#i dont think becketts trans

[ride-thedragon]

Really well said.

While there is a lack of lgbtq+ representation in historical romance spaces, replacing women, especially woc who are very similarly underrepresented in these spaces, isn't the solution.

Shonda and her team have continued to experiment with aspects of queerness in Bridgerton (Brimsly and Reynolds, even though it isn't a happy ending, showing lavender marriages, now and later on if we get to Gregory's book) and different ways their alternate history impacts their world.

Queer and gender based narratives, both fictional and real, have places throughout history, and there are actual fictional books dedicated to it. Shows like, The Great, Gentleman Jack, and Dickinson play with gender and sexuality. However, this intersection rarely seems to exist with queer narratives and poc ones.

People had to tell you all about the colour purple and the queer relationship in it. New shows like Mary and George focus on a bi man who is the favourite of his king. These narratives do exist. Look for them.

The bridgerton universe has already decided its relationship to queerness and I don't think any one of the Bridgerton siblings will explore it. At best, if we get Bi Michael or Pan Lucy, they still end up with partners of the opposite sex which won't discredit their sexuality but not end with a wlw or mlm relationship.

Right now, we are seeing the development of queer historical narratives told genuinely. Alexander the Great, The Favourite, The buccaneers, I won't go on, but it's such an interesting time when you pay attention, so I urge you too.

We can't depend on one show and one woman who wants to focus on diversity to cover every aspect of diversity, but she is trying. Just don't get weird when it comes to the women she has throughout her career focused on. Shonda Rhimes will write a black woman if there is a black woman to write and do it beautifully. At the end of a of this, the gayest Bridgerton couple still are Lucy and Greg. The world does not end at Bridgerton for fictional historical romance.

Like clockwork, the moment that Sophie is almost surely going to be played by a Black woman there is a sudden uptick in the Sophie should be a man or trans because that would be “true representation” discourse.

Representation for all communities is important(although that’s not what this rally is about), but Sophie Beckett is the last character in Bridgerton who should be gender-bent or made trans since her story is directly tied to her being a working-class biological woman.

It's because she's a woman that her only means of employment is as a maid. It's because she's a woman that she was almost raped by a pack of men. It’s because she’s a biological woman and fears birthing children who will be illegitimate and who may have to go through life as she did that she refuses to be Benedict’s mistress.

You can’t just plop a (white cause that’s what the real issue is) man or a (white) trans woman into her place without changing her story which is unique in the Bridgerton universe and dare I say the most empowering. So while yes it would be nice to see a gay love story on the show or a trans person, Benophie isn’t the couple to turn to for this representation.

And said representation definitely shouldn’t come at the expense of representation for Black women who are rarely shown as love interests or get to be leading ladies in media. Representation for Black women may not be your representation, but it's still representation for an under-represented marginalized group.

Seriously if your idea of representation hinges on the fact that Black women should step aside and wait “our turn”(aka we shouldn't be represented because y'all always come up with some excuse for why it isn't “our turn”) you need to reassess some things because that isn't going to happen any longer.

This also goes out to the people who keep saying that there are “too many” Black people on show therefore Sophie shouldn't be Black when the only Black woman* that has been featured has been Lady Danbury who is a side character who most certainly does not have a happily ever after(HEA).

*I love Queen Charlotte and both India and Goldie’s portrayal of her and I loved the spin-off, but both women are mixed.

Let’s not forget the people who said Sophie being Black would be too “problematic” since she’s slave(she’s not a slave) while cheering on every other group of women playing Sophie.

That was what some said a year ago when people suggested Sophie could played by a Black woman, but now that it’s coming you’ve moved on from that excuse to needing to see two white men on your screens.

So once again this isn't about representation it's just another instance of fandom misogynoir aka trying to keep Black women off your screens useless we are there to serve you or be tortured.

Cause somehow seeing Patsy getting wiped and raped 23 million times is “powerful” representation, but seeing a Black woman being loved and cared for and getting a HEA with a man who adores her is “problematic.”

Again I do understand the ones who genuinely want to see themselves represented on screen, but to make this much of a fuss about a Black woman in the role of Sophie Beckett, it’s inexcusable.

Reference point to this rant.

[gutsfics]

student files of Cave and Atlas, made from @abookishcreative's template (thank u!!!!)

i made one for Atlas as well as Cave bc i wanted to share some hc i have for him. just pretend his is signed by Swan though lol

Cave Jay Russel

Pronouns: he/him

Gender: trans man

DOB: December 31, 1999, 11:59PM

LI: none

Sexuality/Romantic Oriantation: aroace

Familiar: Tim the Gorgue (Tim does end up fully evolved, but i don't like the final version so in my hc he's just evolution 2 but Bigger)

Attunements: Sun and Earth

☆☆☆☆

Atlas Ernhardt

Pronouns: he/they

Gender: "What are you, a cop?" (transmasculine)

DOB: January 1, 2000, 12:01AM

Sexuality/Romantic Orientation: "who cares. anyone. nobody."

Familiar: Navi the Arylu (listen i dont CARE mc adopted her, Cave already has a familiar. Navi is Atlas' now)

Attunements: Moon and Fire (i don't think its ever said what his second attunement is in canon? and i think fire just fits them. besides i like the juxtaposition of being attuned to both moon and fire)

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general headcanons

Cave thought he and Atlas were just really similar looking fraternal twins when they first met bc he thought Atlas was cis

Atlas, however, always knew they're identical, but he didn't know Cave had also transitioned until his caregivers died and he started keeping an eye on Cave

Cave did all kinds of Attuneless sports. he was at Hartfeld on a football scholarship, but his favorite Attuneless sport is soccer

Cave is super beefy. built like a brick shithouse. a real unit of a man.

Atlas is pretty thin when he first starts at Pemderghast, but he eventually ends up with a similar build to Cave

Cave is Super Annoying about being born techincally a day (and a year) before Atlas and thus already a year ahead of him when their birthdays roll around, but Atlas always points out "not until midnight"

Atlas and Beckett have some Weird Gay Thing their junior year that breaks off by the end of the year- Beckett was mostly just interested in Atlas as a rebound from his crush on Cave, and Atlas didn't feel particularly strongly about Beckett beyond "we'll he's someone to do things with"

Cave's hair is naturally dark brown, but he bleached it a week before his freshman year. the following summer, he dyed it that purple-red color so it would be easier to tell him and Atlas apart. he uses Attuneless dye for it ("sometimes Attuneless just do things better"), but he does use magic to make it last longer

@choicesbookclub

[buck-yyyy]

okay yk what, today was a really rough day for me in terms of gender contemplation so i need a place to talk about my chosen name- because i haven’t told anyone. like, this shit is one of my closest guarded secrets in real life.

it’s beckett.

i don’t know if it’s technically a “real” name, but it’s what i chose- for a few reasons.

1. it’s somewhat similar to my middle name, which is a name that’s important to me.

2. i love the name bucky/buck, which is what i’ve gone by online for the past two years, but they feel very nickname-y, so i wanted something that they could possibly be nicknames for.

3. i have a lot of feelings about words- there are good sounding words, and there are bad sounding words, and there are words that sound like different shapes. my favorite kind of words are the ones that sound like squares, nice and clicky and sharp (but not uncomfortably so). bucky, buck, and beckett check all of those boxes.

i think it’s a pretty name, but i’m so afraid of telling people that i want to go by something different on some days.

i know that i shouldn’t be considering convenience for other people in terms of my gender, but i can’t help it- everyone around me is going to struggle with a name that changes on a day to day basis. like- they already have issues with not knowing when it’s okay to touch me (*cough* my mother *cough*), and that’s not even difficult.

i love my name. i really do. but i don’t want to get rid of it- i dont, because it’s a family name and it means so so much to me and it’s a truly beautiful name. but i love the name beckett too- and i think that scares me.

i’m so far in the closet that it’s not even funny. i joke about gender stuff with a friend of mine, but she has no idea how very real it is for me- and i’m nowhere near telling anyone else.

i have one trans friend. i love her a lot, and she means the world to me, but we’re not the kind of friends that talk to each other about this type of stuff- but i daydream about being able to tell her, because i think she is the only person who could come close to understanding. i daydream about her somehow finding out and asking me about it so that i don’t have to tell her, i daydream of accidentally revealing it in a flurry of emotions so that i don’t have to consciously say it.

i’ve been counting down the days until i can start to more forwardly present how i want to, but even though im looking forward to it, im so, so scared.

going out and presenting as male means so many things. it means accepting that im different from everyone, it means accepting that im not going to live the typical life i dreamed of as a kid, it means accepting that some people are fundamentally against me without even knowing me.

i’m still in this weird half-between place of thinking that it’s all going to go away and i can go live my life as a girl everyday, and that i could never be a boy because how could i ever not be cis- even though i know that i’m not.

i don’t know. i’m confused, and i’m scared, and i don’t see myself coming out of the closet for a long time.

but it’s beckett. it’s beckett.

[station26]

hi! 4, 9, 16, 17?

4. what was the most helpful in figuring out and accepting yourself as trans?

oh geez man i dont even KNOW. my whole life i always wanted to be a boy and i thought that that meant being rude and pushing away people and bullying others and then i realized that that isnt at all what it takes to be a boy. theres masculinity in being soft and tender and kind to others and laughing and having friends

9. what’s your favorite season?

summer cause i dont enjoy seasonal depression 😳😳 but i also like fall cause its cosy and i have some good childhood memories surrounding autumn

16. do you have any piercings?

NO i dont but i Really want a brow piercing cause i think theyre very..... Man And Cool. im hoping to get one maybe in the next couple years!

17. who’s your favorite trans character? or do you have any characters you headcanon as trans?

i honestly cant think of many trans characters rn... i do like beckett from backstagers!! hes canonically trans and in the comics he sometimes has his binder out and GAH it was just so nice and comforting to finally find a trans character in art. and cisco ramon from the flash is a trans man and you CANNOT change my mind

[achilleswishes]

this is boring stuff abt me  i guess

on November 26th 2015 i began my decent into being a furry by looking at soft neko porn

AND I listened to the undertale version of Drop Pop Candy on a car ride to a hotel for thanksgiving dinner and discovered vocaloid 

the 28th of november 2015 i saw a drawing of mettaton stretching and decided That’s what i want to do i want to be as flexible as this robot. this held up for one full day i think. 

on december 9th, 2015 i posted nsfw undertale/tail whatever the fuck porn onto my blog WHAT THE FUCK WAS I DOING

now dont quote me on this but i THINK december 18th, 2015 was the night i jacked off for 3 whole hours to undertale audio porn on fillsyouwithdirtysins, UNLESS i went BACK another night which is weird to think about 

the start of 2016: so far ive been posting less undertale and going back to youtubers (mainly jse, dnp, critikal) and band stuff- a lot of ryden. like a lot. also more William Beckett appreciation, nd some stuff about bein trans. ive seen like one undertale post in many weeks.

january 24 2016 and theres one undertale post. i guess i just started fixating on p!atd, and my love for undertale shifted. 

feb 1st 2016, ive just started watching steven universe, my whole favorite things are going to shift for a bit

OH i almost missed feb 08, 2016, thats a rly important date. i hadnt posted anything since feb 5th but on feb 8th i posted one thing about panic! at the disco. wow.

ok yeah wow thats like all that i wanted to see. i stopped on p117 (this is for future me to pick up). yea alright. its p funny how interests change like that. its only been 2? years? it feels like a million. i cant even remember how i felt back then, for the most part. my life is completely different, and yet, pretty much the same? anyway. that is all. 

[unfortunatehakumyuscreenshots]

the absolute. the absolute TRUTH. of this. holy. oh my god. the TRUTH.

has ANYONE /ever/ read Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. or Ulysses. or Finnegan's Wake. it's all. /GAY/. Susan Bloom (i think that was her name heheh) literally mentions having a sexual relationship with a girl from her childhood like in the last few lines. in Finnegan's Wake the women are /fluid/ they're genderfluid they're the river i. Cranly. is the gayest character i've ever read in a novel, and I read Moby Dick and Importance of Being Ernest. i shit you a brick not. Cranly lays a hand on Stephen's shoulder, leans in /real close/, and says "You're a bloody exciteable man, do you know?" and flirts with Stephen for a decade before literally getting turned down. Cranly has womanish eyes. Cranly is a feminist. Cranly is the person that convinces Stephen that he must protect women? How? Why? Because Stephen looks into Cranly's "womanish eyes" and /suddenly/ understands the fragility of women. I swear to GOD. CRANLY IS GAY COME ON YOU LIT CRITICS COME ON WRITE THE ESSAY WRITE THE GODDAMN ESSAY PUBLISH IT. ACKNOWLEDGE. DONT TRY TO TELL ME THAT TEMPLE'S GAY. CRANLY IS. I KNOW IT. TEMPLE'S A FLAMING CHAMBERPOT. CRANLY. IS. GAY. AND TEASES OTHER MEN ABOUT LIKING MEN. I.

Nietzsche. Has anyone ever read the hell that is Thus Spoke Zarathustra. /anyone/. it's a bottomless pit of sewage. Nietzsche wanted to /die/ he was so nihilistic and existentialist.

Beckett. Fucking. Beckett. Y'all know en attendent Godot right. Waiting for Godot. these nihilistic assholes. these absurdist freaks. my baby estragon (cough estrogen is trans fight me) and vlad. wanted to /hang themselves/ just to get an election together. you can't make this shit up.

oh my god. the TRUTH.

nietzche, joyce, beckett, and the literature students