#i don't even wanna know what the early fandom would've done to him...

[numberoneredriotfan]

I would pay for a whole series of Rody and Deku going on silly adventures together.

[braxlrose]

I miss ur writings sm :(

I am so sorry that I've been gone for so long, I haven't posted any fan fiction in so many months and honestly I lost motivation 😭 so many ppl who were in this fandom and I created a community with, were slowly getting over this "phase" and it definitely affected me. But I'm going to try and get back into writing. I hope this will do good for now! Ive had a lot of ppl recently ask for 2005 bill hcs, and I've done that before so if this is repetitive for something else I've written, sorry!

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a/n: I'll be updating my tag list since it hasn't been updated since like August of last year and I don't want to be tagging people who don't care or want to see these posts anymore. So if you wanna be tagged, let me know!

2005!bill kaulitz x f!reader

sfw:

- I'm an alternative person so whenever I write for bill, I always imagine him with an alternative girl 😞 even though from what I've seen he's never really been w/ an alternative one, BUT LETS PRETEND OKAY 🙏🙏

• he absolutely loves doing hair together, I think he enjoys helping you do your hair in the morning and your make up. And he's even more greatful if you do his makeup. Then he can just relax while you help him.

• pookie has crunchy ass hair at the end of the day when he has to wash it out, don't make fun of him 😞

• getting piercings together is something he LOVES doing with you. Mainly early piercings because he only has a tongue and eyebrow piercing on his face.

• if you made music too, he would always go to your concerts and basically scream the entire time. Hopefully, you'd do the same for him.

• if you have longer nails, head scratches are always a must and he will lay in your lap for literal hours while you pamper him.

- I personally think he would love to learn words in your language if you keep something different than German. And despite what anybody thinks, he finds it hilarious to learn the dirty words.

• if you cook him something from your culture, he will literally die. He basically thinks everything about you is so cool, and learning about a culture different from his is so exciting

• but if you two really want to date, you'll have to both try to learn English or each other language because there is going to be a hard language barrier between you two.

- I think one of the reasons he would've fallen in love with you is because you were upfront with him. He's not the type of guy to just go up and kiss someone so if you confess first, that would make things so much easier.

- obviously, you'd have to get along with Tom, Georg and Gustav. So if you don't, there's no way he'll go out with you, especially if you can't get along or hate Tom.

-Dates together consist of stuff you guys bought somewhere, or if you guys went to a fastfood restaurant.

• He doesn't have a lot of money yet so dates wouldn't exactly be high class, hopefully you don't mind 😉

-Since this is around the time Tokio Hotel is getting increasingly famous, there are fangirls around trying to flirt and ask out bill all the time and he has to shoo them off. He reminds you every night about how much he loves you and that those fan girls shouldn't bother you.

-he likes to spoon you a lot, and you two switch back n forth between him being the big spoon and the small spoon.

• I think he also really likes it when you lay on top of him, with your face in his neck and your legs wrapped around him. (This also works sitting upwards).

• cuddling with him is so nice too because he actually smells really good 😱

- I think he still gets very insecure sometimes because of the haters and people who harass the band because they don't like them and you reassure him a lot.

a/n pt 2: sorry this wasn't too long! I'm trying to get back into the groove of writing so if this is terrible I'm sorry 😞

taglist: none right now

[pepsiiwho]

Hey I’m just very curious- do you think you could expand on your thought here: “Persephone isn't a good mother and, imo, would have a very strained, tentative relationship with her actual son (and now daughter hahahahah damn....)”? It’s not a common take I’ve seen- at least in the parts of the fandom I frequented- and I’d like to know more about where you’re coming from. Like I know Nyx isn’t a good mom- particularly to Hypnos- but it’s way less common that I see people saying Persephone is a bad mom.

To be clear, I’m not disagreeing or being confrontational or anything- I’m genuinely curious to hear your thoughts. Also what’s all this about the timeline implications? I don’t have a computer to play the early access on and so I have to hear about it second hand. All to say if you could tear yourself away from Hades 2 long enough to formulate a coherent response I’d be eternally grateful.

Sure! I just got to the final boss in hades 2 so I probably need a break. Ignore the shaking and cold temperature of my skin, I'm normal! Long post under the cut!

Okay lets see, first thing: any nyx or Persephone freedom fighters out there who wanna defend their mommies or whatever do it somewhere else, I don't give af. This isn't directed at you, I just gotta cover my bases. Anyway,

Don't get me wrong, I'm sure Persephone (Pers) loves zagreus, I won't say she doesn't. She lost him once and that grief drove her to leave hell entirely, leaving her husband and home behind for solitude of her own creation. You don't get grief like that unless you loved someone, or the thought of someone, deeply. But, having said that— she was gone for (functionally) all of Zagreus' childhood, adolescence and a non-zero portion of his adulthood. A charitable read of their situation was that she wasn't absentee by choice, not knowingly at least, and if she knew she would've never stayed away as another woman raised her child and her husband abused said child because of her toll on his mental. My read is that she left, abandoning her husband and baby and when Zagreus went to find her she wouldn't even come back with him. He reached out, found her, begged her to come back and she wouldn't. The reasoning for WHY is something I've forgotten honestly, I haven't played HADES story mode all the way through in years, but regardless she didn't instantly come back and will herself into her son's life. Any deniability she had was gone by that point, imo.

And let's say, for argument, she came home and instantly was heavenly and kind and loving and everything zagreus needed then— doesn't change the fact she abandoned them.

I don't think you get to be a good parent when you missed all of your child's most formative years. That sort of loss is something you don't get back, time that doesn't get to rewind just because you made a mistake. I think a common fandom take with hades fans is that the family is fractured but whole by the end and everything is okay. That's nice, I guess, but I think it's boring and uninteresting. I much prefer a read that zagreus moved heaven and hell (literally) to get to his mother and he finally got what he wanted and still wasn't satisfied. She wasn't the goddess he expect. Not the. mother he expected. She was .... something else.

Theres a degree of negligence in her actions that just are unavoidable.

Unless I'm completely misremembering the events of the first game, (which is a real possibility, me and my best friend have done so much insane HC talking over the years canon and Fanon get blurry quickly—) I think she's a bad parent. And this isn't even touching on how her absence made Hades a worse parent and abusive figure to his son. I think of that quote from... somewhere, that was something to the effect "an abused child's saddest realization is that they didn't have a normal parent and (1) abusive parent— they had (2)" Zagreus had to have thought that if she hadn't left, abandoned him, he wouldn't have to endure what he does.

As for time line mess: it's too vague. (It's funny you sent this when you did, I actually was just talking about this with my bestie, all of 15 minutes ago. You cursed me, witch)

So assuming I understood hades lore, with only the first game as our point of reference (no myth, no outside media, just the in game text) Hypnos, Zagreus, Than and Meg are around the same age. Thanatos and Hypnos are twins, meaning they're the same age and it's implied that meg grew up around the twins and zagreus as well. Zagreus openly references their shared childhood with nyx and achilles and probably other characters I forgot. But what matters is that if they grew up together that tells us one of two things:

Gods are functionally made like human children are. Not for a purpose or function but just because the parent wanted them (or had an accident) and then a aspect is applied to them at birth/conception OR

Gods are created by their parents to fulfill some sort of need that the parent didn't/couldn't/shouldn't do themselves. This seems to be the more textually supported answer, if Nyx and her fucking high school football team worth of children mean anything.

Neither option is one I like, because they don't make much sense to me in relation to humanity but that's neither here nor there. Personally, I think godhood should work like the concept of storks do in that when humanity needs a new figure to pray to or invoke, a child is 'born' and delivered to the parent. So, by this logic, the base needs of human begins would come before all else right?

So just within Nyx's family, the ages should really go Chaos > Nyx > Fates [?] > Hypnos > Than > Charon > etc etc etc. Because human beings must sleep before they die and then die before they're transported to hades and so on and so on.

But in THIS model, Hypnos and than would be considerably older then humanity and everyone else in the house, hades included. Which means they'd be far too old to have grown up which zagreus. Or maybe zagreus is way too old to be acting so childish? It's hard to say. Neither answer is particularly satisfying. That also doesn't even bring into account the olympians. And don't event get me STARTED on Melione. God. The timeline has major implications for her and her story depending on where she falls on it.

But that's a whole other rant. Like this is already getting long as shit. I hope this made sense and I'm glad you asked! I enjoy going on my senseless rambles.

Well, back to the horrors (hades 2) <3

[cowboybuckleys]

Hey, I found your blog from somebody reblogging something completely unrelated to wrestling from you, but then I saw you had MJF as your little icon thingy, and I'm curious to get opinions from outside my little wrestling bubble (which, while very progressive, leans white, straight, cis, and male) about the decision to put the belt on him. Also, any opinions on Brawl Out, The Elite, and Phil you wanna throw in there. Consider this an ask about anything you wanna Go Off on in terms of AEW.

fwiw, i don't seem to hold the Brawl Out from All Out in the same way most of the wrestling fandom does. it feels like you have to take a definitive side and that's not my kind of thing, especially here. both sides definitely handled this poorly, from Punk to the Elite and TK. i think the investigation report and all of the emails and documents the legal teams have written would be a helluva read tho. mostly cos i think it would be nice to have clarification on what actually happened and i've been interested to hear the stories from the ppl who were there but not actively involved in the fight. i'm also one of the people who doesn't 100% think that Punk is done in AEW. he certainly doesn't have the world's greatest reputation in the industry, even more so now, so i wouldn't be shocked if he was done, but i'm just.. not convinced yet. i'm always a little suspicious when a wrestling company is involved so i'm more cautious with a wrestler's apparent exit. even more so when it’s not specifically discussed. i don’t even know what that pop would look like if his music hits again.

i'm probably not even 1% right in this, but here was my speculation before the mess happened post-PPV: i don't think MJF was supposed to have the belt this early. i'm glad he won, even if i would've booked the ending differently, but i don't think he was supposed to have won it at all in 2022. i think Punk was going to carry that title into the new year, and if Punk losing the title to MJF needed to be at a PPV at all, it would've been Revolution. it would've been a stretch, but i genuinely think Punk was supposed to have a decent run with the belt before losing it to Max. i also think, for the love of god, please let Moxley have a damn vacation, even if it was supposed to be for storyline purposes, he really fuckin deserves one.

and i may be biased but, even if it was earlier than i thought it would be, MJF deserves to have that belt. he’s the right guy to hold it right now and he’s earned it. and for AEW's part i think the build up to him and Mox's match was fairly decent for such short timing they had to plan it. it just makes me sulk that the Joker reveal and his interrupting CM Punk's celebration might never be a fully thought out storyline because a whole bunch of idiots thought violence backstage was a good way to work through their anger and frustrations. i like my soap operas of all varying types and categories to resolve and finish their storylines, so it makes me itchy when they don’t lol.

[silverdoe]

You know, there is something so interesting and cool about all of these options, because while they might seem a little small in the grand scheme of the Beatles history, they each lead to cataclysmic event that will end up leading to not only their the break up as musicians/friends, but to the deaths of John and George happening the way they did, to Ringo's alcoholism to Paul's depression and so many other events like everything in history does.

I guess I should break these choices down in a way absolutely no one asked of me to do, and anyone is free to correct me on if you want to:

• With George not getting deported from Hamburg you could easily create a fork in the path of The Beatles becoming global superstars as they probably just stay growing their fandom solely in Europe, or just delay the break in America from happening between late '63/early '64 to a much later date...or maybe actually happening much earlier? This one is very fascinating to explore, because you could also in turn prevent Stuart from dying somehow, or maybe Pete stays with the group, or Pete chooses to leave on his own instead due to the constant aggression from Paul...I love this option!

• Preventing I Wanna Hold Your Hand from reaching number one probably wouldn't have stopped their rise, because to me another single (She Loves You, Twist and Shout, etc) probably could've done the same job...I'm also not entirely certain how the ramifications of that not happening would affect them, I'm not too well-versed of their charting history, but I just think anothe single from that album would've easily just done the same thing. Also, Louise Harrison helping to get radio stations to play them would still be happening, so...Someone smarter than me can explain this better, I feel.

• Now! This one's interesting because preventing the weird dentist from spiking their drinks does have ramifications in a sense, because them not discovering hard-core hallucinogenic drugs you're effectively cutting them off of the drug culture of their time (or maybe just delaying it, who's to say)...Therefore this does not allow albums like Rubber Soul, Revolver, Sgt. Pepper's, MMT and The White Album from happening because drug culture had a massive (slightly destructive) impact in their music, not just in John and Paul, but also in George and Ringo, even though Ringo wasn't a hard-core drug user like the others were (yet).

Like, this one has a true, clear impact on The Beatles as a whole, not only as musicians but as people. So this would be an interesting path to explore.

• I also feel like this one is very easy to choose, because by preventing John from ever having this conversation with Maureen you avoid the "Bigger than Jesus" thing from happening (which yeah, I know is an iconic moment, but bear with me!) which in turn doesn't lead to the Beatles becoming very antagonistic of the media AND from the media becoming antagonistic to them back; you also prevent religion to become too enmeshed with them publicly, which then avoids the band from stopping touring completely, because by stopping John from saying The Thing, you stop the violence against them to even start, and they stay as a touring unit.

This also prevents from them becoming completely isolated as studio artists, which could in fact rob us of the post-'66 stuff...Maybe. I'd also say that another positive point of this one is stopping a seed of hatred from being planted in the head of a person like Mark David Chapman; without the religious hatred towards the Beatles and John, John's 1980 death is cancelled out and possibly the 1999 attack George suffered too.

• I don't think this one needs much more explaining LMAO we all know exactly what this would prevent from happening. Yoko would easily have become relegated as another weird stalker if no one from the inner circle had allowed her to become close to any of them, especially if Paul had simply thrown away all the papers and contact info that she gave him, we would've never gotten half of the problems that occur because of her (which we're That Many, it was mostly problems in John's personal life...Although, I am of the belief that John and Cyn would've still gotten divorced at some point without Yoko having to be around).

Alternatively, maybe instead of John being the affected party by Yoko, it would've been Paul? As he was the one Beatle with a foot in the art world...God only knows how she would've gotten through to him, though LOL.

• With Pattie not learning about the Maharishi you avoid all the India problems and all of the, I guess you could say, religious freedom that George experienced for the first time in his life. But I also don't think this one is something one should choose to change, because through it you just stop everything that happens post '66 from developing musically. Like, they probably would become musically stagnant without the South Asian influence (and the drug culture aspect if we set it in the same timeline where the LSD trips are prevented) because of it , it maybe would've stopped things like MMT or even Sgt. Peppers from happening. Without George's influence, these culturally impactful experiences wouldn't happen.

• If Paul hadn't done any of the MMT thing, a lot of the other fracturing that occurred within their dynamic wouldn't have happened, because he wouldn't have had the opportunity to become the major public leader of The Beatles, which avoids creating a rift with George, but also avoids letting this democratic four-headed monster from becoming a pseudo dictatorship under him in the later years, thus preventing or maybe delaying the break up for a few more years.

I'd also like to say that I think they would've always broken up in the end, one way or another. At some point their dynamic of being attached to the hip with one of another would've collapsed, whether it was in 1970 or 1980 or 1990. It would've always happened somehow, in my mind.

• Ringo and Mo leaving does have an interesting impact, because as OP said in response to someone else: Ringo becoming a calming influence in the dynamic would've helped from the fracturing that occurred in India from, well, simply not happening at all. This would really be very interesting to explore as Ringo's positive persona would possibly keep their dynamic stable.

• By just crashing this man's plane you not only avoid The Beatles from breaking up and the mess that was the '70s, you also avoid the Rolling Stones from fleeing to France due to tax avoidance. Maybe. Someone correct me on this last bit.

• Again, like I said above: you just crash his plane and we don't get any of his shit <3

Aaaand that's all I have to say about these options because my brain is fried. Hope any of this makes sense, I'm wired up on coffee and what ifs.

[chattegeorgiana]

You keep insisting that the ending Naruto pairings are the reason Boruto's sales are nowhere near as great as Naruto's, yet how come Boruto Naruto the Movie has brought in far more income than both RTN and The last combined? The Boruto Movie has gained almost 40.000.000$ while The Last only 20.000.000$ and RTN only around 17.000.000$. The reasons boruto is not as popular as naruto was is because the plot sucks, the anime has too many garbage fillers, the artstyle in the manga sucks, the new gen characters suck, and the manga wasn't even written by Kishimoto until recently. It has nothing to do with pairings. Hell, if NS became canon, people would've hated it even more, considering how hated Sakura was, and you even admitted she is the most hated character. And you also contradict yourself. First you say she's the most hated, then you say SP missed a marketing opportunity with her... like girl make up your mind? She's the most hated character in the franchize, in a poll she was chosen as the most hated by both male and female, even Kishimoto went out of his way to say girls came at him and said how much they despised Sakura, most people don't give a shit about her, using her as marketing strategy would've done more harm than good. She's even more hated in Japan and other Asian fandoms than she is in the western fandom, and that already says a lot! You're really arrogant to assume that the "silent majority" you speak of are all NaruSaku fans. I guarantee you it isn't. In fact, most people don't even care about ships that much. NaruSakus, you along with the SNS fans, SS fans, NH fans are part of the vocal minority that has nothing better to do than bitch about ships all day long.

But did I ever say that they were THE ONLY reason they are bad? They are an integral part of it yes, but not the only one.

Just because you saw some asks of mine here on Tumblr, you just throw these things around, like this is the only place I talk about the story of Naruto and this is the only aspect I do.

Yes, here on Tumblr I might do it through the virtue of the asks I receive, but that doesn't mean it's the only space I address these matters.

I have other social media channels as well where I discuss other aspects as well. Ya know, how like Boruto is nothing more than a tweaked "cooler" wanna-be version of Naruto, with no real substance whatsoever, a story that doesn't truly leaves a message behind, a morale, with characters that are the shells of their former selves or mechanics that are skewed and "free of" any logic.

But sure, make it as if that's the only aspect I talk about if that makes you sleep well at night.

As for the reason Boruto made so much? Well, I'll tell you why: because it had NaruSasu. Because they knew they messed-up with The Last, so they did the next best thing they could to try and keep the fanbase engaged.

Focused on the biggest portion of the fanbase that gathered around both shippers and non shippers by the virtue of focusing on Sasuke and Naruto and their offsprings. You know why? Because this way they catered to two human emotions: familiarity/comfort & curiosity.

Aka familiarity via having NaruSasu and curiosity to see the new gen kids.

Which yes, had momentum and seemed to have a perfect recipe: no focus on the ships that initially brought he whole mess (Sakura and Hinata were close to non-existent in that movie), and "repaying" the fanbase that was initially pissed at the fact that people thought this was gonna be a T7 movie because of the heavy Kakashi and Ssuke advertisement when they were there to be found for onlyyy few seconds, lol.

But you see, in the test of time, Boruto failed because of the aforementioned reasons.

You say that people would've hated the ending if NS would've been canon, yet curiously enough the number of people that are even non shippers and agree to the idea that NS should've been canon has been increasing over the years. Which in a really curious way was surprising to me too as an NS fan that returned to the fandom after so long.

So you see, I am not sure exactly about that aspect there. Not to mention, since when does a story has to do what the fanbase dictates it? The story should follow its course and intended narration and that's that.

Yes, Sakura was hated, but that's not a reason to not have Naruto end-up with her because within the story mechanics we had many proofs that indicated that they should've ended together, regardless of how people felt about them.

Kishimoto didn't say girls came at him, he said girls sent him letters, which are two different things, because to his face no one truly said that, minus the editors who kept pushing Hinata forward and their bias as well.

Lol at you saying that using her as a marketing strategy would've done more harm than good when she's the only female character being marketed right now via figurines and all those other things.

So reality seems to be contradicting you a bit on that side.

Not to mention, you say that she's the most hated even in Asia and Japan? LOL, where did u even take out these lies?

The hate phenomena has always been a western fandom thing, not an Asian/Eastern fandom one.

You say that the pairings ripped with Sasuke and Naruto as well (funny how NaruSaku isn't dead even after years of being supposedly dead tho), for a character that should've been hated??

This whole hate thing was always a western fandom mirage, sadly, but in Japan and Asia she's always been loved. Like where did u even pull out that information from?

Also what I always said about a NaruSaku ending was that they could've taken a RTN route where they could've had ALL the pairings shown within a parallel universe, but sure, nice way to twist my words and make it like "I can't decide".

There are slight nuance differences which you either purposely not address or you don't know how to do the difference. The truth in this case only you know it.

But stop trying to act that high and mighty coming here on anon making it seem like ooh, I contradict myself and spread nonsense, just because you read a faction of all the ideas I discuss over my social media.

And now to address the silent majority argument. I never said silent majority are ONLY NaruSaku fans. That's what you assumed. Silent majority included NaruSaku fans yes, but also other fans who ya know, have some common sense within them and see how the story has been butchered for the sake of poorly treating a certain aspect of Naruto, which was the romantic one.

Which btw, you say that it wasn't a big deal, yet it was the no. plot included within the story, being presented as early as chapter 3, because chapter 1 and 2 revolved around Naruto wanting to become Hokage for people to acknowledge him and create bonds.

You say that the pairings aren't such a big deal in the fandom, yet guess what, SJ and SP directed a movie on that specific subject. Makes you wonder why now, doesn't it?

And it's a normal aspect to care about if you think about it for a manga that has been focused on BONDS. The romantic plot gets weaved in within the one about bonds really easily, because at the core of it it's about relationships.

And this whole world that we live it it's a relationship: between the body and the spirit, between then heaven and the earth, between friends, between relatives. EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD HAS A RELATIONSHIP BASIS: atom interacts with atom and here we are, living, breathing beings.

But sure, come to me and paint me in this way you're trying as if talking about relationships and their quality is a bad thing.

Mhmm.

Whatever floats your boat, I guess.

You're free to have your opinion, sure.

I just happen to not agree with it.

And that's that.

Have a good day or night or whatever.

[kris-p-banana-bread]

Here DOAFP fandom, have some organic, locally-sourced, home-grown pain. This is basically just me, a scarred older sibling, projecting on Bobby, another scarred older sibling. I really reached into my post-loss psyche for this, so I hope you enjoy the headcanons and meta (AKA I hope you shed at least one tear).

It won’t let me link it here so the post that inspired this is under the read more at the bottom ✨

- When I first watched doafp, I couldn't understand Elena's aversion to Sam becoming a prominent figure in her mom's and her life. Now I understand it almost too perfectly. There was never supposed to be someone after Robert. He and Gabi were deeply in love and happy. Robert was it; he was the first and true love of Gabi's life. Sam showing up probably felt like a huge and utterly disrespectful slap in the face of Robert's memory, because he wasn't even supposed to be there. I don't know if that's as eloquent as I wish it was, or if it makes sense, and it probably sounds really mean to Sam, but it's not even really about him. It was always supposed to be Robert; Sam hasn’t earned the right to be apart of or associated with her family

- After Robert dies, Gabi and Bobby make it a habit to find and keep photos and recordings/videos of Robert, even if the latter only has him saying one sentence. They won't make Elena join them for the search, but after they find some of those old audios of Robert, they'll sometimes play them back for little Elena

- Bobby put up the keep out sign (I credit this to a few other blogs for discussing this tho) because that's where he would cry sometimes. He actually used to be pretty close with Elena, but after he put up that sign and started distancing himself from them a bit so they wouldn't see the times he cracked, he got a little more short and jaded with her. It's that, plus just growing into a teenager and stuff. And I'm not saying that he and Elena have a bad relationship, but he's become more snappy and has more walls up than he used to

- Sometimes Elena feels bad because she doesn't always remember her dad's voice. She was pretty young when he died, so even though she recalls it a bit, and the recordings help, it's been a while since she's talked to him in person, so of course she doesn't quite remember what it's like to actually talk to Robert and she's forgotten some of his mannerisms. She likes to think she's all done (she marked the stages down in her grief journal after all) but grief isn't linear or all that rational, so it hits her hard sometimes

- I keep reading as an action close to my heart because that's a strong bond me and my mom shared. She would rec books to me, and we would joke and talk about them, or she would hint to some future event and then refuse to tell me until I caught up to that part. So Elena and Bobby do something similar in their grief. Elena has writing and words, because that's something Robert loved if I remember correctly (but if I’m not and that’s not canon, then I now declare it so) and Bobby has tennis. But besides tennis (I sent a couple anons to @freshlybakedfandoms about it but I'm not sure where she went) Bobby also was taught to play guitar by Robert (I liken it to Devi Vishwakumar and her harp) so when he misses his dad or is just sad, he'll take out his dad's old acoustic and strum

- (This next one is something I also think a lot about so this is pretty much 98% projection) Bobby thinks sometimes about the fact that he was never able to come out to his dad. He hadn't really started growing into that part of himself yet, and he never got to show it to his father. He wonders what he would have thought of him. Would he be angry? Would he dismiss him and say it was just a phase? Bobby didn't think so, but a little part of him insisted that you could never be too sure. After he comes out, Gabi and Cami assure him that Robert would've been so proud of him and would've loved him regardless (Since we know virtually nothing about him, I maintain that Robert was one of those dads who teases their kid relentlessly about their crushes and I think he would've done that with Bobby and eventually Elena)

- When Elena's quince rolls around (if she chooses to have one of course), Sam dances with her during the father-daughter dance. A part of her still hurts, still aches and wishes that Robert were dancing with her too; still knows on some fundamental level that he and Gabi had planned for this day, but he had simply never made it. But she's known Sam long enough that she feels comfortable here. Nobody can replace Robert, but Sam is her family, and it feels right like this.

- I might do some more research and deliberate, but for the moment I'm saying that Robert had cancer, I’m thinking along the lines of colon. My mom was terminal, but idk if I should make Robert terminal? Maybe towards the end. Or maybe he was diagnosed as incurable early on but Gabi kept it from the kids because, tbh, being told your parent is balancing on that kind of edge is traumatic for them. So anyways, I’m going on that assumption for this last point, and I’ll see if I can recover some of my old knowledge and talk about technical stuff later if anybody would like to hear it

- Elena and Bobby were both pretty young. Bobby understood about PET scans and tests somewhat, and knew generally what different answers from doctors meant. Elena mainly just understood what was happening by reading her parents' and brother's expressions when getting lab results in from the doctor. They both remember on some level what it was like when Gabi would leave the kids with Cami and take Robert out to the car (later she would have to help him) and they would all feel like they were holding their breath until they got back and confirmed that everything was ok (and later, the little shocks of fear when the answers were no longer as positive and there was more apprehension and risks. After all, cancer doesn’t deal in absolutes)

- Bobby can still remember Robert when he had to stop walking around a lot. He still remembers the phone call that Cami got from his mom, saying that something had gone wrong, and if this last treatment didn’t work, he wouldn’t have much time before he passed. Still remembers Cami rushing into a room when she got that call, and trying to hide what was happening until Gabi could get home and explain it; but Bobby was a sharp kid believe it or not. He heard about the treatment, heard Cami crying. He still had hope... but when Robert came home in a gurney, when he could barely stay awake sometimes, when his voice was quiet and his skin was a little jaundiced, Bobby felt incredibly empty. But Robert always had a smile for his wife and his beautiful kids, even if it was small and very tired, his eyes still crinkled the same. He always had a smile; right up until they had to say goodnight and get some sleep one night. And then... he passed.

- After he passed, the Cañero-Reeds needed help, and a lot of Gabi’s coworkers would bring food or materials if they were running low. Cami and Danielle would babysit and would distract the kids when Gabi needed a good cry.

- Like you’d imagine, and because of what is sort of implied in canon and in my own head, the kids dealt with it in different ways. Bobby put up that sign, and withdrew. He wasn’t awful, but his patience with certain people got a bit shorter and he was a bit quieter. And he was a really good helper when he had the energy and he cared deeply, but he would sometimes get physically and emotionally exhausted after helping Gabi/Elena/Cami/anybody else with something and would go into his room or mentally tap out to recharge. He took comfort in things that seemed natural and that he sometimes took for granted before, like video games and skateboarding (hehe bobby skateboards. Anybody second me on this?) and clothes etc... and other stuff. A lot of materialistic things or experiences that he would skip out on before. But they bring normalcy back to his life now so he loves them for that.

- Bobby doesn’t wanna think about big themes or anything anymore, which I can’t remember but I think it was Vi (freshlybakedfandoms, again, idk where she is and I hope she’s ok) who said he was a math and science person and I think that as much as that could transfer over to those subjects as well, it’s much harder to avoid existential and emotional themes in English and History class and Bobby doesn’t like it as much as Elena does for that reason. He had to live with the back and forth of his dad’s treatments and tests, so math and science is comforting because it’s more concrete (There could be a million arguments for why he would distrust math and science because of his dad’s passing though, I realize) Ultimately, though, it reminds him of Robert too much.

- On the other hand, after a period of shock and confusion, Elena threw herself into new things. First it was a grief journal, to make sure she was going through the motions. Then she read a lot, and when she felt too alone or like she wasn’t doing enough, like she was stagnant, she’d just find something to focus and persevere on again. That feels like her personality type to me; something is wrong so let’s fix it right away. But that could also transfer sort of negatively into “Something feels off or I’m very sad, let’s get this thing done and be productive so we can put off having to confront that but at least we get work out of it” but I could be entirely wrong (this is based off some of my family members and how they dealt with the loss.) And Elena throws herself into history and english because her dad loved it, and she wants to remember more of him. Because she believes words have power and history is a lesson and that’s incredibly interesting for her

[lovelyyy-luna]

✶march 13, 2021✶

It's alright, I'm right here

Why did you choose me? \ You know very well why Y/N

I can do it myself

I'm a monster \ no you're not

Please hold me

I'm begging you please don't lock yourself in your room

Give me one single fucking reason why I shouldn't leave

That wasn’t a question

Don't listen to them

Hear my heartbeat? Just focus on that

I don't care what they think, to me, you are perfect.

You don't have to be alone

This is illegal

Your tutor is pretty hot

Why have you been so secretive lately?

I think we should take a break

How come you're the only one that can see me?

I just wanted to hear your voice

I'm not helping you babysit

Did we sleep together?

If you don't do it I will?

You're scared? Really?

This place is abandoned, don't worry

This was a stupid idea

This is crazy..none of this is real

You need to believe me, please!

Close the door

It’s three in the morning

I should have told you a long time ago

Why are you helping me?

You're in love with her

We could get arrested to this

Love is overrated

Watch me

I've missed this

Was it all a lie?

This is all your fault

Are you happy now? Huh? Does this make you happy?

Maybe I'm meant to be alone

Did it ever occur to you that I'm hurting too?

You said that you'd always be there for me. What happened?

I'm sorry what are you saying? I keep getting lost in your eyes

If I ever see you anywhere near her, you'll have to deal with me

Is that a challenge

Get behind me now!

Here I have an extra weapon

You scared the shit out of me, I'm never letting you go

I am not jealous

I think I love you

Don't be silly I want to stay up with you

How about a kiss?

Dance with me!

We’d make a cute couple

Do you trust me?

if you don't want to talk about what happened, then say so. Don't just lie and say it's fine.

Stop staring at me

I said I don't know anything

You don’t think its a bit much

Call me one more time to see what happens

Put some clothes on for the love of god

Can you just give me a hug? Just once?

That was the last time. Im serious this time

It’s pitch black in here and I can see you're blushing

Am I supposed to be scared of you?

I want to take a shower so you should probably join me. It'll save water

You're just not the same anymore

It's midnight where the hell are you

What the hell if your problem

Why do you run away from all your problems?

You can't keep it all inside you know? Bottling it up won't do you any good

Hey I know you're hurting but you're not alone okay

I'm sorry I gave you the wrong impression

You can't just lose your temper like this every time you get a bit upset

Calm down you're scaring me

Don't look at me like that

Were you ever going to tell me?

Sorry doesn't fix everything

I loved you first

You broke my heart

I was alone

We have to stop

You left me

I can't do this anymore

Your hair is really soft after you wash it

Shh stop fussing I’m just braiding your hair

Would it be alright if I borrowed your sweater? It smells like you

If you steal the blankets I am going to put my cold feet on you

Here let’s share the blanket

You Are comfy

You are my new pillow

But I want to hear you sing

We can talk over dinner

Don't get up I’ll do it

Stargazing was a good idea

I'll be here to protect you

It’s okay I couldn't sleep anyway

I heard you talking in your sleep

Your bedhead is really cute

I love your hugs

You mess with them you mess with me

I don't want to sleep alone tonight

I love you, you know that right

I'm Coming to get you to stay there

Okay so don't freak out but I got flour everywhere

Woah I never knew you had a tattoo

Stop moving

Im worried about you

What happened to you

You can't stay in bed all days 

You're a terrible liar

Don't act so innocent

Do you believe in soulmates?

What if something happens to you

Are you sure about this

I gotta say I’m a little surprised

I'm not a child

You're screwed

You called me to remember

Do you need to go to the hospital?

Sleep is for the weak

I don't like the way they look at you

I don't want to be friends

Let's get out of here

Maybe you should sit down

You're burning up

I've got your back

Walk it off

I wish I could sleep

I'm going back to bed

Your heart is pounding

It's too early for this

Get on your knees

I thought you said you knew where you were going? Yeah I lied

Shit you're freezing let's get you warmed up alright

What happened to me

Im not letting you sleep on the floor get up here

Everything I’ve done for you’s the only thing in the world that matters to me

Feel like another round?

You were great last night

Wow you look even better in daylight

My clothes look better on you than they do on me

I had no idea you were into that stuff glad I found out

You should play with my hair more

I don't remember ever having this many hickeys but I don't mind

I don't know your name but you can share it with me so I know what to scream this time

The fun doesn't have to end

I think I can convince you to stay

Are you even listening to me?

Leave right now

What more do you want?

I hate you

Can you just shut the fuck up already

What the hell is wrong with you

I can't do this anymore

Oh my god I don't care

That hurt you son of a bitch

Pack your shit and go. Get the fuck out of my sight

I can break your nose if I wanted 

Meet me on the bridge in an hour

No one needs to know

No one will ever hurt you again

None of that matters now

Oh my god! You're in love with her/him/them!

Please don't cry

Please don't leave

Please listen to me

Please say something

Promise me you won't let anything happen to him/her/them

Promise me you'll stay

Shit are you bleeding

Shut up and kiss me

Somebodies in love

Sorry I thought I was alone

Stop0 talking about love for a minute and help me with this bullet wound

Tell me a secret

You said you'd always be there for me so how did this happen why weren't you there for me

Did it occur to you that you're hurting me toto

We can be friends instead

I tried to move on but nobody is you

Does it look like I moved on

I don't remember a fight or a reason so what happened why did we make up

Can I at least buy you coffee for old time’s sake?

I can’t take large loneliness anymore

What are you talking about your married

I feel like everyone forgot I exist

I gave you a chance and you used it to stab me in the back

I've been alone for so long

But you promised

I think you'll be happy to know I’m not wearing any underwear

I want you right here right now

Isn't this illegal probably

You're really drunk right now. I don't think you're gonna remember any of this. Non im not drunk at all you're just blurry

I have a feeling we should kiss. Is that a good feeling or a bad feeling

I love the way your hand fits in mine

You can call me whenever you want. Even if you don't have a reason to

I'm bad  at calling first so I always ending up hoping you will

Wait don't pull away not yet

You look really cute in that sweater

No like it just I can’t believe you’re  actually wearing my clothes

God you always make me blush so damn much

You've been trying to get ready for like an hour and a half because I know you're going to look so good and I need to try and match up

The first second I saw you I couldn't get over how beautiful you were

I wanted to say I love you for the first time without stuttering but that failed

Could you hold my hand?

You can't leave without letting me hug you first

I really love holding you darling

As you're blushing like a rose

Your lips are really warm

I can't get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name and now you're having breakfast with me in my seater

My friends get so annoyed by how much I talk about you sometimes

Wanna like I mean if you're not busy we should get lunch or even just coffee if you don't have a lot of time

Wow I didn't think you could make me smile this big

Quit smiling at me I can't stop messing up my sentences when you look at me like that

Your hair is so soft

It's too cold come back

No im not letting you go it's too early to get out of bed

Care you can sit in my lap until I’m done working

Shh you're safe I won't let you go

I think I’m in love with you and I’m terrified

I'm not going to leave you. You're never going to have to suffer by yourself again I promise

Look I know we don't know each other all that well but im still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone

If I could I would kiss away all your scars

I think I might be falling in love with you

Your lips are soft I could kiss them all-day

It's not bad to cry. In fact, I think it makes a stronger person

Mmm you're so warm

You're cute when your half asleep like this

Please talk to me about his

I would've had breakfast ready but you were sleeping on my arm and didn't want to wake you up

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[thegoodthebadandtheempty]

1. At first I didn't really wanna start it bc I thought it would be too gory. But thanks to Levi tok I gave it a go and have been obsessed ever since 😅

2. Well either nothing (lol grisha would've played us) or the origin of the titans.

3. 13

4. Some of my friends have been watching the show since season 3 and I remember them talking about the colossal and armoured revelation.

5. I got into the fandom pretty recently and the person who got me into the fandom is the one and only Levi Ackerman. But I have been unfaithful and my favourite characters now are Reiner and Hange.

6. Look from the start Eren and I just didn't click. But I can't say he's me least favourite character. In fact I don't think I have a least favourite character bc even the ones I hate they are so well written that I can't hate hate them. You know what I mean?

7. Hands down season 4 (especially part 1).

8. I think the episode where the female titan shit happen (don't remember number lol)

9. Nope.

10. Again nope.

11. MOTHER FUCKING JEAN (Reiner too but tbh I couldn't believe in my eyes when I first saw Jean).

12. No one.

13. If it were up to me everything would end with everyone being happy and running throw meadows.

14. I don't know if commentary is considered contribution 😂

15. If Armin Hange and Pieck sat down and talk things through before the whole Zeke/Eren plan, everything in s4 wouldn't have happened.

16. I would love to but I fear I'd be the first one eaten regardless of my position 🤣

17. The way Marco died. And the way Zeke and Eren both played each other lol

18. Season 2 and season 4 part 1

19. Season 4 part 2

20. The hardest death for me hasn't happened in the show yet lol

21. Depends on the day I arrive but I'd be an early goner for sure.

22. TIMESKIP🥵

23. I would love for it to be the scouts but I'm too much of a coward. So either MP or Garrison.

24. I feel like out of everyone Mikasa is the calmest sleeper and Hange the most chaotic.

25. Connie. At first I was like meh. But I've grown to love him.

26. Somehow I feel like Annie and I would click pretty well.

27. Zeke.

28. The war hammer is just 😙👌🏻. Sure.

29. Mikasa or Levi. Maybe even Hange.

30. The trio Sasha Jean Connie. Too much fooling around.

31. Hange Levi Erwin and Porco Reiner Pieck.

32. It's a Levi/OC story on wattpad called hiraeth by -akumah. Very very well written. Love the development between Levi and the OC.

33. For some reason I really love the Marley uniforms.

34. Okay so Mikasa, Annie, Erwin, Levi and Marco. Least probably Sasha or Connie bc even tho they have every good will to protect my drink they would either spill it or forget it somewhere 😂

35. I don't really see myself in anyone that much. There are definitely characteristics I share with many characters.

36. I've only seen a few pages of the manga but I would love to read it given the chance.

37. I think Jean Connie and Sasha would be really fun to have a beer with but bc I don't really drink they would get wasted and I'd have to babysit them. So I'm gonna go have some tea with Levi instead 😂.

38. For some weird reason I could see Jean as a kindergarten teacher or a babysitter 😂

39. Levi would be constantly up my ass for cleaning. It's never really clean for him!

40. I learned very quickly that we should not be making dreams with aot 😂😭

41. I think Mikasa and Reiner could be big romantic comedy fans.

42. Sasha/Historia -> Kpop, Jean would be into some Arctic Monkeys/The neighborhood kind of music and I can definitely see Eren liking rap music.

43. In my head Annie has a huge sweet tooth, it's also been referred on the show. I think Bertholdt would really like Thai food idk.

44. Okay so a legit Smash would be Reiner 🥵. And a pass probably Zeke (he hot and all but he annoys me too much).

45. OKAY OKAY HEAR ME OUT:

Fuck Levi/Annie

Marry Reiner/Pieck

Kill Floch/Yelena

Done!😁

9th Anniversary Ask Game

April 7th is the 9 year anniversary of the premier of Attack on Titan! In honor of this event, I’ve created a (not so little) ask game for the community! Since it’s officially the 7th in japan, I’m posting this now! Feel free to reblog and answer the questions yourself!

What was your first impression of the show?

What did you think was in the basement?

How old were you when Attack on Titan first came out?

What’s your first memory from the show?

Who was your favorite character originally? Did it change?

Who was your least favorite character initially? Did it change?

Favorite season?

Favorite episode?

Do you own any AOT Merch?

Any AOT tattoos?

In your opinion, who had the greatest glow up?

Worst glow up?

One thing you’d change about the story?

If you contribute to the fandom, what’s your proudest work?

Controversial opinion?

Would you go to the AOT world? What would your role be?

What twist genuinely surprised you?

Favorite op?

Favorite ed?

What was the hardest death for you?

You're transported into AOT, how long would you survive?

Original uniform or timeskip uniform?

What regiment would you join?

Any weird headcanons about the world / a character?

What character grew on you?

Who would be your best friend irl?

Who would you hate irl?

What’s your favorite of the 9 titans? Would you be willing to be a titan shifter?

You’re trapped on a deserted island, who would you be paired with ideally?

Who would be the worst person to be paired with on a group project?

Favorite trio?

Favorite AOT fanfic?

Favorite outfit for your favorite character?

You're at a bar, list five characters you’d trust to hold your drink. Who’d you trust the least?

Is there a character you really see yourself in? Why?

Did you read the manga? Do you have a favorite panel / scene?

Character(s) you’d love to share a beer or two with?

What job do you think [Character] would have in real life?

Who’d be the best roommate? The worst?

How did you originally think the show would end?

What kind of movies/tv shows do you think [Character] would enjoy?

What kind of music do you think [Character] would listen to?

What do you think [Character’s] favorite type of food would be?

Smash or Pass [Character] ?

FMK [3 Characters]