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wetslug · 2 years ago

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i was trialing being off my anti depressant medication (for past 6 weeks) and havent had MDD symptoms but surprisingly ive just felt generally unstable like ive been crying more easily, very quick to get frustrated and lash out, lack of empathy, etc etc. im not sure whats wrong with me (i havent been off meds since 2016 so i dont remember if this is consistent with prior behavior) but i think im gonna restart my meds bc i feel like a worse person

#man im bummed out ive been hearing about people finding ''their true selves'' after going off psych meds #well i did and my true self is shit 😞😞😞#to be honest this might be a feature of my dysthymia + asd #i used to have double depression aka constant dysthymia w episodes of extreme depression so it makes sense that the dysthymia would remain #i dont know theres even a label that could be neatly applied to me #when im unmediated i just feel constant low-level instability i just feel it constantly bubbling under the surface #and despite being relatively asymptomatic its very very scary because im never 100% sure i dont do smth impulsive and destructive

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