#i drew a buncha them and didn't post most of them

[frutavel]

I have a dream I hope will come true That you're here with me And I'm here with you I wish that the earth, sea and the sky up above Will send me someone to lava

Bigboy Yaca is mine, Taya belongs to @atu-and-zuni <3

[palmtreehero]

Yuka!! I know you're taking a break from everything, and it's very much deserved, but I hope that my support can reach you!!

For a while, I felt like I was always alone in how I viewed shuake/akeshu. To me, the way people portrayed/characterized Akechi and the protagonist depends on which ship name they used, regardless if the work is sfw. I prefer the protagonist out of the two, so I also have a preference on how he is characterized, and I found that I just prefer how those who favor akeshu see him.

Sometimes I thought I was weird because of how I saw things, seeing people talk about how akeshu like it was just a sexual dynamic when it didn't feel like that to me at all! Though I figured that at the end of the day, akeshu are just fictional characters, and if I didn't like how people drew/wrote/saw them I can always just look away.

But it made me extremely happy and relieved when you talked about them in your post!! Reading it, it was like you read my mind. I'm not sure how to clearly explain it, just that it made me feel happy and understood!

Anyway, I'm sorry to ramble but I just wanted to let you know that I love your art so much and that I'm sorry about all the negativity you had to experience. I'll work hard to make akeshu works that Yuka and everyone can enjoy, and when you decide to come back, I hope we can continue to enjoy Akeshu freely together<3

invi thank you so much for your message..!

It really means a lot to me, and I'm sorry to have kept it in my inbox for so long without replying. Please know I've reread it every time and it made me feel validated too!

Gonna put a read more because I'm gonna yap

What you've described is exactly how I identify the things I like/don't like, and honestly that's incredible how accurate you put it.

Like I said in all my other posts, having the distinction between the two sides helps with formulating what you vibe with and don't vibe with. I always start off as switch so when I'm first getting into a ship I'm just eating everything until I start getting stomachaches from one side's food and that's how I develop what I call an "allergy".

That's honestly what happened to me and why I prefer akeshu now. I've been surrounded by reverse lane since 2017 but I never took an interest at that time because it wasn't my flavor, so I'm really happy now I've found my favorite food and other people who also like it too!

You're right, at the end of the day it's just your preference and you don't have to like everything… I'm sure there are many people from the other lane and even in akeshu lane that don't like my portrayal, and that's totally okay to me because what I'm finding are the people who DO like what I dish out. By just being in this particular lane it helps me narrow down the field

Another food analogy but: imagine a buncha foodies who all love pizza but then they try to find THE BEST PIZZA place and wow all these people who love pizza; all like different shops!? AND they think other shops are ass!? WOW IT'S JUST LIKE SHIPPING FICTIONAL CHARACTERS-

Also to me dynamics doesn't necessarily mean it has to be sexual, but rather my point is that people who do have a preference for sexual dynamic will often portray certain tropes/scenarios that differ in feeling/vibe/flavor. So they tend to write those same characteristics and interpretations into their sfw. Of course, this isn't to say it's always the case, there are incredible people who are able to write so many different flavors of the same characters without letting their biases bleed into their work. It's just, most of the time, people DO have a bias and it's clear as day when viewing fanwork imo…!

What I find weird is that people ask "what's the big deal aren't they the same thing" or "YOU'RE WEIRD for making it different" It was thanks to a follower who told me something along the lines of "EN fandom having original ship names instead of adopting 100% JP ship names would help"

They basically explained that there's a phenomenon in the EN fandom where people get weirded out by the distinction; which is strange because these names HAVE CONTEXT. So why doesn't EN fandom just make a whole new tag/ship name? It made me wonder truly what EN fans even thought "主/shu" was, what is "主/shu" supposed to mean in English?

I thought this made a lot of sense and wasn't something I thought of at all until they pointed it out, and it absolutely is strange to me that this happened with this fandom in particular. I've been in fandoms where there are original ship names, for example when I was into voltron people called the ship with lance/keith as just "klance" without caring for the dynamic, but maybe it's because it's a western franchise to begin with. Although there are other cases like how in pokemon "ferriswheel shipping" was used for the protagonist + N. Idk. JP does this too where they make their own general tag or even platonic tag, an example I can think of is in toukenranbu あんみつ is used for kashuu + yasusada.

I just think it's so weird how people get their panties twisted about dynamics and names when they're the ones using 1:1 JP ship names that have a dynamic (and t/b) context LOL but ahh well, what can you do~ I'm just trying to educate that people should just respect people who DO have a preference and not that they have to understand WHY there's even a preference.

Anyways looks like I've rambled too and thank you again for your message. I am so glad that you enjoy my art and thank you for your warm support ;v; I hope we can all make akeshu food to share and enjoy with each other like a potluck..!! I'd love to do that with everyone.