#i don't follow whatever has been talked about johnny's for quite a while now but at this point it really feels like crying wolf

[passthroughtime]

every day in the rgg/judgment fandom is the same, people are still nervous and scared of whatever the hell johnny’s can do with kimura’s involvement in JE games

after judgement: we will never get another game because of kimura’s agency!

after lost judgment: we will never get games on pc because of kimura’s agency!

after kaito files: we will get 3rd game without yagami because of kimura’s agency!

idk this is just silly as hell at this point. it’s not kimura that can’t escape johnny’s, it was us all along...

[countryrebel1995]

I didn't want to have to make this post, I've seen enough shipping drama on Tumblr over the years that I usually steer clear of it, but there’s been so much Nooshy bashing in the tags lately that I feel compelled to weigh in on it.

Why do people like Nooshy? Well, to put it simply, even though she’s never the center of attention in "Sing 2", Nooshy manages to be a girl with layers, and there's a lot to appreciate about her. When we're first introduced to her, she's a street performer so she can make the money that she needs to survive, but she’s also genuinely passionate about her craft - she loves to dance - and she enjoys getting a chance to share that passion with someone else whenever they come along.

While she can be snarky and prickly and slow to trust strangers, she’s also very nice once you get to know her. After a young turtle kid almost screws up her performance, she's still very playful and accommodating towards him. When she’s brought backstage to the Crystal theater, she compliments some dude's hat just to make him feel good about himself. While she initially agrees to help Johnny because he offers to pay her, she starts to stick up for him and genuinely support him, because the way Klaus treats him isn't right. She decides to help the Moon Theater troupe put on their big show, even though she's only known these people for about a week and their plan will surely be very dangerous, because the way Jimmy Crystal treats them isn't right either and she wants to help them stick it to the man. After Johnny tells her that he and his family used to be a gang of notorious criminals, Nooshy never judges them for their shady past, and is actually quite happy to see how close he and his father are now (especially since it's implied that she might not even have parents herself). And during "A Sky Full Of Stars", she encourages Johnny to never give up and follow his heart, because he's her friend and she wants to see him succeed.

Nooshy is snarky and mischievous, but underneath it all, she's actually a very kind girl, and very loyal towards the people who earn her respect. And by the end of "Sing 2", she gets her happy ending when she not only gets a new paying career doing what she loves, but also finds a place where she belongs among the Moon Theater troupe.

The reason why I just went off on that rather long tangent, dissecting her character, is to drive home the point that Nooshy has done nothing in the canon films to warrant the way people talk about her sometimes.

I've seen people insult everything about her and her fans for shipping reasons, because they see her as a threat to their preferred ships (even though she and Johnny are not even canonically a couple by the end of "Sing 2"). And there's a real double standard when it comes to this too, because no other character who's been shipped with Johnny over the years gets this kind of treatment. Meena doesn't, Ash doesn't, Ryan doesn't (even though the claim that Nooshy haters sometimes make - that people only like her as one half of a ship - could just as easily be said about him).

And this is really nothing new. Characters getting trash-talked over shipping wars is a tale as old as time when it comes to fandoms, and people are entitled to their opinions. The reason why I made this post is because lately, the Nooshy bashing is starting to cross a line.

Over the last few months, I've been seeing a growing number of comments complaining about people including Nooshy in their fanart. I've also been seeing a growing number of posts outright insulting people who like Nooshy or like to ship her with Johnny, saying that they're stupid and shallow and should just go away because they’re a blight on the fandom.

How about no.

In a fandom, people are allowed to like whatever character they like, or ship whatever couple they like, so long as they're not hurting anyone. If you hate Nooshy so much that you can't stand seeing any fanart of her or fanfics of her, because you don't want to be reminded that she exists, then I'm sorry but you're either just going to have to deal with that or stop engaging with the parts of the fandom where people want to appreciate her. Because quite frankly, your hatred for this character is no one else’s problem except your own and people are not going to stop liking her just for your benefit.

[john-macnamara]

While John is unconscious, there are two particularly strong facets of his mind that have yet to fall asleep. Lingering in the realm in between wakefulness and dreams, Johnny and Blue hold a conversation.

"Why? Why on Pokey's blue earth would you try to help the humans' pawn? Our whole goal here is to get him on our side, is it not?"

Johnny sighs, the two of them have been talking in circles for ages.

"Neither of us know that! For fuck's sake, all signs are pointing to you being here on accident! I'm only here because Wiggly wanted me to destroy him from the inside. But I don't really want to do that, I liked the oblivion quite a bit. So I'm removing myself from the situation."

"But- but... he's your master, you should want to follow his orders. I feel great joy whenever I fulfill one of Lord Pokotho's requests, why would you not experience the same euphoria?"

"Wiggly created me from something that was already in John, and just like John, I don't serve him. I’m happy to, yes. But I’m not obligated to, and quite frankly, unconsciousness is preferable to this. But that's not the important part right now.

You want to get back to your master, do you not? Serve your lord and ensure that the infection spreads across the world? This is the quickest way to get you back. You won't ever have to think about this timeline's iteration of John again. You can spend the rest of your days doing whatever the fuck you do for Pokey."

Blue considers this. It would get him back home sooner, back to the hives' warm embrace.

"I... I'd have to work with those who are uninfected. Their voices grate and I just want to let them ascend with the rest of us! But you won't let me do that, so I don't know how much help you could be."

"Because unleashing the apotheosis upon this timeline is a terrible idea-

Are you in or not? I'll do this with or without you, Blue. I get to go back to peaceful oblivion, and you can serve your oh-so benevolent master. So do we have a deal?"

Johnny offers out his hand, and with a moment's hesitation, Blue shakes it.

"Fine, we have a deal. I'll help you help the pathetic one. Not that I don't think a simple infection wouldn't remove all our problems immediately.

Let's get to work fixing his brain then. The curtains have risen and the show has begun. Here's hoping the audience likes it..."

[desertedvault]

i'm doing a lot lately to try and mediate the toxic feelings of resentment, betrayal and paranoia in my life. i am upset at how I've been treated, fair enough, but I lose the moral high ground (truly, or in the eyes of others) by getting too obsessively angry about stuff. my long-suffering followers will all have seen me dump some bile on this blog.

anyway, temporarily quitting drinking, even though I don't regard myself as an alcoholic (although that depends on definition...), has really, really helped. alcohol really allows the mind to magnify annoyance and create toxic thinking patterns. i'd go out to the pub, talk about stuff to try and get it off my chest, become enraged, vindictive and self-pitying, then continue to think like that for weeks.

initially i quit alcohol specifically to avoid those nights where I'd be really tearing into someone who wasn't there, or collapsing in on myself. i felt an argument with a friend coming and didn't want it to happen drunk (I don't think it'll happen at this point). but i think not drinking is helping with my anger on a day to day basis as well.

i haven't drunk anything stronger than 0.5% (and those only rarely) for a month, and besides two days I did the same in January (the bottle of wine i bought tasting like expired Ribena helped me stay off it) before deciding to do so again after seeing what drinking was doing to me. I'm not concerned about the volume of alcohol I drink week on week - for me, personally, drinking has become bad where it previously wasn't necessarily, because of the way it makes me feel and act. there's been other phases of this earlier in my life. drinkig is not reliably fun or even okay when I have a lot of unresolved issues and immediate living-situation problems which are weighing heavily on my mind. atm, i'm more likely to get angry and/or depressed when drinking than I once was.

going out and socialising with my friends who always drink whenever they meet is now, arguably, easier, even though I don't do it as much. that's a lot to do with drama, and a boredom with pubs I felt long before i quit drinking.

i am neurodivergent and i frequently get overwhelmed by noise and crowds on nights out, and that probably happens more now that I'm "sober" (more on that later.). possibly. as i've written this i've realised it's more complicated. whatever way you slice it, overall, things are better.

now initially, i felt like I'd lost my main defence against being overwhelmed by quitting drinking, but now I'm not so sure. thinking back, I'd often have moments on nights where, because I couldn't for example hear anything anyone was saying, I'd lose my drunken energy and become anxious and depressed. that must, at times, have prefigured me being johnny buzzkill to everyone else. a few times it definitely made me go home early, and then miss out on fun, which I'd initially viewed as a drawback of not drinking. when not drinking, I do go home earlier as a rule (it's for reasons more complex than a lack of beer, and once again, more on that later) but I feel, so far, like the feeling of being overwhelmed, or of having embarrassed myself, is equally easy to overcome, likely easier.

without drinking it is easier for me to become overwhelmed by say, my friends having an overly animated conversation (three minutes of "YOU DO IT! I BOUGHT THE LAST THREE ROUNDS!" "YEAH ON MY CARD!" "FUCK YOU!" would have been funny to drunk me, but it was unnerving without alcohol), which sucks. but the feeling i get from that isn't as bad as the "urgh my life's a toilet sitting here saying the same crap while the world burns to death hey that's a punk band these guys aren't real punks listening to this indie poser shit but then i'm not a real punk either i suck" etc thinking that will occur when i'm drunk and overwhelmed by something different.

as implied, i am a reluctant stoner, which you'd think would make hanging out with drunk people easier, but I increasingly don't think it does; it's context-dependent at best. for you see, for me that shit is, at this point, like using a dodgy anti-depressant medication that you can get nicked for having, as opposed to it being something that makes me euphoric, which is what alcohol generally does when my mental health isn't terrible. attempting to get euphoria off le grenoise will generally result in my getting too stoned, which for me has most of the same pitfalls (differently expressed) as getting too drunk. that said, it would take a huge amount for me (personally; pissed-off cannabis users are indeed out there, and they're super-duper pissed) to fly into an angry rant while stoned. however, what I really want is to be able to manage these emotions well in a state of sobriety, not to be reliant on smoking weed for it (easier said than done when you're deep into it like me). that's the main reason I aim to go fully sober for at least a couple of months before resuming drinking (which I will be approaching very differently), so I remember how to do stuff without self-medication, and put some skills i've learned while self-medicating (from anger management resources and such) into practice.

the end of that last paragraph was arguably the most important part of this piece on some level. but also, to get back to the matter of the left-handed cigarettes, because you can't just spark up wherever you want, that creates a reason to leave certain events, having to walk somewhere secluded (which is actually kind of a nice mid-party cool-down ritual you could do without a drug problem) to smoke, or leave events entirely where it's not possible to carry pre-rolls around with you. I'm also showing up to stuff later because i get stoned to prep myself and then find i'm disorganised and losing track of time for some reason. having to rush home from work to smoke, and then rush back into town to go out, also fucking sucks. I don't view biffters as negatively as i view alcohol, in terms of how it effects me, or how it effects others. but unnecessary dependency on anything for any reason is dick, and relying on it as a medication which i'm not actually allowed to have is unworkable for me.

so in terms of where i'm at now, even though I am smoking weed, for me that's closer to sobriety, and on a lot of nights out I start a little red round the eyes but am sober by the end, and guess what, it's okay. i go home earlier, but again that's mostly to smoke a joff, which hopefully won't be an issue in a couple of months. and the fact I'm going to places, and staying there when i can't freely use substances for the duration of my visit, is impressive.

recently i went to a gig, where i had a constructive conversation with my housemate and former close friend who's been central to my MH decline and quitting drinking. i made nice with someone i'm unsure of, found someone i thought didn't like me does, enjoyed all three bands. i had an awkward interation with someone i am allowed to hate by my friends, but for complex reasons would rather get on with, but there was no spiralling after that. or after a stranger was randomly hostile to me in a crowd, I didn't get angry (although when her companion apologised, I gently but sarcastically said "have fun" after "it's alright", which was unnecessary). and it was all fine. i had to think heavy thoughts but they were easier to deal with. i drank two pints of pepsi and couldn't sleep, but fuck it it's a learning curve, now i know not to do that. it was a good night

[marksluvr0]

black glasses and butter biscuits<333

chapter three (◕ᴗ◕✿)

jaehyun x fem!reader

warnings - toxic bsf, insecurities, anger issues, mild anxiety.

the soft breeze of air treads through y/ns hair slowly, the chilly air made her shake even more than she already was

what if it was just a set up... to humiliate me for ever thinking i could get with Jaehyun

she wouldn't put it past his friends, the amount of times she's heard about something they did scared her, wondering if this was the smartest idea.

she opens the door to the small cafe that barely has any people in it her eyes don't land on him, yup definitely a bad idea.

she walks into the cafe, meek steps while she grips the bottom of her brown skirt in attempt to calm down.

i guess it's my first time being stood u-

"hey y/n" Jaehyun lightly puts his hand on her shoulder as she turns around quite violently "oh hi" she mumbles nicely "sorry i was sitting there, it's the best spot although not so practical" Jaehyun says, a nervous hand scratching the nape of his neck "oh it's okay, i just didn't see you" she smiles and jaehyuns face instantly lightens up.

"cmon let's go sit" he says and softly guides her with a hand on her back.

jaehyun is a true gentleman, he pulls the chair out for y/n before sitting himself, she wonders how exactly she landed in this place, one so many would kill for.

"this place is nice, it's quiet" y/n says "yeah it is isn't it, me and my friend johnny found it freshman year and it's been our special spot ever since" Jaehyun rambles, stopping himself before he tells y/n every deepest darkest secret of Johnny's.

"so what are your hobbies?" jaehyun asks as he sips his coffee "hm i like reading i guess, and movies, i don't really have many hobbies i guess" y/n says kindly "what are yours" "i like movies too, i enjoy basketball but i play it so much as my major that i don't really dedicate free time to it" he says "that's understandable, i used to love astrophysics and just studying it for fun but now it's such a chore" y/n says before she takes a bite out of her croissant.

"do you-" "why did you invite me out" they both say at the same time, Jaehyun chuckles to himself before answering "does there have to be a specific reason?" he laughs, not wanting to get vulnerable, "i mean yeah unless you just invited me out for no reason" y/n says quietly, instantly regretting coming here in the first place.

"well i just find you interesting, I've seen you a lot on campus and you just seem so interesting" he says and y/n nods "okay" she says "was it a decent answer" he asks "not Romeo but something" she smiles and jaehyun grins widely back.

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after a long few hours at the coffee shop with y/n, Jaehyun couldn't rip the smile off his face. he walks up to the door of his shared house when it suddenly flings open.

"out of everyone, literally everyone you pick her" johnny almost screeches at Jaehyun and he looks at johnny with a confused expression.

"what are you talking about" Jaehyun asks as he steps in the weirdly quiet house. "y/n y/l/n, there's so many fucking people on campus and of course you like her" johnny says.

"i don't understand what you mean" Jaehyun just takes his coat off before walking away, "no you wouldn't understand because you have no problem just taking everything and leaving it destroyed" johnny says dramatically.

"i am so confused" Jaehyun walks down theo hall to his bedroom "belie, her best friend me and her have something and you're going to ruin it by whatever sick game you're playing on y/n" johnny says, following Jaehyun when he stops in his tracks.

"I'm not playing a game on her okay, i genuinely like her" Jaehyun says "yeah right, i get that she's decent but she's a total nerd, and really uninteresting" johnny says and suddenly he feels himself being pushed back by Jaehyun, Johnny's back hits the wall and jaehyuns hands grab harshly on his collar "if she's so uninteresting, how did i spend 4 hours in a cafe with her and practically beg her for another date hm" Jaehyun spits meanly "relax dude you can like who you want" johnny whispers, knowing how bad Jaehyun can get when he's angry "watch what you say about her" Jaehyun says, shoving johnny into the wall before walking away.

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y/n shuts the door to her condo as she sighs dreamily, out of everyone Jung jaehyung could've chosen, he chose her.

she practically jumped for joy whenever she thought about it, her mind couldn't focus on her studies because of the excitement in her tummy.

should i text him? she thought to herself, not wanting to seem needy.

her phone dings loudly, and she checks it quickly.

jaehyun:

Are you free to call?

y/n:

of course:)

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a/n - this is the third chapter I'm sorry I've been so slow with this 😭😭 and I've decided that this fic might be a bit dark to some people lol, also it's unedited so I'll edit it later

@ahtisa02 @sstarrysshit @skuezk @donkey-hyuck @pckeia