#i dont appreciate internet friends enough

[niallthebadboi]

Gotta take some time to appreciate the best person I've ever met on the internet @justmeinatree she come into my life at a time when I really needed someone and she's the best human on the planet and I hope our friendship lasts a very long time❤️

no one supports you like an internet friend you never met

[just-spacetrash]

🤐

[rik0shii]

reader being the only girl member of big bang, and her and daesung secretly being all flirty and in love with each other, but they dont date, until years later , people do edits and stuff to start pointing out how they definitely liked each other which gives them the push to date, so it ends in our current year.

hope this is okay, thanks so much💜

Years in the Making

Pairing: Daesung x Reader

Word Count: ~5k

hiii i hope you like it, this was pretty rushed 😭😭 reposts and comments are appreciated!

Summary: You and Daesung have always had a connection—one that the rest of BIGBANG teased but never took too seriously. Years of inside jokes, secret smiles, and lingering touches were just part of your friendship. But now, in 2025, the internet has receipts, and maybe it’s time to stop pretending.

2006 – The Beginning

Being the only female member of BIGBANG wasn’t easy. You had to fight for every bit of respect, prove yourself just as much—if not more—than the others. But through the exhausting days of training and the pressure of debuting, Daesung was always there.

He made everything lighter, easier.

You clicked instantly—maybe it was the way you both loved to joke around, how neither of you took yourselves too seriously despite the industry’s expectations. Or maybe it was the way he always looked out for you—pulling you away from reporters when their questions became too personal, sneaking extra snacks into your bag when you were too busy to eat, keeping an eye on you even when you didn’t realize it.

And the flirting? That was just part of the game.

“You looked good today,” he’d murmur after performances, voice just low enough for only you to hear.

“So did you,” you’d reply, watching the tips of his ears turn red.

It was effortless, natural. But it was also safe. Neither of you ever pushed past the invisible line between friends and something more.

Not yet.

2012 – Still Just Friends

BIGBANG was dominating the industry, and your friendship with Daesung was as strong as ever. If anything, it had only grown.

The fans noticed it—the way you always seemed to gravitate toward each other, how you finished each other’s jokes, how Daesung’s eyes lingered on you just a second too long during interviews. Edits of your moments together flooded the internet, clips of him looking at you like you hung the stars gaining thousands of views.

The other members noticed too.

“You two should just date already,” Taeyang teased once, watching the way you nudged Daesung’s shoulder during a break in rehearsal.

Daesung laughed, rubbing the back of his neck, but you saw the flicker of something in his eyes before he shrugged it off.

“We’re just friends,” you said, the same response you always gave.

The conversation moved on, but for the first time, the words didn’t sit right in your chest.

Because deep down, you weren’t so sure they were true.

2017 – The Almost

It was late after a concert in Japan, the adrenaline finally wearing off as you and Daesung sat in the back of the van, heads resting against the seats. The others were chatting in the front, their voices distant.

Daesung shifted beside you. “Do you ever think…?”

You turned to him, his voice quieter than usual. “Think what?”

“That maybe we missed something?”

Your heart skipped.

It was the closest either of you had ever come to acknowledging it—this thing that had existed between you for years, unspoken but always there.

You opened your mouth, unsure of what you were about to say, but the van stopped, and the moment shattered. The conversation was left unfinished, lost to the chaos of schedules, tours, and comebacks.

And maybe that was easier.

Maybe pretending was better than facing what it really meant.

2020 – The Shift

BIGBANG had been through so much. Hiatuses, military service, changes in the group—it felt like a lifetime had passed since your debut.

You and Daesung still talked, of course. Always. But things felt different. There were fewer playful touches, fewer lingering glances. Maybe you were both too scared of what would happen if you let it slip.

Then one night, as you sat in your apartment scrolling through your phone, you came across an edit.

It was one of those fan compilations—clips spanning over a decade, showing every moment you and Daesung had ever shared. The way he looked at you when you weren’t watching, the way your hands always seemed to find each other, the way he smiled a little softer when you were the one speaking.

And the comments?

“How did they not date?”

“You’re telling me this wasn’t real???”

“Daesung was down BAD.”

Your chest tightened. You had spent years convincing yourself that what you had was just friendship. But watching it all laid out like this? The internet had noticed something you had spent years ignoring.

And maybe… maybe it was time to stop running from it.

2025 – The Now

It had taken almost twenty years, but here you were.

Sitting next to Daesung in a quiet café, watching as he scrolled through the same edits that had haunted your mind for months.

He looked up, expression unreadable. “So, the internet thinks we’ve been in love this whole time.”

You laughed, but it came out shaky. “Maybe they have a point.”

Daesung didn’t say anything for a long moment. Then, slowly, carefully, he reached across the table, his fingers brushing yours.

Your breath hitched.

“I don’t want to miss it this time,” he murmured.

And this time, you didn’t pretend you didn’t understand.

This time, you laced your fingers through his and held on.

Later That Year – The Interview

Daesung’s talk show had quickly become a fan favorite. He had always been a natural entertainer, effortlessly funny yet able to draw out deep conversations from his guests. His humor kept things light, but he had a way of making people open up without even realizing it.

So when he invited you on, you weren’t surprised.

What did surprise you was how openly you both talked about your relationship.

The set was warm and inviting, the audience buzzing with excitement as the cameras rolled. You sat beside Daesung on the sleek studio couch, watching him grin like he was up to something.

“So, Y/N, should we tell them who made the first move?” he asked, leaning forward with that signature mischievous glint in his eyes.

You smirked. “Technically, it was you.”

He gasped dramatically, turning to the audience. “Did you hear that? She’s rewriting history! Someone pull up the receipts!”

Laughter filled the studio.

You crossed your arms, raising an eyebrow. “Oh, you want receipts? Should we talk about the time in Japan in 2017?”

The audience ooooh’d in excitement, and Daesung immediately started laughing, shaking his head. “I knew you were going to bring that up.”

You turned to the audience, grinning. “So, there we were, exhausted after a concert, sitting in the back of a van, and this man turns to me and says—”

“—‘Do you ever think we missed something?’” Daesung finished, sighing dramatically. “Yeah, yeah, I walked right into this one.”

The audience erupted into cheers, and Daesung pretended to hide his face behind his hands.

You nudged his arm. “That was basically a confession, you know.”

“I know,” he groaned. “And then I did nothing about it for years.”

More laughter.

“But honestly,” he continued, looking at you with a softer expression, “I think we were both scared back then. Scared of ruining what we had, scared of the industry, scared of—”

You nodded, finishing his sentence. “Scared of everything.”

There was a pause—just long enough for the audience to feel the weight of it.

Then Daesung brightened, turning back to the camera. “But thankfully, the internet came through for us.”

The screen behind you lit up with clips—fan edits, old interviews, even that viral comment section that had pushed you both toward the truth.

“How did they not date?”

“You’re telling me this wasn’t real???”

“Daesung was down BAD.”

Daesung groaned again. “That last one really hurts. Down bad?? Am I that obvious?”

“Yes,” the entire audience answered in unison, making everyone laugh again.

You squeezed his hand, grinning. “But it’s okay. Because we both were.”

More aww’s from the audience.

Then Daesung smirked again. “Okay, real question—who had to be the one to officially ask?”

You rolled your eyes, already knowing where this was going. “You refused to do it, so I had to.”

“I wasn’t refusing! I was building suspense,” he argued.

You turned to the audience. “He stalled for weeks.”

“I was nervous!”

The teasing continued, but under it all, there was something soft, something warm. It was the kind of banter that came naturally, built on years of friendship, trust, and love.

As the interview wrapped up, Daesung turned back to you with a more genuine expression.

“For real, though,” he said, voice quieter, “I think it was always supposed to be us. It just took us a long time to see it.”

You felt your chest tighten, the weight of everything you had gone through settling into something right.

Reaching for his hand, you smiled. “Yeah. But we got there in the end.”

The audience clapped, the energy buzzing through the studio.

Years in the making. But finally, finally yours.

[nerves-nebula]

jailed queer refugee needs help

Hey y'all so there's been an important update. Abdul was responsible for a lot of other queer people, and their medical bills. He's been arrested for not paying the bills which were originally around $600 but as people kept getting sick and kept needing food, they rose to $1000, right now I need help raising $1000 to get him out of jail.

I can put up maybe about $500 because my tax refund came in, but that's it until I get paid again in the next 2 weeks and I don't know if the bills will grow in that time. We seriously need the help, anything you can donate would be majorly appreciated. I'll update the number on the original post as we go, but I'm going to be queuing this for a while.

you can also donate through these apps, though I'd prefer through the gofundme if possible becuase I've got a terrible memory and dont check them as often as i check the gofundme. Thank you!

Ko-fi: Nervesnebula, Cashapp: nervesN, and Venmo: @nervesnebbin

$817/1000

UPDATE: the $500 was enough to get Abdul out of jail, but if we don't raise the rest before wednesday the 30th they'll come arrest him again.

[tiredghostness]

Give me as moots you appreciate up until now! No matter how many times you guys have interacted! :D

oh okay here we go-

@lmkobsessedmoth Moth Man, my savior in art and angst. this guy right here helps me with every advice he got or brainstorming ideas and i love you (/p) for that. his art and characters are just amazing and so beautiful i'd pay a fortune to just have it on my wall istg.

@keykittygirl you and me forever and ever and our love for the world's miserable bros in lmk fiction (mk and ne zha) . i love Keya and i am patiently waiting for more angst ideas and plots from you to consume.

@noteverystarisasun ASHER. My man🤝. super fan of how you've become so far, i love NESIAS and purple ginger gu- I MEAN AW/silly. i would read it like a bedtime story if i could. yummy ocs and artstyle and am waiting for more updates. keep cooking.

@doppel-doodles *points* YOU. Creature. i love your art so much and your worls, will be consuming it on a daily basis. give arthur a break please-

keep going man!

@rosemaryduexx ROSEGOLD . i love your art so much and how you use shapes to your upmost advantages, so small yet so expressive it's almost crunchy/pos

@rolian-delayer knew them since twitter days, super chill and cool guy. i too , love those background characters they are so easy to grip and make your own. love his art and so should you.

@zammy357 you are the ink sans of the lmk aus to me istg. (yes i am aware i use that ref wrong, dont at me) love rin in every universe. miss wandering flame, please come back. your art is a great treasure to my eyes.

@skylinx2o SKY. i'll say it right now. they have an amazing eye for colors and art it is A MUST/pos. i love every of their ocs esp whisp , and the rest of the wandering shadow cast. we still need to bully macaque tho dw.

@lmkshatteredstars STARS. can never get enough of your characters man, esp nowadays they seem to grow better and better. i love Star in every way possible and will eat planets for her./pos

@lunathemoonsblog been following them since i first saw them on tiktok, fell in love with their oc Luna in an instant istg. i really loved her so much , along with my childhood obsession with HTTYD yk i was hooked since day 1. can't wait to see what they got next! :3

@ekukovsblog i just LOVE their oc, it is so cute and pretty and i just wanna be their friend so bad man. their ship is so over the top for me and i wish them the best

sorry to anyone else who i haven't mentioned here, just know you're a great person no matter what . stay safe, fellow internet user.

[primalmagic]

happy new year !!

as the year is finally coming to an end, and 2025 is not some unattainable sci-fi concept anymore, i just want to appreciate all the people that have changed my life for the better.

first, @whoa-itsme, @tenderestofchicken, @tashanottusha, @lesbeanie, @sunny-inajar, and all of my friends for q. it's been six months (crazy, isn't it?) since the fall of #quotev, and the move from there to a place like tumblr was crazy for me. i miss it more than anything sometimes. but even though i know some of us don't talk as often anymore, you guys are still such incredibly special people and i really appreciate everything. im so lucky to know you. i hope 2025 is a good year for you guys <3

the benlor trio ( @afrogwhocantdraw & @random-gamer1942 ) !! in these past few months, you both and benlor have been such a highlight of my life. if you told 2023 me that a ship from some random webtoon i decided to read for fun would lead me to this, i swear i would have never believed it. i remember interacting w you guys for the first time on letters written in incognito, and being absolutely elated that strangers on the internet actually thought my writing was interesting. and i will say it a million more times, but thank you. benlor nor sbg would be as special to me as it is without the two of you. raising our apple juices to benlor one final time for this year <3

also, many of my newer tumblr mutuals, especially from sbg, @pauleentology, @d011zk1ll, @im-totally-not-a-fae, @0rch1ddd, and many more !! you guys are so awesome and im so lucky to be mutuals with yall :]

@emrynizaria (dude i miss you </3), @spiderboa (i dont know if you use tumblr anymore? but if you do first paragraph definitely also applies to you <3) @crippling-pages (BENLOR !! and kotlc ofc. you are seriously such an awesome person and i am so lucky to know you. from my very questionable kotlc fanfictions to my benlor ones, i swear you've been with me the whole time and i cannot thank you enough for that. love seeing you on my dash and talking to you in general!!) @arthur-side (your benlor art GIVES ME life actually all your art gives me life in general. youre so supportive and so nice and i appreciate your existence vv much <3)

and if i didnt tag you, im still so incredibly thankful for you. i have an event to go to, otherwise i swear i would be writing way more. love yall and happy 2025 !! <333

[babymorte]

i noticed i hit 12k followers n i wanted to thank you all for just being some of the dopest people on the internet and hanging out with me and just all the positivity you bring me just by being here (that sounds a lot more vain than intended but i hope you understand what im trying to say)

ive been going through a lot lately and im just so appreciative for everyone who reaches out and checks up on me and tags me in things like you really don’t know how much yall mean to me n i do consider the lot of you my lil phone friends. you’ve all made 2024 worth it because no matter what im going through i know i always have you guys and i genuinely love interacting with everyone even though im trash at it.

i don’t know im sorry for like being sappy but emotions are chaotic and yall humble the fuck out of me but also make me feel like i mean something more than just a flesh suit on the internet. thank you for always giving me love on my posts and sharing my photos and just being super supportive and always so kind to me. i know i say this all the time but truly it does mean the world to me just to be seen heard and validated and i know i know it’s corny and likes and shares don’t matter but yall have helped me heal from my own insecurities and feelings of self doubt and unworthiness just with your constant kindness and support and love. i really can’t thank you enough.

yall really do mean the world to me and im so happy to have been able to meet everyone and have yall in my life. legitimately i dont know how i would have survived these last few months without you guys and i just really hope my appreciation shines through even a little bit.

i hope everyone is having an amazing holiday season and your new years is just as wonderful. im so fucking happy 2024 is over in a few days and im so fucking happy to be taking yall with me 🧡

[bulbabutt]

Thank you for being a bastion of sanity amidst the growing "but proshippers! But incest! But RPF!" purity culture's nonsense.

I'm so tired of being afraid to admit that I've even read a fanfic/fancomic because that same person might have a DIFFERENT ACCOUNT where they indulge in a problematic ship. And therefore they are "bad" and by association, I could be labeled "bad" for having looked at something completely unrelated and tossed on a block list.

It's asinine. Yet I'm too afraid to even get off anon because I know I don't have the mental fortitude to survive a potential online witch hunt.

So thank you, I wish you all the strength to keep screaming the words I cannot.

honestly youre not the first person to send me an anon about this, i just tend to feel just as afraid of responding to them as much as you are afraid of coming off anon. i think because while ill post things in vague context, it becomes another thing when someone says it out loud, yknow? but i appreciate it, knowing im not just screaming into a void where no one likes what i have to say.

i think what i will say is im not the only one who THINKS like i do, but i am just dumb enough to be loud and annoying about it. its kind of a thing where i'd never say anything specific because like... some people are so vicious and will demand blood if they get a whiff if i mention anything vaguely. the fact i have to be afraid to say 'people dont mind' for their own safety is crazy, huh?

i think that thing youre saying about being worried by association from association was the same first time i had this thought. i was reading something so good so deep something that effected me so deeply from how well it was talking about the realistic effects of incestuous abuse, and then i went to see what else the author had written and i was like. oh. theres just regular incest in here too. and that was kind of a moment of hm.. perhaps i need to think more about what really matters here. the fact i can engage with what i want and just say 'oh i see what else you do, thats not for me so i will just not engage with that'

so it hurts worse when theres the idea of someone engaging with art they like that has nothing 'weird' going on, then suddenly getting hit with screaming that that artist has a side account theyre not advertising where they make weird art that they are keeping FULLY separate from the account in question. like i do not see how that helps anybody in that situation.

then theres the generalization of it. the idea that maybe all you did was draw like. 19 yr old versions of two 15 yr olds kissing, and suddenly that gets you put on a list of people who will draw literal children in sexual situations, gets you put in that same boat without question. that shit is so cruel to me, that these things all get painted with the same brush. equally as bad, equally as deserving of being ostracized. or the idea that you get put on that list for not caring about if strangers ship things on the internet, makes you just as bad as someone who makes it. i really just hate this entire culture.

idk im... old school i guess? back in my day youd watch a shitty cartoon that had over 20 characters in it so you could smash them together in whatever ship suited you. crack ships were the bread and butter of me and my friends, shit that made no sense but in your own head. the idea of being anti... shipping at all is so... thats very weird. shipping as a thing is very much what fandom was ever made for in the first place? like. im not kidding, learn your history if you dont know that (middle age women shipping kirk and spock)

back when i was a kid i watched this tv show called kim possible, and i was a kid who didnt know shit about themselves seeing a pretty villain lady for the first time who called the main character who was a girl princess. i didnt know what to make of that, i didnt know the age difference between them i was a dumbass child, they were both drawn the same way! then im like 12 years old on the internet, i see theres a ship of the teenage girl and this like 30 yr old villain woman. do you think my 12 year old self saw the problematic nature and thought deeply about the morals of said ship? no. i was like 'holy shit i wish i was the teenage girl dating shego. why do i like this? oh god im a lesbian'

again. i was a child. what are you gonna do, go back in time and arrest my 12 year old ass for looking at pg rated fanart of women kissing on the internet? we didnt HAVE real representation yet! there was no korrasami, no rupphire, no bubbline, no lumity! shipping was the only place you could see stuff that was gay! and it being GAY would get you in more trouble than it having an age gap!

the fact is people WOULD cancel me now for that, wouldnt you?! thats where we're at. that IS a problematic ship, id be put on a blocklist in todays internet for being a child who crushed on villains. i didnt make it, i didnt create for it, i just looked at it and that would get you in trouble now!!! thats crazy.

i know thats a random tangent to go off on, but like..... hhhhh i dont know man. sometimes it seems like people want the internet to pass by broadcasting standards and practices and thats!!! bad!!! let people experiment with their weird shit as they figure themselves out, its so fucking normal. youre not a bad person for looking at things on the internet, youre not a bad person for engaging with things, youre not a bad person for being horny online! especially if you make your own fucking space for it?? a space easily blacklistable, with trigger warnings and EVERYTHING... we didnt have those when i was a kid, so some things are better, but culture is just worse.

i dunno. i just think i would not have thrived in this environment as a teenager. im glad im old and know better, but i worry about the lessons kids are learning from this. to feel ashamed, to bottle shit up, its not good for you. be kind to yourself, be kind to others. we're all working through shit in our own ways.

sorry for another long annoying post

[confessions-sm]

how come as soon as i come back 2 the fandom susie is finally getting appreciation😭 where were u guys earlier this year… u dont know her like i know her… 🐺

anyway susie headcanons (mainly angst) i am too scared to post on main:

- susie is an enby lesbian but is so attached to her identity as a big sister they refuse to use any pronouns that arent they/she

- susie has BAD ocd. contamination is a big problem, but she also has a lot of intrusive thoughts surrounding pump — mainly the bad experiences he’s been in. she’s afraid something might happen to him.

- along w/ that last one, she gets occasional thoughts / nightmares ab her encounter with bob.

- she’s a furry and her fursona is a gerbil that wears a demon horn headband

- she’s homeschooled. asked to do homeschool after her parents started leaving more since she had to take care of her brother and grandpa

- she heavily regrets all her outbursts. she hopes pump doesn’t grow up to remember her as the big sister who yelled. that’s how she remembers her parents, and she doesn’t want to be remembered like that

- it’s hard for her to maintain friendships :( she doesn’t have a lot of time to dedicate to them w/ her busy schedule of taking care of the house, schoolwork, and streaming. (the hatzgang dont mind too much. they’re usually doing their own thing anyway. they’re friends w/ her, but they’ve prolly had some bad moments b4 😭)

- she RLLY wants some kind of pet, either mice or a bearded dragon. she’s worried she won’t have enough time or energy to dedicate to one, so she hasn’t asked yet

- this is semi-implied, but she is PRIME weird kid material. a 15yr old w/ free internet access in the 2010s? she’s had all the phases.

- along with this, she has had to stop pump from traumatizing himself on the internet the same way she traumatized herself LMAO

- ALSO semi implied!!! she rlly likes punk rock music!!! esp 80s-90s punk! she wants to dress semi-alternative to fit the vibe of her music :p usually doesn’t since she’s at home tho HAHA

no this isnt projecting sshshshsh

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[ancient-frog-enthusiast]

I’m new to this area of the internet, but I’ve lurked here for quite a bit. I need some help figuring this out.

How does one figure out if they’re a therian or nonhuman or something else?

I think Therians are really cool, your gear is cool, QUADS ARE AWESOME, and y’all are just really nice people

This is the autistic side of me probably, but since I was a kid I’ve been insanely into cats (not so much anymore though). I can usually name a cats breed by looking at it, I have a pretty large knowledge of cat behavior and communication, and generally just know a heck ton about them. That’s normal enough I guess, but-

Where it gets… a bit more unusual is I also sometimes act like a cat I guess? It’s not that I feel like one exactly- I just feel like me- but I’ll do cat things like perching on things, the way I sleep/act when I’m tired, and my general body language demeanor. I also feel like I have phantom ears sometimes (usually it’s ears, but it’s also been tail, claws, and fangs less commonly).

I dont have dreams or memories of a past life and I don’t have body dysphoria. I do kind of have dysphoria in the sense that I really wish I could/want to communicate the way cats do (ear/eye/tail positions, and vocalizations) etc. I don’t get outside much, but when I do it’s safe to say I act more like I’ve seen in Therian videos (sorry if that sounds rude I’m not sure how else to put it) than other people (jumping around, trying to perch on things, and never ever following the path lol).

I’ve been called weird (by friends in a lighthearted way) on multiple occasions because my impulsive reaction to a lot of things (being startled, surprised with something that makes me happy, feeling contented, etc) with pretty cat like sounds. I dont even think about them they just happen naturally. I also may have spent way too much time as a kid teaching myself to hiss like a cat- I’m still pretty good at it but never do it at people because it’s, ya know, not very socially acceptable.

It also feels notable that yes I do own those cat paw socks and yes I love them, and yes I have a whole collection of cat ear hats that I wear nearly constantly.

The main thing that’s confusing to me is I don’t really wish I had a cats body, but I have all this other stuff going on. Also, surprisingly, cats aren’t actually my favorite animal.

Any input is appreciated ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[sdv-confessions]

Hey there, I came to know of your blog (ironically) through one of those witch-hunting posts against you. I don't understand, why people are so mad about your questioning of what's wrong with c.ai...? (Apologies in advance, looooooong ask incoming...)

From what I've seen, c.ai's model creation and training is all done in-house, which means it's not running on any external model like ChatGPT or Claude.

Our team, responsible for pioneering large portions of the large language model field, set out to bring this technology directly to you. We are proud to be a full-stack AI company, meaning we do everything from training our own language models from scratch to building the user interface. This gives us the power to create personalized experiences that no other AI can match. In fact, this tight feedback loop with our passionate users has already proven itself as we’ve tuned both our model and UX to achieve the amazing daily usage times cited above. Source: https://blog.character.ai/character-ai/

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thank you very much for your asks, anon. this is the kind of response i was hoping for originally. i appreciate that you provided specific sources for your specific points. i haven't been able to find more details on c.ai's training and database either, so i dont have much to add. rest of the message is below the cut:

However, there doesn't seem to be much information on what exactly is being used to train c.ai - some people on R*ddit have chimed in but it's not 100% or backed up by any evidence.

See: C.AI trained on users. : r/CharacterAI And: What was the AI trained on? : r/CharacterAI

We can assume that c.ai is trained on popular stories, chats online, etc. including fanfiction, but the bulk of its training likely from user chats and data provided by users themselves. Ultimately though, regular laymans like us can't really be 100% sure what's going on within the company.

On its own, internet use takes up enough water and electricity, but this problem was slowly being mitigated with moves towards clean energy, especially in certain parts of the world. The introduction of cryptocurrency and now AI has completely upset the precarious balance we worked so hard and so long for. Not to bring in a completely different topic, but the Earth is on track to become completely unliveable (Earth is becoming ‘increasingly uninhabitable,’ scientists warn | The Independent) and the capitalist obsession with amassing wealth and uninhibited growth is definitely accelerating it. You can click on the links in the article and it'll take you to the reports that they took all the info from.

Anyway, back on topic: Regardless of what they personally believe, for people to tell their friends, fans, and communities to block and send hate to a single person for questioning the narrative on both sides is ins*ne. Imagine calling someone names and personally insulting them because they dared to ask for clear clarification. Blindly following the anti-AI trend is just as bad as blindly following the pro-AI trend.

I hope you're taking care of yourself mentally and emotionally. Please know that even if certain people on this site think being "morally right" gives them the right to be assholes, there are other people out there who still have common sense. And, idk, a country that's not exploding from the top down.

(Also, I totally agree with your stance on copyright. I grew up on bootlegs of American, Japanese, etc. media, and I'm seeing bootlegs of my childhood shows appearing these days. Fanfiction used to be literally illegal because of copyright. Great art is not made by pure originality - look at so many famous artists, they were originally trained by copying famous art themselves. Tolkien himself borrowed from many different sources to create LOTR. Entire genres and popular series are made from copying older works. If you don't want copycats, the only solution is not to put your work out there.)

[doodlenoodleboi]

hi hi hi!!! im a sucker for nakedtoaster, and if you dont mind, could you write some headcanons about toasty with a trans fem reader/MC? I think he of all BP love interests would be understanding because they themselves are also trans. thank you so much!! :3 -🦋

︎ ୨ৎ⋅˚₊‧ 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ♥︎ ⋅ TOASTY!! ♡︎ ୨ৎ⋅˚₊‧ 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ♥︎ ⋅ ˖ ᡣ𐭩 ⊹ ࣪

Authors note: If I understand you right, I think you naked, toaster as a trans as well. I don’t see him like that, but if I was a head of yours I will accept it and go by it for these head cannons. By the way i’m a gender fluid, pansexual, I like getting request like these, even if I don’t truly understand them sometimes. Because me myself am already confused with my gender identity.

Naked Toaster with a trans woman as his significant other!

◦ You being a trans woman does not change the way he loves you. It only changes the way he helps you, he can help you with.

◦ If you haven’t transitioned surgically, of course, he’ll remind you to take your supplements if you have them.

◦ If toast was trans he would appreciate reminders to takeoff his binder if he had worn it for too long if he hasn’t had surgery.

◦ Toast being friends with xyx is rather chaotic and funny, given the fact if you were to ever get any Internet hate best believe xyx is coming to troll them. While Toast might just relay their IP address.

◦ If you’re not the confrontational type when it comes to your pronouns, Toast to make sure to correct people in every in every setting.

◦ I don’t know if this projecting, but I feel that if toast would go off of presenting and doesn’t want to miss gender a person they usually go with they/them.

◦ MATCHING CAT EARS you can’t tell me if you’re a person that likes inherently feminine things, that he won’t put cat ears on you maybe just for a picture he would practically beg for you to do so.

◦ Toast canonically presents is non-binary and oddly enough likes things like pink even if he uses pronouns He/ They. He will most likely warm up to your pronouns in no time.

◦ Once again for the people in the back he make sure everybody respects your pronouns!

◦ Toast appreciates when you helphelped dye his roots, him being a natural blonde does help the appearance of his roots to the strawberry blonde but after a while, it looks weird so he needs to dye it.

◦ He might hate it at first, just give him a minute he needs to color to fade.

◦ Before you guys get off discord and you do tell him that you are a trans he reacts rather calmly, or doesn’t know what to say to that. (Yooo me too! Jk) nonetheless he loves you unconditionally.

◦ As a CEO and everything goes smoothly, he would offer to pay for your surgery if you’d want one. Because truly he fell in love with your soul, not your body.

The end!

That last one was fucking sad but like in a good way like I want someone to love me like that!

Sorry that was kind of short <3

This is how I see Toast if you care… I couldn’t find the credits for the artist on Pinterest so this is not mine! Tell me if you can find the artist.

[nerves-nebula]

I remember a while back (maybe a year even) someone in your asks said they were blocked by you and you responded that sometimes you block people randomly. I got a lil nervous because I don't wanna be blocked. This isnt a complaint btw, i just admire that you exist in the way you do on this account, and maybe its because you're not trying to be "polite" to everyone for no reason or you're not masking or suppressing you thoughts or something else i dont know. I like your artwork and everything you do on this blog. Youre messy, reactive, and you express hate unapolagetically and im the same way, and it makes me feel less lonely to see someone just like me. Like when you posted about a roommate pulling you out of bed, and it comforts me bc it means I could never get too depressed to be abandoned. Idk how exactly but I appreciate your blog as a whole and i didnt know i needed to find it. Thanks i guess

awww shucks look at you. how sweet.

and look. i mean. its not RANDOM who i block but it might as well be sometimes hahhhh. the standard for being blocked isnt super high over here. sometimes its cuz they reblogged something that just kind of pissed me off, sometimes its cuz i thought they were a little too annoying the notes one time, or i dont like one of a few niche takes they have, or they're a little too involved in internet drama. ive blocked a lot of people i've never interacted with because they were rude to OTHER people in a way i found uhhhh distastefulllll.

i'm willing to overlook that kind of stuff most of the time tho especially in mutuals cuz like. its not as though i expect everyone to be pleasant and agree with me all of the time or something. but i do prefer to cut things off before than can begin. (its kind of a huge problem of mine actually)

anddd anyway as flattering as this all is, its more out of conflict avoidance than anything else. don't tell anyone but i'm very easily bullied and manipulated under certain circumstances and i dont really want to be around any kind of person who would try to do that to me or like. do the whole "you know x person is cancelled they said Y thing why are you associating with them?" thing.

funny enough, this ask is kind of what my bestie said to me when i asked why she'd made the effort to be my friend back on deviantart. She said something like "it seemed like everyone was trying to put on a good face and be something there, and you were trying to be something too but it was a different kind of something than everyone else"

which i find incredibly flattering because what i was trying to be was someone who could, like, express genuine thoughts and opinions people. I'd found that DA was a place where i could say what I thought and felt and it was basically the only place I could be myself because I was (and likely still am) too timid to be myself irl. so while everyone else was trying to be their best selves, or their cool persona, I was like, falling apart openly and on purpose in a way I'm not allowed to otherwise. impulsively posting whatever I felt like, because I wanted someone to see me and maybe go YO SAME.

also hate is like one of my core emotions. I've hated almost everyone I've loved or even cared about at some point. really deep bitter seething stuff, often times completely uncalled for too haha. if i don't bitterly hate you at some point it's cuz we're just not close enough yet and I'm still in the first stage of friendship (i see almost everything you do as charming and wonderful)(there are a lot of people who never get past this stage. most of them i'd say)

i do think I try to be polite but also honest. maybe kind or genuine are better words? i don't want to make people feel stupid (even if my urge to feel superior and CALL people stupid is very strong) and I don't want people to feel like i didn't consider them but i also don't want to waste time on people who are fucking with me, or who just care so little about others that any conversation we have is pointless. oh and also my concept of what is and isn't polite/kind isn't exactly the same as the mainstream, so to speak.

WHICH IS ALL a very long rambling way TO SAY. this is very kind. i'm very self obsessed so i love to know what people think about me. thank you.

[iwanttohavesexwithvifromarcane]

i think im gonna have to drop out of the quarter honestly like im not sure i can even do that but i feel like im gonna pass out still n cant fucking drive to campus let alone walk around without having a heart attack. like im probably just gonna have to struggle for the rest of the quarter n do what i can n pay the 6k back but idk wtf thatll b like cuz theyre grants not loans. honestly life is so depressing lately cuz of how sick i am all the time n how its ruined my life. i have the court breathing down my neck about rescheduling my jury duty so fuck that shit thats literally a legal obligation but i cant get a drs notes within a week n they take days to respond anyways so all i got is college n losing credit which isnt a good enough excuse for an excusal but whatever ill try. my teacher is emailing me asking where ive been n i think im just gonna tell her so at least she doesnt think im entirely disrespectful to the cause. i just cant function like a human being anymore and seeing everyone around me live so peacefully where their bodies arent trying to kill them is exhausting especially cuz i feel like a slave to everyone. i just wanna lay down in my bed n rot away tbh like why tf am i always fighting with death wtf. maybe i should just show up to class or something n b another dead person on campus so at least i dont go out alone n they can have murals of my name n shit all around campus with vigils where they pretend they knew me. maybe i can get the college shut down for having too many ppl dying on campus 💀. im tired of this going back n forth between wanting to die n wanting to just keep going like nothing is happening n everything is funny n shit like nah. everyday i wanna die but i keep being distracted from it idk. bpd confuses ppl cuz they see u suicidal one day n r like yep they r ok now! when u r no longer moping. no, my moods just violently changed. i just always want to die it’s just sometimes my moods bounce back n forth n violently too like one moment im on the verge of hurting myself or literally doing just that but by the end of the day im so “happy” when im actually just mindlessly euphoric n thats what always immediately makes me more suicidal cuz i come down from such a high n realize none of it was worth it. life still feels so meaningless and lonely. i kind of feel bad for torturing ppl with the back n forth shit but i honestly dont think anywyas cares or at least cares in the way id care where im high anxiety all day thinking a friend killed themselves or something so i just assume ppl do that too but nobody does so idk. i just feel like ppl assume im fine n leave me alone but it feels like im being ignored instead. idk like my job is nice but its sooooooo boring rn n its not a job i can have forever. i can do it from home but soon that wont b the case n i literally cant do it anymore. without my job, no money or health insurance so i cant get told that theres once again nothing wrong with me for “cheap.” i honestly think ppl just agree with me at this point that theres no point in me living so idk. maybe imma just tryyyy to have a good time b4 then or whatever but its miserable cuz i keep thinking everything will b ok actually but i dont think it will tbh. im just like too old for this i feel like crying about it on the internet is just a sign atp. whatever i’ll probably b fine in a few hours since having BPD is literal torture but ppl can rejoice that the depressed bitch is fine again n she finally got over herself. having BPD makes me feel so tone deaf after a vent like this cuz it’s gonna b like nothing happened. im just tired of being purposely ignored, just tell me instead of dragging me around n lying to me. UGHH i cant even appreciate the few ppl i have anymore lol i really need to just stop whining n do it already 😩😩

[mushroominaforest]

Why don’t you have a DNI? Most of the people I see you being friends with have them, so you should probably add one to make sure you don’t get the wrong type of people here, especially since you’re a minor.

I don’t want this to come across as rude, I just think you should be more careful. There are a lot of bad people in the rain world community.

The response got kinda long sorry lol

To be honest I don’t know how well DNI’s would even work. If a transphobe sees “transphobes dni” on my pinned post would they really think “oh shit mb” and then leave? Idk.

Although, I’ve generally had a very positive experience with people listening to the request that I do have on my pinned post, which is just being like “hey I’m a minor, only SFW asks plz thank u”. So maybe they do work? Either way, I appreciate everyone being respectful. :3

The only negative experience that I’ve ever had from people in the Rw community has been from someone who is very strongly on the anti-Pansear anti-proshipping side of that controversy. The people they accuse of horrible things have all been kind and respectful to me. So sometimes it’s hard to know who the “bad people” in the community actually are.

Since I’m a minor, and I’m new to the internet, I’ve tried my best to stay out of things like the aforementioned controversy as much as I can. I don’t want to spread misinformation, make enemies, or get into a potentially dangerous situation. Like I’ve said, I don’t think that I’m mature enough to be able to properly analyze a situation like that. I’m well aware that I’m a teenager who’s likely going to be easily influenced, so I’m all good to leave any debating to the adults who know better and have more lived experience. I’m perfectly happy chilling here with my friends and making fun art and stories.

(I’m more than capable of getting myself into bad situations in real life, don’t need to bring the internet into it lol.)

But I can say that so long as you respect my wishes, you dont think that people can be worth more or less depending on their physical appearance, sexuality, gender, social class, religion, abilities etc, and you aren’t rude to my friends, then you’re welcome to come hang out on my blog! 👍

[hlkproductions]

Where can we learn more about Ivy? They're so cute, and I love the Yuyu Poly going on!

ill be real w you friend... as much as i wish i did, i dont rly have anywhere online that has all of ivy's lore explained out. while i do have documents and discord chats FULL of them, ive never been very good at publishing the deeper information on my OCs since my old days on deviantArt. i rly do appreciate you saying you enjoy her tho! and it means a lot to me to hear that the poly is received well! i'm an inherently shy person by nature u__u i get sheepish when given attention on my creations, and with how many reworks, polishing ups, and tweaks ive given her over my internet lifetime i'm not sure i'll ever be confident enough to put the whole of it up. i do think i might try at the very least to make a sort of 'fast facts' / TLDR version of explanation in the near future thatll shine some light on the basics of her. & include her dynamics with the major characters in yyh. please look forward to it!