#i dont ever remember much of this copypasta other than

[superchat]

I love the kind of woman that will actually just kill me. You know, when I left the house today I was thinking "Damn, I really hope some hot chick paints my brains all over some fucking hallway." And here we are. I mean really, just absolutely destroy me. I'm talkin' full on, watermelon-in-the-thighs level carnage. And I want it to scare the shit outta me. I mean I hope I piss myself. I hope I piss myself and you call me your little "peepee pisspiss boy." I want you to fuck me up. I mean I want you to make me your bitch. Your little peepee-piss-myself-bitch. I want it to get embarrassing. I mean like... weirdly embarrassing. Unsanitary, too. We should be entirely different people, by the end of the first eight hours. Do you understand what I'm trying to say here? I mean, I'm a real freak. I'm not normal. Ma'am. Please... You have to crush me.

[tebbydear-movedblogs]

All for the gay ask

ALL??? this is a lot so its under the cut. anyone who wants to learn Too Much about me can check it out ! (psst i tag @sonshine-de-la-vega @inthheightlive and @theamazingjaybird i love you guys)

1. describe your idea of a perfect datehhhmmm a cafe? im cliche,, just somewhere nice like a movie or for lunch so we can talk and have a nice time

2. whats your “type”All Girls Are So Good. like shit man. small petite girls make my heart go crazy but big buff girls make me wanna scream idk tall girls who could rest their head on my head man big soft girls with lotsa chub i will cry all girls are my type lmaooowhen it comes to guys,,, like,, idk. some of them are cute but idk. :|

3. do you want kids?im not sure! i dont Hate kids but im terrified of being a bad mum like my own,, and i think ‘aunt’ suits me better. i cant really see myself as a mother- but that could change in the future

4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?i think that depends on who my partner is! like if they wanted to carry, or if it was possible for us to conceive traditionally,,, who knows!

5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been oni have never been on a date bc i am gross and will never find love !!!

6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)see above!!! the idea of it terrifies me

7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?i like both !! but i am always so tired during both. im like an afternoon person

8. opinion on nap dates?Good Stuff

9. opinion on brown eyes?beautiful !!!! especially when paired with dark hair and dark skin like fuck me up- but i think my own are ugly tho

10. dog gay or cat gay?CAT CAT CAT. i dont Dislike dogs but they make me nervous, too much energy and too Heavy and Big. I love kitters so much. so much u dont understand. cats literally keep me on this earth

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?yeah totally !!! why is this a question?? are the good sneks that much of a turn off?? (so long as they treat them well obviously)

12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someoneas seen above,, i dont have much experience with this- but id look at how they treat other people. if theyre intolerant or like,, just needlessly mean to people?? thats definitely a dealbreaker.

13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?idk ! i never really thought about it and i mostly thought they were not bad but very alien,, like that could never be Me u know, or anyone i knew. but like i say it never really crossed my mind until i joined tumblr

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger selfoh boy. u think ur sad Now.gurlbut also- its ok that u think that girl is cute. its gonna be ok. u dont need to be scared. loving girls is Great and ur gonna know that soon.

15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?not really! i remember being attracted to more feminine guys which i now know was my brain going !butch lady! lmaoo

16. who is an ex you regret?never dated !!!!! i am unloveable!!!

17. night club gay or cafe gay?cafe!!! clubs scare me and i dont drink

18. who is one person you would “go straight” foranthony ramos

19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?movie gay !! i love movieees

20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)yall know me,,, sonny/graffiti pete from in the heights dominate my writing rn

21. favourite gay youtubertie between macdoesit and mileschronicles !!!

22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?never asked anyone out !!! that sounds like Social Interaction to me

23. have you ever been in love?yes

24. have you ever been heartbroken?yes

25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someoneidk i like,, imagine going on a date with them?? imagine how id feel if they were dating someone else??

26. favourite lgbt musician/bandhayley kiyoko!

27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gaysthere is nothing wrong with what youre feeling. youre going to be ok- there is nothing wrong or dirty or dangerous about the way that you love. there will be people who dont accept you. fuck em. you are amazing

28. are you out? if so how did you come outim sort of out to friends? i dont really have a label for my sexuality so  its hard. but ppl know i like girls, i just kinda mentioned it and let ppl get used to it

29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have i dont really have one! i have one for another person tho- a friend of mine made a group chat and came out,, we were all being supportive and shit but then this One Girl,, who we already knew was a Good Homophobic Christian Girl,, typed out a whole long paragraph about how she doesnt hate him!! but his lifestyle is wrong,, like,, it was copypasta material

30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexualityit will get better. if you dont have people in your life who love you for who you are now, im so sorry, but know that there are so many people out there who will love you and accept you and everything is going to get so much better

[sleepysplace]

Nostalgia

For a good while i have a very strong desire in my head to just go back to the past, 10 or 15 years ago and just live in a different time, both due to internal and external circunstances.

Im a child of the 90′s tho i dont think i could be considered one of the “90s kids” due to not having almost any memory of the decade itself, but, i did remember the early 2000s to a good extent, not as much as i want to but good enough to have some clear memories in my head. 

Now you could say “The 2000s are another decade” But i cant help but see it as an extensions of the 90s. Think about it, does going from 1999 to 2000 instantly changes the whole culture the second the new decade comes in? Of course not, well maybe a bit but it still takes time for culture to transition as a whole so i got a lot of the 90s merely by being a kid in this transition period so i still got a lot of things that the “90s kids” brag so much about, that includes that olde windows 98 computer, 90s cartoons and even some of the games that came around that decade, i could still feel some of that culture through my early infancy.

Oh boy one of the first things i remember is the fox kids channel, these really different times, instead of some shitty modern minimalistic or realistic visuals we got a nice stylized burst of colors with some goofy ass 3d effects. Instead of trying to look “cool” or modern it just really spoke to kids in their language and even included some goofy ass animations that plended real pictures with silly drawings, i can really describe the way things were announced or narrated but it was kinda loud and goofy (I know i use that word alot but i cant find other way to describe it lol), well, things in the 90s were really loud, just check out any anime dub of that time and you will get that notion.

I also got the “anime boom” of the early 2000s meaning i got to see lots of digimon as well as many crappy anime that never got remembered as well. The fox kids site was really colorful as well and it really showed how limited but also diverse the sites were at the time if compared with today.

Unfortunately fox kids met its end in 2004-2005 when it was replaced with jetix which is better than most garbage we got today but still showed signs of ugly modernization with a limited lifeless color pallete of grays and blues and use of a more minimalistic style.

There isnt much else to say about nickelodeon, most of the same thing except its orange all over that place but i think the visuals of early 2000s nickelodeon was pretty amazing. Instead of this “modern” “clean” pure text logo we had a splat filled with a bazooka font, it was rad and the same messy, colorful and energetic aura could be felt on the whole channel which also had a loud announcer just like fox kids. Nowdays its just a bland, boring modernized text saying “nickelodeon” and thats it, the whole aestethic of the channel was simplified and modernized, same thing happened with cartoon network which i wont talk for now but its mostly the same thing: A colorful channel full of life turned into a modern lifeless shell of its former being.

The internet was also pretty amazing and a big part of my infancy along with 90s informatics in general. We are talking about big fucking monitors with a huuge back end and not a lot of resulution, well, certainly beter than DOS or terminal crap but its shit compared with today. If you could run CS or early tomb raider congrats! You prolly have a gaming pc, so much potency! 

Instead of being stuck to youtube, twitter or furry art sites the internet was an entire world waiting for me to explore, that means i went to every kids TV channel site as well as every kids site i found by ocasion or really anything bright and full of colors that invited me to it, Playing every single clumsy flash game i could find and having a hell of a time just seeing what else could i find.

There wasnt any modern style trends at the time so even as rough as they were you got all sorts of different sites with different identities as opposed to one single site copy pasted probably done on wix or something. The internet was the fucking wild west, no ultramega big corporations (well maybe just a few), no regulations, no SJWs! Just a free land waiting to be explored and colonized by the few who were curious enough to explore it!

The lack of shitty trends and shitty corps also benefited the gaming industry as well, that means more creative games and no fucking empty dead open world copypasta but instead a huge variety of plataformers, rpgs and all kinds of shit, dont get me wrong, we still have variety and creative people but they are being limited by huge shitty companies and lifeless journos.

Being in the ps2 era meant no realistic graphics but it also meant creators had to focus and gameplay and do the best with what they got, just look at shadow of the colossus, that shit looks beautiful even by todays standards and it was pretty exprerimental, shit, the ps2 was the most legendary console to ever exist, point.

It had a huuuge library of amazing games, good fucking graphics (for the time, obviously) and it was goddam easy to run pirate games into it, so much that nearly the entire brazilian market (and i assume the entire latin american market as well) ran on pirated games, seriously, no one would pay 80+ bucks for a game at the time, fuck having 2 games a year, lets have fucking 20! The ps2 also had such good games that it was a nearly monopoly on the console market, nearly nobody had an xbox or gamecube, seriously, all the neightbors and their fucking dogs had a ps2 

I guess you could say what fucked a lot of the entertaiment industry later on were shitty industry trends, big shitty companies becoming shittier every year, excessive modernization of fucking everything and people trying to dictate what should be produced or not.

Shit, this is going to need a part two