#i don’t ljike the last part but whatever i have to. expand on kiyuu.

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KIYUU: General Info Doc

A girl who wishes to return to the past for many reasons. She’s someone who wants to know all about the current world, but can’t abandon her unknown self and family for the same reason. She’s awkward in actions but straightforward enough to learn all that she wants to.

TRAITS: For this Specific Soul-Piece of Kitomi

She’s optimistic to the point of naivety at first, but she’s extremely clever, memorizing concepts in class and being able to correctly mimic actions with a couple of cautious tries (as long as it’s not cooking).

With a heavy desire to recall her past, all the motives for herself stem from the desire to go home. At first, it’s just because she doesn’t know anything, and going home is the easiest way to find out who she was, but she soon realizes that she’s started depending on the concept of ‘home’ for every single thing.

This soul-piece of Kitomi does not have any memories of her past, nor does she have any memories of her time as a ghost. This soul did not spend any time as a ghost and immediately possessed a body.

She is still cleithrophobic, an obsessive organizer, and is the worst at lying. However, she’s gotten a talent for twisting the truth and derailing people from her true thoughts because she’s realized she shouldn’t have her entire heart on her sleeve constantly.

Being put in constant danger helps her mature from her ignorant-hopeful persona.

Because she is constantly put in danger (or also like. Minor annoyances.) her learning style is almost completely efficient, learning the basics for everything and only delving deeper into it when she has the time to. She doesn’t actively practice self-defense, but she has learned to punch properly in case she gets in danger while others aren’t around. In the later books, she befriends Silver and learns basic sword-fighting from him (it was a rigorous two-day regime. Kiyuu nearly died (again), but she had fun because it was informational. She never really has any time to apply her knowledge though).

HOME: Her Anchor

Kiyuu’s anchor is home. Home is where her identity lies. Home is where the knowledge of her past lies. Home is the place where all her questions can be answered: Who is she? What was she like before she lost her memories? Is she still herself? Will she still be able to be herself if she finds out?

What was her family like? Did she have friends? Pets? What kind of basic knowledge has she forgotten? What happened to her to make her forget? Did the people she might have once loved forget her? Will the people who she loves now forget her?

And which is more important to her?

It’s not like this world is less important than her past. Even she knows that the experiences she’s gathered in this world are much more valuable, and it’s completely irrational to abandon this place for a past she doesn’t even know exists.

Nonetheless, she can’t let go of home. No matter if she’s been having dreams that her home might not be what she wanted. No matter how much her brain tries to convince her to stay in increasing frequency. She refuses to let go. She can’t let go.

She’s never been ambitious. Any and all goals she’s had is something she could give up on if she deemed it unachievable. The exception is her home. She’s gotten far too attached to it that she wouldn’t be able to let go even if she tried.

She wants to. She wants to let go. She wants to be ambitious. She wants to feel happiness and sadness the way others do. She wants to feel pain and she wants to feel love as much as possible. She wants to be able to miss something so badly that she might die. Maybe that’s why she wants to go home. Because if she goes home and becomes whole, she’ll grieve with all her heart. She’ll be able to remember her life when she was home and grieve that she left it, exactly as others do.

It’s not just that. It never was just one reason and it never will be. What matters is it’s her anchor. Home will always be what she’s searching for, no matter what it means to her.

RYOKO: Her Home

Ryoko is Kiyuu’s home, and she is partly aware of this, even since the beginning. Ryoko is the person she’ll depend on for anything. The person she’ll assist if needed. The person Kiyuu loves. As soon as they arrived in Ramshackle, in Kiyuu’s mind, they were already bonded. Ryoko was immediately labeled as her home, albeit a completely temporary one. More than a home, Ryoko was a shelter. A place of refuge before she’d continue on her journey towards her true home.

Ryoko was kind and knowledgeable. She didn’t mind Kiyuu’s desperation or excitement-fueled rants, nor did she ever chastise Kiyuu for her mistakes due to inexperience. She loved learning about this world, much more so because Ryoko supported her.

Even if her environment was dangerous or stressful, the little chats in between classes with Ryoko always brightened her day. And arriving at a Ramshackle which they had both cleaned up was always refreshing. Kiyuu depended on Ryoko, Grim, and the ghosts the most.

It’s not hard to accept that Ryoko is her home. That aspect of it was never hard to accept. The hardest part was that her definition of home had changed, and she always wanted to remain constant and predictable. She liked organization and memos and notes because she liked the familiarity. And more than that, she didn’t want to leave anything behind, ever.

Her past still matters. Maybe in the far future, it’ll still continue to matter. But what she wanted the most was a home, not her past. She wanted a place to belong, with her identity and acceptance. All the things she was never allowed to have before her death. She has it here. And she can find another goal anyway. Set her anchor down on something else. That’s what living means.

a/n: general stuff i wrote in a shared google doc w @kathxrat-01 but never posted here. bc. idk. i have this bad thing where my body refuses to share important information if it’s not in chronological order. but whatever i want ppl to know more abt kiyuu beyond what i show in art. which is mostly jackiyuu and has no relevance to her journey of self-discovery. yeah.

anyways. i’ll post a timeline later too. bc i did also create that.