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[stayreal69-blog1]

I had 3 hours to type this, do you have 10 mins to read it?

Ok so this started as a text message to my mom, about something completely unrelated and with a totally different end point in mind. About half way through the first section I said fuck it, I've been meaning to start a blog, I've been writing shit that gets ignored on FB by "people I may know," because they see my posts and think, "Nope, fuck that. Too many words." So why not get ignored by the world? For the same reason? At least maybe if I make it accessible 7 billion people, 7 of them may read it? Or not. I don't really give a shit anymore, if I'm being honest. Ok this into has gotta outta hand so imma just paste this shit I wrote about emotions, right under this shit, about my shit, about emotions. Ready? 3...2..fuck it. Just read.

My theory is...love and happiness are the only two true human nature feelings. The only true feelings like, close your eyes say "hello" without moving moving your mouth, completely in your head. That voice you heard say "hello", like those feelings, that everyone one has when there born. I think of that "voice" as the voice of the literal driving force of our pysiscal forms. Some call it the soul, some call it the spirit; I call it the mind. I could dive deeper into that at some point but for the sake of this is probably going to be long as fuck already, and its a bit of a touchy subject for some, I'll just continue with what I started on. Those two emotions are some how...hell I don't know exactly, I'm a thinker, not a doctor (yet🤔😷) are hard wired to the Heart, I refer to them as "Heart Emotions." Other emotions are absorbed through observation and hard wired into the brain as things we observe are. These emotions include, but not limited to, anger, sadness, and maybe even fear, that one is debatable...I'll save that one for part 2 though(?)🤔I refer to these as "brain emotions."

Love and happiness are the only two emotions a fully functioning human mind is born with, period. But all the rest of the emotions (mind emotions) are picked up through observation for everyone, that's why the majority of people (I'll use the word "guppy" for sakes of labeling without and adjective because fuck adjective labels, for this group of people) basically keep to themselves, mind their business, and do their thing. Sure guppies still get mad at things, they still get upset, and they still can have "hate" rooted in emotion, but they express their emotional responses in private where the least amount of people possible are effected, for the most part, because after all is said and done their natural emotions will overpower the observational based mind emotions. Their human nature is to love but they have been taught to get angry, or whatever the case my be, so they naturally, can not bring themselves to harming anyone on purpose, whether that is psysical or emotional or whatever. When a guppy has a connection to something through both mind and heart emotions, they respond irrationally. All emotional responses are natural, its the specific emotion that it's attached to the determines the level of irrationality of said response. After all is said and done, a purely natural emotion will overpower one that's absorbed from the outside. There's a small percentage of people (I'll use tangs for these folks non-adjective label because remember 🖕adjective label) that seem to have something a little off in their mind, do crazy shit, right? I think that "thing" may be, they were born, mind emotion in their brain. (That's not redundant) That's why when those emotions are triggered they have radically irrational reactions, due to the irrational emotional response. What I mean by is purposely bringing pysiscal harm to someone that isn't trying to bring pysiscal harm to you. Both guppies and tangs vary in how much influence any emotion has on them, some people get worse colds🤒 than others, but at the end of the day natural-born emotions will overpower absorbed emotions. That's just how it is for humans in this universe (or dimension, or maybe just this planet) there's not much we can do about it. It's been the case since the beginning of time. When I look into REAL world history, it seems to me like as the access to information increased, the senseless violence and cruel shit people do to others, increases as well. It only makes sense, eventually a tang would come into some position of notarity that alot of people would listen to and believe(king, politician, mom; are all, but not all of, the examples of positions of notarity) because why wouldn't they? Its natural to take what the people we love to heart right? That's one of the irrational responses to the heart emotion love. 💥 Boom! (another topics for a different time) The result? More and more guppies absorb those mind emotions, natural only to tangs, through the expression of the irrational responses caused by them. Mostly during the adolescent years, but usually hold influence their entire lives. So if your still with me here maybe you're willing to hang with me for the summary in form of a fictional example of the spread of a mind emotion from the beginning of humanity until today, short form.

Ok so, right after the caveman days, every person alive were guppies. One day the first tang is born with the mind emotion anger. The tang is like all the guppies except his response to negative stimuli is irrational and much different than how the other guppies would respond to the same stimuli. But he doesn't bring harm to anyone because he hasn't encountered something impactful enough on the anger to cause a radical reaction. He grows up and becomes the head of the village, all the children look up to the leader, they love him, they absorb his angry responses and mimic them. They mimic them so much it becomes 2nd natural. Kinda like muscle memory. Anger in expressed in the original tang fashion would be passed on and on, for a while, mostly parent guppy to baby guppy for a while, humanity advances to a point where there are now tons of guppies in the world and a few tangs. But almost all the guppies have absorbed tang natural emotions. The start of all tang influences could all be traced back to a few individual tangs at some point but for the most part the emotion is absorbed by a guppy through observation of a guppy. Of course through time the mimiced responses may change but they're nothing serious. Then newspapers start becoming popular, a tang gets a job as a reporter. He's a great reporter and lots of people read his work, maybe even have a love for his writings. One day he's out on a farm, you know reporting on some shit. He's irritable from the time he got there. Things happen that make him more and more angry but for the sake of keeping his job he holds it in, until he gets bitten by a horse and absolutely loses it. I mean goes ape shit. Looses his fucking mind!! He makes a negative emotional connection to that horse. He hates that fucking horse. As a matter of fact he hates all fucking horses. He's going to go write in the news paper about how horses suck...all the time. He starts to even talk about how all horses should be killed. Total horse extinction. He may loose some his followers here, because who doesn't love horses? But a few guppies stick with him because they've had negative experience with horses so they're also on the "fuck horses" agenda, but maybe not all horses, just the horse that pissed them off. The "fuck (this) horse" agenda gets pretty popular and grows through over time. Then one day another tang comes along, catches wind of the "fuck horses" campaign and remembers when he was 8 years old his horse kick him in the face, fucking his shit all up. He's had this seething hatred for horses the whole time since then but now he see other people feel the same way. So what does he do? He goes on a horse head chopping spree with a machete because that's radical irrational emotional reaction, caused by his irrational emotional response to stepping in horse shit a few days after hearing about the "fuck horses" campaign. 🤔

But that's just my theory. Its probably all just bullshit. 😂✋🐴

[cleannation2018-blog]

I have been crazy busy. Im hoping to have the website OPEN by wed of next week. Here is the suit Ive been working on as solace.

  Cleannation

Address Sealed

          Plaintiff

                                                          Case #:    ______________    

              v.

All Retail to including grocery stores, corner stores, gas stations, department stores and Fast Food chains,  Restaurants

A few have been listed below but the list is not exhaustive

USA (Nation Wide)

McDonald's Wendy's Subway Taco BellChop't Chipotle Burger KingDominoes Papa Johns Pizza Hut Five Guys IHOP Ruby Tuesday's Golden Corral Panera Bread Chinese Restaurants Dunkin Donuts Starbucks Outback SteakHouse

           Chilis

           California Tortilla

           Quiznos

           Qdoba

           Moes Southwest Grill

           Popeyes

           KFC

           Sushi Places

           Tony's Pizza

           Clydes

           Walmart

           Target

           CVS

           Rite Aide

           Gas stations

           7 Eleven

                                            COMPLAINT

PLAINTIFF, cleanantion , comes this day, JUNE 20 , pro se, and for the reasons and causes for his Complaint, states as follows:

                       COUNT I, II, III, IV, VII, VI, VII,VIII and :  Criminal Harassment, Cyber Harassment, Fraud, Intentional Emotional Distress,  Defamation of Character, Conspiracy and Attempted Murder.

          1. Plaintiff, Tania Jenkins is a consumer much like every person residing in the USA. On the Earth eating drinking and being merry has become an unspoken thread that is necessity to sustain every human life. It just so happens to also be intricately tied to USA traditions and celebrations. You take the point of living if you take food. Which is a loaded thought. Noone thinks about the things that makes the world spin that makes us as humans GO. That is the sun in our days. The moon in our nights. It is quite astounding that government, a system that in its fabric states its purpose, has cohesively put together a number of people who thought something so important as food something so vital irreplaceable and unforgettable as food could be not treated with the authority it requires. It's equal to a natural resource. Some people may be confused as to what I mean. Just left a grocery store. Plentiful. Just left a McDonalds. Tasty. But the issue is not resources  or the amount of product. It is the functionality of these products. The usability. Imagine having  grocery stores full of contaminated product. 10 percent. 20 percent. One percent. And have no idea where to look or begin. A victim waiting to happen and its 100 percent avoidable.  And it's not dust dirt or Lint. Its HIV. And The government has made it federal law that we not question the food in our Mouths, who we are buying this food from when we should be. They have made it illegal to ask if your food is being served or prepared by an HIV person, In fact. if the resident of the USA are anything like me they had no idea until 12 months ago there are HIV positive people handling your food. Your burgers your fries your milkshake. Your pizza and it's not always by clean hands or smiling faces. And who can really trust a smiling face?  

      2. The information surrounding HIV is partly fact mixed with fiction mixed with fantasy land so much so that it leaves a person confused about how much they are at risk if they buy a milkshake. A pizza during a state of emergency--HIV people are on defense in attack mode and they are employed everywhere (hospitals police retail restaurants FBI computers cell phone companies and GPS). Or at rest. Which is probably most of the world right now. They have no idea their food is no longer A FREE CHOICE, A guilty pleasure that comes with no consequences outside a few extra calories.  As of right now its become a matter of life or death. It has surpassed guilty pleasure its comfortably sitting  at give the whole world HIV. It takes food, all together. According to statistics HIV dies when it hits the air. Which I'm nearly certain is not correct. I shared this with my CLEANNATION followers. But it is what makes me concerned. If a man has ejaculated and he has semen sitting on his head and then a woman proceeds to give oral sex and swallowed she more than likely has it right? The semen has been sitting on the head of his penis which is sitting in air.  It would disprove a widely acknowledged theory that is putting billions of people at RISK. HIV to my acknowledge produces a smell, a very foul odor that identifies most positive people  to anyone paying attention but it has also been brought to my attention you can mask the scent either with good medication or a lot of showers. I am still not sure which or if its both that helps mask the odor. And it works for a long period of time which is scary because you have to assume that if an HIV person has HIV and noone smells the scent meant to identify them they can contaminate food or the the biggest concern be hired and not be identified and contaminate food and not be identified. Noone is watching these people. This is just to present this information without BIAS but as a clean person. Even if they disproved MY THEORY that its incorrect that infected semen or vaginal fluid is dead when it hits the air. I personally wouldn't want a rat anywhere in my HOUSE let alone in my kitchen and im not attempting to be mean but there is a smell and is a contagious disease in someone vagina or penis. They become weapons. There is actually a law that should have tipped people off  they have to keep places that handle food clean. Businesses close due to unsanitary conditions. I'm just really surprised. . AIDS  Is commonly known as  a sexually transmitted disease. We cross into inhumane and cruel if we entertain catching AIDS via food and all these companies agreed to it. I believe cruel and inhumane punishment is written somewhere on something as illegal ad prohibited. Food is AIR. There is no way around it. Sex can be taken from people and we would LIVE AND enjoy a full life.  It's a choice.

      3.I started Cleannation in March when I noticed that everywhere I went the products has Hiv WIPED on them and servers and cooks were identified by the smell. I walked out but my first thought was WTF is going on? Did they pay  these people to scare me?  Or is this the World? This cant be the world. The USA is great because of the freedom of CHOICE. The moment you tell people your food choices are limited because WE employ HIV positive people you take life over night. Happiness. Comfort. Christmas. Thanksgiving. New Years. Birthdays. Air. And im a thick girl. I love food. 12 midnight Ben and Jerry's. I haven't touched ice cream in probably a year. I'm not even eating real food outside of a properly sealed sandwich now and again from Walgreens. And even that im living on a prayer. I don't know where they get them from. But to give you proof the THREAT is enough to scare people into conformity. How does a bag of chips and tea  sound next to a burger a salad from chopt? Horrible. But I've been making it work. Just imagine I suffered to avoid the threat of HIV only to catch it. The government  firstly not telling us food is now a weapons secondly not being on our side when we call the cops OR when you wrote the law  and thirdly making us suffer at all and for such a long period of time when its written on our bricks that you get the life your worked for and FOOD is free. In every sense of the world.

          4.  Bigger chains like CVS 7 Eleven Walmart  Target might be able to handle an increase of refunds, damaged products or loss profit but other smaller probably will not be able to. But the retail stores have started making consumers responsible for tainted products via receipts. I don't usually keep receipts because I'm thinking I'm about to eat this so they caught me the first few months. No receipt. But some stores if you return more than two products they start refusing exchanges or refunds. To avoid hassle I sometimes just throw items away and don't seek a refund but that's probably coming to a close because my funds are limited. Smaller stores have an argument but I am one person much like alot of people. I don't have money to replace my grocery bill. or 20 30 percent of it. And I will appease some of is a heightened fear but most of it is a contaminated product or seal.So at this point the government has created it's own problem and is making everyone else responsible for it.

          5. I originally was thinking we as the USA can take the president by force. But obviously those kind of things take time. And Ive been suffering for the past 3 months. In order to speed up whatever process there is involving creating law to remove HIV positive people from employment I'm thinking I can do both. Pursue a class action suit and put other things in place to ensure that everything is tied up at both ends. I imagine there will be push back from HIV positive people so there has to be some kind of plan that benefits both parties.

           6.  I wanted to explain my claims although I think most is self explanatory.

COUNT I, II, III, IV, VII, VI, VII,VIII and :  Criminal Harassment, Cyber Harassment, Fraud, Intentional Emotional Distress,  Defamation of Character, Conspiracy and Attempted Murder.

It is alarming that more than likely HIV positive people have targeted jobs in vital fields such as food (retail restaurants farms), health care field (hospitals etc) , law enforcement  (FBI, police)and the technology field (computer, cell phone, GPS) because they want to ensure their place in the world. Unfortunately they have misclassifieds this disease as trivial it's actually quite deadly and unfortunately isolating due to its side affects. There are criminals everywhere and the government has put words in people's mouth and entrusted strangers with our AIR. With our food. I don't trust most people walking down the street. It was negligent to trust people with weapons with our food. You could probably drive yourself crazy with the what ifs. I'm sure most people don't know this life. All this for a burger? A milkshake? An Ice cream cone? But the even more alarming thing is most clean people will have a reaction to the smell but an emotional reaction to being tricked. So you get upset people about their food, their clothes and then HIV positive get upset and it becomes this person said something about HIV people. and its a long line of criminals. cell phone, internet, GPS, police, doctors phlebotomist and then retail. It becomes criminal harassment by functionality alone but im sure there are cases where it was exactly planned. How does a 5 star restaurant explain to a rich person an HIV person serving their food? Immediately, I'm thinking Joke. and then call the police. So you created blackmail on this person who doesn't eat anything less than a 100 plate of food? It just sounds crazy. What keeps me away from food is I keep  saying is that it only takes one bite one sip one plate of food. And we all know the food that is a no no right now. But having AIDS is a dead man walking. It becomes attempted murder and murder.

Relief:

Remove all HIV people from employment immediately with 12 month severance pay.

Food is free until HIV positive people are removed--Food Stamps set monthly amount

Penalties for ALL new HIV CASES via food starting march 01, 2018 ��Stricter consequences

All stores, retail restaurants and department stores replace all equipment up to new facilities after HIV people are removed

I'm debating whether I should do this now or later. But Ive realized two problems with having HIV live in the same state well known people and a big problem is tainted products. So this is rough draft. Pick one state and have ALL HIV people more them there OR Security on the doors.

I want to write the LAW rules and policies regarding food handling and employees entering and exiting the building.  camera and security handling.

I’ve noticed while at the bus stop near a sewer the water stinks. I would like to have the water cleaned or sanitized. surrounding the USA or large bodies of  water.

Create he same stores with WHITE lettering for HIV positive people Hire HIV positive people but they cannot work in places that distribute food.

HIV TEST every 3 months FOR usa workers identify HIV positive people with a tiny red star on their left cheek red ids

2 YEAR CAMERA RUN BACK OF ALL COMPANIES STORES FAST FOOD PLACES AND GROCERY STORES

IDENTIFY AND PAY VICTIMS

AN APPROVED seal MUST GO ON ALL PRODUCTS at the extra 5 to 15 cents of the consumer

Remember a roughdraft. But ideas.

                                                           Respectfully submitted,

                                             Cleannation