#i dont know if my buddy left the groupchat because of my whining specifically but i was whining earlier. kinda ironically but i Was whining | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lord-shitbox · 6 days ago

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i try to reword most of my negative thoughts as questions so it's easier to challenge them. i feel shitty about myself -> i think "do i deserve to get shot in the head over something" -> i then answer "no bitch. also you are hungry. go eat dinner"

#shitboxposting #ok to reblog if u want. keeping my tag ramble in the tags so the post itself is all clean (tags are long as fuuuuck jtlyk)#'do all my friends secretly hate me' no bitch. u cant assume someone's bad day is entirely your fault. u still need to eat dinner #uuuugh uuurhghh uughghhgh getting rid of the belief that my core being is some disgusting tar pit is really difficult when i am prone #to being Really Depressed. god fuck fuck im sorry its not fair of me to dump tar on others but never smearing any on anyone else #is really fucking hard when you are Drowning In A Tar Pit #nobody has to put up with me smearing tar on them. im so fucking upset that i keep getting tar on other people. im mad at myself.#i dont know if my buddy left the groupchat because of my whining specifically but i was whining earlier. kinda ironically but i Was whining #should i ask our mutual friend if it was because of my whining. im afraid of the answer. how do i stop being a fucking tar pit #i think this is an unfair thing to think about myself but it is Kinda true. like it is shitty to dump shit on other people that is true.#i am not entirely a tar pit but theres . fucking tar. well everyones got tar. this is true i am not uniquely horrible for Having Tar #wait nvm he deactivated his account before i started whining. not my fault #ok i am not an Irredeemable tar pit. everyone has tar this is a human experience & i am trying to be healthy about my tar.#i think i get a minor pass for being miserable at my friends bc there was a Situation. its been resolved but it Sitched at me for a bit #its been 20 minutes and i have not gotten dinner. but i do feel kinda better so i will forgive myself

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