#i emailed support but i havent heard back and honestly i have no hope if they were deleted by tumblr for some goddamn reason

[debestest]

has anyone else had tumblr just randomly delete their side blogs. im still mad about it

[tommyquackson]

Not Working | p. parker | part 4

Not My Gif

summary: you and peter are together but maybe it’s just not working anymore

warnings: angst, depression, fluff cussing i think?

note: this was the final chapter and i loved this series. thank you guys for supporting it and showing it love. Make sure you request and read my other fics. ok love y’all enjoy!!!

this is Midway School of Science and Technology calling to inform you, you’ve missed 13 consecutive school days and if you miss 2 more you’ll be at risk of failing your courses and we will have to send police over to do a wellness check. We hope to see you in school tomorrow. Have a great day

So it’s been 13 days. You haven’t left your house in 13 fucking days. You’re beginning to smell yourself, you haven’t bathed or showered since the night everything went down. You just lay in bed, watching whatever black and white shows playing on MeTV at the time. You only eat about once a day, when reciting old life insurance commercials begins to hurt your brain. Your phone died a long time ago and you’re just now listening to the messages in your home phone.

You click delete on the message and let the next one play.

hey y/n, uh it’s Brad. Look i know you hate me but you haven’t been at school and nobodies heard from you so I just wanna make sure you’re okay. I do care about you and i wanted to say-

you roll your eyes and click delete again.

hey honey! Aunt May here, just wanted to let you know me and peter are safe and back home. I’d love for you to come over and have dinner on thursday, and don’t worry Peters visiting Tony so he won’t be here. Call me back or just show up okay hon. Love you bye.

Your hand dangled over the delete button before you sighed deeply. May never did anything to you, but how were you gonna pull it together enough to get to her. You were exhausted all the time, even if you never do anything. You looked at the time and date on your home phone and realized it’s Wednesday. You sigh deeply and pick up your home phone to call May. 

ring ring ring

“Y/n! Hey honey, how are you?” Mays voice sings through the phone and for a moment the world seems a little brighter. 

“Hey May,” You croak out, you havent spoken in almost 2 weeks and your throat hurts. “I’m not doing well May, everything hurts and I cant even get out of bed. I cant go to school, or eat or sleep or shower May I hate this. I hate it.” Your already raspy voice breaks into sobs and you wonder if she can even understand what youre saying. 

“I’m on my way y/n, its gonna be okay. I love you and I’ll see you in 10 minutes.” May speaks strongly before hanging up the phone. You do nothing but change pajamas and grab a bag of chips before moving back into your bed and wait for May. 

It’s not long before May is knocking and slowly opening your front door. 

She looks at you with tears in her eyes before walking over and oulling you into a hug. It feels weird to have human contact but you dont pull away, just allow her to cuddle you. 

“Lets get you a bath, I’ll help you wash your hair.” She smiles lightly before pulling you up and towards the bathroom.

 You sit on the toilet while she gets the water and bubbles ready. Once its ready she turns away while you strip down and step in, letting your body sink into the hot water and lavendar bubbles. She immediately picks up water in a cup and pours it over your head, careful to not let it spill in your eyes, shes treating you like a mother treats an infant but you dont have the capacity to stop her. You sit in silence for a while as she brushes through the mats in your hair until you decide to speak up. 

“May? Does he love me?” You croak out

She chuckles lightly before answering. 

“When I first met Ben, I knew right away I loved him. He swept me away without knowing it. It was instant love, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. The way he looked at me made the world disappear and I knew it was the kind of love they write books about. The kind of love that turns rainy days from gloomy to comfy, turns blistering heat into warmth and fun, Ben turned everything into a fairytale effortlessly. 

When you and Peter were in the 7th grade, and we threw him the birthday party, that youd planned most of, I remember looking at Ben and he was looking at me with the fairytale look. Ya know the one all the hot actors do in movies. Anyway, he was giving me that look and when I turned my head and watched you give Peter his present, I saw him give you the look, and you gave it right back it was precious. After that, everyday I saw you standing with Peter, he looked at you with the fairytale look, When he talks about you its with the same adoration he talks about Ben. 

There is no doubt in my mind Peter loves you with every bone in his super body, y/n. You’re young and he can be a bit niave sometimes but he loves you unconditionally honey. You love him more than he loves you and he loves you more than you love him.” She stops brushing my hair and without a word begins washing my body with bodywash. I didnt even realize I had started crying until I saw a tear fall into the tub.

“I love him May. I feel like I need him to breathe, to live. I just dont understand how he could choose her over me.” 

“Because hes a teenage boy and sometimes he doesnt think about what hw has, hes just like his uncle ben i’ll tell you that. You need to talk to him, maybe not now but soon, you need to tell him everything in your brain until its empty and your throat hurts from talking, and he will listen until his ears are sore from listening and his head hurts from understanding. Now, come get dressed and I’ll order us some pizza” May shakes her hands and drys them while handing you a fluffy towel. 

She spends the rest of the night, telling you about this season of the Bachelorette while she helps you clean and do laundry. 

“Thank you May.” You hug her as she grabs her purse to leave. 

“Anything for you baby,” She kisses your head and wavees goodbye. You take a deep breathe and walkback to your room, plugging in your phone to charge. 

After a few minutes it turns back on and slowly notifications start coming in, texts and calls and emails and dms from people and your old friends. You clear them all and head for you contacts, you find Peters name and decide to text instead of call. 

                                         peter

                                                                                                                    Hey

                                                                                                Can you come over?

hey, is everything okay? 

                                                           I need to talk to you

Of course, I’m on my way.

You sigh and begin writing down everything you need to talk about, until you hear a knock on your window. You shakily stand up move towards your window, opening it and taking a step back.

“Hi” Peter whispers with his hands in his pockets.

“Hi” You whisper back.

“What’d you uh wanna talk about” Peter asks, slowly bouncing on the ball of his feet.

“Uh okay, um please sit. So um, as you probably know i haven’t been to school in a minute and uh that’s because ive been laying in my bed depressed and confused. May come over today and she helped a lot and she convinced me to talk to you about everything and that’s what i’m doing so I just need you to listen to everything in gonna spill out and i’m gonna do my best to make everything make as much sense as possible.” You look to Peter for confirmation and continue when he nods quickly.

“Okay uh first, I wanna say I’m sorry, for everything. For Brad, for ignoring you and yelling at you and for being a shitty friend. You were right about Brad and i’m sorry I didn’t listen to you, I just wanted so bad to be wanted ya know? I was feeling so insecure about you loving me that I ran to the first person that showed interest in me. I’m also sorry i basically ditched you guys for him, i just couldn’t look at any of you without feeling nearly sick. But i miss my best friends and I miss you Peter.

I’ve known since we were children that you were special to me. I always assumed it was one sided because I’d seen you go after other girls so i felt like there was no way you could ever love me as much as i love you, but I know now that you do, or did or do i don’t know but I do know that for me, you’re everything I need. We’re soulmates Pete, I can feel it. I feel deep in my heart that the universe made us just to be together and being without you would be to deny the universe herself and who am i? I need you so much when you aren’t around me i can barely breathe and a part of me is missing. I love you unconditionally and I always have.

What you did with Mj killed me, shattered my heart because I felt like once again, you chose her over me, your bestfriend and girlfriend and I hated that feeling each time I got it. The night i broke up with you I cried until my head hurt to much to stay awake, i felt stupid for thinking you wanted me more than her and I understood it. I looked at Mj and it felt like a no brained to pick her but it still never felt right. I know you didn’t mean it and we’re still so young peter. We’re basically kids trying to form a life long relationship and we don’t know what we’re doing. I don’t know how or what i’m going to do but I wanna be with you peter. I would have to take it slow of course but that’s where i’m at with us. So um yea.” You let out a sigh of relief of getting everything off your chest. You look away from Peter and wipe the tears that had fallen during your mini speech.

“I love you. I do. So much. Ever since our breakup i’ve been planning and wondering how to get you back. I felt lost without you and I never wanted you to feel less than. You’re perfect in every way y/n. You’re my oxygen and MJ is honestly just a friend. She could never make me feel the way you make me feel. We’ve got May and Ben type of love babe I swear we do. It was a stupid mistake but of you give me another chance I promise I will spend the rest of my life proving to you you mean the world to me and i will choose you again and again. I love you y/n and i want you to always know that.” Peter speaks through tears as he pulls your body close to his. He whispers how much he loves you against your temple as you break down and sob into his chest.

“Can you stay the night?” You whisper up at him.

“Will you let me take you out? Friday?” He looks hopefully at you. You smile lightly and bite your lip.

“Yes.”

“Then yes. I’ll stay with you” He kisses your forehead once more, before pulling you both under the covers to cuddle into you fall asleep to the beat of peters heart.

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[conorpmaynard]

All Started With a Song Part 6// Conor Maynard

Word Count- 1559

Summary- conor sees your cover and contacts you

A/n- (feel free to change the friends name I was just too lazy to write y/f/n that may times) ahhhhhh! its finally up! i hope you like it. im sorry it took soo long, but i promise its worth the wait. i have the next few parts planned out but havent written them yet. part 7 will def be up tomorrow and maybe 8. hope you enjoy. (also sorry if your name is sabrina)

~~

“What?” you laughed, half scared about what they were going to say.

“He needs to be taught a lesson,” Alice said simply.              

“And how do you plan on teaching him this lesson?” you asked. “He’s famous!”

“Oh honey,” Olivia put her hand on your cheek. “Do you know who your best friends are?”

“Apparently not,” you scoffed.

~~

You were right. You had no idea what they could do. They had sent the video of you singing to both Anth and Alex Aiono.

They were determined to get payback on Conor. And you wanted to tell them to stop, that he didn’t deserve it. But every time you went to defend him, the image of him wrapping his arm around the unknown girl would pop up in your head.

You understood the likelihood of you getting with Conor was rather slim, or even nonexistent. But he had contacted you. He was the one interested in singing with you. So why did he blow it off like it was nothing?

So you sat there, hanging out with the girls and not feeling bad about what you were doing. Part of you knew neither of them would reply so didn’t feel that bad.

You had ordered pizza and decided to watch a few movies. You weren’t that into the current movie, so you relied on your phone to keep you detracted.

You were scrolling through stories on SnapChat when you realized something.

“He unadded me,” you said flatly.

“What?” they asked in unison.

“Conor. He unadded me on SnapChat.”

“Why?”

You gave Alice a look that said ‘how do you expect me to know.’

“Check Instagram,” Olivia suggested.

You opened the app and went to Conor’s page. You clicked on who he’s following and started to type in your Instagram name.

No users found.

You assumed they could read your facial expression because Alice then yelled, “That fucking asshole!”

You turned off your phone and tried to watch the movie. But Olivia paused it.

“Are you not mad?” she asked.

You sighed, “If he doesn’t want to work with me, then fine. I don’t care, honestly.” You said, looking at your best friend.

“But he’s being an ass, you shouldn’t let him treat you like this.” Alice insisted.

“Please just drop it,” you did not want to cry over a dumb guy.

“Fine,” Olivia said playing the movie. “Just don’t know why you’re letting him play you like this.”

You stood up, annoyed. These girls were supposed to be your best friends yet here they were, trying to make you sad.

“You think I’m letting him play me???” you said, voice rising. “I’m not letting him do anything! He’s just doing it! How do you think it felt to see him have no guilt as he stood next to the girl he so clearly fucked the night before?!! Huh?? How do you think that feels? Would YOU want to talk about it? I didn’t think so! Okay? I’m pissed, and angry and upset and frustrated and mad and sad and confused and I don’t know what to fucking do about it! But I know that I DON’T want to talk about it right now!” you screamed at them, not caring that they were taken aback. You gulped in a huge breathe.

“Y/n…”

“I’M NOT FINSIHED!” you belted. “I don’t want to relive that moment again. Ever. I am done talking about him. I don’t want to hear his name very again. Okay? I’m going to go take a shower and cool off, I suggest you two leave. Please,” you sighed and walked off to your bathroom.

You immediately regretted it, because now your throat hurt. You didn’t regret yelling, because you really could not stand hearing about him for one more second. Sometimes you have to scream to get your point across.

~~

When you got out of the shower, the girls were gone. You felt somewhat bad, but in the end you just couldn’t bring yourself to give a fuck. You were stood up and it hurt, you needed time to heal before you could talk about it. They didn’t understand that.

You were snuggled up in bed with your laptop sat on your legs. It was playing an episode of Criminal Minds, and you were rather intrigued with the plot.

So when your phone buzzed you were slightly annoyed. You paused the show and picked up your phone. Olivia was calling you.

You answered, “Hello.”

“I know I’m the last person you want to talk to right now, but Anth’s manager messaged me back. I can forward it to you, if you’d like,” she was very hesitant and it broke your heart.

“I’d much rather you show me person,” you smiled even though she couldn’t see.

“Really?”

“Yes, apologies are useless over the phone.”

“We’ll be there in 10!” she squealed and hung up.

~~

About 15 minutes later you heard knocking at the door. You opened the door and there stood Olivia ad Alice.

You flung yourself into Olivia’s arms, “I’m so so sorry Liv. I didn’t mean to get so mad. I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry too babe!” you were both crying, clinging to each other for support. When you separated you engulfed Alice into a hug as well.

“I’m sorry Al.”

“Me too Y/n/n.”

“Okay, okay. Tell me what Anth said!” you squealed, following the girls to your couch.

“It was his manager. Here’s the email,” she handed you her laptop.

To: y/f/n/y/l/n@gmail.com

Hello Y/n! This is Anth’s manager. I sent him the video of you singing and he loved it! However, he is currently in LA for a project. If you’re still willing to do the collaboration, let me know and we can book a flight for you!

Have a great day,

           Sabrina Adams

“Holy shit,” you gasped.

“You’re going to LA!” Olivia shrieked.

“Help me reply!” you smiled.

This is what you ended up sending:

Hi Sabrina,

I am so willing to come to LA to sing with Anth! Would it be possible for me to bring 2 friends? If not, that’s okay. If you could please send me the information for my flight that would be great. See you soon :)

Thank you,

           Y/n Y/l/n

She replied about 2 hours later. She said you were allowed to bring friends. But you decided you were going to surprise Alice and Olivia.

~~

The next few days were filled with you and Sabrina planning the trip to LA. The plan was for you three to arrive in LA on Friday. Then you and Anth would film the video on Saturday. Then you could spend Sunday and Monday exploring, heading back home Tuesday morning.

Making sure Olivia and Alice didn’t make plans and not ruining the surprise was harder than you thought. They were getting frustrated that you kept interrupting their lives. You felt bad, but you knew the surprise was worth it.

It was currently noon on Wednesday, and you invited them both over so you could tell them the good news.

“So how are you girls?” you asked, grabbing a handful of popcorn.

“Really good! Sean and I talked about getting a puppy,” Olivia said, wiggling her eyes as she sipped her drink.

“That’s great!” Alice smiled, patting Olivia’s leg.

“How about you Alice? Any boys catching your eyes?” You ask. Everyone knew Alice wasn’t over your brother, that she was determined to wait. But he hadn’t contacted her since he left for Australia about 7 months ago. You had talked to Brandon about it.

“She’s hurt Brandon,” you sighed.

“So am I Y/n!” The sadness surrounding him as evident, even through the phone.

“Why are you ignoring her?” you asked, staring out the window of your apartment.

“Because I love her…” he trailed off.

“That doesn’t make sense. You don’t ignore the ones you love.”

“I can’t go a year without her, it will hurt too much. I need to break it off, but I can’t,” he sighed. “I don’t know what to do.”

“If you love her, it will all work out. But please don’t mope around Australia for a year,” you laughed.

“Thanks for the help,” he laughed as well. “I miss you so much y/n.”

“Miss you too big bro.”

A week later they ended their relationship.

“No,” she stared at the ground.

“Have you tried?” Olivia asked.

“No,” she repeated.

“Alice…” you dragged on.

“Please, you don’t want to talk about Conor and I don’t want to talk about Brandon. Okay?”

“Okay, I understand.”

“Thank you Y/n.”

You stood up, trying to hide the smile on your face.

“I have something to tell you guys.”

“What is it?” Alice asked, confusion written on both of their faces.

“Okay, so you know how I’m going to LA on Friday?”

“What about it?” Olivia asked.

“Well, pack your bags because you guys are coming with me!!” you squealed, jumping up and down.

“What?!” Alice jumped up.

“We’re going to LA? Together?” Olivia asked.

“YES!” you smiled, she jumped up and hugged you.

“Oh my god! We have to pack!”

“Yes, because I want you guys to spend the night here tomorrow so we can leave early on Friday.”

“How early?”

“Like 3 in the morning early.”

“That’s insane, but hey, were going to LA!” Olivia shouted.

“We’re going to LA!” you laughed.