidewalk in my wedges towards the movie theater. I wasn't late just yet, but I could tell that he was already there from the many phone calls that I was getting. Shiroe was early, which is a rarity for him. I hadn't planned to get there this quickly, but I didn't want to keep him waiting. Besides, it gave us a while to chat before the movie began. We'd talked about it last night, deciding on which movie before we got to the door.

I had gotten up early this morning to shower and get ready, hoping that this wouldn't happen. But, yet again, I'm stuck rushing to get to my destination. This time I had cursed myself by wearing heels, and no matter how comfortable they are, I am not good at running in them. Shiroe would no doubt laugh at me, telling me that I should have taken my time. Although, I was too excited to see him, and I didn't care if I looked a little crazy. He already knows how perfect that statement fits me.

Seeing the theater just a few feet away, I began slowing my feet to a slow walk, taking the time to catch my breath. I let my eyes wander the people that passed me by, looking for a familiar face amongst the small group of people. I adjusted my hair, making sure that everything was where it should be. I wanted to look my best and not like I had just ran a marathon.

As I approached the building, I saw a figure standing near the entrance. I smiled, noticing Shiroe before he could do the same to me. Huffing a sigh, I double checked myself one last time and pretended as if my moment of panic didn't happen. "Hey!" I called, waving to get his attention. Shiroe's head turned a bit, catching me at a glance before he noticed that it was me. Who else would have been calling him out? I giggled, watching the soft smile form on his face.

"There you are," He said, taking a step and meeting me halfway.

I reached up, wrapping my arms around his shoulders and giving him a quick peck on the cheek.

"Sorry I made you wait. I didn't realize you'd get here so early."

"I got done early. Did you... run here?"

He looked down at my reddened cheeks and my heavy breaths, noticing that I was acting strange. Immediately, I felt my confidence fade, unable to lie to him. I bit my bottom lip, watching his face twist from humor to curious. "I... might have... sped-walked to get here," I said, shifting from foot to foot nervously.

Shiroe raised an eyebrow, chuckling under his breath. I expected as much, seeing as I ran here when I wasn't even close to being late. He was the one that showed up early, but I didn't want to keep him waiting.

That didn't stop him from making fun of me.

"You didn't have to do that. I could have waited for you," He said.

"Nah. I'm good. I wanted to see you."

Smiling wider, I tried to play it off well, pushing this conversation along. Shiroe eyed me a little longer with the humorous look, quickly shaking his head and sighing. While he kept mocking him, I let my eyes wander his form and look him over. He looked handsome today, having dressed up today for our date. I always loved seeing him put a lot of thought into our night's out, but never expected him to put on too much for me. After all, I only wear nice clothes to impress him. It was my choice to do so, and at the end of the day, it didn't really matter. As long as we had fun together.

Shiroe caught me staring at him, stopping his sentence to take note of my change in expression. I laughed at myself, feeling my cheeks darken at the thought of him catching me. "You look really good today," I said, "You should wear button-ups more often." He glanced down at his outfit, seeing what I was referring to. He may have not expected me to notice, but I wasn't going to let it go. In fact, I was going to always remember this day, now that I know he owned such a nice shirt.

Twirling my hair between my fingers, I tried to hide the blush that stained my cheeks. He looked really cute. I loved how mature he seemed, hand in his pocket and the first few buttons on his shirt opened. He must have known just how much that excited me.

"It looks okay?" He asked, chuckling nervously.

"Of course! You look great in anything, love."

"That should be my line."

We both laughed in unison, exchanging deep glances. I completely ignored the fact that we were in the middle of the sidewalk, or the plans that we had. All I could think about in this moment was him.

Shiroe reached forward, grasping my hand and lacing his fingers with my own.

"You want to go inside?" He asked, "We have a little while before the movie starts." I nodded, letting him pull me beside him as he pushed the door opened.

The movie theater wasn't very busy this early in the afternoon, and with there not being a new movie, it was quiet barren. This gave us the opportunity to be isolated in our date. I felt my cheeks burning at the thought of being in a dark theater alone with him. Only a few other people, if any at all. I leaned against his arm, glancing up at the list of movies that scrolled across the screen above us. I'd already looked up the showings on the website the night before, but I was mainly making sure we gotten our information right.

"You still want to see the romance?"

"Yeah, only if you do," I replied with a smile.

"I'm fine with anything you choose. Whatever makes you happy."

Shiroe was only saying this because there weren't many interesting picks at the moment. We looked for a decent action movie, but the only thing showing at the moment were romances left over from Valentine's Day and a few horror films. The only action movie was one that we had little to no interest in.

Mainly because neither of us liked their portrayal of vampires.

We had a lot to laugh about when seeing the trailer, though.

"What about this one?" I asked, "It's supposed to be extremely cliche and overdone."

"Sounds like a usual box office hit."

"Yeah. Everyone's a sucker for a good chick flick."

He and I nodded in agreement, smirking in amusement. Here we are acting like movie critics. This is exactly why we can't watch certain films together. All we do is critique it, especially those that are not good. I'm actually surprised Shiroe wanted to watch this movie with me. He usually didn't like the romance all that much, but he always likes doing these things with me.

A half an hour passed, the two of us chatting and sitting down at a bench against the wall. I had forgotten how long we had sat there, lost in our conversation. Shiroe didn't seem to worry about the time, keeping his eyes locked on me while he talked. I loved seeing the excitement on his face when he was talking to me. The way his eyes lit up when he discussed something he enjoyed. I wanted to always see that look.

Smiling gently, I listened to his voice as I checked my phone for the time. It was then that I realized our movie was starting fairly soon. He and I had talked for over an hour now. The funny part was, there wasn't even a specific topic we spoke about. We always touch on every subject, even the tough ones. Always in depth and interesting.

And never a dull moment.

"Hon, I'd love to continue this conversation, but our movie is starting soon," I said, grabbing his hand and pulling him up onto his feet.

We quietly moved into the theater, finding the best seats possible. My opinion of the best seats is the middle, but I prefer sitting off to the side, so I can prop my feet up and sit by myself. Shiroe sat his hand on my knee, gently massaging it throughout the opening credits. The two of us would idly chat about a movie that looked good from the trailer, but overall we were very silent.

It was a good feature all together. The romance wasn't piled on too heavy like I expected it to be. The couple still ended up together, with only a few minor heartbreaks in between. The entire time I felt Shiroe's hand lace between my own and squeeze. It was the perfect way to watch a movie.

"This would've been a good movie to see on Valentine's day," I said as we got up from our seats and the lights came back on.

Everyone piled out of the theater a few minutes later, but he and I stayed to chat while the credits rolled. We usually did this after every movie, just in case there was a bonus feature at the end. That, and we just liked to chat about the ending.

He pulled me along down the hallway and back outside, hearing the familiar rush of traffic. He offered to walk me home, and I was insistent on the idea. In fact, I wanted to continue the date but didn't know how to ask. Of course, I could just come right out and say it but... this time felt strangely difficult.

It could have been the sappy movie we had just watched, but I was feeling oddly nervous around him.

The two of us walked down the pavement, hand in hand. He asked me how I liked the movie, going on about how much I cried during it. He teased me over and over again, enjoying how my face flushed a deep red. "I didn't cry that much," I said, trying to defend myself. Shiroe laughed, raising his eyebrows.

"You sure about that? Because I distinctly remember hearing a few sobs to my left."

"That had to be someone else. It wasn't me."

"Mhmm... Okay."

He squeezed my hand, smiling down at me. I felt my cheeks burning with every second that passed. He was too adorable for words. This date was perfect, and I couldn't imagine it getting any better. Although, my heart sunk when we finally reached my apartment. Shiroe let go of my hand, reaching to open the door for me.

"Thanks for today," I said with a grin, "I had fun as always."

"Me too. But do you have to go?"

"I... uh... are you asking me if you can come up?" I asked, answering his question with another question.

Shiroe chuckled, nodding his head.

"Yes."

"Well, then," I said, a smirk forming on my lips, "Come on up."

I opened the door, motioning with my head for him to follow. Shiroe continued to chuckle at me, reaching for my hand once again. He pushed open the door for me, holding it and letting me pass through. The two of us headed upstairs, hand in hand, continuing our chat as we made our way to my apartment.